>>10145 I have not continued the meditation. I used to have a therapist who I could psychically tell was a very advanced occultist and she also at one point told me not to take my meds (in secret. She was a therapist not a psychiatrist so she doesn’t do anything med related) but she was very taken aback at how I would send e-mails screaming at her because I thought she was secretly plotting against me and I was incredibly rude to her and I also had a crush on her and said inappropriate things. This is when I was trying to go off my meds cold turkey before I was arrested. She put up with so much of my shit and was genuinely trying to help me she suggested that I develop empathy and make a friend but when I made threats to shoot the school she worked at she finally had had enough and said “ I am not your therapist anymore.” I am much more stable now and I have just sent her in the snail mail an apology letter to her. Btw the crush is gone but still I feel a platonic emotional attachment to her because she is an occultist and she is EXTREMELY good at reading people and psychology. She genuinely cared about me and even when I brought up the Hindu yogis science of breath I could psychically feel that she knew exactly what I was talking about but for some reason as an occultist that practices in secret she couldn’t necessarily say so. She was familiar with William walker atkinson. My hope is that the apology letter might make her willing to maybe talk to me again and I can ask her the question if she would teach me to be more empathetic now that I am willing. I treated her like shit but I didn’t realize how delusional I was that she was secretly plotting against me. I think it is possible she might have even been an adept but if not that great then definitely a initiate and a higher level initiate at that too. If anyone can help me develop empathy she can. I don’t know if you have ever read atkinson’s book nuggets of the new thought but he talks about how if you can get rid of all hate and envy and malice and negative emotions then the law of attraction will bring you good things and might even somehow result in me getting off meds idk. Watch on YouTube William walker atkinson’s audio book clip “ how to enjoy/ be happy in life again he mentions that by having kindness towards everyone the universe draws it back to you but if you have hate for everyone the universe sends hate to you. So my thoughts are that if I can be more empathetic synchronicity will bring a situation that results in me getting off meds.

>>10177 Wanted to write a long post how to strengthen your will/resolve, how to commit to meditative practice better while analyzing your current issues and trying to tell you some unpleasant truths how you can fast forward if you are dedicated enough... and as I was trying to see how that message would have meshed with your lifepath... I got a message. <Let the child be a child Seems like you have a "benefactor". >>9774 This post from Anon was not a shitpost nor a misread at all. I didn't look into you in the help and guidance thread but now I somewhat had to look into you. That energy was from your benefactor. You managed to make a connection with an entity. She will take care of you. I don't know the details and how it will play out because the whole thing is fuzzy. Once you are ready to move on from this "child" phase of your life, you will have a chance to request assistance from this entity who is trying to guide you. I still recommend void meditation and the like, so you will have a better chance talking with her. Don't give up yet

/fringe/ revival soundtrack: https://8tracks.com/the_cartographer/magic-moments

IMPORTANT THREADS INDEX >>8269 — Magic Blog >>8130 — Off-topic Discussion/Shitposting >>4922 — Requests for Assistance >>1759 — Awakening >>1509 — /fringe/ Meta >>85 — Renouncing Lust >>5242 — /pol/ Containment >>84 — Diet & Fitness >>1097 — Library >>1389 — /fringe/ Music >>5812 — /fringe/ Memes & Humor >>7217 — Heated Discussion & Arguments >>6597 — Tulpamancy & Succubi

>>10345 that makes sense, its repetitive and annoying still. btw i was there in that thread as well.

>>10349 Had to add the still there,makes it match my feel better.

>>10341 These "green crystal witches" were powerful enough to target a vampire and a tripfag? It's strange that these internet covens get dismissed by many. The vampire threads on /x/ get good once in a while, but you have to dig in and lurk first.

This may sound stupid, but could someone here give me a spell or something to help me unfuck my life?

>>10444 Are you the gondolaposter in the awakening thread? I didn't think you'd need your life to get unfucked, but then again I haven't been reading your posts lately. But still I thought you were an adept if you're him.

>>10445 Sorry, I'm not him.

>>8815 I'd say red to indigo is a reasonable progression.

>>6314 Yeah, but what are the sexual things you can do?

>>6314 I cursed my neighbour and made him get into a car accident, side collision

>>10439 There is no automation in the Federation, it may seem so to the outsider, but this is the effect of making use of the enormous available workforce distributed to planets within a large area, with timelines moving at different speeds. When a large starship gunner presses the button to fire the large gun, it seems to charge up wirelessly at once. But the real process is one of political analysis and evaluation of the target being aimed at, including a voting procedure and allocation of the funds for the transfer of whatever amount of fuel is necessary to fire the gun. In the slower timeline, the process may take weeks. But the federation is so huge that they can do this. The problem is however visible when we work in real time to perform the physical conversion of technology. We now have roughly 3 months to transfer things before the time and energy deteriorates. Whatever wasn't converted will be lost. So weight your time carefully if you want to help. Tasks will be transferred into your daily life in the form suitable for performing them in your life, but these are the things you somehow wanted to bring over. Keep that in mind.

>>10440 As an example, for me personally this manifested as a need to work with serialization in C#.

>>10440 Interesting. I assume they'll check if I'm a glowie, correct? We shall see. Good day.

But yeah you can't exactly observe the observer more like..uh? Classic case of >help i am stuck in my own head! It'd be easier if there was something "stable" to like follow but instead it's just fake ever changing bs. And if i go too deep i just create new universe oops. And so here lies the issue with shapeshifting for me. I am not just "fusing" with a mind to then pull the data from it's higher and lower minds "principle of this animal" but more like going back and bringing back the first flesh but also something older beneath existence the one that birthed it. Can't even take notes of this stuff it makes no sense whatsoever written down also gravity.

>>10321 >bat innards in other dimension.. ah never mind it was pelvic floor and gonads uh. I forgot chicken had ovaries. Tracing back the "line" >:3

Anone, This is addressing your feel of there being a bad energy and an AI crawler trying to grasp the board. It appears after the first wave of mass-botposting was mitigated, a new actor appeared using a single bot with many arms, trained to interfere from a single location out to all boards on all sites. This was not done by the same entity who earlier ran the botspam on 4chan and also on here. It became functional yesterday, as evidenced by an empty post with a quote in it, bots create these because they imitate posts with only images on them, but they fail to attach the image because they were not trained to see images. Flagless nonsense posters are easy to spot here, so I acted swiftly. The issue is now once again solved.

I just had a realization while I was watching something video on youtube of a guy playing a game: Perhaps all those video games I played and T.V. shows I watched and the comics I read from when I was a child until now, actually helped me to become good at channeling entities. The media I'd consumed, I became so fascinated with it at a deep subconscious level, that my subconsciousness was probably compelled somehow to find the coalescations of relevant energies within the astral plane, and then just taking in those energies and feeling them allowed me greater enjoyment of printed & electronic media than I'd otherwise get. Perhaps immersive & enticing electronic & printed media can actually subconsciously compel people to become good at channeling without even consciously realizing it? Or perhaps I was just good at channeling due to my past life(s)?

Today at church, I'd managed to verifiably contact Jesus again, more verifiably than last time, but I could tell that this was a different Jesus egregore. After I'd asked Him to look into my history, He gave me a concerned look and pulled some kinda of energyform out of my skull, composed of a mass of white energies. After I got to the psychologist's office after mass, Amy randomly said >they're trying to kill you Then during the psychologist's appointment when I finally let down the alpha wave barrier, I'd suddenly felt some sort of large blue black & white energyform get shoved into my crotch through my crown all within the span of a split second. I've been trying to get it removed since then. Afterwards I ate lunch and drove home, but on the way home I was getting drowsy again, and it got so bad that I was slipping in and out of consciousness and then Amy contacted the smileberg poster's subconsciousness unprompted, and I saw a hypnogogic vision of him briefly on the road. Iirc, he said he'd help me stay awake, but I'd decided to refuse his help and just stay awake anyway since I was maybe 10 minutes away from home by then. I then got back just fine and tried taking a nap, but as soon as my soul began leaving my body, I felt it going to some sort of horrible place, so I'd jerked my soul back to my body. I think I'm gonna to go church for a bit soon before dinner. In hindsight, I think the thing that got shoved inside of me might be the same thing that got shoved inside of me in >>9910 , and also the same thing that Zeus removed from me in >>9182 . Some entity really wants to shove whatever the hell that thing is inside of me and probably use it to control me.

>>10432 I have no idea what it is this time, and wasn't aware if any subconscious part being contacted, but after reading this, I took the liberty to direct an energy force at you to wash through and push you upwards. It seems to have been successful. I can't explain the mechanics exactly, but I saw some energy around you which was more personal than before, which at first glance made you look weaker and may cause spirits with a bully mentality try to attack you. But it also made you look more like a real person than most people, which causes me to feel a strong anger inside when I see them wanting to attack someone for having a real personality. I think this development however marks some new stage, maybe closer to a process finishing.

Take note of the subtle implication of this meme: The viewer will focus on the NPC of no clear colour, but the real message lies in the leftmost character. He is "black", Nigredo, and wearing the red hat, achieving Rubedo. Only in the eyes of the NPC is he white, Albedo, but through this interaction he is completing the alchemical process and creating the philosopher's stone.

>>10422 >how the average neophyte thinks nowadays

>>10428 akshully. If you look close enough you can see that it's not the black wojack variant but the regular wojack painted brown with the bucket tool. He is a blackwashed wojack! This makes him Albedo -> Nigredo -> Rubedo Oh and the NPC says white supremaist in red! He only sees the rubedo! He sees no skin color. The previous stages of growth are invisible to him! >>10429 So nothing new in the past 20 years? Damm!

Process of painting my own Yantra. I meant to use this for meditation, but the painting itself turned into a transformation process. Day 1 -2.

Day 3. I consider this done. Expressing something in this format of abstract art was pretty easy.

>>10148 First night after beginning this, I had a dream about being in a landscape with four areas, like the main structure of the image. Events took place there but I can't recall what it was. The second night I had various dreams in parallel planes, during which I was aware of the image as a physical form which had a monumental and calming effect on the entire area. It was just sitting there like a representation of something ancient. In this vision I saw the external form of it and yellow energy was floating by like water around a stone.

>>9869 Considering how obscure the original image is, maybe it's safe to assume he browsed? Then again, he could've just found it the same way whoever first created Fringe Girl did.

>>9873 it's a popular avatar picture and not obscure at all

>>7180 >62 PPH currently I am glad that The Arena is finally operational and it's fulfilling it's purpose. More than 200 posts a day is truly something from the old quite autistic (but fun?) /fringe/ era. Hope OP will have a chance to witness the RETVRN

>>9637 Finally managed to watch this. The stream was spammed to hell when I checked and was barely watchable >>9641 Only Tarrant had the memetic energy to have a chance against Fringe Girl. The trend he started was the reason why several altchans were removed from the web. His actions killed 8chan once. Wonder if he shits in diapers already in prison. The diaperfags knew what they were doing. Smiley won at least. He must meet Terry for a rematch.

>>9637 >calm, composed, impeccable, relentless Smiley was a fucking chad here.

8DUELS EVENT STARTING NOW https://cytu.be/r/8duels

Anomalous Dream Experience: I was outside at some place that resembled an amusement park, an artificial environment with lots of meandering paths and groups of people wandering around. My dog had run away and refused to listen to me, so I was following him and trying to catch him. For some reason I started crawling on my hands and knees at some point, and accidentally planted my hand into some stranger's blood that was dribbled on the concrete. This was particularly upsetting to me because I would be forced to touch other things, (like my dog's leash) and figure out how to sanitize them before I could relax. Cut to the next segment, I was trying to take a shower but my mom was standing right around the corner between the bathroom door and my room's door (this layout was unlike anywhere we've ever lived, but it does seem vaguely familiar). I asked her to move so that I could go to my room safely when I'm finished with my shower but she started trying to argue about how she's actually in front of the laundry room and not my room or the bathroom (which was entirely beside the point) This next segment is where it gets interesting, but difficult to describe. I had lots of inner turmoil from the preceding events, but then I was a completely different person while still containing the thoughts and energy of suffering. I had forgotten who I am and became fully immersed in being this schizophrenic black guy ranting in his car. Over time I became lucid and started to remember who I am, and gradually detached myself from being the other guy, instead being myself sitting in my own car in a dark parking lot. It was just like lucid dreaming in that I was looking at my hands and paying attention to my bodily awareness to anchor myself in "reality" (which led me to falsely believe that myself in the car was wakefulness) Yet I had 2 different "sights" simultaneously and of equal vividness, the other being what had become a dashboard POV of this guy sitting in his car. So I'm just sitting there trying to handle this experience, frightened but reminding myself that I'm safe and in control of my environment, focusing on the reality of my hands and my body in the seat. Meanwhile this dude is so fucking loud ranting crazy shit at me. He spoke in what could be mistaken for the average negroidal vernacular, but it was actually kind of unique and distinct. I cannot emphasize enough the intensity, the mutual empathic terror we felt, and the steadily rising volume of his voice Finally he pulled out a gun and put it to his temple, and his last words went something like this: You know what kind of pain I'm in. I's gonna show you, where I is at... PAIN! When he pulled the trigger I was instantly relieved and grateful that he wasn't me. However my relief was short-lived as a dangerously powerful gust of wind, visibly carrying massive amounts of sand and dust, began to blow in the direction toward my windshield. I felt anxiety about how I'm unable to leave the car or even drive away. But just then I became lucid for real, and woke up doubly grateful that none of it really happened, including the blood incident. After I woke up and recorded everything to the best of my ability, I tried to fall back asleep. In hypnogogia I saw a woman with a matronly figure wearing a black mask and what resembled both a French maid outfit and a nun's habit, beckoning me into the darkness with a gloved hand. I was afraid but I knew it was for my own good. Unfortunately my body was still too excited to immerse myself and follow her like I felt compelled to do. I did sleep more that night, but can't remember if I dreamed again. So what was this experience, really? Was I simply reintegrating a disturbed fragment of myself? Did some local hobowizard telepathically force me to witness his suicide? Or both?

>>9920 >In hypnogogia I saw a woman with a matronly figure wearing a black mask and what resembled both a French maid outfit and a nun's habit, beckoning me into the darkness with a gloved hand. You need to be extremely careful with that. I would advise you next time to ask this figure the three questions of what she is, what she wants to do with you, and by what or whose authority she's there. Otherwise, you're going to get fucked, and not in a good way.

>>9995 >Degenerate flag You appear to have the impression that it was a fetish thing, because of her outfit. While I would probably find her sexy under normal circumstances, I wasn't really thinking of her that way at all. This dark feminine archetype seems to show up every time I have a profound experience >>3395 >>3480 I've never ever felt threatened by her at all. It was all beyond words but this time I felt like she was inviting me to have another experience like the one I had that same night, and that it would also be uncomfortable, painful and scary but I would come out of it better off.

>>9878 Wouldn't surprise me tbh, where did she really come from all of a sudden?

>>9830 That was me late at night linking a dying thread. This is the typical /x/ thread where the OP dumps a greentext wordwall and bails.

>>9761 >Did you want this thread to be this way too? I didn't say I was omnipotent. I work within the limitations I have. That said, you know effects involving other people (especially people who practice to any extent) is more difficult. But I didn't even try, to be honest. >Will you post your findings in this thread at least? Yeah, if there's anything worth reporting, I will. >Personally when I make a theory how my magic works it breaks down This hasn't been my experience. As for the experiments, the point is I haven't been able to come up with good ones that can prove or disprove what I explained in the OP. I do spells involving thoughtforms, and they work, but I don't have a way to isolate the mechanisms at work. For example, I recently experimenting with intensely visualizing an object. The next day, someone I met gave me several instances of that object because they didn't know what to do with them. The thing is, this was already going to happen days before, although I didn't know it (retrocausality). Did the spell influence this person's thinking (collective unconscious)? I didn't want the thread to turn into us just throwing our beliefs or intuitions around, because that's what we always do. I want us to design experimental spells that teach us where our beliefs and intuitions are right, and where they are wrong.

There's other aspects of magic we could focus on. For example, lust for results. We all think we know why lust for results ruins results. But what if we designed experiments that proved or disproved what we think we know? I remember doing this years ago when I was told sigils had to be forgotten in order to work. They don't. As long as you fully detach yourself from the desire for them to work, they work. I have proved this experimentally many times. There are instances, however, where it's easier forgetting about the spell than detaching yourself from the outcome. I concluded that the attachment itself acts as a counter-spell because when it comes down to it, the feeling of want (lack) feels very much like an involuntary spell.

>>9871 I've drawn the conclusion that things rarely work for the reason we believe them to work, unless it's something very specific with a clear goal. Example of this would be something like >my application for [something] is taking too long and I do a thorough divination to find out the reason for it, then push on the thing that's causing the issue. In these cases it my be that the person who was to handle my request is on holiday, is ill, or there's a pile of work causing my stuff to be delayed. Then I have something to work with, and a combination of asking various spiritual or alien entities for help along with contacting the office(or what it may be) through multiple channels to get things moving again, may result in a quick solution. The other situation is when there is a lack of information but you have a clear goal in mind. That's when the approach chosen will have to contain a few element to work, in my experience: >force >multiple avenues of effect If you throw enough energy into something, you will get an effect. And if you include enough symbolism with a large number of connections, you will get an effect. This poses another issue, which is that the aim may be very off when the effect shows. However, it may still work out, because it symbolically does the job, and end up where you wanted it to in the end. An example of this strange working of intent, which may not seem magical, I found when watching documentaries about the Vietnam war. The tet offensive was generally seen as successful by historians because of the attack on the American embassy in Saigon which was broadcast over the world, and it caused public opinion to sway, which contributed to the Americans pulling out from Vietnam. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tet_offensive_attack_on_the_United_States_embassy However, the actual military campaign was a huge failure, where a mass of infantry and soviet tanks died for no real benefit on the ground, as they became victims to American bombings. The one little thing that worked was the attack on the embassy, performed by a dozen infiltrators who snuck in as the main offensive was taking place.

>>9047 So close. Anyone know how to rekindle a feeling of desire? I used to be able to focus it towards worthwhile endeavors, but I haven't felt it at all these past few days. also for some reason I seem to always feel horrible during the night, wtf is up with that

>>9361 Do you have an energy blockage blocking the desire’s energy flows?

Breaking pledge today.