Sorry in advance for the breakdown blogspot, but I just kinda need to vent. I am spiraling, bad. It has nothing really to do with Filian, but I am completely fucking overwhelmed by my own emotions, to the point of just shutting them out completely. I just randomly got up and had to leave the house and move so I ended up going on an unplanned jog, at 5:30, without sleeping or showering, shirtless, in my crocs because I didn't feel like changing and now I am sitting on a bench in a forest typing this. I am not okay. I think I will go try to apply for therapy. Sorry, I'm done now.