Nigga are you ok?

>>2971 i tried drinking to death and it didn't work tried taking pills but i threw them up too quick for them to do anything i've heard sodium nitrite is decent

>>3021 Same and now im on keto and doing pretty good

Very hard to find resources on this. It's like this is more taboo than loli. I've done a lot of thinking and a little research and settled on the "exit bag" method. Take a couple breaths and you pass-out/fall sleep into the warm embrace of oblivion. I want to avoid a home-brew approach. Which means assembly with scuba/hospital gear. In short: - 20cf nitrogen tank - a low pressure regulator 15 l/pm (lpm) (at least down to 3 to 5 psi) - non-rebreather mask The problem is I think an oxygen mask (or fittings?) are deliberately designed so that you can't hook them up to a nitrogen tank to avoid exactly what we're discussing here.

>>3210 Just got a regulator (CGA-580). It's rated for Argon, but should work with Nitrogen. After some research I found the hardest thing is a non-rebreather (NBR) mask. The goal is to not "re-breathe" the O2+CO2 after exhaling. All the EMS masks are china plastic shit which absolutely will not do the job. I'm finding, the hard way, why people just use the "bag" method. Another option is to use a diving mask, but that's when you probably need to an "adapter' between the mask and regulator (oxygen/nitrogen).

>>3216 How'd it go?

>>3218 Getting the N2 tank (20-35 cu ft). I have a local gas supplier, but mildly concerned if they ask questions/etc. Will call them up and see what the "logistics" are for buying/refilling a tank. Might get one off of Amazon if it's easier to refill instead. I'll buy the china plastic mask and test it out for giggles.

>>3219 The mental "cost" of getting the damn thing is too damn high. I've been putting it off for weeks. Just came back from "going out" to a local event and the desire reignited, but only because I still have a little alcohol in me. Fucking ironic, normally one should feel good while mildly inebriated. I dress good and had a conversation with someone about local events. Drank enough to feel comfortable to express myself and dance to the music (and with a lady), but there still was no "connection" to anyone. Feels like I'm a fucking alien trying to fit in. I'll buy the damn thing, just need to lose a little more hope.

>>3224 >Just came back from "going out" to a local event and the desire reignited Holy shit, I relate to this so hard. When I (rarely) end up going out to a party, and get drunk, I find myself saying out loud stuff like "holy shit, I hate all of this. I hate everybody. I connect with no one and I wish I was dead." Nothing serves as a better reminder of how alone I am than to go out and be among my peers. One thing I've found that's interesting is shrooms. I seem to conflate coming up on shrooms with "dying," and it's an amazing feeling that I'm going to leave all of this behind for an "unknown" at least for a while. Check it out if you haven't

>>3227 I've been exploring local EDM events for the past couple weeks. I've never been more social in my entire life. It's ironic, the more people you're around the more lonely you feel. Everyone, and I do mean everyone, is with someone. Either a group of friends or a partner. Also, I have a knack for getting hit on by other guys. Every time. Fucking hell. I thought drinking and dancing at EDM events would help, but even then it's like I'm missing "something" that everyone seems to have. Is it some kind of tribal/mob mentality? If you're too different/unrelateable, then you're an outcast and have no place with anyone. This actually turned me away from traveling. I attended a few cons, until I realized the worst part was leaving and seeing everyone having someone to go away with whilst I had the choice of leaving to drink alone or returning to the hotel alone. I was at fucking Oslo and Copenhagen, and the experience was the same. Beautiful cities, but so fucking lonely. Trying to find excuses to fill time, but at the end of the day you're beset by your own devils. >shrooms Honestly, "drugs" like that make me uneasy. Kinda like when I was nervous about getting drunk the first time I guess. I don't think I'll go this far. Maybe ego death? It feels like another form of escapism. I know, complaining/whining, but there's no one to turn to. If you do, then it's like "I have issues I wanna cry about, pay attention to me". Kinda defeats the purpose, you know? If I'm gonna kms, then I'll do it quietly. Don't want people thinking I'm doing it for attention/clout.

>>3231 >I don't think I'll go this far Fair enough!

>>3231 Alright, here's an update no one asked for, nor wants. It's almost 12AM, and I have tequila shots + gin drinks brewing inside me. And it's one one of those nights where you need to close one of your eyes to balance your presence. Regardless, I decided to "go out" and attend a music event relevant to my taste for the past couple weeks. Fucking hell, the alcohol is hitting hard. But I managed to meet a very good person, who invited and met me with a large group of people. I drink enough to relax, and dance/move on the dance floor to the point where I don't care. This was enough to catch the attention of some good people. TL;DR: go out and attends relevant to your interests. The goals is to put your sexy self out there. As opposed to spending time alone. Believe me, I wanted to spend my time alone playing/experiencing/living Wani Hug that Gator (for real). tl;dr tl;dr, I had an amazing night out today, vibing to some good DJs who played beats relevant to my taste. Lots of good people I met. AND, I had at least two women scoot by and say "she's/they're both single". I dropped the ball and didn't catch who exactly they were referring to, but it's something.

>>3233 Addendum: do not attend these events with any expectations; You'll not meet your significant other. In fact, you'll almost definitely feel worse because you'll feel alone. Everyone will have significant other. I don't event know what my point is. God dammit, the alcohol is hitting hard.

>>3234 Why the fuck did I attach that img, it's been two hours and I've been listening & dancing alone in my living/kitchen room. Burning off the alcohol (fed 2 tequila shots by a lovely lady, and 3 cocktails of my own volition) before hitting the hay. Feeling pretty okay now. Honestly, don't know where this is heading. I can see meeting/hitching with someone at these events (women are more likely to vibe with you if they're told by other women you're amazing). But really, I have no idea how to feel anymore. thanks for listening to my drunken ted talk no one asked for I'm abusing this platform as my personal diary. That's what this is. Yes. Also, currently listening to: Brothers in Arms (extended version) - Tom Holkenborg aka Junkie XL

>>3233 >dat uptick I'll see ya in a week, kid