https://8chan.moe/b/res/452373.html >Be me >Have abusive farther whos always mad at me for not being able to meet his standards and bothers and sisters who bully me >does shit in school >have no friends, no boyfriends and everyone mocks me >be legit dyslexic, ADHD having (yes it's posable) retard with low IQ of just 76 >refuses to put me in sped corse >dad in denial about my special needs >work your ass off just for C and D's and everyone just thinks for "LaZy anD uNMotiVaTed" and need to "aPpLY y0uRsElF" >eventually start using weed and Benadryl and other drugs + booze just to cope >eventually drop out of school cuz I'm legit Kanye West >try collage but drop out as well >have no qualifications or experience >became a stripper as it's the only job that requires no qualifications and + it makes feel sexy >it's not like the movies a lot of time it's pretty dead and it's very rare you get a loyal customer and most the time people are not interested in dancers as they are only here cuz it's the only place thats still open that does booze >the only 2 good things about it is the fact you need no qualifications and the men >it's a great place to meet men I must have fallen in love with at last 20 different beautiful men there alot of them do things like ask for your phone number, buy you drinks, ask for lap dances >I hate the genre of music and the noise of the music mosly just rap songs and "boobty" (I hate that word) songs and you don't make the money you think you would just few 100$ a night most of witch I blow on drugs and booze Living with a low IQ is hard people don't feel sorry for you like they would if were in wheelchair or had down syndrome if you have a low IQ then your just dumb you just have to accept that your just dumb and that you don't have the opportunities that other people have I'll never be that author who fills up rooms with people who want to hear him speck you'll never be the academic. things that are widely considered easy to do take you years to learn your forever Tide down by the things you can't do I don't think I can get anyother job I can't just go back to college theres no way academia is gonna save me now and theres no way anyone else this going to higher me it's like suck in this life "hanging in there" and "trying" doen't mean shit when you have to try 101 persnt to just keep up with other prople. Now I've got 50 more years of my miserable life what am I even? I'm nothing I'm just shit I really don't want to live anymore I don't care I'm anyone else says I have nothing to live for