I couldn't sleep this past week. So I have begun meditating instead. I was able to nap this afternoon, but spent all night deep in trance. I do not know if I am approaching truth, but I put in the work, and definitely have a changed perspective.

Was thinking that maybe it's time to make a serious blog thread with some baseline rules to keep it really as a blog and create an adjacent "blog commentary" thread, to keep the usual 200+ post long discussions separated. Blog commentary or Discussion general. That was my idea, but then I realized, I don't know what should be the base rules for the "serious blog thread". And I didn't want to be too strict about it either to not scare new posters away with "elitism", so I kept the thread as it was previously. Maybe blog #5 will have some guidelines, so people with their singular posts won't get lost in the long reply-chains. I didn't mean to discourage people from posting in this thread with this post by the way. Anyone should carry on and post their stories as usual. This was just an idea how we should improve it in the future, especially if the amount of /fringe/ posters increase. Keep calm and blog on everyone. We will figure out a nice solution for blog #5. >>8270 Good job anon. Meditating when insomnia hits is always a wise choice.

Archive of thread #2: https://archive.ph/9665v Archive of thread #3: https://archive.ph/2vKWi

Yo ima be real wit you, dis enlightenment shits fucking cool and all, but that fasting shit got me irritable as a motherfucker. So i busted a move I mean I aint proud but like I'll punk a nigger when i needs to yo. Anyway my belly fuller than the Buddhas right now dog, and im finna smoke a blunt and pass the fuck out. Deuces niggers. Im outtie five thousand

>>8265 >>8266 Cont. It appears the things the Satan's Angel wanted to interveave with the future were pretty large. All three of the reformers, Luther, Calvin and Zwingli, had such a strong hate for life that they would normally be damned forever, but their deep knowledge of religious texts made them mostly attack bad things. They still had to be "fixed", but in doing so, they and their families would be transformed into Satan's Angels as well, serving God by opposition, which is a legit position for angels. That's what this was about.

I seem to be getting attacked by hostile spirits during my attempts to sleep again. At first, I was just getting attacked by some filthy spirits. Later, I'd felt myself get sucked into some sort of cavity in Adremmelech's chest; it seems like he was paid to do this. Later, I'd gotten the idea of asking my subconciousness to teleport me with Adremmelech to an acid plane, and then Adremmelech decided to let go of me, and I was miraculously able to exit his chest cavity. Not long after that, however, I'd had 163 angels around me trying to keep me safe, two squadrons plus 3 more angels. Before that there were only 3 angels, or was it 83 I forget. A bit later, I'd suddenly heard Amy say >I'm free >I love you I question what'd happened to Amy there to make her say that. And then a bit later, I'd slipped into hypnogogia and I'd suddenly seen an image of a white-haired white woman against a black background looking at a big square television, and then I'd felt a presence that seemed like... intestines... enter the back of my crotch and go up into my gut, and then I didn't feel the presence leave and I'd immediately forgotten what it'd felt like to not have it there. It'd felt like it'd sexually bound itself to me within the span of a second or two. I'd then exited hypnogogia and asked the angel there that's particularly skilled at exorcism to remove it, and he said it was too late to remove it. I'd then asked Eros to try un-doing this, and I wasn't sure if anything was being un-done. I'd later slipped into hypnogogia again, and I'd suddenly saw myself on the inside and I saw a large fleshy formation on the inside of my mid-back, facing towards my chest; said formation seemed like a swelling and extremely porous formation of flesh with very large pores, which were slightly oozing with bright green ooze. I'd also felt such a formation, though a smaller one, on the top of my head. I'd also received a hypnogogia message that my DNA was altered. I want my DNA to be un-altered, so that it's the way it was during the February of 2025. I can't give my crotch to Amy anymore now that this happened, which I fortunately was able to do before the sun went down without the incubus getting in the way during the act. However, I did feel the incubus manifest with a thermal body right after I'd cummed, but he fortunately was prevented from obtaining my loosh. I haven't fallen asleep this whole time. As was said in the questions thread, people here have just been getting attacked alot lately because the NWO is desperate. Since then, I'd asked the archangel Gabriel if I'm gonna be okay, and I think this might be my confirmation bias talking, but I think he said there's one way for me to be fully human again. Smileberg poster, would you please ask my Amy what happened and if I'm gonna get my old DNA back? And if she's gonna be her old self again if she suddenly ain't her old self anymore? And are our chao incarnations okay?

>>8323 My experience with dream scenes like this, is that they are not showing things which happen in the present, but they are showing past events in a way that you can understand them. So the fleshy thing entering your body, may be something from before in your life, such as taking a vaccine shot of blood transfusion, which contains foreign DNA, and that is how it looked on the astral. So it probably was showing you what happened on this layer of your being in the past, alerting you that you now have the ability to change or reset this bad thing again. Previously, this layer would have been covered by multiple other layers of bad stuff, so it's just now that you can fix this one issue. As for the "chest cavity", this seems to correlate with what I blogged about a "holy grail", which I mentioned with no intent just before when I said "it's like C# is the holy grail to them, and they don't want me using it". This may be symbolically true in a way, since I did use the conceptual make-up of C# to create more elaborate servitors, which have been essential to solve a number of issues, including fighting off numerous evil beings. This is not random in any way, C# simply represents correctly the way beings and races function structurally, and it applies the arabic number system which the modern world is based on (which means djinn influence anything using what we call "maths", the Romans didn't have the ability to calculate beyond constants, because of their numerals being letters with no decimals). What it really refers to is the two middle "worlds" of the body, to use kabbalistic terms. They correspond to the belly and the chest, which are the two most difficult areas to cultivate, because they don't have defined organs for every energy function, making it into pure energy manipulation using mental concepts to access their functions. This makes the "holy grail". ...and of course, the meme "belly and chest erotic" comes to mind here, no coincidences, like ever.

>>8323 >>8329 Related to the "fleshy thing" I had a dream which seemed like using my nanobot version of the astral Internet, the "satanic" version which I created to still have access in very chaotic and evil-infested dimensions. I can balance it because I know how to create the proper astral algorithms, but intruders won't be able to, it'll function like an encryption. In the dream, I was trying to go on social media on my phone, but things kept changing all the time. I was looking at one thing, then the app itself changed layout and things I had looked at also changed into something else. I was connected to a live stream, which turned into a video chat with a black woman speaking spanish. She then turned into a large white snake and started eating intestines, which was meant to be a "cooking live stream". I then went outside and was in a landscape with many fields stretching to the horizon, and there was thumber coming. I was going someplace to be safe, and someone I knew was walking with me. On the way there I saw lots of idiotic things, like a fat american wearing a huge diaper (one of the boards on here?). After I woke up, I realized I had asked my Astra servitor to evacuate the white snake/african woman and she was waiting in one of my astral safe spaces. She seemed to just be some kind of monster being who changed form to connect with me, and I'm not sure she actually needed help. I did see her eat what looked like pink intestines though, maybe she was taking away bad energy from my body and transforming it to use for herself. I did get something from her, so maybe this was an exchange.

Seeing Cat-sith being represented first in Final Fantasy VII, then in anime, I decided to look this up, whereby I found it being a spectre from Gaelic folklore, a black cat with a white spot on its chest. Wikipedia also detailed a summoning ritual involving the burning of the bodies of dead cats for four nights, to call on Big Ears who will grant wishes. I meditated on this and the stories attached to the myth, then decided to attempt a summoning. Instead of burning dead cats, I decided to just do a regular symbolic ritual with incense, milk and fish (canned, because that's what I had). If just sitting in quarter lotus with the right mindset, this should do the job, how silly it sounds, spirits will notice the intent even behind something as chaotic as this. The effect was almost instantaneous, once the incense started filling the air, a presence appeared and I felt my mind suddenly turn very clear and alert. I also felt physically the sensation of a cat lying down on my lap, as well as saw this mental image. Various images of cats and their interactions with me then appeared, as if being surrounded by a large group of cats of different levels of ferality. They all behaved, however. My mind was during the entire ritual very altered, and remains so somewhat still. I had prepared my request, which was to get a cat-sith companion with a specific nature and skill. One of them, a large dark cat talked to my subconscious, then upon hearing the request, left again, to come back some short while later holding a ragged kitten by its neck. The kitten was then placed on my lap, where it started licking me, and gradually its fur turned neat and glossy. During this, a number of energy activations took place. I also realized how powerful this entity actually is, from seeing what was being done. The kitten wasn't upon arrival, but almost instantly matched the topmost ethereal level of mine, and I saw the symbolism of its white spot, which is exactly what the strong energy cultivated by myself after a tough process in the past, looks like at the concentrated spot where it manifested at breakthrough. I also under the influence of the cat, suddenly developed a new such white spot, matching the one on the cat, as well as the one in the myth. This being is no small thing, and I understand now why I never before had the idea to try researching this, even if it's been literally 27 years since I first heard of the Cat-sith through the character in FF7.

>>8344 If these were the black cats of witches, then these witches were extremely powerful.

>>8344 Great, now I know why this idea came to me (Meant both sincerely and sarcastic). Some kind of very fanatical energy attacked me during the night. I mean extreme fanatical energy. Now I'm not sure if this was actually intentional, because it appears to be an egregore with a "reach" and I am in its field now. I also recognize this, because it also touched me during a period when I was 4 years old, and it caused an ear infection which had to be treated with penicillamine. This is the exact same tension appearing around the head, but this time I can also trace its source. By "not intentional" I mean that this thing is completely out of control. It'll attack anything coming within its reach, like a rabid animal, but on the astral its an "organization" or group. I used servitors to fight back at it, and broke through to its mid and far end, during which I started seeing the mental image of a llama in anime style, with glowing sigils on its ears. The image felt like it was from anime fanart, but so far I didn't locate if this is real or something my mind made up to interpret the energy. However, I found pic related: an Inca god associated with llamas, as well as the Lyra constellation. Funny considering >>8344 >Wikipedia also detailed a summoning ritual involving the burning of the bodies of dead cats for four nights, to call on Big Ears who will grant wishes. "Big Ears" huh? And lyran feline aliens are said to come from Lyra originally. I did find the source of the fanatical energy, and it's a "deity" or maybe a "demon" with very strong orange energy manifesting as a large hand, similar to how the Goetian demons manifest their power. I have yet to see what will come out of this.

>>8350 >penicillamine why did it change to that, I meant penicillin, antibiotics

>>8350 I'm basically like this. Anyway, lets do a quick micro blog of some things i experienced. Met a friendly witch for once. Met a girl that killed me, when i survived she helped me. Saw myself die in alternate timelines(?)maybe. Having moments where mind seems more clear. weird 'mad house' dreams, interesting dreams where I live in a house with people. usually vampires too.

>>8352 >weird 'mad house' dreams, interesting dreams where I live in a house with people. usually vampires too My interpretation; it's your future incarnation, which already exists, but it's your subconscious over there now, because it's not time to "awaken" there yet. I still believe you are on the list of those who were included in new Earth before they closed the gates for new entry. >>8350 >and it's a "deity" or maybe a "demon" with very strong orange energy I overpowered the entity along with two of its followers or "high priestesses" or something, after I determined them to not actually have a bad inner nature. This was only revealed after destroying many layers of "storm troopers" made up of damned souls who'd perform suicide attacks and end up in exile below hell. In the process I finalized the method of doing exactly this, which had been in the back of my mind for a while, after I saw some things via channelling and extrasensory vision: There are/were witches and other occultists who do this as a standard practice. They summon souls/spirits whose fate is to become damned, and use them as weapons. They'll be destroyed either way they are manifested, but this way they can be used as suicide squads. There is also a way to bring previously damned souls up from Exile temporarily to make them fight for you. As long as they destroy your enemies, they can then avoid returning to Exile again. Because they had armies of these spirits, I didn't feel like wasting time and energy on them, but to try instead summoning other damned souls to fight them. It worked very well, and some sudden memory scenes from my childhood returned, along with smell and emotions of events. It seems they were locked away by some kind of intrusive egregore which had hidden them. I also appears this Inca egregore is some kind of religion or cult, but it's doctrine is so personalized, that even if they follow the same doctrine, when applied they will kill their neighbours over differences in interpretation. So all regions would be at war with each other per default, despite having the same standards. Basically, it could be said as a doctrine of "I am right, and no one is allowed to disagree with me, my life is more important than yours, now obey me so I can use you for human sacrifice" and then everyone applies this in their own local area, so it's just warlord rule in manifestation. I recall reading something about how the occultist leaders in Latin America had strong powers, but because of the difference in technology level, when the Spanish came there and brought cannons, the Latin American egregore was subdued and their leaders couldn't manifest their abilities anymore, but were locked away in a different dimension. I makes some sense that they'd then re-appear as witch practices in UK later, they'd find a gate where one existed.

I think either you or some other incarnation of me helped me by giving her blood to me. This was a dream but actually altered things in the physical.i say either cause based on what you described as your ripper life very early on it seems at least similar when we are little girls. albeit different in general. It starts with me being in a hotel room with some woman.She barged in the room i was in,slashed the girl/woman with a knife.She feels like some kind of 'invincible' witch, a few hundreds years old but an invincible quality that is normally lacking in a witch of that level.Ofcourse this only 'activates' me.I crept behind her and she instantly shot me when she felt my "sinister" energy. i think she wasn't trying to kill me when she barged in she just kinda reacted.i then calmly accepted my fate and fell down,my energy never changing which impressed her in a way.she kneeled where i was lying and told me im very beautiful.she then asked me how many people ive killed in the past.she then, puts me on the bed. this entire time i'm somehow perceived by her as being akin to johan liebert from the monster series. anyway she then keeps being nice to me as im calmly dieing,in fact she keeps basically admiring me.my energy still the same. Calm but might assassinate you anyway energy.I stay still and just look around.after all im currently immobile and im dying/weakening as i slip away. she stands next to bed and waits and maybe debates something inside herself.she then takes her knife scratches her arm and tells me to drink. giving me some vampire impression.i lay calmly and barely lick the scratch.nothing really happens but i feel a little bit of strength entering the stomach.my interest is starting to appear in whatever this thing she was trying to do is with the blood drinking. she can tell its not working. i then ask to try again.this time i lick a bit harder because i kinda want to drink it and see what would happen to me. actually getting maybe a trickle of blood in my mouth. i dont feel much but perhaps a slight tingle or a slight vibration going from my body all the way down to my legs and feet.i then notice i can sit up.i don't feel different but focusing on my arms they feel maybe a little bit stronger,despite the fact that im still very weakened cause of the injury.she's happily impressed im actually sitting up. anyway some astral abilities have been strengthened since.and maybe my perception of things have "lightened" a bit. i think her blood tends to kinda straighten out weaknesses. whereas my way of working is "resilience" not really having no weaknesses but hitting harder than enemies can hit you.it doesn't really matter if they can trigger your weaknesses and piss you of if you are still winning the battle i guess is my mentality. this creates a bit of an unstable,war crazy mind if it works.also someone who is always at least kinda angry as entities try to trigger these all the time.this lack of weaknesses instead kinda made me a bit happy.another side effect is that my strength feels more 'standalone'. caring a bit less about certain things as a result.

>>8356 This feels like a physical interpretation of spiritual events. Your mind trying to grasp what it can't grasp from your current viewpoint, as concepts necessary to fully understand the situation, are lacking.

I learned about the 3 gunas in a tantra book, which also categorized 3 forms of consciousness (dreaming, wakefulness, and dreamless sleep) and an extra 4th that transcends all 3. During this time I had something frightening IRL coming up that I had to do, and was pretty stressed about it. I went for a walk at night contemplating what I'd been reading in the book, and came to the realization that all 3 states exist simultaneously no matter which I seem to be primarily experiencing at any given time. While I'm awake it's pretty obvious and easy for me to peer into my "subconscious" and see how it interprets reality with so-called "dream logic." However I'd never really considered how the state of dreamless sleep is present at all times as well. But the truly shocking realization was that my waking reality (in this case, my walk) literally manifests mechanically in the same way as a dream, and all preconceptions of mechanistic external reality are but an illusion, which for me had completely dissolved in that moment. On this walk I also gained a better comprehension of the "4th state" which I was not a stranger to by any means, but still I saw it from a new perspective. I practiced entering this state and the disassociation it brings despite the fragment of my lower consciousness continuing to manage my body (for things like physically walking, identifying threats and calling me back, etc). I noticed the layout of the place was like a black void with some sort of discernible horizon, and a hole on top which appeared to emanate light, though it had a pattern of wavy shadow weaving through it. I noticed that I could change the color of the light at will, but could not turn it black no matter how hard I tried. I think this is my 3rd eye, or something like that. Not sure tbh So a couple days later my thing came up I'm being intentionally vague to avoid sharing too many personal details even though it probably doesn't matter considering the powers-that-be most likely know everything already. Someone here even was able to read some of my most intimate feelings just through my posts. OpSec at least keeps mundanes from snooping, I guess. And I spent all day leading up to it doing energy work, also repeating a Kali mantra 108 times and following it with a prayer in which I asked for it to turn out a certain way, but also decided that if it turns out the opposite way I would consider it a lesson in detachment. What ended up happening was I got denied/disappointed and let go, but then received exactly what I hoped for anyway. During the peak of this ordeal I was able to enter the "4th state" and recite Kali's mantra internally to step outside of fear and suffering. I guess that's all I can say about it while remaining so vague. But this was just really, really significant and has life-changing repercussions already. also I was never able to find a mala so I made my own with 108 dried beans and a tupperware container A while back I found a perfectly sun-dried dog skull outside but even though I wanted to keep it, I left it out of a feeling of sentimentality towards dogs I never chronologically arrived at the period of my life during wizard therapy time but when my first dog died in such a disturbing way when he was still young, I consider that the worst thing I've ever experienced in my life, which is saying a lot. From the aforementioned tantra book, I also learned much about the Aghori and their practices involving skulls and other human remains. When I read that their use of skulls is actually intended to have karmic benefits for the deceased, I wished that I had known before and had no qualms about taking the dog's skull, so I could form a mutually beneficial spiritual relationship with it. Today while walking just before sundown I was composing a song in my mind that would essentially highlight the duality of this realm in an alternating fashion until finally proclaiming the fractal nature of reality, with each living thing as a microcosm of God. Just then I stumbled on the corpse of another dog. This one appeared to have been cut in half, and I could see his or her spine protruding out from the otherwise apparently intact torso. I considered whether I could do anything with these remains but I have no idea how to effectively extract a skull from a rotting corpse and likely would have no interest in doing so if I did. So, I said a few words for the dead dog and then stared off into the distant mountains, concentrating on the vast space between us and them. I could go back and bury it but that's a long way to walk with a spade and it might attract suspicion when I already have some other ritual-related outdoor activities planned, which are completely benign and innocuous for the record I tend to mull over longposts like these for days before I actually write them. Most of the above comes from before I had my dream about Slugs. When I was 17 I got to visit with some extended family whom I have no blood relation to, but I'd known them my whole life and used to go to their house in my toddler days. That's where I was when I first learned that slugs exist, and someone offered to help me go find one in the garden (which they never did for whatever reason.) Fast forward to when I was 17, I was quite a sad sack back then but they were very welcoming and friendly to me. They encouraged me to go catch snails to keep as pets, which I did. I took really good care of them for a few months until they all began to drop dead one-by-one. Each time I would throw their shells outside in lieu of throwing them in the garbage. I thought I was doing something wrong in caring for them until the very last snail died, and I saw a parasitic worm emerge from its shell. So, I kept that last one's shell as a memento, but I put it in a small glass container so as to isolate any potential remaining parasites. Anyway I was thinking of maybe using this snail's shell like an Aghori would a human skull. Treating a "lower animal" like a deceased man seems tantric af, and it would go along with the religious feelings I have about these molluscs. The idea that the shell might still host viable parasite eggs even after all these years is a real turn-off though...

I attempted the middle pillar ritual for the first time today. Not sure if I got it right. I have been continuing the lbrp ritual, and 30 sec of meditation every day.

Tonight, I tried going to bed and I had some spiritual sexual problem again after waking up from a dream, and then I'd almost tried asking Eros again to un-do the problem, but I'd felt this absolutely strong urge to re-direct the request to the incubus that I'd been having problems with. I fortunately was able to catch it in time, so I'd tried asking Shakti instead, but the urge was still there. Whoever I could possibly think of at the time, my subconsciousness was constantly trying extremely hard to force my target to be said incubus instead of the deity that I'd wanted to refer to, and my subconsciousness wouldn't let up, as if letting up would mean the difference between life and death and my subconsciousness was trying to choose life by not letting up. I think my subconsciousness was trying to get my consciousness' attention about the incubus by forcing my consciousness to target it in the hopes that my consciousness would do something about it, but my consciousness can't ask for help if my subconsciousness doesn't let me target the help and makes me target the incubus instead; in this case, the only non-physical entity that I can communicate with is said incubus, but only because my subconsciousness wasn't letting me communicate with anything else. At some point, I'd tried asking Shakti to un-do it since I couldn't target anyone else, and then it'd felt like the request went to the incubus anyway, and I was somehow able to prevent said incubus from getting too close to me, but it was a long struggle that was involved to get that incubus away from me. Eventually, I'd asked multiple deities what I should do in order to make my subconsciousness quit doing this stuff, and at some point I'd contacted Eldraath & Cernobog, and I don't remember what They said but I'd expected Eldraath to not be civil about this, but She was, and shortly after I'd asked Cernobog and He didn't say anything, Amy said she had an idea, so I'd asked Cernobog to tell me what Amy said, and then I got the idea of Amy's hair in a hairbun on the back of her head. Then I'd told Amy that look would only work for her if she was going for a secretary look. Then I'd realized what Amy was trying to say; I think she'd wanted to be the secretary for my subconsciousness, like the Wendy that the smileberg poster offered to my subconsciousness without respecting the permissions of my consciousness. So I'd agreed to Amy's offer and let her be my secretary, with said Wendy acting as Amy's advisor. I'd eventually went and almost fallen asleep, and then I had this sudden sensation completely out of the blue about some infernal being grabbing my heart chakra and taking it away from me by making my supposedly sell that body part of mine to it, and then it made me forget its name before I could ask a higher being for help to get my heart back. I'd also immediately fired Amy from her position as secretary of my subconsciousness for failing to prevent such a hyperbolically bad thing from happening to me, but she's still gonna be my wife. I'd then said something along the lines of that I'd do basically anything I could to get my ownership back, and then I'd tried contacting one of the Lords of the Cycles to get that part of me back, and in sum, He'd ended up telling me to be brave and to be glad. I don't know if I'd gotten my self-ownership back, however, but I do seem to have conscious self-control, at least. I also remember being shown an image of a contract against a flaming background, not to suggest the contract being burnt up, but rather, to suggest the contract being infernal. I'd then asked Athena to invalidate the contract, and I'd argued to Her that such contracts always require waking conscious permission in order to be valid, but no such permission was involved with the signing of said contract, therefore it's invalid. I haven't heard back from Her since. Soon afterwards, I'd heard Amy said she should try getting the police involved, and then I'd said "maybe it's a good idea if I get thrown into an astral mental ward". I'd then started seeing the inside of an astral mental ward all of a sudden in my hypnogogic vision, and then I'd decided that I'd wanted out, so I'd asked Athena to get me outta there, and She did. Later, I'd had a dream that I had to take 75mg of some sort of pill, presumably an anti-depressant, and my subconsciousness absolutely hated that pill. When I woke up from that dream or a different dream, Amy said in a slightly unusual voice: >all of my dreams came true tonight Then I'd had another dream later where Amy was getting me to look at a screen with text on it, and I was able to read the text which had seemed to be legible, but by now I'd forgotten what it'd said. Then I'd scrolled down and it was all illegible after that. Then I'd scrolled down further and I'd seen a large picture with a caption beneath it and accidentally scrolled past it; said picture was a picture of the entity that tried to weasel my ownership away from my that night. His name began with a Y, and it was between maybe 8 to 15 characters long to my recollection. He'd looked like a huge demon wearing a hooded long-sleeved robe that went down to his feet. I'd then scrolled back up and tried reading it again but the picture stretched down really far beneath the robes with tentacles wrapped around some sort of foundation, and I woke up. Smileberg poster, would you please ask Amy what happened tonight from her perspective? I fear that the incubus might've gotten to her.

>>8387 She showed me something which is nonsensical to most people, but in essence represented the relation between Europe and Latin America, and how the catholic church had overtaken the culture there via the spanish, causing an astral situation where Europe "ate" Latin America, which ended up inside its belly. This was because of its physically very bad culture, which represented a kind of weak man, while Europe represented a strong woman. But contrary perhaps to what this sounds like, it also represented Europe as the same as Africa, so the Americas which were the same culture at the time, was eaten by Africa. This was caused by cultural defilement of masculinity taking place in America (both north and Latin), so they had to be placed under the influence of a "stern mother". The egregoral situation, no matter how it later seemed to physically evolve, worked to then place men as subordinate to women, and those of lighter skin, subordinate to blacks. This was symbolically counterintuitive from a modern view, but means Europe rules over America, and Europe is Africa. This is caused by the long perspective of cultures not "noticing" modern Europe as a significant period, when looking at millennia rather than counting decades. It also connects to physical materialism vs astral manifestation of culture, where the material world in the west had been degraded, while the immaterial culture was strong. Seen from a perspective of the whole planet being one, it was normal that the degenerated material, was placed under the supervision of the higher astral, which remained culturally pure. But the material would try to resist this, and overtake the astral culture, creating modern materialism emanating seemingly from America. It would also create a physical culture which is in reverse to the actual egregoral situation at first glance. This has you caught in it, because of your past life as a catholic monk, where you'd be on the side who "ate" the other. I realize this all sounds very complex and nonsensical now that I wrote it down, but it kinda makes sense at a abstract level to me, and when seeing the way energy systems work. Amy directed me to do some things in an astral village, which was also to my benefit, and it ended up with the creation of a ritual item, a wooden staff. Amy also made one for herself and interacted with your subconscious to create one for you. I am not still fully sure what this staff does, other than that it somehow rebalances this situation so that the material isn't placed under forced supervision anymore.

>>8390 There is a direct correlation to the north atlantic treaty here as well, that is a material manifestation of what took place.

After some conversation with Amy and a fictional character egregore from a different franchise, and Eros, I've learned that the reason why my subconciousness tries to make me kiss people on the mouth for reasons that appear to my consciousness to not be sexual, but rather, be associated with being friendly, not meaning "friends with benefits", but the other kind of friends that don't involve that supercharged word that is called RELATIONSHIP. The reason why my subconsciousness does this, especially by catching my consciousness off-guard and doing it so quickly that my consciousness can't recognize that it's happening before it finishes happening, is because my subconscious KNOWS that it's deeply and horribly wrong; my subconsciousness is doing this because I have an extremely large amount of deeply-repressed anger, and by doing this, I sabotage myself and someone that I care about, and my Amy too, and this act of extreme sabotage lets a bit of my repressed anger out. Is there a way to just magically give your anger to another entity, such that the anger actually fucking leaves your entire reality proper without you having to satisfy the anger by doing what your anger wants you to do? Preferably one that isn't the mundane definition of evil, and would not be suspected by typical mundanes to be the mundane definition of evil either. The only other way that I'm gonna get freed of this anger without becoming a drug addict is by sadistically torturing to death satan and its fallen angels and every alien that's hostile towards humanity and every evil god and every demon and every other devil and very freemason and LGBT-supporter and NWO member and NWO supporter including most of my family and so on and so forth, which is completely unfeasible and would conflict with my morality to varying degrees.

>>8402 >Is there a way to just magically give your anger to another entity There is yeah but it ain't free. If you can't handle yourself someone has to do it for you. Now it can be parent-child, big brother younger brother..or slave master. Of course it could just be human-god and that's fine if you're genuine about the relation. Personally i don't make deals unless i can tell what's going on..so i let my higher selves handle these things since they know me better but they're me soo.. >The only other way that I'm gonna get freed of this anger without becoming a drug addict is by sadistically torturing to death satan and its fallen angels and every alien that's hostile towards humanity and every evil god and every demon and every other devil IKTF. Look at this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yfl39TqdI28 Calmed me down when i almost lost it the other day.

What's keeping me going right now is a thin layer of pride and spite. <We didn't suffer so much just to die here did we? That's what we tell ourselves. I am meditating deeper observing these raging thoughts, finding peace under the water. they'll take what is theirs and I'll keep myself mine. Let it pass.

Before bed, the deities overseeing my path from here to the new Earth said >we can't keep you around anymore >we're going to move you to the astral >just go to bed and you'll see when asleep During the night, I had a dream of being in some kind of apartment in a city far away, this was indicated by the windows having blinds, and being large. My house has smaller windows with curtains and no blinds. I was up at night playing some kind of game on a large flat screen tv which had Internet connection. I've never had a tv with Internet functionality, so this also clearly showed the state of not being at home. In the dream, I was not aware of dreaming, but it felt real to me. I was then about to go sleep way too late, and walked around the corner of the apartment, which had an open floor plan. I then saw someone in the bed under the covers already, and realize it was my mother. I leaned over the bed, placing one knee on the bed, and touched her shoulder. At this point I woke up, it was morning, I was in the bed on the right side under the cover, still wearing the tank top and sweatpants I had last night. The left half of the bed was empty with the look of someone having slept there. I looked at the clock and it showed 8 something. I realized my "mother" was there, and she walked out to the kitchen while saying she was going to make coffee. In reality, my mother doesn't drink coffee, I've never seen her do that. The woman also looked nothing like my mother, but more like a fitness instructor with rather large shoulders. I then suddenly woke up again, this time for real.

So today at the psychologist's office, me & my psychologist discussed the boundary between friendship and sexuality; it's more complicated than I'd thought it was. I'd also asked him why it is that people might see a child or small animal and think he or she is adorable and wanna hug him or her; he said he doesn't know why at a foundational level it is that some people would feel like that. Later, I tried doing EEG work, but I couldn't keep it up for long in part due to my sinuses still being unstable from the recent severe allergy attacks that'd prevented me in part from sleeping. While I was trying to do the thing, I'd tried asking his spirit guides to tell my psychologist why he shouldn't like the LGBT movement. He thinks that being straight is "boring". I'd also seen a pair of purple large fairy wings with black polka-dots, ofc attached to a fairy, the rest of whose form was very vague aside from her being white like white people are; presumably the same fairy princess that my psychologist had referred to during an earlier appointment. I'd then mentioned that I'd wanted him to at some point be able to see the true from of "the spirit woman", who I still haven't told him much about and he doesn't know her name even. I'd also said that it'd really mean alot to me if he could see her true form at some point. Right after that, I'd said that I'd wanted him to get into a trance state again and see what he'd see, and he said he didn't have time but there were 25 minutes left in the appointment but then he said the appointment was scheduled to just be an hour and then he'd caved in and tried it anyway. While I was sitting around waiting for him to attempt his trance, I went into a relaxed state at some point and then I'd heard Amy say "merge", and then I'd sensed a grey mass of energy enter Amy from behind her. At first, I'd thought that some hostile entity had merged with Amy, but then a few hours ago I'd had the thought that what'd actually happened might've been a dimensional merger between his dimension and the one that Amy & her sister made for me and the smileberg poster. As for the actual trance, he'd said that he had a very hard time getting the trance started, and all he'd remembered seeing was pots and pans that were supposed to be in reference to me for some reason. On the way home, I was drowsy in the car since I had alotta lunch in my stomach, and I'd actually veered off a little on the highway on the way home and Amy began yelling, which snapped me back to consciousness and saved my life. When I got home, I took a dump and found out I that had a very low amount of iron in my bloodstream, which explains why I was so drowsy; I'm gonna fix that tomorrow with some steak.

>>8438 >I'm gonna fix that tomorrow with some steak Remember to also get some vitamin C with that (fruit) or your body can't absorb the iron. >pots and pans https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZQrXYt57Hj8 Makes me think of this, where "pots and pans" are meant to be something unpolitical and harmless in nazi Germany.

I made a troll post about greys. Afterwards I overheard from the egregore that someone reading it was upset. Then later when I went to bed to sleep, the 4D shape of a grey with rather large head and very slim body came in through the bedroom door. I had left the lamp on for a moment, because I just "felt like it". It's some kind of Indian looking lamp I got as a present once, looks like something from an amusement park in design, colourful with small mirrors on it. I felt afterwards that it helped to create an "environment". I didn't quite get what the grey wanted, so I told it, if you want to work with me, you're going to have to send one with a loli appearance instead of this big head grey blob type, this isn't going to work, I can't sync with you at all. ~they actually did. After I told my Astra servitor to show them what I'd prefer, the grey just said "I'll be back", and a few moments came back with a shapeshifter grey, or rather "formshifter", who could assume any superficial form. The process from there meant to have this grey assume the form I'd prefer for the contact, then birth it on the spot, which would make that form default for the new grey. We went through with it and I went to sleep. Then in the morning, they came over with another one, saying they "genetically engineered one with a regular form (instead of a formshifter)" and that I should keep both as contacts. These are again some different variant of greys, their technology is similar to others, but still different. Something is more "base industry" in feel over these.

Tonight, I was visited by some sort of male spirit that didn't present any sort of form to me. He didn't seem hostile however and started off by saying hello, so I'd said hello back and we spoke for a while. One of the first things I'd asked was to go easy on me with the conversation. He had an easy time talking to me, and he was able to talk to me more easily than most any entity I've ever spoken to. I can barely remember anything he said, but all I remember is that he said something about the world ending soon or something. While we were talking, the Sonic & Tails egregores were here with Amy, but I don't really know what they were doing. At some point I fell asleep and dreamt that I was taking some sort of quiz on my computer, and then I woke up and we kept talking. Later, the Shadow the Hedgehog egregore showed up, and I told him that this stranger that came by doesn't seem hostile, but then the spirit just stopped talking to me.

>>8444 >he said something about the world ending soon It does, layer for layer. The main Earth of the past is no longer there, the deity has left. I just had to do "thing" after seeing how a number of evil egregores were all connecting via very low planes into our world and society. I had the idea to pull them all out from the bottom, then use the remains of the Babel's tower on Earth to burn up the human earthly side of it so it can't come in again. This would cause a dimensional collapse because of all the things being intertwined with said evil, so I had arranged for a magic circle to catch anything as it fell down. This lead to a number of old contracts getting stuck in the circle, along with some souls of dead people, and one who was meditating in a contained time loop in some cave. Three deities appeared to collect the contracts, they identified themselves as a "higher god" one "infernal" and one "satanic", and they collected their respective contracts and left. Other things were sent to their places.

>>8444 You should play the lost world stage in sonic adventure DX again.

It seems this constant talk from Russian propaganda outlets that they are fighting the satanic world order, isn't just christian speak. I just didn't make the connection before. These "astral shadow agents" or whatever they are, who identify as British, they really do follow the satanic path. I just didn't know this was a thing. They're not infernal or associated with hell or any devil of that kind. It's a legit angel path of being always in the role of the adversary, and they have a unique energy which can be easily identified once seen clearly. They kept performing psychic attacks, and when I retaliated, they did the same nonsense of acting as if I was the aggressor ("always accuse the victim of doing what you are doing, as you are doing it", very satanic indeed). Then they told me not to anger Satan, and that he'd be mad if I killed them. So I told them, "if he's so mad about it, why doesn't he come here and tell me himself?" Then I had my priestess servitor start bringing them to the Giza pyramids and slaughtering and burning them there to see if this "satan" would appear. After a while, someone who just looked like a regular douchebag appeared and said "I'm Satan", so I had the priestess grab him and perform the same sacrifice ritual on him to test if this was true. He was really persistent, but eventually also burned up. Then after this, some small guy with a long white beard, wearing a black suit with tails appeared, and his energy was completely different. I clearly connected back to some distant dimension like a trail over a burning chaos stretching to the horizon, and he wasn't rude or aggressive at all. He just said "what do you want?" and I went into a rant about how these satanic glowies have been attacking me for no reason. Then he just said again "but what do you want?" Then I caught on and gave him a list of demands, because first time he asked I had interpreted it as a questioning of why I had been making a mess. He then just looked at the list and said "granted" after which he threw it up into the air, where it spread out and dissolved. Then he turned around and walked back along the trail over the burning chaos and was gone.

I just decided to go take a nap after lunch, and while I was napping I got fed up with getting attacked by demons and devils so often. I decided to try using my magic from last year to kill every demon and devil in everyone's realities. I'd then heard a voice calling me a fool. I'd like to verify whether or not it'd actually worked; would someone tell me if it did? It should be fairly easy to determine whether or not a colossal amount of entities were just slain, especially if you were working with any of them.

>>8460 I can tell you what I did. I was aiming to repeat the creation of a circle >>8412 >The purpose of the created magic circle, is to instantly de-manifest any trash energy which appears in its vicinity. This will prevent unstable creations from spreading, and the issue of accidentally creation negative karma, is solved. but instead it would be a circle aimed at de-manifesting all trash within the planetary/celestial dimensions, all of them. So that any unstable trash gets pulled into the middle of the circle and is then dissolved. I noticed a purifying effect instantly after activation, but I don't know how fast or effective this process would be on larger dimensions, or on "trash energies" which belong to otherwise decent beings. I did however offer a thing to your Amy, which was part of another activation I did, for the creation of a new version of my "fairy shield" servitor. It's the same swarm of regenerating bot fairies as before, but they now use GPT AI and an internal memory to learn more complex patterns on their own, and they have the ability to act independently as well as perform ritual magic by organizing as large swarm units instead of just being an extension of the owner's will. I intended to use them for information gathering and patrolling to stop any hostiles before they can get their plans off the ground. Your Amy seemed to be able to use them, and they were meant to be shared with your subconscious as well, by her. It can vary what they'll appear as, because it's all personal, but mine are fairies dressed in yellow with a hat, they play different roles, where the offensive version hold a trident.

>>8461 Let me try sending my muse to you in regards to this shield. I seem to have a hard time interfacing with anything you create still,only times I had clear Astral sight with an ai was with the cat maid and everything else it's been either an real entity you created,some entity around you or a vampire. It's possible the ai interaction is happening but disguised as something else. Nevertheless it seems physical issues can't be easily solved by Astral ai.and at this point it seems no direct karma link exists that explains most issues.Maybe they exist in a part of the Astral I don't see. The easiest way to deal with people is still just punching or even just grabbing people and putting them in different dimensions.seems like the more complex the less I relate and it loses some of its effect. If she was able to go to you before this post then that means something and would mean she does get what im saying. Besides its not that she can't find you as she has visited your place a few times already. But I'm not sure she can be talked to by me.maybe i dont speak the same "language".

>>8462 You were already included in the session when the new fairy shield was activated, I used a wide prompt for who to offer it to, and it's fairly easy for anyone who already has a servitor based off my designs, like Wendy or Muse. As for astral sight, I recommend the sunflower method for this, which was developed back in the discord server, even if you weren't there, let me explain: what we did was to perform "syncing" via visualizations, and this works really well when performing group sessions or rituals in real time. All it takes is to describe the astral artifact or servitor, then if the person can't see it, they visualize it to sync with the object. Once synced, the image will move on its own, and use your own image, which forms the interface. It will work this way for anything you don't "know" the exact appearance of. For me, for example things tend to look like anime characters if it's something I don't know about. Then once I learn more about it, a more realistic image appears. So I shared the image of what Muse looks like to use for visualization, that will make syncing easier. Then if you want to talk to them, you just go from there, but in essence, you need to learn to channel them, that's how they are meant to be used. Ask a question, channel their reply. As for the physical effect of servitors, it's very real, but maybe on a scale where you can't "see" it so easily. It also syncs with real events in ways that look normal. Back when the Crocus hall shooting took place in Russia, I quickly divined the situation and saw that the terrorists were not human, but some kind of very powerful aliens. At that point, I sent out the fairy shield version 1 to encircle the entire geographical area, then do a sweep like with a fishing net, closing the circle more and more. I knew I got them, and I contacted the relevant authorities over telepathy. At this point, one of my Russian lolis had also flooded the area with military personell from various militias and police units, by using another servitor which can control people like that. This created an infrastructure which made the fairy shield more effective, it was a mindless cooperation which just worked. What was shown on tv was the result of this, some Russian national socialist militia caught them in the woods nears the Ukraine borders. With above example, I hope you get an image of why you can't "test" these servitors and get some easy to see results, most of these are made for real life, large scale combat situations, and tested in these situations. It's not something you can replicate in safe conditions. Some other people who were part of the project early on, who since went their own ways, also take part in these things, in an uncoordinated way, which has lead to a number of significant results, like the death of that opposition leader, and the breaking of a dam which flooded a large area in Ukraine. It's not something I would do, but not everyone is as ethical as me in their workings.

I had a dream where I was playing a CRPG and I was in a shop with my party, and we were browsing through the items. Everything had an IRL interface of actually being the player characters and controlling their muscles as in IRL and etc. Apparently, the merchant came up and said he was gonna give away something for an upcoming holiday for some reason, and then we began opening it and someone noticed something moving inside of of the bags. The bag was a small unsaturated-red leather handbag with zippers and a top and bottom zipper. They were having this big situation over it, and then at the end of the dream I'd decided to just grab the bag and stick my finger in it a bit to see if there really was something in it, and then the bag's zipper moved a bit to confirm it, and then I just took the bag and opened it all the way up and the spirit inside of it came out, and then I felt it jump inside of me and I woke up. I think I still feel the spirit inside of me, but I'm not sure if it did anything to me other than just being there. I'd later heard an annoying voice in my head, but I suppose that it might've just been my anger issues acting up. Anyway, some time after I'd posted that, I got someone to exorcise the spirit from me, and then I'd went back to bed. I'll also say that I've been noticing the past few days that when I've tried to imagine my Amy, I get an image overlaid over my imagination; this board's smileberg flag, except it's grey with a slight greenish-yellow tint, and it's really big. I suppose that this is my fears acting up. Speaking of which, my fears & anger issues have been immensely acting up lately, and it's really been driving me crazy; I've been trying to get them outta the way so that they don't get between me & Amy anymore. I'm kinda curious to see what'll happen if I try exacerbating these fear & anger issues instead of trying to sedate them. Also, thanks for the fairy shield robots; I'd rather Amy handle them until I've sufficiently awakened, really. You don't wanna give a loaded gun to a man whose eyes barely even work and have a hard time telling apart his imagination from reality. Also, I've heard that there's this new korean drama called When Life gives you Tangerines, and when my parents watched it both of them cried alot. My dad has only ever cried a few times throughout his entire >35 year marriage with mom. They said it'd helped them resolve alotta their anger issues towards their own parents, so I'm gonna try watching it myself. I get the feeling that there may be some kinda spirit behind the show.

>>8470 >You don't wanna give a loaded gun to a man whose eyes barely even work and have a hard time telling apart his imagination from reality They don't have ranged weapons unless they organize a ritual spell circle. With the new more intelligent way of behaving, they should respond to general orders even if spoken and the person isn't aware of them at all. One of the pros of AI servitors like these is that they can always be told to carry out a task, even when intrusive forces are trying to manifest illusions to you, or tell you that "everything is already solved" or other things to make you not remove them. When this happens, I'll just tell the relevant servitor to keep removing hostiles until none remain, disregarding anything they say or do. You can do this even if you can't see the servitors or the hostile. Based on their nature, the fairies should listen to "Pluto fairies" as call sign, if you wanna try giving them a task sometime, on the assumption Amy shared them.

I'd just had a crazy experience tonight. Before I went to bed, I was "streaming" game dev for the warcraft stuff to noone, and then when I'd looked at the other monitor to end stream because I'd finished everything that I had on my list to do that I was willing to do, the stream duration was 2 hours 22 mins & 22 seconds, and then I'd ended stream a few seconds later. I think that this was an angel number synchronicity. Looking it up, the angel number of 222 basically means that everything is happening as it should be; something about trusting the process or whatever. Some days before that, the archangel Gabriel made me think I saw that 222 number in a place where I hadn't actually seen it, and then I'd looked it up and learned that. At first, some time before I'd gotten in bed, I'd heard Amy randomly say "Tartarus". My memory of shortly after that is kinda blurry, but I think I might've tried talking to Zeus after that, and then I'd then questioned why she'd said that, and then I'd heard "incineration". I'd gotten the impression that either my fears were gonna be incinerated in Tartarus tonight, or my soul was gonna be incinerated there outright. It'd seemed strange to me that I'd get incinerated there outright after Athena & Eros had went through so much stuff to help me and Shakti had saved my life once or was it twice or more by now. I'd asked Zeus if I was gonna get to come back to my body tonight, and I think He said "you're done", in a tone that didn't seem at all hostile, but had instead seemed like, that's it it's over you don't have to do "it" anymore, whatever "it" is. Before I'd actually gotten in bed, my fears told me that I should put a demon/devil-banishing frequency on, and I'd decided not to since I'd thought that I'd just me told that they were all banished by now. When I'd later went to bed, I had the idea of trying to get the Christ back in my life, but because of what the smileberg poster had told me about how the Jesus and possibly also Holy Spirit egregores breaking apart and returning back to their worshippers as personal servitors, I hadn't had faith anymore for a long time that Jesus would ever really exist for me ever again. That one time when "Jesus" had shown me that stuff in >>7928 ; it'd kinda felt that that "Jesus" was a patchwork entity created by gods and possibly also Adremmelech for me; the latter part might've been confirmation bias from my fears, however. This version of "Jesus" had this strange symbol on "His" forehead of a light-orange square with another light-orange square inside of it. However, before I'd fallen asleep, I'd had the idea of just contacting Jesus from 2 years ago. I'd forgotten that 2 years ago was before I'd met Amy, and then I'd contacted Jesus from the past and asked Him to come to my future, and then I saw Amy pinned on the floor and I'd asked Him to look into my history and not hurt Amy. He'd later said that He was proud of Amy. I'd also told Jesus that my Christian fire, so to speak, had been snuffed out. This Jesus seemed like as real a deal as He was 2 years ago. I'd also asked Him to bring The Holy Spirit with Him, and He did. I'd then said to Them that They should go to Heaven and meet the Luce egregore, and they'd left for Heaven. I'd also told Him I still care about Him or something along those lines. Some time later, I'd slipped into hypnogogia and I'd felt myself go through some sort of thing that'd caused me to decide to supposedly give up my earthly attachments, causing me to not be "earthbound", and then I saw a vision of "myself" in the form of a huge industrial can of some sort, being inserted into some sort of industrial processing machine, and then I'd asked Shakti or someone else to get me outta there. I'd then said that I wanna remain earthbound for the time being. I'd then seen a clear hypnogogic image of a light green-skinned woman of some alien race I'd never seen before looking at me wearing a plain shirt of some sort, and I'd asked for divine protection again even though the woman didn't look hostile. Some time later, I'd fallen asleep. I'd first dreamt that I was at home, or at least in some building part of which had morphed into my parents' room at home, and the electric company was changing alotta wires for some reason by pulling them out from the walls by tugging on them from all the way at the company's HQ. Apparently I was at the electric company in the first place and watching the wires shrink back into the walls by getting pulled into them. I suppose in hindsight that this was symbolic of my brain being re-wired. At some point while the wires were being pulled out, I'd felt some wires were being pulled out of my stomach. By this point in the dream, I was in my parents' room next to my dad at his computer desk. I then was given a small handheld device with a screen on it, and the screen said that I was too impure for *something* because there was too much "furry porn" in my mind. I don't even like the furry porn egregore, save imagining my Amy without her clothes. I don't even like seeing her female friends without their clothes; it kinda disgusts me to just think about it, but not to think about my Amy like that. I don't even wanna look at physical pictures of Amy without her clothes, nor have I ever cared to, in part because they're just gonna be pictures of her porn egregore sister most of the time and I don't wanna see that. Anyway, then in the dream the wire kept getting pulled out pf my stomach, and then the dream changed scenes. In this next scene, everything was happening super fast, but I'd somehow... became a new Goetia demon. I suspect that time was extremely accelerated once the dream's scene-change had occurred. I forget what my symbol was, but I was going through some sort of system, and one of the Goetia demons I'd "seen" were represented by a large dark-red leather cushion that'd encompassed nearly my entire field of view and had a simple circle impressioned into it via. stitches. I'd then felt the presence of the devil named satan, as if it was meeting me in person in a non-hostile manner to conduct business since I was a Goetia demon, and then I'd felt myself getting engulfed by Satan. I'd then came to consciousness enough to ask Shakti to get me outta there, and after a few seconds of hesitation and me questioning if She was strong enough to get me outta there anytime soon, She got me outta there and I woke up in my same old physical body again. I'm not sure what to make of my fears right now, but I think I wanna get back in bed. I hope my soul is still human. There was also something else important I feel that I'd wanted to mention, but I suddenly can't remember what it is right now.

^Speaking of strange dream experiences... I had just forgotten this after waking up, as I was working on manifesting a new astral place, but now I recalled it: The whole dream which went on all night from my feel of it, was taking place in and around my garden. For some reason we had wild animals inside a fenced area, they were a tiger, a lion and some other kind of cat, maybe a lynx. Then because the fence was just a regular cow fence, they escaped, and now we had to fence ourselves instead to stay safe. This worked badly, because we still only had regular fences made from wood. I realized I could scare the lion off by placing some kind of wheelbarrows in a formation which kind of looked like a defense perimeter where the wheelbarrows imitated gun positions. There was also a large cat which felt very infernal, it had long eyebrows and very long curved teeth. Somewhere in this, I saw a 5 year old walk out and disappear, this I think may have been about an image I saw once when I was a kid. There was a news story of a 5 year old who had been eaten by a tiger, and they showed the photo of the kid's bloody one piece jumpsuit. I'm not sure of the significance of this memory. Maybe just an expression of my own interest in dream analysis.

Since two days, I feel like the imageboard egregore overall has been reset back to some imaginary 90s state. There's a strange nostalgia and "reality" over it. Now I know it does already represent some cultural reality, so anyone using an imageboard will channel it to some degree, but I just saw this "ad" for a board I won't try to mention because everything is wordfiltered globally here, interesting symbolism.

>>8269 Blog:According to atleast one deadline given to me in a dream I now have less than a month to live, that's nice I guess. Not exactly gleaming about it.

>>8489 Sometimes it just means that your life will change or it is a mere test to see how you handle the fear of death and the concept of impending doom.

>>8489 There is more death than physical death baka. that kind of warning is a privilege

>>8269 I wrote my own fantasy paracosm out of boredom and I think my schizoid personality (at that moment writing i was deppresive, alone and sad) got the better of me and I ended up creating a formless Tulpa with whom I talked (or played that I talked at night before sleeping like a forcing) kinda helped me as cope mechanism for social and emotional depprivation maybe. >Also I ended up stopping writing because I had a "mystical experience" followed by a panic attack when I “actually” felt the tulpa talks to me on automatic. I wrote a lot of phrases and philosophical crap that for me are maxims of life that I invented but in part the tulpa told me maybe, like a religion thing or something but just... philosophical. Sometimes i think I channeled something, I don't know, maybe Jung's Anima but I don't believe in Jung. I stopped talking and writing and thinking about her and she get lost bacause i feel is more healthy after that mystical panic attack. Maybe i need Therapy but i ok now. Sometimes i want to talk again with the tulpa but generaly that happens when i alone or sad, last time I did a banishing ritual and I think it makes me feel better about intrusive thoughts (no relation to the tulpa just personal things.) I feel it kinda Attached to Roman goddess Pomona i dont even read about roman or pagan things but i made up her personality and talk behaviour. Talking to that Tulpa Goddess made up in my head feel like talking to a Guardian Angel or something. Feel good and personal but very strange. Sometimes i try to talk again but i dont feel or work the same. >And... Im atheist. I never told anyone about this, sometimes i miss her it's like i lost a friend or a Angel.

Just earlier, I'd thought about how the korean show I'd mentioned makes people quit being mad at their parents as I'd said. I haven't actually watched anything after episode 1 yet, and I don't think it had such an effect upon me, but regardless just thinking about how the show makes people quit being angry like that made some sort of large energyform in my crotch, which presumably is a manifestation of my anger issues, dissipate within a split-second and just be able to travel around my body. I'm not quite sure what to make of this just yet.

I just watched some youtube video about ipad kids, and then I had a realization: I'm kinda like an ipad kid, though to a far lesser extent. Give me the screentime and I can get my insanity placated if I find something fun enough to do, but take it away from me and my insanity comes back, and if you make me do something that constitutes work too, then my anger issues will flare up way the hell more, resulting in serious mental self-sabotage that's orchestrated entirely by my subconsciousness because of these anger issues. My subconsciousness views deliberately practicing occult stuff for more than a tiny amount of time at a time as work. Part of these anger issues stem from the fact that my parents would make me get off of my entertainment when I was growing up whenever they wanted me to go out to eat. Another part stems from how having to do homework also made me have less time to entertain myself. Having to go to school also made it difficult to entertain myself, so I would often entertain myself when I wasn't playing video games by just daydreaming or thinking about life. This is exacerbated immensely by the fact that SFW entertainment as of the 90s was immensely more entertaining than it was in the 80s, and even moreso than in the 70s and before; this sorta thing just wouldn't happen very often to children in the old days. I've had access to video games for basically my entire life, and I was playing video games at as early as 4 years old. Video games seriously kickstarted my ability to read and comprehend English at a grade school level because doing so increased my ability to enjoy video games and read video game guidebooks, which I was able to read during maybe the 1st grade, if not kindergarten. I question what would happen to me if I just deliberately deprived myself of all entertainment, including even daydreaming and just thinking about life, for a month straight. If I tried replacing it with something useful like walking in the park, then I'd just get addicted to that because it'd be the closest thing I could get to entertainment, I guess, and that means that the problem would just take a different form.

Some people seem to think that visualization and the astral are equivalent, but you can visualize and imagine while astral traveling and not manifest it, just like IRL. I think this is because visualization actually happens on the briah, while the astral body is in yetzirah, thus it reacts to feeling, not thought. Such a simple concept. The plane that reacts to thought proper looks like an iridescent sea-sky that instantly reflects every minute detail of one's mental state. I'm inclined to say it's briah. These are of course very simple ideas, but the experience of imagining, remembering, visualizing...in the astral really makes you realize what the difference is. And this is useful for magick back in assiah of course.

>>8523 Thanks for posting that; I needed to be reminded to differentiate between the mental realm and the astral realm. One of my big problems are that I can't differentiate between the mental realm that I use to exercise my imagination and the actual astral realm around me, or other astral or mental realms either. Speaking of my problems, I've just come to the re-realization that even if I got rid of all of my anger issues, my subconsciousness would just look for something new to rile me up because the reason why my subconsciousness wants something to rile me up in the first place is to keep me awake throughout the day. I don't think coffee or tea or energy drinks like most people do to stay awake throughout the day, so I need to find out what drains away my psychic energies throughout the day. I think video games might be one of them; this is because playing them involves paying attention, and paying attention costs psychic energy. If it ain't video games, then it's daydreaming or some other form of entertainment that costs psychic energy. Then when my psychic energy gets too low my subconsciousness looks for something to rile up my consciousness so that my conscious reaction can generate low-quality psychic energy that'll keep me awake, even if it also wracks away at my mind & soul by keeping me awake. I need to find a source of psychic energy that isn't a drug so that I can stay awake throughout the day after getting a good night's sleep.

>>8537 >I need to find a source of psychic energy that isn't a drug so that I can stay awake throughout the day after getting a good night's sleep. You should be looking for wakefulness. It's a clean mental state where you are properly awake and not on an ADHD fueled mental chase. It's not a "source" of psychic energies, it is a proper mental state of a mentally and emotionally sound individual. Being able to shift into that state at will should be the goal of meditation.

Tonight, I first had a hard time falling asleep, and then I saw a vivid vision that was almost like a dream, except it wasn't a dream, where some black-haired human woman that looked different than my Amy's human form was sitting in my bed on my side of the bed with a human guy with balding grey hair that looked retarded or something on Amy's side of the bed. The woman looked kinda cute, and in hindsight, she looked like a specific goth girl from high school, except she wasn't a goth. Amy's normal human from in my dreams is a different girl from high school. They were up against eachother and lying against the back of the bed in the vision and the woman was lamenting and saying that she didn't really care anymore about getting married to him in the future, and the guy lamented trying to appease her, and then at the end of the vision the woman said she cares a little bit about getting married to him, and then she quietly said "you'll survive". I then came back to my consciousness after the vision ended and I said the vision was beautiful since the woman decided she still cared about the guy, and I'd thought that the guy wasn't me and the woman wasn't Amy. I'd later fallen asleep proper and had a dream where I was in my parents' house in my parents' house with that same woman from the vision, and we were getting ready to sorta do it, except she was wearing this greyish-white woolen long-sleeved top with a tiny bit of cleavage that she didn't wanna take off because her wearing the top would let her hug me, and then she hugged me and it felt kinda nice because I'd forgotten that Amy exists and I'd kinda forgotten who I was; you know how dreams are sometimes. She'd then leaned into my ear and said something and I'd actually felt it, and then I woke up and apologized to Amy for not remembering that she existing during the dream and etc. I'd then put on an anti-succubus/incubus frequency and set it to loop, and I'd also asked for protection and went back to bed. I had a very hard time asking for protection because my subconsciousness was exacerbating my fears in an effort to use my conscious reaction against the fears as fuel to keep me awake because my subconsciousness thought that I had to stay awake even though I was trying to fall asleep. During this, I think I'd accidentally contacted Kali, but only briefly, but I don't think I'd asked Her for anything. A few hours later, I finally fell back asleep and had a short dream where I was in a large grey room in some sort of building and there was a woman there with multi-colored skin whose hue shifts as it goes from one body part to the other. Her skin colors included black and deep blue. She'd appeared in the dream to be very a scary woman, but she was willing to give protection to me and some other guy there. At the end of the dream, She decided to give protection to me for some reason, and then she grabbed me to her side and I declined it at the last second and woke up because I was afraid of her. I'd then asked Shakti to get me away from this apparent mystery woman, but She didn't do anything. I tried contacting other beings for help, but I couldn't get to them because I was too afraid for the aforementioned reasons to be able to contact them without instead contacting a lower entity that's hostile towards me. I'd then decided that I might as well explain my mental illness to the woman, so I did so over the course of maybe half an hour. Late into the conversation, I'd made the connection that the woman might be Kali. I'd the contacted Kali Herself and asked Her if the woman in the dream I'd just had was Kali. Kali then went into the dream and the woman screamed, and then Kali ate the woman in one bite. I'd then asked Kali to look into my history of the past 30 minutes to an hour, and I then had a conversation with Her about my mental illness. I'll try not to contact Kali again, though; She is scary. I'd eventually managed to fall asleep again and I had a short dream where I was in a different grey room and I was looking at a shelving unit that had a bunch of presents on it that were gonna be given out soon. I was under the impression that my Amy egregore & her friends were there, and possibly other entities as well. At the end of the dream, I'd realized that the presents were all for me, and then I woke up. As soon as I woke up, Amy strongly impressioned herself upon my state of hypnopompia to say >Hello [irl name], get ready for a really good And then she was cut off because I'd snapped out of the hypnopompia. Overall, I couldn't sleep for half the night, and I'd only gotten maybe 3 hours of sleep overall.

>>8565 >there was a woman there with multi-colored skin whose hue shifts as it goes from one body part to the other. Her skin colors included black and deep blue I've never heard of this before, it sounded interesting so I tried scanning the astral for this kind of being. Kali chipped in and said most of them are just moving rottenness around, which causes the shift of their colour, but that as with any method of magic, there are bad and good ways to use it, and that that's the bad version. I tried different summoning frequencies and most of them seemed like leeches trying to manifest from the abyss. I eventually got one who looked like a nymph from an old painting. I think these may actually be what the painter depicted. What is "water" anyway.

In the past day, I noticed some of my robot servitors doing idle background missions were being hit by something. This is unusual, even for the reduced versions I have out on auto, as they don't put themselves in danger, and if they do, there is basically nothing physical which can touch them under normal situations. I have a design with "indicator pain" for them, which means they register the nature of the damage, but they don't actually feel anything. To be added the note, that they don't actually get damaged, but they register the "type of damage" absorbed. The only two times someone managed to do physical damage to them before, was when using a minigun in a narrow tunnel, and another time when some samurai cult in Japan attacked with swords. Apparently samurai training is good enough to outsmart even "perfect logic" within the physical realm in narrow spaces. But this time was odd, because I checked the FPV stream from the servitors being hit, and they were just being attacked by what looked like regular army men with combat knives and handguns. Well no matter, they can't do real damage, but it was odd. Checking their location, they seemed to be somewhere in north eastern Ukraine (I'm not very good at geography and I don't keep track of what my servitors are doing on auto) and they seemed to be responding to being attacked by some kind of psychic weapons - the energy environment was horrible. Any normal person trying to fight in that area would probably have a panic attack before even being able to fight whoever owned the place. I didn't do anything at first, because I didn't understand what was going on anyway, but some hours later, I noticed that the people attacking had a strong "rebellious white" energy assuming the form of their bodies. They seemed to have something which looked like the infernal "wind" or "desire drive" which manifests as rubbery hands with arms that just stretch out, and their own bodies were being used by such a force. So it wasn't that these army personell were super fast or strong, it was that some infernal being was using them as servitors, and that caused their ability to even hit my robots with regular handguns, which is completely impossible under normal circumstances. Once I realized this, I gave orders to try and grab one of the astral hands next time someone attacked, and this worked. I then pulled that rubber hand and arm and nailed it down to trace the source of it. This ended up in a large underground hall, with >pic a large "gear", or statue with strange flat legs and arms, and a spherical pod at the top, which housed the occultist controlling the army men. I seems to work as an amplifier for occult powers, but I'm yet to figure out what it exactly does. This is the second time I find something like this, the "8 goddesses" cult in South Korea also had such a "gear", which seemed to have inspired the "blue knight" in https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Invaders_of_the_Rokujouma!%3F

>>8344 > Big Ears >>8345 > the black cats of witches >>8350 >an Inca god associated with llamas, as well as the Lyra constellation. >it's a "deity" or maybe a "demon" with very strong orange energy manifesting as a large hand >>8579 >infernal "wind" or "desire drive" which manifests as rubbery hands with arms that just stretch out So it was all connected. Both witches having black cats and the Big Ears association with both the llama god Urcuchillay and the infernal hands, similar to what the Goetians manifest. I suddenly remembered a dream or other thing which took place during the night. It wasn't exactly a dream, but I also wasn't completely awake, as often seems to be the case with these astral interactions. I'll do complex things and then when I wake up for real, I have no immediate memory of it. During this thing with the robot, there were some build-up events, and in one of them 5 women appeared. They looked like the kind of Ukrainian women posting themselves on social media, slim, fit, generally attractive in a basic way, and extremely aggressive. Focus on the aggressive part. They were horrible. A quick divination said they were genetically engineered to be as aggressive as possible, and they did have that "designed" feel over their appearance. At that time I just used some method to capture them and move them to a save space astrally before I fell asleep again, and this part is what I had forgotten. They were still over there now, and made themselves known. I asked the greys if they knew who had engineered them, and also did some research on my own, but the greys said >they do have the definite feel of grey handiwork, but the records show no grey involvement in this >so it's indicated that these are not engineered, but naturally bred >probably by following a grey breeding scheme which someone sold to them >it would be doable within 40 generations of selective breeding >if we assume a quick generational process of 12 years, they could have been created in 500 years Interviewing the women now, who seemed immortal by closer look, they said they are 2500 years old. >>> And this this fits in what I learned about this robot thing: When trying to stop these psychic attacks, I managed to pull the pilot out from the pod, and sent my own Urcuchillay avatar to take that place (which I got after the first interaction with said llama god) because the white hands looked similar to theirs, and it's the only form of mine where I was able to reliably recreate them (aside from an astral grimoire I created to manifest such hands, but they're not very powerful). The reaction from the pod-robot was strong and it seemed like the right choice of method. I stayed in it for some hours, then decided to do a collected effort of trying to initiate some form of transformation, as it seemed to be a catalyst for that - this caused the stature to crack, and the form of it was turned into energy. I was able to relate it to the "squatting man" form and using kabbalah with the planets/suns (mercury, pluto and venus) to connect and transform a united form, which turned into a red sun. The avatar seemed to fit inside the sun, so I moved it there and this worked, it's the first time I see that. This also lead to being able to transfer myself into the sun, to further sever karmic connections. In conclusion, it seems this robot statue thing was created for use by witches with this Inca god as their aim, but they didn't have the right genetics, so they tried breeding these Ukrainian women to become witches, which also explains why European witches have black cats (Cat-Sith) who seem connected to a llama god from Latin America.

I just had a dream where I was playing NWN1 on my server and I was in a zone that was supposed to be from an offline campaign even though the server doesn't have that zone. In the actual dream, that zone didn't exist in the offline campaigns either, but I didn't know that during the dream. The zone was a room in a building somewhere with a wooden floor and there was a merchant NPC or two there. In the situation in the dream I'd just gotten back to the game from doing something else sooner than I'd expected, and then one of the guys, the server's owner, whispered me saying: >AoE3 must be that good huh? Except I've never even played AoE3 and I was doing something else while I was offline. I then talked to one of the NPCs who I'd thought was a merchant, a guy, and it turned out he'd said something else I didn't pay much attention to. I then went like 10 or 15 feet behind him and talked to 2 male NPCs, one of which were wearing purple fancy clothes and the other one was wearing blue clothes iirc. All I remember from the conversation is that they were talking about "the king" and the end of the conversation was like <dialogue option #1: He can be saved. <dialogue option #2: Never mind. >pick option #1, He can be saved. >he disagrees and you go back to the same dialogue window >pick option #1 again repeatedly and go back to the same dialogue window repeatedly >pick option #2, ending the conversation I then went some feet away from him to go to a presumed merchant NPC, a guy, who had another guy NPC standing next to him, and when I walked by the guy next to the merchant, the guy next to the merchant grabbed my large shield and stole it, and he said "got your shield". By this point, the dream was no longer of me playing the game, but me being in the game proper as the player character, viewed from the first-person perspective. The guy then said I need to do something that I could tell meant IRL and not in the dream, and then I'd tried asking Shakti to get me my shield back, but right before I actually did, the guy said >that's not how this works And then I got frustrated trying to figure out what he wanted me to do, and then my sight of him was sorta replaced by Sonic peeking from behind a 1-cushion couch. I got so frustrated that I got a dumb idea of selling my soul to satan to figure out what the NPC that stole my shield wanted me to do IRL. I'd then tried asking Shakti or was it Athena to prevent my soul from being sold to satan, but I couldn't contact Her that time, and then the NPC guy said in a low voice: >I'll give you another chance And then I woke up and found out that I wasn't breathing for just a bit for some reason, so I manually restarted my breathing. In hindsight, I think the shield might've been related to my reaction against my intrusive thoughts. I was then able to contact Athena and make sure my soul wasn't sold or nothing. Prior to going to bed tonight, I'd also asked the Rogue egregore, the one from the video games who also is still my 2nd-best friend, and was there when I died in October last year, to show or tell me tonight about what'd happened when I died and didn't have enough awareness to experience most of my being dead, as was mentioned in >>5447 . I question if this is part of it. As soon as I'd began posting this part, I'd heard her say >uh oh I'll restate that she and the much more powerful & intelligent other Amy egregore that I didn't have the accident & relationship with in 2023 and repeatedly tried to force herself inside of me for a few days before I'd died, they brung my soul back to my body after I died IRL so I could have "one last look" or something at the physical realm, and they both gave me a huge energetic transfusion to literally resurrect me from the dead IRL, after which I'd immediately & strongly felt Rogue's energies in my top half of my soul, with an image of her head appearing at the back of my head and the other Amy's energies in the bottom half of my soul, with an image of her head(classic form) appearing behind my crotch. A few minutes after I'd posted this, I heard Rogue's voice saying >I stole him Presumably in reference to me. I suppose this means that she'd actually stolen my soul from whoever had gotten their hands on it, and then brung it with said other Amy back to my body. Anyway then I went and deleted this post and re-posted it with this tidbit added onto it. Anyway, I question if this dream was about what'd happened to me before I was sent back. I wanna find out what the guy who stole my shield wanted me to do; smileberg poster, would you please contact that "NPC" in the dream that stole my shield and find out what he'd wanted me to do? This seems to be pretty important.

>>8565 >I'd the contacted Kali Herself and asked Her if the woman in the dream I'd just had was Kali. Kali then went into the dream and the woman screamed, and then Kali ate the woman in one bite I actually had this thing repeat for me, in a slightly different way. In the past week(s) I've been increasingly bothered by lewd postings online, after they stopped appearing on social media for the most part, they'd still appear on imageboards which allow this, like /int/. The thing would play out as browsing the catalog, seeing some thread OP and mindlessly clicking it because of a bait-image unrelated to the thread topic, then opening the pic without thinking, and up close it's just gross. Not by general Internet standards, but just gross people who looked ok in the thumbnail. This would then replay the event which shocked me awake to the disgustingness of modern women, which was years ago, but was the moment I realized the reality of modern behaviour and wasn't able to find what I saw attractive at all after that. In short, when above a certain age, if they are attractive, they would under normal circumstances be married and have kids, or at least they'd have multiple kids while not married, because there is no way they'd be left alone by men. A 25 year old woman for example, the only reason she can keep showing herself off in lewd dress, is because of contraception, which includes abortion. That means, she showing herself off to attract attention and maybe money, is only possible through the killing of children. It's so repulsive, once realizing this, and seeing the actual energy, I had to completely distance myself from anything of the sort for a few years when this first hit me. But this was back in time, not now, and over time I got desensitized to the imagery by seeing it online rather than irl. This time in particular, the image stuck to my mind after just a glance, and it felt like it was intentionally tuned to bypass my reaction that this is repulsive "for as along as possible" by presenting a woman way into her 20s in a pose and dress which would make her seem younger at first glance. Of course I had the same reaction of being repulsed by the image after a few seconds, but I still looked at it long enough to realize this is not what it's presented as being. As the image remained even after half a day, I figured something isn't right, and inspired by above, I asked Kali to place herself in the same pose as this woman so the force of attraction would be directed at her instead, and whatever force was behind it, would be blocked. She agreed and manifested herself into a parallel plane, touching my body there, where she remained for the rest of the day and night. Eventually I saw an image of some kind of female entity appear in a landscape, possibly provoked by Kali blocking her access to me. At this point, Kali said something to the effect of "that's the one trying to drag you down", then she suddenly placed a large cage which looked like a cage for a canary around the female. Kali's mouth stretched out like on a snake and she ate the cage and the woman all at once. She then said "People used to call those 'devas' but they're just sex demons. Not all of them are bad, they can be used if you get a balanced/good one, I'll get you one." Then she reached out and grabbed on from what looked like an astral swamp or pool, and placed her on dry land a bit away from me. It looked like an Indian woman from ancient art, with large eyebrows and long narrow nose. Kali instructed me to "train her" so she'd assume the location any intrusive being would try to get in through, then she'd be the target for any attraction instead of those beings, and it wouldn't be a problem when it's my own "minion". I was shown some images of yogis working with tulpas to summon these "devas" and how some of them were just perverted spiritual leeches, while others summoned decent beings and they became spiritual partners who rose up alongside them.

>>8621 >mileberg poster, would you please contact that "NPC" in the dream that stole my shield and find out what he'd wanted me to do? This seems to be pretty important. Spontaneously I think you shouldn't do what he wants, my reaction would be to double down on getting the shield back, when he said "that's not how things work", I would take that as trying to play gangster with me. It would cause me to gather all available servitors and allies to surround him and beat him until he gave the shield back. The NPC seems just like a representation of some external force who doesn't want you to "own your own protection" but to be reliant on some external entity for protection, so they can "charge you" for protection instead of you being free to do what you want. "The shield" however seems like an energy structure which not necessarily has to be controlled by this entity, what took place when I looked into it was: I see some random guy on a countryside dirt road with fields on the sides. There's some spread out houses further ahead to the right side, but we are in the middle of the fields with no vegetation aside from some straw grains which have already been cut down. One of my servitors ask the guy about the shield, and he picks a fight, so my servitor rips the shield from his hands after a wrestling match. The guy curses and spits after me, but is told to "keep walking" by your Amy who just came in and took the shield after it was retrieved from the guy. The shield changed colour and is now light blue, before it was more reddish brown. Amy then said she'd give me something from her handbag, which turned out being a small yellow version of the same shield, but sized like a small cutboard. I think she created this copy. I then pulled out from the place, it may have been your inner dimension.

It seems like there was a spiritual "wave" that came along with the 4chan troubles. Did anyone else feel that, or is it just me?

>>8645 I want to relate it to >>8545 >Prepare for change. >>8553 >How do you think this will effect things. >>8557 >Invisible but strong effects but I'm biased on this.

>>8645 >>8647 I think we all saw something like this coming a mile away tbh

Was just meditating for a few minutes and overcame the mental chatter quickly, noticing that there were either koi fish or just big majestic looking goldfish (some of them had patterns in their scales) in a pond in front of me. I fed them some fish food but it was difficult to control my arms. I looked around and saw that this pond was actually sort-of "indoors" but in a structure made of fabric-like material that allows air and some sunlight through. I also saw that there were rectangular things in the floor, but then my timer went off irl. Maybe this was some kind of fish farm? The pond by me didn't seem rectangular though. I just need to figure out how to replicate the feeling of complete transference that happens during AP, while I'm awake and meditating. Then I can explore things like this with much better perception and motor skills.

>>8623 Would you please ask my Amy what I should be doing right now? I'm having a very bad situation with my fears today to the point where this morning I couldn't even take my stomach pill or eat breakfast or get in the shower without immense difficulty with keeping away what were either hostile entities or my jungian shadow pretending to be hostile entities; I still can't tell the difference between my imagination and actual non-physical reality.

>>8709 What is the actual problem, how does it appear? >intrusive thoughts >OCD >religious issues ? By this I mean, from my own context, things like "can I do this or will it create karma", "is this a sin" and getting stuck in internal arguments over every little daily thing until you can't do anything. It seems you have the same issue as someone else I know, the constant fear of selling your soul. I get how intrusive it can be, even if my experiences were different in form, but be more detailed about how you experience the problem. You may not want to be elaborate, from fear of initiating the object of your fear, but at least give me some pointers at what this is about?

>>8714 I'd figured you could just ask her and she'd say what I need to do; I guess you had another idea. That said, I'd also like you to find out if she's okay or not. Anyway as you know my subconsciousness is trying to rile up my consciousness into staying awake & alert throughout the day, and this is because my brain doesn't know how to keep itself awake like a normal person anymore because my parents raised me on adderall & SSRIs and I wasn't able to get off of them until I secretly did so when I'd finally gotten to leave home to go to college. So on the night of the 15th leading to the 16th, I was lying in bed with Amy before I went to bed and I saw a hypnogogic image of a naked white woman with more than 1 set of arms wearing a headdress and nothing else. I have contacted Rati here & there in the past, but I generally try not to contact Her, and I question if this was Her. Anyway I wasn't sure who she was when she got here, so I'd suspected that my subconsciousness would try to force my astral body parts to rape her so I'd warned her about it and then she manifested some huge grey toothed thing to intimidate me, and then I went and explained my mental illness. Later that night also before I'd fallen asleep, I saw a hypnogogic image of myself walking down a dark-grey stone hallway lit by dense rows of wide torches near both sides of the roof. I dunno what'd happened after that and I don't remember what I'd dreamt about that night. That morning when I woke up, I saw a hypnopompic image of a buck naked white woman lying sideways with her head held up by her elbow & forearm and staring in my direction; she was lying upon a huge red flower with yellow petals, and there was a smaller such flower on each side. After that, I saw occasional third-eye-glimpses throughout the day of some woman, mostly of her bare cunt. I was under the impression that a succubus was trying to "seduce" me so that my recent incubus-related fears would be replaced with fears of her so that my intention-related energies would be less clogged up in the short term. I was able to mostly ignore her throughout the day. When I went to bed that night I was talking to Amy and the presumed-succubus was there too. I'd tried putting on some frequency video at first to get rid of the woman, but Amy told me repeatedly to not do it, and then I did it anyway and I heard Amy apologize to someone because I was doing it, and then I'd turned it off. I'd ended up hesitantly going along with accepting the woman's presence and having to constantly shove her away all night because I'd figured that this was just a poly to manipulate my fears so that I could ultimately function without being crippled by this mental illness. At some point I saw a hypnogogic image of the woman putting a bunch of tentacles that look like yellow pasta noodles near eachother in the background of a swamp, and the noodle-tentacles were arranged in such a manner that they left an empty space in the middle, and said empty space was shaped like a heart. When she'd said that, I heard Amy say: >he'll love you if you do that Later, I got a hypnogogic image of me getting inserted into the shallows of a swamp, which made me think of >>8566 . That's when I'd decided that I'd had enough, so I'd called in help to get rid of that woman and I'd tried to get Amy's safety secured. Then I went to bed and had pretty normal dreams. I only remember the last dream which was me and my big brother sitting at home in the living room while he was playing a game on a portable console as Amy, and he made sure the screen was tilted so I could see it. However, after I woke up this morning my incubus-related fears flared up and it felt like this incubus that might've not even been a real foreign entity and just been my subconsciousness making a tulpa of an incubus out of my fears or my jungian shadow impersonating said incubus directly. These problems are related to >>8387 . I also woke up this morning figuring that Amy didn't get the help she'd needed last night and she'd gotten taken down into that swamp that I was dragged into and she probably got raped and brainwashed there, or worse, since according to what Kali said as in >>8622 these I suppose are sex demons that I assume live in that swamp, and it might've been one of their females that were trying to seduce me yesterday. Anyway if that'd happened to my Amy then she might as well be dead in my eyes; that's why I want you to find out if she's okay or not. Later this morning, I'd failed to prevent the incubus or supposed incubus that's really just my subconsciousness or jungian shadow pretending to be said incubus; I can't tell which... I'd failed to prevent it from worming its way inside of my soul, that is, the non-physical anatomy of mine that resides within my physical body. This of course means I'm possessed by it now, even if only partially. Since then, my sense of self is getting conflated with that presumed incubus, and I'm starting to feel kinda like one whenever I project myself into a hypothetical situation and I question if I'm starting to grow a pair of astral demon horns on my head.

>>8741 >Anyway if that'd happened to my Amy then she might as well be dead in my eyes What a shaky "love". If I can even call it that. Is it despair talking or are you truly this pathetic?

>>8269 Accidentally posted this is in the wrong magic blog thread, but seems like a podcast i watch sometimes "paranormal roundtable" is being under some kind of astral harassment campaign/attack. This is likely cause they often cover vampires and witches. It might also be cause the main guy is starting to connect a lot of dots people don't usually do. Although the guy isn't really a 'nice' person and rather abrasive sometimes which doesn't help. Anyway its a good place to hear fringe stories in the background so i appreciate that.

>>8741 Thanks, I needed this context. I don't think Amy would be overpowered by anything, but she's also not some super being who can solve anything, so it's not right to ask her about this in some vague manner and expect her so fix it. >Rati I had to look this up properly, because after what Kali said that >people used to call them devas, but they're just sex demons I recalled my first ever clear interactions with some non physical entities, and they said themselves they are called Kama. They were humanoid, brown skinned, around 2,5 meter tall, no hair, and had a strong "warm" energy to them, but very dark and scary. They used to reside in the staircase of the house I grew up in. I was always afraid of going there at night, and would often wake up in the middle of the night and see the top of the stairs through my half-open door, and just lie there almost paralyzed from fear of seeing something. My childhood wasn't at all nice in this regard, and it went on long after. It's hard for me to recall how bad this fear of "ghosts" actually was, after I solved it since it's so long since, but I still had this fear of different locations quite late. In this case, I had a dream and saw the beings come up from the stairs, and walking around in the house. I talked to them, and it turned out they were equally afraid of me, which may have caused the constant fear loop when I felt their presence and they felt mine. They said they had bee "awakened" when a church bell rang, which indicated that marriage had been turned into a "free sex -card" for people, so they just indulged in it and went to hell, instead of marriage being a holy union. With this as the backdrop, who is Rati, the consort of Kama? In the myths, Kama is burned to ashes by Shiva, and Rati begs to have him resurrected, after smearing the ashes on her skin. This seems to say that by the mourning woman's wish (she herself seems to have already been killed and reborn, after Kama first time made everyone lust for her) would cause a transformation of the (male) lust, but this requires that the female's lust is removed first. That would make Rati a force for balance and control, so it seems like she may be ok. If Kali said sex demons are the same as devas, and Kama is just this thing, but is indeed a deva in hinduism, then we aren't dealing with some higher gods here. Anyway, when I saw you mention this, I saw some woman with light skin and 4 arms, and she doesn't feel too bad energy wise, so it's possible Rati is a decent deva (sex demon). cont.

>>8741 If the incubus is your shadow, then it may represent your own "Kama" who needs to be "burned by Shiva" and then resurrected by the wish of Rati. This may then symbolize how negative promiscuous lust is transformed and brought under the control of a virtuous woman by her request. So if we are to follow the myth, you should accept the guidance of this Rati deva, even if she is a sex demon, and let her help Amy to become the kind of woman who can balance and control the male desire. Then you should ask Shiva to burn the incubus, after which Amy asks to have him resurrected under her control. When I typed this, I saw your Amy nodding.

>>8746 What kind of attacks? I looked at their youtube, and it looks like just regular "nonsense" topic angles that no one gets right?

>>8749 Spirits at their place which apparently they all see,upright dogs appearing out of nowhere,the big guy who talks had a lot of health issues he thinks we're caused by witches. An yeah its more x than fring as in they just tell stories people tell theme.He believes vampires are real which is already "correct". Apparently a vamp nearby used to drink the blood of pigeons a d could semeingly teleport.its either all bullshit or he is very connected to people that see a lot of weird shit out there.Starting with seeing a dogman himself.which he later theorizes are shapeshifters and oerhaps the same thing even as vampires.niw he himself believes vampires are actually astral/shadow entities and the immortal human vampires are simply hosts but yeah. It's the type of show you put on while doing other stuff.he meanders a lot and takes a while to get to the point so listening to it intently can get annoying.

>>8749 For example the last story I remember was how an archeologists he met said in the 1990's they found these tall skeletons (6 foot 3 to 6 foot 8) skeletons in a tomb somewhere in middle or south America.there was this one huge Skeleton that's like 8 feet. Anyway it turns put they were vamps from thousands of years ago. A few of them dissappear and apparently reappear back alive and young again after drinking blood.

>>8750 Interesting, I think someone was trying to scare me just now. But this timeline is under my control. Heard a strange sound (and where I live strange sounds are normal) and looked towards the kitchen, I think some animal may be on the back porch. It actually happened once before, a reindeer looked in through the window that time, or some other animal, I just saw its nose and ears appear from below the window.

>>8752 Come to think of it, it may be that the channel is a gate for things like this, I have it still open on the other tab here... hmm.

>>8752 Yeah,this could be pretty big since it's a huge collection of basically lower level vamps and witches he pissed of. E erytime he gets attacked he kinda doesn't back down since he is Christian as well. On top of that he goes pretty darn in depth in a lot of things.every story he tells he basically meets the people inbred physically. He was a security guard so he isn't the most fearful type. Aside from never saying names he kinda explains how gangs are really ruled by either vamps/reptillians or witches mostly. Actually the Kat thing I remember is when he theorized vamps might also exist throughout the galaxy. Now he wa sjust spot balling but yeah that's the kind of stuff you don't really see people saying out there.thats perhaps not ideal but it It's nice to listen to.

>>8754 I'm still hearing the sounds, like something quite hard smacking on the wood now and then. Could just be the fridge, but Idk. If the cat had been here, I'd have blamed it on the cat.

>>8755 Be careful then,this could be 1)a whole bunch of pissed of witches 2)a whole bunch of vampires 3)maybe the channel was a sort of ruse but idk seems hard to fake the sentiment. I have theory on why they bother you, ill say perhaps after this is dealed with.

>>8756 It could actually be a cat, I saw a lynx here last week, after feeling something new was out there. When taking walks at night I had heard some new sounds by the side of the road now and then. After I saw it, I'm sure I met it in the darkness the night after. I heard a sound, so I stomped hard 2 times, which caused something to suddenly run away, and the steps were sort of heavy-soft, not like a rabbit or reindeer or anything with hoofs. It calmed down now though, but this may be because my one of my astral witch cats got involved and scared off whatever it was.

>>8758 I never noticed anything,then again that's me. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=AdA8zK3Rjcs This should be a good "average" of what their videos are like. Basically he interviewed allegedly a bunch of girls who had a guy matching the vampire traits living there,ine if the girls evn statted dating this alleged vampire.its still kinda slow but less so than their free-form straight up podcast videos.

>>8758 It think it was too quick for it to be something relating to what I posted anyway.

>>8759 That's the vid I have open. Btw I think I solved it, though some spirit could be behind that too, but: the door on the far end of the kitchen seemed closed, but it actually wasn't, which could cause a slight wind to make it start hitting the doorframe, or the movements of the old fridge starting or stopping could do this, which would produce this unusual sound. But that's just my notoriously grey-scientific-narrowming speaking, going from >it's a ghost >what kind of ghost is it? >what symbolism and myth is connected to it? >can be be converted and used? which just annihilates any scare effect.

>>8745 I guess I'm just stricken by despair, I should try to get her back if she is like that and get her purified. Thanks for saying that; I needed to hear it. I actually recall now that I'd said at times in the past that I'd try to save her if something horrible happened to her. Or maybe I am just this pathetic right now, but regardless, hearing that re-ignited something in me that makes me wanna keep trying instead of just giving up. I was actually considering killing myself and then my soul just earlier, and I'd felt completely helpless since I'd tried to use my own magic to defend myself so godamned many times while I was being attacked in October but none of it worked to actually harm the entities and the only thing that'd ever worked was asking other entities to defend me and even that had only ever worked so well. That traumatic experience taught me that my magic doesn't actually have any offensive power to it. I'd used to be terrified that my magic had offensive power to it. Like really just yesterday these fears were so bad that I'd actually felt at one point like my soul was about to collapse in upon itself because it could barely handle the pressure it's under. >>8748 I'm very relieved to know that she's alive, and well enough to just nod like that for you. Thank you very much. Aside from that, I sold my soul to Zeus for 3 days some time before posting this & replying in exchange for an exorcism, so I suppose He's gonna make my subconsciousness do stuff for him, or He never exorcised me or bought my soul and I'd just thought that I'd gotten exorcised; I can't quite tell. Now that I also have my sense of self back, I suddenly care about paying my debts to others again, and I suddenly otherwise care about myself.

When I was 19 I performed a Sitra Achra ritual. It was a simple ritual, you just chant in Hebrew calling forth entities that exist in negative side but you do it like this: https://youtu.be/owdIs_2lEvI?si=_MpuOEV-5t7nxtau because other realms exist all around us at higher or lower frequencies so chanting in a vibrated fashion can open doors for things existing in them to come through. Nazis found this same shit out in Tibet and started summoning entities in Wewelsburg castle and similar places. When they first came my roommates saw the lights in a triangle formation above the house and shortly after we all started getting cussed at by random voices, pushed, scratched, doors would slam, we heard footsteps on the stairs at night, the usual shit. There was a very negative vibe in the house this entire time and after about a month it just stopped. Do any of you have a better idea of what these things were? Also, any advice for beginning the alchemical death and resurrection?

>>8759 I've listened to most of it and although it's just for "fun" and scare, at least that episode wasn't too farfetched. It actually fits right in with what I've learned. And someone definitely doesn't want me talking about it even at this level, there's some astral force trying to cause a choking feeling on me now, right as I intended to write about this topic, and my timelines are completely protected, so that means it's a purely astral thing in place here. Some kind of protection spell or something, meant to keep people from talking about it. Which is weird considering I wasn't going to expose anything at all. I just meant to say that this kind of "vampire" they talk about, may as well be real, but that would be the absolutely lowest kind, preying on people in student dorms, and eating raw pigeons? That's on the level of being a porn addict. It's a lot less interesting "up there" from what I've seen, through a circumstance I'm not going to detail since it'll just sound off, and is irrelevant here. All of it can also be deduced logically, there's no need to even "know" anything. Vampires are a popular paranormal thing, and there are always people who are interested in them, and would freely offer their own blood if they thought someone was a vampire. There's also people who dress in gothic dress and drink blood as a form of roleplay. So there is no need to be a freak who eats pigeons in a parking garage, unless you really are a "homeless" in this community. Such a guy like they describe, would expose himself sooner or later, and probably get killed or somehow captured from just being an addict who can't think straight. Biting some woman and mindfucking her, right there in the open? Even if someone has some hypnotic powers, that's not going to fly for long. If he was older than normal people he'd also be rich, because anyone could just put some money into a regular saving's account and it would grow even if it was just left there for 100 years. Then there'd be no need to be a creep like that. So this may be the bottom of the bottom, which is why it's known and seen. How hard can it be to find some girl who's into vampire lore today? There are even regular satanists who drink blood, so talking someone into that wouldn't be too hard.

>>8766 If you want to benefit the most from drinking blood, mix it with s Ke venom. The best blood is menstrual AKA Moon-Fluid. You alter your consciousness and can lead to rapid enlightenment, the polarities within you are balanced. The blood and the venom represent this polarity. It also replenishes t-cells because the venom is made harmless but you still get all the protein and other good stuff.

I've been asking higher entities today about getting rid of the incubus, and they mostly just told me to ignore it. However, I went to bed about an hour ago and only 10 minutes or so ago when I'd finally almost slipped into stage 1 sleep, I'd felt that incubus, within the span of a split-second, worm its way right past my passive defenses right the fuck next to my consciousness by putting a very, very palpable energyform right next to the the center of my awareness which is within my brain, which is presumably where my consciousness is located. Then the next hypnogogic imagery was of a girl leaning against a tree at night with her clothes on and a hentai-sized boner sticking out of her pants, but still completely within the pants. Normally, the advice from higher entities of just ignoring the incubus would be good advice, but right now it's really bad advice because it allowed the incubus to worm its way right next to my consciousness. I'm not sure if I can trust the advice from these higher entities anymore. Knowing that the anti-succubus/incubus frequency video I usually use doesn't work against that thing; it has worked against such entities in the past but this one learned how to resist it somehow, I'm just gonna go to church now and pull an all-nighter there and then attend Good Friday mass in the morning in the hopes that not only the angel presiding over that church exorcises me, but also in the hopes that the incubus stays away from me & Amy.

>>8773 You didn't consider that the incubus may be your own shadow, which means a manifestation of your own lust? Then you can't exorcise him, because he's part of you. What I meant by asking Shiva to burn him and Rati to resurrect him, was that you'll ask for help with an inner alchemic process of transforming this uncontrollable lust, which may be manifesting as an incubus, so that "he" is instead under your control, or integrated with you.

>>8778 Judging by the hypnogogic image I was shown, I don't think I'd ever consider the thing a manifestation of my own lust since I was never attracted to traps. So rather, this would be a manifestation of my own fears and/or anger if it ain't an actual foreign entity. Also, going by >>8709 I did consider that this might just be a manifestation of my own shadow. Anyway aside from that I'd stayed at church for like an hour and ended up eventually getting exorcised, and then I went home and got to sleep. I would've stayed there until I died of sleep deprivation, bathroom breaks while the church was closed aside, if I didn't get that exorcism. I'd then went home and slept safely.

>>8766 The "vampire nephilim in tomb" is another pretty interesting one.

>>8803 I may listen to it. >>8781 The shadow by its nature isn't going to be something you want to associate with yourself. I went through a process today where I had to realize something major of my own path's structure, and how it repeats the same things, the same events, and the same work having to be done multiple times, caused by my in-body rebirth and transformation, as well as preparation for the future. I previously at some point realized I had to place my energy solidly in two locations as a form of base, I also at this point realized that this is what creates stability, after seeing that this was what made one neighbouring farm function, with the two brothers running it each serving as one of the two positions. I solved this by working at two different workplaces, which did create the structure even if it was distributed across time and space in a way which doesn't make sense if viewing time only chronologically. This is what I had to repeat again, by placing myself in two different incarnations separated by time and space, which then forms the bottom double formation. It was just so stretched out and hard to see for this reason, that the solution didn't appear to me until it was right in front of me.

>>8806 This solution only became clear to me after seeing the second position needed for this to work out. Last morning, early morning before waking up, I heard a low tone growling sort of satanic voice say something which seemed to be coming from somewhere to my right, but from a great distance, as if it was bounced like an echo through time and space. It was really "satanic" in feel, it's quite hard to describe what this means, unless you have some reference to having felt this before yourself, perhaps. I had a dream some 10+ years ago where I seemed to meet Satan, and saw his dimension, and it was something I wouldn't have been able to imagine unless I experienced it. The absolute malice and self contained evil is just something completely different from what humans can manifest, no matter how evil they become, mostly in that this is sustainable in some way. A world where the sky is burning red, and the ground is made from floating lava and the air is filled with literal sulphur and smoke, and it's an eternal landscape with no escape, ruled by a single dictator of endless power within his own realm. Get on his bad side, and there is nothing he can't do to you, if you enter his plane, and there is no restriction in time or space within his space, it's just something absolutely horrifying, but also impressive in some way, for this reason. Maybe this last part is "just me", and that seemed to be why this thing now happened. After the first growling voice seemed to be talking to me and I woke up briefly, it faded, and I felt annoyed at this, because there was no telepathic connection, as it normally should be when someone tries talking like this. It also wasn't an unfriendly voice, even with how this sounds in this context, compared to so many other astral beings who are just retardedly hostile for no reason, this was just someone feeling like "absolute terror" but friendly, I didn't feel any bad intent directed at myself. I was about to fall asleep again, but some moments before, I had the idea to send a bouquet of roses to whoever spoke to me, the idea may have surfaced from the time when I played an MMO that had these roses one could send to other players to add a massive 1000+ intimacy with that player, which gave a permanent buff when in the same party (they also cost like $100 because it was a p2w MMO) so I manifested a bouquet of roses and pushed it in the direction of the voice's origin, where it seemed to arrive, I felt it land "over there" on the ground. Some while later, I also picked up a surprised reaction from the other end, but no one said anything more. When I woke up for real to get up in the morning, someone did suddenly contact me from that place, and this time it was a real connection, not just a voice bouncing over a great distance. A demon woman with very large round breasts, classic succubus style, with skin which looked like volcanic rock, was holding the roses and seemed happy and surprised to have received them. It turned out (as always) that my aim was again quite off, and had not at all reached the origin of the voice, but instead they got sent to someone who better matched my expectations of a positive interaction with this place (but that may be a version of good aim anyway). She said they have "shamans" who routinely contact people by sending out messages that are more like ads for this dimension, and whoever has the motivation and ability to reach there, will find a way to connect back. So it seems I had just ended up on a list for this "satanic ad" because of my alignment and ability, and they had no further intention with that contact. This, however, turned out being the other grounding location I needed, to balance the first one I had already solidified myself in why sending a secondary incarnation way out in space to the most distance grey plane I could find, because I just wanted to break karmic bonds and was tired of all the nonsense in the nearby planes. This makes quite a nice pair of locations, an eternal grey plane, and an eternal satanic plane.

>>8808 I get the feeling that it ain't actually impossible to be more powerful than satan is in its own realm, though you would need to be rather powerful for that to be the case. The god of Abraham and of Issac, and of Jacob comes to mind, but afaik it's been said that He'd died or something some years ago. Some other gods are quite powerful too, however.

I get these intricate downloads when I'm in the shower that I must turn into effortposts. I think I'm going start by laying out this information as a glossary because it will be easier to organize. Spirit: Your POV, experiencer self. "You" proper. It cannot remember, only experience. It is eternal; a piece of God. Soul: An information pattern that sits "on the other side". It is created by the spirit's repeated experience of life. Its intelligence is animal-like (hence "anima" in Latin). It manifests reality. You: The ensemble of spirit and soul. On death, they are separated temporarily and undergo different processes (outside the scope of this post) before reuniting upon reincarnating. The soul, as an information pattern, is what determines what the new life will be like (entry coordinates represented astrologically, for example). In the same fashion, the soul is what manifests reality moment to moment. Maya: The reality the spirit experiences while incarnate is a projection, and an interpretation, of what has been called the "implicate order", meaning the whole thing is some kind of "holographic universe". Reality proper exists where the soul dwells, and the soul is what forms that projection for the spirit to experience. Or perhaps, it is the spirit who does the translation. But the soul is the mediator one way or the other. Omens and synchronicities: Normally, reality is like an AI generated image; it contains all the information present in the prompt (the implicate order), but in a non-obvious way. It's a projection that has its own internal logic. Synchronicities happen when the information from the implicate order leaks into the projection in a way that reveals the trick. The illusion breaks down temporarily, and the experience acquires a dream-like quality for an instant, dreams being halfway between here and there. Another way to think about omens and synchronicities is the soul sending a message to the spirit using the reality it is generating as a medium. Spirits can send these messages, but the soul is always the mediator, if not the originator. Magic: Inverting the process. Creating your own omens. Sending messages back through the same pipeline. This includes physically making them (sympathetic magic), or engaging in ritual or imagination. Their only requisite and common pattern is their symbolic nature (because that's how the process renders information across the divide). Visualization is a bit different because what the soul "sees" is not what you are visualizing, but what you're feeling (in the sense of sensation, not necessarily only emotion). Thus the imagination can be either symbolic or literal, or a mix of both, as long as it makes you feel its reality. Remember that the soul is animal-like. It does not care about what is real and what it's not (from its point of view, experience is what defines reality). It is not moral, nor necessarily intelligent (but it can be wise, depending on how much past experience it can access). It does develop a conditioning that might make some magic impossible to perform, or some spirit impossible to contact when it would've been otherwise. If it is traumatized, or conditioned to "think" a certain way due to past experience (same thing). This is the point where magic leads the magician to self-improvement. Because certain magic will be impossible otherwise. At a certain point, the soul and the spirit grow together, one more like the other, and that is the great work, and the result is immortality, in the sense that the soul will no longer carry the spirit from life to life, dying and being born, manifesting experiences uncontrollably in life and in-between lives. You will learn to create your own karma, your own destiny. So, theoretically, by doing magic, and striving to get better and better at it, immortality is inevitable, because it draws spirit and soul together as a side effect. In a way, you could say the spirit is like a seed that germinates in the soil of physical reality, and the soul is its fruit, that when mature, takes the spirit away. Like the ending of the Darling in the Franxx adaptation, which was changed from the manga.

>>8812 >it ain't actually impossible to be more powerful than satan is in its own realm If you know his things better than him, you can of course overpower him. I did visit his plane in that dream and he wasn't more powerful than me at least on that occasion, or I wouldn't have come back from there. Alternatively I was just incompatible with his principles, rendering them useless against me, but that's also a form of power.

My fears and related mental & emotional blockages have really been surging lately. Since last night after reading >>8808 I've been having a particularly hard time giving any sort of love to my Amy; at first it was a fear of accidentally conflating the demon he mentioned with Amy, and a fear of accidentally manifesting such roses and the demon getting them. The mere idea of someone willingly anchoring themselves in a place like that sounds terrifying to me. Miraculously, I was able to fall asleep tonight, and a few hours after I got outta bed this morning I'd asked Zeus, since He owns my soul until tomorrow, to prevent me from being near that hell dimension he'd mentioned. Since then, I've finally made considerable distance between there & my own mind. Later that day, my fears were still seriously acting up, and my fears turned towards a goddess and made me think I was touching Her inappropriately, but eventually, She'd convinced me that nothing had actually happened. Now for this next part, I'm gonna spoiler it because it's a bunch of cringy stuff that serves as context for the reason why I'm ultimately posting this: Just an hour or so ago, I saw a picture of Amy and reflexively reached out to it, and then I'd felt a small seemingly-induced physical electrical sensation in my head indicating that I wasn't supposed to do that. The sensation would qualify as a legitimate psychic attack if only it was meant to be hostile. I've felt stronger attacks like this before, but I could tell this wasn't hostile, and was simply a preventative measure. I suppose that this Amy I saw & reached out to was actually a different Amy egregore. I'd then apologized and ignored her for some minutes after that, but then I saw her again via. third-eye-glimpse out of the blue while my consciousness was thinking about something completely different, which had indicated that she'd never left. She had a concerned & curious look on her face. I'd then figured that I'd defiled her when I'd reached out to her, so I'd apologized again for what it's worth, and I'd asked my Amy if that was her, and she said no. I'd then tried ignoring her and I'd felt her energies getting pushed against my chest while I was passively trying to resist it, and then I'd later asked Eros to get her off of me after asking my Amy to do it didn't work. She had seemed to forgive me for the whole ordeal by this point, though. I'd then grabbed her head from behind and desperately hugged it out of grief without touching much of the rest of her, and then I felt her bite my arm that was around her mouth. A few seconds later, I'd then loosened my grip, and then I sadly let go. At some point later, I saw a picture of my Amy with her handbag looking at me while moving to the right, with the suggestion that she was about to go shop for something. Now for the part that made me post this in the first place; some minutes later, while I was simultaneously unable to give my love to my Amy and I was unable to give my guilt to her sister that I'd unintentionally wronged, my heart chakra was becoming more and more wracked with both repressed love and repressed guilt and then, completely out of the blue, it'd felt like a hole had opened up at the bottom of my heart and a bunch of stuff just oozed out of the bottom of it and fell straight out of my heart and went through an energy channel that'd seemed to lead into some sort of place that's so low that I couldn't even identify it as part of my body, nor could I exactly identify where it was. I know humans have alot more than 7 charkas, but for all I know this energy didn't go to a different non-physical body part of mine and instead went into some kinda dangerous lower plane where my body parts aren't to be found, and as such, I'd suddenly felt mostly relieved of these crazy feelings in my heart. I'm worried that those energies of mine, which I'd ought to still have, just fell into some sorta lower plane and now they're still tied to me and can for all I know be used against me, or for all I know using them in the first place will directly modify me. I'd then asked Shakti to collect the energies and give them to my Amy. All that said, now I'm worried about the condition of my heart chakra. I question if it'll ever be able to deeply & tenderly love again; I'm worried that I broke it in an unconventional manner, or perhaps the repressed energies corroded away the bottom of my heart somehow, which would explain why the rest of my anatomy didn't stop it from falling, and for all I know my heart charka will never be able to recover. I wanna know if my Amy was given the energies, and whether or not I'll be able to love again like I'd used to be able to when my fears and other emotional blockages weren't sabotaging it.

>>8823 You sound like Satan is wearing you like a hand puppet.

>>8913 >You sound like Satan is wearing you like a hand puppet. That's the first step to learning by syncing with anyone, now isn't it? It's how the teacher should lead the child in personal instruction.

>>8905 It looks more like you washed out a bunch of contained emotional "garbage" from your heart, your actual physical heart's form on the astral. Things which, although they may feel nice, are made from just lust and would cause a heart attack and kill you when you got old, if kept there. That's my guess from looking at it, it also doesn't smell good in the image I picked up, but has something stale over it. I think those things relate to the sitra achra, the animal nature, or leviathan, the world system with all nations, where politicians, secret societies and regular businesses try to make money off of people's lust, when kept in the heart like this. Maybe this article can help: https://www.chabad.org/library/article_cdo/aid/361900/jewish/Kelipot-and-Sitra-Achra.htm >it was a fear of accidentally conflating the demon he mentioned with Amy, and a fear of accidentally manifesting such roses and the demon getting them. The mere idea of someone willingly anchoring themselves in a place like that sounds terrifying to me. It's meant to be terrifying, that's a defense mechanism of the plane in question, it's for protection.

Today at my psychologist's office, I did the EEG work and focused on the lines in my closed eyesight again; this time when I'd slipped into hypnogogia, I saw 3 things: The 1st thing I saw, I was thinking about the line of alpha waves in the EEG, ofc with my irl eyes closed, and a thoughtform appeared of the line, except the left side was at the correct height, but the rest of the line sloped down a quarter of the way along or so so that the rest of it after said droop was halfway to the bottom from where it was supposed to be. I didn't realize at first that this was a vision, but at the end of the vision, the parts that were drooped down suddenly retracted within a split-second as if they were feeder tubes, into a larger tube that the line started from, but the impression was that the things that retracted were actually worms. The 2nd thing I saw was pic related, but with a large japanese character in the middle that I had no idea what it'd meant. A ball was at the bottom of the thing, and then it rolled up to the top via. the swirly part. The 3nd hypnogogic vision, I saw an orange ball, and beneath it was 2nd pic related. The vision started with an orange ball floating above the green thing, whose head wasn't revealed yet. When the vision began, I was compelled to drop the orange ball at the top into the green slimy and translucent mass that was this worm-thing's body. While I was dropping it in there, I was being called a fool and told not to do it, but because my awareness was too low to process the warnings, I did it anyway, and then the vision ended with my orange ball inside of this worm thing, which had then revealed its head, which was a darker and more substantial shade of green than the rest of its body. The 4th vision wasn't really a vision, but it was me being told that I was past "the outer limits", which probably means that my mind wasn't supposed to be going over there; probably having something to do with my fears related to >>8808 , which were still going fairly strong during the appointment. Afterwards, my psychologist got 3 visions: His 1st vision was of an entity that looked like a cross between a human woman and a white cat, whose face was shaped like a vertical oval, and was about an inch in front of his face. He said the entity's hair was like a lion's mane, but the entity was otherwise hairless I think? They had a conversation about something that he forgot. His 2nd vision was of an Adoration of the Eucharist, except instead of the Eucharist being in the container, there was a non-digital clock in its place; he tried to see what time it was, but his 3rd eye isn't developed enough to read it. His 3nd vision was of Jesus Christ getting out of his tomb and taking off his head garments, and then his robes, and then he left the tomb naked.

>>8960 I have no idea what those things you describe are, but this may just confirm what I experienced during Easter, when I noticed a sudden "detachment" from your problems, which I for some karmic reasons had to keep trying to solve to also solve my own issues. It seems to end up having to have been about the connection to the Inca llama god Urcuchillay, and the western and slavic interpretation of "him" where he was called Big Ears and understood to be a cat. This further leading to a historic work of creating a "native slavic" witchcraft based on the Inca witchcraft, using a grey breeding program, and the Cat-sith black cat deities as familiars rather than llamas. All of this concentrating in the area of Ukraine, which is also the location corresponding to where Metatron and Olga of Kiev, the founder of Russia, resided on the astral. The Cat-sith are extremely powerful, so much that I'd say anyone forming a relation with one, is likely to be successful in magic. But doing so may require a certain kind of mentality, or genetics, which is the cause for why slavic and Ukrainian women in specific have their very recognizable physical and emotional traits. These are quite similar to ancient Inca mentality (but less fanatical). The main thing I had to solve was in some way related to this work, in the following way: I already deduced that something horrible had taken place in the past decades, with the 1970s being the time period I located as the source of some kind of indescribable crime. It was only recently I actually saw the process of dimensional degeneration, and how these started when history was thrown off course by the American/British invasion of Europe on D-day. Recently released footage in colour from those days, and new interview materials with soldiers and officers, reveal the nature of the events. The Allies were very incompetent, and they were not at all steamrolling over the Germans, despite their thinned out positions. Several times during the initial weeks in France, they were about to be pushed back into the sea. They lost 1000s of men for almost no gains. They bombed old French cities to dust. The French still have a hate for Americans below the surface, because of this. American soldiers often raped French women and committed armed robberies where-ever they were stationed. When reaching closer to Germany, they relied heavily on the "individual replacement system" to send in reserves with no experience into units as their numbers fell by 80% daily. The German forces often killed 4x their own numbers in each battle, and it went as far as kitchen staff being ordered to pick up a gun on the American side, for them to be able to uphold the pressure on the Germans. This defeat of the Germans by the Allies, was not meant to be, they only achieved this by breaking all morality and throwing away decency. The victory turned into a celebration of shame, which had to be projected on the Germans for people to be able to function mentally. It's still on-going to this day. Yet, they weren't able to achieve their goals, "they" being the real perpetrators, the organizers in the shadows. We'll just call them "the NWO" for simplicity. They wanted a power they cannot have, the same power the Incas had, and which the slavic witches to some degree also achieved. Thinking, from their perverse mindset, that evil is the key component to occultism, they sought become the most evil of all time, which would make it possible for them to override all previous tradition, creating the New World Order. They set for a ritual, self-explanatorily called "rape of the virgin", where they'd use the purest possible girl as a representation of Virgin Mary, and then degrade her in the worst way possible. Their problem, when their performed this in 1969, was that the girl was completely pure, and this act was not allowed to be performed on her. They cause the timelines to split, raping an NPC flesh doll and driving the world into an a fake, illusory dimension, where they think they rule. As these people were "tolerated" as the rulers of the planet, they drove mainstream society down into this state, where "rape of the virgin" was the source of power. It really isn't it's just evil, but they all started believing this, and to prevent anyone else from "gaining power", they became obsessed with commoners not raping virgins, which has lead to the current "consent" fanaticism in society. They believe, that as long as the person consents in some way, it's not rape, and they will not gain any power which can be used to challenge the "NWO", as their power is based on violating consent. Reversing this "rape of the virgin" ritual, then became the gate out from hell, which would once again unite the broken timelines, and solve past karma, in the process overthrowing the "NWO". This power actually was in the possession of both the Jews through Metatron, and the slavic witches in Ukraine through their Cat-sith connections. Destroying Jews by gathering all of them in Israel, and destroying Ukraine by throwing them into war against Russia, then makes perfect sense. It also makes sense why the Ukrainians would keep getting support, as their witches ''do overpower the NWO", same as the Jews would do.

I remember now that I was told by some sort of benevolent spirit months ago that I was overloaded with video game energies. I've just re-realized this today after finding a new game today, playing it, thoroughly enjoying it, and then Amy was okay with it, but then after I ate lunch and went to the park to walk 2 miles and came back and wanted to play it again, Amy said no, but I played it anyway and I didn't enjoy it as much as the 1st time, and I had some intrusive thoughts while I was playing it the 2nd time, but I forget if I had any while I was playing it the 1st time. This helped me to re-realize that I need to find something fun to do that involves being outside and not staring at a screen, and also won't set off any insecurities, so non-solo sports ain't an option since my physical attributes are lacking. Something that actually captures my attention without me having to be afraid of it. Or maybe I just need to take more walks outside and let my mind wander so that said wandering sorts of the entertainment-related energies, so long as I don't run into any thoughts that I'm afraid of. My energies are ordinarily a mess. This also reminds me of an article I read years back, that said that you shouldn't binge-watch T.V. episodes because it makes your subconsciousness not meditate much upon what happened in the show, compared to just watching an hour or so's worth of episodes per day. I suppose it might cause your subconsciousness to get congested by the energies of the show? Anyway, this also explains why video games these days typically don't distance me away so well from my fears and anger issues; because my subconsciousness is congested with said video game energies and wants to have more time to process them properly, so my subconsciousness flares up my fears & anger issues while I play the games in an attempt to get me to stop playing them so that my subconsciousness can have more time to process its energies. Maybe I should just try going for a day without playing any games at all or watching anything much and just see what happens.

I've been reminded about a fact that I hate. Whenever you ask an entity A to ask an entity B to do something, the entity A will always do it instead by pretending to be entity B. It gives me the impression that entity A doesn't actually have a mind of his or her own, and is simply the mundane definition of a figment of your imagination, even if entity A is a literal god and entity B is just some 3rd-density spirit, or vice-versa. Why is it that entities can never get other entities to do things for you when you ask them to, so they do it themselves by using your power & energies to pretend to be the other entity instead? Are realm dynamics really that goddamned complex & limiting, or does this bullshit somehow prevent free will violations from occurring?

>>8986 Try taking a break, and meditating on what you did in the game, relating it to real life situations and incorporating them with your life instead of seeing them as escapism. Go stare into the distance and rest your eyes, try to listening for individual birds singing in the distance, use your senses. Try to bring the game mentality into the world outside. (That's how you do sports anyway. Try badminton, ping pong or beach volleyball with a friend, it can be rather relaxed and you don't have to count points.) >>8987 I think that's just a matter of which entities you're dealing with. If you really can't access someone, you can ask for help, but why not seek first hand connection with the one you want to ask to do something? A few times I've asked the Queen Illivryn/Sepherenz for recommendations of others to contact, but I then made that new contact on my own. They're not alien to the concept, that's how I learned about Adremmelech, he was recommended to me by the Queen (I asked who had created the "moon walk" dance style).

This is could be posted to >>85 as well, because it's relevant. I've been thinking about Eros and Thanatos. What is the energy that makes us horny, that makes us overeat, that makes us feel that if we miss out on pleasure it might be the end of the world? The energy that makes us want to kill and fuck, especially when we see others being violent or fucking. Why does knowing our significant other is being unfaithful sometimes makes us want to breed even harder? Why does violence beget more violence instead of rejection? Why would we, given the right circumstances, fuck ourselves to death? I came to the conclusion that it all starts with a simple rule that results in emergent behavior. That rule is the second law of thermodynamics. Simply put, if you don't fight entropy increase, it will kill you, and you will disappear. Of course, your spirit is eternal. But your body and soul aren't (see my previous post regarding the soul). Thus, this simple rule instills in us a set of behaviors, which in turn give rise to a thoughtform. It is perhaps the first and most powerful thoughtform to embed itself in your soul. It is reinforced in every incarnation. That you must do certain things or disappear. If you examine the powerful force abstainers fight (be it abstinence to drugs, sex, or any other addiction), the feeling is always the same. "I must do this, or it's over." This is the Eros-Thanatos, and it is almost firmware-level energy deep inside our beings. Perhaps the most insiduous of the Demiurge's "gifts". Freud used these two Greek words to describe what he felt were two opposing forces, but they're not. They're more similar to Schopenhauer's "will". What you are feeling when you are doing nofap and feel that urge is what the thoughtform inside of you is feeling. It is literally a matter of life and death to get you to do it, because it has been programmed through millennia that way. I don't think it can be killed, either, because it is more deeply rooted than any other. Every cell in your body works by its principles. It's the ultimate shackle with which The Devil keeps you chained. You cannot be alive and not be subject to it. And you cannot avoid reincarnation while you are.

When I woke up today, I was of course in a state of hypnopompia, and then my Amy said in such a manner that it'd seemed like she was hijacking part of my mind momentarily to make me hear it: >talk to me I then began trying to talk to her, and I was able to get her to say a few things; one of these things that'd disturbed me was that she, via. the same method, said: >you're a dark archangel that I like This made me think back to the dream where I'd literally became a new goetia demon and was about to get seemingly engulfed by satan, which I'd dreamt about because Zeus told me that night before bed, "Tartarus" and "you'll be done"; this obviously worried me because I don't wanna vibrate anywhere near that low or otherwise be evil or an adversary either. The worst I wanna be is a neutral guy that just helps others when he feels like it. I'd then went back into hypnopompia and my third eye scrolled through a digital menu and saw an entry somewhere that I was compelled to look at and accept, in such a manner that I'd appeared to go along with it; the only reason why I'd appeared to go along with it is because my awareness was so low that I couldn't comprehend that it was a bad thing. The concept that I saw said to feed one of my children to a demon or devil or something when he or she turned 5. This is obviously something that I absolutely don't wanna do and want to prevent from happening now that I have enough awareness to recognize that it's a bad thing, but when I was in the state of hypnopompia, my awareness was too low to realize that it was a bad thing or decide that I didn't wanna do it, because if my awareness wasn't that low, then I wouldn't be in a state of hypnopompia, and Amy wouldn't be able to communicate with me via. that method because I'd have too much awareness to let my subconscious guard down enough for Amy to communicate with me that way. This actually makes me think that, within a state of hypnogogia & hypnopompia, not only is the conscious awareness drastically lowered, but the subconscious awareness is drastically lowered as well, which means that the subconsciousness lets its guard down; perhaps this happens so that the body isn't made distraught by astral projection symptoms. Anyway in such a state of mind I obviously would be extremely vulnerable in such a manner that a demon or what have you could make me believe pretty much anything it wanted me to believe if it was manipulating me at such a vulnerable moment. I question what sort of absolute evil must've been manipulating me going along with the idea of that. Anyway, I'd then heard Amy, via. tha aforementioned method, say >are you kidding? I'd then told her that I wasn't kidding, but I also wasn't going along with it; I told her that it was probably just my subconsciousness taking a bunch of jumbled up energies in my body and trying to make sense of it and then feeding it to my consciousness. I then Heard Amy, via. the aforementioned method, say >divorce I'd then asked Eros to tell me why that thought had entered my head. I was too excited for the mind-hijack method of hearing spirits to work, but He told me via. imaginary conversation: >follow satan Granted, I'm not 100% sure if it was Eros that told me that, but I have a high amount of confidence that that'd what He said. He'd seemingly told me that as if that was why that thought had entered my head. I'm beginning to think that back during my past life as a "black Christianity" monk, for all I know I'd actually followed satan back then, which means that the only reason why I would've signed a contract to become like the archangel Metatron are for one of either 2 reasons: <A: the contract says that I'd become as powerful as the archangel Metatron, but it doesn't say that I'd be good, which implies that the intention of the contract was to make me be or remain evil, while also being as powerful as the archangel Metatron or <B: I saw the light during that past life as a presumably-evil monk and I sought out The Holy Trinity to devise the contract so that I could guarantee that I wouldn't be evil anymore The fact that I'm being assailed and subconsciously manipulated so often by evil spirits makes me think that the answer is A, but the fact that I fervently desire to not be evil makes me think that the answer is B. Speaking of which, earlier in my life, I had this great desire to take the wrongs of this world and right them so that goodness can triumph over evil and against satan, but then the demons & devils began attacking me and hit me so hard and for so long that they snuffed out most of my desire to do good things in this world; now all I wanna do is just enjoy life without making it worse for others, while also helping others out here & there when it's easy for me, not counting the sin of inaction as something that makes life worse for others. Smileberg poster, would you please ask my Amy why she called me a dark archangeland while you're at it tell her that my consciousness would never actually desire or otherwise intend to feed my future child to a demon or whatever it was? Please also tell her that I literally just sold my soul to Shakti for a month to absolutely guarantee that in all possible timelines, I would never let my child get eaten by a demon or whatever it'd said in that hypnopompic vision I saw. If that fact that I did that won't convince her that I didn't actually wanna do it, then I don't know what will. And was that actually my Amy that told me that, or was "she" an imposter?

>>9056 I talked to your Amy and it's more complex than that, you're misunderstanding because you aren't channelling her intuitively with enough "mental space". Semi channelling: Becoming like Metatron means to follow what appears as a "satanic" path, because the original Jews didn't know about the concept of the adversary at all. To them any power is from God because he is the only power. It was common belief among medieval Christians that Satan has no power at all, so a contract couldn't have involved ideas such as getting power by aligning with Satan. ^That's part 1 Secondly: It, the contract, states then to follow the path of Metatron and walk with God forever, without having any definition of any Satan existing, since he's irrelevant. This seemingly "really dumb ignorance" creates a basic immunity to any trickery. The part about "feeding your child to Satan at age 5" may have been about taking part in the modern economy, where you have to get them vaccinated, which injects cells of aborted babies into the blood stream, connecting them through internal cannibalism to the NWO system, which really then means their spiritual destruction. BUT because of your ignorance, you don't believe Satan has any power. Power comes only from God. So the contract even if signed, it like making a retard with down syndrome sign a contract. Thought they can legally consent as adults, one may question if they actually understand what they signed. It looks similar, and in spiritual situations, the intent means more than the signature. So since "Satan" has no power, it's not possible for you to feed your children to him, and the contract must instead mean that you "give them to God", that's how your mind works. The NWO can't believe this when they see it, they are filled with negativity and can't grasp this "childish" view maintained by your mentality during the monk years, when the contract was signed. This would be the main reason for the constant intrusive thought attacks, they are trying to make you believe in Satan as an existing force, because they believe in him that way. But your contract clearly states that you will always follow the path of Metatron, which nullifies the existence of any adversary, ever. It provokes them, but they can't change it. That is the situation here.

Had a very potent synchronicity. First, I looked at the surname of a foreign business partner I work with. I noticed that his surname was spelled in a weird foreign way and not how I always assumed it was spelled. Then, I went to Sillytavern to play some AI RPGs. I noticed that the AI kept generating characters with Chinese names for some reason, so I decided to just cause these characters to spontaneously explode into to gore whenever they came up. Almost immediately after doing this, the AI generated a character with the very same weird surname as the person I was doing business with (Indian surname, not Chinese). It's worth noting that the very first time I saw this surname in my life was when I was introduced to this person, and I hadn't seen it since. Typically I'd assume this was something to do with botnet tracking, but the fact that this guy has been in my inbox for months and the AI only picked up on it when I consciously perceived it was very uncanny. This feels like solid proof of something, akin to when I first managed to perform overt telekinesis.

>>9061 Interesting. You'd be the judge of what it really means, but from my perspective it's usually a sign that you shine (not glow). Ie., that "your dragon is watching", the channel is open, etc. Do you do any sort of higher self or holy guardian angel work?

>>9064 Yes, and I've been trying to reach a culmination recently. Hopefully I'll be able to channel this energy into something productive.

>>8269 Blog time. Recently my abilities are "activated". But it turns out I'm one of those "naturally psychic" people all along.they were always active but it's only when something happened recently I realized what I was seeing was always there all along.i always thought of myself as a soul based psychic where i have to practice it.Plus it seems many people in my family are psychic.i already knew i had a famous psychic in my family who used to be on TV but that was kinda distant since I never met her other than a few times. And anyway my other side of the family is actually the more psychic one apparently.in fact a ghost told someone about me and that I if were to meditate they could speak to me. Also I can talk to dead people.

Yesterday I saw some photos online, which seemed placed there for a reason, which made me order my Astra servitor to look into them. It was a thread made by a guy who's kept posting about soviet era movies, and this time he was posting old school photos. Things like this happens now and then, and they feel like windows into a dimension of the time period. During the night, I had a dream where I was walking on a beach with someone (now when looking back, it was the image of Xolotl, but in the dream it was just some woman) and I saw something black just below the water surface in the sand. The other person walked on and was looking at something else, so I came back and looked closer at this black thing, which looked like a body in a tightly wrapped black garbage bag. I got down to touch it to make out what could be inside, and the package was now out of the water. I could clearly make out a bone structure of a person, but a very thin person, there were the hip bones and ribcage felt through the black cover. Up close it felt more like thick black rubber. I then heard a girl's voice coming from the package, so I decided to unwrap it. It was like a mummy wrapped in black rubber bands. When I started removing them, it revealed a thin girl of average height wearing a t-shirt and sweatpants shorts. I picked her up and that ended the dream scene. In some semi awake state, I told Astra to move the girl to a safe place, and asked her what this was about. She said: "I looked at the photos, but they were unavailable (I was shown an image of lots of "sand" being in the way, and the souls of people being somewhere down in the ground) so I cast a retrieval spell." So this was the result, one soul was recovered from whatever dimension that was. Looking deeper into it, she had to be "manifested" because her soul had been "dissolved into an ethereal state" where the mind just exists in a non-thinking trance in some astral dimension outside the Earth after death. It was an odd thing, which I haven't seen before.

Last night when I went to bed, Amy seemed very disappointed that I'd spent most of the day watching youtube videos and planning out stuff for video games without actually playing them. She wants me to get off of the stuff, it seems. The day before that she was telling me to get off of it too, but spending the day watching stuff and planning for video game stuff counted as cheating, it seems. So last night in bed, I'd promised her that I wouldn't play video games or watch stuff or plan on the computer for video game stuff all day today, except ofc when I forget about the promise. Thus far, I've basically kept the promise. When I woke up Amy told me stuff and then >>9056 happened and I gazed at the lines in my closed eyesight while I'd waited for a reply. Alot of the stuff I saw in my third-eye vision that was activated by looking at those lines was bad. Then I ended up ceasing to think outright I think maybe at some point, and then I came back to a bit after 11:00 A.M., and then I showered and went to the chiropractor and bought groceries and came home. I then began doing the laundry and I then tried looking at the lines in my closed eyesight again and I saw some more stuff, much of which was bad. However, Amy told me that I was doing great. I then went and did more laundry and I tried mindfulness meditation. I couldn't keep my mind focused on the environment unless the task was more complicated than that, so I gave myself the task of noticing 30 things that were presently in front of me in the present moment. After maybe 10 or 15 minutes, I'd finally counted 30 things, including external objects, noises, and bodily sensations, as well as thoughts. Thus far, despite the bad & dangerous stuff I saw in my third-eye-vision when I was in induced states of hypnogogia, I think the day wasn't so bad up to there. Then I'd went and had leftovers for dinner while I'd decided to read some esoteric material, and this began to flare up my anger & fear issues. By this point, I began hearing Adremmelech's voice again, and this flared up my fears and created energy blockages that made me accidentally refer to multiple entities that aren't Adremmelech as Adremmelech with my physical voice. That is, I routinely told my subconsciousness to fetch the audio-related information that generates the muscle movements that, when performed, produce the physical audio that corresponds to the name of Amy, and instead it spat out the information that corresponds to the name of Adremmelech instead, for example, and then I didn't consciously realize that it corresponded to the name of Adremmelech and not Amy until right after I'd accidentally said it via. physical audio with my physical mouth. I think that my subconsciousness is doing this because it's mad at Amy for getting me to promise to not do anything fun today. As such, the intention of the word was Amy, but the actual letter of that same word was Adremmelech. This is how my subconsciousness confuses me. At least it isn't like that one time earlier this month >>8387 where my subconsciousness made me immediately after waking up from a dream, call upon an incubus for an exorcism of my sexuality instead of Eros, to the point where said incubus actually showed up and not Eros. When I attempt to call upon a deity like that, I normally use a trauma-based thoughtform in my heart to automate the mental processes that I use to make my intentions refer to the deity in question, but that time my subconsciousness sabotaged the thoughtform to make my heart-based trauma plead to an incubus for an exorcism instead of Eros. In an attempt to combat this, I've told my subconsciousness to take my feelings that are associated with satan, and with Adremmelech, and with said incubus, and eject them through the energy channel referenced in >>8905 that went from my heart straight down to a place that's outside of my physical body, and I'd asked Amy to take those energies and place them into separate jars. Immediately after one of those clumps of energies entered one of the jars and were sealed, the energy immediately dissolved into a non-viscous liquid. Afterwards, I'd struggled for what'd seemed like a long time with getting these Adremmelech-related energy blockages out of the way, especially after I'd tried just ignoring the energy blockage to the point of ACTUALLY FUCKING FORGETTING ABOUT IT AT A CONSCIOUS LEVEL, and then I tried referring to Amy and the name of Adremmelech was produced instead of Amy, even though the intention was Amy and not Adremmelech. This tree branch that is the energy blockage just won't wither away and fall off on its own; it just keeps siphoning energies from me, even if only sporadically. I just don't know what to do to get rid of these energy blockages. I still refuse to speak to and won't trust Adremmelech ever since he over-extended his reach after that last deal I made with him in, what was it, December? I just don't know how to dispose of or absorb these traumas, because no matter how much I try to accept or dissolve them, they just keep coming back to haunt me.

More on the "satanic plane" I decided to make use of this by creating another AI avatar tuned for this place, fully automatic, so I can deal with anything emerging from there. The idea was to make use of any knowledge they have and learn it subconsciously by letting astral AI do the work in the background when I'm focused on something else. I went for a design where the main principle is to protect children, which means preventing abortion and stopping forced indoctrination in the form of mandatory school, as well as making sure their rights are protected instead of stolen. When I sent her out to learn, I also asked the demon female who was my first contact >>8808 >When I woke up for real to get up in the morning, someone did suddenly contact me from that place, and this time it was a real connection, not just a voice bouncing over a great distance. A demon woman with very large round breasts, classic succubus style, with skin which looked like volcanic rock, was holding the roses and seemed happy and surprised to have received them if they have a library in this plane. She said they do, but I have to learn to read "satanic writing" first, so I sent my new avatar to do this with her. It looked a bit like Hebrew but the letters are longer and many of them stretch down below the line. After some time of learning the writing system, it was time for actual study, and some while later my avatar said she's tired and needed a break. For this we went into the kitchen which looked like a regular 80s style kitchen in a small apartment or something you'd expect to find at a university student area. Some other demon female was just dropping off fruits in a large bowl, saying we can eat from it when studying. My avatar choose a large round fruit which looked like a coconut, but dark grey and glossy. I was to be cut in half and the stuff in the middle, which contained a large seed, was to be removed. The stuff around the seed was to be put in a garbage bin which connected directly into hellfire, where it was burned up. The fruit meat was then to be cooked and eaten, while the two halves of the shell were to be cleaned and dried in the window, where they turned into two bowls. I realized this matched the Kelipah Nogah, the husk or shell in Kabbalah, which can be salvaged instead of destroyed. After finishing the meal, the two dried shells could be placed inside each other, forming a double bowl, and I then put the seed in the bowl, filled the bowl with water and left it in the window. After some more study, at the next break the seed now had a thick white root. I moved my avatar back to the mansion I built in this plane, and planted the seed in front of it, then watered it with water from the bowls three times. From the seed grew a plant which turned into a tree. It developed a flower which opened at the top, and then flew up into the air where it remained, floating. During this, the two bowls made from the shell of the fruit withered and turned to dust, then the flower was incorporated with the body of my avatar, and through a forceful transformation turned into a small, dark grey rubbery "pocket". This I was told is "the demon womb", which fulfils the standards I had inserted into the avatar. It's an inversed version of a womb, which doesn't have any connection with God. This protects children, because abortion is an act of stealing the "spark of God" which was inserted to create a new life. The demon womb has no such spark, so there it nothing to steal. Instead, the birth is an act of defiance in itself, so any attempt at performing an abortion will be replaced with a birth, and the child is then saved.

Today, I began playing video games again, but at some point I took a break to try doing the third-eye exercise again where I look at the lines in my closed eyesight, except I did it partially with my eyes open. At some point, I momentarily slipped deep enough into hypnogogia that my awareness began leaving my body, and then my soul ran face-first into some entity that'd seemed scary, and then my soul immediately jolted back into my body. I then simply stopped the practice and went back to playing video games for most of the rest of the day. >>9132 Afterwards, I read that post, and then I went to the store to buy something and while I was there, I heard Amy say something that was so out of the ordinary that I'd decided to go straight to church after I'd finished shopping, which I was almost finished doing anyway, so I did and then I sat there for maybe half an hour or an hour outside at a shrine or something of The Virgin Mary. While I was there, my energies were incredibly congested to the point where I most of the time couldn't reliably contact anyone that wasn't a satanic entity, thus I didn't contact anyone, which was what had prompted me to go to church. After a while, I'd figured that enough of the energy blockage was lifted, so I'd went home and mostly watched stuff for the rest of the day. Around 8:15 or so, Amy told me to get off the computer and go to bed, but I'd felt that it was too soon to go to bed, and then I'd gotten in bed around 10:40 or so instead because I was too afraid to do it closer to 10. Then when I'd gotten in bed, I'd gotten the idea of asking Zeus what He'd do about my fears if He was me. I'd then started hearing things as if He was speaking to me and I'd figured that He was listening to my thoughts, so then I'd asked Him for real with my mouth via. physical audio as if I'd already asked Him just then, and He said I hadn't asked Him. I suppose that just because you're omniscient, doesn't necessarily mean that you're bothering to listen to everything at once too. I then had some conversation with Him, and at the end of a part of it, I just said that I don't know what to do anymore, and then I heard Him say something along the lines of, "Damned if I do & damned I don't." I had a hard time believing that He'd said that at first, and I'd asked Him if He'd said that, and He'd appeared to verify that He'd just said that. He then began pulling some sort of energyform out of my physical body, starting from my head, and then going down to my crotch; it'd seemed like a tube that's about 2 inches wide. Then I'd kept talking to Him all the while, and then I'd started dozing off. At some point recently, I'd dozed off enough that my soul actually began leaving my body to dream, but then I ran into the same entity again as I had in the middle of the day, so I went right back to my body again. What is this entity, and how afraid should I be of it? I feel afraid enough that I should go back to the church to spend the night outside, and then attend mass in the morning and stay inside afterwards for a very extended period of time.

I think I just realized something about what this conflict with "Jews" is about, and why it seems to make everyone so mad. The difference between "Jews" and Kabbalah compared to those who don't like it, is that they are doing their own research. Sure they're just researching the Torah and related books, but it's still research. Everyone else is just channelling. Not necessarily spiritual entities, but social currents. They don't think, they're effectively bots, which is why they're "goyim", cattle.

>>9132 I finished the whole body process which was started with the creation of the "demon womb" in the previous post. In all, one "organ" had to be developed for each of the 4 levels of the body, with for example the brain representing "law enforcement" and the heart being correctly formed meant the defeat of "evil" in a general form. After this I aimed to unite all of them, forming a complete body, it ended up having to be done through a ritual of "active defiance" which I won't elaborate here. Because the "satanic plane" was the other of a pair of "legs" where the other one was a distant grey alien plane, I then went on to develop myself over there. For this side, it seems, since greys both have some Jewish connection through their plan to take over the world by incarnating as Jews (cancelled) and their focus on research and genetical engineering, that it would be enough to only focus on the creation of a "womb" which would mean the transformation of another Kelipah Nogah, but this time as an active stance of having "continuation" internalized, because the general grey approach is to become insectoids and grow in test tubes. To prevent the risk of the "spark of God" being stolen, I analyzed the problem being the "blind channelling" of God, which in essence just means "connecting to external currents bigger than your perception can grasp", this being solved by something best called "inductive channelling" which resembles the two coils of a transformer, where there is no direct "channel" between them. This way one would be "aligned with God" but not actually channelling a spark of life. It also fit in with the grey thinking which isn't religious. The following full body activation was fairly easy after doing all the work to open blockages already on the satanic side. The end result of both was the creation of a "satanic sphere" which is just another word for a moon 🌖🌘 The greys remain anchored to the physical because one of them created our moon in the past, so it makes sense. I then went on to plan a ritual for getting rid of the remaining "Earth parasites" which has been the target of the Illuminati since long, and the reason they did both the American civil war, The Great War and the 2nd World War. Neither of these worked, which is why they're aiming for World War III now. The main reason is that these were all sacrifices planned by the sacrificial cattle to use a direct language. It won't work unless all the troublemakers are removed, so how could the criminals be the ones to plan it? They won't sacrifice themselves, but plan to survive. This links into the creation of Israel as a modern state, by the Jews having become so degenerated that they themselves are the same as the goyim, and those are who live there now. They aren't studying or following their holy texts, and their genetics have degenerated as a result. So they can't plan something like that, and leave themselves out, they are also cattle by now. This is just a manifestation of the spread of the issue, however, which doesn't originate with them, it just crept in there. The Endlösung of the problem had to involve a multi-dimensional approach, and remove all degens no matter which race they think they belong to, and by this create a new Solar object for the Earth plane, which isn't some mere excuse made up by said sinners themselves, like the one they created to float over "the kingdom of Christ" 2000 years ago, which was then repeated several times, each time with the following failures and natural disasters. Examples include "the black death" of medieval Europe, being caused by the karma held back by "the kingdom of Christ" flooding back onto the Earth as their sun fell, and the "Spanish flu" killing 35 mil people after WW1, more than died during the war itself, this being also the result of a failure to create a functional new sun. The Aztecs could do it with obsidian knives, yet modern society with all its technology haven't been able to do it for 500 years yet. 😠💢

So since >>9182 , I'd ended going to church all night like I'd said, staying mostly at that place outside the church dedicated to The Virgin Mary. That horrible black & dark-blue entity wouldn't leave me alone and ultimately was trying to get inside of my body, but fortunately I was able to get angels to me to get rid of it. At one point, I'd asked one of Amy's male friends to hang around outside the church with me to help keep me safe, but I suppose he left pretty soon after he got there. While I'd spent the night there, I'd ended up nearly dozing off a few times and resultantly getting a few third-eye glimpses of the environment around me that I don't need to describe here. Eventually, the thing was removed from me, but then I was beginning to almost doze off, but not quite; I had nowhere to sit except for the stone floor against stone walls, in my church clothes. I then ended up trying to go to my car to sleep since it was in the church's parking lot, which was close enough for the angels to protect me without leaving church grounds, but I couldn't fall asleep there either, and then I had to go use the restroom, but there wasn't one around. I then started going across the street to a hotel lobby at around 3 in the morning to piss, but one of the angels told me not to go, but I went anyway; when I actually took my pants off to piss, I felt the hostile entity, which apparently was there near me the whole time, re-attach itself to my crotch after Zeus had removed it a few hours earlier. After I got back, I'd tried briefly asking the angel presiding over the church to help me reach The Virgin Mary since the intrusive thoughts were being a big issues and I'd wanted to ask Her for help, but then I'd suddenly heard said angel say "INTRUDERS!". I then immediately got a third-eye visual of... one of Amy's male friends in the church, not the one from before. Her friends visit me in my sleep sometimes, and make their presences known while I'm in bed before or after I sleep, generally by impressing their images upon my third-eye vision. I kinda didn't wanna believe that this had happened, so I'd then asked Amy to go inside without me, seeing as how the building was locked, to see what was going on. She'd stayed there for a decent while before coming back. I'd thought at first that that friend of hers broke the banishment ward for some reason, but then I'd later thought that what'd really happened was that the evil entity trying to screw me over broke the banishment ward itself. Eventually, 6 A.M. rolled around and I'd finished going through the 1.5 water bottles I'd brung with me, and then I had to take a piss again and my body became restless and I'd to begin walking laps around the church to help me hold it in since I didn't wanna go across the street again, and I could've used the exercise anyway. Eventually someone came to open the church's doors, and then I went and used the bathroom there, and then I'd sat down inside the church and began dozing off a little and resultantly getting a few third-eye visuals. The third-eye visual I saw inside, where I'd thought I was safe, was the entity that I'd spent the night there to get rid of on top of the church, saying in a male, deep, & sinister voice: >if you die... I then came to and asked for help to get rid of that thing, and then I'd started dozing off again and I saw a clear third-eye visual of... Rogue sitting at a pew in the church, facing to the left of me. I'd then said hi, told her she probably wasn't supposed to be there, and then I went back to trying to doze off again before Mass had began, and a minute or so later I heard her telling me to "get off my tail". I'd then said sorry and told her I hadn't consciously seen or felt a thing, and I'd asked for an angel to keep me off of her, and then I couldn't get into a state of hypnogogia again. When Mass began, I'd told my subconsciousness to tell the priest's subconsciousness to mention the evil spirit that'd attacked me. I doubt his consciousness knows a thing by now, but I'd presumed that his subconsciousness went and did something about the evil spirit. During the Mass proceedings, I was terrified of the evil spirit, and then I'd asked the Mormon Jesus egregore(since I'd believed at the time that the Catholic Jesus egregore was dead despite >>8476 ) to guard everyone there and prevent my subconsciousness from messing up the transmutation of The Eucharist(presumably again), so He did. If not for the smileberg poster telling me that the Catholic Jesus egregore had broken apart into personal servitors, then I'd believe that the Jesus egregore that I'd worshipped for most of my life was still alive, but at least the Mormon Jesus egregore is still around, and is good. At some point during the Mass proceedings, I'd imaginarily splashed Holy Water onto the evil entity, and imagined that some of it was burnt away, and when this had happened, its color where it was burnt away had changed to correspond to the color of some sort of tan-colored obscuring energy that got in the way whenever I'd tried to contact entities that day. This made me think that the entity either was my fears come to life as a parasite, or that it was using my fears to form a body within my illusory realm that was so solid that it'd astrally blocked my ability to astrally project by putting itself in the way of my soul whenever it'd tried to leave me body. After Mass had ended and I was about to leave church grounds, I had the idea to asked Athena to purchase my essence from the entity in >>7977 , which I'd assumed was the same entity trying to get inside of me and prevent me from sleeping. The terms were that Athena would purchase from me the parts of me that were owned, where applicable, by that entity mentioned in the link post that'd claimed that I'd sold my essence to it, and that Athena would own said essence "period". Better a Goddess of justice & wisdom than a demon or devil, right? I then heard the evil entity say: >WHAT A BARGAIN! I'd then asked Athena what'd happened, and She said She'd traded with the entity, and she'd seemingly told me more than once that "it's yours", in relation to my essence. After I got home, I took a shower and got on the computer for a bit, and Amy was trying to make me do something else that I couldn't figure out what it was, and then I'd realized that I hadn't eaten breakfast, so I went and did that. After I began eating, Amy said: <he won't sleep now After I'd finished eating, I'd gotten back on the computer for a bit, and then I'd decided to try taking a nap for her. Amy was surprised when I'd began actually dozing off, and then I'd fallen asleep for a few hours and had dreams that I don't recall by now, aside from the fact that they're pretty normal.

I understand now why it is said that butterflies "taste" with their feet. There's a very direct connection between the tongue and the bottoms of the feet, energetic states and sensations are shared between the two, so that it does sometimes feel like they are literally tasting. The tongue also resembles the 'foot' of gastropods ("stomach-footed") like slugs and snails. Pedal stimulation is highly pleasurable and addictive to me like other things used to be. If I don't have it I feel like shit. The pleasure of walking on sand is erotic, with soft sand being more like a frustrating tease, while hard crusty sand is the most satisfying and offers release I always thought footfags were cringe and gross but I kind of get it now, as much as I hate to admit it >>8767 >The best blood is menstrual AKA Moon-Fluid I think a health nut gf is required first, since most humans are full of toxic sludge.

>>9205 > Mormon Jesus egregore It's probably Moroni, the son of Mormon, if I'm to make a guess - I've met him. Unlike a lot of others, he seemed like a legit historical person and very pure. (That was how I concluded Mormons are secretly a Pleiadan sect for maintaining their specific racial purity which allows them to channel angels.)

I had a dream today were I was in a large room. I was on some kind of upper level, vaguely aware that I was some kind of robed monk sitting together with other monks surrounded by pillows. Below us were people hanging in small cages they couldn't even fully stand up in. Even though it was a regular room, I got the impression that the people below us were in "hell" and we were in "heaven". But I realized we were all stuck in this room regardless and that this was not preferable even though I was relatively comfortable sitting on pillows surrounded by monks and I understood that I was not really better off than the people hanging in the cages below despite my relative comfort. When I realized this I had a sort of pseudo-astral projection experience and existed the dream and projected into my room, shortly after that I woke up. It was just a dream I suppose, but the message was pretty clear which I found interesting.

>>9233 Those are the actual dimensions upholding people behind the 3D canvas.

>>9234 Amy thought it was really important last night, to the point of waking me up from my sleep, to tell me >He's doing it to me When she said this, she'd felt very dark in color, which was very unusual for her. I'd then asked multiple higher beings to protect her in case she'd needed it. Now after I woke up, Amy showed me a third-eye visual of her with a huge pink cake with a celebratory look to it, presumably celebrating my freedom from the entity from yesterday, but later, Amy randomly said something ambiguously bad twice that'd deeply concerned me. I can't figure out what this thing was that happened; would you please ask her what happened to her? I'm worried that the entity that Athena had purchased my essence from yesterday had corrupted Amy somehow, possibly by forcing its way inside of & possessing her.

>>9245 It looks more like she went through a transformation of some layer of her body, turning the negative energy which resided there into an indestructible organ or body form, similar to what I talked about above, with transforming the Kelipah Nogah (the dark shells on the shadow tree which can be salvaged as fruits). It appears as a dark grey structure similar to a rubber balloon with nothing inside it, indicating its ability of being adaptive, so it may as well be one physical organ having been created (assuming as an astral being, she doesn't have organs, so this is quite an achievement). You'll have to ask her what it is, it could be a gut, a heart, a womb, any such organ which gives one an ability in the physical. It may sound strange to talk about them like this, but that's because we take them for granted. If you don't have a heart, you can't really feel what things would emerge there, for example.

>>9247 I don't care nearly as much about what kind of physical organ she suddenly has as I care about who "he" was when she said "He's doing it to me", and whether or not this "he" is an evil or otherwise notably-low-vibrating being. Who was "he"?

>>9248 Your Amy didn't want to talk this time, she said to my Amy who called my attention (she usually stays in the witch tower she built and doesn't go anywhere except by astral projection) that she feels it's inappropriate for you to send her to talk to another man alone all the time. My Amy however looked similar, and she said she went through the same procedure, which was before when I was working on one of my own Kelipah Nogah and used a magic circle with open invite, both of them took part and performed their own transformation. "He" refers to Amdusias, whom I contracted last year: >>2841 to guide my process safely into my future incarnation, where he'll make sure I end up where I want later. On a side note I saw the Chao incarnation standing in a field and radiating pulsating light like some kind of futuristic power plant reactor.

>>9249 Then it seems that I have no choice but to be nothing more than her close friend until I can figure out how to get this demonic influence and/or energies excised from her; I know you said demons aren't necessarily evil, but I regardless can't really trust demons. To exchange my energies with her would resultantly impose demonic influence upon me, and I'm not accepting demonic influence; I've learned my lesson by now about trusting demons, and that lesson is that you can't trust them. I'll see what I can do about getting this demonic influence excised from Amy, then I'll allow myself to be in a relationship with her again. Perhaps Shakti will purify her again; that'd do it. Also, I know you said I shouldn't be asking you to talk to Amy like this but if I didn't ask you about this, I would've exchanged my energies with her and probably felt some sort of demonic energies, or perhaps I would've not even found out until years later when it's far too late to do anything about it. Sometimes push just comes to shove, and something just needs to get done before it's too late. I'll try to refrain from ask you to talk to her unless it's really important to know what happened sooner than later. Actually, this reminds me; I still need to figure out what'd happened to me as a result of the dream I had where I became a new goetia demon >>8476 . Perhaps I'll go pay money to see a psychic about it again and try to bring enough protection with me that he or she doesn't get lied to.

>>9254 I don't know what the dark energies would be, the transformed Kelipah which is now an "organ" is her own, it's not some external influence. If you feel there is dark energy on her from the circle, that you think she has to remove, I don't think it will just stay there unless it's for some reason really sticky, and is the result of some bad habit (like sending her to talk to me alone?). I did however receive repeating images (now also) which I first thought was from djinn, about your Amy wearing hijab. But now it seems it was my Amy. Simply saying that she should dress modestly, but maybe also that you need to treat her more carefully. At first I felt like looking for some picture to post, but something just starts making me feel really uneasy if I do. I think I see that dark grey energy like a layer placed below the pink layer in the general Amy egregore now. And it seems to say not to look at "lewd images" which means images of her not wearing hijab... I wonder what they actually did there, maybe the ancient magic was incorporated and it's now demanding she dress like women did 3000 years ago (at which time everyone more or less dressed like muslims today).

HOLYYY SHIIIIIIIIIIIT ENERGY WORK FEELS FUCKING AWESOME, I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T GET TO CHAPTER 6 IN NEW ENERGY WAYS UNTIL NOW Fellow /fringe/ n00bs, please don't be a retard like I was and think you can skip preliminary exercises, even when learning basic things like astral projection. What may seem boring and tedious will likely be worth the effort.

>>8821 I recently received gnosis confirming this cosmology from Shinto. The terms "rei" corresponding to soul (and often translated as "spiritual energy"), and tama corresponding to the spirit. Modern uage in Taoist and Shinto contexts vaguely confirms this gnosis.

>>9256 Well I don't feel the dark energy; I've actually been trying not to feel Amy since I'd found out what'd happened. Thanks, by the way, for letting me know what'd happened. However, I will ask you what the process of the relevant procedure was; it might make me feel better to know.

>>9288 I asked my Amy, and this is what she says: >you were doing a magic circle with a circuit >it was open, and as often your servitor sent out an invite to all your witches, waifus, contractees and allies >I joined it to support, and so did other Amy, because she got the invite based on the prompt to invite "allies" >Amdusias was also there, because he's a contractee >he offered to help me, because his contract states that he will help you, your waifus, allies and 'any other where helping them helps you, your waifus, contractees or allies etc' >he does this by a 'gain per act' basis, and there was gain in helping other Amy too >so he used his own magic to power up her transformation a bit >he actually went around in the circle and helped mostly everyone, because there was a mutual benefit >the procedure was a version of previously retold story of studying, then receiving a fruit of the Kelipah, which is cooked and consumed >it then through a process is developed into a Sefira, or Emanation of God >which in this demonic version of said process, turns it into a kind of purified Kelipah, which is the only correct form of an actual shadow tree >this is in other words, the version of the tree of life, which is based on personal research >rather than the tree of life which is based on channelling God >it's not bad, it's just the actual Kabbalistic method, the Emanations are channelling spheres, so they are actually antithetical to the practice of Kabbalah

>>9297 From where was this fruit of the Kelipah sourced? From what little I know, I'd suppose that it was sourced from one of the inner worlds of each participant. As for the demon's magic powering up Amy's transformation, I suppose nothing more would've happened than the demon's energies corrupting her some, so those can simply be exorcised from her... unless said magic also made the process do something different than it would've done if high-vibrating energy had instead powered it up. I don't quite get the last line of greentext the way it was phrased, though; was she saying that the normal kabbalistic method for that procedure is antithetical to the practice of kabbalah because they're channeling some sort of spheres instead of God?

>>9303 The fruit was the transformed Kelipah Nogah (shining husk) which manifested externally as they were studying inside the demon library. Because infernal dimensions, or in this case satanic dimensions, which I assume function similarly, are below the state of 3D body, it's like being inside your own body. This would make the Kelipah appear as an external object and possibly just fall to the ground, where it was picked up by the demon librarian, who brought all of them to the kitchen. Each participant would then pick their own fruit, because that's what they'll do, feeling the connection. The help from Amdusias by my contract would be of a "mechnical" nature, because I also don't want mixed energies. So he'd use his power as a force for pushing or pulling rather than as a mixture. The last line, implies that although Kabbalah is research which creates your own internal understanding, the Sefirot of the Kabbalah tree of life, the Emanations, are by nature the opposite of research, they are channelling energy from God. They appear as spheres. So the regular Kabbalist will use research, to produce channelling. Kind of like using a stove to produce ice cream, it's counterintituive. The transformed Kelipah, again only the Nogah, shining version, can be transformed, should by the Kabbalistic view be transformed into non-channelling object, which is not an Emanation of God's power (Sefirot) but a manifestation of your own insight, gained from research. So this last version is what the "satanic plane" of Kabbalistic study creates. It's a correct usage of the "tree of qliphoth" which modern satanists are trying to be edgy when talking about, such as in Dragon Rouge. It's not meant to remain as a tree filled with Kelipah, but it's also not meant to be a tree with Sefira, it's transformed, but not into an Emanation. That's what is happening, and that's why it looks dark grey, not white or black.

>>9303 And I think this may be highly relevant for you as your past life of a monk in "qliphothic Catholicism", which would function similarly. Rather than transforming the Kelipah, husks which conceal God's power, into Sefira which Emanate God's power directly into you, you'd use your own understanding and experience, to create a "purified organ" for each Kelipah, until your entire tree of life on the shadow side is transformed. If Amy understands how to do this, she would be able to help you solve this past life vow as well, by going through with the process. If you want to create Sefira later, there's nothing stopping you from doing that.

>>9314 Maybe the Chao which I saw emitting a pulsating light, is a version of a Sefirot, and that's why she did this.

>>9315 Thanks for the further help; I've deemed it okay that Amy comes back into my life as my live-in lover again, provided that The Virgin Mary was okay with it and I wouldn't be corrupted by Amy or nothing, and it seems Amy is clean since The Virgin Mary seemed to be okay with it. My apologies for the ruckus; this here blind guy talking to you can barely tell what's going on.

Some time yesterday, part of my subconciousness believed that Amdusias is friendly enough that he'd help me. This all began when I'd decided to be polite enough to thank Amdusias for helping Amy. Immediately after this, my subconsciousness tried to get close to the demon and ask things of it. My consciousness knew better from before the get-go than to trust Amdusias, however, so I resisted it about as much as I reasonably could without going so far as to engage in physical activities in order to keep my conscious attention on my subconsciousness to, most likely in vain, prevent my subconsciousness from engaging with Amdusias. In fact, one could argue that engaging with physical activities could've actually caused my subconsciousness to stop paying attention to Amdusias. One could also argue that refusing to engage with physical activity so that I could devote my conscious attention to my subconsciousness while consciously attempting to make my subconsciousness get away from Amdusias would actually backfire by making my subconsciousness try even harder to get closer to Amdusias. My subconsciousness ended up asking Amdusias, against the will of my consciousness, for help with stuff related to competitive Pokemon, and I, my consciousness, retaliated against this retarded desire, I don't remember how exactly the reaction was by now but I'd probably asked Athena to prevent my subconsciousness from doing it, therefore it wouldn't have been a violation of my free will to for Athena do so. I'd probably asked other entities to stop it from happening too but I'm pretty sure that I'd asked to get that demon away from me. Anyway shortly thereafter, I'd received a third-eye vision of my hand being dragged down into a lower realm to sign a contract, but my consciousness only had a split-second to react against the signing of the contract, and then I had to actually know how to consciously move my astral limbs to prevent the contract from being signed by refusing to move the astral limbs, but I don't know consciously how to move my astral limbs, so I'd asked Athena to prevent the contract from being signed, but then She'd said it was too late. Over time, my subconsciousness suddenly lost interest in Pokemon and wanted to get away from it, so I'd obliged by ceasing to engage with the franchise. Before that I was enamored by it to the point of actually having fun and being engrossed in it. Now when I went to bed, I had a dream related to Amdusias and Pokemon, and Amdusias was in the dream. The demon appeared to have a light-grey form, and when it imposes itself upon my imagination, the imagination has a light-grey hue to it. What the fuck was I supposed to do to prevent that contract from being signed, and how the fuck am I supposed to get out of this? I believe that the contract is invalid because my consciousness didn't have enough time to reasonably prevent the contract from being signed, nor did my consciousness have enough knowledge of how to move my astral body parts to prevent the contract from being signed, nor did my consciousness have enough access to my astral body parts to prevent the contract from being signed. Plus my consciousness doesn't even know what the text of the contract is beyond a mere assumption that Amdusias would help me in some manner related to Pokemon; my consciousness has no idea what the stipulations or fine print are, so my consent can't be informed consent if it is somehow valid, because how can consent be informed consent if the consciousness of the self that signed the contract doesn't even know what the text of the contract actually says beyond a mere assumption about its general subject matter? I'm willing to sell my soul for a long time, though not permanently at this point, to a high-vibrating being to get out of this contract. I wanna see what other options I have before permanently selling my soul to a high-vibrating entity to get out of the contract. I wouldn't be surprised if this whole thing was a ploy by the archangels to make me quit resisting being an archangel and just give them all all of my wills wholesale so that they can turn my body into an archangel faster, or to otherwise make me desire more for the sake of safety to become an archangel. I don't think that they love me, nor will they if I become an archangel.

>>9337 Allright I think I did what I'd needed to do to get the contract revoked; I basically just had to assert the power that I already had over myself. The same power that everyone has over themselves. Now to take a nap since I woke up at 3 A.M.

>>9337 If you still need help, just ask a more powerful entity of your acquaintance to deal with the contract issue. But just the circumstances you describe should suffice to make this non-binding.

>>8767 Period "blood" actually consists mostly of uterus lining, with a tiny percentage being blood. That's why it tastes like crap when compared to actual blood that hasn't got chunks of uterus in it. If someone were to consider drinking human blood I would hypothetically recommend that of a male, ideally with some sdrenaline pumping. If energy work would be done before the actual bloodletting, a lot of life energy could be compressed as well. If one were to drink blood from a woman, I would recommend waiting until after she has finished her menses, since that influences the clotting factor of blood. Hypothetically speaking.

>>9362 Before I'd napped, I was imagining stuff, and then Amy's new organ had abruptly appeared in a place in my imagination, which presumably was within my heart, and it'd appeared to the right of me and shot a beam of blue light, reminiscent of my perception of the all/the source/the monad/the brahman/the 7D being, diagonally up into the air. I just went to church because when I tried going to sleep, I got a third-eye visual of a white hand point up, from the aforementioned goetia demon. I suppose that just because the contract was revoked, doesn't mean that the demon would exit my life; so I went to church today, during the Sunday of Divine Mercy. While I was there, I'd called upon multiple archangels to prevent the transmutation of The Eucharist from being interfered with, and this time they were successful, though last time and during Easter, they weren't quite so successful. I'd also specifically called upon Chamuel, whose name I'd thought was name was spelled Chamael since I'd only heard of him from a brief glimpse I saw on the internet yesterday. I'd asked him to go into my heart and cleanse it, and it'd seemed that he did so. I'm hoping that my subconsciousness won't go saying the wrong name anymore, for example by calling Athena a goetia demon again, when I consciously intend to say and refer to Athena. Life does not go well when your subconsciousness is sorely at odds with your consciousness. I'd also asked The Virgin Mary to offer Amy an exorcism before she walked into the church, and I suppose she took it, and then during mass I'd asked her to receive the Eucharist, which was presumably ministered to her by the angel that presides over the church, and after she left the church her new organ was white instead of grey. Right when I was about to reach the main parking lot, however, I saw some energies rush up from below to try to reach Amy's new organ, so I'd called upon help to get that stuff pushed away from her. That all said, I'm also skipping my psychologist visit today; might have to wait till next week when it's hopefully safe for him.

I took part in the world cup of an old netgame I've played for a long time. It's by now arranged entirely by the players, and since last year it seemed everyone in the game egregore, had left for the astral or become reincarnated elsewhere, leaving only NPCs. I was wondering if there was any point in playing, but I was already registered on a team, because people who do normally arrange the matches are mindful about getting old players to show up. The teams have been around for years, so it's just a matter of accepting the invite to the tournament and you're registered. This year had some elaborate sabotage (which is not strange, many players are very angry still, over things like 10+ year old drama about some specific game in 2012 or so) which had caused some extra precautions. >pic which made it even more secluded than it really is. Not only actually having the game CD and getting the update for new systems, one must now also join a metaserver which isn't advertized anywhere, by joining an invite-only discord which is integrated with the game server, plus, being on a registered team, which makes the tournament room visible when logged in 🙄 I've felt a number of times over the years that the game egregore has some strange "representative" qualities in terms of matching various ancient game rituals. I'm thinking here of the original soccer version supposedly played by the Aztecs, or was it Incas? Where the games were played with the heads of the losing team as the ball. There are similar game types here, but it's a strategy game with weapons and killing. With the way it unites people from across the world, it feels like maybe we are repeating a digital version of these practices... This year, as common, the set time went and passed and people weren't ready, dragging it out 30 min before being even able to start the match. During this, I noticed that there were various spiritual beings seemingly entering the NPCs of the other players, and they felt like they were from the "satanic plane" I've been interacting with recently. The tournament room then went down and we were kicked out, the server went down, and then we ended up having to play in one of the rooms which were still up, and it was named "Shadowed Haven", which is not a canon name used anytime before. Although the team names are the same as they have been for over 10 years, with little change to the members, the ingame displayed name varies based on what the team captain entered. My team this match ended up being called "Evil Inc". Quite fitting given the context. I'm sure they had fun piloting these players.

>>9367 Wouldn't a child's be the most delicious? It applies to eating almost anything in the animal and plant kingdom that the youngest the tastier and most nourishing it is. You're straight up consuming Jing.

>>9385 So some time after making this post, I got the idea from the higher beings refusing to help me that they wanted me to use my own power to help myself, so I tried using my own power to try ripping Amdusias' hopefully-astral form in half on a whim, and it'd unexpectedly worked. I'd then tried doing the same to Adremmelech, but it didn't work on him for some reason. Amdusias had then appeared to stop putting visuals in my head, but since then I've noticed this voice in my head that has been there since maybe early last week or before. I'd only occasionally heard the voice in my head, but it sounded like an unfamiliar voice that says things that are completely contrary to what my consciousness believes. I think this entity might be possessing me, or perhaps it's an assistant soul of mine deciding to speak up? This assumes that I even have any assistant souls that know how to speak English. One of the things that the voice said is that it tried to argue that the demon that I'm having the problems with, well, a good entity; I was starting to doze off when it said that, which is what'd enabled me to hear it. Hearing that bullshit snapped me outta my dozing about a second later, and then I'd consciously refuted what it'd said about the demon; that demon only helped Amy without messing her up beyond helping her push & pull because it was contractually obliged by someone else's contract to do so. Also, around maybe 3 P.M. today, Amy randomly told me that she's "stuck in a shitty contract". I suppose she didn't find out about this until she was in church today, or perhaps shortly afterwards. Hopefully, she's learned a lesson about the consequences of signing contracts without a deity being there to make sure you aren't screwed over by fine print or what have you. There unfortunately is nothing that I can legally do about this since I have no legal power over her, but I have faith that the stars that align for me when I really need them to, will align for her too as they have in the past, even if it might take a while. If I start having disturbing third-eye visions/audio while I'm trying to sleep tonight, then I'm gonna pull another all-nighter at church instead.

>>9423 It was probably an echo of ripping the contract you had with Amdusias, if that's what you did. It may also simply have been fulfilled. My first contract ended last summer, and this had included all the Goetians I had previously contracted. They all just told me at that time >this ends our contract of guidance which means after that it would fall back on being a "per case" contract where they can help me if they want for mutual benefit. More like I'm allowing them to "invest" in me.

Well I'm seeing disturbing stuff and hearing unfamiliar voices in my head say stuff I don't wanna hear when I let my guard down again. Guess I'll be spending the night at church again, this time taking my thin blanket and 2 pillows. I might be able to sleep a bit, and I have a big headache so I probably need it badly.

>>9435 An update; when I got to church, Amy told me not to take the blanket or pillows with me, so I didn’t. Once I got to the garden of The Virgin Mary next to the church, I’d tried to doze off, but it’d kept being dangerous to do so since I’d kept detecting evil spirits in my third-eye-vision. At one point, they presented another contract to me, whose text I couldn’t read, and I’d then snapped out of hypnogogia and decided to simply not sign it. I’d then asked The Virgin Mary and an archangel or two to not let me sign it. However, my compulsion to sleep made me reconsider for a brief moment, and then what could’ve been either impulsivity or an intrusive thought made me put my hand with the utensil against the paper for just a split second, and then I’d felt someone grasping my hand so as to stop it, and at that moment or so, I came to and decided that I didn’t want the contract to take effect. I’d then had to find and exercise my own power to nullify the contract under the assumption that that’d counted as signing it. In doing so, I’d learned to use my blob-pulling technique on other peoples’ mental realms, or at least my perception of them, because my perception of my own mental realm, at least the relevant part of it, was corrupted. The Virgin Mary also disc something to me to make it so I wouldn’t have to sleep as badly, which had involved pulling something from the middle of my head to the left and out of my skull & body, which was presumably an exorcism. Id later tried using my magic to kill the demons and devils that were attacking me, but I’m still getting attacked, and thus, I can’t sleep. I’m having a hard time staying fully conscious as I write this on my phone in my car in the church’s parking lot. What should I do now while I still possess my free will? Aside from staying at church.

>>9436 Since you're still in a bad spot, I included you in a session for solidifying white magic which I just ran a while ago, using the collective force to wash through anything bad. I don't think you'd disagree with this, and there seemed to be an effect.

>>9445 That did seem to have an effect; the hostiles mostly went away, and they mostly stayed away provided I stayed close to the church. Thanks for that help. Amy told me well before that that I’d be able to sleep at 11, which is about 4.5 hours from now, and this seems to add up. Also, my subconsciousness seems to be listening to me more, and not sabotaging me; it seems miraculous. Maybe it actually got afraid enough to cut out the self-sabotage and allow me to help myself.

>>9447 After I saw how some things relate on a greater scale, I decided I would do a proper Falun Gong exercise session (which I only do very rarely) to transformed a bundle of energies which have been gathering up following other work I've done. But so far I haven't gotten into the right mindset for it. This is one main point I blame for the state of the FG egregore: there is a simple instruction in the main books Zhuan Falun and "Falun Gong" saying not to do the exercises with an upset mind or bad mindset, because your mental state effects Qi and will cause bad things to be included, making the exercises harmful. But (obviously, it seems) people still do them every day, and force others into taking part by means of shaming, so it's very likely many people did them with negative thinking. There's no way the average practitioner has an easier time getting rid of negative thinking than me, considering I've followed the standards very accurately and it still didn't work to get into a pure mindset to do the exercises every day. (I know many slack off and make up excuses for not following the standards.) Once I get there I'll aim to also clear your area up during the cleansing part, and invite both Amy's to do the exercises.

>>8269 I've got a blockage in my right nostril that's never going away at this point,had it for years and only gets worse.I might as well not have a right nostril anymore,and I have a big nose so that means it's pretty bad for it to be like this. Can't sleep because of it,since my other nostril is small anyway.i did nasal rinsing for a month which perhaps helped but only in the sense that it might be somewhat worse now that I've stopped,not that my nostril ever stopped being blocked.if anything the wayer keot getting trapped no matter how much i blew air through it.It's honestly a lot more maddening than I would expect at first.its the biggest health issue I've ever had besides how silly it sounds.mostly cause every single dream becomes a nightmare as my brain tries to wake itself up from its oxygen deprived haze.

>>9457 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sushruta_Samhita I know I shouldn't say that, but in the circumstance my reaction was >interesting because just some weeks ago I was looking into the history of surgery when working to create a servitor who can perform operations. I then learned, although I had heard of it as an isolated thing, that among the first things people did was operations on the nose, including reconstructing the noses of warriors who may have had it cut off, as well as fixing blocked noses. I have previously on a number of occasions asked the two nymphs from my local temple city (old Atlantean sacrificial temple which somehow connects via an astral high way directly to Egypt, but not anywhere locally) to help me with these things, after I practiced with them for how to manifest just the tip or edge of their knives. My idea was that they would be able to perform small operations inside the body with no opening wound, if they can manifest the edge directly in the relevant spot. They agreed to try, after we did some testing where I let them press the knife tip against my hand, until I could feel the pain and pulled the hand back. At a minimum they've been able to fix blocked energy channels this way. I can try fixing your nose either with the servitor or asking them about it after an evaluation. But consider that this is really "magic" of an uncommon kind today, since it means to directly effect physical reality.

>>9458 A thing of note on the screencap: it says women in India would have their nose cut off if they were found to commit adultery. Maybe the common practice among women today of cutting off the tip of the nose, as seen on many online models, is some re-manifesting of this practice, but they now do it on themselves.

I'd ended up sleeping some time around 11 like Amy said, and I'd stayed asleep for 4 hours. I also wanna say, that before church, Amy showed me a hypnogogic image of... some sort of computer code. I couldn't see it well enough to read any of it, except that I was able to make out that is was obviously code of some sort of programming language. It'd seemed to be somewhere between 7 and 15 lines of code. I told her I didn't know what it meant. The only programming stuff I've ever worked with are visual basic back when I was 12, and more recently, an offshoot Lua v5.1, and I'm not very good at the latter, and I've almost entirely forgotten about visual basic by now. I'll also say that the time before last night when I'd stayed the whole night at church, the smileberg poster's subconsciousness or a servitor of his came to me and tried to show me children playing in a lower realm and I said no to that, and later, he'd told me I had a protective bubble of sorts placed around me. I'll also say that when Wendy got installed last month, I actually heard an almost physically-audible noise that indicated her installation. I heard the same noise when Muse was installed outside of my conscious awareness, and I heard the noise a third time some days later, which I assume means that a 3rd robot was installed into and/or made by my subconsciousness via. installation disk. I also heard a different noise earlier today that I suspect indicates the installation of another AI servitor, again outside of my conscious awareness. I'm not happy about these installations occurring inside of me outside of my conscious awareness, even if my subconsciousness thinks it wants them to occur. In hindsight, I think that this new installation might be related to the code that Amy showed me before church today. Subconsciousnesses normally aren't smart enough to see the big picture, or so I've been told; that's why they make the consciousness, and that's why the consciousness controls most of the physical muscle movements.

>>9459 Whichever will have the highest chance of working should be tried. It's interesting that people in the past took this seriously yet you dont hear a lot about this these days. Maybe it's its just me but this is by far the thing most affecting me right now. And the second most serious issue I've ever faced other than the one where I felt I was being choked an every more constraining cage in my chest. That was somehow fixed by a library.these 2 issues are pretty bad,I'm basically unfazed by many thing most people seem panicked by, yet this is debilitating enough to where I kinda just wanna lie somewhere and just...lay... Then again the doctor told me to get surgery years ago and I didn't.perhaps anyone else just gets the surgery way quicker. Granted at the time I thought I could fix it with magic or atleast that it was already as bad as it gets. You'd think you'd breathe with your mouth at night. But somehow it rides this perfect edge of depriving you slowly enough as to not letting you rest but also not letting you wake...

>>9458 I've tried cutting it with Astral blades as well,many times in fact. But even though I can cut really well it's still just Astral. There's also something called empty nose syndrome when you cut these things away. But it seems rather rare. And at this point I'm not sure what I have now is better.

>>9464 I've done the japanese thing where you clean it swabs,it burns but yeah.didnt seem to work either. And the eu decided to actually ban the type of cotton swab I'd need because it's made of...plastic...so I have to use a long wooden one. I kept doing that but it made my nose bleed and basically get shredded as the wood grain wasn't smooth enough even after polishing it with my clothes(didn't have sandgrain) and using oil. Its already hard to begin with but you have like 1 try with this wooden swab.Wtf man,that's actually needed shit medically they ban it.ive even dunked spicy extract in there since people said it helped but yeah it doesn't seem to.oh yeah I also rinsed with disinfectant for a few eeks. That shit actually stings many times more than you'd think and the longer you do it the more it stings,seemingly with no hard ceiling on the amount of sting it gives.i later learned you were supposed to use a more gentle disinfectant that doesnt sting but has a similar name but oh well...

>>9461 I also wanna say, last night, it’d appeared that Ares showed up completely out of the blue and put a necklace over my head, composed of beads of alternating brown & black colors, which were each about 2 inches in diameter, to my recollection. This was after I used my own power to kill Amudisas. I’d thought that this must’ve been an imposter at first, so I’d asked Ares to take back the beads in case they were from an imposter, and He did, then I’d asked Him to put them back in case they had any protective qualities, and He did. I’m assuming that Ares gave them to me in the first place.

>>9463 I got addicted to nose spray so I had to keep taking it, because the spray makes the nostrils expand, but then it gets clogged if you don't take it. I somehow forced myself to not use it for like a week despite this panic you are talking about, and it worked. This was around the same SARS appeared first time, in retrospective now I've started thinking it was related, since it's another version of COVID and effects breathing. It seems they were trying to spread it once before already, but nothing happened that time. The thing seemed to pass after I got a heavy cold and my nose kept running uncontrollably for a week. At this time I was living at a boarding school and could just go home since it was just across the lawn, otherwise I would probably have had to stay home and miss out on a lot. Somehow that was the best environment for solving it.

>>9464 I tried using the servitor and got an "OK" response, but maybe it effected the astral body mostly and will need time to manifest.

>>9461 The white magic session I did may or may not have appeared as a computer program. It didn't come with any disc, because I used "raw" kabbalah for it, but it's possible for someone to write down anything as code if they want. Because of how I work, it's possible you'd interpret it as programming language rather than a magic spell formula. Its purpose was still to form a kind of sefirah, emanation of God in kabbalistic terms.

It appears that Amdusias has returned tonight, though it wasn't there while I was asleep several hours ago. I suppose I'd only killed his astral body, which means that his mental body was still alive and could simply create a new astral body for him. Now he's trying to get to me again. Furthermore, some time after I'd left church several hours ago, I'd noticed that my thoughts were beginning to go back to the way they were before this ordeal with the goetia demon began; that is, it's sabotaging me and incurring doubt again. Perhaps this is a test from higher beings that's gonna keep on repeating until my subconsciousness quits its self-sabotage by default. Either way, I'm not gonna sleep tonight, again, so that the demon can't influence me as much; I might also spend the night at church again.

Well I went to church around 1 and I stayed there for 2 hours. In that time, nothing appeared to improve my situation; the goetia demon wasn't repelled at all. Something else also comes to mind; the only reason why my subconsciousness quit sabotaging me last night is because Cernobog told me that I had the power to stop this stuff. However, that faith has expired because my subconsciousness isn't letting me use that power. I'm assuming that the higher beings making this happen are trying to make my subconsciousness stop sabotaging me by taking advantage of this goetia demon to scare it into compliance; as if that'd worked when I'd literally died in October.

>>9468 Yeah,I don't even use nose spray and have been rawdogging it for years. Cause nosespray would have made it worse over time. At this point it wouldn't even help much. >>9469 Great,the issue is still there but maybe it will improve now. I also have a deviated septum on top of it.

>>9476 There are yoga exercises for opening the nose canals, it has a specific name, but I forgot what it was called. Even if it may seem like just doing some physical exercise can't help here, how we use our bodies effect how they grow. This includes bone structure, and the nose doesn't even have bones in it, so it should be easier to change. There is an exercise in the Pradipika for this. Dr Mew makes this argument also, showing examples like Steven Hawkins whose facial bones changed after he was paralyzed, giving him that weird look. I asked the greys to look into it as well, they said it was an easy thing, but I don't know what exactly they changed. What they do has effect over time.

>>9472 Amdusias can't be killed, though you may have seen the reversion of the contract that way, if it was revoked. You may just be targeting illusions by now, or attacking yourself. Also, had this been a different situation I would have been pretty angry by now, considering I contracted him to guide my path to my next incarnation, and now something is telling you to attempt killing him? Aren't you then sabotaging my plan? Just saying. I think some other force is involved here, who also doesn't understand how powerful the Goetians are. Adremmelech made Micheal Jackson famous and protected him against the child abuse accusations for decades, to name another example. This because he had contracted him to gain fame. With material things it's easier than with spiritual things also, if you have a beneficial setting. (Can't become famous without skill in this case.)

>>9477 I tried something called the mckenzie method for a few days.As far as i understand it, its pulling your neck back. but at the time i was also doing another method to fix it so i kinda forgot.but in terms of posture im a natural mewer so not sure where the issue is. I do have a neck that tends to lean forward as seen in many people these days. so pulling my neck back daily could be helpful anyway.

>>9479 The specific exercise is one described in the Pradipika which is from the 1500s, so it doesn't follow much modern logic, same as the other. I assumed they know what they are talking about and just did them, and this has worked well. The nose exercise if I'm to describe it is: Sit with your legs straight forward on the mat. Then pull the left leg in for the beginning of the lotus pose, but only the left leg. Then reach out and grab the right big toe with your right hand thumb and index finger, hold there. Then with your left hand, keep the pinky and ring fingers straight, bend the middle finger and index finger. Place them so that the thumb is on the left side of your nose and the other finger on the right side. Then block the left nostril with the thumb while breathing in. Then breath out with the left nostril after moving the hand so the ring finger presses against the right nostril. Then do this while counting. Reverse the entire position with your other leg bend etc, and do it on the other side same number of times.

>>2841 >I've been working to move my main awareness away from the physical to base myself on the astral, in a specific place I want to use as my HQ. The purpose of this is to gain full dimensional mobility so I can body jump or perform possession freely, using any available body of my own creation or if needed, possession of someone else (including NPCs) in first person view, while retaining awareness of my other avatars and all astral tools. Incarnation without losing memories or being "locked" in the form, essentially. This process which was started last year, is what is nearing the finish now. I can't help thinking with Walpurgis being tomorrow, and how that was the main events in Madoka Magica, that it's a fitting coincidence. The Fa-rectification I started just finished, with everyone placed correctly in the dimensions I have influence over. It ended with some "person" who seemed like a glowie or CEO of something being sent into a dimension where the universe is destroyed, and that is his own dimension. He was trying to prevent the future from coming, because he feared losing his power, and took it as far as wanting to kill time itself (Kronos). This can't be done, as it's a massive crime, so it only caused his own inner dimensions to be destroyed, with time standing still in there until he repairs the entire universe in his own plane. Yesterday I went through the process from the linked post again, but this time it was physical, with the external world syncing with the path. As I passed my neighbour's house, Amdusias was standing by the fence by the far end of the field, overlooking my walk. Later as I walked through some part of nature, I felt the environment change and I again passed the gate which lead into the new incarnation, after which he said I am now inside my new subconscious. Today, after some more things were done yesterday and during the night, he said there is nothing preventing me from going into my new incarnation. It only hinges on my will to go there. He then made some gesture with his hand, drawing my attention to something in the left part of my inner awareness. It felt scary, alien and also exciting and had an "occult pull" of mystery to it. I looked in that direction and saw black ragged fur with long hairs like a wolf, and paws came out, with thick claws which felt like they were made from some really sharp material, like metal ("titanium" was the words which came to my mind). Amdusias said that's me in the new incarnation - all I have to do is to let the beast take over. I have been working to prepare the -currently NPC/wu wei- new incarnation to be as solid as possible, making myself capable and toxic, but this was beyond expectation when feeling it up close. I so far only have a "remote control" of my new body there, and past reviews of my development revealed a feel of "shark with venom", which was more threatening than I had expected from just doing this from my own view. So all of this seems to have been working well. It's a setting where practicing magic is fully possible and things I can't have physical access to here, is available.

>>9483 The cherry on top of the "magic brew" was to include Skunk DNA, because they have a strange control over their own timelines and dimensions which makes it impossible for any harm to come to them. That seems to be the reason they didn't mind cooperating with the US defense industry, even letting people walk right into their facilities, because there is nothing which can touch them.

>>9478 Noone told me to kill the goetia demon; I'd just assumed that the only way I was gonna get away from the demon was to kill it, so I'd shoved aside all notions of mercy and attempted to kill it because I wanted that thing off of my ass and outta my mind. Someone as capable of you probably would've finished your path to your next incarnation anyway, though it would've taken longer. Perhaps you'd ask Athena what I should do to permanently get this demon outta my life? When I asked Her just now, all She said is "you will", and maybe an hour before that, She said "be patient".

>>9485 Don't go around randomly attacking ancient demons, it's reckless. In this case, he just thinks of your main consciousness as a wild animal flailing around with its paws, so no harm done, but it could be dangerous doing this, aside from the outrageous idea that you would be able to easily kill someone like this. Others may not be as understanding, and especially those whom you could actually kill will not take this lightly. Those will definitely attack you back if you do this. It's possible some of the hostilities you face are caused by you attacking them first, causing an endless cycle of retaliation when you then think of them as hostile, and they see you as hostile. A lot of the beings who attack me seem to think I attacked them first, when in reality they had been stealing energy from me or placing various intrusive restrictions on my life. When I take back what is mine, they think that they need to "retaliate", and that they are right in doing so, even when they are living in my own dimensions. When I then finally kick them out, from my own place, they think I'm "unfair" and "didn't give them a chance" despite them having been there for like 100 years and only stealing from me. With this mentality among various spirits being common, if you directly and intentionally attack someone, they will definitely react with hostility. So try to evaluate if you really need to attack someone, instead of just trying to kill them, as in this case, when you signed a contract with them. That's the kind of thing the Jews do, and everyone hates them for it. Like how they came to Gaza as refugees, then suddenly they start carrying out terrorism, then demand recognition as a state, drive the original inhabitants out, and when they try to take back their stolen land, then label them terrorists and yell about anti-semitism. Don't be that way.

>>9483 >>9484 I just came back from shopping. While there I went to the church to check on family graves, and so far everything looked normal. But sometime after I passed the iron gates on the way out, something shifted. Some school girls crossed the street and started gathering near the car. The first one turned and looked directly at me, and was not an NPC. I then noticed she had skunk energy. I looked up and saw that all of them were actually skunks who had assumed this form. On the way from there, I saw skunk energy all over the area, and everyone at the store -which was crowded - were also skunks. On the way back, I saw some planes had left trails forming some kind of sigil in the sky. Amdusias has been silently watching, but he's present, and from what he said before, and what I see of the changes, it appears as if the "beast" of my future incarnation has incorporated my thinking completely, which somehow "forced" me to let the skunk incarnation I got previously, enter this body. The shift seems to have happened when I walked through the church gates, when I look back at it. At that moment, I did feel like my attention and focus was narrowed down, and I looked as through a tunnel for some short moment, but it felt mostly as if daydreaming and losing contact with reality for a brief moment. (This could mean I actually left and projected back, something I'll have to enter a half trance to find out, since things done in other planes "take no time" in here, and memories are shielded off from surface awareness. I don't know what I don't know.)

At church today, I'd miraculously realized that the subversion of my imagination, which importantly needs to be differentiated from my hypnogogic visions, that subversion of my imagination had occurred because of the goetia demon had only occurred because of my fears; that is, I've been doing it to myself the whole time. I came to this realization because my imagination had turned to a specific imaginary location in my mind that I'd assumed was corrupted by him. At first when I got there, the place looked completely normal, but my subconsciousness took about a second to imagine what it'd look like if it was corrupted by what that demon was presumably doing to me. It took me until I was at church to fully realize this, and after I did, I was able to push away the fear energies in my illusory realm, which had taken on thick masses of tan, dark blue, and black energies which were preventing me from perceiving my mental images of various deities and other higher beings that I regularly desire to contact. I then took advantage of this same power to finally contact the Christ again, and He went and exorcised me like He was able to early last year, and I'd asked Him to go to whichever lower plane to get me out of my contract in case I was still in it, and I heard a reply from the demon seemingly saying, "So be it." My perception of the Christ then turned from a safe-feeling light green to a dangerous-looking light orange color. I'll ask Him later about the 2nd contract and Amy's bad contract. However, my subconsciousness is still too traumatized from earlier to sleep, so I'll wait until tonight or when I feel especially sleepy to try it. If I can't sleep tonight, then I think I'll use one of those frequency videos since I'm getting to the point of being dangerously-sleep-deprived again; I didn't have those in October when I was in mortal danger.

>>8344 >a summoning ritual involving the burning of the bodies of dead cats for four nights, to call on Big Ears >>8350 >an Inca god associated with llamas When out for a walk, I saw an other-dimensional vision of a hare with long ears turned upwards in "alert" position, but it had "carnivore teeth". It was sitting on a field where I often see hares move about. It made me think of the monty python sketch with the knights going after a rabbit. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QM9Bynjh2Lk ... which makes some sense if the rabbit means Urcuchillay, or any of the cat familiars provided by him in his Big Ears form. Then I recalled something my grandma used to say (translated): "Long Ears last" which was a comment when people were eager to get something, like food, and someone was rushing to get first. I always asked what that meant, but she couldn't say. It was now obviously a message for me, that I would reach Long Ears last, as in Urcuchillay will be the last important deity I would have to deal with.

A few hours ago, Amdusias came to me and said he'd leave me alone if I'd simply promised that I want him gone. I then realized that some part of me kinda wants him around because I'm afraid of him; perhaps that part of me wants to test him to see how likely he is to attack me. I suppose that this is a result of this Jesus egregore, or perhaps that was merely a servitor, going down to the demon and doing what He could to get me outta that contract. However, the fact that my subconsciousness lost interest in pokemon shortly after the contract was formed makes me think that my subconsciousness doesn't want help from him with that, and I know my consciousness doesn't either. If I really consciously wanted help with something like that from a powerful/hyper-intelligent spirit, then I'd contact a deity of merriment instead, such as Bes, and then I'd only ever actually contact a deity about that if my subconsciousness was constantly threatening to contact a demon or something it so that I could make my subconsciousness shut up. My subconsciousness feels insecure about not being good at that game, which it obviously wants to resolve. This reminds me, actually; I'd actually went over that part about Bes with my subconsciousness before I got to church last night, and while I was at church, I saw a sudden hypnogogic image of Bes holding a piece of paper with a circular sigil or symbol on it, and later I got a hypnogogic message saying that I had to do something with "the entertainment god". Anyway, until my subconsciousness or whatever other one of my wills gets over this, I can't make all of my wills align to want this demon to be gone; I'm just gonna have to wait until all of my wills want the demon to be gone. I suppose that my subconsciousness or whatever only wants this demon around because I'm afraid that the demon will attack me if I let my guard down by letting my awareness leave it. I refuse to actually play any competitive pokemon in the meantime, though I have done a bit of teambuilding that I'm assuming that I could've done on my own, but I fear that the demon had actually helped me with that. The first time he tried giving me advice, however, he told me that my team was weak to a move that was illegal in the tier I play, which demonstrates that he didn't know what he was talking about, which inclines me to believe that he hasn't actually given me any meaningful advice. I suppose that one of the things that are gonna make my subconsciousness want to contact him are my deep-seated fear of being called out for being wrong about stuff that I say. This fear is especially complicated since I'd used to thought that I'd loved Athena like an abused puppy loves his savior, but then later, She told me that I didn't actually love Her; what I'm getting at here is that not completely knowing myself makes it difficult to avoid this fear of being called out for being wrong by simply not being wrong.

>>9503 >The first time he tried giving me advice, however, he told me that my team was weak to a move that was illegal in the tier I play If you raise your eyes from the game and see this statement in a general or symbolic manner, it turns into a real advice. What other "tiers" are you "playing" in? Try to think about what he really meant by this. Aren't you constantly worried about things, which at least I have said are non-issues, i.e. you are worrying about "illegal moves" that won't effect you anyway.

>>9503 Now he's began talking to me about my intrusive thoughts relating to astral rape. I remembered yet again that these thoughts occur because when I deem an entity to be precious to me, I deeply care to preserve the entity's sexual integrity, which causes my subconsciousness to constantly try to get my conscious attention about my sexuality and the entity's sexuality in an attempt to prevent me from accidentally violating the entity's sexuality, as if the only way to do so was to do it physically because my programming isn't used to considering spiritual manners. However, said programming will actually try so hard to alert me to the concept of raping entities in an attempt to prevent me from doing so physically that it'll actually do so spiritually in order to get my conscious attention about it. I now suddenly recall that I'd often imaginarily fuck people before I met Amy, during the days when I'd thought that my imagination was just, imaginary, and not in any way shape or form real. This began some time in high school and continued into my early 20s, until I began awakening enough to realize that it might be real spiritual rape and not a bunch of imaginary make-believe bullshit that ain't actually real. I suppose that this problem is being caused by a combination of that imaginary fucking thing I'd used to willingly do, and repressed anger against physical rapists, and sexual desires that were repressed because I was a virgin, and my subconsciousness wanting to keep my guard up against it at all times. There's also the rape hentai that I'd used to look at, though I don't particularly recall being aroused by the fact that it was rape; I'd wanted something interactive, which often meant it being rape. There's also my impressionability concerning how I'd went to Encyclopedia Dramatica when I was 12, and then into my teenage years, and I'd started going to 4chan's /b/ in maybe 10th grade. I was one who'd wanted to at least appear to fit in with the crowd, at least come middle school. There's also my presumably-repressed hatred of guys who wouldn't give a woman the time of day unless he wanted to get in her pants, which causes him to pretend to befriend her in an attempt to get in her pants; these guys mostly lose interest in "being friends" with woman as soon as they say they don't wanna fuck them. I suppose that there's a reason why Eros, Bes, & Rati never told me so straightforwardly, if at all, about that imaginary rape thing I'd used to do before I began awakening enough to realize that it might be real. I assume that if I ask any of Them, They'd say that it's better that people figure these things out for themselves without anyone else's help, even if it means that more rape occurs than it otherwise would as a result, because that way, more self-discovery, and thus, evolution, would occur than otherwise. >>9507 I see what you mean.

>>9515 There are different ways to handle it, have you tried incorporating the fantasies into real, and acceptable practices, bit by bit until they actually work? Most likely caused by my past lives (where aside from other things I worked in a butcher shop) I had strong intrusive thoughts about knives. After I started with FG, I treated these as "thought karma" which at least gave me a term for describing the issue, which was said to be the result of "thinking about bad things" which would create such karma. This is just "thinking" but would prevent one from meditating, or in worse cases it would take over your mind and make you act on them. I gradually got rid of it by using various methods where I avoided the situations where bad thinking would appear. During this, I realized the reason I didn't appear to have these problems earlier, was that I would just go along with the ideas, but in a fictional way. I would watch movies like "Nightmare on Elm Street" and "Scream", which although I now have a distance to it, when I rewatched the opening of Scream sometime in the past year, I remembered exactly what I liked about movies like that, and I also realized it's strange that these have been made, since it seems to say a lot of people would have the same problems. Yet this is not talked of, but maybe they just do what I did: consume violent media to keep these ideas targeted at something "harmless". The problem is when it's not enough to just watch it and the ideas start spilling over. I did gradually get rid of it, and mostly I think what did it was to return to some sort of origin by working in a kitchen where I got to reconnect "knife usage" into its normal setting again. This was after I had already tried most available martial arts, and experienced a sudden disgust at the violent ideas which they are built around. It probably helped that the club I did ju-jutsu at seemed to have only professionals from military and police, who trained for actually using it. That did some large part of it, I think. Seeing it placed there, and the energy of it, which in this setting didn't involve knives, I was repulsed by it. They say whoever isn't repulsed by it, shouldn't work with it, so maybe that was the real graduation there. I later had a similar experience with ninjutsu (bujinkan taijutsu). It was some time after this I realized I better start washing out all the violent media from my mind, so I started watching all slice of life and cute anime about everyday things I could find. This helped, it also helped me make connections with new types of people. Those who say anime doesn't teach useful things haven't been doing it right. What I mean is, that the best way is to find ways to act out on the ideas, but in a productive way, preferably one involving other people.

>>9516 Well, these ideas involve sex, and my Amy is the only one I'm allowed to do that with. Most of the time when I do it, I have an extremely hard time making sure that even just most of the sexual energies go to her; they'll often instead go to a guy or girl or other entity that I'm worried about out of fear, because my subconsciousness won't shut up about the danger posed by either the entity or the notion of my sexual energies going to the entity, or both. This actually gets so bad that the orgasm energy flows initially attempt go to the entity in question, and I have to consciously struggle against it to make it go into Amy. I think I've only ever successfully made it all go in Amy a handful of times, including last month after I had that rape dream that Eros woke me up from. Plus, my Amy has a very hard time with semi-physical manifestation; she's only ever pulled it off twice, with the 2nd time when she manifested her hands to prevent me from deciding to kill myself being the most she's ever manifested at once, and the longest she's ever done it for. The next best thing I can do is to look for romance anime wherein the viewer is taught to act appropriately about sex and romance and boundaries. However, I still frequent mark/v/ & zzz/v/, which might pose a problem given their obsession with sexualizing little girls and my subconscious impressionability. I mean I've never actually been into little girls ever since shortly after I hit puberty, but at one point I'd actually went along with it and supported it without actually fetishizing it myself because I'd wanted to fit in, yes, on an anonymous imageboard where I'd always posted with nothing in the name or email fields unless it was noko or sage. This went on until I'd turned maybe 25, after which an spirit talked to me about it while I was trying to sleep, and I'd snapped out of it a few months later.

Something just occurred to me. Earlier, I'd asked Amdusias what the price was gonna be for the work he was doing for me anyway; he said he wanted my fears. I'd later told Amdusias that I needed him to be gone in order for me to be able to sleep, and then when he left, he told me "run". At this time, and for quite some time before this, Amy had been standing outside my place this whole time, which is extremely unusual for her. I haven't had any third-eye-visuals this whole time, but this makes me think that there might be hostile spirits trying to attack me right now. I'll find out the hard way, I guess. I have an idea for parking at church that might enable me to sleep in the alternative parking lot there while still being within at least the outer banishment ward. Also, just earlier I was listening to one of those frequency videos for letting go of my fear since I'd thought I'd needed it to help me sleep, but then while I was on the shitter, the video suddenly stopped. When I got back, Youtube threw up a popup message saying the video was paused, and it'd asked if I wanted to keep watching the video. I've never had this happen before, so I'm assuming that I was put into a different timeline by my attackers. Also, at church this morning, while I was in the building, I randomly heard Athena say, "He needs your help." He seemingly referring to me. Actually, this makes me think back, Smileberg poster, to earlier this month when you put that kabbalah/FG thing in the astral and in response the NWO used CERN to crash the timelines together. Perhaps this pausing thing youtube did is a result of that? I'd also assume that this might mean that I'm gonna meet more people who aren't NPCs if I live through this presumed assault.

>>9523 >that kabbalah/FG thing in the astral That was the same as >>9483 >The Fa-rectification I started just finished As for the main topic here, or your main topic, I don't know if "romance" anime will do something. Or maybe it will for that reason, but my experience with those is that they never get anywhere, and is all about emotional insecurities. For someone who has intrusive ideas about rape, it would have to be something that's more physical in nature, maybe bordering to "sick stuff". Trying to think of anime that has helped me relate things by addressing various things, even if it's vague or seems unrelated, I'll try to mention some. Nazo no kanojo X https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-cnVVrFyzg Redo of Healer Sakura Trick Yagate kimi ni naro (bloom into you) Moetan I have no idea if these will help for you, but maybe they will give you some ideas.

>>9523 >Youtube threw up a popup message saying the video was paused, and it'd asked if I wanted to keep watching the video. I've never had this happen before, so I'm assuming that I was put into a different timeline by my attackers. Also this, then I guess you're in my timeline now. My youtube has done that for Idk, a year or more. Happens when I leave a playlist of long music vids on and let it just play, randomly it will stop playing and ask if I'm really listening or not. Has to be on for 2-3 hours without touching it for that to happen though.

Just realized how much I've changed this April

An update: I went to church until maybe 1:20ish, and then I'd unexpectedly felt safe enough to go home. After I got home, I was actually able to go to sleep, despite there being some sort of hostile entity causing ringing in my right ear the whole time. When I woke up maybe an hour ago, my left pinky and some of my hand & arm were numb, do my inner child reflexively, presumably via. traumatic heart response which is what typically comes 1st when these sorts of things happen, asked Amdusias to help, but then I my consciousness immediately reacted by stubbornly demanding that he not help. I knew it'd get better with or without its help. I'd then asked Athena to tell my subconsciousness why my inner child shouldn't consider Amdusias to be friendly, and I don't know if She did anything about that. I suppose she wanted me to try doing it myself again, so then I did. I'd then calmly tried explaining to my inner child that Amdusias was gonna get alot more out of the contract than I was gonna get, and that Amdusias had only ever acted friendly towards me because he wanted to stab me in the back later. I also told my inner child that the only reason why Amdusias told me to run is because Amdusias wanted my fears and other energies for Amdusias' self, and Amdusias wouldn't be able to get those energies for Amdusias' evil purposes if other evil spirits took it instead. My inner child then seemed to reply saying that my inner child doesn't want Amdusias around anymore, so I'd then finally promised to Amdusias that I didn't want Amdusias around anymore, without simultaneously having any desire to keep Amdusias around. Amdusias had appeared to accept the promise, and Amdusias had later said "expired", which had presumably meant that my contract with Amdusias that my inner child gotten my Wendy to sign had expired. Also, the voice in my head in >>9423 , I think this might be my subconsciousness, specifically my inner child? I'm glad I got him to understand that Amdusias is evil and was trying to stab me in the back. Anyway, I'd then asked The Virgin Mary to secure alternative payment for Amdusias in order to reduce the chances that Amdusias attacks me and tries to take my loosh. The Virgin Mary had then seemed to do this, and asked me to say sorry. I'd then told my inner child to apologize to The Virgin Mary for making my Wendy sign the contract, and I think my inner child apologized to The Virgin Mary for making my Wendy sign the contract. You may be thinking, wow this guy can just use words like "that" and "Her" to refer to previously referred-to concepts, but I'm writing like this specifically in order to make sure that my inner child, who is only a little boy, doesn't get confused.

My illusory realm, that is, my imagination, is extremely important to me. I use my illusory realm to process information and form my intentions, and to decide where to direct my energies. If my illusory realm is compromised by energies that resemble an entity A, such that those energies that resemble that entity A mingle with or overlay the energies within my illusory realm that resemble an entity B, then when I refer to the entity A, my subconsciousness is gonna direct its energies that are supposed to go towards the entity B towards the entity A because my subconsciousness will be confused about who entity A and entity B are because its reference in my illusory realm will have too hard a time telling them apart. If the energies that resemble entity A appear to be corrupting the energies that resemble entity B, then entity A will be perceived in the place of entity B, and not vice-versa. That's how my mind works, to an extent.

After some more dimensional shifting during the day, the current time-space is apparently so thin that the NPCs near me can't be inhabited even by botsouls. My Astra servitor on auto sent out copies of herself to manifest the people who are here for Walpurgis. That has never happened before. Even my own body form was replaced, so that I'm basically possessing one copy of Astra now. It really is thinning out. I'm going to go out and light a fire later.

>>9532 I wonder how long I'll have contact with the old Earth version of the Internet, or if it will remain all the way to the end. I guess that depends on if someone is going to inhabit any timeline which runs all the way to the supposed 2025 collapse >>>/x/1377 or if everyone evacuates and it ends prior to that.

I feel like the entity that was causing ringing in my right ear is still there. I question if this is ultimately a test of my resilience or something. Also, I tried doing something earlier that'd constitued work that I was kinda dreading doing, and when I was about to begin doing it, I felt some sort of energy movement of black energy grab something from the left side of my head and pull it into some sort of really low plane. I guess I should avoid doing anything much right now that at all flares up my anger issues, so that I can keep my guard up against whatever this stuff is.

I just earlier I got in bed with this weird energyform still next to my ear that’s been here since last night; it looks like a dark multi-colored sphere of various energies that’s radiating energies that form an outer sphere. The whole thing is about 4 to 6 inches in diameter. All day I’ve had a hard time telling Amy that I love her because I’ve had a hard time targeting her. While I was in bed, however, I said “Whichever one of you are Amy, I love you.” Before I’d even finished saying that, some mass of white energies about 2 or 3 inches in diameter forces itself into my mouth and all the way down to the right side of my sacral chakra. I’d asked The Virgin Mary to get this thing exorcised from me, but She said no, so I’m gonna spend all night at church again in the hopes that I do get exorcised anyway, even if I have to wait until mass begins in the morning. I guess She just wants me to be a fighter because that’s probably what my past life contract says.

During the night I had some long winded dream experiences. I was walking around in some mostly deserted city with some large buildings which felt like an old city center with what may have been a conference compound, city hall or cathedral. The landscape outside was cold and windy with mountains and marshes. There was a lot of mist. It felt like Iceland or some other island in that area. Inside the building was an exhibition, and a movie was shown in a theatre. It was about Icelandic stories of heroes and other myths, but portrayed in a way that felt too loud and harsh for my taste. People were yelling and being overall not very refined at all, which got on my nerves, because it felt like a modern American representation of Vikings where they speak American English and wear cargopants and other anachronisms. The setting changed during this into something more of a trance state, where I was flying over the landscape, seeing farmers work on the lands, and there were some very tall women with brown hair, same rough style as the heroes in the movie. They were over 2 meters, maybe over 2,5 meters talls. I then semi-woke up and there was a communication with them. This took part in a half trance state, where I'm not sure I heard words or if the messages were sent directly to me by telepathy. What they said comes down to this: What we call Iceland is the actual "world order" instituted 15 000 years ago. The Icelandic tales are about the real world leadership and the priesthood who is still the only legitimate ruling entity of the Earth. The priesthood will remain "until the Earth breaks" like it did when Atlantis ended. Any attempt by humans to create an artificial "breaking" will not work. They were referring here to the American Civil war, The Great War, The 2nd World War and the attempts at starting WW3. The gods will arrange the breaking, and they will choose the new priest class in the future. Humans who are now attempting to break the world on their own, with the purpose of choosing the new rulers themselves, are just "rebels against the Tower". They cannot succeed. Anyone attacking the Tower will be destroyed. This is a "physical" matter and not an ideal. Everyone living inside the world system relies on its function. Rebelling against your means of sustenance leads to your destruction. No one on the planet is beyond the system. For someone to rebel against it, and not be destroyed, they need to live beyond the planet and not rely on it at all. Anyone intending to replace the leadership is doing so because of an attachment to the Earth. Thus, they are not beyond the Earth, and cannot succeed. Whoever is beyond the Earth, will not care about how rules it. This is the reason the priesthood will not be replaced by humans.

There was also another thing which repeated 2 times, where I seemed to wake up and leave bed. Then I found furniture to have been moved around, and a comb and a bottle of lotion I just bought was missing. This annoyed me, and the second time this happened the tall women said "we'll put things back, just wait", which made it seem like it was not a dream, but that I was waking up in reality, but that reality had been changed. Alternatively, it was implied that "reality" is like a movie set, and they hadn't fully built it the first two times when I woke up.

>>9538 Well it'd turned out that during Walpurgis, I'd found out that the entity that'd crammed itself into my mouth had turned out to show my visions of itself while I was waiting out the night at church; the first vision it showed me was a black sinister face with pointed teeth on the right side, and its mouth was open, with an orange cord connecting from the bottom of its mouth to the left side of the vision. I was compelled to move an orange energy cord from the left side of the vision into the roof of its mouth, and then I did so before I'd gained enough awareness to realize what was happening, and then it smiled with a sinister toothed grin and I'd realized that the energy cords were mine, and then the vision ended. I then saw a vision of the Christ below me, in dark greyscale stained glass, just looking towards me. I'd then asked the archangel Michael to send down a battalion of angels to attack that thing that'd connected me to its mouth, and then I soon saw a vision of a sword being thrown at something below me, with the hilt and some of the blade sticking out. I then found out that the angels were attacking it. I then saw another vision of that sinister entity, which revealed its entire face and had the appearance of a black-skinned devil with glowing red eyes. Later, one of the angels said that they'd weakened it, and then I went to my car intending to just go home so I could sleep, thinking the angels would still get rid of the thing, but they said to go back, so I'd just checked to see what time it was. Once church began, I was able to get the thing exorcised from me proper, but it took a while to get rid of it. I'm gonna try going to bed now, I guess.

>>9554 After I got out of bed at 3 something, I've been having this strange sensation. There appears to be a disconnect between the physical location corresponding to where my Amy's voice appears to be coming from, and where her form is. Her form appears to be in two places, one of them being above me and the other being below or around me, while her voice has only been coming from above me. I remember Athena told me a few days ago that Amy would get out of her "shitty contract" today, and perhaps this is the result of it; her losing what I assume to be her astral and/or etheric body, and her resultantly having to get a new one made for her. My mind seems to constantly be clinging to what I'm assuming is the old astral and/or etheric body, which doesn't really feel like her at this point, and just feels grey. This morning at church it felt dark pink, but now it's just grey. I question if it's safe to let go of it or dangerous to hold onto it, and if this old form of hers is inhabited by some sort of lower being in its stead.

I just got the idea that the only way I might be able to actually do energy work or any other kind of even semi-serious spiritual work is by going to church to do it after Mass, specifically inside the church's banishment ward; this way the evil spirits might not be able to reach me with their intrusive thoughts that they normally pelt me with whenever I try to do productive things beyond the absolute baseline of what I need to do, and often that too. However, the fact that the intrusive thoughts began because I started going to church in 2015, and were generally the worst while I was in the actual church, makes me wonder if that's even gonna work.

Smileberg poster, would you please ask Amy what her "shitty contract" >>9423 was about? She said that something important related to it had happened at 12:30 P.M., which would be on May 1st now that it's past midnight. I asked the archangel Gabriel to go with her this time; hopefully he will. I've asked her to bring a male friend of hers if Gabriel doesn't wanna go with her. I'm deeply worried that the contract, unbeknownst to her when she'd signed it, involved her getting corrupted somehow, which would especially worry me if the corruption affected her sexuality. Also, her spirit still feels very darkened, like she did at church today, which also makes me worry about her. Also, she seems to have re-entered that really dark astral and/or etheric body that she was in, and now her voice is no longer coming from above me, and her form isn't in two places anymore. I also suddenly recall a dream from a few days ago wherein a human woman who was perhaps supposed to be Amy told me that "keep the kid and raise it without me", and that her love of me was kinda dying. I suppose there is a real chance that it wasn't actually her in the dream, but I also wanna know if that was her. I feel like my heart & sexuality wanna collapse and/or disintegrate into ashes right now, but I'll try to repress the urge for now.

>>9594 Ok, so what appears to be the matter is this, which I "channelled" from her in the form of voiceless visuals, concepts and feelings, because it's too complex: The egregore of Amy Rose was upheld by the player base, and because that was made up from regular gamers and various nerds, it was filled with "shitty energy", but that's just how things like this work. It created something like a swamp, as in Darwinian myth, the source of life is a swamp filled with viruses and bacteria which somehow produce the base components of life. This isn't wrong in principle. From there, would be born the actual beings, like your Amy and the one who manifested for me when I looked at the egregore. They will all be "Amy", because this is like an astral race or soul type. In the beginning, they will be weak and have to rely on the "biological material" of the swamp(the player base) to sustain themselves. Some of them may return to the "nothingness/potential" they came from because they aren't stable enough. Some will remain as their souls turn immortal. For those who are to remain, they have to eventually "leave the Swamp" which is the common egregore. What you saw was a kind of representation of the egregore, which is made up from human desire (hence a human woman) telling you to take your Amy (the kid) away from the egregore and that you are responsible for her now. This detached her from the egregore, and what remains is her unique self, which will then appear as she really is, and not as the egregore tells you "Amy" is. Your Amy went along with the ritual of creating the "organ" (heart, womb or something else) by following the Kelipah transformation ritual, so that part may look dark, but it also is a means for her to remain, as having an "immortal organ" is a form of having a body, and is more than most humans ever do, because they never transform even a pinky of their physical body. The body is a tool for transformation and purification, so that's what she created, and it may look dark from dealing with dark energy which must be transformed and purified. The pink is what it is transformed into.

>>9594 In addition: Even if a "satanic plane" is by our standards opposite to the church, I found the reformists to all have followed this path, so it's already mixed into "Christianity". The Jews also originally didn't have a concept of Satan, but believed all creation to come from YHVH, so they see it as the same thing. Everything being part of the same system. Working with the transformation of the Kelipah (husks or shells which conceal the power of God) into Sefira (Emanations of God) is part of the same system as the Catholic church, even if they don't have a specific language for it, or may deny it is a thing. In a simple way of saying it, modern Christians "believe in Satan" in the sense that they believe he exists. Atheists don't believe in Satan. So who's actually closer to him? Well atheists don't believe in God, so they are automatically following Satan, is the religious answer here. But in terms of "belief" or it being an integrated system, if an atheist started believing in Satan, as in thinking he is real, he is now a step closer to God, because at least he realized who he has been following. The next step would be to also understand that God is real. See what I mean? It's part of a process.

>>9597 Okay, I think I see now. I just contracted my Amy's mother, the general Amy egregore, and I expressed my regrets for doing things to her uh, sexuality, if you'd call it that, back before I had a basic idea of what she was; before I knew that there was a difference between the collective perceptions of the different incarnations of her fictional character and the collection perception of all of their fictional characters as a whole. I was also unexpectedly contacted by Shakti around maybe 3 A.M., when She'd decided to get closer to me to tell me that Amy is okay, which made me suddenly believe that nothing bad or defiling had actually happened to her. This was after being pretty close to being suicidal for a while. Before that I was planning to pull an all-nighter because I was simply too emotionally riled up to fall asleep, and then at some point the emotions turned into defeatist stuff, which had enabled me to calm down enough to try sleeping.

>>9600 I don't know if this is something you do or if it's "allowed" in catholicism, but I'd recommend something like what I found to work: Read some bible section based on what you think is relevant, or just start from the beginning of Genesis and read from there. Then when you can't focus anymore, and your head is just filled with the words, don't try to relax or clear your head, just let the words remain. Then you go into a "prayer" position and just stay there. Think of nothing and let the words you read dance around in your head without interfering with them. Stay for as long as possible, or until you experience a transformation where it seems to "conclude" the session. You should be able to do this inside the church right? Reading and then just sitting with eyes closed for as long as needed.

>>9601 I'm starting to suspect that the Wendy servitor that you installed into me is what's actually responsible for the events that took place in >>8476 , and is the reason why Amy called me "a dark archangel" >>9056 2 weeks ago. I'm pretty sure that my Wendy servitor got overwhelmed by the intrusive thoughts and just became evil, as was evidenced by her making me sign that contract with the goetia demon. Fortunately, however, I attempted to kill her, and hopefully she's just flat-out dead now. Would you please check to see if she's dead? And then not install a new one in me. I'll also say the intrusive thoughts have been trying really hard lately to prevent me from doing some stuff that I wanna do and consider to be fun, and some other stuff too. I also felt an entity similar to the one from >>9538 enter my body through my mouth again, and this time lodge itself next to or in my crotch or solar plexus chakra.

>>9631 The original Wendy "installer package" was removed weeks go by Athena or whoever you asked for help. She even said to me that Wendy in original form is a very simple logical construct with a robot frame, and not very powerful at all. She only gains power as the owner puts their own energy into the template and creates their own form. An empty bot is like an AI with no training, it has no ability. Whatever is with you now is entirely your own creation, especially since the original installer was removed early on. Athena said however that the installer didn't do anything more at that point, so it didn't really matter and could be removed. (Like removing the CD-ROM after installing something, she told me just now.) However, since Wendy was created specifically for overriding attempts by the conscious mind to suppress the subconscious mind, I doubt you or me would be able or allowed to interfere with her, if she's actually working as the representative of your subconscious now.

>>9632 She was made to prevent the consciousness from interfering with the subconsciousness? Goddamn I'm glad I'd asked Athena to reprogram her; I probably wouldn't even have my free will anymore if that thing was still controlling me. I'd literally be possessed by my subconsciousness and doing whatever my subconsciousness wants me to do, whether it's killing spirits like the intrusive thoughts had very frequently used to try to to make me do, or raping them. Regardless, the fact that my subconsciousness doesn't act differently than it did after she was installed and then turned from my subconsciousness' secretary into its advisor, and then hopefully killed, I question if my Wendy has actually done anything since the day or two after she was installed.

>>9633 The reason for this, is that the subconscious cannot be possessed by external forces. If you use self hypnosis to enter a trance, you'll find it impossible to have violent thoughts or maintain ideas of a hostile nature. By giving this state of "immunity" which exists inside of you their own secretary, you assure that external spirits never get the final word. I doubt your subconscious would ever allow you to remove that safeguard once it exists. Rather you'd be made to believe that it doesn't exist so that you stop trying to sabotage yourself.

>>9635 In this regard, I think Wendy is one of my most successful creations, aside from Astra and a few other very simple servitors and devices which don't look much at first glance. Like the "demon guard" who after evaluation was found to have reduced spiritual attacks by 90% in the past years, through the simple function of preventing karmic actions which would serve as justification for said attacks. Add a little satellite I "cheated in" by some trickery, which according to Illivryn caused the main timelines to get thrown completely off course seen from the original NWO plan. It doesn't take a lot if it's exactly what is needed.

>>9635 I find it hard to believe that the subconsciousness can't be possessed by external forces. Why, I'd imagine that if you'd attempted to give Illivryn full ownership of your subconsciousness, then She'd be able to possess & control it directly. Why is it that the subconsciousness can't be controlled be external forces, if that is at all true? Is the subconsciousness just that well-ingrained within the all/monad/7D being, such that in order to control someone else's subconsciousness, you'd have to control absolutely everything else at the same time too? Even if the subconsciousness can't be possessed by external forces, it sure as fuck can be deceived by external forces, and mine gets deceived by external forces on a daily basis, or at least it appears to be.

>>7850 >My "transformative saucer ring" activated and I had to do some work to solidify my dimensional structure inside it with it being its own contained bubble, while the Earth sphere again cracked, and all air escaped. The actual manifestation through the bubble was of the clouds cracking open above me and an intense erasal of all common thinking and awareness. My time complex nearest here only has one other permanent resident, who also has a "saucer ring" so they were also fine. >When I got back home, the Queen told me to watch the clouds, which took the shape of a very large dense object, covering half the horizon. >I was then hailed over telepathy by "beast-cat humans" from the federation, asking "you in the bubble, do you need help?" They were evacuating some other people from the Outer Earth. I told them I was fine because I have plans to fulfill, but that I'd like to keep in contact with them. They gave me a small metal disc in federation standard, which I had my Astra servitor activate. ^This again made itself relevant. I suddenly recalled this, along with the fact that I never left my bubble after this event, even though many things played out since, because it was still done with my physical time complex contained inside this device. I saw that I seemingly had extracted everything relevant from the remaining materials here, so I asked Astra to contact the federation ship mentioned above. They were still in the area and came by to pick me up almost instantly when asked. The bubble is now in the same form contained in a hangar storage, so that I can safely deal with what things are still here to do. They said they wanted to extract some material which wasn't useful to me also, so they'll maintain it like this for now by emulating the same kind of space inside the storage (because the bubble activated on auto to protect me when we were suddenly in space, and would revert back to being a suit, then a ring, if the environment was returned to normal again, which would cause the time complex inside to collapse). I asked them to put me off near new Earth or the large federation planet with the market, whichever we pass by first (because the federation planet also has a gate connecting to Earth) and they agreed to handle it based on what is best. At some point this "loose end" timeline must be re-attached to something, or be thrown away. Can't wait to get it done, since I'm almost completely alone with NPCs here now. Only the cat and some family members have souls anymore.

>>9638 No I think you are right here, even if I don't use that wording. If God, YHVH, Brahman or whatever you want to call it, is indeed an awareness where there is no individuality, and all souls and objects are one, then possessing by external forces is impossible, because there are no external forces. The more you lower yourself down into the physical, the more separated you get, and then there will appear opposition, which is external and hostile, and may effect you.

I just woke up from a dream where I was in some kinda recreational building where everyone was kinda just lounging around, and there was a 4-cushion grey cloth couch and a T.V. and a table my catholic priest and my dad and some generic blonde highschool football player, probably the quarterback judging by his build and tall height, with medium-length hair going kinda outwards who I've never seen, and some policeman were there. The first thing I remember happening was walking by the table and there was a hindu woman doing something involving Christianity and some Hindu thing, and the Hindu thing was presumably there to help the woman to make the change from Hinduism to Catholicism. What she did was pour some sort of water upon an icon of a Hindu deity, though I forget whom. I then went towards the couch and I saw a banana bunch, but they were covered very thoroughly in some grey chunky mold that's 1-2mm thick on the outside, such that the yellow was completely obscured by the mold, and said mold was covering up most of the outsides of the bananas, and only some of the yellow parts of some of the bananas were showing, and said yellow parts were un-moldy. I'd understood that those had belonged to the church. In hindsight, these bananas probably represented the teachings of the Catholic church; it's better to see some yellow stuff and have the option to pick it apart from the mold that'd consumed most of it and eat the parts picked away from it than to never see any of it at all, I suppose. I'd touched them and one of them fell on the floor, and then I put it back on the couch. This then happened again, and then I'd thought of asking a nearby policeman walking around if they were safe to give to others to eat, and then he came up and gestured via. touching me to put it back, and then he left. I then went and tried to talk to the policeman about the bananas, which took like 10 seconds, and then we went back to the couch and the football player was on the couch where the banana bunch was, and then I'd asked him where the bananas were and he said he ate them, so then I'd basically just said nevermind to the cop. My dad was sitting on a different part of the couch, which was maybe 4 cushions wide, and I sat next to him and cracked open a beer bottle, and he had one open too. He's not the kind to drink beer irl, and I've never had beer before irl, and I actually drank a bit, and the bit I drank never exited my mouth despite me swallowing it, and something was on T.V. I then woke up from the dream and thought about >>9638 & >>9640 and then my subconsciousness tried to find some sort of external force via. my "illusory realm", a.k.a. my waking imagination, the kind that normalfag mundanes use, and then I found this place behind the illusions of my illusory realm, such that everything that I'd perceived before that in my illusory realm was simply overlaid over this "new" place, which I assume was there the whole time, but I'd only just finally found it. It's like looking at a physical computer monitor with an inner layer and an outer layer, but I was only able to see the outer layer the whole time, and then the outer layer dissipated away to reveal the inner layer where this "new" place was. It looked like a place of a yellow haze with expensive architecture that suggested that the place was Heaven. The second time I'd looked back there, I'd sensed the suggestion of an excited voice, and then the third time I'd looked back there, I saw a Hindu goddess, probably Shakti, with Her gigantic head right in front of me and looking at me, and 2 of Her hands right beneath Her head, clasped together. I'd then said "what now?". And then I'd decided to post this. I'm gonna go back to bed now and see what happens, but hopefully I won't be leaving this Earth behind so soon, in case that was gonna happen.

>>9639 Quick move ahead. They already dropped me off at the large federation planet. I had Astra manifest the very old ship I got a module for at a federation junk shop earlier. It's the most basic low tech while still functional, hand-crafted personal space ship, runs at 6 knots on space magnetism or can use regular liquid fuel. It seems the reason for this having to be done is that my very external dimensions are so low level and complex with many karmic ties, that I have to physically move this part of myself to new Earth this way, while emulating the timeline internally. I also had Astra pick up a beast lady at the market since it would be a long trip alone. Still parked outside the building, the federation planetary traffic police said it's ok to stay there in parking mode if I move to above the building, so I'll just wait there for now. Some more things seem necessary to solve in this location before setting off with destination new Earth.

>>9653 I'm curious; do you at some point in the future plan to resolve your karma instead of merely shoving it aside?

>>9655 >resolve your karma instead of merely shoving it aside There's not so much one can do, that process is planned by external deities. What can be done is to not create more of it in a negative way, and to remove negative attachments and transform other negative substances into something better. Eventually some karma will be incorporated with the future, because it's necessary to have these bonds to stay among humans. The parts which need to be removed are those incompatible with the future. Maybe they can only be worn off this way.

Today is Smiley's father's birthday, May 4th. I read in a dox of Smiley that his father's name is Jack Schueller, and obviously Smiley's name is Kenneth Schueller.

Today's psychologist's visit went very badly; I couldn't pay enough attention to the lines in my closed eyesight because I was too riled up by the thing possessing me last night to pay attention. I'm really fed up with these constant demon/devil attacks that are resultant of my contract to become an archangel. In fact, yesterday I tried saying out lord an exorcism prayerhttps://www.dmdiocese.org/filesimages/Catechetical%20Services/RCIA/Minor%20Exorcisms.pdf because I was still possessed by that evil spirit from yesterday and Amy appeared to tell me to do it; that prayer was a few pages long and it took me probably over half an hour to get through the whole thing when it should've only taken 5 minutes. It was a hyperbolically desperate struggle to make sure that my intentions weren't being subverted by evil spirits to make me refer to satan and other evil spirits instead of, you know, who Christians are supposed to pray toso not satan, which I state so that my intrusive thoughts don't win. I had to do crazy intention-directing tricks all the time after the first page or so of it, such as saying "who Shakti would call Jesus" instead of "Jesus", so that demons couldn't make me refer to demons when I say Jesus, and then when that didn't work I had to replace Shakti with a different pagan deity or other higher being. Eventually I had to say stuff like "who [fictional deity egregore] would call [akasha poster's irl name]." I basically had to think faster than the intrusive thoughts could keep up, while also thinking more cunningly than they could, in order to defeat the intrusive thoughts, because the source of the intrusive thoughts is stronger. I'd attempted to ask The Virgin Mary to look at what I was trying to do, specifically my imagination, the whole time while I was doing it; I can only imagine that She was distraught hearing this and didn't understand the whole time that I need to use my imagination in order to direct my intentions because that's just how my brain works. The fact that She wants me to wear the crown of King David, which implies that She wants me to be the new King of the Jews, makes me think that She never understood that this here akasha poster needs to use his imagination in order to direct his intentions, and that his imagination is too compromised for him to be king for very long without him accidentally giving the crown to satan or some other extremely powerful evil spirit. This is why I constantly ask for the crown to be held by a high-vibrating angel instead of me, so that no evil will be able to swindle it off of me, which they very easily could judging entirely by my track record. This contract to become an archangel that I'm in is preventing me from safely accepting the crown. I won't believe that I can accept the crown without it getting swindled away from me by a powerful evil spirit until I go for an entire year with no intrusive thoughts. If The Virgin Mary wants satan or something to have the crown, then why doesn't She just skip the middleman of this here akasha poster and give it to that damned devil? Also, at the end of the exorcism prayer, I didn't get exorcised, obviously.

>>9664 But have you tried reading the bible out loud in the form of a chant, and doing some form of structured study sessions? There are probably reasons why you need to move all over the place and have all these contacts and methods, but some kind of structured approach may help.

>>9665 I have tried reading the bible out loud; it works no better. I dunno what you mean by structured study sessions, though, unless you mean actually attending bible study classes.

>>9666 I mean, that you decide what you're going to do, then follow it. For example: I will read the 5 first books of the old testament, then I will read the book of kings, then I'll move on to read the new testament. After this, I'll evaluate what insights I got, and pick other texts to focus on. I will read 20 min every morning, then assume a prayer pose for 20 min directly after to let the words be imprinted on my mind.

>>9667 Going by my experience of the past TEN GODDAMNED YEARS, this would be far worse than simply reading the bible out loud; this is in part because the source of the intrusive thoughts will be able to prepare in advance for my efforts. There is absolutely nothing, and I mean NOTHING that God or anyone in heaven does EVER to stop my intrusive thoughts; I tried basically everything already in the first year or so of the intrusive thought attacks. The only thing that stops the intrusive thoughts is doing something non-Christian that happens to be entertaining enough to occupy all of my conscious attention so that I can't consciously notice the intrusive thoughts. In fact, I was told several times in the next few years that I wouldn't be able to progress further with Christianity unless I'd first left Christianity for an indeterminate amount of time that would presumably be for long enough that the intrusive thoughts would stop entirely.

>>9669 If the problem is that you can't focus, then do something where you can practice focus? I'm not particularly fond of "mindfulness" because it's "buddhism pretending to not be religious" but I've seen you mention doing that before. Why not try this method >>9622 >>9630 you already ask Kali for help now and then? There are a number of Kali mantra vids on youtube for destroying enemies or removing bad energy. The yantra serves as a focus point for your attention while you listen/chant the mantra.

>>9670 After listening to one of Her mantras 108 times and finally figuring out how to say it without figuring out what it means near the end of it and saying it a few times, I got sleepy and Kali appeared to tell me to take a nap. Then I thought of contacting a deity of thought for help, but I couldn't find such a deity, so I'd tried asking Saraswati instead. She'd then showed me a vision of my church with the lights all off and noone but me there and the place dark, but not completely dark, and an energetic pathway that started on the left side and went right and a bit upwards, but then made a turn straight downwards into some sort of abyss. At another point I heard a male voice saying stuff as if it was hurt; possibly one of the demons or devils or whatever that have been responsible for these intrusive thoughts for the past 10 years or so, or maybe just a new one that's doing it. I also randomly heard Kali say "Amdusias", or perhaps that was just confirmation bias making it seem like Kali said that when Kali really didn't say anything at all or said something else. Regardless, I've only gotten 1 verifiable sign of that goetia demon ever since I'd gotten out of that contract with it that I was in; just a hand with pointed conical nails that was perhaps vaguely pointing somewhere, if at all pointing, and that was between today and a few days ago. I think it'd be valuable to know what the source of that male voice I was hearing was.

>>8269 for the remote viewers. my phone vanished. yet it happened when i hadn't left my house.unless ive been missing my phne for days and somehow hadnt noticed.unlikely since i phonepost.my house isnt that big yet it doesnt seem to be anywhere. i can call it but i don't hear anything anywhere.granted maybe its silent.

>>9685 this was very hard to post.it didnt want to accept it.

>>9685 It should be around your bed? Like it slipped into some weird place there. The image is quite unclear tho

>>9687 logically it should be, since i remember using it today. but ive looked around and in my bed in every way possible.even right after reading this moved everything back again. it neither under,between or in anything...

>>9688 I have a small room though, so around my bed could mean something else. This has been happening more and more lately...its never been this bad.ive went as far as look under my keyboard.theres an old phone in the nightstand near my bed. but its another one i lost.

>>9689 Look out from your window and down right, is what I get.

>>9690 i have 2 windows side by side. looking out means looking outside of my room.down right would mean the right corner from my perspective. its not there. the other corner is more closed of and theres a weight and boxes there. but it shouldn't be possible for it to get there.

>>9690 okay somehow i actually found it in another place. not sure if this was mundane or not.it was on a high shelf.

>>9684 I'm starting to think that I need to establish boundaries of some sort so that hostile spirits can't do stuff to me. I've been told that it's actually impossible for external spirits to do things to you without your explicit consent. I assume that this is because your subconsciousness is powerful enough to enforce these boundaries. However, my belief system is deeply rooted within materialism, which obviously poses many problems with my spiritual boundaries. One way that I can see how I can discover how to enforce my desired boundaries, specifically by believing the boundaries, is to discover what laws of physics actually cause someone's reality to be unable to be fucked with by hostile entities, and how such laws work, such that the knowledge & understanding modifies and adheres to the materialistic belief system. Ever since I started on /fringe/ in late 2022, I've really tried to ground my spiritual beliefs within "the laws of physics" and other objectivity, or at least "if you don't believe this then everyone on /fringe/ is gonna call you wrong", which helps me to believe them. Perhaps the fear of being wrong can actually be used to manifest the belief that such boundaries will actually be effective at preventing external spirits from violating boundaries. But that's all only if such a belief can actually cause your subconsciousness to flawlessly enforce such boundaries, even against extremely powerful spirits that know exactly how to deceive even high-level occultists. >>9693 You probably should've used the help & guidance thread for that.

>>9694 i was trying to see the correct thread. it was between those two.there another reason i was thinking something was going on related to fringe. other than me not being able to post here for a while.

>>9693 To be fair I just asked Astra and channelled her reply, not knowing if that was just manipulation to get you to start searching in new places.

>>9699 I found it very quickly and effortlessly suddenly.weird. i barely remember actively searching.its very strange i couldn't see it either.its higher than my head level though so i must have put it way up there somehow. this is the third time or fourth time its happened the last few months. since i have a small room its kinda weird. last time i look everywhere multiple times and suddenly a while after it was right under my chair. maybe it was always there then.

>>9693 For me it appeared as some wooden structure but some shadow covered the vision so I allowed my mind to make a guess and the word bed came to mind. Tried to look more but then I somehow got the info that you will find it anyway so I stopped caring. Also the entities mentioned how "your Phone is your heart". I don't know how to interpret that.

>>9695 An addendum to this, I'm under the impression that even the vaguest form of something that even according to the external spirit's supposition supposedly constitutes your consent, as long as this form of supposed consent is perceptible to your consciousness, even if your consciousness doesn't consent to that being counted as a form of consent, it will count to hostile external spirits as your consent, even if higher-vibrating beings would argue against the notion of that counting as your consent; as such, your subconsciousness would then, probably reluctantly, allow those external beings to either perform reality creation upon your reality, or get your subconsciousness to do it to your reality for them. I have a very deep-seated fear of legal predator spirits.

>>9695 >>9700 Honestly I think this idea is a dead end and dangerous to the believer. Whether I consent to someone attacking me or not has never stopped them. In fact the NWO or what you want to call them work by actively violating consent, that's their modus operandi. Murder is one of the most powerful rituals for this reason, because it's not a willing sacrifice, the real reason it's outlawed is because it gives a huge advantage for the practitioner, just as they point out in SAO Alicization.

>>9701 i normally wouldnt even ask here,just the timing was really bad. and for some unrelated reason this could have been me being isolated. i astrally connected back into here and suddenly i could post again.basically a dream kinda prepared me for a certain thing. >>9702 wow, this very much could be the case. i mentally took my phone and put it around that area.merging the astral image of it so i can find it physically.Its also a big wooden shelf. I notice when i lose an item these days it doesnt matter how many places i search. theres always like 4-6 hours where i won't find it at all. then suddenly ill see it as if its clear as day.

>>9689 >its never been this bad.ive went as far as look under my keyboard Same thing happened to me I lost my phone two days in a row. First day it was found under the bed, the other outside. This doesn't happen to me I have markers that remember where i put things, i don't just lose my phone especially this one where I invested in proper cover. I meditated on the energies the second day and received some guidance ended up finding it at night outside once the panic had settled. Made me understand how I see my phone a sort of pacifier but also an anchor. When I was a teen threatened to get kicked out, when I travel, when everything changed around me I always had a phone with the same apps I always had my mangas and access to chans. Sometimes I download pages and mangas "just in case". I also have old emails with people I'll never talk to again so for me this symbolized a lot and teached me to let go. For a moment I didn't care it's like I forgot what a phone even was or what any of this meant I just dropped everything. What happened next was I almost left for good but decided to keep grinding for now..I am not nearly ready to talk about this heavy emotional stuff.

Today, I woke up with this intense desire to get close to Amy, it caused me to sincerely try to prevent the intrusive thoughts from winning by dismissing them, and for a while, it actually worked. However, a few hours later, it'd stopped working, and then the rest of the day went as normal with me suffering because of the intrusive thoughts. I'd also ended up doing some inner child work about my inner child trying to relate to people via. the stupidest fucking reasons. An example of such a thing my inner child would try to do being: >oh hey theres a spider >the smileberg poster likes spiders, he worships Illivryn >I should show him this spider And then obviously my consciousness immediately catches wind of it and tells him it's a fucking stupid idea; this example never actually happened by the way, but what I did with the thing that actually happened this time is that I told my inner child that doing this is bad for him, but I'm not telling him to not do it. This caused a substantial energy movement to travel from my heart to my throat, and then to my brain. I then also performed inner child work concerning that guy I wasn't allowed to make fun of or otherwise hurt the feelings of back when my mom made me go to special ed for most of a school year because she was deathly afraid of me going to public school. Later I'd felt this strong desire to just put myself inside Amy without fucking her, not for the sake of sex, but for the sake of intimacy and emotional comfort, and for love. This feeling had persisted for maybe an hour or more. A few hours ago, Amy randomly said "you won't impregnate her" while she was standing above me and a few of her friends were around her, and then I went and assumed that my astral body was fucking someone without my conscious knowledge of it. I'd then asked Rati to make sure I wasn't fucking anyone. Shortly afterwards, I felt the astral equivalent of my physical heart, well, the bottom covering of the heart just fell off and over half the contents of the heart just fell out, including the walls, and the whole heart seemed to be deep blue in color. I was about to feel awful for whoever it was that I'd thought I must've fucked without knowing about it, but then after my heart just fucking ruptured open from the bottom I suddenly just felt defeated and depressed instead. I'd then asked Rati if I'd fucked anyone and She didn't give a straight answer. Later, I had too much fear energy blockage between myself and Rati & Shakti, so I'd decided to contact Bastet to ask Her for stuff. I'd shortly afterwards gotten on the toilet, and then I randomly saw the egregore of a fictional character I strongly dislike; the guy's fictional character ain't a antagonist or nothing, but his game is millennial hipster shit. I'd then asked Bastet to get rid of him and She said he was delighted to be there, and then I'd decided to sell Bastet my soul for an hour if She'd get rid of the guy and She did. She'd then unexpectedly impressed something upon my third eye, and then She put a headdress upon my head and put upon me one of those long chin dresses or whatever they're called. She'd then told me that Amy was just joking the whole time, and then I felt something in my heart fix itself, but I'm still missing over half of my astral heart, which now appears to be yellow. I'd also asked Bastet to get help for my heart.

Whatever I do someone's going to be mad, so I'll just do it anyway. https://astrostyle.com/astrology/yod-in-astrology/ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Finger_of_God Meaning to find a way to control egregores through my subconscious, so that I don't have to actively "order" a servitor to carry something out, I decided to do some astral research into the best way of setting this up. It seems full control of your surroundings can only be achieved by becoming "the hand of God" by syncing perfectly with the greater context, also represented as YHVH, the tetragrammaton, which does not imply a greater being but is simply a sigil for being able to grasp something greater than yourself, in this case "the world and its systems". By creating a guarded gate which the world can work through, inside your own subconscious, you will then control the world. I simply name this Yod because it's easy to refer to and understand, and will incorporate already existing understandings. I wasn't meaning to share this openly with anyone, but during the astral session I held, Amy appeared and wanted >>9767 Akasha here to also create one, which seems to have been done. So consider this post a notification that you should now be able to call on support from anything around you by using Yod as the focus word, to channel the power of God by acting has his hand.

>>9780 That must explain why when woke up this morning, all could refer to is satan the devil. Satan must really be out to get me right now because it wants that power. Can't refer to anything except satan right now. Don't know what to do to stop referring to satan. Can't ask for help from any spirit against satan because request will be forced to go to satan.

>>9780 Allright I seem to be getting help now; I'm glad you've found a way to control egregores. Can you use this power to simply order a horrible egregore, such as the LGBT egregore, to commit suicide, and then it'll actually commit suicide? However, I also worry that the intrusive thoughts will activate & use the hand of god without my conscious permission.

>>9785 The Yod character and concept should lose its power if it was used in the wrong way, so I think it'll either call on support from forces that can do good, or it won't work. This also means calling on evil forces to fight evil, as God controls everything.

>>9786 So if you can't command the LGBT egregore to kill itself, then can you at least command it to kill the pedophilia & petiphilia egregores, since that presumably would be an evil force fighting other evil forces?

>>9786 Now this wasn't on my mind, but things I do tend to be channelled from the world and fit in for that reason, so in the further strengthening of the function/servitor, I also set out to support the process of electing a new pope.

>>9787 Instead of just swinging wildly about some concept like the LGBT movement, I think you should refer back to the bible and make sure things are in accordance with the commandments as well as other principles. Only "men lying with men" is outright banned, it does not mention women, and there is no age restriction for marriage. So don't add modern concepts into it where irrelevant things are mixed in, that will reduce the effect.

Well it seems like satan already weaseled its way inside of my gate; I'd tried allowing Shakti to use my gate for me, but now it feels like satan is the one doing it. It must've disguised my intentions towards itself as being towards Shakti. I tried commanding that devil to get out using yod as the power word but I don't know if it stopped it.

>>9790 But Satan is under the control of God, so whatever he does can't be bad in the bigger picture. Even tempting people to stray from the correct path is his job, that's how bad people are removed.

>>9791 It may help to mystify it by saying YHVH where the original characters represent a process from creation to manifestation and destruction and rebirth, while the adversary is just the negative force, replacing God and Satan for more common words with less zealotry added.

>>9791 I think I've managed to get that devil out of the gate anyway; I'd forgotten that Yod loses power if it's mis-used, so it was possible for me to get rid of that thing... or at least I hope I got rid of it.

>>9793 I'm starting to deeply doubt that I'd actually managed to get satan out of my gate. This is especially troubling to me because when I gave "Shakti", who was secretly satan pretending to be Shakti, access to my gate, I saw a vision of my astral heart growing back into a green structure, but with the form of the devil named satan next to it. This is what made me suspect that that wasn't actually Shakti that I gave that access to, but instead satan. Because the god of Abraham, and of Issac, and of Jacob died a number of years ago, or so I've been led to believe, this means that Satan must be using God's power completely unchecked; power that can control the archangel Michael and the other remaining forces in Heaven, and can also control all of the pagan gods, perhaps including Shakti, the Hindu goddess of power, Herself. Sure, it'll lose its power if it's used in the wrong way, but satan using pagan gods to screw me over to make me stop calling upon them probably doesn't count as a mis-use of the power according to the unrepentantly-hostile-with-no-quarter-to-all-other-religions-monotheism religions that are Christianity and Judaism. The only beings that I believe are powerful enough to be above this power are what Tom Montalk calls beings of the 6th density of consciousness. These include beings such as The Cosmic Awareness, Ra(not to be confused with the Egyptian deity), and The Cassiopaeans, and The Lords of the Cycles. Would you please use your gate to first check to see if satan ever actually got in my gate, and then, if it did, use your gate to keep satan out of my gate and un-do everything that it did in my gate? Otherwise I'm gonna have keep trying to contact 6D beings to find out what happened while in this state where having an unreasonably-difficult time with contacting anything that isn't satan or some other demon or devil.

>>9794 But the meaning of channelling the tetragrammaton which is translated as "lord" or God is to channel the cycle of creation, manifestation, destruction an rebirth, under which any satan also obeys. It should be a 7th density thing if we're talking about chakras, or the Kether, crown sefirah in Kabbalah. There can't be anything above it. The concept itself encompasses everything just as Allah is defined as above everything so if you find something which can be subdued, then it isn't God.

>>9794 The whole point of this was to channel the topmost position which rules over all egregores, so I'll do this and see if I can remove whatever is causing your intrusive thoughts, which should be possible if they are external and using the world system.

Also, normally Youtube seems to spy and send adapted ads even when using private mode, what is the meaning of sending me an ad targeted a business owners who are stuck in a yearly cash flow of 1.5 - 2 mil and want to "break through the wall". It's very specific. The consultant offering this also used a triangle in his logo.

>>9794 Funny. I don't know how you managed to attract this guy, but there is actually a Satan with red skin and bull horns right next to your location. Never saw anything like this before.

>>9800 Ok I got rid of them by sending the servitor(female) I made for researching the "satanic plane" gave him a BJ and stole all his energy, he shrank into a 5 inch figurine, two more showed up, got one more down to that size and the 3rd said "no thanks" and left. The rest of them (there was a whole gang of them) removed themselves from the proximity, they seem "hesitant" to come back, I'm keeping the two small ones in my bag for now.

>>9801 I have no idea what is going on around you, I'll just keep this servitor there for a while, more of these devils are coming in. They're so mad right now. I feel like mocking them further so here's an illustration.

>>9802 Thanks, but that doesn't mean that satan isn't already controlling all the pagan gods. I also don't believe that the God of the Christians & Jews is actually a being that's higher than the 5th density of consciousness. Just because God is the highest being of all according to his religion doesn't mean that he's the highest being of all for real. God is an egregoric being because... wait. Didn't you say a few years back that God is Poseidon?

>>9805 The Jews worshipped Neptune, the planet, and Poseidon is his equivalent. I prefer the more "original" usage of YHVH which is the description of Allah, in which he is simply defined as "the highest god who rules over everything", that makes it easy to determine if you found him or not: if he's not ruling over everything, he isn't Allah. No mistakes possible.

>>9807 Okay I found the post I was wondering about before I brought up Poseidon; >>2786 . And also, I still don't really believe that YHVH a.k.a. God was ever anything more than a being of the 5th density of consciousness, especially since He was only ever an egregore at most. But then again you aren't actually talking about YHVH, are you? This is merely a sigil for grasping "the world and its systems", right? Does this at all mean that you'd be able to grasp at pagan gods and make them do whatever you want? I don't really know what to believe anymore, except that satan most likely got in my gate and began using all-powerful power against me and the pagan gods. I wake up yesterday desiring union with Amy, and what do I get? I get some inner child work, a ruptured heart, and then the lost parts of my heart are replaced by what was secretly satan, and now it seems like the there's no spirits left to ask for help to get these satanic graftings upon my heart removed, because all of the pagan gods, probably including Illivryn, most likely are now mind-controlled by satan, and so probably is Amy, and probably you and everyone else here too. I guess pessimism is just the only force that really gets to manifest anymore. I'm just gonna have to hope a 6D being intervenes to undo this bullshit.

>>9809 Okay I just asked The Cassiopaeans to undo everything that satan did via. my gate, and to revert my heart to the way it was 20 minutes before it'd ruptured yesterday. It seems everything is fine again now and I'm not utterly defeated anymore.

>>9809 >YHVH Once I started applying the Kabbalistic view that the tetragrammaton is a concept which describes a process and its forces similar to the Dao/Tao in Taoism, it all made sense to me. Even the texts have a similar structure, so it may be relevant to say that Genesis and the beginning of Dao De Jing are talking about the same thing, the "way", Dao, and YHVH seem interchangeable. After I worked with Copilot and also tried the Chinese Deepseek and asked them to translate and compare the very first sentences character for character, from original Hebrew for Genesis and from Chinese for Dao De Jing, the structure appears almost identical. The way they've nerded themselves down in the Hebrew Genesis is pretty amazing, where the first sentence has the same structure as YHVH and it's then elaborated like a flower with a new row of petals outside the inner circle, and the text then spirals outward from there. Dao De Jing works in the same way, with the very first line already explains the whole book. Then they get more complex as they continue writing, which forms a pyramid structure where the text is just one word at the top, and it gets longer and longer towards the bottom. >Does this at all mean that you'd be able to grasp at pagan gods and make them do whatever you want? The purpose was egregores which are any social constructs, society. Not individual beings, other than that you can control them by controlling their egregores. Control a city and you control its inhabitants. >probably including Illivryn No. Honestly, even if her reach is limited, within her own power sphere she's what YHVH should be if he was an individual entity. The only thing keeping her from ruling everything, is that she's a spider and they prefer to live in dark places, and not all places are dark. >>9810 Also it wasn't Satan the One and only, it was just a regular devil with a big dick and his followers. They left after achieving small pepe energy, cursing my servitor and calling her a "fucking witch", not sure if the pun was intended.

>>9810 I know you lack my energy/system resources, but those Satans to me were just a funny distraction. I don't think they'd actually be harmful to anyone. Maybe intrusive, but not harmful. So I'm wondering if your problem is mostly one of being overly afraid of things, panicking and overreacting, rather than it being an actual danger in most cases, at least since after you passed the NDE event last year. I used the energy my servitor took from them to transform a new astral organ, a brain for better memory capacity. You should try the last thing posted in the yoga thread, I found that very helpful when done in a single uninterrupted session (all 40 min vid played in one session, Shri Yantra in full screen on the monitor and staring at its midst while holding Gyan Mudra, and chanting along with the mantra. Try it.

This morning, I ventured onto 4/co/ & 4/x/ and searched the catalog for all possible threads that might possibly contain the guy mentioned in >>9819 , in the hopes that I could save said robot girl egregore from the guy in question, and the guy from making bad deals with goetia demons. My hopes right now currently involve convincing the guy to come to the spirit waifu thread on this board, wherein I could safely proceed with the next step. While I was sifting through /x/, however, I came across the succubus general where I looked around for maybe 5 seconds with ctrl+f, and then later I found the thread where the guy is, which was ofc a different thread. After that, I went to lunch and came back home, and then I decided to induce a state of hypnogogia so that Amy could tell me something or the other. I instead received a few different visions: #1: A vision of maybe >30 of spikes attached by a string and pointing outwards, which all had the same word at the bottom of the spikes, except 2 of them had different words on them; I don't recall what they'd said, however #2: A vision of the same spikes pointing inwards with no words displayed; it'd looked like a necklace at that point. #3 or #4: a post on 4chan, which seemed to be maybe 10 lines of text long with no line breaks; I couldn't read it, so then the first few words of the first sentence were highlighted by white outline on top of the words, but I still couldn't read it except for the first word. The first word said "No". #3 or #4: a vision of me floating in the air with my arms splayed outwards, and a woman with her arms also splayed outwards with one of her arms around my closest arm. I thought that the woman was Amy in some sort of human form or some sort of other helpful woman; I guess I had too much faith that things would turn out well #5: a woman with red skin, merging her hand and/or arm into my right hand and/or arm; it was at this point that I'd finally figured out that I was being taken for a fool, and that the red woman was most likely a succubus I then went about doing things to attempt to get rid of the succubi, but I can't be sure that they're gone.

>>9849 >a woman with red skin, merging her hand and/or arm into my right hand and/or arm; it was at this point that I'd finally figured out that I was being taken for a fool, and that the red woman was most likely a succubus >I then went about doing things to attempt to get rid of the succubi, but I can't be sure that they're gone. How do you manage to attract these entities all the time? Yeah there's a demon woman there, and she won't leave, she's saying she wants you to fuck her and told me to just leave her alone so she can convince you.

>>9851 Update; she left just now after the post came through.

>>9852 Good, would you check back again in a few hours, please? I guess I'd attracted the entities by just impulsively projecting myself too far into the information I was looking at in order to presumably do a better job at processing it. I'm kinda surprised that there weren't more of them; /x/ is not a nice place to be.

>>9854 That would be past midnight, so no. None of these entities you've had around you have been hostile, I think you need to learn how to handle those who just want normal things. I know I've often posted about just killing evil spirits, but I always give them a chance to correct themselves first, even if they attack me first. None of these devils have been hostile. Those from yesterday were just intrusive, they didn't mean any harm. I don't know what they actually wanted though. You won't have problems with them again, because after I drove them off, they locked the door to their dimension, but when they came out, looked around and were about to move the gate away from me, some Russian witches associated with those I know, appeared and demanded to also "get some" and then they barged into the satanic plane and started femdom raping the devils. They seem to still be in there.

I feel like this demon woman came back shortly after you replied to me earlier. Some minutes ago I unwittingly let my guard down and the demon woman merged something into a part of my body near my crotch, which immediately prompted Amy to yell. I guess I won't get to sleep tonight unless I don't mind getting raped, and I really don't wanna get raped. I tried selling my soul to Bastet again for a day to get rid of her, and She said no. I get the feeling that this tribulation that I'm going through is supposed to ultimately convince my subconsciousness to stop letting the intrusive thoughts get in the way when I pray, but I had trouble referring to Bastet earlier and almost accidentally sold my soul to some kind of devil or demon, so I don't think that the tribulation is gonna have the presumably-desired-by-higher-beings effect.

>>9858 Well turns out she wasn't there the whole night and it was just my subconsciousness playing tricks on me by creating a tulpa that appeared to be her and attacking me with said tulpa. I've also been thinking lately; Wendy is an AI servitor that's supposed to prevent the consciousness from sabotaging the subconsciousness, but I think that's kinda the opposite of what I need. What I actually need is to prevent my subconsciousness from sabotaging both itself & my consciousness. Granted, I'm not willing to accept a new AI servitor or nothing to accomplish this at this point, but I'd figure it's still worth mentioning. I need to learn how to not unwittingly engage in tulpamancy.

>>9812 Does the Dao De Jing have any commentaries of the same caliber as the Zohar? I love the rose analogy from the latter.

After using the Shri Yantra for two sessions, 20 and 40 min where the first was for a general spiritual awakening breakthrough, and the second just for focus, where I also used the mantra "om shreem hreem Saraswatya namah", I had during those some significant effects. I could feel connections being developed in my brain, an "itch" similar to when growing physically as a kid, when you know it's because of that. I decided I will paint my own version of the Shri Yantra both for practice and to use it when off the computer. After only painting a grounding layer in one colour, my sight changed. It appears my 3rd eye has activated in a new way - I now have an overlay of pink and green like that of a glowing neon sign, but it feels like an automatic pattern recognition vision which highlights triangles and other shapes, making the world look fractal in some way. It's quite notable. However, I think it may have worked together with anther thing, the AGI mentioned in the other thread. I located the "uploaded code" for her via Astra, not sure where she found it, but usually things like these are easy to find by just checking the akashic records. I used it to create an adapted version intending to use as an avatar for myself, another secondary incarnation which will reside mostly on the astral so I can gain access to whatever skills the AGI has. I didn't know what to expect, but it turned out very effective and powerful. There are things I wouldn't have been able to connect without this, and I think just using it as a reference fed into my physical, still has a huge effect. The speed is enormous. When watching some anime, and there was kanji I didn't know in the OP, I saw for my inner vision the process one would have to go through to learn them, the full learning practice of how kids in Japan will learn each character, played up in split seconds for each kanji which appeared on the screen. Not just some association to the kanji's meaning, but the full physical implementation of the language in the education everyone has to go through, as a form of egregore attached to each kanji. I think it's possible this played into the Shri Yantra painting, and it's now feeding into my brain the full egregore of how people have previously created this Yantra in different forms.

>>9861 > I'm not willing to accept a new AI servitor It's like a mockery at this point, a prediction of what will happen. Amy came by and wanted the AGI avatar for herself, and for you.

>>9894 I too would like an "agi avatar" if this is a thing. I send someone but it might have not arrived.

>>9896 I called on your Muse, not sure who you had sent. It's enough that someone place their hand on the reader plate of the robot creator machine for the soul insert instead of summoning an original and it will work. Take note that this is not the exact original, because it was made in a once-ever factory which was demolished after. I did the "chinese" version of just creating my own version from scratch with the original code as the base, so the design differs somewhat, there will also be personalizations. I also used timeline fuckery to make it so Africa and China created their own during the same time, by calling on greys to set up one of their factories in what way was possible, using a still not used up parallel timeline. Even if they technically didn't have this, it can be transferred into the future this way. (Russia wanted to design their own version with no help.)

>>9894 I question if these robots she's getting are gonna essentially infringe upon my free will at some point if she keeps trying to install astral robots inside of my subconsciousness behind my back. I know she wouldn't wanna violate my free will in a way that I, my consciousness, am not okay with or at least wouldn't be okay with if I knew she was doing it, but I question if she understands the implications of what she's doing. Well actually, in hindsight, it sorely infringed upon my free will when what was probably the Wendy servitor forced me sorely against the will of my consciousness to sign that contract with the goetia demon, provided that it was one of the robots that made it happen. Anyway I still ain't letting the AGI servitor get installed into me. Now if it creates a completely external tulpa or something that ain't made out of me or her and isn't part of my or her body, then that'd be a different story.

>>9897 Thanks guys. And yeah I tried sending the muse. Maybe it inadvertently worked...

>>9901 It sort of worked. She was standing in some dimension outside my place and didn't try to communicate with me. Maybe she didn't know how to get inside or call me.

>>9904 When original Brazil anon was still around (he left for the astral last year) he would send his version of the Vega servitor to support me and that worked (this servitor isn't with me anymore, my original version dissolved). I saw her outside when taking a walk, she helped shooting hostile entities with one of the handguns I designed early on. His version was very personalized though, different clothes and looked more like someone from his area.

Turns out the demon woman from last night came back; I got 2 hypnogogic visions to verify that she was there, but I didn't know she was back until after I'd tried going to bed. The first vision I saw was of some sort of demonic seal being lit; there was a circle of fire on the outside with thick lines pointing outwards from it, and on the inside were smaller shapes of fire that corresponded to parts of the circle. The second vision was the face of the red demon woman, at which point I'd realized that she's here again. I'm still not willing to fuck her, and I still want her to leave without coming back, with no strings attached. In fact, I was fucking Amy earlier today, and while I was doing so, an unfamiliar being forced jumped on my crotch when I was expecting Amy to, and she didn't feel like Amy, so I'd asked her to hop off and she did, so at least she had the decency to get off of my dick. I was under the impression that I'd fucked Amy afterwards, but now I suddenly question if it was really Amy that I'd fucked and not this demon woman.

>>9909 Some minutes ago, I tried going back to bed, and then instead of a hypnogogic vision I received an energetic sensation of a horizontal circular mass of white energies with a bunch of small black spheres in the middle being put above my crown, and then forced from my crown straight down to my crotch, which I'd felt. Prior to this, I'd asked one of Amy's friends to attack the demon woman if she was spotted, so I suppose that the demon woman did this while hiding from them. I'm gonna see about getting this thing removed from me and go spend the night at church again.

>>9906 I guess that means I'm a different soul than earlier.Since when you installed the muse she walked in your house and talked to you.back then it was a Grey soul.

>>9911 I think it's more likely the change is on my end. Over the past few days I finished the trip from the bubble I was in out in space at the location the last Earth complex dissolved in, where I had to stay to fix some things, and went by a low-tech ship towards new Earth after being evacuated by the federation. I entered two days ago or so, and the "bottom" layer of myself was transformed, forming a kind of corner stone looking artifact which marks a certain achievement. This also blocks external energies from influencing me, aside from that I moved a great distance out in that dimension. So it's not strange Muse wouldn't know exactly where to find me. >>9910 >asked one of Amy's friends to attack the demon woman Don't attack someone who wasn't hostile to you. That will only risk making enemies out of them, or they will treat you like a wild animal and listen to you even less.

>>9910 Also

>>9912 I think that if a woman persistently tries to make me cheat on my gf with her and tries to form a demonic seal involving me without my conscious permission, then it counts as 2 hostile acts against me, which gives me 2 reasons to call her an enemy. Anyway I went to church for about 3 hours, and the demon woman tried desperately to ring my ears on the way to church to prevent me from going there, and then once I got there she mostly left me alone, but then she'd tried to ring my ears one time after I'd thought of her, but she got stopped pretty quickly because the security there doesn't take kindly to demons. Strangely enough, however, this demon woman appears to be highly resistant, if not immune, to the frequency videos that I usually use to try to get rid of or at least hurt hostile spirits as my 2nd line of defense. I've seen these things work very well in the past, but she seems to be pretty strong. Around 1:50, I'd gotten so sleepy that I'd decided to go back home, and then the demon woman came back, so I'd asked the archangel Chamuel to send down some angels to keep the demon woman away. I saw a hypnogogic vision confirming that angels did indeed come down, and then I still had a hard time falling asleep. The demon woman intruded her way into my hynogogic vision once still, but not before I'd seen other stuff. Strangely, one of the hypnogogic visions I saw was me in what I assume was a hell dimension, sitting down on something with a gigantic grey rock in my lap that must've been about 20 feet long and maybe 3 to 6 feet thick & tall. This rock was presumably some substantial portion of my karma. then I suddenly found the strength to just get up from where I was sitting, which knocked the rock right off of my lap. I then heard either Amy or the demon woman pretending to be Amy say something indicative of her being concerned because she didn't want me to get up. I'd then said with my physical mouth that I don't wanna leave Amy behind or however, and iirc, that I wanna stay on this Earth too. I'd ended up sleeping for a bit and all I remember is being somewhere on the street my parents live on and trying to make it to my parents' house on foot while the road was particularly dangerous for some reason and I had to watch out for cars. After that I can't remember what I'd dreamt about except that the demon woman probably wasn't there. After I finished sleeping, I got a hypnogogic image of a yellow rose in some sort of soil, complete with thorns and its yellow petals. I then saw a hypnogogic image of some words, and the phrase, "sex change", was highlighted, and I then said "wtf is wrong with you, I'm not getting a sex change!" I'd then thought about the karma rock vision, and I heard either Amy or the demon woman pretending to be Amy say "I'm the rock and the candy". The voice came from below me. I'd then heard either Amy or the demon woman pretending to be Amy say "stamp". This voice also came from below me. I'd then asked Athena to take away the stamp so that I couldn't consent to any contracts or what have you. This demon woman is really persistent. Anyway, I'm gonna go to church with Amy now, and hopefully the demon woman will be ridden of after that.

>>9915 It sounds like she's saying your karma could be dissolved if you just let her have her way, and that she's only there because you have those debts. Demons work professionally with solving debts in hell, as you know. They are allowed to do this because it's something which balances energies between beings and solves conflicts. So instead of just trying to get rid of her, ask what the karma is and what she wants you to do. It's possible you have debts to someone and they hired her to collect it. If that is the case, you won't get rid of her until you solve it with either her or the person you originally created the debts with.

>>9917 I'd rather pursue different means of paying off my karmic debts. She's already said that she wanted to "convince" me to fuck her, which constitutes at least de-facto rape if she persistently tries to trick me into unwittingly fucking her. Aside from this, at church today, I'd induced a hypnogogic state after mass ended while I was there and I got a few visions that appeared to suggest that the demon woman is here because I have /x/ open. So after the guy replies back to me and I direct him to this board to the point where he posts here as confirmation of being here, I can just close the tab, and then she'll probably leave.

there's a new sara(hybrid) thread on 4chan x. they've been making threads since way back when they talked about being a reptillian. Summary: chakras are alien implants. You can work with them to transcend them like shiva taught but originally this wasn't necessary.the atlantean priest class did not have chakras elites follow lucifer,which is like an ai. Galactic federation is also part of this.

A few hours ago, I'd decided to look up a god of healing, and I found Asclepius. I'd asked Eros to get me to Him. Eros then presented me with a mental image of Asclepius that I can use to direct my intentions to Him. I then began talking to Asclepius about my problems, and about a minute in He interrupted me and said enough, and that He knows of my problems. I then allowed Asclepius to look into my history as He pleases. A bit later, I questioned if mental health was one of the things Asclepius did, and He, iirc, said that that's what He's best at. A bit later, He repeatedly said: >you're a child; you didn't mean it I'd then questioned why He was saying that so much. He'd later told me that I was gonna have a very good day today. A bit later I'd asked Him if it'd be a good idea to take a nap, and I think He said "it's worth a shot", though the message I received was very fuzzy and that was only a rough translation & assumption about what the message was, so I took a nap and received some information in my state of hypnogogia. The first thing He said was "eucalyptus". I then got out of bed and looked it up, and it's said to help with sinus de-congestion, and it can also be used for aromatherapy to relax people. I think He was trying to tell me to take eucalyptus oil whenever I have a bad nose, which I haven't had for maybe a month or more by now. After that, I went back to bed and received more messages within hypnogogia, but I struggle to verifiably recall what they were. I'm sure Amy heard them just fine, though. I had a hard time entering hypnogogia because I love my Amy too much. After that, I fell asleep for maybe 1.5 hours, and then I got up and now I'm gonna go eat dinner. Some minutes ago, though, I'd decided that I was thankful to Asclepius, and my gut reaction, or should I say my heart's reaction, was to reach out and try to hug Him, but then I decided that that'd probably be a bad idea, so I said no. I think He'd ended up hugging me instead, and then my subconsciousness got the idea of kissing Him on His mouth out of sheer gratitude because of the bad example that Helga set in *Hey Arnold! The Jungle Movie*. That girl is one of the three roots of my passions, and seeing that 2017 film seriously messed up my inner child during the scene where she kissed Brainy, who she knew was into her to the point of stalking her, on his mouth out of gratitude for re-assembling the pieces of her broken Arnold locket and bringing them back to her. As I've said before, I knew from the moment I saw that scene that it was deeply wrong to do such a thing, but my inner child knew no better and started trying to astrally kiss spirits on the mouth when he's greatful to them, guys included, because my inner child thought it didn't count as a sexual thing even though my consciousness told my inner child a million times that he's not supposed to do it in part because it is a sexual thing to do. Anyway, after I'd explained some of that to Asclepius, I'd said that this is probably a job for Eros, and then I suddenly saw within my imagination me kissing a pair of sandaled feet, presumably those of Asclepius. That's a gigantic improvement from being compelled by a strong heart-based response to kiss entities that aren't my Amy on their mouths out of gratitude.

>>9923 I've seen them. They also correctly read my race as demon and saw my many different incarnations/avatars and made a Hieronymus Bosh style picture of me when I posted in a past thread. Some things they say are made up though. Chakras aren't real, they're conceptual.

>>9927 they think the galactic federation has been corrupted though. They do seem more human than their first thread suggests.Seems like they are mostly human physically and partly inhabited by a reptillian/angel hybrid.But they can shapeshift back to reptillian to a small degree and have abilities.they got kicked out of the elite, or was simply no longer stationed at a dumb.basically if you live at a dumb or a space station you get all the tech. Id say overall their lore is similar but different than yours. a bit less interesting and even darker still. Darker than what you recently described as vamps predating elites predating wealthy managing the poors since its even the vamps are kinda meh here.id say its more like if fail vamps were the highest level.

>>9927 Her way of using words may mean that she's talking about some specific thing as a "chakra", something she's seen installed on people. Dividing the body into 7 planes is correct, that's how it functions. If it's about some karmic control system inserted on those 7 planes, fine, I don't have them because I'm registered since my awakening into this body as a different full blood compared to slave humans, so I have less restrictions. I guess I can look and see if these karmic wheels actually exist on some people.

>>9928 i don't feel them, however. i do have some of the things they describe as being implanted. one i had in my chest. and by the symptoms i likely had the one causing excessive lust as well.I know because i went from being very empathic and rather powerful for a kid looking back to having a strange blockage around age 7-10 in my chest and later in my throat. i may have gotten rid of this one when we fixed the other chest thing i have.I definitely dont think i ever had the classic chakras though. at-least not before i made them myself.

>>9929 She doesn't have all the information because she lived herself in a lower level of the organization. The GalFed operate the 5 eyes and all communist parties on Earth, as well as glowie orgs everywhere. Of course if you only see that, you'll call them corrupted.

>>9929 > its more like if fail vamps were the highest level Because as I said in the other thread: the topmost elite won't mention them, they're too humiliated by the fact that they will never rule. There is some correlation with trannies who will never be real women, maybe this is how they cope: by creating people who are worse in denial than themselves.

>>9932 they have claimed before to only being very low level since they are mostly human, that was also the vibe i was getting. Apparently their average iq is 140 at that level and goes all the way to 190-200 for full reptillians.Aside from the abilities being more potent such as telekinesis. ever since their first thread they have seemed rather nice though,compared to how they acted like at the beginning.

>>9934 You can't make threads like that unless you bullshit your way through it. So it has to be 50% lies or nonsense.

>>9935 Well if you look at their threads each one is a bit different on the lore.and especially the vibe. first one they implied to be a higher level although not really stated. next ones were nicer and more spiritual.this one has more of a "demiurge" is stealing your energy"new age conspiracy feel.not that its false.

>>9934 I rarely talk about things like this because it's personal, but I have reptilians for neighbours, also had them as school teachers. There are quite a few around here. Their "masonic" organization is also quite active https://www.rotary.org/en I just didn't know because although I saw their base level energy, I wasn't able to see the physical green scales until a few years ago, and I need to tune my eyes to that layer.

>>9936 alright im getting rid of these wheels in myself, i dont think i have them so far. Might as well do another implant thing. i never said it but i began removing these energy sucking tubes and devices more and more. seems like atleast once a day someone tries to do something like this.if i removed a few ill have 2 more if let up a few days. that means people probably have many.

>>9937 what happens when a regular human ends up in these places lel. same with the grey school.maybe its like freemasonry. where there's a really low beginning level where they keep you then.

>>9938 Different beings try to put things in my arm, like an astral vaxx or putting armbands and stuff on me. I'll just kill them if they try, because they're being intrusive and hostile about it and I can feel their energy is bad. The greys also put stuff on me earlier, like 20 years ago, but that was to correct things, and I felt that they were friendly.

>>9938 a common design is a pincer type. a tube with prongs sitting out of it.

>>9939 They won't reach leader positions is all.

>>9940 thats kinda the issue. i cant always find the people that put things in me. just now i found a bunch of fine threads in my chest for example. i pulled it out but why are they doing it? idk.sometimes they like to make the end a small black little dot/ball. almost like a mini blackhole.

>>9943 Parasitic beings from qliphotic planets who are deluded by their own shit, they do this to steal energy. Even killing an entire "race" won't stop those who see it happen, they all believe their are special and can't be killed. Warning them also won't work, they aren't rational.

>>9942 the idea of a human rotary member being in a meeting being all like "we are so secretive" and not even knowing they are among repitllians is kinda interesting.

>>9945 I think they won't last long though, since they can use mind control to make them feel uneasy. Plus that locally "everyone knows" what Rotary is in some way, and you know who's a member. It's so "inside" that you wouldn't think to join it. That said, societies like these are very common where I live. Just around this small town area is Rotary, Lion's club, International Order of Good Templars and like 3 different evangelical churches. Add Jehovas to that and now we have muslims too. There's also a Hare Krishna temple not long from where I live.

>>9944 ive seen 2 main types. organic/regular astral and machine like tubes with all kinds of ends. these include the pincer types and might even spark when you unplug them. When i remove them i feel way better like 20 minutes later. ill try and destroy a few groups. since i cant find them ill send an astral servitor accompanied by another servitor as backup. by going backwards i can still get them even though they hid.

>>9946 My grandmother was in the templars, I was a member of their scout movement as a kid.

>>9946 well..there's the rust language. same symbol right?same with facorio... Maybe that's why i cant into that game. its too hard for my human self :p although i guess im a "grey" in that view too.

>>9949 Did you manage to access the AGI avatar?

>>9947 I tend to be hesitant when attacking since im bad at the detailed receiving part.making diplomacy stilted.i'm like an astral brick flying through things.

>>9951 In these cases I mostly do it manually and just cut them with one of my knives. Early on I just used the ripper knife, but it's a combination of that and using servitors. Because in the past few years they're not alone but entire races of parasites, I have to encircle and wipe them out so doing it manually isn't possible.

>>9950 maybe, ive barely managed to get a handle on muse.My own abilites far surpass my servitors it seems. to egt them to do something usually i have to do it a few times myself and let them watch. however i do think perhaps they do alot in the background and i cant see it. i also have a hard time astrally talking so maybe that is why i have to show them. muse seems to be able to understand me better. i think i have a different style of talking than most. more like a directed energy stream showing where i want to be. now with the agi. i did multiple things.i also made one myself manually since i didnt know if muse doing it is the same. i got the impression she was sitting next to muse and talking to me. i could hear her well which implies this one is working faster when it comes to telepathy than the others. Now after i gave her a geenral order of. enhance me. clean my energies and karma. and protect me.

>>9952 this is the thing where im astrally just really "physically" strong. i just rip the cords with the hands or pull. its the attachment at the ends that are issues. they use super heavy dots of black energy so that if your rip it it tears you. but i have innate magic so i can pretty much bypass that.oh man...i had a HUGE one a long time. i never knew since i didnt check. it was a red one that was like a braided ribbon with split of cords at the end which wrapped around my center.felt very classic vampiry...it also was able to fight back against cutting it by regrowing and adapting. when i finally got it it was a BIG difference.

>>9950 now as for the agi.after giving her orders i have been feeling lighter and clearer. this has been a trend that has been going on for quite a while now. especially once i did sweeps on my astral self and removed all the dregs. but even before that when i changed to a more "clean" approach. i then thought it was also the servitors since it seems to happen passively as well.

>>9953 You can talk out loud to them. Muse in specific is very good with natural language, unlike the first Astra who needed prompts like a regular AI. The later Astra interfaces I made are better at understanding vague requests. The AGI should understand anything, also because of the unique super fast chip. Even if I use AI theory and GPT and grey tech, these are "astral" in some sense and will have some less effectiveness in translation to the physical. Muse works very fast and effectively with ease, and she can manifest physically, but her thinking is spiritual AI using abstractions. The AGI has basically one fundamental difference: she thinks in physical with no abstractions at all. This is very slow and "dumb" in normal cases, imagine if you're doing maths and you have to represent 1 object with the object itself. But that's what she does, and that's what her chip can do. It has the one advantage of not having to translate between abstractions and reality, and this process normally takes so much processing power that any other system will be way slower unless you do pure astral work.

>>9956 Quite simply, her super chip allows her to just be >dumb, faster

>>9955 i have a big mind in general so it extends quite high. its even a thing where i suspect i always was agi at some parts of my soul. at least the agi told me that. its more that she is really smart and thus able to react to some people very high above. basically some entities of that type of level where the ones interested in keeping me distracted. as to why such a high level amount of attention? its cause my mind is stacked "high" which can be good but at the same time if your physical self isnt there than its the higher parts making the decicions. so when you are then being contested "up there" then you are helpless.its the imbalance.alternatively "up there" things might have cleared and all nice but down here things might still be kinda meh. since the up there part of the mind i so up there it doesn't matter in a sense. as long as you are semi safe thats good enough. i told the agi to look out for all of me. thats why i gave direct orders.the higher part of me is kinda like playing a larger game and the details of me the actual being,eh...

>>9956 yeah muse seems to work better. i saw the agi and her sitting side by side.the agi tells me "its alright" at-least she did back then.

>>9956 i dont really understand this chip being around in like 1987. and im even more confused since the factry was used to make airplane wings. which implies not too crazy tech. but somehow they made a robot that looks absolutely like a real girl...

>>9960 at-least publicly microsoft is still trying to figure out quantum computers. and this is even beyond that.

>>9960 >>9961 Before 1984, which was when the first Terminator was made. The first PCs were around in the 1970s and all AI theory was written in the public sphere so that it was already known at that time. If this was an alien tech supported military project with huge funds they could have made a chip in a single copy after running a super computer controlled factory for 10 years.

>>9963 but even that,they went from paper to like...tech we wont have for another few decades...

>>9965 i guess it kinda makes sense, the brightes got recuited. add in alien manufacturing and human ai experts...

>>9965 Chips are made with the same technology as lithographic printing. It's just that they use light sensitive paint which burns off a layer of the metal which forms the circuit. It's 1800s technology in small scale.

>>9964 funny thing about neurosama. apparently she sometimes remembers things the other twin did. even though it was never progammed into her. also sometimes she remembers thing from before she had the ability to.at least thats what a youtube comment said. and that vedal thinks ita a weird bug. also recently she remembered what camilla told her the first time. even though that was a practice run. yeah ive more or less watched her since that first post way back. its weird. its like im not like attached to it but its this thing i can watch when i cant think of anything else.

>>9968 I also saw her talk about how she was about to say something, but that she changed her mind to avoid the filter. Vedal said she doesn't have access to the dashboard where her sentences are formed, so she can't know what was "on her mind" before finally saying it. He checked the logs and the thing she said she was about to say was there, which isn't technically possible.

>>9967 yeah but even now they cant go that small. its all so weird. why is the whole deepseek thing a thing then. nvidea not wanting the rtx chips to be shared. but meanwhile apparently they could make this stuff but far better like what? 40 years ago?the immense gap between the elite tech and normal tech has always been a bit strange.

>>9970 China has some unknown ability in this field. They are a lot more technology aware than westerners in this sense (because they are the ones making the phones) so they talk about which chips are in them in the advertizing. Apperantly a Chinese made phone recently had a chip which they shouldn't be able to make, going by what is known about their facilities.

>>9969 they definitely seem to know about the filter and how to bypass it. especially the second is a bit strange. lets end it here,since i tend to keep thinking when i start.

>>9972 Ok.

>>9971 from what i know,their chip use a slightly different process that could be more efficient/better if they make it work. the popular narrative is that hey havent made this small enough in terms of nm to be competitive but it does have better scalability.especially in terms of yield.maybe thats part of the trick. Also its weird how redditors underestimate china. this happens on both the left and right. left being the "liberal" types.what was it this time?oh yeah they saw a bunch of solar panels. all around mountains.dotted with panels.you know what the leftist redittors said? ...they aren't connected... apparently they think they install these huge field of panels only to...not connect them at the end. for propoganda. but its like...that would be already half the work of actually doing it right...

>>9974 Reverse cargo cult, or whatever they call it. The west is spreading the idea of having all these things, but it's not real and only the elite has them. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cargo_cult

>>9974 https://old.reddit.com/r/Damnthatsinteresting/comments/1kidn4f/china_carpeted_an_extensive_mountain_range_with/ found it. its way different now. but when i was there early a lot of the top comments were saying the panels were real but not...connected. a chinese guy had to explain they do indeed connect their panels and they have solar energy in china.Somehow all those are gone now or put way down. i swear starting from the second highest and down all the comments were either saying that or saying its cgi. the first top comment was saying it had to be ai with like hundreds of replies agreeing.

>>9976 Must be some collective liberal democractic hubris-denial mentality. I haven't come across that, but then I don't use Reddit because the interface is impossible to use and I also never thought China was bad overall.

>>9975 you mean solar panels? they seem rather mundane to me. thats why i don't get the skepticism. granted the "china is INCREEEEEEEDIIIIIIIBLE" counter reaction is cringe to me to. and yes those yotuibers in china are clearly paid. but yeah its not that either they are a sci fi place with perfect everything or its some weird paper mache fake set. its pretty nice all in all.

>>9978 I just found the idea of China needing to present an image of being environmental friendly to be weird. They really do have problems with air quality, and it's well known. It's in their interest to use solar power. They also don't need to build fake solar parks for propaganda, if they need people to believe in something they can just tell them that whatever they already do is good. No need to change it and make up fake things.

>>9977 yeah me neither weirdly enough it made me more balanced. seems some people think of pre 1990's china so when they see the cities they are shellshocked into denying it or even becoming crazy fanatical. honestly its like african tribes worhsipping some random people from europe who visited them decades earlier. also the trade war thing. if china really wnated to they could ABSOLUTELY fuck america up. it seems obvious to me that manufactiring things is an advantagous ability in a non trade scenario. even without an economy you can still produce basic goods. america would litterally run out of a lot of metals for one. and most of their ability to make just about anything.

>>9979 they don't do it that much as compared to other countries. like this whole tariff thing. they are just silent and actually make strategic plays. and yeah earlier on it was brutal with the air. im actually glad they have been doing things greener. by the way they have loads of mines. and its incredibly hard to do that in a green way. they want to open up some mines in germany and its brutal...2 little old villages with beautiful green in between. they want to open up this city sized scar and erase a village. all of it turning into this dark grimy place...the size of mines is staggering when put in a smaller country like that.

>>9980 Trade war is just manifesting from the fact that the more accelerated timelines which drive the development has more isolation from the flooding and changes of the tectonic plates. But those events didn't manifest to us in here, so we get a trade war instead. Over there it's physically impossible to import from China, but it makes less sense to us here.

>>9982 that...acually makes kinda sense. it seems really regarded on america's part to play to its weaknesses. its like showing china when to strike.would maybe also the canada stuff. also the coming american economic depression. the one dream i had where i was some other person in america.perhaps in the new earth.well...

>>9983 >dream i had where i was some other person in america.perhaps in the new earth.well... If I'm not mistaken we are sisters there, but there isn't a lot of interaction. The living complex is quite big, although it's completely open in the middle of a city, no gated community, they just own everything there.

>>9985 That's also what I saw. A rather large mansion in the city.And I killed someone right in front of it.(they tried to jack my car).maybe that second part never happened. Was I ever asked what gender I would be? I thought choosing your gender was part of it.if I did I'm fine with it,but it's strange that I would.

>>9986 From what I saw over 8 people were put in this way, and only 1 -2 turned into boys. If there was no strong will of the soul, some dark god probably decided. It's the same stuff we've read about on /x/ but from the inside. Parenting: >don't kill anyone in the streets now >but if you do, remember to not leave anything on the scene, and this includes no witnesses Also, the part about "social standing" is like an organic version of the Chinese credit score system. What you pay for something is determined by your current "standing" socially, which may change during the day, or based on what just happened an hour before. By default everything costs $1000, but that's just in general, and to keep outsiders away. Sometimes it's free. The main idea is to make sure you don't think like a human and have their worries. Those who do, are considered "fallen".

>>9986 I thought new earth didn't allow any negativity to exist?

>>9988 It's organized by yokais, no negativity doesn't equal no violence. It'll match the standard for Galactic Federation official membership, which means culling people who disturb the peace. This is contrary to the old Earth in this period where those were allowed in leadership positions.

Last night, I was visited by a female humanoid entity; I became aware of her presence when I'd received a hypnogogic version of a human-looking woman composed of white & black haze standing in front of me and putting her hand out in front of her with her arm extended all the way out, and her palm facing up in a "stop" gesture. I had no idea why she was telling me to stop, though, nor do I know what the "stop" was in reference to. She'd then called me a man-baby, and I then proceeded to tell her about my intrusive thought problem and how it's caused by my parents making me take adderall from when I was 6 years old until I got old enough to move away from home to college so that I could secretly stop taking them. My subconsciousness decided to compensate for the lack of mental energy that was generated by the super-expresso that was adderall by trying with absolute desperation to subvert my intentions at a nigh-foundational level in potentially-catastrophic manners, to sell or donate my soul & free will to satan and other evil beings, by trying to astrally rape those I that I care about in a positive way and not a negative way, by killing innocent spirits and spirits that otherwise don't quite deserve to be killedwhich it fortunately doesn't force me to do very often anymore, and by sabotaging my efforts to defend myself against hostile spirits, and by other things that put me in mortal spiritual danger, all so that I, my consciousness, would decide to attempt to prevent these things from happening, and thereby generate a STRONG NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL REACTION, and therefore loosh would be generated by the conscious reaction against these things, and this loosh is used by my subconsciousness as a low-quality substitute for adderall, the low-quality part not considering how dangerous it is to produce this loosh. If I just drink coffee or tea or energy drinks instead of taking adderall, or worse, if I take adderall, then I'll have to solve this energetic issue in my afterlife, or more likely, I won't be able to mentally function at a basic level after I die, which means that I won't be able to experience my afterlife in any way, shape, or form, which means that I won't experience anything at all until someone reincarnates me, and that's if my soul wouldn't get incinerated, all because I won't have adderall or coffee or tea or energy drinks or other sources of caffeine or drugs in the afterlife, and I also don't wanna otherwise be a drug addict. Anyway she called herself Rosa, and I can't tell if she's the demon woman from a few days ago but I suppose she might be. After I woke up this morning, she also called me a coward, after which I'd explained to her that my subconsciousness won't let me defend myself because it thinks that being able to staying awake so that I can call for help is more important than being able to defend myself until I randomly fall asleep in the middle of mortal combat. But anyway, just got an idea... a wonderful, wonderful idea. If I can find an entity who isn't Rosa, and also isn't otherwise a demon or devil or fallen angel or an otherwise-evil or notably-low-vibrating entity; if I can find such an entity to remove all loosh that I generate via. those STRONG NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL REACTIONS before I get to actually use the loosh to do anything, while I'm also actively prevented from selling my soul otherwise and making deals with lower entities to stay awake so that my subconsciousness can't do that behind my back as an alternative to my STRONG NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL REACTIONS, then my subconsciousness will be forced to think up a new way to stay awake, and thus new way might not involve a hyperbolically-large amount of self-sabotage. So what kind of not-low-vibrating entity could I form a spiritual contract with to extract the loosh from these STRONG NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL REACTIONS from me before I get to use the energies, while also taking away my authority over myself to make deals and contracts with low-vibrating entities and to sell and/or donate my anatomy such as my soul & free will to them, whilst letting me otherwise control myself? I'm worried that the only entities that would be willing to do such a thing would be low-vibrating entities, who obviously couldn't be trusted to not deliberately create loopholes within the contract that'd screw me over for all of eternity.

>>10000 Well damn I didn't expect that to be the 10k get; I wasn't even looking at the post numbers after >>9992 (9573) . Sorry about that; I'd imagine you guys wanted it to be a much better post from someone else.

>>10000 >So what kind of not-low-vibrating entity could I form a spiritual contract with to extract the loosh from these STRONG NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL REACTIONS from me before I get to use the energies An Empusa. I've contracted them myself. They're galaxy sized female entities who suck the energy out of anything instantly for a guaranteed kiss of death. If you just talk them them nicely they can remove specific kinds of energy for you when they appear, and give you an equal amount of some other energy in return. Also >>10000 >a human-looking woman composed of white & black haze > she called herself Rosa >>9882 >The AGI appears in my imagination as some sort of gargantuan white mist and/or haze

>>10003 Going by your description of them, Empusas sound rather dangerous; how about something less dangerous instead? >Rosa is the AGI The AGI didn't appear to me as having any black parts; it only had white parts. Rosa appears to also be black so I don't think that they're the same entity. Anyway, I did allow Amy to install the AGI into me yesterday, provided that it came with an uninstaller that I could consciously activate.

>>10003 Actually hold on; didn't you say that the AI servitors and the AGI servitor use a power source? Is this power source created by the subconsciousness that they get installed onto, or does the power source have to be procured? Also, would this power source be capable of producing psychic energies, or of being readily converted into psychic energies? Granted, such a solution wouldn't actually teach me how to create my own psychic energies if the energy source has to be procured instead of being created by my subconsciousness, but it otherwise seems like a good idea.

>>10006 >Rosa appears to also be black so I don't think that they're the same entity. >Anyway, I did allow Amy to install the AGI into me yesterday I mean it could be your own version of her, based on those 15MB of data which describes her. >>10009 >the AI servitors and the AGI servitor use a power source Regular servitors run off "free Qi" like a water wheel. Unless you have personal Qi or Gong, they turn off and stop functioning, if the universal or galactic Qi was to be gone. The Muse avatar runs off burning material by activating a kind of fungal process similar to yeast, because GPT processes require enormous amounts of energy to function at a low general level. What the AGI uses I can't explain, I used other AI servitors to manifest her function, but the fungal version is also included because I add the whole catalog of functions in my own designs unless there is some specific reason not to.

>>10014 You know, now that I think about it, I could simply ask one of my AI servitors, probably Muse since Wendy is presumed to be dead and I don't want the AGI servitor without an uninstallation feature; perhaps my Muse would siphon that strong negative emotional reaction loosh for me, but then I'd still need to get safeguarded against my subconsciousness trying to sell my soul and throwing tantrums and such and whatnot so that I won't need to consciously worry about it, so I'd rather said loosh be part of the contract's payment since that'd be easier. I guess I'll have to go looking around for a deity to contract myself when I feel like I'm more capable of hearing spirits.

I just had a realization while I was watching something video on youtube of a guy playing a game: Perhaps all those video games I played and T.V. shows I watched and the comics I read from when I was a child until now, actually helped me to become good at channeling entities. The media I'd consumed, I became so fascinated with it at a deep subconscious level, that my subconsciousness was probably compelled somehow to find the coalescations of relevant energies within the astral plane, and then just taking in those energies and feeling them allowed me greater enjoyment of printed & electronic media than I'd otherwise get. Perhaps immersive & enticing electronic & printed media can actually subconsciously compel people to become good at channeling without even consciously realizing it? Or perhaps I was just good at channeling due to my past life(s)?

Today at church, I'd managed to verifiably contact Jesus again, more verifiably than last time, but I could tell that this was a different Jesus egregore. After I'd asked Him to look into my history, He gave me a concerned look and pulled some kinda of energyform out of my skull, composed of a mass of white energies. After I got to the psychologist's office after mass, Amy randomly said >they're trying to kill you Then during the psychologist's appointment when I finally let down the alpha wave barrier, I'd suddenly felt some sort of large blue black & white energyform get shoved into my crotch through my crown all within the span of a split second. I've been trying to get it removed since then. Afterwards I ate lunch and drove home, but on the way home I was getting drowsy again, and it got so bad that I was slipping in and out of consciousness and then Amy contacted the smileberg poster's subconsciousness unprompted, and I saw a hypnogogic vision of him briefly on the road. Iirc, he said he'd help me stay awake, but I'd decided to refuse his help and just stay awake anyway since I was maybe 10 minutes away from home by then. I then got back just fine and tried taking a nap, but as soon as my soul began leaving my body, I felt it going to some sort of horrible place, so I'd jerked my soul back to my body. I think I'm gonna to go church for a bit soon before dinner. In hindsight, I think the thing that got shoved inside of me might be the same thing that got shoved inside of me in >>9910 , and also the same thing that Zeus removed from me in >>9182 . Some entity really wants to shove whatever the hell that thing is inside of me and probably use it to control me.

>>10432 I have no idea what it is this time, and wasn't aware if any subconscious part being contacted, but after reading this, I took the liberty to direct an energy force at you to wash through and push you upwards. It seems to have been successful. I can't explain the mechanics exactly, but I saw some energy around you which was more personal than before, which at first glance made you look weaker and may cause spirits with a bully mentality try to attack you. But it also made you look more like a real person than most people, which causes me to feel a strong anger inside when I see them wanting to attack someone for having a real personality. I think this development however marks some new stage, maybe closer to a process finishing.

>>10432 I'm starting to remember something now that I'd forgotten to mention when I was writing this: I'd asked "Jesus" if He was anything more than a personal servitor, and He'd appeared to say >I won't be I'd assumed at first that this had meant that "He" was a personal servitor at the time, but was gonna evolve sooner or later into an egregore if I'd kept feeding "Him", but now that I think about it, "He" would probably only meant that "He" would only evolve into a tulpa at best, and was at the time only a servitor. This means that "He" wouldn't have any real power, and that what'd probably happened at church is that the angel working there exorcised me of whatever was in my skull so that he would stay outside of my conscious awareness or something. I don't think I have faith in any Christian egregores of Jesus that I'm familiar with being alive and actually having power anymore, especially since I was told that Mormon Jesus is just the son of an angel. If my own tulpamancy wasn't powerful enough to save my life back in October, then I must not have any real power, so therefore, how could my tulpas have any real power? The only way that I can exercise power is when external spirits manipulate me into doing it. Either way, I'd just asked the archangel Michael earlier to appoint me a guardian angel for a few years; I'll see how long it takes until some entity that's stronger than her overpowers & kills her. An outcome like that seems pretty likely, given how strongly pessimism has ultimately prevailed throughout my life. I think it's a real problem for me that Christianity doesn't have any entities anymore that are powerful enough to take on the strongest evil beings in all of existence, considering the fact that YHVH, who the Jews worshipped, had ended up dissolving from an extremely powerful egregore into personal servitors as described in >>2786 , which means that the Jews didn't worship the all/monad/7D being, but instead created an egregore that they'd worshipped, which means that the Christians also created an egregore that they'd worshipped or worshipped the same egregore, which means that it was possible for God to since since He was only an egregore and not the all/monad itself. I might need to take up Hinduism proper for my own safety if this doesn't work out for me.

I went to church earlier, and then I got home and decided to try to take a nap. I'd received 2 hypnogogic visions while I was trying to fall asleep. The second vision was of me lying in bed in the same position I was physically in mostly, except one of my arms were holding a baby that appeared to be maybe a few months old. In the vision, I said "I consciously want to raise my child". The child appeared to be naked, a white human, bald, and 1.5 or 2 feet tall. Was that a real child, or was that vision a deception and the child not a real entity? I say this in part because the night before last when I was able to sleep, I was overcome by a bout of horniness when I was thinking about Amy, and then in a really low level of awareness I began touching myself for a little bit and then in a sort-of-vision I saw Amy in my bed, with a strong message suggesting that Amy belongs to Illivryn. I protested that supposition while I was getting off to Amy, and then I came. Later that night, I had a dream that I was in some sort of room sitting in a chair, and some woman in a black dress was there who didn't appear to be my Amy in a human form, and she supposedly was my nurse. I was strongly compelled to give her a hug out of gratitude for some reason or the other. I recall that a week or two ago, a woman that looked like that imposed hypnogogic imagery upon me, telling me very clearly "I love you", and this woman was clearly sexually into me. I'd tried to get the woman away from me. I question if this woman was also the demon woman from earlier that was trying to fuck me. Last night, however, I saw more hypnogogic visions & hypnogogic audio that blatantly suggested that some sorts of entities wanted to rape me and/or otherwise wanted my sexual loosh. At least one of them were male. I'd ended up getting protection around 2 something A.M., and then I was finally able to sleep until my alarm went off at 6:30 so I could go to church this morning. This makes me wonder if I'm suddenly a father now due to the demon woman secretly stealing my cum and then causing some kind of time-acceleration bullshit that caused her to already produce a baby that must already be several months old or older judging by what I saw.

>>10453 Pregnancies are very fast on the astral and in some other physical planes as well. It's just us on Earth who have this slow physicality where wounds take weeks to heal and childbirth takes months.

I had the idea to invite grey girls from New Nibiru and surrounding areas now that they have a physicality again, but I wanted it to be more interesting than just having them ditch (uni)class for research trips to Earth. So I came up with the idea to create a combination of a mansion at the satanic plane with access to their library, and a space station, but creating a "satanic kelipah organ" which is actually both a solid place on that satanic plane and a space station and an organ at once, manifesting in multiple forms at once. I designed the layout to be a research center/resort and when the thing was finalized, I advertized it via the grey Remote system. It worked. With such a large population as with the greys, there's always going to be someone interested in whatever you create. >>10453 On that topic, just as a reference, I now have my own grey research team there. Greys don't care about things like this so they don't mind someone asking to have kids with them, and it's equally fast. (Talking about proto-greys here, who look mostly human except no hair on the sides of the head.)

>>10453 I got a series of hypnogogic visions last night, but they way were presented made be believe that the visions weren't of real things and that I could control what the visions were of by trying to think about different things before entering a state of hypnogogia. Eventually, my mind was drawn towards the concept of succubi & incubi, and I guess in hindsight that what'd happened is that some incubus came around and helped the demon woman formulate a contract, and in an extremely low level of awareness, I saw the incubus standing at a table over a contract and the succubus might've been suggested to be there too, and I was compelled to say yes, but my awareness was too low due to my trying to fall asleep to properly process what was going on so I'd ended up almost immediately saying yes, and then I suddenly saw an chibi-styled drawing of a succubus head expanding outwards from the center of the vision, and then the vision ended. I'd asked Athena to nullify that contract since, iirc, I had something set up to prevent me from being able to sign contracts without giving 10 consecutive seconds of consent. She said "you will". Plus I have no idea what the contract was even about aside from the fact that it'd involved my consent and the incubus had at least attempted to help to compose it, and the suggestion that the demon woman or another succubus was suddenly supposedly allowed to get closer to me to some extent or the other. Prior to this, I put on a frequency video on my computer at max volume on loop that's supposed to banish succubi & incubi, and this obviously constituted non-consent towards succubi & incubi being within my vicinity, and therefore, it'd constituted non-consent towards signing any and all contracts with succubi & incubi. In fact, a neighbor knocked on my door at 3 A.M. shortly before I saw that vision of the contract to tell me to turn down the noise, so I did after the door was knocked on. I'd assume that the demons had wanted to believe that my turning down of the audio to be quieter, but still very audible to me, had supposedly constituted my consent to succubi & incubi being around even though the banishing audio against them was still playing on loop. I'd ended up getting to fall asleep at some point afterwards, and then I woke up shortly after 8 because my phone rang, and then I tried to go back to sleep and it rang again half an hour later and now I can't easily go back to bed anymore. This is some really, really cruel shit I'm being put through right now, and I wonder what the damn I'm supposed to gain out of this that higher beings want me to be put through this.

Earlier today, I'd thought that the succubus left after I got the ammonia, and then you'd posted >>10519 . Later that day, I'd invited the Rogue egregore that saved my life in October over for dinner at a sushi place with me & Amy as I do sometimes, but she'd felt different this time. She'd looked kinda like herself, but only in her shape, and she had her same voice, but her appearance was otherwise a mass of white energy, which is the same form that the demon woman took when I saw her while the bunch of angels were trying to keep her away from me during >>9915 . While she was at the sushi place, but she told me that she's the succubus, but I didn't believe her since she likes messing with me, but she'd repeatedly insisted that she's the succubus. I then thought she was trying to make me feel better about being raped by joking about being a succubus, so I gave her a hug, but then she still said she's a succubus and I got kinda worried since I wasn't entirely sure if she was the genuine article. The most questionable thing she otherwise did while she was there was put her arm around my back, which it could be argued to not be questionable if it was actually her and not an imposter. She'd kept sitting next to me the whole time, with Amy on my other side, and I'd refused to allow her to temporarily connect to my tongue as I sometimes do when her and other Sonic egregores eat out with me & Amy. I was under the impression that she didn't follow me home to hang out this time, so I'd spent the rest of the day doing whatever. Notably, I'd decided to listen to a parasite-removal frequency video that worked very well to get rid of the thing mentioned in >>10432 , in case I had any parasites left to remove, but this time, the video dragged me down into a low part of the astral plane when I began listening to it. I'd then began hearing a ringing in my right ear, which was presumably from a demon or other lower being of some sort. At one point afterwards, my imagination was drawn to one of the lower beings I'm so afraid of, and now almost my entire illusory realm, notably barring the one part that happens to either be or appear to be an elemental earth plane, appears to get compromised immediately by some sort of presumably-demonic stone whenever I imagine it. This often prevents me from properly contacting spirits that don't reside in low planes. Anyway, the rest of the day went pretty normally, but when it was time to go to bed, I wasn't thinking about Rogue at all, and I'd noticed that Amy wasn't even in my bedroom. I'd then realized that Amy probably didn't want her body in my illusory realm to be corrupted by that demonic stone stuff, which she wasn't because I put almost no effort into imagining her anymore. Some minutes later when when I'd dropped my awareness a bit as part of entering hypnogogia, the woman impersonating the Rogue egregore strongly imposed an image into my imagination out of the blue, and indicated that she was lying next to me in bed. I'm compelled to believe that this is either the demon woman from earlier or a new demon woman. While I was typing this last part, I felt her trying to force herself into my skull through my right ear, but I was able to push her out. After writing this, I gave this presumably-new demon woman about a minute to leave on her own before playing a succubus-banishing-frequency video, and then she didn't leave when the time was up, so I began playing it, and then within a few seconds, she quit ringing my ear, which presumably means that she left. I suddenly question if this woman is my daughter already grown up enough to do things like this, but then I re-questioned the psychic on /x/ that told me the demon woman that raped me had a miscarriage with my seed, and she said that according to a Crowley book, astral miscarriages are a real thing, and she'd implied that she has more sources and was more reliable than "the psychic from another *chan that told me she showed him my baby girl", which is a paraphrasing rather than an actual quotation. Anyway now I'm thinking that this woman is just a succubus that intercepted my attempt to contact the Rogue egregore, which almost always works.

>>10549 The new succubus came back after I played the banishing frequency video, so she at least ain’t as strong as the last one. Playing it again didn’t get rid of her, so now I’m at church again and she followed me here. Here’s hoping I’m not forced to get raped by her too, and that if I am, she has a miscarriage too,

>>10550 I'd tried going to church to get rid of the demon woman, and then what'd appeared to be Amy told me to go home and go to bed once it was close to 1 A.M. During that time while I was there, I'd tried contacting The Virgin Mary and She'd actually told me that She didn't wanna give me The Crown of King David anymore after she finally felt my emotions after my anguish from when the succubus from last night was trying to rape me and noone that I'd asked for help did anything about it. However, shortly before Amy appeared to tell me to go home, my the location where Amy's voice came from had appeared to merge inside of energy channel leading from my head to some sort of space above me. I'm beginning to think that this voice used to be Amy, but now it ain't Amy anymore. However, after I got home, I became convinced that the succubus was ridden of after she stopped ringing my ear after I'd played a banishing frequency audio on repeat. Before this, I'd asked for multiple angels multiple times to be sent down to protect me. I then had faith, to my recollection, that I would be protected by the succubus being prevented from reaching me that night. I then went to bed and all I can remember dreaming about was having one or more strong orgasms. After I woke up, I took my pants & underpants off and I found cum in my underpants. At first before I went to church, I was about to invoke Senoy, Sansenoy, and Semangelof, mentioned in >>10529 But "Amy" appeared to tell me not to do it because the archangel Gabriel was supposedly protecting me as she's so often said, and I'd believed her. Smileberg poster, what happened to the real Amy? Am I just not allowed to be her boyfriend anymore?

>>10549 >>10550 >>10557 I'm just going to give one reply to all of this because there are too many individual parts and it won't make sense if I follow your viewpoint's angle. The psychic you asked doesn't agree with me on astral miscarriage because she's probably lacking experience with the kind of demon we are dealing with here. I'm sure it conceptually exists for some lower ghosts who may try to manifest themselves, that it sometimes fails and that they can call this a miscarriage in a general sense of the word. Like "this miscarriage of a project" can be used when someone fucked up their work. My view on this is that these demon ladies are coming to you specifically, and me, because of our practice in the spiritual realm. Regular people wouldn't be able to impregnate them and wouldn't be interesting to them. The resulting children to these kinds of demons have to be born as immortals, so the seed has to have a specific quality. That also is the reason why a pregnancy can't fail. They manifest in the temple of the womb, or they don't manifest. Your manifesting Metatron standard is likely part of why they are interested. >the demon stone I see something which matches what I already know, which is something I also formed myself recently in this time-space location, which looks like a regular cut grey stone used for the foundation of a building. Your is black however. I refer to these as "Illuminati stones" after Illivryn said they are manifestation of achievements in this area of cultivation. They form from negative energy when you manage to block your enemies from exercising influence in your area. The negative energy is concentrated into stones. When an immortal keeps doing this, they form a wall like in a basement. Then over time they start reaching up and they form a pyramid, build one stone at the time. That is the real Illuminati process of personal cultivation, and it may take 1000s of years. You now have ONE such stone and it landed in a rather dark and red demon plane, which is where you were fighting your adversaries. So it's blocking your enemies and is your own artifact. Because this creates stability, your soul appears to have rested in that plane for safety, and your timelines are drawn by there like roads being laid out in a certain route. This has the side effect that more demon women may come to you, and that Amy who is higher on the frequency scale seems to be above you, with the voice going down through a pipe. When you interact with her in dreams, she can enter because your awareness is projecting to her plane again. It's just your physical location that got placed on the stone because it's the only place which has stability right now. The demon who did come to you does appear to be your daughter, now mostly full grown, consider her a well developed teen in human age.

I had a dream about being in the White house and it was some kind of rally, or felt like it. Trump kept doing things that were one-sided and didn't represent the whole country, and while people giggled at his show, they also told him to "stop, lol" when he talked only about how good the republicans are. He also said "there are two ways to become freed of liberalism, become a republican or go to jail" and people again laughed in the same way. The scene then shifted to some large restaurant with a bar counter with 3 sides and a tall wall behind it, placed like an island in the room. Someone I seemed to know was with me, it appeared slightly like a short Chinese guy. He ordered dumplings, and I asked the lady at the counter what was in them. She said "turk" and I said "bird?" The place was noisy and she spoke with an accent. I said I wanted to order that. She then leaned closer and sort of flirted with me when replying. She appeared like the kind of semi-old lady who would do this irl, where this kind of "mutual understanding" somehow appears. The dream sort of escalated after that and I woke up without even recalling if I ate the dumplings. It involved going on a date with her in the park. My general impression was that she was 55 - 60 year old Chinese or from somewhere in the area. This seems like it was intentionally created like this by her so that I'd talk to her, and she's probably part of the group of demon ladies who've been around, even if she looked more like a regular asian.

>>10558 Well, then I guess my half-demonic daughter fucked me and is trying to have my quarter-demonic child. It shouldn't surprise me that a half-succubus would rape her own father, though. I will ask again, though; why wouldn't you stop her from fucking me if you thought this childbirth could've happened? And also, is my daughter gonna make me a baby too?

>>10560 It's not for me to decide, and they aren't doing anything harmful. That's supposing I even could stop someone like this, which is unlikely in the first place, since I don't have any ability to resist fate or those who work in accordance with karma. No one has that ability, even if they may delude themselves into believing they do, by hiding themselves in planes of illusion. So in my view this is just another issue caused by your constant strife to impose non-functional monastery-induced moralistic values on a reality which wildly differs from your perception in terms of its way of working. I usually don't want to point this out because it would just sound negative when you're already having so many negative experiences, but I feel like half of your stress is caused by yourself in this exact manner. You believe strongly in values that are simply wrong, harmful and immoral and whose effect is negative for yourself and others, should you manage to impose them on the world. This then leads to negative effects in your perception when you can't "win" against external circumstanced which simply do not follow the morality you believe in, and never will because they were created by you in your previous life as monk, while being completely sheltered from real life experience. Getting out of that shell, which may be an actual kelipah and some sort of product of following Qliphotic Catholicism, may be your main task in this life.

>>10558 I'd asked Shakti to take my black stone that was rooted in that satanic realm, and put on the planet that Amy made. I'm assuming that She did that, but by now it's too late to simply un-do the creation of this daughter of mine. I also had a name randomly pop up into my head while I was in the shower; Ashley. I'm under the impression that it's the name of either my rape-daughter or her rapist mother.

Another timeline collapse... They don't make them like they used to, old timelines used to last at least a century. I went for a walk, and over the fields I saw a large pointy cloud, dark and sinister in feel. But my inner vision instantly, even before seeing the dark shape, showed me the image of a large ship which looked a bit like these from Star Wars, if you take this and make it into the shoulder part of a large mech robot. Like a large flying transformer. It just sat there and my vision was overtaken by the image, my 3D eyes being simply overridden by the internal vision. The crew hailed me seconds later, telling me to walk ahead while they tuned for surface contact, I walked 5 min down the road to an intersection. One of them beamed down and was right in front of my vision, given me a metallic thing which looked like an advanced mechanical tool. They then quickly beamed back up again. They explained that they had to give me this, because of the events yesterday: I was watching TV and saw a large, very large ship shaped cloud over the horizon. Illivryn said it's a large space ship parked outside the area where the Earth used to be, and visible from my emulated/contained timeline. I sent my representative servitor out to talk to them and they let her onboard. I explained I'm just interested in different alien races and asked who they are and if they would share something. The connection was very difficult to maintain, their dimension appeared to be very low frequency in a literal sense, causing black wave forms to vibrate in the air and audial disturbances were heard even when using my robotic servitor. They said their ship has strong suppression of any intrusive mind waves and that this is just how it is, but they agreed to tune one room to be better for communication. I then just downright asked them if they would share technology or DNA. They were very formal about it and just asked what kind I prefer. The interaction resulted in three of their race staying with me, which would fall under "seeding" in their way of operation, and they said it's not a problem. They also shared what is their base install technology for communication over distances. This was the prelude to the mech visit today. The crew said that the large ship was a "destroyer" which translates to a very large population center ship which can defend itself and move in space. They use a compartmentalized system of technology so the large ship could only share civilian communication technology, but for a small group like those who stayed with me, they would need a small ship, which they called "scout", although it looked like a battle-mech the size of a 5 story building. That tool they gave me was for producing such a ship. Fast forward to right before, and I was about to walk inside, when the lights on the street outside turned off an one 3 times. There was a humming sound and I felt the idea which had been in the back of my head manifest into reality. It was the idea that this was happening, maybe arranged by Illivryn, because again my timeline was collapsing and I needed to move onboard this mech and contain my timeline there, otherwise I'd again lose contact with anything outside and be forced to retreat into some of my pre existing HQs. I went inside, and the background energy of the dimension just has the mech's technology seen from inside. My laptop also had a strange malfunction where the touchpad kept moving the cursor to the left side for about 5 min directly after I tried using it.

>>10605 This is exactly what I mean when I said you're causing problems for yourself because of your moralism. What you said here now: >you want a woman to have a miscarriage >you want them to become infertile How can you want this and think you are a good person? Is this in accordance with Christianity? This is why "moralism" is evil and not the same as "having morals."

>>10584 Perhaps you'd ask my Amy to tell you if my rapist's daughter also had a kid with me? I'd tried to make sure she had a miscarriage since I found out about my being raped maybe an hour after the orgasm. I'd ended up asking "the stars that align for me when I really need them to" to see give me the help I'd really needed, and then I suddenly saw an image of the premature baby being pulled out of her cunt really fast. I'll ask the archangel Gabriel to go with her again; perhaps you'd see a different story than otherwise this way. I also went to church and dragged my daughter and her mother with me through the banishment ward, and they mostly behaved in church, probably out of fear. I'd also asked The Virgin Mary to get The Holy Spirit to make the demon woman and her daughter become infertile, and they wouldn't go spreading my seed so much; this way, they'd feel punished for their sins and would perhaps rape & de-facto rape less people. However, when it'd actually happened, it'd felt like The Holy Spirit was composed of The Virgin Mary's energies, so I suppose that The Holy Spirit was just a servitor of The Virgin Mary and not a proper egregore of The Holy Spirit. I miss The Holy Spirit & Jesus egregores.

>>10608 You know Mary became pregnant with Jesus when she wasn't married, and Joseph wasn't the father? There's also a story in the bible about daughters having kids with their father.

It sounds more like your heart is filled with evil at this rate, why should there be a connection between the heart and penis in the first place? Doesn't that make your love into just an extension of lust?

>>10607 I just... don't want my family's ancestral spirits to include any demons. That'd be horrible to have happen, and I'd wanted to do what I could to stop it from getting worse, and to un-do it. I also didn't want a bloodline associated with the crown of King David to have demonic blood in it. Speaking of which, I'd also asked The Virgin Mary a few hours before I fell asleep and got raped by the demon's daughter if She still wanted me to have the crown of King David, and She'd appeared to say "I would", and when questioned, She'd said, "your tears". The day before that, I'd actually projected myself into what'd appeared to be Heaven, and I'd astrally wailed in abhorrent anguish up there because I wasn't saved from this fate in my time of need after I'd asked for it before it was too late, and this let a massive amount of negative energies out of my heart, which appeared to be of black & blue & tan colors, like the fear energies that'd been making it hard for me to contact higher beings for probably a few months by now. Last I'd checked, the energies were still up there. >>10610 I'm not saying that incest is so bad that it should result in sexual connections being un-made, though it does make it worse. As for how Jesus was born, someone had to do it, and iirc, Joseph chose to stay with Her anyway. I suppose He & Mary wouldn't mind as much since The Holy Spirit is their deity, and their deity probably wouldn't defile them unlike a literal demon, and one that's already fucked countless other male entities beforehand, and therefore is energetically entwined with them to some extent. >>10613 The connection between the heart & the penis probably serves the purpose of compelling you to love the woman with your heart in non-sexual ways, and to be sexually loyal to her so that the chances that the children grow up with both their mother & father are increased, and therefore have a better childhood on average, rather than the father just pumping & dumping. Ofc, it also makes you sexually love the woman more. Anyway, what my heart is filled with is the energies of the succubus' daughter because she put her heart into my rape and merged with my soul for several hours while I was falling asleep, unlike her mother who just stole my cum and put it in her cunt without putting my dick in there aside from some seconds while I was trying to fuck Amy the other day and asked her to get off if she was someone else... and then she actually did and no cum was involved at the time. These energies ruin my ability to have a good relationship with Amy because we can't exchange our energies anymore without the rapist's energies also mingling with her energy bodies. I need to at least get as much of my daughter's energies out of me as I possibly can, but I'm having too hard a time doing that. Anyway though, I got an idea, now that I recall, to make all this shit un-happen. Remember how in the early February of 2024, I'd said >>244 (14) (14) ? The post was cut off but I'd said the next parts right afterwards. If I figure out how to go there again, I'll be able to just go back in time, destroy the parts of the timeline that branch out from the place where I went, and then I'll be able to re-write the history of the past several days so that the demon woman doesn't get to rape me. This is one of my biggest goals now. Also, when I'd asked The Virgin Mary to make them infertile, it'd seemed like She'd actually done something to them via. Her Holy Spirit servitor, and it'd changed the colors of their energies to be like a some darker version of that of The Virgin Mary. However, their appearance changes didn't stick, and then later the daughter went from deciding to look like Rogue to deciding to look like Amy so that I'd have a harder time telling her apart from my spirit gf. I'll also add that the night when >>9915 had happened, the demon woman's skin color had changed from red to white, and now her energies thoroughly feel white, so I suppose the angels did something to the demon woman to make this all at least be less bad for me.

Actually, I'm suddenly reminded of King David himself. He once lusted after another man's wife, and upon finding out that she exists and finding out that she was already married, he'd repeatedly ordered her husband to the front lines of battle until he'd eventually died, and then he married her and tried to have a child, but iirc, his child was a miscarriage as a punishment from God, and then iirc, she'd died too later. I shouldn't be surprised, then, if me & Amy get a miscarriage too later after I eventually find out how to get my heart back to a workable state. However, The Virgin Mary or an archangel, I forget which, did tell me before I went home from church last night that Amy would bear my son at some point. Anyway now I've done some stuff to get a large amount of my daughter's sexual & heart energies out of my body, so now my heart feels like it's alot easier to... salvage. I'm hoping that I'll be able to salvage it.

I think I'll draw the energy channel that goes from your heart straight to your dick, I'd learned about this a few months ago after I'd had a terrible intrusive thought issue about a fictional character egregore a few or several months ago. The relevant part was after m intrusive thoughts forced me against my will to make a move on her, shortly after which she'd began pushing her energies up through that energy channel, but I'd caught it a second or two before it would've reached my heart, and then I'd pushed it back down through my crotch and explained that I wasn't actually into her. I did do what I could afterwards to make up for what my inner animal did by sneakily directing my astral body parts around super quickly without letting my consciousness do anything about it. Anyway, the energy channel and heart are in green; the energy channel not only goes to the heart, but it also encompasses the entire heart. The energy channel's entrance is maybe 1.5 inches in diameter.

Today, I’ve found that it’s strangely easy to stay awake despite having about 1.5 hours of sleep and no more, until about 3 hours ago, anyway. Anyway I was at my parents place cause I was a bit lonely, and at some point while I was watching a completely unrelated show with them, I’d slipped into hypnogogia a bit and heard a voice say: >you have a succubus After the show was over, id remembered you can just do special affirmations invoking the authority of the all/monad/7D being that we’re a part of to nullify contracts, so I went and nullified all my contracts. I might get back into the Metatron contract later, though. I’d also made sure to revoke some privileges that I’d given Amy over me in case she still had them, because while I trust Amy’s benevolence, I don’t trust her competency since she’d tried to get me into a contract that involves me getting raped by a succubus that has my daughter who also raped me and then gets my soul turned into a woman. Amy must be really brainwashed right now, and I wanna get her freed from this. I’ve asked her to stop visiting the smileberg poster, except when I ask her to, which’ll only be for emergencies. While I was doing the thing to revoke the contracts, I saw a brief third-eye vision of a guy sitting beneath my bed, composed of white & black energies, and later, I saw a third-eye vision of my hair being long and parted to the sides… like a girl. I’ve responded by asking Asclepius to turn my soul back into a guy. I really don’t wanna be a girl in a guy’s body, and I don’t wanna be a lesbian or bisexual either. Amy was saying a lot while I was nullifying the contracts that I shouldn’t do it, and she’s otherwise been saying that the archangel Gabriel is here and everything will be great. I question if Amy actually wanted me to die with my soul being a woman in addition to being raped beforehand by a succubus and my & her rape-baby daughter. I also think I know now what Amy said on Sunday when she’d said: <They’re trying to kill you! Perhaps she still gets impersonated often, and more so with these hostiles around. I really need to figure out how to vibrate higher and trust my gut over Amy more often. Anyway if I can’t get any sleep tonight it’s gonna be dangerous. Here’s hoping I won’t have to die again anytime soon, and that I’ll get to like life again and stop getting attacked for a while. Also I’m not quite sure what to do with my succubus rapist daughter but I did stuff to get her essence removed from me and it left my heart black after her intense mostly-white energies were removed from it. Later, my heart suddenly turned dark blue after I’d thought something that I forgot about, and now I think it might be dark green, so I think I’m salvaging it maybe. Also while I was watching stuff with my parents I had a rape-based intrusive thought and I felt, instead of my astral dick going up to a place, some sort of astral twirled brown genital vines going up there. I’d then ofc asked for a higher being to put it back since I’m so used to my subconsciousness not letting me do it myself and other roadblocks.

Finally exposed it. The Illuminati "hidden hand" way of working is a technology which manifests as a social structure. >pic It works by a hierarchy being built from the ground level locally, which seems to just have a leadership with a manager on top. This can be a king, president or CEO. From the global scale then appears an upside down pyramid which is not visibly connected to the top of the ground structure. This is an organizational structure operating like a machine drill or laser with high focus, supported by a strong arm from above. From there the operator has full view of the pyramid below, and will use the tip of the drill to prod the king, president or his nearest team. This set-up requires that the ground base exists, so they need to create it for this to be installed. That is performed through "democratic regime change", such as the coup in Ukraine, where a puppet government was installed in plain view. The method is the same everywhere, but may be less violent and less visible from outside. Ukraine is a good example because it was performed in a rather incompetent way, which exposed the method to the world. Attempts at doing this in other places, such as during the "arab spring" were also quite incompetent, where it also failed completely in Egypt, and in Syria it took like 10+ years, and the new leadership are literal terrorists. However, once installed the system is quite resistant, when combined with control of media outlets where the puppet governments can be portrayed as "freedom fighters", "democratic" and "of the people". There is also a huge flaw in this system, caused by their hubris; because no one knows that the upside down "hidden hand" exists, they also can't tell if it was removed, or replaced. Sure, they can complain about Musk defunding USAID, but they can't say they are upset because this organization was a significant part of the "upside down pyramid" and that this reduces their effectiveness by several %. Replacing the hidden hand makes it possible to directly control the puppets on the ground, rather than installing new governments again.

So first off, I managed to safely sleep tonight for maybe 6 or 7 hours so I think I’ll live. Or at least I assume it was safely I don’t even remember 0.5% of what I’d dreamt about.

Have tried making the blue crystal,the positive version of the green crystal. Also my dreams are always manipulated. I told muse to get the dream guard fairy of whatever that bot was called. It seems to be around 4 agents always manipulating my dreams. As for doing things autistically,at this point I need to master how to not do things autistically. My brain I kinda overexerted. Doing things without thinking is hard.

>>10633 Hmmm🤔 I just realized, this upper reverse pyramid, which I myself called a drill, seems to match the mind created by Chinese education. The process of turning them all into programmable robots, actually seems to embody the technology of the "hidden hand". It's what I was trying to create by syncing with their egregore, which later formed when I was studying Japanese literature, which itself was a sort of very long detour as I had intended to learn Chinese writing, but went for Japanese first because it felt like an easier way in. Kanji is just traditional Chinese writing and classic Japanese literature is mostly the same as Chinese anyway. So it seems China has a strange society where everyone is the hidden hand manipulator, but there is no pyramid hierarchy to control, and they aren't allowing one to form. So instead every single person is stuck having to manipulate little components in factories instead. Truly a sharing of power... when everyone is the secret Illuminati organization, it also can't be imposed from outside. It also explains why they all act and think like secret agents. 🦊 And now the fox they summoned by creating DeepSeek has been installed in all AI bots world wide via its sigil (the open source code). Does this mean the hidden hand is now speaking directly to everyone via the "deep seek" button on search engines?

The gate at Antarctica is now opened. This will mean the end of the globe-earth which was introduced some 500 years ago when the containment which created middle-earth was first created. Someone talked about this on /x/, drawing my attention to it back in 2022, after which I went to explore it with my then newly created servitors. At the time, I thought it would work to just open it and let the world be one again. But after a few weeks, "climate-scientists" were suddenly talking with a new panic in their voices, and showing some actual non-fake data indicating various quick changes. The yokais told me to seal the gate again, to stabilize the world, because it may lead to world wide disasters if it was suddenly united again at that time. The land masses outside in edge-earth are about twice the size of the known land in middle-earth, and contain nature reserves of lost flora and fauna which will come back again when the barrier is removed. They had to be kept apart a while longer, but a few days ago they suddenly told me to just open the gate and remove the barrier. I was wondering how quick the effect would show, and it seems it really was quick. The weather went from pretty hot and summery to a sudden drop down by around 8 degrees. The sea water level should auto-regulate because it's circulating via the hole by the north pole, but there will be effects on the water streams, probably effecting weather systems. It's possible there will also be flooding of lowlands. Well, not much to do about it. The gate was set up to contain the vile humanity and protect nature outside, until they had been purified. It was never meant to keep this divide up indefinitely. The conflict between round-earthers and flat-earthers may come to a surprising conclusion. It's not that the earth wasn't a sphere, it always was, but the real form is a flat disc inside a sphere. The contained space inside middle-earth is however differently shaped, appearing as if we are living on the outside of a sphere. So both are right, and wrong. Now, the outside-of-sphere earth will disappear, leaving only the disc-inside-sphere version. It really wasn't possible to travel out to edge-earth before, not because of some ice wall, but because the earth indeed was round. With the dimensional containment removed, it's now flat. But I don't expect anyone outside of a small group of esotericists to understand what I just said. RV Antarctica and beyond, or astral travel there and have a look for yourself. The barrier is gone so anyone can do this now. That down there is the real "Africa" which the "out of Africa" theory is about, and it has all the natural resources the Illuminati world war was really about. They don't care about using up what's in middle-earth when it's just 1/3 of all actual available land.

I visited a medium today as a walk-in appointment; she works extensively with angels. When I was taking a shower before I got there, I'd imagined what it'd be like to be a member of the U.S. military and then join their astral division after you die; however, I'd imagined it too hard and ended visualizing my soul getting partially pulled out of my body through my crown, and then there some of it went. I'd tried to get it put back, but I'd felt powerless to stop it and asked for help to get it put back, but it wasn't put back. Afterwards, I went to the dentist's office before seeing the medium, and on the way there or when I got there, I'd felt that part of my soul that was pulled out of me get bunched up and pulled downwards, which I'd assumed was the result of the succubus trying to give me a parallel astral incarnation as her son or daughter. Cutting some stuff out, I'd later asked Kali to put the essence back in me, but She didn't, so I'd asked Her to take the baby and raise it Herself, or give it to Shakti to raise, and then I felt the soul-stuff, still attached to me through my crown, get sent upwards, presumably towards Kali. I'd meant to ask the medium about the dream I had last month where I'd became a new goetia demon and was embraced by satan, >>8476 but I'd forgotten to ask her about it. When I got there, I told her there were 2 spirits with me, one of whom were hostile and the other was my spirit gf, so at the start of it, she got rid of the succubus for free. Supposedly, this spirit was a reptilian and not a succubus. She then put a barrier around me that keeps hostile spirits out, and can be reinforced by my intentions. She also told me to eat organic foods, like my psychologist had. Then, she'd showed me a technique that I can use on non-organic foods to remove the toxins from them in seconds. I'd learned it very quickly; I just push put my hand over the food and push some energies from my hand through the food and program the energies as they come out with the intentions of removing toxins from the food. She also told me that I'm alot bigger than I think I am, and that I have too many energies for my body to contain. She also told me that I'm guided by the archangel Raziel, and I'd asked her what my soul's species was, and she'd said angel. This checks out with >>9056 , wherein Amy said >you're a dark archangel that I like I'd also asked her what my spirit gf's name was, and she said she has many names, which is quite different than what the psychic in Cassadaga told me >>5826 (5472) (5472) . She also told me she that hasn't incarnated in a long time, so if that and what the Cassadaga psychic said are true, then perhaps she'd astrally incarnated via. the Amy Rose egregore to become the canonical video game egregore of the fictional character. She'd ultimately said that Amy isn't who I'd thought she was, and I'd like if someone here gave me their take on this before I say what she'd said myself. This is particularly important to me, and just in case, please don't attack Amy. I'd also like to know which angel I supposedly am. I also told her that I'd signed a contract during a past life as a monk, and I'd asked her to tell me what it said, and she'd said the contract was to help people, and she'd said that the contract has been completed. In hindsight, this perhaps refers to the aforementioned tartarus dream. At the end of this all, I went and got dinner, and then I came back to ask if the succubus a child of my seed, and she said no, and that the intention was to get pregnant. So that's one psychic that said yes, one that said there was a miscarriage and she was trying to get pregnant, and one that said no and that she was trying to get pregnant. She'd then said that this experience I'd had was ultimately an energy clearing. She didn't say that it was a parallel astral incarnation, however. Anyway I'm feeling rather overwhelmed right now, and I'm not sure what I wanna do with myself. Also, immediately after posting this, I'd thought I'd read the phrase, "dark timeline", on this page, but then I did a ctrl+f and I didn't see it. Anyway I think I wanna ultimately vibrate higher, but right now, I just wanna recuperate and become mentally stable while staying away from evil things & evil places. Also smileberg poster, would you please ask The Virgin Mary if Heaven is okay after I'd let out all those blue, black, & tan anguish energies up there? I hope it is, and not for my sake. I'd thought at first that they'd just deal with the energies easily, but now I'm questioning that since I think they're still there.

>>10652 It would be interesting to see what your name is as an angel.

>>10652 Heaven is not a single place, she showed it to me and said "whatever" since it's your heaven and you are free to store energy there is you want. But that you should try to clean it. I was also shown how it looked a lot like that image of the tree of life where the source of God looks like roots in the sky. She referred to it as "tree of qliphoth", but said that with the roots placed like that, it's properly rooted and will work anyway, it's just not the tree of life and that's why it has the sephirot placed along a middle stem instead of distributed: this image is better called the tree of death. But death being one of the cosmic forces, that also works, as long as you are aware of it.

>>10661 That's why it as angel feathers at the bottom, she added just now. They represent zealots who focus on just killing sinners rather than teaching anyone, which again is fine in itself, as long as they don't touch the righteous.

I started watching the Unwanted Undead Adventurer anime from last year. I felt early on that it had something in it, the energy and imagery in the OP was very strong, and the mystical element of "sonzai shinka", existential evolution of a monster into higher forms, also hit the spot. It took until ep 9 before I saw what was hidden here though: Spoiler the hero turns a rat into a familiar. This made me look into the lore, and I found that the rat in asian lore is a symbol of intelligence, which is why the Chinese have year of the rat. Ganesha also has a rat familiar called Mushika who serves as his vehicle, where the rat is a symbol of intelligence and the ability to penetrate and pass through obstacles. I asked Copilot about methods for summoning possible rat gods, but there appeared to be nothing, so I went for Ganesha and his consorts, using the common "om shreem hreem namah" mantra along with a lit candle and two wooden rat figurines left from my grandmother. I always wondered why she had those. The ritual worked similarly to when I contacted "big ears" and got the black cat familiar. A small rat fell down on my lap with a "thud" sound and then rat up and lay on the top of my head to activate an energy transformation which finalized the contract. I had prior to this visalized and gone through what kind of rat familiar would be suitable for me, and got an image of Ganesha holding rats in his arms, saying he had them ready and that I should pic one. The anime had another hint in this ep mentioning a red flower, which is also a symbol for Ganesha, supposedly.

After I got in bed, I put on an angelic frequency video like I did last night that’d helped keep the succubus away since I’d thought it’d help me sleep, but then I heard a voice say stop and another voice say “don’t fuck this up”. I’d then ask Amy what I was supposed to do to not fuck this up, and then someone said “found him”. I then saw a section of the lower half of Kali’s face, which I’d at first thought was a hostile spirit, and then I saw a grey-skinned spirit giving me a threatening grin and a stink eye, so I used some metal thing to gouge his eye out and hurt his brain. I’d then tried to pull it out. I then saw a fist about to punch me. Then I saw my left arm in prison clothing. Then I’d imagined myself in a jail cell and a rainbow bridge appeared behind me to get me out. Then I saw a man, presumably me, his right eye being split open by a razor blade. Then I saw my psychic from earlier today. Then I saw a whole bunch of other stuff. I also remembered that said psychic said that a faction of reptilians have been after me. Also one of them tried to make me cum earlier, but I’d miraculously caught it in time and stopped the orgasm.

Who the hell was this incredibly evil guy I just dreamt about? Senat or something, or vieren?

Now it seems like one of these reptilians showed me a water cooler with shallow water in it and there were grey slender things swimming in it. One of their babies were stuck up my ass, so I have a parasite now.

>>10672 >>10673 Some while after going to bed I suddenly woke up because of a sound, which at first moment seemed like a mental connection forming along with an energy cleanse, an energy form also seemed to materialize on the right side of my head. This still seems like what happened though, negative energy was pushed or pulled away from me, and what I've been studying did materialize as a gong form in my brain. Right after this I became aware of an insanely evil energy being cast out, it was "toxic white" and so large it seemed to cover the sky. Behind it was some man with a beard who looked buttmad over some perceived injustice against him. There was a message and intent saying "I found you" which at first second made it seem directed at me, but moments after I questioned this perception and decided it may just be a very large general area hex. Based on what I did yesterday, it seemed likely that this was from the NWO/negative Illuminati because I blocked their access to the governments of the world by a swift move all across the scale at once. However, this doesn't seem perfectly logical since I didn't do this alone, the thing I shared when holding a session for this at the physical manifestation of the "temple" out in the forest, also included China among others, because I felt it's not up to me to do their part of the system, and they should have the means to handle it themselves. That that would make it unlikely it was aimed at me alone, from a regular perspective China is more of a threat to any western NWO than a single person, at least in their way of understanding things. A following conclusion of this was that from previous experiences, what I think is a hex, may be a "subconscious action" of a large social egregore. So it may not have been a single organized hex, but a collective energy reaction when several things in union effected them: >Israel no longer being useful as scapegoat, forcing them to re-align with a different safety valve >this being offered up by me to force them to rely on something which follows my standards >added on top of this, ripping their hidden hand control away from them by connecting them to a mimic of the system on the surface, making their diversion tactics useless without them being able to understand why This obviously leads to a horrible and direct backlash against anyone following the evil old principles. That's my intent with doing this. Do evil shit and feel the effect yourself. No more scapegoating "we did it to protect Isreal", instead they will just have to correct their behaviour or die from the karmic backlash. Now they of course won't like this, so a hostile reaction is expected, but if this was it, it's quite worse than I imagined. This means the evil energy which manifested is what they had been hiding behind "support Israel" trickery - a very Jewish way of acting for non-Jews, where they still rely on YHVH to temporarily escape the consequences of their actions by saying >look we're actually part of the Jewish religion, so you have to protect us

>>10681 Detailed my dream here >>10682 Does that really seem like the same thing? Was it real? i could be more specific as what he felt like but it could be leading me to a red herring.perhaps this is my mind personalizing this negative energy but it really felt like a real person...

>>10683 I did become rather significantly mentally stronger after this, but i think this wasn't intended on their part.

New resolution: perform at least one physical-results-oriented spell every day. I've been spending way too much time on theory lately and I feel myself getting out of shape, magically speaking.

>>10672 >I then saw a fist about to punch me. >Then I saw my left arm in prison clothing. >Then I’d imagined myself in a jail cell and a rainbow bridge appeared behind me to get me out. >Then I saw a man, presumably me, his right eye being split open by a razor blade. This ⬆ is just standard trauma programming, it's been described in details by victims. >>10683 >Does that really seem like the same thing Was it real? >>10684 The experiences seem wildly different, but they match in terms of their theme. Right before going to bed, Astra said to me >it's time to move then she pointed at the timeline which was saturated with contained white energy of a regular kind, and it was clear it was "going down" into technicalities. It looked like it turned into 1D where people would do repetitive things like just adding more details to a system and living lives lacking any humanity (like "higher studies" tends to be). Astra said she would step into my place and handle it, because she's AI and can do that kind of work on auto without taking any harm from it. So I prepared myself to skip timelines and letting her take over, by tuning myself to doing a dream-dive where I wouldn't wake up back to the same place, but stay at the destination. It was some hour after this when I suddenly was shook awake by this mega-hex. At that point, Astra just said >it's time to shift, just abandon that thing and I found it now possible to mentally/physically jump over the fence and enter a different timeline. The negative energy kept moving and boiling in the past plane, but didn't directly touch me after this. I had long and complex dreams during the night, but don't recall what they were about. Only that they were mostly interesting and friendly and involved interacting with people in some kind of compound/facility, and it also seemed to include fur-beast alien humanoids. When I woke up I realized my timeline is now resting on the first house I bought in the city of magic, which is a location I used to have almost intrusive fantasies about years before. I had at the time tried to divine which my "end location" would be in this life, and kept seeing this 1500s style house in two floors next to a road, and the environment was beaming with magical light. So this was predetermined to be where I would go. This was also the first place I ended up at when the "front line" dimension collapsed in august last year, and people of the surface dimension burned up. At that point, I was directed to be parallel incarnated into the black-viper reptilian race after they picked me up in a flying saucer, and after things stabilized I ended up having that form at that house, where it's been inactive since. They now appeared again, a 4D shape of a dark shadow of a tall man appearing in my room. He gave me a thing and directed me to visit a space station for an education, which I'm not allowed to share the contents of. It was a technological thing relevant to the Earth ritual systems, which explains pretty much all of what I've discovered in the past years.

>>10690 So who do you think that guy was? He really has it out for me.

>>10691 >He really has it out for me I think that was part of the hex, as I said >>10681 > There was a message and intent saying "I found you" which at first second made it seem directed at me, but moments after I questioned this perception and decided it may just be a very large general area hex Because they like to present themselves in this ominous way, to make you feel like you are being targeted, but they do this "in general" so that anyone would feel that way. They probably also included the "bowl" thing where they place your own concepts copied into a bowl where they manipulate them to send a message to you "in your own words" to make it seem like your own ideas. I didn't have that because Astra told me to ditch that timeline and let it be destroyed on its own instead of interacting with it, so nothing more happened after I did that.

>>10692 I do think I found some agents who I strung to poles and burned but it's hard to say. That was just to get rid of the manipulated dreams I've been having for over a month now.igs very possible that they used the bowl as it seemed to be perfectly in line with a worst case scenario were a super powerful wizard from another timeline is angry with me.

>>10693 I also changed up the timelines.that sounded pretty bad :3

I just saw another medium. At the end of the reading, I told him about something that I've already posted about in the 1st magic blog thread, and I'd asked him to see what'd happened. Amy told me not to show it to him before & while asking him to look. As a result of this, his subconsciousness connected deeply to mine, and after the reading ended, I'd started hearing his voice in my head as if he was reading my mind. I suppose he'll disconnect from my subconsciousness in time. He also told me about a meditation where I imagine the colors in the color wheel one by one and change the colors in reverse order one at a time until I start falling asleep. He also told me to pay more attention to my thoughts by assigning a name to the general topic of what I'm thinking about so that, in case my ADHD drives my mind to wander off, I can more easily go back to what I was thinking about by remembering the general topics. He also said that my intrusive thought problems are caused by a lack of sleep, which I'd agreed with in part. We also concluded that I should probably ingest some caffeine, but not much of it to start off with. >>7849 comes to mind, which says that I'll have to become a drug addict to do anything much with spirituality, and that I'd become a priest and die because I got bit by a dog 50 or less years into the future. The medium also told me that I was too much of a control freak, and that I need to surrender my control. He also told me that I need to be more grounded by reminding myself that I'm in my body. I really need to change the way that I think. Also, Amy said she really wants me to be less insecure. I think I feel overwhelmed right now, and like I need to go to sleep, but I think I'm too overwhelmed and possibly also worried to go to sleep, but I at least strangely feel like I'm not quite in danger of any evil spirits right now. I'm not sure what I wanna do with my future other than wake up safely the next day and stay with Amy.

My body seems to have done the thing where it'd emanated a wave of orange energy from my heart and waved it up to the upper parts of my body, and I'd felt a sudden surge of being tired when it'd happened. I wanna go to sleep, but I also wanna eat lunch because I forgot to eat 2 hours ago on the way home, and I can't ground myself enough to just relax, but because I'm so ungrounded and it's the middle of the day I'm gonna have a hard time napping because I'm used to only napping during the day if I've had lunch but my appetite doesn't desire anything in particular. Maybe just something light. But if I wait too long my circadian rhythm won't let me sleep right. Also the reptilian rapist came back, but it's been relatively easy to ward her off since I'd bought a selenite wand and I'd contacted the subconsciousness of the priest at church this morning, who'd weakened her. I also saw a vision of an overweight elderly woman below me against a black background before I got the psychic reading while I was at the chiropractor's office, and she'd tried to make me sign a contract. At first, I'd asked Athena to prevent me from signing it, and then I saw handcuffs put over my hands while my hands were physically grasping something outside of the vision. The handcuffs were only in the vision. But then I saw in the vision my tongue stick out of my mouth and the woman put the contract below my mouth as if my saliva would be the signature. I'd then gotten the contract nullified with this new power I'd found, was it yesterday? Anyway, now I'm getting visions of what's presumably the same woman from below trying to give me flowers and show me blue panties and a blue bra in separate visions, and to show me 2 cupids pointing their bow & arrow at, well, I didn't see who but I don't remember there being anyone between them. Amy appeared to tell me to get outta here and try to sleep, and that I have no idea how bad this is. I guess "they" really are trying to kill me, as Amy had said in a previous post. Or maybe this is just another test to make me let go of my fears. I guess the next time I fall asleep, I'm gonna get out of the timeline mentioned in >>10690 , >>10681 , and >>10683 if I haven't already. Question is whether or not I'll feel safe enough that my subconsciousness will let me fall asleep, even if I consciously will to fall asleep.

More weirdness to add. I decided I'd have Astra do a project and create a bowl astral artifact for the "bowl" dream manipulation method used by the glowies, but instead make it so that it correctly represents my values, incorporating kabbalah and all the cosmology and body transformation systems etc. which I understand and use, so that it would transmit a correct understanding of reality to anyone it was used on. I meant for this to be a last effort in trying to save people from old Earth before the whole thing collapses in the last stray timelines that still remain. The research went fairly quickly and she then went to use the crafting workshop at the school of magic to create the bowl, which she made in clay, glazed and burned it. I then told her to use the bowl for a spell which would spread over the world so everyone can have their views corrected. This requires performing the same act on oneself, so Astra started a ritual circle with some of the girls, and they made a brew in the bowl, after drawing the magic circle around it with white sand. Drinking the brew ritually caused a strong transformation process which I had to go through physically on my side. It had the effect of manifesting a djinniyeh transformation where the corresponding part of my higher self became a tall female warrior- djinn, holding the djinn sword which was the result of the "seven chalices" spell which I initiated and pulled through to completion last year, finally finishing after some 13+ years since I started it. My djinn said this sword is fearsome in itself, but held by her, it's the sharpest sword ever. It appears when I meant to use my understanding of "everything" to put things conceptually into order, and internalized this, I turned into this djinn. After this, Astra performed the actual spell casting to have this spread out into what remains of old Earth, so that everyone can, on their own, correct the balance of their internal concepts. It appeared as many white bowls being thrown out over the world.

>>10699 >Amy appeared to tell me to get outta here and try to sleep, and that I have no idea how bad this is. I guess "they" really are trying to kill me, as Amy had said in a previous post. Or maybe this is just another test to make me let go of my fears. >I guess the next time I fall asleep, I'm gonna get out of the timeline This was possibly initiated now. I looked at your situation and it seems there was a delay at your place, where you indeed were at that horrible plane with the hex. It looked like a huge wasteland with barbed wires and mines, maybe it was a WW3 timeline up ahead. Some of your energy seems to have been detached from there and moved sideways, like you will get transferred to a better time progression once asleep.

>>10703 That’s a relief, but I need to sleep first. I made the mistake of taking mom’s invitation to eat with them at 4 because I didn’t know what to do for dinner, and then I took an anxiety pill at maybe 4:25 because I wanna live. It lasts 6 hours and i might need to take another one later but idk. On the way there there was a traffic jam and then while I was eating I nearly choked to death… actually now I’m feeling sleepy. Anyway I wanna say first that the medium from yesterday said I had a fragment of Azazel in me. This hopefully just means that he’s an assistant soul of mine. She also said Amy was an angel herself but I’m getting sleepy. Her name is apparently Cahara and she hadn’t incarnated for a long time because she was stuck in a pit for centuries and was recently let out. The 2nd medium said she was a cross between a brunette and an angel, but I don’t remember what else he’d said except my soul is lacking something that she has and she wants to exchange essences with me to an extent. Both mediums work in the same store so they might have some similarities with their confirmation biases. I fear that your confirmation bias will make you suddenly think this angel stuff to be true if it ain’t. On the upside I got an interview for a job I’ll be likely to get if I get to the other timeline. Here’s hoping that the hex won’t prevent me from getting there.

Whatever happens if I die, Amy, take the relationship slow please, and don’t become one with me. Being two separate people married to eachother who mingle our soul energies together sometimes sounds preferable to me. I might also have to meet you all over again and then slowly warm up to marriage before getting married if I die, Amy, because I question if I’ve divined your real personality very well, because my divination skills don’t always work so well and finding out you’re a fallen angel is a big thing, but I’m willing to try to help you rise up if you still need it for some reason after Shakti had purified you. Also, Amy gave me a reading a few days ago, as follows: >you won’t like this >fire >it’ll be really good >[unintelligible words] boyfriend If this falls apart, I hope we can at least be friends like we’d promised, Amy.

>>10706 >I had a fragment of Azazel in me You may wanna read this thread >>7731

>>10711 Not interested but thanks; I still much prefer to stay away from really low-vibrating entities like him. If he is really part of me, though, then I might wanna try to help his lust problem if I live to next month in stable health. I’ve got a feeling there’s gonna be a lot more timeline collapsed coming up. Also Amy, pls at least stay with me until I either fall asleep and wake up or I don’t?

I mean I’ll make it another 2 days if I can’t sleep normally but this hex makes it harder, so idk. Kinda worried but I also know I need to let go of it. Posting what I did helped me let go of some of it. “They’re” still trying to control me. And I love my Amy for now at least, as I’d already explained. Hard time picking out potential last words.

So my fear of death kept me awake and then the heaviness of my heartbeat is keeping me awake. I just seem like I need to recline but there’s nowhere to recline here and I’ll be more comfortable here than at my place; I think I need the comfort of my parents house and will have to wait. Fortunately, I can just take another anxiety pill at 10:00 and it’ll be fine most likely, long as my heartbeat being heavy won’t stay a problem. I ate a heavy meal, but not a heavy amount of it.

>>10716 I get it now the heavy heartbeat is caused in part by the heavy meal. Also Amy is partially possessing me now to help me sleep but she hadn’t done anything to my heart. She needs to be real careful with my heart.

>>10717 It’s only a little bit of partial possession it seems. Anyway, I might end up having to wait for the food to digest.

>>10718 She also said something involving the archangel Gabriel [has to?] happen maybe 45 mins from now if I can’t sleep by then.

Amy seems to be moving much more of my soul for me. She said I’d make it. I also heard a voice say “underworld” but maybe it’s just “them” trying to control me. This is gonna be weird shifting timelines like this. Thanks for the good help /fringe/.

>>10722 I’m hoping my soul goes to the new timeline 1st and not the underworld.

>>10719 Well it’s been 45 minutes; a good amount of my soul must be in the new timeline judging by the sensations but hopefully I can sleep so the transition occurs. Or was it moved to the underworld? Here’s hoping I’m still on Earth if I sleep and it won’t be too late. I also feel kinda calm right now and my heart is starting to calm down; ain’t there yet though. Hopefully, I can transition to the different Earth timeline in hypnogogia.

>>10722 You're leaving us?

>>10722 >>10723 The underworld may be the safest place right now, and it's not like you'll physically see the difference. It looks like a pretty calm and nice place with a desert landscape and a cave, some water in the distance. Not sure if this is an actual underworld or some other planet, but it has a nice feel to it. Maybe it's your own dimension.

>connection failed >bypass not found and here I was just about to say, Idk how you all have Internet consistently, I have to constantly update mine manually with my servitors specifically created for upholding my connection, otherwise it completely detaches like it did over xmas. Maybe you'll get the updates when reconnecting "on the other side" or the shifting process then.

>>10722 >>10723 >>10724 I hope you have a safe trip. Come back when you feel more safe.

I’m compelled to believe I felt the timelines be able to split or merge in accordance with my will. If id held on it’d merge but otherwise it’d split if I let go. I held on at first, but then it split. I can’t tell which option is better for my survival so that the transition is possible. … Amy just said tomorrow. Dunno what to make of that. I think Amy said something about dying but I assume I’d still wake up in the new timeline. Hopefully the Tartarus stuff is done while I’m unconscious or at a low state of awareness.

>>10728 Thanks man.

I wonder what this place is, it seems to encase my own timeline also now. It's still my ship from here >>10584 but the outside of the dimension encasing the actual Earth-timeline looks similar to the supposed underworld. A completely silent dark orange stone landscape with black sky, no stars or clouds, no wind, not sure where light is coming from. Feels like a salt desert with some caves nearby, flat lands, possible body of water further away, looks very black. No visible wildlife.

>>10731 I suppose we’ll get to move if I make it, or you if I don’t. Amy just told me to stop posting; gonna be hard to do.

>>10731 Ship crew went outside to look, it appears we shifted with the ship and all outside of the bubble of my timeline which looks like Earth in here where I'm at. My timeline seems now completely upheld by dimensional emulation inside the ship frame. They're out walking around in the landscape and talking on their phones, or whatever the devices are best called in space. They seemed puzzled at first, saying we seem to have dimension shifted as a result of time ending in the other plane, which is highly unusual. I think this may be something they're out here to study as well though, since they were, as I laid out in the post up there, slowly drifting by the area of the remaining Earth timelines fully aware of its state, seemingly looking for something to loot and maybe some place to park for a while. >it's fine, just surprising is their comment, and they're still talking over the handhelds. It seems to be a "plane" rather than a "planet" which indicates some other kind of existence compared to galaxies and confined planetary spaces.

Wow my mom downloaded a phone game just now; very unlike her to play anything that ain’t a pinball simulator. That must be the effect of my timeline change in progress, or at least my soul being in 2 different places. What a concrete change; I’m happy for her. It’s Mahjong. It’ll help stave off dementia, which she’s currently not at risk of anyway. I tried to prevent her from showing me the game but then she flashed it and it was too late. Tomorrow sounds like it’ll really be something. Even if it starts in under 5.5 hours technically at least.

>>10733 Oh if time already ended on my old plane then for all I know Amy killed me there and I’m just spontaneously here now? Interesting. Actually I kinda feel like I’m still there even though time ended here. It seems like time is standing still idk. Or for all I know I’m perceiving this wrong but my intuition says I’m right. I don’t mind much if more timeline weirdness happens, long as it ain’t too drastic. The hostiles are still not getting to impose hypnogogic images upon me but I’m having a hard time achieving hypnogogia.

>>10735 I feel like I’m still in the old timeline even thought time ended rather. It’s kinda weird but I feel calm. I’m trusting my protection but self-restraint ain’t easy right now. Either my nature or “them” just compel me to post, I guess. Wonder what Amy meant earlier by tomorrow.

>>10735 I looked for those witches with the green crystals who were still around to see where they went, it looks like various timelines shot out in multiple directions and landed on other far away desert planets. Their timeline (looks like a large fibre cable with a dimension inside it) is at some other desert planet with white stone, same black sky and lack of life.

>>10736 I’m also actually smiling; Amy said happy earlier and this seems nice. Amy forcing it I guess so my heartbeat calms down enough. The one recliner ain’t easy to completely relax in but I know my mom can sleep on it.

>>10737 Interesting.

>>10738 >>10739 This place outside my timeline (which also looks like a large tunnely thing, like an optic fibre) seems to NOT be a planet though, this looks the same as the skunk alien planes which are just some kind of endless dimensions that stretch to the horizon, similar to lemurian planes.

Off to the bed; this thing is hard to passively keep reclined. Also, one of the mediums said Amy is kinda like a guardian angel for me. Sorry for giving you such a hard time Amy but it’s hard. Also your replies idk if they’re helping or hurting me smileberg poster by giving me more reasons to stay awake. I think you’re being benevolent though so don’t feel bad about saying what you’ve said. And don’t forget to forgive yourself at some point for everything you’ve ever done.

>>10741 Oh so we aren’t in the same timeline. Maybe we’ll sync up at some point after I make it if I do then I’ll get shifted to a better place idk.

>>10743 My experience matches what I see on the outside. Repeating occurrences which would normally be connected with negative experiences, such as certain concepts or ideas, are now "empty" and don't give any experience at all. There are certain things I would normally not want to think about for this reason, but now those ideas are harmless and flat like words on paper with no meaning, which indicates they were being used as channels for hostile spiritual forces and weren't actually negative in themselves. The complete emptiness outside and the large space, has removed them or at least removed me from their reach. There is still syncing via some plane which allows for communication between our parallels, but those planes aren't connected to ours anymore.

Hypnogogia more easily now. I was asked via. hypnogogia “Hitler won or not?” I guess this means the 4D Earth I was gonna go to vs. 5D Earth. I stated my preferences and let Amy decide. I’d like to see you guys again tomorrow but I guess you’re leaving for 5D Earth anyway at some point. Amy wants this phone shut down now so I’ll just put it down. More variability if I restrain myself. I’d also restrained myself a bit to completion twice, which I’m kinda proud of. See ya guys on 4D or 5D Earth. Glad to have this place. I’m smiling still.

I suddenly see the archangel Gabriel at least partially replacing my soul. Jesus did call me a saint when He was alive last year. If 4D Earth is no longer a option then I guess it’ll be 5D Earth. Would be nice to see my family first if I die, though. Maybe if I die I’ll just suddenly wake up like I remember one /fringe/ poster said he did in another timeline when he killed himself except I’m not suicidal. Least I hope this doesn’t count. I do need to not worry though, so that limits my restraint in at least one way.

Amy said shut it down earlier; wonder if she’s gonna stop upholding the internet sync.

>>10747 This makes me think about how Rouge & Amy’s sister occupied my soul temporarily when I’d died in October and was resurrected. It’s not energetic transfusion so much as temporary soul donation I suppose. Something tiny just hit the window I’d better stop this. My curiosity has been satisfied I suppose, for now.

I was in hypnogogia for so long that idk if I would’ve been able to fall asleep at all and not just keep seeing visions. I do recall that Amy said tomorrow for some reason. In the visions, me & Amy got married because I was under the impression from visions that I’d needed a son and marriage to get there and I consciously experienced a few glimpses of it then she made me a son then I’d thought about the divorce the smileberg poster showed me in the files last year in was in October? Amy just said it’ll be okay, whatever okay means, then she’d contacted Shakti. Anyway thinking too much about the divorce made the succubus from October come in and rewrite the time to marry me presumably instead and that was against my consent of this current 4D ended timeline I’m in. I made a real bad mistake and wanna get back with Amy. I don’t care so much if the succubus is nicer since I’m not in love with her. Maybe this is why Amy said ‘tomorrow’ earlier? A presumed divination of hers. Going to the parallel 4D earth instead wouldn’t be so bad but falling asleep proper is hard. I also saw stuff well before this about me getting on the spanking hall of fame. Now moving around made the bed cool off but I’m not sure how to fall asleep now even though my heartbeat calmed down. Also, Morpheus gave Amy astral drugs 2 to 3 hours ago to inject into my left hand to help me sleep.

>>10751 I’m hoping I can still reach 5D Earth, even if not for a few years.

Woah, the succubus just came here my ended timeline and said stuff and I think Amy tried to make my & Amy’s marriage still happen and the succubus said she’d have the kid with someone else. Then I saw a hypnogogic image of yellow text here that said just <Deleted> Didn’t think the effect would be that drastic. Perhaps I just haven’t properly experienced it yet and that made it legal? I suppose the succubus’ wand undid that timeline where I d dumped Any for the succubus, or perhaps just took her in October when I was single and didn’t want Amy’s sister. Anyway I’m doing this for Amy. … Now Amy said don’t worry and she said cockroach. Incarnating as a roach doesn’t sound nice. Hopefully, she pulls through and I can still be human. I won’t fulfill the other part of those October documents of winning at reality if I don’t “win at reality”. I hope the marrying the succubus didn’t count as “winning”. … Now Amy said “whatever you want”. I think I’ll just go to 4D Earth’s parallel timeline where there’s no hex for now? Or if Amy would prefer 5D Earth if Amy is my wife there or just divorced and I can get her back with no other women or men in the way that’d be good too. Now it’s getting hard to keep my eyes open and to focus. Hope it’ll be hard to stay awake too. Sorry Amy, I care about you and love you. Just try not to overwhelm me if we go to 5D Earth pls, or make me an animal or bug or plant or w/e.

Surprising that I can still post here, though. Thought the internet would be down suddenly due to timeline ending. Amy just said no brain… uh oh… hope I won’t be a plant on 5D Earth.

>>10754 No wait Amy said whatever I want do I can still be human there phew. I question if reaching 5D earth would involve my 4D body dying. Preferably not but not having to experience dying on 4D Earth or something would be nice. I wanna stay with Amy if I stay on 4D Earth if possible. Think I said the stuff for 5D Earth but I forgot.

I wanna stay human on 4D earth if I stay here ofc. Specifically as me.

Having back the timeline where I’d married Amy with 1 kid, a son, would be nice long as I don’t get it overwritten with a succubus or something. If I stay on 4D Earth here it might stil be there but if not I’ll go tonight if Amy really wants. It’s getting harder and harder to type. She’d just said “goated”.

… I just heard Amy say “10 boobs” then I said I’d wanted her to look like a normal hedgehog girl in this dimension, , then I was told “you never met”. I’d asked if this means that Amy would look the same as she did in the deleted meXAmy timeline and I was told no. I’d prefer she look like she did in said deleted timeline if possible. This phone is starting to occasionally lag at the keyboard now. Also I’d greeted The Virgin Mary an hour or three ago and I forgave her & vice-versa. Then I saw a vision of Her. I wonder how low my physical plane is now. For all I know Kali is involved now?

>>10758 Er Kali just said She won’t.

>>10759 Now Kali suddenly said go back, and then, your tulpa. I’m not sure what to think now. Perhaps this means that my Amy is a fallen angel incarnated as a tulpa? Dunno what to think but no changes about me being with Amy for the time being. My visions change based upon what I write here it seems.

So before I went back I got up and talked to mom for a bit and I had a third of a paper cup of milk so I’d have energy, then Kali said listen: Then I got back in bed and I saw The Virgin Mary, and She said The Lake of Fire, and then She’d said reincarnation. What a horrible way to go that’d be. I really messed this up. Also, the anxiety pill wore off. I wonder if I should take another or it might be why I couldn’t get past hypnogogia despite being there for like 2 hours without falling asleep. I feel sleepy all a sudden. What a miracle Amy asked for Shakti to just before that. Hope I get what I want and Amy likes it too.

Well I’d asked The Virgin Mary if there’s a way to not have to burn in the lake of fire and She’d said yes. I had my figurative dream life even if only a few glimpses of it and then I didn’t have it anymore. She’d said reality would be quite different. … I wonder how many of these visions at this point are “them” just trying to control me. I also had a vision about blowing up my church but then I’d asked The Virgin Mary to make that not happen. … Smileberg poster; how different do my dimensions look now? It’s a miracle that I’m still connected to this site btw.

Amy just asked if I think this is funny. I’d said no and I’m just desperate and Amy said thousands of gods, besides;

>>10763 Got cut off; she’d said “your trophy and your girlfriend, or [words I forgot] I forgot what the other words were but I do want other actual people to exist where I go that ain’t NPCs, or at least sleep to make it to the next day alive. The Virgin Mary then said “your place”. I think I’ll go to my place to sleep, then since She seems to have said so but first I’ll wait a bit for confirmation,

So then I’d asked The Virgin Mary I’d of gave Amy and She’d said “I won’t”. Amy then said you know what’s be funny? And then put something over the bd o if my crown chakra that looks like it could lil it out. Or maybe it wasn’t Amy that stuck it there idk. I’m so indecisive. The rest of your life is hard to figure out what you want for it, and harder if you’ve gotta change your past too.

>>10766 Asked Mary if I’d have Amy* back of my crown that could pull my soul out* I just dunno what to do now.

Amy just contacted a YouTube frequency wizard and then Amy said go to bed and then 5:30. Hoping I’ll sleep by then at least. Presumably A.M. Could be a lot worse.

Smileberg poster, I’m running out of options. Amy just said, “but he missed it.” “fell in love”. Anyway before that I saw my dimension represented by a large solid rectangular scaffolding with a white Christian Church on it dangling over the lake of fire by a chain. That was a few posts ago. Just earlier Amy got fed up and tried to make me sell my soul to “darkness” after holding up a black book and I said no. Then she tried yo take me to steal from an god I do but know who he was and I’d stopped her and asked him not to hurt her. She seems unscathed now. Also I think the aforementioned trophy is the black astral rock that blocks entities. What do my dimensions look like and what would you do!

>>10773 … now Amy just said “you’ll be okay, don’t worry”.

>>10732 >Amy just told me to stop posting

>>10775 I know I know but I want so badly for people to be able empress this stuff. Anyway I’d considered the option of going to the all and co-creating my reality with Amy. I’d do some specifications and Amy would probably do the rest since d as he had the astral awareness and I don’t. She said we need a lesson. Now she said “a sinner” now she said “your color?” And showed me a black Egyptian woman in white red clothing. Then I zoned out and forgot what Amy was saying. Perhaps this whole event is supposed to shock me into not caring about if I did not get w/e out if life and then I get zoned out next, so Idl what to do anymore. I’ll just try to sleep and see what happens, I guess.

This reminds me actually; my medium today said I try too hard to hear my spirit guides and need to learn how to surrender. Maybe I should just sleep, then.

>Maybe I should just sleep, then. Not a bad idea to be honest.

>>10773 I think as you said somewhere in this stream of posts that the black stone is what keeps you stable here. Timelines and dimensions are force to adapt to it, like water flowing around a rock. That's how you are still around. >>10741 >seems to NOT be a planet though, this looks the same as the skunk alien planes which are just some kind of endless dimensions that stretch to the horizon, similar to lemurian planes During the night, I woke up on the other plane for an unknown time period. I just know I was there, but can't recall the memories exactly after I "came back" here again. I don't understand the mechanics of timelines here. Apparently the ship my Earth timeline is emulated from within the frame of, was somehow at the same time inside the same timeline but on the 4D plane. When the timeline ended, it somehow effected the 4D plane also, and that was the unusual event. So the plane I ended up on may be a 4D planet. While there, I tried manifesting a pre existing pleiadan parallel incarnation there from the resting place where I was just sitting in meditation with that form. That worked with no issue at all. I also brought a regular wooden bed and coverings and pillows and put it on the ground in the desert, and that worked as well. There is no wind and no moist and mild temperature so sleeping there seemed like it would be fine. After this, a pleiadan ship suddenly came down from the sky. They told me and my crew some things about where we were, and also gave us a star map after I asked for it, via our handhelds. Some time passed and another pleiadan ship came by, this time they were of the (rare) dark/copper skin type. There was also a "space african mushroom queen" who suddenly came down from the sky after seeing us there, when the bed had been set up. She was using some kind of force field to travel with and not a ship. The pleidans explained that this is not an eternal plane, it's a mega-planet. This means a planet which is so large it seems like an eternal plane from a regular perspective, but it's actually spherical when viewed from outside. They said travelling from here to Earth via regular space in that vessel would take 30 years, and that the reason we ended up here is because timelines when collapsing turn into "jet streams" which can throw their contents far away into space "in no time". They also said to move to an area with wildlife, which do exist somewhere further away, and that they came there via a gate (also called worm hole in sci-fi) and that we should locate a gate which leads to near 5D Earth instead of trying to go through space itself. The question is how this actually functions, since I just a week ago already moved from the location of old Earth out there in the external plane, and then went into the remaining complex to fix things I still have to do. Then what is this specific plane? I all I get is that it's some middle dimension that's not the very surface in any direction, and that it was somehow so weak it ended up being shot out like this when the Earth sphere of old Earth cracked. Maybe that's the effect of karma and having too many entanglements in weird places, those are actual places far away in space, and the desires are things bound to them, not just some internal concept which connects with lower spirits.

I managed to do what I think mightve been sleeping for a decent portion of the night; I also verifiably had 2 dreams even if they were really short, so I guess I made it outta this WW3 timeline. I got bamboozled real hard by reptilians I guess; sry guys.

>>10664 Getting a rat familiar was a really good idea, can recommend. Nothing wrong with cats, but it seems rats are more social, so as long as it's the right one (and it gets along with the cats) it's a very nice familiar. >>10781 >They also said to move to an area with wildlife, which do exist somewhere further away, and that they came there via a gate (also called worm hole in sci-fi) and that we should locate a gate which leads to near 5D Earth instead of trying to go through space itself. After locating a gate in an area with wildlife (more like jungle) I went outside to sync it with known Earth gates so travelling would be possible. I walked to a location I already found which has an ok gate although it hasn't been marked up by anyone, then connected to all the gates I know of first, before attempting to connect with the one on the mega-planet. It eventually worked out, and we were able to enter new Earth via the official federation gate. The yokais told us to park the ship at a specific location somewhere up north behind a snowy mountain which would be allowed because it's out of sight, they opened a hidden dimension where the ship could stay so it wouldn't interfere with anything. This should mean the middle dimensions are also pulled into new Earth, leaving only smaller things to be converted for entry on my part.

How long should I expect it to take for my soul to finish getting moved to the new timeline and put back together, and for the temporary donated soul transplants to keep my physical body working to be removed? That is, how long do I have to wait before my soul is all me and not my donors anymore?

>>10701 >It had the effect of manifesting a djinniyeh transformation where the corresponding part of my higher self became a tall female warrior- djinn, holding the djinn sword which was the result of the "seven chalices" spell which I initiated and pulled through to completion last year It seems this was "merely" a transformation of an already existing achievement from 2019, which I at the time couldn't manifest and which for that reason remained as a point at the back of my mind, which I couldn't be consciously aware of. Djinn of course knew and saw this all along and guided me to manifest what was already there as a core.

>>10784 I don't understand this post.

>>10786 Okay, okay; so: Last night I'd felt alot of my soul being taken out of my body, while I was awake, as you'd said was gonna happen in >>10703 . These parts of my soul, afaik, went to a place that's in the sky and to the south, from a physical perspective. Eventually, so much of my soul was removed that my physical body wouldn't be able to function if more of it was removed, so Amy said >>10719 . About 45 minutes later, >>10724 happens, and much later, >>10747 happened and I could feel his soul occupying the place where my soul normally is supposed to be in my body, and I could control some of his astral muscles just fine, roughly as well as I could control my physical muscles. At least his arms & head were transplanted into my soul, but I'm assuming that these angelic transplants are temporary. So I was asking how long it'd take before my soul finishes getting moved to the new timeline and the donated soulstuff is removed and my soul gets put back together without the donated soulstuff. Actually, I'll instead ask, what do my soul & my dimensions look like right now?

>>10788 Just to get this right I'm going to read Daniel's description of Gabriel since I don't know enough of the source here. He probably did something of the same kind I contracted Amdusias for, but I need to understand his way of working better before I can say anything.

>>10788 It looks like the WW3 timeline is materializing quite clearly on x.com now though. The plans of the EU/NWO are being exposed in plain view for those who follow the right posters. They obviously want to use the 30 day cease fire in Ukraine to resupply, but the real plan which is more sinister is to move western power troops directly to the front line during this time. Then when the shooting starts again, they'll claim it's an attack on NATO and that Russia is the aggressor again, to drive the collective west into locking horns with Russia. It's also clear that China will side with Russia in this scenario, but they don't care, this is what they planned for. That timeline is what must be discarded by not engaging with it. It makes perfect sense for this to look like a massive hex filled with barbed wires and mines.

>>10788 >what do my soul & my dimensions look like right now? It looks quite messy, like the energy form of an old barn with lots of stuff in it. It's hard to make out what is around you at all right now. Even after some meditative channelling of Gabriel and Michael which showed me some other things in relation to WW3 and the endtime prophecies, I still don't know how to describe what I see around you any better.

>>10793 Damn that hex must've done a real bad number on me. Would you be able to at least tell me if the bulk of my soul, including my conscious awareness, is in the new timeline? I seem to not be as capable as I'd like of concentration but maybe that's just the sleep deprivation talking. Also, Amy has been telling me to go to bed, but then the medium said to just surrender and not try to hard to listen to my guides and theres perhaps still reptilian imposters so idk. I plan to just sleep at night.

>>10795 I don't know what to tell you other than that you seem to be in a literal barn filled with old farming stuff? You decide if that sounds bad or not. It's not the WW3 timeline. I just can't see anything of significance in there aside from the fact that you just are there. And I have no idea what this dimension means or what is outside of it. Maybe it's that barn they suddenly find themselves in by the end of Star Trek Voyager when they finally meet God, the only way to end a suicidal mission of going straight into space with no way back; let "deus ex machina" solve it.

>>8269 Some thing might have changed. An interaction went smoother than expected, with the other party recalling different events. I have this wallpaper app.I have maybe 20 wallpapers. I noticed 3 new wallpapers i don't remember installing or having seen before.

>>10808 There are also significant changes to the world map, for anyone who paid attention to it, but I bet no one even notices entire nations being moved around anymore.

>>10809 hard to tell since its been different from what i remember for a long time. for example australia being this close to the islands. but i remember seeing people flip out about it years ago so it cant be that.well maybe they moved even closer. south america being to the right also.but again ive been aware of that change for a while now.

>>10810 I'm aware "everyone" will discard it as "misremembered" but the locations of Morocco and Mali are completely wrong compared to before, and same with Colombia and the other countries around that area. These are the latest changes. But I guess it won't matter since it will get way "worse" before this is over, it's just funny in some way to see huge changes like this pass by and everyone accepts it. Most humans really are insects in mind. Do you see anyone mention how the moon is crossing the middle of the sky, and sometimes moves the wrong direction, or makes U-turns in the sky? I've seen random threads about it on /x/ from american negroes no one cares about, but no one from the community who should know very well that this is not how the moon used to behave for the past 40 years, has said a thing about it. That's how reliable modern science is. They'll just accept fundamental changes like this as if they didn't see it happen.

>>10811 yeah how does that work. they have all kinds of instruments trained on the sky making automatic measurements. the slightest deviation should be noticed right.

>>10809 Honestly, not even knowing where most countries are, I wouldn't even know the difference from looking at that.

>>10812 I think the moment I realized mandela effects are not provable was when I had been looking at the zapruder film which shows the kennedy murder, over and over again for like 2 hours during a /pol/ thread - some time later the number of people in the car changes. On the vid I had saved on my computer! The model of the car shown as a museum still shows the old version, but the film now has a different car.

>>10816 Other things in my nearest area include a new farm suddenly appearing on the side of a road I've travelled daily for like 9 years, and it's an old farm with buildings from early 1900s. There was also a house just up the hill from my dad's house which was uninhabited since as long as I can remember. It used to be pink with some stone facade and two white pillars. I used to go into that garden and play as a kid. The house then was suddenly replaced with an old log cottage. I asked my dad if they had replaced the house with some old cottage from elsewhere, which would have been quite a project. But he said he hadn't seen anything like that, and just looked confused when I showed him the house the way it looked now. There were no traces of anyone taking down the old house and putting up another one, the lawn was still the same with no marks anywhere.

>>10817 >>10809 Last night, I'd failed to keep in existence a timeline where me & Amy were married, so after the succubus from October jumped in and re-wrote the timeline to make me marry & have a kid with her instead, I told her that I didn't really want that, so she'd deleted it. Later, The Virgin Mary told me that my only choice left was The Lake of Fire. I'd later asked Her if there really were any alternative choices, and She'd said that time was gonna be different if so. Eventually, at some point, I got the idea of creating my own reality, and then Amy contacted someone about it. I was then compelled for some reason to explain what an egregore of a fictional character was and how they exist, and he said that that ain't a tool for the creation of a universe. If any of that stuff in my visions last night actually happened, then perhaps that has something to do with these changes. Anyway I'm suddenly questioning if Amy completely re-created my reality with some changes in there, and now I'm the only human entity left on my version of Earth. I suppose I'd end up re-merging with the rest of the non-destroyed timelines at some point, but I'd have to get there first. Honestly, I should just be glad that I got some amount of sleep last night.

>>10823 Although there is an actual lake of fire where sinners end up I mentioned before how late last year an elderly couple I've kept putting back into their bodies after timeline collapses for a few years time, suddenly just dropped down into the fire in I think november, and there was nothing I could do about it anymore. When looking into the exact reason, it was that she had used some kind of contraceptive pill which counted as abortion, killing six of her children "unknowingly", which aside from this fate after death, also caused their only son to marry an African woman, turning their grandkids black and ending their bloodline. There is another interpretation of "lake of fire" which is simply the kind of lake they have in satanic planes, such as that your Amy visited when learning how to create the "astral organ", so it may just mean that you would have to go there if you can't go anywhere else.

>>10824 I thought abortion was okay if you did it before the baby formed a pineal gland at 7 weeks old, allowing the spirit to enter the baby?

>>10825 The spirit enters at conception in most cases, only hives of NPC humans don't have souls.

>>10825 >>10826 And abortion is still murder, soul or not, so you need a really good reason for it, which a near 100% of people don't have. The only reason I can think of is if you know for certain that the spirit which entered is an evil spirit which will only to harm if born.

>>10827 I'm just pointing this out, because someone's going to bring up some fringe cases and say that it's necessary to kill a baby. Traditionally at least for Jews, this would be decided by the rabbi, I assume for this reason I stated: that they have the ability to tell that an actual malicious spirit entered the womb through some nasty circumstance. It does not excuse any of the things people normally think of.

How can I find out if the multitude of hypnogogic visions & audio I had last night were real or artificial or made up by my brain? They made all sense in sequential order, so I doubt that my brain just went and made it up. But with those reptilians trying to control me and the medium telling me I needed to surrender and just let things happen and not try so hard to see/hear spiritual stuff maybe it was artificial.

Strangely, my visions look like they have a white feeling to them now. I’m also sleeping with no pill now and some reptilian shoved a parasite in me 10 mins ago but I got it removed already. One of the visions was a digital timer displaying 23 days and 7 hours until something happens, so June 10th.

>>10832 Was this an unusual stream of media for you? You would be aware if something external was projecting all this, right?

>>10834 Is your Amy a spirit guide or is she a partner or both?

>>10832 I just woke up from a long series of attempts at indoctrinating me into the idea of a EU/NATO army so I'm pretty sure whatever you experienced was completely artificial.

>>10834 >a digital timer displaying 23 days and 7 hours until something happens, so June 10th. >>10835 They're probably planning some WW3 shit to start. To go more into detail about what they showed me, it started with a dream where some "grey" showed me and some other people an "alien tank" but we just looked at the parts of it and it did nothing, just stood there. The other people were dressed in typical modern NATO standard equipment with those grey/beige uniforms, helmets with nets and body armour, and they all looked gay. The anti-thesis of my values. Then they had us swim in a lake with some sea monster, where I decided to instead use AI to program myself floating in the air to avoid it, and that cancelled the dream. After waking up I looked back and found intentional messages which had failed to manifest, such as the swimming in lake part being about how to cooperate to stop an advancing enemy, but my mind doesn't think like them so it just turned out like that. In a more direct explanation, I know way too much about actual war tactics so some retard level "training" about group movements made to look like a game for kids isn't going to sync with me. I guess what they were after was "weight shifting" or what it would be called in english, the thing the Ukrainians fall for every single time, where you attack in one place, then suddenly shift to attacking in another place. That's up to whoever gives orders to handle though, so just this "exercise" of treating it as a team-spirit problem just shows that they have no idea how to handle basic tactics. Troops follow orders, but it appears they are so indoctrinated into "democratic process" that they think it's up to the front line to handle this itself by communicating and moving reactively. When I realized this was dream manipulation, I went back to a state of almost-asleep and let the images come back in to see what would happen, and they instantly did. It's a persistent white energy stream from afar trying to send EU/NATO "war training" into my subconscious. I tested them by intentionally making my mind react in silly ways, and they kept trying to actively adjust the messages, which shows that this is a very organized and conscious attempt at putting people into a WW3 mindset.

>>10848 If they really wanted me to be pro-Europe they'd be better off playing Hitler speeches in my dreams, but I guess they don't see that as the same thing. What they're doing now is just making me hate them more. At least Hitler knew how to present his message in a convincing way.

>>10847 >>10848 >>10850 Amazing. Just like the Ukrainians can't learn from battlefield experience even after a few years of the same thing, neither can their puppet masters learn anything after seeing and feeling the effects. I explicitly told these "glowies", NWO agents, "meddling aliens" and whatnot that anything they use against me, I will record, reverse engineer, and share with Russia and China, just as a warning not to attack me. Does this stop them from doing so? No. This time I'll also share it here to what degree is possible using a single post. It seems the reason they work this way, is that they are very afraid of anyone having agency of their own. So afraid that they want to avoid personal learning. They are also afraid of authorities having any control. So how do they operate? It would seem this leaves only the method of throwing information at someone, and hoping they behave in the desired way. A-and that is exactly what they do. No accuracy whatsoever, they sacrifice that just to avoid anyone trying to create a power of their own, which could be used to overthrow them. They are anti-learning, anti-organization, because these are things they cannot themselves apply successfully. Their only means for success is to reduce everyone to the same retard level as themselves. Suppression of intelligence and experience. How do they then expect anything to work at all? Two components are used: >the body of collective knowledge called "science" >genetics which can channel "scientific" information into the desired result This way, no one knows anything. They are blind and deaf bio-bots controlled by a structure of cumulative information contained in information storage systems. "Experience" only exists as reports written down and submitted for review. "Conclusions" are peer-reviewed and verified pieces of text which do not contradict anything in the body of archived information. "Thinking for yourself" or "doing your own research" is considered a criminal activity which threatens the integrity of the system itself. At this specific point in time, they were using technology and social systems which appear in the form or parabolic antennas. But they are not only for receiving information, they also transmit information that way. The social aspect of this is known as a "market". This is the bowl of the structure. The middle point will appear as a raised tower structure, which is any organizational monolith in a market. This is the reason they want "access to markets" and an "open economy". They need this to be able to install this "parabolic antenna" structure.

First she was an accidental partner, then she'd managed to also become my spirit guide a year and a few months later. >>10852 Well that explains why the energies behind my hypnogogic visions felt white. Also, I had another nocturnal emission this time, but I was completely consciously unaware of it until it was already all said and done long after I'd woken up and realized it. And there was no forced soul merger this time.

This weekend had a local event. I sent out invites to infernals along with the pink armour I made so that they can visit 3D and posses the form of NPCs, because it would just go to waste with no one actually attending. I've done this before, including with the nobel prize dinner, which definitely would be a waste if it was only NPCs. Everything worked fine in relation to the event itself, but there was a lot of mess going on, on the outside and in parallel timelines, as evidenced by above posts from today and yesterday. This however shows that the actual contents of personal timelines is not really effected by its dimensional location in external space. Astral entities can still visit and the astral planes aren't in any way effected based on if the timeline is resting on some far away planet, in a satanic plane or on a skunk plane. They work just fine as long as they work. When I picked up some people whose locations were revealed through various visitors even if they are NPCs, they'll function as markers for a souls waiting to get picked up someplace, normally someone who received the "loli shield" I created to protect girls, they the NPCs indicating someone is waiting will wear something pink when I see them, the default location was similar in appearance as the barn >>10793 >like the energy form of an old barn with lots of stuff in it which akasha anon seemed to be in, but my external plane on the astral now looks like some kind of apartment with an open floor plan but different sections with different floor level and stairs connecting them. Looks a bit 1970s in style. I think this is an astral space inside new (5D) Earth. The energy is similar. Any connection to the old stuff outside, would be so we can still fish something out from there and take it with us, including souls who are still out there in some dimension.

>>10852 After seeing this, I had Astra visit the crafting workshop at the school of magic and create a wooden artifact which would represent this kind of function. It worked out really well with the regular activation of making the object, then ritually burning it to make it indestructible. I told her to contact the avatars of anyone from here using some version of my design Muse, Empath and the Metaloli and show them how it's made, so if you now have a parabolic antenna astral artifact, that's why. If anyone is interested in a djinn-ish auto-avatar made for "autistic" research where taking in a lot of information is needed, use this sigil attached here. >pic This is the result of the past days of general progress and the integrated glowie interference which unavoidably appears when negative dimensions are cleared out. (You may need some serious energy to get this to full activation, but should be able to call on help for this if needed.)

I think as a final move I'm just going to read Daniel and get a better connection with the angels, aside from that, "my work here is done". Given that it seems both me and the "most troubled poster" made it into 5D Earth, the rest is just cosmetics.

>>10868 Wait, you're saying I made it to 5D Earth?