>>8388
I know exactly what you mean, OP. Around 7 years ago I found CD for the first time and was casually enjoying few different girls there, purely for sexual reasons. I was switching back and forth between them and couldn't decide which one I should be "faithful" to. Eventually after a year I chose Valensiya and her later sets, starting around set 30+ (I figured I love cuties around age 11 the most). I started being exclusive just to her, saving her pics from the sets and IRL (when she was younger) in different sizes and colors and whatnot. It became something more than just a sexual drive.
I noticed my fantasies with Val were not too sexually crazy, but more like a soft lewd. More like I was her adoptive father or an uncle figure. I enjoyed thinking about buying her cute socks, panties, shoes, going out with her, sleeping in one bed cuddling, teaching her about the world. I still would get hard of course, but it wasn't a quick session to rub one out. I realized I fell in love with her, like she's my own child. Eventually she became the most dominant number one little girl I was constantly thinking about. In my fantasies I never hurt her, I never used her like I would use adult women. And she was permanently locked in the age between 10-11 (she quit the CD right before she turned 11).
6 years later and my folder with her is 38 GB with almost 30 thousand pics from her sets and IRL in various forms and shapes as I mentioned. Yeah, that's pretty crazy, I know. I have a full flesh out long-term fantasy going with her (becoming her best friend & adopting her around 10 as a father). Her face and body make me incredibly happy. I also love the fact she was playful and seemed happy from what I gathered. I "stalked" her old and abandoned socials and found few pics around the "right" age for my collection as well. She makes me satisfied and I don't have to hunt for other little girls anymore that much. I live with her in my imaginary fantasy and if that is not some kind of love, then I don't know what it could be. I could be crazy, but obviously I can't exactly fulfill this fantasy IRL, so this crazy thing I have is the closest thing I can have. I'm sure you understand.
Anyway, I never thought about being into tweens as something sick and pervy. In my mind I always needed something bigger than just a little fuckable girl. The connection has to be there, the story and the fantasy as well. I don't find it disturbing, but rather as a confirmation that young love is not just about abuse, but can be about genuine love and relationships as well. Kids understand love, but adults made anything related to it as something evil unless you hit the age of 18. It's wrong and artificial.