>>1149 Blog post: Please send prayers for my favourite Hololive member, Shirogane Noel. It's an open secret that she is also the streamer Canan8181. Unfortunately she also does ASMR masturbation streams (while wearing skimpy outfits) for money on her website. I'm also worried that she will further degrade herself and do full nudes, actual sex streams, prostitution, and even enter the Japanese Adult Video (JAV) industry, especially since she is apparently losing money from the porn restrictions imposed by payment processors like Visa and Mastercard. I'm honestly afraid that she is going to put herself in a position where she will get hurt and even hurt herself, especially if she feels pressured to make money, which will lead to her self destruction. I pray that she stops doing all pornographic activities, especially before she ends up getting hurt. I also pray for her mental health, since there is very strong evidence that she isn't doing porn content for just money. She said on her talking streams (as both Noel and Canan) that she had a very rough and traumatic upbringing growing up very poor, had a deadbeat father who was an alcoholic and abusive on top of his gambling addiction and infidelity, which lead to him abandoning her and the family. Became homeless at one point, had a deadly form of childhood asthma, and dealt with intense bullying growing up for being different (and having big breasts at a very young age), and apparently even was blackmailed at one point in high school (although she was safe, but the school wanted to share the blame even though she was blameless). All of this trauma growing up would lead to mental health problems like PTSD and I honestly believe she is doing this porn stuff, out of a desperate attempt to feel some sort of false love, affection and care. I pray that she gets help and realizes that what she's doing won't give her the love, affection, and care that she craves for and it will just make her mental health worse. This is why I pray for her and ask for others to send their prayers. I pray she gets the help she needs and finds happiness before she ends up destroying herself. I also pray that she accepts Jesus as her Lord and Saviour, because I know in my heart that when she truly accepts Jesus, she will stop making pornographic content.

I'm on a trip of a life time, yet nothing seems to be going right at the moment. The trip isn't going as planned. A lot of mistakes, and my health is acting up. This isn't how I envisioned my trip would be and it's causing a ton of stress mentally, spiritually, and physically. The trip itself is expensive too, so that just adds to the stress. Please pray that the trip gets much better. Thank you.