> Maccha > Rocks > Admin of XYZ online group as a brag in social conversations > "I am an IIT'ian" > Name dropping your collage more than once in a conversation There is also the Delhite londa/londi types, but I have not met thsoe in a long time now.

>>9746 >maccha It's just a southie word that is vaguely similar to "bhai" right?

>>9748 Yes. Indicator of annoying people. Same applies to over use of Bhai in north India

Inch barely have any posters and this is one of the most active board on 8ch

>>9786 So ?

Tell me your opinion on ISKCON yaro. Is it me or something feels off about them?

>>9788 Theologically, replace Jesus with Krishna, add some people love bullshit and remove the Abrahmist aspects from bible, you get ISCON. It is a weapon used to convert whites. normally ex druggies , people lost etc. I don't think it is bad for them. ISCON for all its faults is an improvement for these people https://youtu.be/GL9xqygw_Gk The temples are independent, each temple decides how it implements the teachings. Many temples get creative with the implementation. Drugs Sex Molesting people Typical stuff. Spirituality is a tricky thing when it confronts the demands and desires of the real world. Lot of fakes.

>>9798 Well it's either ISKCON or seeking professional metal therapy Was checking my symptoms and some how I have both autistic as well as ADHD symptoms. The worse part is both have conflicting symptoms. So if my autistic brain want to detailed work, my adhd won't let me work in detail. If I have to chose mental therapy, how to go that route. I don't think I can share this stuff openly with someone but sometimes it's just pathetic that I can't even do the simplest of tasks I suppose to do.

>>9801 I am on the autistic spectrum too. Not too deep to be dysfunctional. I also have ADHD. I had therapy as a kid, my teachers were dumbfounded that I could do well in subjects and then lose it suddenly. Top 1 year and then barely pass the next. Psychological therapy was absolute fail for me. This was also long long ago, maybe doctors are better now. Gabor Mattes books helped me a lot in understand what my ADHD. Regarding autism, 1. I learnt the limits of social interaction I can tolerate 2. I learnt to fake basic social competence. Say what people need to hear and shut up about the rest 3. Find outlets for my autistic urges 4. Cultivate hobbies and habits that help these conditions Moving away from parents was essential for me. My parents like many others do not allow me to live how I want, control on food control on social habits forced socialisation etc etc etc I cannot say if ISCON will help. Like I said, it depends on each temple. But even then, for internal stuff they won't. As for doctors, their incentive is money. So they are not aligned in letting you become functional. But you can only depend on yourself for your problems.

>>9459 I recently had an interview with a company to work on an AI related topic. The money was insane. As a tedpilled individual, I am always amazed that people think tech will solve their issues and unfuck their lives. The roots of these issues are usually human and tech has never worked at solving these (and never will). Even if I say yes, I have to prepare a lot for this role. With money idk what I will do. I have most of what I need and that money will probably fund relatives who leech off of me. More importantly, the company just generates AI bullshit that will tax your hardware more with no real benefits and contribute to making another generation of people brain dead.

>>9459 I cannot help but think how my antisocial tendencies are hurting my career/moneymaking prospects.

>>9803 >Even if I say yes, I have to prepare a lot for this role if you aren't looking to retire i would take the job if i were you. if not you, someone else will help them with building whatever horrific thing they're bulding to harm civilization. might as well make some money off the fall of civilization.

>>9824 There is a cost depending on your field. Either you are so good that your results speak for you Or You need basic competence. Brilliant people suck at interviews (and I suck at them too). I tend to avoid overtly social companies that need you to have Linkedin and attend meetings a lot. This is another reason that things have not worked for me with Indian companies.

>>9825 It is complicated. But I know what you mean, there is another job that I am competing with some really brilliant people for, but this one too I said yes for. If nothing else, I can poison pill projects, which is far more common that people realise.

News 1 in morning - Family dog dead. I didn't know this dog but my parents loved it and it protected them. Hit by speeding car and died within minutes. Suspicion that the car was after my dead. News 2 in Afternoon - Cousins kid hit by car after coming out of school gate. Head burst open. Dead on the spot. My family is cursed or we have a serious enemy right now.

>>9865 Cannot imagine the grief. I have decided to never have a pet dog again because of things like this. And the grief of a kid dying is just too much to put into words. Terrible day indeed.

>>9866 Weird, I replied to this but reply not posted. Bad situation with police, naturally someone working in the force was involved in nephews death. With the dog my parents did not even try, but I have never seen my parents so sad I have had lot of dogs. I used, to change cities a lot. Physical bullying was common when I was a child. My grandfather taught me to feed dogs, especially younger ones in any new place and they would protect me. This worked like a charm. But I also saw so many of them die. What pisses me off is the pointlessness of these deaths. Some idiot wants to speed, therefore an innocent should die. In both cases, the cars were in places they were not supposed to be or allowed. I was already on the way to India to help family out. Emotionally I cannot help them and my autist presence is not helpful either. But I can help with the admin and financial stuff. Still my cousin told me to not to come. Him and his wife want to handle this alone.

I woke up exhausted today with all the stuff that is going on in my life. I had this feeling that coming month will be much worst. Part of me wants to shift back to India to take care of parents. Though I have a shitty relationship with them. Wife won't be happy. She is used to german way of dressing , public display of affection when she feels like it etc. Looking for jobs, all the decent ones online don't display any salary. My friends tell me to open a Linkedin account. But Linkedin is fucking cancer. I might as well then start posting boomer memes on Facebook and kill all hopes and dreams.

indiachan.gay

>>9872 Move back when you're retired or kids are settled

>>9877 There is a purge of Indians coming to the west. Ango countries first. Has already begun. Germany will be later, luckily hate towards Islam is higher in Germany than hate towards Indians.

>teen angst in my 20s screw me

>>9881 It never stops. I am also moody these days. I wonder if its planetary

>>9886 >>9881 Probably my judgements compromised but I am feeling angry angsty since 2-3 days. Got rejected for a project. A babu said that my work is great but I am too sanghi type I feel really pissed off. Running into walls again and again. AI job I said no. It simply won't make money and seems very boring.

Strange, random musings of mine. It's been a while since I visited this forum. All the others have gone to shit. Lainchan and Petrarchan have been completely invaded by 4channers and Sharty members who spam "tranny" in every single post and constantly post ragebait. I don't even need to describe what 8kun is like right now. I've been more social in real life, in meatspace. I'm a zoomerfag so, my experience would be a lot different from yours since, from what I can tell, the userbase here seems to lean older. I've been talking more often to real people. And while I am an autist, I'm not exactly a hikikomori or a complete schizo. However, I find their replies strange and empty and I feel that my conversations and mind are empty, too. I don't know what they constantly talk about and why are they always giggling and smiling. It's something that I can't understand. Often, I feel that I have nothing to say. So, I keep to myself and withdraw into my inner fantasies. It's something my mom taught me, that people always don't really have anything to talk about, so it's best to keep one's mouth shut. <It's nothing to think about Anon you're just a fag. To answer your question, I once asked someone else as to what they talk about. They replied, "People always talk about others, and what they've gotten into. Occasionally, they'll ponder if the other person has a crush or if they have fucked and drunk shit. It's all gossip." And, I felt shocked. "How is it that people can always find so much to talk about others?" That's something I never understood. I never understood the constant pleasure trips they take, the same webseries they all watch, all the Instagram stuff they use, the IPL matches or memes they all go crazy about or, the regular trips to the movie theatre they seem to enjoy. I never did. My parents did not bring me up like them. Sometimes, I feel terribly guilty for even speaking. I feel like I should once again, withdraw completely from social lives and personae and just focus on my work again. My interests are different from theirs but, they aren't meaningful, nerdy or niche enough. Popular on the internet, but rarely heard of in real life. I feel guilty. Sometimes, people ask me, "What do you do fun?" Then, I'll respond back to them by saying "I read experimental stuff, I like math and studies and I listen to weird music." I feel that the stuff I mentioned about is lame and performative because, I don't read that often. I don't have a work or study ethic. I can't create or play music. I'm not good at coding and I have always failed at math. It also feels deeply unfulfilling because, a part of my mind just wishes that I was more involved in religion and that I should abandon nearly everything I like and to just, chant Japa and talk about God. It's a good, fulfilling and *acceptable* topic to talk about, right? I feel guilty about talking, since I'm neither good at the stuff that I claim to be interested in nor do I like the stuff others do. I don't talk about sacred and godly stuff because I'm so engrossed in wordly affairs and, I hate the sheer mundanity of normiedom. The world feels so absurd and everything feels awkward or unacceptable to talk about. I feel like the things I enjoy are, more of an image I curate for myself and are not genuine, even though I like them. I also get too obsessive about mundane stuff that isn't related to God and I feel ashamed of it. I don't know what good people talk about that is perfectly right and beneficial. Yet, I hate talking to regular people... I'm not sure what I feel. I don't know what I feel. By the way, I still browse Reddit a lot without an account like a Normie. But, that's because the wiki posts there tend to be decent and it's sort of the last places where you can still browse a forum-like experience. Especially since the Tech Bro holy grail, StackOverFlow's userbase is horrifyingly passsive-agressive and, the entire website is behind CloudFlare anyways so it's automatically a no-go from me. It's shit but still, considering the fact that Forums for the most part have been completely gutted out, I still use it. It's mostly for tech troubleshooting or following motorsport/piracy discussion since Dread has nothing beyond drugs and tech. The site's gone to shit but, Old Reddit is still usable without Javascript and doesn't give me captchas. Not to mention that there's nothing on 4chan that isn't on Danbooru or Reddit so, there's that. The site quality has completely gone to the dogs though. I wish I could quit browsing Reddit, but there seems to be no real alternative I can find for now, Anons. Please suggest me an alternative since I mostly use it for motorsports and tech, nothing else. It's the last thing that keeps me tethered into normie trends and stuff, so I want to completely sever that connection too. Feel free to call me a fag for still using it but I want nothing but to quit it, I'm just struggling to find any other space to lurk and observe and well, troubleshoot. Any tips for finally kicking the bucket? Feel free to insult me for my message's length and my bad writing style. I know I should write shorter stuff. I am after all, an effete and androgynous Europhile who is too scared to get out of his house or do anything besides trying to make his CV look good. My mom sometimes feels disappointed that I don't have masculine qualities. I don't feel very comfortable like that and I don't feel comfortable telling her. She'd think that I'm gay, even though I'm not. That's it, really.

>>9902 What album cover is this ? > Often, I feel that I have nothing to say. So, I keep to myself and withdraw into my inner fantasies. It's something my mom taught me, that people always don't really have anything to talk about, so it's best to keep one's mouth shut. Your mom taught you well. Simply means you are have grown beyond your social circle. < "People always talk about others, and what they've gotten into. Occasionally, they'll ponder if the other person has a crush or if they have fucked and drunk shit. It's all gossip." Dumb people talk people, smart people talk ideas. > That's something I never understood. I never understood the constant pleasure trips they take, the same webseries they all watch, all the Instagram stuff they use, the IPL matches or memes they all go crazy about or, the regular trips to the movie theatre they seem to enjoy. I never did. My parents did not bring me up like them. If your soul feels distressed, then you need not suffer through it. This is optional after all. In your workplace it might be different in the future. > "What do you do fun?" Then, I'll respond back to them by saying "I read experimental stuff, I like math and studies and I listen to weird music." They don't care about answer, they don't want to know you (most of them anyway). Keep a general meaningless normie answer. > I feel that the stuff I mentioned about is lame and performative because, I don't read that often. I don't have a work or study ethic. I can't create or play music. I'm not good at coding and I have always failed at math. Imposter syndrome is normal anon. All you can do is work towards it. Talk is cheap. Action is not. And action though requires more effort than talking, it feels more fulfilling too. < a part of my mind just wishes that I was more involved in religion You cannot force it. Simple as that. Visit temples. Read texts. Listen to satsangs. Find what makes sense to you and why. Then go deeper into that idea. Talking about religion and spirituality is hard. These things are tough to express without sounding like a druggie hippie. > I hate the sheer mundanity of normiedom. That is the pain of your soul, screaming for you to strive towards something better. > The world feels so absurd and everything feels awkward or unacceptable to talk about. I feel like the things I enjoy are, more of an image I curate for myself and are not genuine, even though I like them. I also get too obsessive about mundane stuff that isn't related to God and I feel ashamed of it. Why do you think about how the world will see you ? What is the reason ? > I don't know what good people talk about that is perfectly right and beneficial. Nothing. The only meaningful conversations are ones you have with yourself. < There is nothing outside of yourself that can ever enable you to get better, stronger, richer, quicker, or smarter. Everything is within. Everything exists. Seek nothing outside of yourself. > By the way, I still browse Reddit Hackernews is better. I have not used it in a while sadly. > I don't have masculine qualities. Picrel is Krishna. He is not jacked with 6 packs etc. Men of different kinds, each of them have their strengths and uses in the world. I suggest the "Krishna Gopeshvara" series. > hurr durr you guys booomers. Boomers vs Zoomers. Age doesn't matter outside of basic mental development and talking in meaningless terms that kids invent.

>>9902 Much of your worries look nothing out of the ordinary to someone who has a half working brain. I'd think the right way of going about things would be to consolidate ideas that you like and taking part in them, until you get good enough and grow confident. It might be out of touch with what others get up to but, who gives a shit? Ideally, you shouldn't.

>>9912 The moment people start to give a shit, its over for them. They may face defeat much later, but the fall starts right here. Being shameless or disconnected is necessary for achieving anything.

>>9908 >What album cover is this ? It's Gris' 'Il était une fôret'. Depressive Black Metal, quite theatrical. Not exactly a fan of metal in general, much less stuff with such harrowing and vulgar lyrical content but, I find that there's a strange and hopeless grandeur in this album. >Your mom taught you well. Simply means you are have grown beyond your social circle. Thanks Anon :) I always felt very self conscious of this trait of mine. My mom's a real fighter, came from a really fucked up household. She taught me a lot of good things. >Imposter syndrome is normal anon. All you can do is work towards it. Talk is cheap. Action is not. And action though requires more effort than talking, it feels more fulfilling too. My biggest flaw is procrastination, constant daydreaming and, my inability to stop overthinking. Not exactly unique but, it is crippling. Thinking of a better life, but feeling too scared to do so and you just daydream about it instead. It is something I have to fix, somehow. I will shut down the part that always overthinks and just, do shit. It's my only way out to the path I want to be on. >Nothing. The only meaningful conversations are ones you have with yourself. Really? I always felt overly conscious about it. I was always told by others that conversations with yourself, are a general way to developing full blown psychosis and schizophrenia. But, you said that true motivation comes from withing and never from outside. I guess that's another flaw of mine, I always keep my plans to myself and never speak them aloud, lest I get hurt or scolded. >Why do you think about how the world will see you ? What is the reason ? I'm not sure either Anon. Maybe it's because I feel like a hollow, sensualist and material shell rather than a being. I always want to not be a failure and I fear being hurt or brutally scolded or manhandled again. I did stupid shit when I was younger and I still have scars from it. >You cannot force it. Simple as that. Visit temples. Read texts. Listen to satsangs. Find what makes sense to you and why. Then go deeper into that idea. I see. My family is always into a strange idea of, taking stuff too literally, almost to a point of near ultra-orthodoxy. I mean sure, Muslims tend to be even more strict but I find that, I don't feel like my parents are too different from them either when it comes to beliefs. I was always told as to how the other Mathas are inferior to Advaita Vedanta. But I was never told about the constructed philosophical arguments that Adi Shankaracharya composed, to prove his points against the Buddhists and Jains, if that makes sense? Almost, too literal in their meaning, it feels Abrahamic in a weird way, even though they pride on themselves to not be like Christians, Jews, Muslims and so on. >These things are tough to express without sounding like a druggie hippie. The Grateful Dead isn't a bad band, at all. My biggest fear isn't to look like a painful, clueless hippie but rather, an annoying ISCKONite who genuinely believes that Vishnu is an avatar or Krishna, if that makes any sense. >Hackernews is better. I have not used it in a while sadly. I see. I don't use it though, given the fact that it is behind CloudFlare and, said service doesn't work on GNU IceCat. I also browse without Javascripat enabled so, there's that. I tend to use TOR for posting here though. I'm relatively interested in keeping my anonymity and privacy secure because I had been groomed online, by creepy women years ago and I practically doxxed myself by revealing my face, everything. I don't want to ever get manipulated like that again. I never make accounts for this reason. I fear that Linux Mint is also tracking me. I want to completely stop browsing all social media and, anything that uses something similar to CloudFlare and isolate myself, lest I ever be found again. Again, stylometry is a thing but, my aim isn't to find better social media or forums. My aim is to stop using anything that has trackers. I however, still fear that my writing style would be a massive giveaway. >Picrel is Krishna. He is not jacked with 6 packs etc. Men of different kinds, each of them have their strengths and uses in the world. I'm aware that men of different kinds have their own uses in the world. Men have a little bit of the feminine in them and, women have a bit of the masculine in them too. I just happen to have much more femininity inside of me than on average, and I'm trying to accept that. However, I feel like I've internalized certain expectations. I want to be more, pretty and have longer hair, soft skin and more, flamboyant expression or hell, even fucking dress up in girly clothing for all I know of. However, I'm not allowed to do so due to religious expectations and the desire of a certain 'masculine respectability'. I can't grow my hair, shave, get dolled up or do other stuff like that since I live with my parents, because I work a poorly-paying job. I don't have much autonomy but hey, at least I'm not a neckbeard or some whacko fetishist. But, my idealized self was never some macho armyman who happened to be jacked, malkhamb enjoyer at all. But rather, an educated, academic aesthete. But again, my family and relatives say for the protection of masculinity in Hindu Dharma, it is important that I be very masculine to preserve traditional values.... I don't know how to feel about this. I feel emasculated since people online always talk about long stories of how strong, Muslim men are abducting Hindu girls and, I feel ashamed in my lack of physicality, my frail physique, my interest in western stuff and my latent sensual tendency. I feel castrated. Like, I'm less of a man by doing so. My biggest insecurity though, is the fact that I fear that I will end up marrying a woman who will laugh at me, call me a fag and, treat me as lesser or, be thoroughly disgusted by my sensual, effeminate self. My mother's insistance on early marriage isn't helping me to alleviate my fears of inadequacy and degeneracy. I do love Krishna though, he's both wise yet playful, and has a graceful quality to him. I've always been a Krishna bhakt. >Age doesn't matter outside of basic mental development and talking in meaningless terms that kids invent.

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I see. I just felt that by being a younger person here, working a shitty dead-end job. I felt that my sheer presence here would disgust you people here. I felt, ashamed of posting my feelings here, especially since I always feel tracked and watched by the internet and computers. >>9912 >I'd think the right way of going about things would be to consolidate ideas that you like and taking part in them, until you get good enough and grow confident. It might be out of touch with what others get up to but, who gives a shit? Ideally, you shouldn't. You're saying, that I'm free to do whatever I want in life? That, I don't have to be embarassed about my interests and, try to consolidate ideals and stuff I like? I mean when I was a kid, I always feared studying or even affection. I feared that if I got praise at first, it would turn to scoldings and beatings later on, since I was constantly bullied hy others. I guess, that's why I always retreat and hide my ideas, because I feel that my very existence is going to inconvenience others. >>9913 >Being shameless or disconnected is necessary for achieving anything. So, don't think of what others are doing or thinking.... Just, do it? Is that my biggest problem? Is that it?

>>9918 > Gris' 'Il était une fôret' I love me some good DSBM. So far this album is fun. > constant daydreaming and, my inability to stop overthinking. Not exactly unique but, it is crippling. Always be doing. Karma'ing. Thought -> Action -> Feedback from action Rinse and repeat. Don't worry about the end goal. < Conversations with self Work will take care of this. External world noise and responsibilities will silence your inner voice. Still take 20 mins or so daily to sit with yourself. > Always want to not be a failure What you did when young doesn't matter. Kids experiment and do stupid shit. As an adult, your outcomes and the fate is not in your control. So just let go. Since you express interest in religion, read some texts. Your doubts are very basic and answered already. The books are cheap too or even free.

>>9918 > My family is always into a strange idea of, taking stuff too literally, almost to a point of near ultra-orthodoxy. Classical Hinduism needs updating, smritis for the current post Industrial age we are in now. Generally, Gurus are supposed to do this. I don't like the Sadhguru type faggots at all. > an annoying ISCKONite KEK. It is a step conversion for lost druggies and stupid people. > GNU IceCat Try Librewolf, it balances security and practicality better. Icecat will make your IP standout and glow in dragnet databases. > I want to be more, pretty and have longer hair, soft skin and more, flamboyant expression or hell, even fucking dress up in girly clothing for all I know of. However, I'm not allowed to do so due to religious expectations and the desire of a certain 'masculine respectability'. Way more common than people think. A gay friend made me aware of it. Moving out and away from family will help you. > say for the protection of masculinity in Hindu Dharma, it is important that I be very masculine to preserve traditional values Dharma is to be practiced, your dharma is based on your traits. Not everyone needs to be a physical kshatriya. Modern warfare is as much memeatic and psychological as anything else. More importantly, it may or may not be your dharma. > I feel emasculated since people online always talk about long stories of how strong, Muslim men are abducting Hindu girls It is all a psy op. Not to mention, people who do stupid things, win stupid prizes. > marrying Whom you marry and where you live, are the 2 most important decisions in your life. It is important to learn to judge a potential partner so as to not fuck that decision up. I cannot stress this enough. We don't discuss dating as a strategic game enough on this website. > by being a younger person here, working a shitty dead-end job WE were all that at some point and some still are. No harm in it. It is a phase we go through. > So, don't think of what others are doing or thinking.... Just, do it? Literally Yes.

>>9459 Called home. Parents pissed at my joblesness. I said I want to come home. They don't want me home. They want me to keep working and keep sending money home. Pretty disgusted right now.

Weird.dream. Was.typing to you guys and wife. As war was going on between India and US and then China and India dropped nukes on each other. In was outside Bombay and saw the planes. Ran inside though I wanted to see the cloud. Laptopnand phone are.emp safe. Had water saved and some food.. Heard the first shockwave outside and though in was safe, electricity gone. I was going to be bored AF.

Strange subreddit I found. https://old.reddit.com/r/GoodGirlsCommunity/top/?sort=top&t=all I can't tell if they're being serious, or of it's a fetish sub for women, or if it's a fetish sub for men LARPing as women. They capitalize their husband's pronouns ("I love Him so much and He is my entire world") which i found to be strange. >>9949 Kek at pic #2. In pic#1 maybe the training dataset should have been something other than posts by chuds.

https://chillphysicsenjoyer.substack.com/p/youre-a-slow-thinker-now-what >>9969 > Subreddit Maybe it is performative or maybe these women just need some comfy posting. Women are not like men when it comes to comfy stuff or lack of it. Modernity is worst for women than it is for men (the irony that feminists brought us to this point). > Pic 2 I feel like Pic 2 in social situations. I wish I had a grenade.