>>17868
That's okay, this will be my last post as I started this thinking we could maybe get somewhere, but we are too far apart in, well, everything, except what we get off to, and even you might have a slightly weirder sexuality than mine, though I haven't even touched upon my other fetishes, so we might be about as weird as each other.
>>17868
>I'm not trying to convince you I'm the Messiah. I don't care anymore. You're all on your own.
I would assume you were, but I guess you are also just venting here your guilt, defeat and how lost you feel, I'm more interested in you finding out if you are or not the Messiah by talking to a psychologist, you are not convincing anyone, and I think you know that, you understand how delusional this is but you also can't really let go of it, that's what causing you so much turmoil in addition to your fear of sinning.
I don't understand the significance of the number 1260, and was his visit also the day he declared Jesuralem the capital of Israel or was he just visiting? this seems pretty far fetched either way, I also don't understand the glasses.
>But one day what if you find out for sure it's me?
This "all or nothing" type of mentality is very common in people with delusional thoughts, you can't just admit that there's a huge chance that you might be wasting your life and giving yourself massive amounts of stress for nothing, for something that's much more likely to not be real.
Though I'm talking to someone who might be genuinely detached from reality, or just a troll either with the intention to just bother or engaging in some mental exercises/writing prompts while bothering at the same time, or maybe you are just getting off to all of this. I don't know, I'm not really willing to think and list all of the possible motives behind your posts, you intrigued me, I got to know a bit more about you (only a little bit, you could have gone a bit deeper into how you feel about Judaism, Jewish women, Christianity, your Messiah complex, sex, interracial, nigger cocks, etc.), you responded negatively and ignoring most of my points, posts which took me a bit of mental effort to write, so now I don't feel like responding anymore, though that's also just an excuse since I don't like talking to extremely religious people too much, being completely honest they really upset me, they seem deranged to me and their beliefs infuriate me, but since you were talking about some fetishes I find hot I felt like responding, I also deal with OCD and my intrusive thoughts and obsessions are related to having and caring too much about online discussions, so I'm cutting it right here.
I really wish you could just jerk off, separate reality from fiction (much like people that like extreme media in anything else but porn and are still pretty mentally stable, much like a lot of people that consume extreme porn can manage to be) and stop feeling like you genuinely carry the weight of the world's sins on your back, and like all of your strange fetishes can only possibly lead to a degradation of your mind, body and the world as a whole, instead of accepting them, learning a bit about yourself, understanding people can have very dark intrusive thoughts while not being terrible people, and doing what makes you feel good, and if there's something that makes you feel good but also guilty, it's probably good for you to continue doing it, as long as the only one who's supposedly harmed by it is you and no one else. Society is the one that taught you to fear it and feel bad about it. You say interracial is suicide fuel for white men, but a lot of women also have rape fantasies in general, and they can just masturbate to them, get off and continue with their daily lives, not feeling like fantasies where they are not in power and even in a terrible situation for them to be in make them bad people, their brains just work like that. People can get a fetish for anything with enough desensitization and conditioning, either organic or premeditated, or sometimes people just want to vote Dems, animals, corpses, cars, whatever, sexuality is weird.
If you continue posting, if you please, go deeper into your fetishes relating to Jewish women, those are the hottest ones to me. Goodbye and take care.