i've had Ren's "it will be alright" vod on loop pretty much constantly when I'm not watching a stream, and I think this is the only thing still holding me together. Mad at wife... stop therapizing everyone's grief bitch. Let us be upset and hurting and angry and forlorn because you're leaving everything behind. Do you fucking truly comprehend how much of an impact you've had, after all this time? Do you? He keeps talking like this is a small thing to get over, like it will suck for a little while but then we'll move on- and Fulgur? As someone who's already buried my immediate family? Shut up. You were a fixture in the lives of literal thousands for actual years on a fully day-to-day basis. You ARE a pillar of the community. You literally inspire people to be better people, you gave creators a path to follow in building their communities, you just- I can't fucking overstate how much of an impact you had. You made an impact, and we all still feel the bruise, bitch. It's going to take me longer to recover from your loss than it took me to recover from having an organ removed, you asshole. I can't fault you for pursuing your own future goals, of course not. On some level, I'm happy for you that you are moving on to something more for yourself, that you feel confident enough that you can succeed... but that doesn't make this hurt any less. So say less, Fuuchan. Bow your head and listen to the people who have to say goodbye to you, because he gotta carry this weight.
Morning, anons. I'm... back at being angry, I guess. I'm still fucked up from the way Sonny said "I love you" last night. I know they'll still have each other despite all this, but stop saying they'll do great as a trio... if it was up to them, they'd be a quartet until the sun sets on the rainbow. At this point... god. I don't want it to be over, because then it's over. But I do want it to be over, because I'm tired of waking up every day somewhere on the grief spectrum, and at least when he finally finishes ripping out the beating heart of Nijisanji EN by closing that door on all he's built, I can learn to live in the aftermath.
I wish I could stop caring about vtubers. God, I wish I could stop caring about vtubers, man...