She sounded really kind and gentle, and really happy too.... Guess my biggest fear was seeing her fail.... Sad seeing her leave, but I'm happy she's going away with a smile. With confidence. With a goodbye. Some people will be mad at her, but I don't. She didn't stream due to poor mental health and stress and other personal reasons. I was so afraid her to just be gone one day without a word, or seeing her go crying and breaking down... Yes. I hoped for 3D. I hoped for more streams. I hoped for things to go back like they were back in 2022.... But gentle goodbye and seeing her happy is good enough. I no longer shaking to my bones, even though I'm still sad. Whenever she go, I hope she'll succeed, and I hope she'll be happy. I don't know if I'll meet her or not (and I don't even know if she'll stream in English or not), but even if not, just her being happy is enough. She made me smile a lot in the past. And she made me smile again today. Thank you. I'll miss this gyaru a lot.
And thank you anons for kind words and support in the past year. It wasn't a happy journey that I expected, but it ended on a happy note. I still have another oshi in Niji so I'll be here, although idk how much more I'll support the rest of Niji at this point. No bad blood and I'm not mad. If she feels like she's happy off, so be it. She made some happy memories here and I had a chance to meet her. That's enough. As long as she doesn't hate Niji, everything is ok in my book.