you dont seem to understand. thats fine, neither do i... but i was in a very weird time, but weird isnt weird for me, yet it was still weird, but not the weirdest, and i have a poor sleep schedule in that it constantly migrates a few hours ahead because i always sstay awake past the bedtime yesterday. i think i started with clips. somehow i got to the debut stream, i think its called a vod? and i loved the music, but it was just the one song because i had to leave. anyway it was winter, and my area doesnt have snow much, so it was still cold. the sky is very clear at those times, clearer than anywhere else i think, and you can see stars very well. anyway. so i was way more tired than usual, and this is where i dont rememeber, but maybe it wasnt winter and i had the air conditioner? anyway the window is very large and forms a sort of lens which interacts with the stars and sun, so that the light is very pure, and i was sitting there listening to the ost with the air conditioner which is cold, and of course the windows are shut at this time, so the light was very filtered and pure, as well as the sky being clear, and it was cold (or this came after the one i am about to tell) i think the one i accidentally woke up to/during is the lore, or perhaps it played as i was passing out, and i woke up to the other one. one of these events made me cry. i do not have social media except youtube and no money to spend on E GIRLS (ick), so i kind of just love the character and lore, and i believe shondo the voice actor may actually be a hypnotist, but probably not, they just have the same country and maybe mommy voice. i think about so many things that my brain has become like a wet cake and falls out, so idk.... likely a succubus meant to sway me from my path smh