This is it, the dawn of the final day.
I had an oshi before, but I'm never this invested as I'm right now with rosemi sama. I even quit my job just because I can't watch her when I working that's how much I head over heels for her. Funny how at the start I think she was just one of many cutesy type vtubers, but the more I watch her the more I fell in love with her. I even felt really jealous when they did the first meet and greet and do the personal shikishi, that was the biggest FOMO I've ever felt. I remember when she first opened her membership, I'm considering to join hers or pomu's back then and eventually I did and there I am, my name is written on the second buta, and I will never regret it. The incident that happened last year showed me how someone can be this strong and smile through it all. Pomu, selen, nina, fulgur, mysta, ike, well some of them turns out not that well meaning but when I think about it, she goes through a lot already with some of the closer people in the company leaving her one by one. Call me a schizo but after that I feel like she did a lot less collab and try to distance herself from the rest of the branch as her defense mechanism, so she will not as sad when another one is leaving. That's also why I'm glad to see doppio still pulling her in many collabs and just yesterday she said she consider him to be her best friend in the company and I understand why he is one of the people she told to when she decided to graduates. She's also my reason to start drawing, back when we still in halfchan I still remember my first drawing of her in aggie, and after that I start drawing her more and more, I miss drawing in maggie with other aggie anons, I even start posting fanart because of it. Some of it got liked and retweeted by her and being recognized by her is such a great feeling and speaking of being recognized she's also pretty often read my chat, other livers read my chat before but idk it feels more special when she's the one saintads it. I remember the days back when she didn't tweet at all and anons on halfchan being concernfags over it, but tbh I also kinda thinks like that, just seeing her good morning tweet is enough for me. I don't know how long she will be gone or if she even coming back, but the days ahead without her scares me... She told us to spread smiles and to be positive to see the good in the world, so I wish with her gone we as rosebuds can continue her legacy to spread joy to the world.