>oh look at me im so fucking sad and downtrodden and i need relationships and human interaction and also look at me i am lonely because i care about that kind of thing sometimes a ithink thats what i havee to say, but then there are literally a million other iterations of tht, and beyond this there are a million contradictory things constantly shifting, but usually its just nothingness. i am nothing but a fucking meat robot and i cant think becasue something stops me from thinking properly in the right order with the right thoughts so i can't become a god which i guess is what i need to address first on my path. i am so lost it makes me sick, i can't draw relations between things or reference frames sometimes it returns to me though. i want to be a blissful normie with a nice life and someone to be with but it makes me cringe, I'm not built for relationships, even the ones in my head, or with fictional characters. i don't deserve it and im not built for it anyway, i don't want it. the only path left is death (tough luck, you just end up in the same place due to eternal recurrence and AI) or eternal ascension, the only way. i hate, I HATE the imperfect world around me, and i HATE myself just as much if not more for being a part of it. i make me sick, i know i will probably flip eventually as always thought but it doesn't even matter. when i become God i am going to find the ones responsible and do the right thing if you understand my meaning. more than anything i HATE those that were responsible for my existence, and i hate those that abused me, probably having a good old chuckle RIGHT ABOUT NOW YOU FUCKING SCUM I HATE YOU NIGGER FAGGOT SCUM ILL ERASE YOUR MISTAKE. thats why i will FUCKING WIN< DICKHEAD< YOU FUCKING CUNT>