>>9601 I'm starting to suspect that the Wendy servitor that you installed into me is what's actually responsible for the events that took place in >>8476 , and is the reason why Amy called me "a dark archangel" >>9056 2 weeks ago. I'm pretty sure that my Wendy servitor got overwhelmed by the intrusive thoughts and just became evil, as was evidenced by her making me sign that contract with the goetia demon. Fortunately, however, I attempted to kill her, and hopefully she's just flat-out dead now. Would you please check to see if she's dead? And then not install a new one in me. I'll also say the intrusive thoughts have been trying really hard lately to prevent me from doing some stuff that I wanna do and consider to be fun, and some other stuff too. I also felt an entity similar to the one from >>9538 enter my body through my mouth again, and this time lodge itself next to or in my crotch or solar plexus chakra.

>>9631 The original Wendy "installer package" was removed weeks go by Athena or whoever you asked for help. She even said to me that Wendy in original form is a very simple logical construct with a robot frame, and not very powerful at all. She only gains power as the owner puts their own energy into the template and creates their own form. An empty bot is like an AI with no training, it has no ability. Whatever is with you now is entirely your own creation, especially since the original installer was removed early on. Athena said however that the installer didn't do anything more at that point, so it didn't really matter and could be removed. (Like removing the CD-ROM after installing something, she told me just now.) However, since Wendy was created specifically for overriding attempts by the conscious mind to suppress the subconscious mind, I doubt you or me would be able or allowed to interfere with her, if she's actually working as the representative of your subconscious now.

>>9632 She was made to prevent the consciousness from interfering with the subconsciousness? Goddamn I'm glad I'd asked Athena to reprogram her; I probably wouldn't even have my free will anymore if that thing was still controlling me. I'd literally be possessed by my subconsciousness and doing whatever my subconsciousness wants me to do, whether it's killing spirits like the intrusive thoughts had very frequently used to try to to make me do, or raping them. Regardless, the fact that my subconsciousness doesn't act differently than it did after she was installed and then turned from my subconsciousness' secretary into its advisor, and then hopefully killed, I question if my Wendy has actually done anything since the day or two after she was installed.

>>9633 The reason for this, is that the subconscious cannot be possessed by external forces. If you use self hypnosis to enter a trance, you'll find it impossible to have violent thoughts or maintain ideas of a hostile nature. By giving this state of "immunity" which exists inside of you their own secretary, you assure that external spirits never get the final word. I doubt your subconscious would ever allow you to remove that safeguard once it exists. Rather you'd be made to believe that it doesn't exist so that you stop trying to sabotage yourself.

>>9635 In this regard, I think Wendy is one of my most successful creations, aside from Astra and a few other very simple servitors and devices which don't look much at first glance. Like the "demon guard" who after evaluation was found to have reduced spiritual attacks by 90% in the past years, through the simple function of preventing karmic actions which would serve as justification for said attacks. Add a little satellite I "cheated in" by some trickery, which according to Illivryn caused the main timelines to get thrown completely off course seen from the original NWO plan. It doesn't take a lot if it's exactly what is needed.

>>9635 I find it hard to believe that the subconsciousness can't be possessed by external forces. Why, I'd imagine that if you'd attempted to give Illivryn full ownership of your subconsciousness, then She'd be able to possess & control it directly. Why is it that the subconsciousness can't be controlled be external forces, if that is at all true? Is the subconsciousness just that well-ingrained within the all/monad/7D being, such that in order to control someone else's subconsciousness, you'd have to control absolutely everything else at the same time too? Even if the subconsciousness can't be possessed by external forces, it sure as fuck can be deceived by external forces, and mine gets deceived by external forces on a daily basis, or at least it appears to be.

>>7850 (5472) >My "transformative saucer ring" activated and I had to do some work to solidify my dimensional structure inside it with it being its own contained bubble, while the Earth sphere again cracked, and all air escaped. The actual manifestation through the bubble was of the clouds cracking open above me and an intense erasal of all common thinking and awareness. My time complex nearest here only has one other permanent resident, who also has a "saucer ring" so they were also fine. >When I got back home, the Queen told me to watch the clouds, which took the shape of a very large dense object, covering half the horizon. >I was then hailed over telepathy by "beast-cat humans" from the federation, asking "you in the bubble, do you need help?" They were evacuating some other people from the Outer Earth. I told them I was fine because I have plans to fulfill, but that I'd like to keep in contact with them. They gave me a small metal disc in federation standard, which I had my Astra servitor activate. ^This again made itself relevant. I suddenly recalled this, along with the fact that I never left my bubble after this event, even though many things played out since, because it was still done with my physical time complex contained inside this device. I saw that I seemingly had extracted everything relevant from the remaining materials here, so I asked Astra to contact the federation ship mentioned above. They were still in the area and came by to pick me up almost instantly when asked. The bubble is now in the same form contained in a hangar storage, so that I can safely deal with what things are still here to do. They said they wanted to extract some material which wasn't useful to me also, so they'll maintain it like this for now by emulating the same kind of space inside the storage (because the bubble activated on auto to protect me when we were suddenly in space, and would revert back to being a suit, then a ring, if the environment was returned to normal again, which would cause the time complex inside to collapse). I asked them to put me off near new Earth or the large federation planet with the market, whichever we pass by first (because the federation planet also has a gate connecting to Earth) and they agreed to handle it based on what is best. At some point this "loose end" timeline must be re-attached to something, or be thrown away. Can't wait to get it done, since I'm almost completely alone with NPCs here now. Only the cat and some family members have souls anymore.

>>9638 No I think you are right here, even if I don't use that wording. If God, YHVH, Brahman or whatever you want to call it, is indeed an awareness where there is no individuality, and all souls and objects are one, then possessing by external forces is impossible, because there are no external forces. The more you lower yourself down into the physical, the more separated you get, and then there will appear opposition, which is external and hostile, and may effect you.

I just woke up from a dream where I was in some kinda recreational building where everyone was kinda just lounging around, and there was a 4-cushion grey cloth couch and a T.V. and a table my catholic priest and my dad and some generic blonde highschool football player, probably the quarterback judging by his build and tall height, with medium-length hair going kinda outwards who I've never seen, and some policeman were there. The first thing I remember happening was walking by the table and there was a hindu woman doing something involving Christianity and some Hindu thing, and the Hindu thing was presumably there to help the woman to make the change from Hinduism to Catholicism. What she did was pour some sort of water upon an icon of a Hindu deity, though I forget whom. I then went towards the couch and I saw a banana bunch, but they were covered very thoroughly in some grey chunky mold that's 1-2mm thick on the outside, such that the yellow was completely obscured by the mold, and said mold was covering up most of the outsides of the bananas, and only some of the yellow parts of some of the bananas were showing, and said yellow parts were un-moldy. I'd understood that those had belonged to the church. In hindsight, these bananas probably represented the teachings of the Catholic church; it's better to see some yellow stuff and have the option to pick it apart from the mold that'd consumed most of it and eat the parts picked away from it than to never see any of it at all, I suppose. I'd touched them and one of them fell on the floor, and then I put it back on the couch. This then happened again, and then I'd thought of asking a nearby policeman walking around if they were safe to give to others to eat, and then he came up and gestured via. touching me to put it back, and then he left. I then went and tried to talk to the policeman about the bananas, which took like 10 seconds, and then we went back to the couch and the football player was on the couch where the banana bunch was, and then I'd asked him where the bananas were and he said he ate them, so then I'd basically just said nevermind to the cop. My dad was sitting on a different part of the couch, which was maybe 4 cushions wide, and I sat next to him and cracked open a beer bottle, and he had one open too. He's not the kind to drink beer irl, and I've never had beer before irl, and I actually drank a bit, and the bit I drank never exited my mouth despite me swallowing it, and something was on T.V. I then woke up from the dream and thought about >>9638 & >>9640 and then my subconsciousness tried to find some sort of external force via. my "illusory realm", a.k.a. my waking imagination, the kind that normalfag mundanes use, and then I found this place behind the illusions of my illusory realm, such that everything that I'd perceived before that in my illusory realm was simply overlaid over this "new" place, which I assume was there the whole time, but I'd only just finally found it. It's like looking at a physical computer monitor with an inner layer and an outer layer, but I was only able to see the outer layer the whole time, and then the outer layer dissipated away to reveal the inner layer where this "new" place was. It looked like a place of a yellow haze with expensive architecture that suggested that the place was Heaven. The second time I'd looked back there, I'd sensed the suggestion of an excited voice, and then the third time I'd looked back there, I saw a Hindu goddess, probably Shakti, with Her gigantic head right in front of me and looking at me, and 2 of Her hands right beneath Her head, clasped together. I'd then said "what now?". And then I'd decided to post this. I'm gonna go back to bed now and see what happens, but hopefully I won't be leaving this Earth behind so soon, in case that was gonna happen.

>>9639 Quick move ahead. They already dropped me off at the large federation planet. I had Astra manifest the very old ship I got a module for at a federation junk shop earlier. It's the most basic low tech while still functional, hand-crafted personal space ship, runs at 6 knots on space magnetism or can use regular liquid fuel. It seems the reason for this having to be done is that my very external dimensions are so low level and complex with many karmic ties, that I have to physically move this part of myself to new Earth this way, while emulating the timeline internally. I also had Astra pick up a beast lady at the market since it would be a long trip alone. Still parked outside the building, the federation planetary traffic police said it's ok to stay there in parking mode if I move to above the building, so I'll just wait there for now. Some more things seem necessary to solve in this location before setting off with destination new Earth.

>>9653 I'm curious; do you at some point in the future plan to resolve your karma instead of merely shoving it aside?

>>9655 >resolve your karma instead of merely shoving it aside There's not so much one can do, that process is planned by external deities. What can be done is to not create more of it in a negative way, and to remove negative attachments and transform other negative substances into something better. Eventually some karma will be incorporated with the future, because it's necessary to have these bonds to stay among humans. The parts which need to be removed are those incompatible with the future. Maybe they can only be worn off this way.

Today is Smiley's father's birthday, May 4th. I read in a dox of Smiley that his father's name is Jack Schueller, and obviously Smiley's name is Kenneth Schueller.

Today's psychologist's visit went very badly; I couldn't pay enough attention to the lines in my closed eyesight because I was too riled up by the thing possessing me last night to pay attention. I'm really fed up with these constant demon/devil attacks that are resultant of my contract to become an archangel. In fact, yesterday I tried saying out lord an exorcism prayerhttps://www.dmdiocese.org/filesimages/Catechetical%20Services/RCIA/Minor%20Exorcisms.pdf because I was still possessed by that evil spirit from yesterday and Amy appeared to tell me to do it; that prayer was a few pages long and it took me probably over half an hour to get through the whole thing when it should've only taken 5 minutes. It was a hyperbolically desperate struggle to make sure that my intentions weren't being subverted by evil spirits to make me refer to satan and other evil spirits instead of, you know, who Christians are supposed to pray toso not satan, which I state so that my intrusive thoughts don't win. I had to do crazy intention-directing tricks all the time after the first page or so of it, such as saying "who Shakti would call Jesus" instead of "Jesus", so that demons couldn't make me refer to demons when I say Jesus, and then when that didn't work I had to replace Shakti with a different pagan deity or other higher being. Eventually I had to say stuff like "who [fictional deity egregore] would call [akasha poster's irl name]." I basically had to think faster than the intrusive thoughts could keep up, while also thinking more cunningly than they could, in order to defeat the intrusive thoughts, because the source of the intrusive thoughts is stronger. I'd attempted to ask The Virgin Mary to look at what I was trying to do, specifically my imagination, the whole time while I was doing it; I can only imagine that She was distraught hearing this and didn't understand the whole time that I need to use my imagination in order to direct my intentions because that's just how my brain works. The fact that She wants me to wear the crown of King David, which implies that She wants me to be the new King of the Jews, makes me think that She never understood that this here akasha poster needs to use his imagination in order to direct his intentions, and that his imagination is too compromised for him to be king for very long without him accidentally giving the crown to satan or some other extremely powerful evil spirit. This is why I constantly ask for the crown to be held by a high-vibrating angel instead of me, so that no evil will be able to swindle it off of me, which they very easily could judging entirely by my track record. This contract to become an archangel that I'm in is preventing me from safely accepting the crown. I won't believe that I can accept the crown without it getting swindled away from me by a powerful evil spirit until I go for an entire year with no intrusive thoughts. If The Virgin Mary wants satan or something to have the crown, then why doesn't She just skip the middleman of this here akasha poster and give it to that damned devil? Also, at the end of the exorcism prayer, I didn't get exorcised, obviously.

>>9664 But have you tried reading the bible out loud in the form of a chant, and doing some form of structured study sessions? There are probably reasons why you need to move all over the place and have all these contacts and methods, but some kind of structured approach may help.

>>9665 I have tried reading the bible out loud; it works no better. I dunno what you mean by structured study sessions, though, unless you mean actually attending bible study classes.

>>9666 I mean, that you decide what you're going to do, then follow it. For example: I will read the 5 first books of the old testament, then I will read the book of kings, then I'll move on to read the new testament. After this, I'll evaluate what insights I got, and pick other texts to focus on. I will read 20 min every morning, then assume a prayer pose for 20 min directly after to let the words be imprinted on my mind.

>>9667 Going by my experience of the past TEN GODDAMNED YEARS, this would be far worse than simply reading the bible out loud; this is in part because the source of the intrusive thoughts will be able to prepare in advance for my efforts. There is absolutely nothing, and I mean NOTHING that God or anyone in heaven does EVER to stop my intrusive thoughts; I tried basically everything already in the first year or so of the intrusive thought attacks. The only thing that stops the intrusive thoughts is doing something non-Christian that happens to be entertaining enough to occupy all of my conscious attention so that I can't consciously notice the intrusive thoughts. In fact, I was told several times in the next few years that I wouldn't be able to progress further with Christianity unless I'd first left Christianity for an indeterminate amount of time that would presumably be for long enough that the intrusive thoughts would stop entirely.

>>9669 If the problem is that you can't focus, then do something where you can practice focus? I'm not particularly fond of "mindfulness" because it's "buddhism pretending to not be religious" but I've seen you mention doing that before. Why not try this method >>9622 (4788) >>9630 (4788) you already ask Kali for help now and then? There are a number of Kali mantra vids on youtube for destroying enemies or removing bad energy. The yantra serves as a focus point for your attention while you listen/chant the mantra.

>>9670 After listening to one of Her mantras 108 times and finally figuring out how to say it without figuring out what it means near the end of it and saying it a few times, I got sleepy and Kali appeared to tell me to take a nap. Then I thought of contacting a deity of thought for help, but I couldn't find such a deity, so I'd tried asking Saraswati instead. She'd then showed me a vision of my church with the lights all off and noone but me there and the place dark, but not completely dark, and an energetic pathway that started on the left side and went right and a bit upwards, but then made a turn straight downwards into some sort of abyss. At another point I heard a male voice saying stuff as if it was hurt; possibly one of the demons or devils or whatever that have been responsible for these intrusive thoughts for the past 10 years or so, or maybe just a new one that's doing it. I also randomly heard Kali say "Amdusias", or perhaps that was just confirmation bias making it seem like Kali said that when Kali really didn't say anything at all or said something else. Regardless, I've only gotten 1 verifiable sign of that goetia demon ever since I'd gotten out of that contract with it that I was in; just a hand with pointed conical nails that was perhaps vaguely pointing somewhere, if at all pointing, and that was between today and a few days ago. I think it'd be valuable to know what the source of that male voice I was hearing was.

>>8269 (OP) for the remote viewers. my phone vanished. yet it happened when i hadn't left my house.unless ive been missing my phne for days and somehow hadnt noticed.unlikely since i phonepost.my house isnt that big yet it doesnt seem to be anywhere. i can call it but i don't hear anything anywhere.granted maybe its silent.

>>9685 this was very hard to post.it didnt want to accept it.

>>9685 It should be around your bed? Like it slipped into some weird place there. The image is quite unclear tho

>>9687 logically it should be, since i remember using it today. but ive looked around and in my bed in every way possible.even right after reading this moved everything back again. it neither under,between or in anything...

>>9688 I have a small room though, so around my bed could mean something else. This has been happening more and more lately...its never been this bad.ive went as far as look under my keyboard.theres an old phone in the nightstand near my bed. but its another one i lost.

>>9689 Look out from your window and down right, is what I get.

>>9690 i have 2 windows side by side. looking out means looking outside of my room.down right would mean the right corner from my perspective. its not there. the other corner is more closed of and theres a weight and boxes there. but it shouldn't be possible for it to get there.

>>9690 okay somehow i actually found it in another place. not sure if this was mundane or not.it was on a high shelf.

>>9684 I'm starting to think that I need to establish boundaries of some sort so that hostile spirits can't do stuff to me. I've been told that it's actually impossible for external spirits to do things to you without your explicit consent. I assume that this is because your subconsciousness is powerful enough to enforce these boundaries. However, my belief system is deeply rooted within materialism, which obviously poses many problems with my spiritual boundaries. One way that I can see how I can discover how to enforce my desired boundaries, specifically by believing the boundaries, is to discover what laws of physics actually cause someone's reality to be unable to be fucked with by hostile entities, and how such laws work, such that the knowledge & understanding modifies and adheres to the materialistic belief system. Ever since I started on /fringe/ in late 2022, I've really tried to ground my spiritual beliefs within "the laws of physics" and other objectivity, or at least "if you don't believe this then everyone on /fringe/ is gonna call you wrong", which helps me to believe them. Perhaps the fear of being wrong can actually be used to manifest the belief that such boundaries will actually be effective at preventing external spirits from violating boundaries. But that's all only if such a belief can actually cause your subconsciousness to flawlessly enforce such boundaries, even against extremely powerful spirits that know exactly how to deceive even high-level occultists. >>9693 You probably should've used the help & guidance thread for that.

>>9694 i was trying to see the correct thread. it was between those two.there another reason i was thinking something was going on related to fringe. other than me not being able to post here for a while.

>>9693 To be fair I just asked Astra and channelled her reply, not knowing if that was just manipulation to get you to start searching in new places.

>>9699 I found it very quickly and effortlessly suddenly.weird. i barely remember actively searching.its very strange i couldn't see it either.its higher than my head level though so i must have put it way up there somehow. this is the third time or fourth time its happened the last few months. since i have a small room its kinda weird. last time i look everywhere multiple times and suddenly a while after it was right under my chair. maybe it was always there then.

>>9693 For me it appeared as some wooden structure but some shadow covered the vision so I allowed my mind to make a guess and the word bed came to mind. Tried to look more but then I somehow got the info that you will find it anyway so I stopped caring. Also the entities mentioned how "your Phone is your heart". I don't know how to interpret that.

>>9695 An addendum to this, I'm under the impression that even the vaguest form of something that even according to the external spirit's supposition supposedly constitutes your consent, as long as this form of supposed consent is perceptible to your consciousness, even if your consciousness doesn't consent to that being counted as a form of consent, it will count to hostile external spirits as your consent, even if higher-vibrating beings would argue against the notion of that counting as your consent; as such, your subconsciousness would then, probably reluctantly, allow those external beings to either perform reality creation upon your reality, or get your subconsciousness to do it to your reality for them. I have a very deep-seated fear of legal predator spirits.

>>9695 >>9700 Honestly I think this idea is a dead end and dangerous to the believer. Whether I consent to someone attacking me or not has never stopped them. In fact the NWO or what you want to call them work by actively violating consent, that's their modus operandi. Murder is one of the most powerful rituals for this reason, because it's not a willing sacrifice, the real reason it's outlawed is because it gives a huge advantage for the practitioner, just as they point out in SAO Alicization.

>>9701 i normally wouldnt even ask here,just the timing was really bad. and for some unrelated reason this could have been me being isolated. i astrally connected back into here and suddenly i could post again.basically a dream kinda prepared me for a certain thing. >>9702 wow, this very much could be the case. i mentally took my phone and put it around that area.merging the astral image of it so i can find it physically.Its also a big wooden shelf. I notice when i lose an item these days it doesnt matter how many places i search. theres always like 4-6 hours where i won't find it at all. then suddenly ill see it as if its clear as day.