>>9730 I like other stages of loli irl too but I'm mainly a hebephile because I just like them more once they've hit puberty or just when they have and start showing some developmental signs. I'm also not exclusive, I like adult women in other forms too and my attraction to young teen girls is not even my main one, never has been

>>9728 How much older are you than her? How are you getting away with being her lover? How did you get to become her lover?

>>9733 What games? Is any of this in real life or is just online relationships?

>>9734 Minecraft was one and league of legends, to name a few. You're more likely to find them in f2p online games that are usually not that taxing performance wise. Both, some has been irl and some has been just online and hasn't always ended up in something sexual because ultimately that's not the be all end all of these relationships, to me anyway

>>9735 >ive played games with adolescent girls online and then had sex with them in real life. A claim like that is going to need some explaining.

>>9737 >to my specific geographical region That rules out the entire first world, then, because civilized countries don't have dedicated servers.

Saying you did something that is a crime is not against the rules, please refer to >>9409 and stop deleting posts off my board that aren't against your rules. For the Nth time, I'm not the only one complaining about this. If you don't like that rule, go change it.

>>9738 Except it doesn't and I've no idea why you think that. Not gonna give specific country for obvious reasons but western for sure, I'll say that much

>>9739 Based, however I'll also clarify that for one, I'm not here to debate legality or morality of my actions, simply that I did them. Second, I'd rather not go into detail either about the how because that can be taken as advice, tips, endorsement or something similar.

>>9741 If you start offering specific details and advice, I will have to delete the post. I'm doing my best to be as liberal as I can while still being inside the rules, but there are severe limitations to how far I can go on 8moe as far as tolerance goes. The board is slow too, not much rulebreaking really happens anymore here, so each case has become more significant. I'll be watching the thread. I hate my job, please don't make me delete things.

>>9742 Understood. Yeah I'd rather not give some kind of how-to as I genuinely don't endorse or justify any of my past or current actions. I'd rather keep it to objective statements. Hope I can stay within those limitations, if not I'll go elsewhere. It's a thankless job and I've no envy, only gratitude for the time being

>>9742 If you can't handle being a board owner, then why did you make a board?

>>9743 Do you see your past/current actions as negative? Do you, personally, feel regret or remorse or do you not see a reason to? You mentioned offending, were you caught and charged? If you were, are all the myths about pedophiles in prison true?

>>9745 Not all of them but sure, some I see as either negative or at least poorly handled. Wouldn't go so far to say anything constitutes harm or damaging in any way but there's definitely been the odd bad experience or bad decisions and actions on my part, which technically is and should be scrutinized when I've been the adult party with all the responsibility. A little but in relation to your first question it's been more like "I wish I could've gone about this differently" rather than straight up "I regret everything and should never have done anything". No, during these 8+ years I've not, to my knowledge, been reported or even suspected of anything that could get me caught, I suppose I've either been lucky or smart or both. Since I've not been caught yet I wouldn't know, sorry. On a different note I'd like to add that I've every intention of eventually quiting cold turkey and never indulge in this part of me ever again past a certain point

>>9746 If you feel no regret, don't see your actions as negative, and have never been nor have no reason to believe you will be caught why quit? Are you going to settle down? Are you getting paranoid?

>>9747 No, it's a combination of "I'm getting too old for this shit" and part that I might be settling down with the one I mentioned earlier who I first met when she was 11 and who is now 19. Next year if she wants to move in with me, then I'll quit right then and there forever and try to surpress any kind of urge to go back. If not then it'll probably happen when I turn 30. I think at one point I was slightly paranoid but that's faded almost completely today. I'd quit this in the same way I've quit other things like sugar or MMOs or gamenight with the boys, life just goes on and evolves and I can't stay the way I am because the circumstances aren't optimized for it.

>>9742 Was him explaining how he met them irl against the rules? I missed it.

>>9749 Globals deleted a post but granny restored it and then posted >>9748 That sounds pretty idyllic, tbh. It would be nice to have a happy family.

Are you talking full-on penetrative intercourse with a early teens girl? If so, how did the idea first come up between you two?

I am in a terrible, terrible situation where my past is controlling my present. I've only ever had two "real" relationships, and the first one ended horribly. I still care about her, and I want to apologize sometime, possibly soon. Definitely eventually. But that was my one shot, and I should have known it. But I kept having these shitty dreams of a "real job," so I stayed in college like a sucker. I went to "real school," a bigger, more "prestigious" university than the community college I started at. God, I was so fucking stupid. I can't be organized in any way, I'm depressed as fuck, my house is a mess and I can literally never clean it up, and my ledger is absolutely poisoned up to the ceiling because of failed business ventures on botnet platforms and because of a shitty medical history ruined by not having perfect mental health. First girl wasn't really a good match. The girl I love now is literally exactly perfect for me, but we can only ever be friends and that is an insane cruelty. I'm now literally in a position where I'm forced to save both her and her mom from my entire failed business past which involves literally millions of antis who literally prey on kids. Something happens to me, thousands of kids go to prison on fake-ass paedo charges. I've been made out to be a way bigger deal than I could ever be, and I'm trying so hard to figure out a way to save anyone and everyone from this everything is illegal apocalypse. What do you do for a living, anon? I have to figure out something. I can't keep racking up debt. The government has already burned me, I can't work a government job, I can't go back to school, and all the entry level shit pays so little that it cannot ever be worth it. God damn it, I literally just want to protect this sweet kid who saved me from killing myself three times over and not have her life ruined because I made dumbass choices in the past. Her mom works for the government. They'd both be arrested if I were. But her mom is astonishingly ignorant to that reality. I know how the God damned police work, and there is NOTHING okay about it. "Knowledge is power" my ass. "Knowledge" has my mind gone cuckoo, my body dying on me, and my financial future non-existent. I literally just can't be an evil piece of shit, and yet that's turning me into such a scapegoat it's unreal. What should I do? I'm having my money drained all the time just to stay alive when I'm unable to support myself and really just provide good moral and mental health support to others in a society that only values evil. Will I just have to end it all anyway? I want a real future, but it feels completely impossible when I have to keep my head low and can't be a public persona online at all.

>>9752 Oh, and I want to make it clear, I've never had sex at all or anything. I've lived almost as clean of a lifestyle as anyone ever can. But you can't keep stress out of your life, and it fucks you up so badly you almost have no choice but to at some point turn to illegal shit like drug use or porn or some shit.

>have a board for hebephiles >make a thread about a successful hebephile larper >its against the law to larp in anyway that might be convincing. Its not even cp, its fucking WORDS. T E X T.

>>9754 Complain to the retarded globals who keep deleting things at random.

>>9750 I suppose it does and I guess it would. I never really had a plan about where any of this would go but it seems for now things are leaning towards that. I'm ambivalent towards having kids of my own but I get that it's a joint decision and if we really love each other and she ends up wanting that then I'd happily provide for her and our future child and family of course.

>>9751 Yes, I never have and probably never would do anything too explicit and certainly not penetrative below the hebe age. Like most relationships I'm guessing. A slow kind of build up over time that just happens to end in the both of us feeling drawn towards each other physically. It's almost always been a "in the moment" decision, because I've honestly never gone into any of my past encounters with the sole intention of pumping and dumping so to speak, I want a healthy relationship and a deep emotional connection first, can't bring myself to do anything otherwise

>>9754 The only way for me to go into enough detail to convince some people can't actually be done on the clearnet and would require us to switch over to the Tor network

>>9731 Then you can't be called a hebephile. A hebephile is someone primarily attracted to pubescent children, not just someone with a waning fetish for them.

>>10048 Really? Didn't know hebephilia was gatekept but okay. Sure it's not my primary attraction or even exclusive but I wouldn't say that it's a "waning fetish" either. I like and will continue to like young pubescent girls probably for as long as I live it's just that I think at some point it's gonna be tougher and not worth pursuing irl realistically. I still can when I'm in my 20s now but the years keep going

>>10078 There's literally an algorithm for this. You gotta land your one true loli love by 24. Once you're 25, if you don't have somebody, happiness is no longer allowed. At that point, it's time to go far, far away from people, somewhere beautiful and natural, and end your life on your own terms. Swim out into the ocean in winter, find a bay with a high bridge and jump, get a gun and blast your brain, etc.

>>10111 Do you mind elaborating why if you dont win in the first 3rd or 4th of your life, you never will? And also why you measure success by one's ability to secure a relationship with another person? Why would the measure of meaning be entirely in the hands of almost random chance, or on somebody else, instead of how you choose to use your time. Being dependent on others and having an external source of happiness/wellbeing is unhealthy anon. You should take care of yourself, and let your relationships with other people be additive to your whole and not an intrinsic part of your person.

>>10112 The discrimination against you if you're over 25 is just too much. If you're not hitched to someone by then, you are marked as poison, and then you've got no options. Anything you do will end up causing damage.

>>10144 Well maybe your problem is that you place a high level of importance on what other people think of you. Why would you want to be around the kind of normalfaggot that gives a shit you've aged past your mid twenties in the first place, in any context? If you are happy with yourself, and you don't rely on other people to feel good about yourself or in general, then I think you'll do okay regardless. Besides, the people you love are often found in unexpected places.

>>10145 In the end all we have is others' opinions of us. I care more about others than myself, too. If you only care about yourself, then what are you? That's giving the System what it wants: another sociopath to make a fake story about and make everything worse.

>>10146 >in the end all we have is others' opinions of us absolutely and patently false. The nature of your existence is not determined by the whims of total strangers and thats the unhealthiest most batshit insane take on the human condition I have ever seen a coherent person make. >If you only care about yourself Having your source of self worth and esteem be internal instead of external doesn't make you a narcissist wtf are you talking about. >Giving the system what it wants, another sociopath You've completely lost me. What the fuck are you talking about? Being happy with yourself without looking to others for approval on it doesnt make you a sociopath, nor any other negative thing. Why is your view of people so two dimensional, and why do you think that other people's thoughts on your life are important? Are you some kind of depressed highschooler, or something?

>>10147 The System. If you know it, you know it. If you don't, you're better off not knowing. There may not be any solution for it. One hopes there might be. One must filter his knowledge as to not let on how much he does or does not know. One must also be prepared to end his life at any minute on any day in any place.

>>10155 This website is for adults only, anon