that scene from kiki’s delivery service. you know the one. had always been into feet like since age 4 or 5 and then that scene was just so exquisitely rendered, i feel like that was where the line blurred. i was ultra repressed/ignorant though so i never thought of it as a sexual thing and didn’t actively pursue it until years later.
by this point i was probably like 13 or 14 and i was on youtube - back in the day, the top of the homepage would rotate through thumbnails of random videos people were watching at that moment, and one thumbnail caught my eye. the video was titled “thanksgiving feet” and was one woman worshipping another’s feet. didn’t have the words to articulate why this fascinated me, but i remember making a fake “biology report” word doc on the family computer and hiding a link to the video behind like a jpg of a cell, lol.
i slowly expanded that “report” and eventually i found my way to tickle fic/rp forums (e.g. ticklingcity, rip - my first and only formal erotic writing as a 15 year old pervert lived and died there). around then i also really dove into videos - old school tickleabuse, that golden era.
years of that passed, and at age 18 i started dating my first girlfriend, who turned out to be super masochistic/got turned on by the idea of getting tortured, and had a fucking hand fetish so literally me just touching her arm or whatever got her horny. (made for some funny moments in hindsight e.g. me putting my arm around her innocently while watching a movie and meanwhile she was getting soaked from my hand stroking her shoulder). anyway she was like a 6/10 in terms of ticklishness which was a drag but who was i to complain about getting to tie a girl up, blindfold her, and go to town while she moaned just from my fingers stroking her size 9.5s? went long distance and broke up, and while i don’t pine she pops up on socmed now and then. funnily enough she just got married this month - maybe that’s the source of this nostalgia trip.
anyway, thank you kiki’s delivery service