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>just fucking go outside
b-but... where? nothing for hundreds of miles around me sparks joy, and I can't just walk back and forth along the roads with no destination like a psychopath, it wouldn't be fun and people might judge me... plus I'd be terrified of running into people I used to go to school with... these two things have been keeping me from "just fucking going outside" for years now...
being a whore sounds like fun, but to be able to do it first I have to sort out The Absolute State of my body... maybe I could have the right physique to make anons drool beneath the foulness this world has smeared on me, but to get to it and find out I need to do things like exercise and be in public and maybe both at the same time, and to do that I need to improve my confidence, and to improve my confidence I need to improve my body, and to improve my body I need to improve my confidence, and to improve my confidence I need to improve my body, and to improve my body I need to improve my confidence, and to improve my confidence I need to improve my body, and to improve my body I need to improve my confidence, and to improve my confidence I need to improve my body, and to improve my body I need to improve my confidence......................................................................
>owning a dog
.......don't you have to assert dominance over dogs to keep them under control and stop them behaving like wild animals?......great, so he'd probably end up constantly bullying me into giving him treats and marking his territory all over my room and trying to make me his bitch.................
... I'm not as worried about my grandad now... the things we thought he had that would have probably killed him soon turned out to actually be things that will probably kill him later, and since then a dozen other crises have sprung up or reignited and started attacking me.....................
....... I'm just going to lie down in bed and stay very still.... if I lie still long enough I'll fall asleep.... if I sleep long enough I'll dream of patchy... if I dream of patchy long enough, maybe she'll come to me and help me and make everything leave me alone...............................................................................................................................................................
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