Have you ever been too a gay bar or club, and if so what were your first time experience?
I'll start with mine
>Be me, 27, MtF that doesn't really pass even after a year being on HRT, so I still go by he/him, whatever
>At work get word of a big event going on a my towns only gay bar, really nice, never been there before
>Work till I can get off, head home as fast as I can
>Don't have time to shower, just shave, perfume up, put on my best clothes, faded jeans with belt, my work non-slip shoes, breathable grey shirt, pink panties underneath, gothic skull facemask, and a She/Her bracelet made by a friend. I get all nice and ready and put up my hair in a ponytail.
>Spend 12 bucks to Uber too the place and have my online friends wish me luck
>Get there, pay 7 bucks to get in, and get blasted at the ass end of a drag show
>My She/Her bracelet breaks the moment the wrist thing that shows you paid is put on. Upset but pocket it.
>Looks fun, it ends and music jumps in, massively loud and bouncy.
>Observe the crowd, see a bunch of gay Latinos, white dudes, chicks, and I even two dudes with those dogmasks with blue checkered handkerchief in backpocket and punk people
>Get too the dance floor, order a 5 dollar whiskey and cola and just try to dance and just move around
>Security tells me to take off my skull facemask and just tells me to just have it off to express myself
>Mostly just end up dancing by myself or just observing, not sure on how to dance outside of tf2 taunt and gmod dance emote replica's
>At one point attempt to dance on the public pole it has at the club, get a somewhat decent crowd. Pole gets pass too a latino twink who completely owns it and upstages me, arouses but also angers me
>Go to the front and smoker zone, meet a old friend, mingle a little and wanna try it again
>Go upstairs too the quiet bar, completely full of old gay men or cliches
>pay 25 cents for a gumball, and just go back to my friend
>Kinda just hang with them till they close, afterwords go to the back of the area near the parking lot and hang out with them
>Make small talk till someone notices my flashlight is on, they laugh, I make a joke and introduce myself to her
>Kinda join in on a group of friends, they even offer me two puffs from a blunt they have
>Actually feel like i'm having fun, I leave my friend a bit so he can take his partner home
>After a bit, the dude I'm sitting next too introduces himself to me. He is the first person to ask me my pronouns. I tell him He/Him till I
feel like I pass then She/Her
>After telling him its my first time there he just sorta responds, "I could tell."
>They then emotionally and caringly kinda explain on how they can easily tell I'm "Trying too hard" to fit in, and how I'm putting on a gay voice and acting gay to fit in, and how my clothes look stuffy for summer, how I should actually find something about myself to love and go from there, and to actually find myself. He even guesses my age, and when I ask how he knew, he just said, "I can just tell."
>This whole talk fucks with me on why I'm even there and what the fuck am I even doing. He then gets a big kiss from his boyfriend who pushes a hand on my chest and just kinda gently shoves me.
>They both get up to leave as the group dissipates, no one really wishes me a goodnight besides the dude who talked to me.
>After everyone leaves I'm kinda alone in the parking lot, waiting for a 15 min away Uber that costs 29.25, all the while a couple gently hug and kiss from across the road and I'm just all alone.
>Not sure if I wanna go back
What are your experiences like anon?