>>1396 Oh all kinds of things. If most trans were groomed, then anyone you are with is likely as the result of psychological damage, and thats immoral. I could expand on this and its been bugging me for a while. And then theres hookup culture, it seems like no one is really trying to be in a monogamous relationship, everyone just wants to go around fucking everyone all the time. It seems like the things I want in life, to love someone and be with them, isnt what everyone else wants. And then there's the morality. Again absent grooming would I find them cute? Then im really just as bad as the person who abused them. I don't wanna hurt anyone, certainly not someone I love. And then theres the whole "whelp, guess I'm a gay now. Huh. What do I do with this information?" Thing. Idk. Theres a weird shame that falls on me with this stuff. And I don't know if thats just christian upbringing, or real serious moral dilemmas that actually exist in this sphere. And then there's drugs, they seem as ubiquitous in the trans and gay communities as sleeping around are. Its like, if I wanna be with a trans I gotta accept they might be addicts. And if you reject that in advance your gonna be alone, so you gotta take a risk if you wanna be happy, and the odds of that leap of faith working are abysmally low. Idk. I just wind up with all these questions. And idk if there even are answers. Then I get depressed and just think well I will never be happy then, thats what the math is saying. But that can't be true. Surely there's gotta be people who just want a happy life right? And then I see stuff like that thread thats up today were like 4 anons are all saying the worst thing you can possibly do is catch feelings for a trans, that you should just treat them as disposable cumrags. And thats. Man thats awful. Don't they deserve to be loved? but also maybe it's wisdom, and that also makes me feel like a monster.

>>1396 I just found a nice trans girl to talk to and date but it's right before I get deployed. So it's probably not gonna work out

>>1448 I've had a perfect childhood and I still became a tranny, only like 30% of trannie I know had some trauma. A not-small amount gets traumatized once they've trooned tho. But yeah 100% of trannies are mentally ill and often not only with gender dysphoria. Fags are mentally ill if their daddy didn't love then which is a good amount

>>1396 Were do I find trans women? I don’t want to download some stupid app like Discord or Grindr. But I never see them at the gym, cafes or hobby shops. Where the fuck are they? Do they just molder at home or something? I live in a major metropolitan area too.

>>1469 they stay in their rooms

>>1468 Oh, well that does make me feel better, actually. I dont mind mental illness, I just don't wanna compound abuse. Thank you anon!

>>1469 You have to treat them like a woman and not fetishize them. It tends to work. Except for when you start dating. Then they want to be fetishized. Your mileage may vary

>>1476 most of them want a man who doesn't like trannies but makes an exception just for them it feeds their meta attraction

>>1476 trannies are also people. not everyone wants to get treated the same way. if you're not retarded then you'll just try to gently find out what she likes.

>>1476 I don’t have an issue attracting cis women. I’ve only ever dated women because they’re everywhere. It’s not a fetishizing thing, its a where do I find them kind of thing. Do trannies tend to go for a specific type of guy? I hear femboys are popular with trannies. But I’m a fit, masculine dude. If you saw me in public you wouldn’t think I was in to trannies at first glance so maybe thats a part of it.

>>1485 femboys are NOT popular with trannies. twinks and other trannies are popular with trannies, but you can do very well as a masc guy too if you stand out a bit

>>1396 I started too late to pass, so I can't escape everything by just embracing that, but I also am not fit to return to repping and force myself to be the person my family wants me to be. I live in a permanent stasis of constantly keeping everyone at a distance and not committing to anything to avoid people finding out. I question myself like >>1448 does, just without the grooming and having had relationships. I feel like what I want for myself is just impossible, but I don't know how to change it.

>>1451 That's rough buddy

I’m talking to a really cute boy for a week now, but I’ve known him for a year already if that makes sense. He’s kind of closeted but maybe I can help him get there so he can be my boywifey Not really a vent just wanted to write this :3

>>1511 Aw your are so cute. I hope you love him and hug him and cuddle him and kiss him and hold his hand and go everywhere with him.

>>1512 Hehe thank you anon. If it goes well, Ill help him plan for a trip later this year, so maybe we can go together :3

>>1448 everybody is psychologically damaged, tortured and spiritually raped since before birth. including you and me

I'm the bottom of the barrel. Not only a tranny but a man looking one despite getting on hormones so early. But even before as a closeted gay teen in school I was alr undesirable. I was too afraid of grindr, so I was rly happy when a friend told me he was bisexual. I really admired him, I was in awe every time I could be near him. But after we made out a couple of times he started ignoring me and I would still do anything for him, but we live hundreds of kms apart and he stil ghosts me. Now I live in a new city without friends. Nobody ever wanted to have me around them, but now I'm not even tolerated anymore. I really wish I could've had success as a tranny, to be someone different. But no I'm whining on some dumbass imageboard. And it'll be like that for the next 60years or until I ack, this is it. This is my life now, always has been and always will be.

>>1523 Don't say that, I truly believe theres someone out there for all of us. We will be happy anon. Until we meet them, I'm your friend now. And I love you.

>>1503 It is what it is

>>1396 i have been hormonemaxxing for awhile now (taking t &E) and am afraid of talking about it to some of my online friends. most every trannee friend i know irl knows about it, but i think some of my friends online would react weirdly if i told them.

>>1620 I hope you have a good birthday, nonny

>>1396 my life is shit, i can't get a job, i'm broke, disabled, in constant pain, i am totally alone, i'm trapped in a body i cannot stand, i look like a monster and i want to die

I'm a cis man and I also wish monogamous relationships still existed. I was with a lovely woman for 6 years of my life and I just can't see myself ever being into casual sex, polyamory, etc. after that. But that's all that anyone seems into. I just want someone to cherish wholly, I don't want to share.

>>1647 Same. I just want a guy who wants something more long term, but they always seem to just want to hook up and that's it. The only people who have ever seemed to be monogamous were either scammers or insanely mentally ill anxious types

>>1665 Where I live, I swear to you there are more polyfags than monogamous people. All the ones who are interested in monogamy are already taken anyway. I'm thinking about just giving up and remaining single for the rest of my days, I'd rather be alone than compromise my ideals.

I just wanna drain my balls, is that so hard to ask

>>1665 >>1672 Trust me, us monogamous guys exist. You just need to find us lol

If evolution is real, then why did God make such cute femboys? Checkmate atheists.

>>1734 >If evolution is real, then why did God make such cute femboys? >Checkmate atheists.

>>1671 tranny tranny tranny lol ty i love the tension in the room with that natasha beddingfield just blaring in the background cinema

i hope that the rectopexy to fix my prolapse it wont fuck up being able to enjoy sex.

>>2655 how did this happen

I want to wife a tranny I have too many personal problems and mental issues at the moment to be in a relationship without worrying about hurting someone somehow. I'm also an r9k autistic degenerate. And maybe I'm just lonely in general, I don't have any close friends at all, I'm in college but can only manage to talk to my teenager twin siblings. But I want to gently comfort a non-mean/gross/twitter trans girl with a penchant for imageboards and otaku things and her own history, passions, psychological problems/traumas in my arms while letting her know that everything will be okay. I'd want to make love to her, I am a degenerate after all, but only at her peace. I'd never want to hurt her. Eventually, we'd get married and live which each other in a comfy home. This is my fantasy.

>>2656 back when the pandemic was at its peak everyone in this house fell ill to it because they had the wonderful idea to go to a fucking party, then aunt was refusing to see a doc despite she was struggling to breathe, and i got so scared, so anxious and mad that i went in a complete crisis, screaming, begging mom to take aunt to the doc to rec sum meds, and since then, i cant remember which day exactly i started struggling to poop, sadly i didnt took it seriously or i got used to fingering and enemas and let this continue for over 4 fucking years and i think this year or the past one i made so much effort trying to evacuate that i caused myself a prolapse, then aunt and mom finally knew that it was too much and we started seeing local doctors, until we got one willing to do a colonoscopy and biopsy to know what the fuck was causing me to struggle to shit everyday, thank god no IBS/IBD (i was so fucking scared when he was checking the biopsy results) and what i have instead its a prolapse, solitary ulcer syndrome and anismus (i fucking knew it that i was so sure about the last one), the problem now is that he recommends doing a rectopexy to cure my internal prolapse because he says that eventually it wont go inside the anus anymore, and says that "probably" yeah, "PROBABLY" doing that surgery i will be able to poop normaly like i used to before the pandemic, i told him about doing a LiS instead but no, he insists, so oh well, tomorrow morning gonna take a blood sample and a piss one to get all requirements for the surgery in a month or earlier i guess, the only thing that somehow makes me less anxious of it is that i can be awake during it, im no way picking general anesthesia.

>>2667 You're only in college anon? Don't stress about it, you'll meet someone. You're still young

>>2668 Well that not ideal, good luck anon

>>2676 thank u ;w;

people like yall that complain about the most mundane shit annoy the fuck out of me. ig its fine tho since its anonymous here and no one needs to pretend to care for yall

>>3493 Everyone has different life experiences, and different points of references for what constitutes as a complaint. It might seem insignificant to someone else if they've gone through objectively worse, sure. But you can always use a "whataboutism" to make most complaints seem mundane. But for most things that seem mundane from the outside looking in, I'm sure it feels significant in that person's day to day life.

>>3493 Snickers is right you can not make less of other people's problems since you are not them, we all precieve things differently and they can do more of less impact depending on the person's own life

>rectopexy is needed to cure my prolapse and solitary ulcer syndrome that causes me to struggle at the bath >doc says to get a synthetic mesh cuz cheap >i want a bio one cuz safer but ofc costs a lot >tried to beg at the 4shit thread but no luck other than i posted pics at sum 28yo rando expecting he would be kind enough to give me sum money in exchange of whoring my ugly skinny ass out >i just feel like i keep stressing mom with this, and she has trigeminal neuralgia btw. im tired of living atp.

not really venting, not a trap or trans, but i really hope you guys help us reach singularity before i die (probably will becuz im young but have anxiety). i know you crazy fuckers are into that type of nerd shit.

>>1448 > it seems like no one is really trying to be in a monogamous relationship, everyone just wants to go around fucking everyone all the time. I do. But where do I even meet boyfriend material guys. The guys on dating sites just want regular hookups in secret. I want to make breakfast for the man I love every morning but nobody wants that.

>>1478 That's not what it is. I hate my penis, if you're only into me because you like my penis then we're not compatible. I need a man to make me feel like a woman, I can't be with a man who makes me feel like a freak.

>>1523 Aww sweety that's awful. Find your local pride community, find your sisters, then you'll find your place.

>>1671 That's really not helpful. Also tranny is not a slur. Stop making it a slur. It's the language policing that people don't like, and that's what give Nancy Mace her support.

I wish I had started 10 years ago back when I was still in my early 20s. I remember seeing a bunch of transition guides and thinking "wait that's all it takes?" but I was still a broke college student living with my parents so there wasn't much I could do. Then I wound up repping so hard I forgot those thoughts for the next decade, thanks to me seething over trannies ruining muh hobbies and muh nerd girls becoming dykes/FTMs/non-binary. Instead of just realizing "if you can't beat them, join them" like everyone else did. Now I'm in my early 30s, the trans panic has gone from "autists mad at politics in their hobbies" to "right-wingers making up shit about women's bathrooms", and I run too much risk starting HRT lest I get fired or assaulted the first time someone sees me with tits. Not that I'll even have access to HRT with the way the laws are going, I don't know if I can trust DIY solutions either. Ah well. Never would've passed anyway with my height. Plus women's clothes look uncomfortable as hell, I'd rather look like the tomboys I've always felt most comfortable around.

>>5080 > I don't know if I can trust DIY solutions either. You're obviously American, the best thing you can do is engage with the trans community IRL. The DIY stuff is actually better in a lot of ways, the prescription stuff is good because it's secure if you've got a prescription BUT 1. Doctors always hondose 2. They're a pain in the arse 3. The prescription stuff is primarily designed to put your doctor, not you, in charge of your transition. In Australia where getting DIY is super hard, this is a real issue. I have a monthly transgender meetup, and that is always a 2 hour bitching about doctors session. So the DIY does actually tend to be more effective with the downsides that 1. You have to figure it all out yourself (and you can definitely fuck it up) 2. There is a big risk of your supply being suddenly cut off 3. Ordering online is complicated So definitely connect with other transgender people, particularly transwomen. They'll help secure a supply, and they'll guide you on the do's and don'ts of hormonal transition.

>>5081 > I don't know if I can trust DIY solutions either. You're obviously American, the best thing you can do is engage with the trans community IRL. The DIY stuff is actually better in a lot of ways, the prescription stuff is good because it's secure if you've got a prescription BUT 1. Doctors always hondose 2. They're a pain in the arse 3. The prescription stuff is primarily designed to put your doctor, not you, in charge of your transition. In Australia where getting DIY is super hard, this is a real issue. I have a monthly transgender meetup, and that is always a 2 hour bitching about doctors session. So the DIY does actually tend to be more effective with the downsides that 1. You have to figure it all out yourself (and you can definitely fuck it up) 2. There is a big risk of your supply being suddenly cut off 3. Ordering online is complicated So definitely connect with other transgender people, particularly transwomen. They'll help secure a supply, and they'll guide you on the do's and don'ts of hormonal transition.

>>5081 >You're obviously American, the best thing you can do is engage with the trans community IRL. Even worse, I'm from Texas aka the America of America. The closest trans-friendly places I can think of would be Austin and Dallas and I'm pretty far from both of them. So I guess I'd first need to figure out how to become employable enough to find a job there, which I'm sure will be a load of fun in this job market.

>>5083 Sweety Gender Dysphoria doesn't discriminate. It is just as likely to hit a republican in texas as it is a communist in portland. In fact more likely since transphobia, homophobia, and misogyny are symptoms of gender dysphoria in repressed transwomen. There will be transgender people and a queer community in your area. Reach out to them, you need to get healthy first.

>>5084 nta, but also in the american south, and there just isn't a community here is the rural area i'm at. most people just aren't going to be very public about this stuff and aren't going to be forming groups when there are so few people and significantly lower levels of support than in other places

>>5088 Have you actually looked tho? Because I live in the most conservative seat in Australia and there is a thriving community here. Being in a conservative area means they tend to be quiet, but they're still there.

i wish i could become a cute femboy, and wear cute clothes. but the amount of work i have to do to achieve that is overwhelming. + im too broke to go the gym and buy more "healthy" stuff to eat (it also doesnt help i live in a dangerous area, so im kinda scared to workout outside [my dad almost fucking died here once and many family members have been robbed/mugled] ) + i have issue with body hair and hair loss that heavily demotivates me to do anything. i feel like all the odds are against me

>>5095 Oh sweety, I know that feel, dysphoria sucks. I wish I could save you so hard, but financially speaking I'm not much better off than you.

>>5084 >>5088 The only place in my area I can think of would be the local college's GSA, but they disbanded a long time ago. There is a gay bar here supposedly, but I don't even want to set foot in there because with it being in a military town, it's probably nothing but an army-flavored IRL grindr. Doubt I'd be able to reach out to a single trans person there.

>>5100 Google "LGBTQI+ [nearest major town or city]" You might need to use facebook (because it's permanently 2015 in gayworld). But it's there. Your brothers and sisters are around. And gays and lesbians are super duper nice to us. They know what it feels like to be hated for being different and they don't like it being done to others either. My local pride group has been SO good to me.

>>1523 Hey don't say someone will find you hot as the fucking sun and grinder is a curse you will get so many dick picks or ass shots

i started dating a tranny a few months ago and I can't cum unless its with my hand. Pretty sure i have death grip syndrome. I've spent a lot of years alone and jerking off, idk what to do its very frustrating. She also wants to get married and I'm one of the few supportive people in her lfe. It stresses me out. I've finally got what I've wanted and needed for years and I'm afraid I'm gonna lose it.

>>5199 Well first of all relax. No one ever gave the dicking of their life when stressed lol. Second off, don't worry about cumming, don't worry about performance, enjoy the act, you have SOME sensation left lol or you wouldn't get off at all, so lube it up and enjoy yourself. Gotta get zen with it, sex is mostly your subconscious. Third, you wanna wait til a relationship has lasted at least a year together before you commit to marriage. Too many people don't realize that they just can't get along until they try and fail, and any cracks show within a year. She prolly won't be offended if you lay it out like that. The pressure from that can also make it hard to relax and enjoy the moment. Lastly, worst case scenario have a few drinks beforehand, let her blow you while watching porn til your almost there then immediately bury yourself in that ass. Not a pretty way to get the job done, but it WILL get the job done. Good luck, tops up bottoms down.

>>1396 I been broken up for a year, and uh. If I think about it my chest hurts. Idk what to do about that.

>>4987 so, i got it, it hurts like hell, and i still struggle, what was the point then, ig the issue was anismus aka non-working sphincter that needs a lil cut to be relaxed, and instead i got a mixed mesh inside me (non fully bio sadly, dammit) to put the intestine in place, got put to sleep against my will, and this horrible scar, (spoiler for obvious reasons, havent even fully got back to take hormones sadly) idk when i will be fully recovered or turns out i need another to treat the anismus.

>>1396 i am married to a cisf as a twinkhon tranny but the drugs made me straight a year ago. not in a meta way like i seriously have tried to be into it but i am not

>>5358 any improvement since then?