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This isn't just about being a net detriment to the thread through my behavior, it bleeds into my negative contribution (I might as well be an anti from how bad it is) towards my Oshi and the community as a whole from how worthless and incompetent I'm IRL and Online, there is a reason I exclusively post in Anonymous Imageboards: deeprooted Guilt and Shame
Yes, I do know that this isn't actually the end of the world and that making this big deal out of something like this will make it worse since this whole post is worthy of mockery but I do care deeply for this place since it was the only outlet I have for being whimsical and authentic so I needed to get this off my chest even if it is a pitty party since no IRL connections/situations allow it while other identifiable mediums require too much self-censoring to the point of being unenjoyable or impossible to communicate
I'll just never measure up to any meaningful positive contribution when compared to other more talented, older, funnier and wealthier members of the community. I'm not even sure of where or what to improve about myself to provide anything positive or where to begin
No drawing skills, shitty immature humor, tone deaf comments, no singing skills, no clipping experience, no editing experience, too shy to socialize even with other community members and to participate in projects, too little knowledge in Anime as a whole due to recently getting over my closet Weeb phase, surface level knoweldge about Vtubing despite knowing about it since 2022 thanks to the Rushia scandal while discussing social alienation in a thread, didn't get invested in the scene until 2023 with Phase, worthless monopoly third world money that barely supports my Oshi in any meaningful way besides wasting her time with an annoying alert having to read my name thanking me for fucking pennies out of obligation.
I'm sorry Kibaposter for behaving that way towards you, I don't actually feel like that towards any other poster ITT, it was yet another tone deaf autistic attempt at a joke where I failed to realize I was pissing someone off or hurting their feelings until it was too late and worse of all it reinforced all the negative stereotypes that outsiders have of this thread which is all my fault I should know better not to make that type of comments to begin with given how hard it is to me to pick up on social cues specially through text. Also sorry for the excuses for pretending to be retarded, I was too embarrassed to admit that I fucked up for a myriad of reasons like sleep deprivation/not checking the updated OP and should've owned up to it instead.
I'm sorry spoilerbito and all other bitos for making you look bad through association with the lowest specimen yet to appear in the community.
I'm sorry Sissycookie and Burntcookie for gayposting towards you, it's just not funny or a healthy way of communicating/bonding.
I'm sorry Lovebug(s), Airihead(s),Doremu(s),Starknight(s), Gumi(s) Makinist(s),Kindling(s),Minimoo(s), and Pankoposter(s) for not interacting frequently with you it's not that I don't like you or your Oshi is just that I don't know enough about them since until recently I thought that watching other girls was whore behavior due to online misinfo, besides of feeling like an intruder in their communities.
I'm sorry Hagstorians, Fincels and Sleepyheads for giving you such a bad impression, hopefully you'll feel more at home in /pcgia/ going forward with the rest of the Anons here, they are good people and I'm sure you are too and the culture will flourish like never before.
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