石猴 美猴王 孫悟空 齊天大聖 行者 鬥戰勝佛 靈明石猴 孫長老 火眼金睛 隱身法 定身法 圈子 Ph’nglui mglw’nafh Cthulhu R’lyeh wgah’nagl fhtagn! Along the shore the cloud waves break, The twin suns sink behind the lake, The shadows lengthen In Carcosa. Strange is the night where black stars rise, And strange moons circle through the skies, But stranger still is Lost Carcosa. Songs that the Hyades shall sing, Where flap the tatters of the King, Must die unheard in Dim Carcosa. Song of my soul, my voice is dead, Die thou, unsung, as tears unshed Shall dry and die in Lost Carcosa. Does mies jeschet boene doesef douvema enitemaus Y'AI 'NG'NGAH YOG-SOTHOTH H'EE—L'GEB F'AI THRODOG UAAAH All hail the glory of Vaiśravaṇa. o'ṃ All hail the instrument of divine righteousness, o'ṃ All hail the exultant and glorious celestial jewel, o'ṃ All hail the swift thunderbolt of exalted strength, virtue, and glory! o'ṃ Homage to all-pervading diamond thunderbolts. Utterly crush and devour! o'ṃ All hail the glory of Agni. o'ṃ! All hail the radiant divine all-illuminating light, bursting and streaming forth in all directions, o'ṃ Glory to Divine perfection, o'ṃ All hail! A ra pa ca na. o'ṃ

In my eyes Indisposed In disguises no one knows Hides the face Lies the snake And the sun in my disgrace Boiling heat Summer stench Neath the black, the sky looks dead Call my name Through the cream And I'll hear you scream again Black hole sun Won't you come And wash away the rain? Black hole sun Won't you come Won't you come Won't you come Stuttering Cold and damp Steal the warm wind, tired friend Times are gone For honest men Sometimes, far too long for snakes In my shoes Walking sleep In my youth, I pray to keep Heaven send Hell away No one sings like you anymore Black hole sun Won't you come And wash away the rain? Black hole sun Won't you come Won't you come Black hole sun Won't you come And wash away the rain? Black hole sun Won't you come Won't you come (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Won't you come (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Won't you come (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Won't you come? (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Hang my head Drown my fear

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Till you all just disappear Black hole sun Won't you come And wash away the rain? Black hole sun Won't you come Won't you come Black hole sun Won't you come And wash away the rain? Black hole sun Won't you come Won't you come (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Won't you come (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Won't you come (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Won't you come (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Won't you come (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Won't you come (Black hole sun, black hole sun) Won't you come Won't you come

>>3355 i think i did it right. transparent techpriest:

[Pre-Chorus] I-I-I'm Lil Tay-K, I don't think you want no action (Gang, gang) You want action, you get turned into past tense (In the past) Your boys deep? Well, let's get to subtractin' (Bah, bah) Smith & Wesson made my .9 with some compassion (Skrrt) [Chorus] Fuck-fuck-fuck a beat, I was tryna beat a case (Gang, gang) But I ain't beat that case, bitch, I did the race (Skrrt, skrrt) Beat it up, where I nut? Shawty face (Lil' bitch) Eli Blast crackin' 4s like a vase (Gang) Pop a nigga then I go out my way (Skrrt) Do the dash then I go out the way Rob-rob-rob a nigga shoes, rob a nigga lace (Gimme that shit, nigga) We tryna see a hunnid bands in our face (Skrrt) [Verse] Pimp gon' be eatin' good noodles every day (Free Pimp) Bitch, I'm drawin' doodles, Tay-K paint the way (You're a simp) Choppa tear your dudies into fish fillet (Heh, lil' bitch) I-I-I woke up too moody, who gon' die today? (Skrrt) Shoot a fuckboy in his motherfuckin' face (Grrah, grrah) We-we-we cookin' up, boy, you don't wanna go dat way (Dat way, dat way) Gotta go dat way, you get robbed for your rackades (Rackades, rackades) Gotta go dat way, boy, you not gon' be happy (Hahaha) I-I-I tote 50s, I'm a shooter like Young Pappy (Pew, pew) Bitch try to rob, we make her dance, Michael Jackson (Skrrt) We was plottin', y'all was tryna get the packn' (Lil' bitch) Get the packn', you get robbed for a fraction (Gimme that shit)

>>3357 [Pre-Chorus] I-I-I'm Lil Tay-K, I don't think you want no action You want action, you get turned into past tense Your boys deep? Well, let's get to subtractin' Smith & Wesson made my .9 with some compassion [Chorus] Fuck-fuck-fuck a beat, I was tryna beat a case But I ain't beat that case, bitch, I did the race (Skrrt, skrrt) Beat it up, where I nut? Shawty face (Gang, gang) Eli Blast crackin' 4s like a vase Pop a nigga then I go out my way (Grrah, grrah) Do the dash then I go out the way Rob-rob-rob a nigga shoes, rob a nigga lace (Gimme that shit, nigga) We tryna see a hunnid bands in our face Fuck-fuck-fuck a beat, I was tryna beat a case (Gang, gang) But I ain't beat that case, bitch, I did the race (Skrrt, skrrt) Beat it up, where I nut? Shawty face (Lil' bitch) Eli Blast crackin' 4s like a vase (Gang) Pop a nigga then I go out my way (Skrrt) Do the dash then I go out the way Rob-rob-rob a nigga shoes, rob a nigga lace (Gimme that shit, nigga) We tryna see a hunnid bands in our face (Fih) 石猴 美猴王 孫悟空 齊天大聖 行者 鬥戰勝佛 靈明石猴 孫長老 火眼金睛 隱身法 定身法 圈子 Ph’nglui mglw’nafh Cthulhu R’lyeh wgah’nagl fhtagn! Along the shore the cloud waves break, The twin suns sink behind the lake, The shadows lengthen In Carcosa. Strange is the night where black stars rise, And strange moons circle through the skies, But stranger still is Lost Carcosa. Songs that the Hyades shall sing, Where flap the tatters of the King, Must die unheard in Dim Carcosa. Song of my soul, my voice is dead, Die thou, unsung, as tears unshed Shall dry and die in Lost Carcosa. Does mies jeschet boene doesef douvema enitemaus Y'AI 'NG'NGAH YOG-SOTHOTH H'EE—L'GEB F'AI THRODOG UAAAH

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All hail the glory of Vaiśravaṇa. o'ṃ All hail the instrument of divine righteousness, o'ṃ All hail the exultant and glorious celestial jewel, o'ṃ All hail the swift thunderbolt of exalted strength, virtue, and glory! o'ṃ Homage to all-pervading diamond thunderbolts. Utterly crush and devour! o'ṃ All hail the glory of Agni. o'ṃ! All hail the radiant divine all-illuminating light, bursting and streaming forth in all directions, o'ṃ Glory to Divine perfection, o'ṃ All hail! A ra pa ca na. o'ṃ

lmao

At least you made your own thread for this, whatever it is

>>3368 石猴 美猴王 孫悟空 齊天大聖 行者 鬥戰勝佛 靈明石猴 孫長老 火眼金睛 隱身法 定身法 圈子 Ph’nglui mglw’nafh Cthulhu R’lyeh wgah’nagl fhtagn! Along the shore the cloud waves break, The twin suns sink behind the lake, The shadows lengthen In Carcosa. Strange is the night where black stars rise, And strange moons circle through the skies, But stranger still is Lost Carcosa. Songs that the Hyades shall sing, Where flap the tatters of the King, Must die unheard in Dim Carcosa. Song of my soul, my voice is dead, Die thou, unsung, as tears unshed Shall dry and die in Lost Carcosa. Does mies jeschet boene doesef douvema enitemaus Y'AI 'NG'NGAH YOG-SOTHOTH H'EE—L'GEB F'AI THRODOG UAAAH All hail the glory of Vaiśravaṇa. o'ṃ All hail the instrument of divine righteousness, o'ṃ All hail the exultant and glorious celestial jewel, o'ṃ All hail the swift thunderbolt of exalted strength, virtue, and glory! o'ṃ Homage to all-pervading diamond thunderbolts. Utterly crush and devour! o'ṃ All hail the glory of Agni. o'ṃ! All hail the radiant divine all-illuminating light, bursting and streaming forth in all directions, o'ṃ Glory to Divine perfection, o'ṃ All hail! A ra pa ca na. o'ṃ

How are you doing, friend?

>>3386 >石猴 美猴王 孫悟空 齊天大聖 行者 鬥戰勝佛 靈明石猴 孫長老 火眼金睛 隱身法 定身法 圈子 >Ph’nglui mglw’nafh Cthulhu R’lyeh wgah’nagl fhtagn! Along the shore the cloud waves break, The twin suns sink behind the lake, The shadows lengthen In Carcosa. Strange is the night where black stars rise, And strange moons circle through the skies, But stranger still is Lost Carcosa. Songs that the Hyades shall sing, Where flap the tatters of the King, Must die unheard in Dim Carcosa. Song of my soul, my voice is dead, Die thou, unsung, as tears unshed Shall dry and die in Lost Carcosa. Does mies jeschet boene doesef douvema enitemaus Y'AI 'NG'NGAH YOG-SOTHOTH H'EE—L'GEB F'AI THRODOG UAAAH All hail the glory of Vaiśravaṇa. o'ṃ All hail the instrument of divine righteousness, o'ṃ All hail the exultant and glorious celestial jewel, o'ṃ All hail the swift thunderbolt of exalted strength, virtue, and glory! o'ṃ Homage to all-pervading diamond thunderbolts. Utterly crush and devour! o'ṃ All hail the glory of Agni. o'ṃ! All hail the radiant divine all-illuminating light, bursting and streaming forth in all directions, o'ṃ Glory to Divine perfection, o'ṃ All hail! A ra pa ca na. o'ṃ

I think you think therefore I am.

>>3353 Figure it out.

>>3403 i just said i would

i have been watching naruto for the first time and have found some kind of connection. i cant explain it but when i do notice its like an innate feeling of this world and the fictional one being connected. i have always daydreamed and wouldnt be surprised if it is a result of my amateur research into tulpas and chaos magic over the years. im not even a weeb, i dont self insert, i just feel like its connected. i hadnt slept all last night and today while i was trying to sleep just before i got into those half sleeps where your breething is sort of manual but not completely, at that moment i was absolutely convinced that naruto was a real universe (which it probably is who knows). my next consistent memory was coming to staring at the ceiling with no thoughts and just that objective truth in my bones. i have always daydreamed but never have i been disillusioned. even in similar sleep problems i could always keep on top even during it. is something messing with me? i have had sleep paralysis like entities but only twice and one was neutral, like a humanoid dark vapour with artificial lightbulb like light. i also have a genetic predisposition to schizophrenia

>>3405 when i wrote this i forgot to add that there was a distinct sensation of being dragged in.

i probably have the type of problem that i wouldnt even be able to take a step bak and look at. it would be very hard for me to find it out, at least thats how i feel in this moment. if i smashed all my tech and went homeless in the woods for ten years i could probably do some cool feats. but i find that i can not think of certain things, or i have to take a weird round about semi dream trickery to get there. it is not totally an absence because sometimes i lack the conscious knowledge yet perform perfectly as if i knew/remembered. sometimes it feels like someone has removed the spot behind my eyes

>>3353 i fucking hate everything. thoughts?

i have a new enemy to fight, a new celestial jihad crusade to wage, it is against the evil shadow realm on /vt/. i know none of the few here will care or be brave enough, so i merely make this post to anchor the future endeavors

石猴 美猴王 孫悟空 齊天大聖 行者 鬥戰勝佛 靈明石猴 孫長老 火眼金睛 隱身法 定身法 圈子 Ph’nglui mglw’nafh Cthulhu R’lyeh wgah’nagl fhtagn! Along the shore the cloud waves break, The twin suns sink behind the lake, The shadows lengthen In Carcosa. Strange is the night where black stars rise, And strange moons circle through the skies, But stranger still is Lost Carcosa. Songs that the Hyades shall sing, Where flap the tatters of the King, Must die unheard in Dim Carcosa. Song of my soul, my voice is dead, Die thou, unsung, as tears unshed Shall dry and die in Lost Carcosa. Does mies jeschet boene doesef douvema enitemaus Y'AI 'NG'NGAH YOG-SOTHOTH H'EE—L'GEB F'AI THRODOG UAAAH All hail the glory of Vaiśravaṇa. o'ṃ All hail the instrument of divine righteousness, o'ṃ All hail the exultant and glorious celestial jewel, o'ṃ All hail the swift thunderbolt of exalted strength, virtue, and glory! o'ṃ Homage to all-pervading diamond thunderbolts. Utterly crush and devour! o'ṃ All hail the glory of Agni. o'ṃ! All hail the radiant divine all-illuminating light, bursting and streaming forth in all directions, o'ṃ Glory to Divine perfection, o'ṃ All hail! A ra pa ca na. o'ṃ [Pre-Chorus] I-I-I'm Lil Tay-K, I don't think you want no action (Gang, gang) You want action, you get turned into past tense (In the past) Your boys deep? Well, let's get to subtractin' (Bah, bah) Smith & Wesson made my .9 with some compassion (Skrrt) [Chorus] Fuck-fuck-fuck a beat, I was tryna beat a case (Gang, gang) But I ain't beat that case, bitch, I did the race (Skrrt, skrrt) Beat it up, where I nut? Shawty face (Lil' bitch) Eli Blast crackin' 4s like a vase (Gang) Pop a nigga then I go out my way (Skrrt) Do the dash then I go out the way Rob-rob-rob a nigga shoes, rob a nigga lace (Gimme that shit, nigga) We tryna see a hunnid bands in our face (Skrrt)

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[Verse] Pimp gon' be eatin' good noodles every day (Free Pimp) Bitch, I'm drawin' doodles, Tay-K paint the way (You're a simp) Choppa tear your dudies into fish fillet (Heh, lil' bitch) I-I-I woke up too moody, who gon' die today? (Skrrt) Shoot a fuckboy in his motherfuckin' face (Grrah, grrah) We-we-we cookin' up, boy, you don't wanna go dat way (Dat way, dat way) Gotta go dat way, you get robbed for your rackades (Rackades, rackades) Gotta go dat way, boy, you not gon' be happy (Hahaha) I-I-I tote 50s, I'm a shooter like Young Pappy (Pew, pew) Bitch try to rob, we make her dance, Michael Jackson (Skrrt) We was plottin', y'all was tryna get the packn' (Lil' bitch) Get the packn', you get robbed for a fraction (Gimme that shit) [Pre-Chorus] I-I-I'm Lil Tay-K, I don't think you want no action You want action, you get turned into past tense Your boys deep? Well, let's get to subtractin' Smith & Wesson made my .9 with some compassion [Chorus] Fuck-fuck-fuck a beat, I was tryna beat a case But I ain't beat that case, bitch, I did the race (Skrrt, skrrt) Beat it up, where I nut? Shawty face (Gang, gang) Eli Blast crackin' 4s like a vase Pop a nigga then I go out my way (Grrah, grrah) Do the dash then I go out the way Rob-rob-rob a nigga shoes, rob a nigga lace (Gimme that shit, nigga) We tryna see a hunnid bands in our face Fuck-fuck-fuck a beat, I was tryna beat a case (Gang, gang) But I ain't beat that case, bitch, I did the race (Skrrt, skrrt) Beat it up, where I nut? Shawty face (Lil' bitch) Eli Blast crackin' 4s like a vase (Gang) Pop a nigga then I go out my way (Skrrt) Do the dash then I go out the way Rob-rob-rob a nigga shoes, rob a nigga lace (Gimme that shit, nigga) We tryna see a hunnid bands in our face (Fih)

>>3444 note i gotta fix that layer lol, thats what i get for being lazy.

this will also serve as my vtuber conspiracies thread

khaos lord (baal) bael blaze

New thought killer just dropped: feel like shit and hopeless and fucked; not able to think. Don't know what to do. Can't even think about what I feel or what is responsible. Just stewing in my own hopelessness and misery. My hatred is low at this point and I can honestly understand why people off themselves. I want to do other things but everything falls out of my head. Thanks to my bro fro showing me this kickass song though a year or two ago, music has been my one companion this lifetime: https://youtu.be/b_kZD22_MQ4

The one thing I fear is completely killingy ego and becoming what I want because I have no idea if that's what I want and I don't want a bottom feeding parasite to latch onto me by pretending to be me. I have to make the new thing flawless but that takes mental bandwidth and im stuck enough as it is with my life.

What's frustrating is that in this dead state I feel as if the dumbness will continue into any hatred I cultivate. Like, if I cultivate it, I may get angry but it will be directionless. I want my fire back ngl

This one in particular hit kinda hard because I had only listened to the other version and I guess this is a reference to it. The different sound made it kino in a different way ig https://youtu.be/VSewcJvKMQc

Never shoulda started looking into hololive, man, now I get masonic shit like this just popping up on my recommended

Everytime something happens it's like a piece of my brain is physically cauterize and I can't think. An "event" = just one more little topic or thing I can no longer reference or frame or connect. I want anger, but I want the crystal kind. I crave clarity. I think maybe you can store it up like semen retention since it's all energy. Thats what I have kinda been forced to do due to circumstances my whole life. I have never been allowed to show it so it stays stored. It's all apart of my transformation ig

i think watching naruto years ago has readied me to look into and develop the phenomena of the eyes that i experience. will update when i flesh it out.

i got my new rig so may make more edits. maybe even more intensive high quality ones if it stands up to the strain. this is the old idea, gonna add the temple of the machete blog post later

wasnt thinking about this but the song just came on in my playlist at random and i started observing the lyrics and it just popped into my head as a connection? fire song though, been with it for a few years https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wsaEan-ogyk make a connection if you want, doesnt matter probably nothing, i just like it. on a different slide not related to above and refering to >>3498 synchronisity sucks when you come up with something and then discover theres like ten other people who came up with it before or at the same time as you (not this, another thing) like the one who wins all battles thing or ninja is one who endures or "You, conqueror of adversities." - aldia. but it (the different flavours) also gives me inspiration so its good ig also music https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRD9BqjIk-E

>>3500 excuse the colour coding, just something i came up with in the moment for my own sake.

>>3500 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KUlQYsYoY4I

>>3511 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Classical_conditioning

>>3517 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prefrontal_cortex https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neuroplasticity https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operant_conditioning

new opp: tubby or custard, who seems to switch his identities a lot which led to some mouth breathing schizos to assume i am him somehow, which is annoying for me. i am the Great Sage Equal of Heaven. not tubby custard.

i have thought of a few ways to simulate the fire presence. one is when there is a risk/reward scenario that requires your focus of a lot attention, like delicate work tiny work, or HIGH stakes adrenaline. another that helps is opening the eyes as wide as they can to take in as much stimuli, the idea being to emulate the hungry fire sensation (you are like dark souls right, but you have to control it like lord of hollows ending). due to my personal sensations it is forcused on eyes, so candle gazing i learned from grandfather, he said it morphs into a cross but i will adapt it to meditate on myself like relfection. this covers eye fixation, but may lead to wide field eyes vision and more of a passive trance? but the fire is relevant. another sensation is high emotion due to a book, or amv, or similar, and the sensation is the cold in the spine that radiates out. i can somewhat do mental gymnastics to lower the threshold for activation to media like hyping your self up or actively trying to feel a thing. haven't linked it to fire presence eyes yet. probably most shocks can help like when you are hit with cold water (full body), it might come with the deliberate control you (can) exert as a sovereign over yourself to keep your composure, actively trying not to shiver, and leave in an orderly manner. with the hand signs i am still just on rin, trying to cultivate the energy/get my mind into that flow, so idk what would be for the fire presence of the frontal lobe. maybe the internet burnt it out and a shitlord demon took up residence there, a real babbler.

the commisar with the gas mask(?) looked fresh as hell in darktide near the end of the game. like tech priests too, i dont really care either way about normal commisars though they just made it well this time.

this was actually my introduction to lil Tay Kay. i have yet to find this specific version of the song though. maybe they made it for the video

btw i know when a niner is talking bro especially since it is this type of oshi wit it. we cool, i live by the NAP so just know. wont be tricking me either irl i never sleep mf, but we may or may not have a common enemy, not sure since that one guy posted that art, but idk what sentiments they are yknow.

me n Shondo tripping hard off a whole bag of cubensis (it was just lying there)

>>3522 hail to the tight rope walker

moon should be nice and bright for training.

scared of losing myself because i wont be able to exercise my control, but that may be what i need to get control? like fight club movie, you can only do anything once you have nothing. my ties keep me weak. human. flawed and temporary.

>>3525 forgor

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiVEn3lcR0k&t=7s https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BlnSmdB3td0

>>3520 oh yeah, also no blink/flinch training

i can only imagine the state one could enter with applied effort during this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3oaHbedkgdM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vmEuNsk0NwY https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMKJ9StWMkk

hey, dude from that one thread, maybe you mistyped one slight thing, but in case you meant that thing which only i would catch, i am no fool, and am ever watchful for that type of opp. so if you are then you failed and if you arent then nevermind.

>>3446 forgot what filter it was but hopefully this is a little better (it is when used in other things anyway)

>>3545 lol

i remember being so cold that all i had to do was sleep in the stairwell of a parking lot which was somehow WAY warmer than just a few feet outside, but having to wake up before anyone used it. i would then wander around town waiting for the sun to rise fully, and i remember going to the highest spot, and being in disbelief as the sun touched me, i honestly thought i was hallucinating and that there was no warmth like this and that it would go away, but also having immense joy/satisfaction as it only grew and stayed

>>3547 those days were interesting because i had nothing to do except all i had to do was wander.

if i could just remember what i wanted to then a lot of my issues would be gone, i could do something to better my position, but i am not allowed ig

was on 4chan and someone else was larping as "sun wukong" with a different vibe. great sage should be enough of a difference but just in case i am the great sage shokage, or the Great Shokage Sage or Shokage, the Great Sage

ayo they got my flavour. you will know me by my body spray and spilt monster energy drinks that i will wear at the junction at stonehenge at the crucial time. https://www.lynxformen.com/uk/p/emerald-sage-premium-body-spray.html/08720181445576

>>3353 Kill yourself, you fucking animal.

>>3560 imagine being this down bad for an internet person lol, kinda pathetic ngl.

eternal hell krieg death march to ascension https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkLDh-UNqGI

do yall reckon Patrick Bateman is awakened to vacuity?

>>3560 keep digging the hole, you scared little punk ass sinner. crazy how you have realised your position and are trying to prevent justice. ima let it spin like a spiral took a number two wit my rifle spiral nigga a fucking spiral

i crave control. i need emotional detachment, and i can turn that shit on at will somewhat, but when i do i turn actually dumb, base, an animal. i need some kind of crystal reptilie mind detachment that i can turn on/off. wh o knows maybe i will get there inevitably through life. i always have that spark or drive in me, i have cultivated the tine thing through my life, sometimes unknowing, half knowing, and fully knowing. to the point that i can move even when nearly unconscious, and my recall works without awareness. if one could hardwire their important parts into their every neuron, and even their brain stem, spine, stomach etc, that would be a good backup. guess thats why they call it SPIRITS, hah!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6GicBf262fA sleep deprived and in sun. within about 10 minutes breathing became fuller, and heartbeat, which noticably interrupted the end of each hum, calmed down to the point of going away. had the idea that Pyo(?) mudra could be used also in addiction or compulsion since it directs energy. was using the chant as described by sadhguru, that is starting with A anc slowly closing the mouth. while the heart was fast, used anjali as well, shifted into rin. interrupted at 20 minutes due to npcs

learning everyday

memetics thread, also maintenance post because someone is trying to bury my thread https://boards.4chan.org/x/thread/40972275#p40973842