>>19979
>Update
Last night (or maybe today at around 00:30, I'm not sure) I was feeling conflicted and decided to do two sigils just for try.
>Kamea making for sigil in blank paper
In one, I used the classic 3x3 planetary kamea (mercury?), wrote down my wish, removed repeated letters and vowels, and left the numbers, which I added or reduced using Pythagorean reduction, giving me four numbers for the sigil writing in the kamea.
>First sigil
I drew it on the kamea you know, and then on another piece of paper with a circle, triangle, and other decorations (copy pasted without the kamea background)
>Incantation or evocation poetry
I also wrote my wish backwards, mirrored, as in or its like an incantation for evocation.
>Another sigil
I made another sigil, which was an abstract drawing of my wish. I made it more abstract until it looked like esoteric symbols and left it next to the first sigil on a blank piece of paper.
>The evocation thing
I rewrote my wish backwards on the blank piece of paper so I could read it. It sounded like gibberish, so I used it for an incantation as an evocation.
>Sigil charge (magnetic hands?)
I concentrated on relaxing, shaking and breathing while warming the sigil on the paper with my hands and saying softly, “This sigil is magnetized,” “Your will shall be done if you want it, if is your will talk to me you will do and no one will suffer in the process.”
>The lighter and the mirror
I looked for a lighter and went to a mirror and repeated the previous process while repeating the wish backwards as if evoking something
>Operation fucked
and I tried to burn the paper.
The damn lighter was empty, its just making sparks, I didn't set the paper on fire, and I was disappointed. I felt bad and stupid, so I erased the sigil and everything else from the paper woth a rubber, rolled up the paper, threw it in the trash, and went to sleep.
>The Catharsis effect of the ritual?
Strangely, I felt good, as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
>The dream, sleep and awake
I woke up and was aware of my body and sounds (like, i feel awake not sleep), but my eyes were still closed. I turned over in bed, putting my chest down and looking to one side (with my eyes closed), and I swear I saw the light of a candle (just the light, not the candle) while now start to breath like in meditation (maybe deep breath bacause of my chest being pressed by the bed). The first thing that came to my mind was, “Oh my God!, what a beautiful thing!, it's a kasina fire?.” the fire was like picrel but the blue down was more intense maybe.
I have been meditating, but not with candles, and I don't have the ability to visualize, so I guess it was a dream maybe, but for me it was a very advanced visualization that made me feel very happy.
I don't believe in these things, but my brain probably associated the lighter with candles, and I had that dream seconds before waking up, or somehow the meditation (or bad breath in the bed at that moment) led me to a state of advanced visualization after sleeping and before waking up like a lucid dream or a dream yoga.
I still remember the sigil and everything else, and I haven't forgotten it, but I don't even care anymore, although it feels strange because it's as if I no longer have the idea in my mind.
>The apopheny effect
A few hours ago, I saw some of my cat's hair in a shape similar to the abstract symbolic drawing of the second sigil in the floor. I guess the mind looks for things it wants to confirm. It was a little funny when I saw it on the floor and made me happy.
>The experience
It was fun. I don't feel like I did anything wrong, and I don't expect anything to happen. I actually sleep very good after this.
>Also
Supposedly, in my country, something happens on Halloween and witchcraft, and they light candles, but I don't think that has anything to do with it. I feel good, calm, and happy with others. Maybe it's just a placebo effect or sleeping well. Anyway, fun experience (I more an Atheist or Agnostic than a Morally buddhist at this point but i like buddha philosophy sometimes that's why used the flag)
Thanks anons.