>>10051 You consume too much brainrot man all these internet philosophers who cannot even manange to live a healthy life

>>10051 Stop consuming braindead internet troons. Take the dharma pill.

>>10064 Fuck the dharma pill. It has given me nothing but shit. Imagine spending 5 years of your life in phD, sleepless nights, tight deadlines, hopelessness just to earn respect in society of being a scholar. Guess what? If you are a Dharmic IskCON faggot, the director of top IIT's just suck your dick and give you a smooth phD in 2-3 years in some random ass shit + AI/ML written with it. Not only that, unlike a phD scholar who struggles with life after degree cuz his supervisor doesn't give a fuck, those faggots gets free tie up and gazillion dollar pay from one of many IskCON international suckers who have full control over education institute. All my life I just want to get away from these people, let them do their thing, but they really like to steal from poor and siphon it back to their masters. I'm not a phD but I've been with a lot of iskCON "scholars"

>>10065 Sorry for overreacting. Dharma pill is great if you follow local culture and traditions. BUT FUCK ISKCON

>>10051 It is what it is anon

>>10051 Did you discovermy identity?

>>10066 Fuck ISCON.

I've been busy with work for these days, so my responses aren't as quick as I wish them to be. My apologies. >>10053 >Your unhinged rants are very dense. Takes a while to read and reply. Ah, my apologies. It tends to be a strange mix of desperation and anger that fuels them, maybe because I feel pathetic for having such worries that I put down as my rants. But it is also partially because I tend to read and write a lot of denser authors... Maybe it reflects in my thought processes too? >Depends how low you want to go. >Assembly, FORTRAN, C or COBOL ? AMD64 Assembly and OpenGL/Vulkan. While I do know that x86 and AMD64 are reputed as particularly ugly architectures to code for, they are also easy to fins since most PCs are of either two of these architectures. I have heard good things about RISC-V and you did recommend getting a RISC-V based SBC but I am afriad I cannot acquire one right now, not to mention that I want to learn Assembly for a commonly used platform first. It's probably impractical but I don't really care since I only want to learn it for personal satisfaction, I am not learning it to build a resume or 'UpSkIlLiNG'. >I am disgusted with modern web and python programming too. It is written by and for blue collar wagies, who copy pasta chunks of code and inter connect them, often with little or not understanding. Finally, a relatable sentiment. It's kind of a shame that even C is considered complex. While I never really coded much in C, it is however a very clean interface to learn basic loops and concepts. In my opinion, a newbie should simply not touch OOP. But again, I'm not exactly a programmer by trade and while I do know some Java and some very basic C, my memory is shaky; especially since I do not work in a computer-adjacent field. >IT has all moved to USENET now with a strong community Ah! I see now. I currently am a bit too busy to afford one, I did use USENET a long time ago, admittedly not for Warez; since my provider at that time was Eternal-September.org and they have a strict no-warez policy. I should see to get a provider in the future...I wonder what newsgroups are they the most active on? >AI is also a reddit tier mid wit with way more compute and recursions, so in a way, imagine reddit tier mid wit, having his reddit intellect grow thousand lifetimes. SO it is an alien life form. But the alien is retarded. KEK. >Bill gates's gradfather was a bigdeal in the Rand corporation. So was Bezos's. >All current German politicians are kids or grandkids of senior Nazi party members. As are many American and current RAND corporation members. I am aware of them both. However, I am very interested to know the shadowy details and intrigue... Because I also happen to write stories as an hobby and also because I simply want to learn more about the world around me. I mean, feel free to call me a faggot for this but, I am trying to write a horror-noir story with a lot of political intrigue so it might be useful for me to know about these stuff for the storyline's sake and, for my own mind. >Israel and CIA fund themselves via the drug trade. Since the drug production took a hit in Afghanistan, it was shifted to Myanmar and NE. Since Myanmari's showed resistance, USA wants to create a small "Christian" state here to produce drugs that are sold and the profits fund CIA. Now this is, golden. I really want to learn more more about these kinds of deals, especially since the online 'Dharmic', 'nationalist' and 'hindu' spaces are completely retarded and they provide free cunnilingus to Israel. Or should I say... more licking the boots and licking their arses? Besides, Jews and Muslims are just as much of Mlecchas to us as are Europeans. I don't see any benefit by taking Israel's side. I'd love to read more about these kinds of stuff. >You cannot. They are allowed to selectively leak somethings and other they are not. Any popular journo who hits these truths will be hitby government or paid to stfu. That is why Padukone gets govt contracts. Funnily enough, I've noticed that with these channels... They co-opt even seemingly radical ideas and twist them into pure, blindly nationalist narratives. Sanjay Dixit I've noticed, loves talking about the 'deep state' and Dharmic supremacy and the Muslim stuff. But, he also blindly sucks off Israel in the Israel-Palestine shit. QAnon is absolutely batshit insane but yet most QTards will suck off a literal Billionaire (Trump). Talk about Cultural resistance co-optation. >Offended. Gibson informed my childhood a lot My apologies. I did not mean to say that Cyberpunk as a genre is inherently bad. Classics are all nice. Deus Ex and MGS2 are still the greats. What I meant to say that Cyberpunk as an aesthetic and genre has become part of the very mainstream culture it once meant to oppose. Reddit threads about Cyberpunk 2077, countless sci-fi shows about quirky hackers defeating corrupt government officials. It has in part, largely co-opted and become a mere escape fantasy. Reminds me of how literal Nazi Germany used to have state-approved comedies about corrupt officials and businessmen. >Your best bet is to decide on small achievable projects and dedicate 30 mins daily to each. Do no more than 2 at a time and keep a tracker to track all of it. Or use a 2nd brain notebook/software. Will do :) >>10062 >>10063

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>>10064 I am not a Nick Land fan. I too want to start with our old Dharmic stuff and learn how it really is without all those Aunty-isms, weird Sad guru worship (involves IIT ISKCON 'brahmacharis', performative people on Twatter, Krishna fangirls, Kulcha warriors, and Tharki uncles who will repost and thirst after even the most medicre white women if they happen to perform Hinduism; double bonus if said women are Easter European and her husband is Indian.) >>10065 >Guess what? If you are a Dharmic IskCON faggot, the director of top IIT's just suck your dick and give you a smooth phD in 2-3 years in some random ass shit + AI/ML written with it. ISKCON used to do a lot of high profile drug trade in the 80's. They also rake in money from retarded Metro city people. The average temple is basically Hindu-themed Disneyland, which I guess attracts a lot of people looking for something 'cool' or 'unique'. ISKCON also markets themselves very well. They haven't been relevant in the west since a very long time, but they still lie that westerners follow them; which feeds into our inferiority complex since we have been invaded countless times... "Maybe they might be our colonial arm in the West, East, South, and North?" is probably the mindset in play here. Which explains why IIT directors probably love them. IITfaggots are nothing but the most normie, MARVELbrained techies in general. I have heard that IIScs and ISRO tend to be better in this regard? Not sure though. ISKCON attracts a lot of MARVEL-brained people, and IITs provide that in spades. >>10056 >I want to learn this stuff too but there is no point reiterating my miserable lack of time. I am glad someone has similar interests out there too :) I've seen hobbyist 'coder' and they don't seem to care about the fundamentals and nitty-gritty stuff. They all want to make another new fancy webpage or video game or do 'malware reverse engineering and ethical hacking' and they don't ever even seem interested in how does a computer truly process. They just want to make something or do something, they do not want to understand why it does it. Especially since most Assembly tutorial are aimed at malware analysis and not even plain regular programming. >>10070 Heh. I feel relieved that I am not the only one who feels this way. >>10069 Good meme. >>10066 >>10071 Fuck ISKCON indeed. >>10052 I don't get what you meant by this sentence. Either ways, I am glad that my unhinged rant helped to start back this thread and general up :) This board is one of the comfiest places online I've ever been to. I wish you all a lovely day ahead :)

>RAND corporation https://archive.globalpolicy.org/empire/intervention/2008/0430rand.htm Interesting article by Chalmers Johnson. I have no idea if he's again some FBI/CIA glowie and he is not to be trusted so, I am sure someone who isn't as retarded as me might be able to pitch in. This article is however about neo-colonialism through RAND corporation and he seems to point out that it started out as a branch of the US Air Force and McConell-Douglas? Very Interesting.

आज दम आलू बनाऊँगा >>10072 I wrote this because i met a member of Razor1911 today. The discussion went similar to this post and we discussed Windows 3.1 for whatever reason. I feel good since the meeting. I actually thought I have been doxxed. I am totally rekt though. 3 nights of no sleep and non stop travel and meetings. Met many amazing people but also a post op tranny who smelt like piss, puss and shit.

>>10075 Damn, man. You met one of the very few people that I sort of consider a 'hero' and have been my primary inspiration for taking up computers as both a hobby and a career. Saying that I am jealous is an understatement. Computer science has been reduced to "that degree which makes money besides MBA". I really wish this whole craze about data science didn't exist, and heavy tinkering with operating systems and low level stuff was still cool and not turned into yet another means of nursing an LLM and Maximizing Shareholder Value™. Professional life, even in a field that I supposedly like, has been underwhelming to say the least, and now I increasingly find less and less time for what I actually like doing. I really, really wish I had pursued these instead of flunking JEE. I would have made better use of my time and ended up in the same place. I dread of being guilt-tripped into a marriage now. If you don't mind me asking, how did you end up in Germany (or wherever else)? A PhD? >>10051 You are 80% me. Holy shit.

To add to that, I'm slowly working towards a few projects that will let me die without regrets. I do not want this stuff to go to waste. Life seems to be hitting me with one thing or the other, making me drop everything to deal with it, and then having to context-switch back to my work, which I'm already poor at doing. Being tired and exhausted doesn't help either. At least I can find comfort in the needle moving forward, however little it may be. Got a bit sentimental. Sorry.

*by "work" I meant the project stuff. Resetting my mind to get back to it is the hard part.

>>10077 Relatable. Same for me. Last few weeks have been non stop pain and mishaps

I am the kind of tired where i feel nothing. Puked acid. Still busy times ahead. Slept 10 hours straight then working again.

>>10077 Same. Situation. Utterly spent. Using paper to manage context switching as i always do. My ram is low, so i use paper to store context and details. There was a fire near my flat. My stuffs fine but the smoke did enter and the air filters and heaters are fucked. So yet another night in a hotel.

>>10072 What is the painting ? > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktZy3h_Pq5E&list=RDktZy3h_Pq5E&start_radio=1 Nice album, ASMR feels > Maybe it reflects in my thought processes too? I like it. Rare to see original style of writing. And it is more entertaining than just dry writing as is mine. > I am not learning it to build a resume or 'UpSkIlLiNG'. Yeah if you were then GPU's would have been the natural choices. Those jobs pay insanely well, making senior researchers look like beggars in comparison. > my memory is shaky I struggle with deciding on how much to remember of what I have learnt. For example, I have forgotten many basic mathematics processes and theorams. If you asked me to do a square root on paper, it would be tough for me. My mentor used to say that I should only learn as needed and make good notes when I do. My math and physics revision is still pending. AS for hobby coding, I would stick to a high level modern language, just to interpret my ideas into a proper project. I do still most of my work in command line though, so BASH is still very much used. > I should see to get a provider in the future...I wonder what newsgroups are they the most active on? I wouldn't know. But I do know the old warez people are still there. > I don't see any benefit by taking Israel's side They do give us tech that we used against Pakistan. At the same time, they are now funding problems in Sri Lanka. The Yahooodi homeland state is different from the अमरीकी यहूद , one hates us, the other see's us as a necessary ally to establish new trading routes (IMEC). One Rand I already shared one book , I can recommend this "The Bomb, The Bank, The Mullah and The Poppies" By Iqbal Chand Malhotra. > more licking the boots and licking their arses? Yeah there is no point to it. BJP cannot save its cadre, let alone let people benefit from them. Ambani's are pissed off with BJP due to this. But BJP put them back in line. > Sanjay Dixit I've noticed Very smart man IRL. I wish I had his Sanskrit knowledge. He is right on many things too. But the problem with source based KNOWERS is, their knowledge is as good as the source itself. In many cases, the source itself is wrong, biased or compromised. And Sanjay ji's sources are other babu's. > has become part of the very mainstream culture it once meant to oppose My tip is, never take the mainstream seriously. Did we discuss barbell theory on another instance of InCh ? > Picrel So a meme version revision of barbell theory, you are better off taking extremist stands than being a midwit, who does not get full rewards of being right and neither the lessons of fully being wrong. > I am not a Nick Land fan. I too want to start with our old Dharmic stuff and learn how it really is without all those Aunty-isms, weird Sad guru worship (involves IIT ISKCON 'brahmacharis', performative people on Twatter, Krishna fangirls, Kulcha warriors, and Tharki uncles who will repost and thirst after even the most medicre white women if they happen to perform Hinduism; double bonus if said women are Easter European and her husband is Indian.) Such people are noise. Filter them. Ignore them. Remove them from your vision and attention. Normiedom is cancer of the soul. But it also a good mask to hide.

>>9459 >>10072 > ISKCON also markets themselves very well. They haven't been relevant in the west since a very long time, but they still lie that westerners follow them; which feeds into our inferiority complex since we have been invaded countless times... "Maybe they might be our colonial arm in the West, East, South, and North?" is probably the mindset in play here. Which explains why IIT directors probably love them. IITfaggots are nothing but the most normie, MARVELbrained techies in general. You nailed IIT'ians. They haven't been good in a very long while. Now a Manipal/BITS grad earns equivalent of IIT'ian. I can say a lot on this, but it is pointless. >>10076 https://demozoo.org/music/370939/ The meeting was very random. We hang in similar circles and I have made some contributions to FOSS. So common friend introduced us and we had a lot in common. Insanely good time discussing old malware. > I really wish this whole craze about data science didn't exist I get it. Though I would think AI would replace most excel cunts pretending to be scientists. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ALPOwJlOj1k > Professional life, even in a field that I supposedly like, has been underwhelming to say the least, and now I increasingly find less and less time for what I actually like doing. This happened to me during the end of my PhD. And I sort of withdrew from the rat race. Reduced my expenses and decided to pursue things I enjoy. Results have been mixed, but that is another topic. > Marriage Take control of whom you marry. And do marry. it is good if you find the right grill. > If you don't mind me asking, how did you end up in Germany (or wherever else)? A PhD? < Btech (India) - > Stressful but core industry job - Met German consultant - Recommended to a job in Germany - Quit job for Mtech (in Germany) - Mtech turned into PhD - Finished publications but did not give final defence. Withdrew from PhD - Took up meme job to spend time on doing things I like - Fix health etc.

>>10095 Are you married? What's it like?

>>10096 It is good and strange. I do well alone, so companionship is comforting and confusing. My wife is like me. Hates modernity, into redpilled stuff etc. She is also into Hinduism, despite not being Indian. We did dhanteras together. But being with her I had to change my manly habits, be more clean and adopt my habits to hers. She also adopted to many of mine, food included. We still disagree on few things. She is a night person, I am a morning person. My parents are the kinds of boomers you guys complaint about. Needless to say they are not happy about our "love marriage". My wife is not rude to them. But she does not get the Indian culture of "respecting elders means agree with whatever bullshit they say". So though there are no over clashes, there are disagreements. They tell my wife they are open minded and modern. But in the next sentence, tell her not to wear shorts in July heat. Now we are considering shifting to India or elsewhere. Parents make that discussion sour, since then they cannot flex on others with the NRI bs. In comparison her parents have been very nice and kind to me.

Happy Dipawali to all of you. Burst crackers and enjoy yourselves. Have a prosperous year ahead.

>>10097 Sounds like you lucked out anon. Can't really fathom finding a wife like that within Indian ethnicities. I have multiple personal experiences with how bad marriages can get so the whole thing leaves a very sour taste in my mouth. Combine that with my general tendency of being annoyed by the company of others and being the happiest when keeping to myself, it seems like a very uphill battle. I know being alone is not sustainable, but some of the happiest moments in my life have been when I was soliatarily working away on something or just went out visiting places on a whim and occassionally talking to strangers. I suppose I'll try giving it a shot, but I don't have high hopes for it.

>>10099 I used to be you anon. I was smart and fit enough to pull it too. Used to fight back bullies physically, used to do well in exams etc. As I got older, I saw a good team of less than average people do well. Teamwork when well done is excellent. But it is not easy to find. Indians have the crab eats crab mentality. I used to see grills in my class as competition and they say me as competition. There was no attraction. I used to be so dumb The basic human purpose is a good goal. If you will not pursue that, then use the Brahmacharya to do something no one can. Ultimately, no answer is correct. A single fag with purpose is better than a marriage for show. A good marriage is better than a meme meaningless career etc. Sharing cringe to make the point https://youtu.be/gJZyZBv00ig

>>9459 There are people born with good innate skills and they will succeed no matter what. But beyond that, training is what makes a difference. I have put fucking idiots (but they had good intentions and hard working) through good training in my field and they are now doing well. My mentor did the same for me. I was well below his level (his level was very high, now he works alone) and he taught me a lot. Changed me entirely as a person. A lot of you guys are smart, but in situations that do not really benefit you. Try to find people to work under who can actually help you grow.

>>10104 I guess what I am trying to say is, with correct facilities and training, Indians will be world class in research and technology.

>>10104 Trying to find a mentor for all my life. For some reason people tend get their work done, and leave. Any question meets with "find it yourself", which is nice but your existence is meaningless to me other than I have to keep a mandatory supervisor above my head.

My dad asking me to join any "religious community" like RSS, iskcon et. al. According to him, it is becoming difficult to survive in India without being part of one the hive minds. I can't, their ideology, their act of breaking rules to get their stuff done, bribery, corruption is everything I don't stand for. But on the other hand he's right. I've seen people connected to these groups getting basically raised privileges. I just don't know if I can live being like that. They go against everything good my religion has taught me.

>>10105 We need to clean the corruption. Finding never reaches the scholar that needs it. In my uni, humanity gets more funding than experimental physicists all because humanity research is focused on agenda the top dogs wanna push.

>>10118 This happens everywhere. Science and Engineers work. Humanities people lead. Maybe AI will change that. >>10117 RSS is good for discipline. Waking up early, learning to use lathi etc. Benefits idk, but they have a good network. > ISCON Shortcut to get molested/raped in the arse. Networking to achieve common goal is nice.

>>10118 Story of my life. My project got shutdown so some faggot bitch cunt whore could write about social effects of climate change on opga booga tribe

Had 4 old laptops. Two i got for free. Both work. The old hp's 1 is from 2007. Heavy and noisy but good machine. Hdd is too old and motherboard almost dead. Feels sad to let it go. Other one has a good ssd. But else the machine is slow. Feels sad. Selling all 4 tomorrow.

People should leave this kid alone. He got cocky after getting to the chair. Of course he will be an internet outrage meme for another week or so until everyone moves on but even that is being too harsh on the kid, He is 10. people act as though they as individuals were the epitome of maturity at 10 years old. I hate how every little insignificant thing becomes a huge sensation these days. It was still tolerable when randos kept spewing stupid comments about him with incorrect grammar, but then that idiot Dhruv Rathee had to make a sensationalist video about him with his face in the thumbnail and millions of views. Let him live it down. He will probably have people recognizing him, his schoolmates giving him shit. I hate internet now. I liked internet when there were fewer normals here, i browsed the 'net to get away from them. See, it was him today, it could be me or you tomorrow, being famous for no reason. maybe you had a small scuffle on the street and someone decided to record it, and suddenly the clip of the moment that you were at your worst is now a sensation. >>10131 Emotional attachment is hard to let go, but trust me it is better to let go. It is not likely that you will miss it. Although I agree there is a charm in old laptops. Business laptops from around 2010 had so many ports it's easy to lose count. For things that I don't even know existed.

>>10136 > Cocky kid He is a kid. Kids are not emotionally developed. So he did nothing wrong. Also fuck Amitabh. He and any other actors, are dancing monkeys for our entertainment. They don't deserve respect. https://www.youtube.com/shorts/B-Ze4WbJBv0 > Emotional attachment Yeah. The laptops and few other things. Had good times with these machines. Now time to let go. I will miss my bicycle the most.

Had insane few weeks. Somethings that I will only be able to talk about later. Drank a fuck ton of rum last night. Very tumultuous time in my life. Coming to India feels like career suicide right now. I am families cash cow. So cash stopping is annoying for them. Sending a fair bit of my hardware and books home. Too many confused thoughts now.

>>10136 Sanity is in ignoring mainstream pipeline of shit