>>29379
no that was pretty much it
you can probably guess i have trouble making friends or having conversations because of "things", having to 'hide my autism' yadda yadda. it's just that when i think things are going good and i think i'm gonna finally have people i can hang out with and trust them to be comfortable with my 'weirdness' even just a bit, we get separated - either i have to move away or they have to because reasons (different classes, roles, shifts, whatever). all contact besides greetings fall off quickly and i have to start all over again. it's been the same story over the years.
i don't really want to look clingy by trying to call out to them, and the few times i did they really never seem to take much interest in it either or looked weirded out to me
it's not that bad to be honest. i still have a few people i keep in touch with despite this but it's been years since i've seen them offline
thanks for reading my blogpost