Nigga are you ok?

>>2971 i tried drinking to death and it didn't work tried taking pills but i threw them up too quick for them to do anything i've heard sodium nitrite is decent

>>3021 Same and now im on keto and doing pretty good

Very hard to find resources on this. It's like this is more taboo than loli. I've done a lot of thinking and a little research and settled on the "exit bag" method. Take a couple breaths and you pass-out/fall sleep into the warm embrace of oblivion. I want to avoid a home-brew approach. Which means assembly with scuba/hospital gear. In short: - 20cf nitrogen tank - a low pressure regulator 15 l/pm (lpm) (at least down to 3 to 5 psi) - non-rebreather mask The problem is I think an oxygen mask (or fittings?) are deliberately designed so that you can't hook them up to a nitrogen tank to avoid exactly what we're discussing here.

>>3210 Just got a regulator (CGA-580). It's rated for Argon, but should work with Nitrogen. After some research I found the hardest thing is a non-rebreather (NBR) mask. The goal is to not "re-breathe" the O2+CO2 after exhaling. All the EMS masks are china plastic shit which absolutely will not do the job. I'm finding, the hard way, why people just use the "bag" method. Another option is to use a diving mask, but that's when you probably need to an "adapter' between the mask and regulator (oxygen/nitrogen).

>>3216 How'd it go?

>>3218 Getting the N2 tank (20-35 cu ft). I have a local gas supplier, but mildly concerned if they ask questions/etc. Will call them up and see what the "logistics" are for buying/refilling a tank. Might get one off of Amazon if it's easier to refill instead. I'll buy the china plastic mask and test it out for giggles.

>>3219 The mental "cost" of getting the damn thing is too damn high. I've been putting it off for weeks. Just came back from "going out" to a local event and the desire reignited, but only because I still have a little alcohol in me. Fucking ironic, normally one should feel good while mildly inebriated. I dress good and had a conversation with someone about local events. Drank enough to feel comfortable to express myself and dance to the music (and with a lady), but there still was no "connection" to anyone. Feels like I'm a fucking alien trying to fit in. I'll buy the damn thing, just need to lose a little more hope.

>>3224 >Just came back from "going out" to a local event and the desire reignited Holy shit, I relate to this so hard. When I (rarely) end up going out to a party, and get drunk, I find myself saying out loud stuff like "holy shit, I hate all of this. I hate everybody. I connect with no one and I wish I was dead." Nothing serves as a better reminder of how alone I am than to go out and be among my peers. One thing I've found that's interesting is shrooms. I seem to conflate coming up on shrooms with "dying," and it's an amazing feeling that I'm going to leave all of this behind for an "unknown" at least for a while. Check it out if you haven't

>>3227 I've been exploring local EDM events for the past couple weeks. I've never been more social in my entire life. It's ironic, the more people you're around the more lonely you feel. Everyone, and I do mean everyone, is with someone. Either a group of friends or a partner. Also, I have a knack for getting hit on by other guys. Every time. Fucking hell. I thought drinking and dancing at EDM events would help, but even then it's like I'm missing "something" that everyone seems to have. Is it some kind of tribal/mob mentality? If you're too different/unrelateable, then you're an outcast and have no place with anyone. This actually turned me away from traveling. I attended a few cons, until I realized the worst part was leaving and seeing everyone having someone to go away with whilst I had the choice of leaving to drink alone or returning to the hotel alone. I was at fucking Oslo and Copenhagen, and the experience was the same. Beautiful cities, but so fucking lonely. Trying to find excuses to fill time, but at the end of the day you're beset by your own devils. >shrooms Honestly, "drugs" like that make me uneasy. Kinda like when I was nervous about getting drunk the first time I guess. I don't think I'll go this far. Maybe ego death? It feels like another form of escapism. I know, complaining/whining, but there's no one to turn to. If you do, then it's like "I have issues I wanna cry about, pay attention to me". Kinda defeats the purpose, you know? If I'm gonna kms, then I'll do it quietly. Don't want people thinking I'm doing it for attention/clout.

>>3231 >I don't think I'll go this far Fair enough!