Seriously. How are you guys such miserable fucking blackpilled losers? I'm just shy of 30 but I still mentally feel like a teenager, and still get taken for one between my baby face and tard demeanor. I still see beauty in the world, like when I step out at 2AM on a windy night. I still feel pride from tiny, mundane accomplishments. I still get bouts of euphoria from little things like driving, hobbies, music, vidya, even going to work. Even when I was a NEET with no friends and nothing but a shitty laptop, it was still easy to find some peace and make myself happy. You were handed a neurological cheat code to inner fulfillment when you were born and instead you blame it for your largely self-inflicted lack of outer happiness. >but I have no gf and I am le sad That's another thing. The tism makes you a perfect match to a whole fucking class of women with obsessive tendencies and abandonment issues, who gravitate towards sperg men whether they mean to or not: Cluster B. Especially BPD. A co-dependent autist who puts up with them is their holy grail life partner. You could be getting pussy three times a day from a kinky chick who practically thinks you're Jesus, and would forgive you for burning down a hospital full of sick kids and therapy dogs after you beat her senseless. But you won't stop dreaming of some stacy with the curves and psychological depth of a chihuahua. Or stop being such a repulsive degenerate that even the neediest, most vulnerable damaged goods stay the hell away from you. Do some laundry. Take a shower. Shave. Clean your room. Apply for some jobs. Delete your porn, waifu folders, c.ai account, and everything else that you lean on for empty dopamine all day. Get a hobby or revive one you let go. Maybe take a break from weed if you're smoking all the time. You have to clean up yourself, your psyche, and your surroundings. Find the joy in being alive again. Then maybe you'll stumble into the joy of a cute girl with blue hair telling you to choke her, and you can finally stop moaning into a digital void that you have neither of these.