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maybe you're like me and it helps to be in the situation visually. You're stimulated by real scenarios but perhaps when the deed is done, you are like wtf am I doing?... Is a mystery... Perhaps some delusion associated with autism? I don't say that at random, maybe there is a reasonable explanation? Ignore the others. I don't think they're invested in this at all. However, I happen to come across your post.... make me wonder too. not so much about the "dicks in pics" but more of the "why the fuck am i allowing this to control me?" Seriously. It's as if if left to..."free time" this almost always takes precedence.. Til the deed is done.. Almost like another person don't you think? I've had a drink or 2 but I am speaking openly to you OP. Deep down I know I don't ever want to pursue anyone yet I consider myself some sort of monster.. It's after that nut clarity.. you start thinking a little more responsibly. Versus prolonging it and allowing it to morph into something almost unrecognizable. It's weird... It's not right obviously... We both know that? and yet... here we are... I see this is from 21.. who knows maybe this will give some clarity into the matter? It needs to be resolved. We cannot keep functioning like this. It has to stop.. While I can still speak in a coherent rational sense.. Really why is it so easy for the impulses to override basic instincts and priorities? I'm probably the only one talking to myself right now... It would be nice to not be so influenced by the flesh.. don't you agree?l. Anyone for that matter... I'll check back here later.... maybe some good insight will spring up in the near future? I sure would like to stop all the stupidity. Waste of time....