When I was like 15 me and my sister did catering for a guy we knew getting initiated, it was weird but lame. Caught my attention enough to look more into it so here's the basics, they are just a boys club that believes in all that gay stuff you talked about but all of that is a front, most masons are to bought in to recognize that the highest rungs of the ladder are a whole separate society, the initiations to each new rank are designed to weed out who they want to weed out with the exception of a few people who they give rank to so people beleive they know people in the higher society. Most people welcomed into the higher society have been groomed into it since childhood because they come from whole geneologies of masons, people will occasionally become a part of the higher society only if they are malleable enough or already morally abhorrent, because the "higher" society is morally abhorrent. They are the ones in control of most of the world, completely fine with misleading the masses, and while every mason is evil, the masons who come across as good people are mislead by the higher society and don't do what they do, so when you meet a mason they usually aren't super powerful or evil, and they don't even know what's really going on because they're dumb enough to trust a group who's willing to keep secrets from even their own family, there's no honor among theives, no trust among liars. The only reason I know what I'm telling you is because I found out young, I looked into it constantly, there's not alot of great info out there and there's alot of bad info, morals and dogma is legit and a great starting point, but alot of this journey you're gonna have to go in on solo, you'll problably never get into a lodge, even if you do it'll be a shit lodge. But as someone who was an agnostic/athiest before all of this, Jesus is king, he won't lead you astray, he didn't lie even once. Good luck on this journey anon, I hope it leads you to better understanding and I pray that you don't get deceived