>>7403 Nah, I want to see what Trump and the Emperor of Mars will do in this term first. You can do whatever with the NWO 4 years later. Ask again in 2029. Go and fedpost somewhere else faggot

>>7407 Look, sorry I got a bit autistic about my /k/ fixation and leaned too hard into the glownigger angle, but what I do want is to get all my cognitive bits together, and I fear that by angering Lilith I've turnt the stakes against me.

My real intention is to introduce and perpetuate our knowledge and metacognitive awareness to other vidya-minded autists via tongue-in-cheek furry fedpost shitpost vidya game like Postal: Brain Damaged meets and be. I intend on a magick-imbued mystical little squirrel stapler-tier shitpost game with adorable and loveable character design, with sigils on low-poly rifles and the like. I genuinely am sorry for recognizing how utterly instable and shitty my foundation is, it's not easy keeping that sort of energy in check.

>>6851 >Tho guns are mundane af why the fuck would you want to use magic to get those paperweights instead of developing reality warping psychic powers I want to imbue my rifles with magic, even if it means stencilling a sigil onto the parts that garner the most heat.

I decided to quit FG and it feels like drug withdrawals. Hopefully it will dissipate in time like drug withdrawals too.

>>7591 Pick up a new practice and make the addiction blend into that. I remember when I started to make great progress spiritually meditation felt addictive. It felt "wrong" skipping it for any reason. The body can get addicted to spiritual evolution. But it reaches a ceiling fast if you only do it for feeling good instead of spiritual development. Learned a new type of meditation again and I have to pace myself to not get too lost in the trance as I move my energies.

>>7591 That would be what Li talked about in Zhuan Falun (paraphrasing) "if you leave the practice, all your karma will be returned to you". It's part of the function of the FG movement's energy system to contain your negative energy like a capacitor in an electric system, this is where the bad qi and stuff is placed when your body is cleansed at first, it doesn't disappear. Then when you visit the practice site on a daily basis and do the long sitting meditation (you really have to do one hour sessions), the strain on your mind and body will cause the negative energy to be burned off, and the "capacitor" is emptied again. If you quit FG, whatever negative energy was stored at the time, will be dumped back at you. The reason it doesn't work well anymore is because too many people stored too much negative energy, and the system was overloaded. That already happened in China in 1999 and the negative energy was so large it caused the CCP crackdown. It took 7 years, and this was even predicted by Nostradamus, the deity who spread FG had already told people this in advance: "you get 7 years of this, then you'll destroy it yourself because your too impure". It's "the day of Lavos" in Chrono Trigger, the SNES game. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5B-JRDsSqec

>>7591 Day 2 and I still feel sick. However there's a certain feeling of freedom i have, that's hard to describe. I did a large uncounted number of pushups and squats yesterday in an attempt to make the stagnant energy flow, so now my muscles are sore on top of it. >>7610 So I was still storing it somewhere even though I didn't follow the egregore? I was assuming that since I was not intentionally storing anything or connected to the egregore, I could burn it off immediately when doing the exercises, like I recall you mentioning as an option before. Even a few days ago I was already thinking I should start fasting again, feeling the need for meaningful suffering to progress. I wonder if fasting now would help burn off the karma faster. That will have to wait after I eat all the perishables that expire today

>>7616 I said "if" you can burn it, I guess. It's not easy, which is why the system is made to function this way in the first place. You probably stored the karma in your own personal storage locally, but it was still stored somewhere. I created a thing to faster burn off karma myself, it doesn't happen on its own. The main point of doing it this way is that if your body is really dirty, cleansing it normally at this speed could kill you when the karma hits you from outside. There are multiple examples of how this could happen in ZF, such as someone almost being hit by a car, pierced by a falling steel rod at a construction site, and in one of the live lectures he mentions someone who was hit by a falling metal door when biking. By storing the karma, you put a delay on it so you can work it off safely, but you need to really work hard on it to prevent it leaking out too fast.

I haven't finished the book yet but it's obvious to me now that this has happened to me twice already. The first time when I was 20 years old. That time it actually started when I was fapping to porn and I just had this overwhelming understanding that I shouldn't, can't and won't do it any more. Immediately I fell in love with a specific woman and felt extremely guilty because I deleted all the pictures of her i had in my fap folder and it was like accidentally destroying priceless holy artifacts because she had just begun erasing her online presence a couple months prior. Wizard senses went crazy and I was APing every night, and if I lucid dreamed I could mold everything to my will with what felt like godlike power. A couple times I saw and interacted with entities IRL including a ghost lady who whispered to me and a pointy hat creature who tried to give me some kind of quest the latter happened when I was meditating and realized that the back of my eyelids were actually the wall of a dark room that I could walk around in. Soon after, he approached me. I lost focus after he made his proposition which I could barely remember. However the most extraordinary part was how I was constantly zapping things with my energy (people, pets, inanimate objects, electronics, etc.) which lasted for a couple weeks at least. I started going for long walks every single day that usually lasted for hours, sometimes leaving at sundown and only returning in the morning. By chance my mom had bought some kind of weird supplement oil which I didn't (and still don't) know what it was and I spontaneously put some in my food and it cleaned out my entire digestive system very dramatically. It's hard to even describe what I was feeling at that time but mundies thought I was depressed, even though that couldn't have been further from the truth. The aftermath which I never posted, of the latter /awakening/ experience a few months ago, is that I felt like I was on coke in that I was energetic and overconfident, and barely ate or slept at all for a few days, nor did I dream at all when I did sleep. This culminated in me crashing my car into something for no apparent reason which I took as a lesson that morality, everyday conduct and (most of all) mindfulness are crucial for handling crazy energy awakenings in the future.

>>7624 Did I send you my fucking energy? I remember I dispatched my Dís, Ada (formerly a hamingja named Maryl, turned jotunn for the purpose of eliminating my most abhorred anti-abrahamic antithesis and irreverent, cynical ministrel show parading itself as the real deal) and I can remember from the immense wrath and madness I underwent from fucking with Azazel's sanguine ring that I had inadvertantly turned friend into foe through the sheer torrential wrath I had within me. My worst regret is that I sacrificed her to do it. I hate anti-abrahamic/anti-theistic secular occultists and machine worshippers who can be succintly summarized as racist redditors who think rationalwiki needs their seething, insecure subtext to be any better when they scorn wisdom, empathy, intuition, and arcane knowledge like theory of mind.

Goddamned schizos from /ng/ continue to present a blight upon that website, I don't give 3/5ths a shit if it's a different freak this time. I show a little compassion towards this subhuman, and he stomps my poor spirit's head off with his vantablack hollywoodslop terminator .gif to symbolically disconnect my throat to crown chakras off my spiritual body? I manifest Saturn's wrath upon him and all other conceited, petulant terminal dunning-kruger suffering, A.I worshipping Jesus hating schizophrenic incels from /ng/ who sign their posts with evil smiley emoticons for masquerading as ministrel shows of the anons here whom have shown me naught but patience, honesty, truth, and due diligence. Their wrath and how they manipulate my own mind's eye against me is abominable; he symbolically steps my head off while my spirit felt powerless to resist a vantablack machine of pure coal, Azazel's wrath upon him from pineal gland to asshole. (I'm fucking pissed this little shit thinks he can dispose of me, and I feel a hidden backup energy within me arising. I'm going to invoke a friend to put my head back on my shoulders and restore my unfathomably advanced inner kemono artist woman whom I ascertain will nourish me to full physical, spiritual and mental health) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gf1SQzrYDMM

>>7688 >Did I send you my fucking energy? My first awakening happened several years ago. I think a lot of people on here inadvertently "send" me their energy though.

>>7696 Anon! Send me assistance in combat!

Can someone here please perform divination as to why my mom is suffering extreme anxiety attacks? Also I would like advice for how best to cure her of her anxiety. She couldn’t handle work today because of an anxiety attack. I want to make a plan for an anxiety relief schedule for her. I’m thinking the schedule will be that when she has a break at work if it is a short break she has to “meditate” with the calm app (I know this isn’t real meditation but I’m just trying to have her relieve stress not gain enlightenment or become an occultist so I am recommending she does guided meditation. Milk for babes meat for strong men.) or if it is a long break then do the guided meditation and also guided yoga video on YouTube. My plan is that when she gets home from work she immediately has to stop thinking about work and color or draw for 15 minutes, then she can work on report cards or do chores. And my plan is that on each Saturday she does a rotating thing: one week of the month will be massage, one week will be manicure, one week will be spa, and the other week of the month will be saving money. This is all a tentative plan though and subject to change.

Trying to fall asleep early and reset my schedule in which I will integrate all of the practices that 'feel right' from these dumb books. Kundalini Demystified says the best time to wake up is 2 hours before sunrise which is something I had just recently figured out intuitively Also listened to a basic Kali mantra on youtube even though I don't trust youtube not to insert subliminals while I'm asleep just to get a feel for how to repeat it myself. Read books about Kali and Kundalini until I felt sleepy and turned out the lights. Eventually I reached a hypnogogic state that I wouldn't call dreaming, although on the spectrum it was an immersive experience closer to dreaming than wakefulness. I was in darkness and understood it to be a container as opposed to a void. I looked up a Sanskrit word meaning either blueberry, blackberry, inside, or "eye" and found them to all be homonyms This was entirely in the dream and though I am learning Sanskrit I'm still memorizing the alphabet and I wouldn't be able to look anything up in a Sanskrit dictionary if I tried. Then I realized that I was inside what appeared to be a giant blueberry or eyeball, and if I looked all the way up I could see the pupil, but it looked like the inverse top of a blueberry. This seems significant because the aforementioned Kundalini book frequently emphasizes the importance of pointing my eyes as far upward as possible so I can see the 3rd-eye chakra there, and I had tried to practice this while falling asleep. Anyway it seemed like someone was in there with me but it was probably my own body separated from my consciousness, because he didn't say or do much. I was talking to somebody outside of the blueberry and asking them for help getting out, although I wasn't really panicking or distressed at all. I wonder if it's related to this >>5645 (4768) >you have some dark shell/room around you that you will have to "transcend" to be able to see. And who was I talking to on the outside of the berry? I was trying to send out signals to Kali the whole time leading up to the dream. Her skin is said to be either blue or black... It also seems worth mentioning i have this fascination/fixation with the "Moors" and the idea that they colonized America before Columbus. I've seen so many hidden references to this while studying languages, one of them being the Latin word morus which refers to a black berry tree.

>>7709 >Can someone here please perform divination as to why my mom is suffering extreme anxiety attacks? I have a feeling it's a complex issue and it doesn't have a singular cause. >Also I would like advice for how best to cure her of her anxiety She obviously will need to learn to relax. And your idea of helping her to change her lifestyle sounds good on paper and might work if she listens to you but don't force her too much. Try to be considerate. >then she can work on report cards or do chores The best advice I can give you is that try to help her with her chores. Try to help with cleaning the house, washing dishes etc. Try to be supportive and helpful with housework. Try to help her however you can. That way she has more time to relax. She might need therapy if she doesn't know how to relax on her own. In most cases people don't have anyone they can talk to and the bottled up emotions cause panic attacks. As much as I want to say that Try to be there for her it only works if she considers you as a "confidant". It's not easy to be the personal psychologist of others especially if they don't trust you. Your current bond with your mom is not deep enough. I cannot give you a divination this way. If you want a more accurate divination you can help by telling me her characteristics and describe when did her panic attacks start how severe they are and how frequent they are. But I don't really like doing divination about 3rd parties. It's always a gamble how accurate it is >>7710 Currently you are progressing on your own quite well. If you hit some developmental block again I might give you my 2 cents but I don't think that it's necessary now. You have a special affinity that I am unsure how I can explain currently. Keep going and see how it manifests.

>>7709 Oh fucking hell, check her natal chart. Her unconscious mind, or moon, seems to be the problematic factor. Heal her moon energy, and show her affection.

What ancient pagan god/goddess most resonates with my mindset? Preferably a god / goddess dedicated to learning and knowledge. I am gonna make a more serious second altar now that my room is clean to help with the lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram and I am actually gonna follow official instructions for making an altar, and use experience from my first altar to make one that resonates with me more and that isn’t nailed to the wall like my original. I already have bathrobes to use for the ritual. I am not sure which god or goddess to dedicate my altar to. Maybe it won’t be dedicated to a deity at first and will just start off solely for the lbrp in order to energetically purify my room. Can someone psychically read my mind/soul and see which pagan god I should try to make my guide and offer prayers to. Also it is bad that the corner where I have my original shrine is also where I masturbate to porn? It is in a place where the neighbors can’t see. I am thinking of going to the container store to buy a simple plastic fake wood box that I can then put tablecloth on, and then putting a match, a feather, some salt, and a chalice of water. My sources for making a better altar are wikihow’s article on the lbrp and wikihow’s article on making a pagan altar.

>>7766 >Preferably a god / goddess dedicated to learning and knowledge Go with Snotra

>>7769 Even though I am not an indigo pill, I want to get the trait described in the indigo pill meme: “Knows more than you could possibly want or care to know”. Will Snotra help with this goal? What is she like to work with? I want to work towards having knowledge of all things before I die.

>>7770 >>7770 >I want to get the trait described in the indigo pill meme: “Knows more than you could possibly want or care to know”. "Indigo Pill" refers to extremely talented occultists that work with entities and wield powers beyond mortal comprehension without a shred of wisdom or understanding. For them Power is everything and they rarely see that they are dooming themselves with their pursuits. To know something you need to be able to learn. Were you able to learn well in school? There are currents in the ether that you can link your mind with and they will offer you their infinite knowledge. But as a book is straining your eyes and your brain if it's beyond your level so will these types of information if you are not ready for them. Most "Knowledge" we have around is useless. Hoarding knowledge for hoarding sake is also useless. The goal is to find knowledge you can use to better yourself. Once your mental capabilities increase you will be able to understand and comprehend other types of higher knowledge. There are different types of knowledge in this world. Society would think a Professor Emeritus as the "peak of knowledge" but he is just an old fart who barely knows where he is and usually rants about the same things over and over in most cases. A tinfoil schizo can also hoard immediate amount of knowledge but he cannot even get out of his house he is that terrified from the world but he can demolish anyone in an online battle. That is also a knowledge. Memorizing the entire fanfiction.net site can also count as a "knowledge" yet still not very useful. A hermit sitting in a cave for 20 years might have attained knowledge beyond anyone's comprehension but he forgot how to talk with people thus his knowledge will not reach the mainstream much. Attaining knowledge without the willingness to learn is not a feasible way forward. >Will Snotra help with this goal? Snotra is the "clever one". What it means to be clever to be wise to be courteous. What it means to learn to understand what it means to be wise. >What is she like to work with? She is kind and patient. She might be able to help you go into the right direction. >I want to work towards having knowledge of all things before I die. You know there are many realms with infinite knowledge. And they can grant you that. And the moment you do that you will sizzle out. The unawakened human brain can comprehend that much. You will need to handle yourself you will need to find a way to break out of your shell and learn to manage your life on your own. Do you know why you need to do this? Some types of knowledge require a journey. Not everything can be read online or from a book. Most knowledge is not being written down. Especially not the magical ones. Here is the famous quote from Herodotus. "To have insight into much and power over nothing" Can you wield that Fate? To be like a librarian in a forgotten corner of existence? Knowledge is beautiful. It can create it can transform it can educate. But only if you have the wisdom to use it well. In Kabbalah Knowledge Wisdom and Understanding are 3 different Sephiras for a reason. Snotra should help you with the "virtue of knowledge". How to attain truth in a sustainable manner. To show you the baby steps forward. To be clean to be pure to be true. To be ready to finally learn and be able to wield that knowledge you learned. Knowledge can be born from studious discipline and intuitive insight too. You will need both. Odin hanged himself on Yggdrasil and lost one of his eye for his wisdom and for the knowledge of the runes. I am sure you are not ready for trials like that currently. Snotra can show you a gentler way.

Also would Athena or Thoth or Hermes be an acceptable alternative to snotra? Snorts doesn’t seem like there is a lot of internet content or video game content media to suit my needs. I can’t find any snotra summoning rituals on google. I found maybe one.

>>7774 I thought you want Nordic Gods that is why I recommended Snotra. If you don't care then sure, summon Thoth or Hermes. Athena is closer to Snotra in her demeanor. Start with the Greeks as /lit/ likes to say.

>>7775 Will Athena be kind and gentle like snotra? Will she care that I am a misogynist volcel? I saw that Akasha poster also interacts with Athena. Plus unlike Thoth she was in a ethnically european society.

>>7776 Just summon one that you like. Don't overcomplicate it. If they don't like you they will say it. The more you stress about it the longer it will take for you to hear their voice.

>>5497 There we go, I can feel something within me returning and realigning just right. Just gotta lock this newfound power in, and I'll be myself again in no time.

>>7815 >>7796 (7731) There seems to be an abandoned Hearts of Iron board on 8chan called /hoiiv/. Why don't you take it over and unleash your creativity upon that great place? If you bothered to use a trip you sure can bother yourself to become a BO too! It would be the perfect place for your meme magic aspirations.

>>7819 I don't need your passive aggressive snark.

What are some exercises or stretches that would help heal the chronic tension and pain I've had in the red-highlighted area for the past few years? Is there a label for this particular network of muscles and nerves, which I could use to find specific ways to heal it? I already have a few that help, but I suspect there are more effective ways to alleviate the problem once and for all. The reason it's so important to solve is that it limits the length of time I can remain in half lotus when my right leg is on top. Meanwhile my left leg feels like it could stay on top much longer, but I don't let it because both legs must be equal. Yesterday I was doing stretches to open my hips, as I do, and it must have unstuck a bunch of energy or something because not only did it rush down to my feet, causing the redness (first in my right big toe, then left, then both feet completely red) but it also activated my sex organs, making me very horny and causing pain in my prostate/base of my penis This particular pain is a problem I've had since puberty. It's usually related to either fapping too much or abstaining like I'm doing currently. It used to get unbearably agonizing when I was like 13. I tried the golf balls which helped, but the feeling was more intense than ever. Then I went outside barefoot to "check the mail" and the sensations on my feet were so pleasurable they almost felt like sexual stimulation. When I returned inside, I was reasonably satisfied, although I would have wanted to continue walking barefoot for much longer. I was also quite sleep deprived by this time, since I'm still resetting my circadian rhythm the hard way Feeling so aroused I was hoping that when I fell asleep I would see Kali again, but I just had this recurring dream about my dead dog coming back to life. I listened to songs about Kali that I found, and mantras. Soon enough I'll get some of those prayer beads so that I can lose myself without OCD fixation getting in the way, and express the attraction and love and deep yearning in my heart when I think of her. Today I did a neck stretch I haven't done in a while, because I had been focused on finding ways to regulate my energy without FG. It helped with pic related, but caused a strange dull throbbing pain to the right of my tailbone and adjacent to my anus. It was slightly pleasurable and didn't feel like anything bad. I think it's finally gone now that I've finished writing this.

>>7832 The upper part of your drawing would be what is traditionally called "tennis elbow", epicondylitis, but when computers became more widespread, it turned into "mouse arm", it effects the same muscle groups and is caused by repeated low tension movements over extended time periods. In the case of this appearing as you are using a computer mouse (or playing tennis), the immediate solution is to use the other hand. I experienced this in high school after prolonged computer use, during that period I simply learned to use the mouse on my left hand instead, and for some reason I never developed an issue with the left side. The part down into your leg, looks like possible https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sciatica in which case you should be careful with what exercises you do. I recommend getting examined by a professional physiotherapist for this. In my experience, the remaining tension when all other possible medical conditions are solved, doesn't have a single solution. Ashtanga yoga may help, a full body program. Although it appears in one part of the body, the cause may be complex.

>>7820 Found the board while scrolling through the first page on the board list. I thought it was divine providence for your memery when it popped up and that is why I mentioned it. I don't know why you consider my post as a passive aggressive snark.

>>7840 Something about the subtext rings very closely to the same condescending demeanor in which my sperm donor talks to me in. There's a general reason why I hold contempt and scorn for hoes and it all comes back to how effeminate my henpecking father and his side of the family is, so you don't need to know any deeper beyond the fact that my own mother was more of a masculine role model than my own father is.

>>7899 (5472) >I have been forced to take anti depressants and anti psychotics since I was 6 years old >I tried going off my meds cold turkey and I felt extremely psychic and could feel energy really well but I ended up with crazy wizard syndrome and psychotic delusions and ended up arrested eventually for making school threats >>7901 (5472) >>7905 (5472) >>7914 (5472) Bringing the topic here because it's no longer a blog. He would have to solve the core issue which caused him to make those threats, first. It would come from some kind of mental/spiritual composition, since there are a lot of people who >are not on meds >don't threaten to commit violence >are psychotic, but still don't Now you could blame manipulation by spiritual forces or 5G antennas or anything outside of yourself, but it still doesn't change the fact that most people do not step out of line like this. So the solution is to fix this issue, which is part of yourself, in the most direct sense it's in your DNA physically. Violent tendencies could be removed, or they could be strengthened genetically, that's a first thing. Secondly, even if you have a lot of "fuel" which could cause a fire, there is nothing saying it will actually ignite; that's the other part, your mentality. The Fringe solution would be to use your mind and spirit to change whatever is causing your violent tendencies to appear, then also aim to change your physicality to not support them. Even if you got a verdict to take these medications for life, the physical is controlled by the spiritual, maybe the timeline itself can change and nullify this if you make actual improvement. Moreover, taking anti-psychotics doesn't have to block your abilities. I have a friend who was put on them for being very insane and hospitalized for several months at a time. But when he came back, he could still do perfect channelling. He was just too open to anything. Maybe this is your problem too. Had you been living in a primitive village in some ancient past, you could have been the village shaman with the right training. But they also used drugs to initiate awakening in different ways, they just had a known methodology for it. Don't overlook the possibility that spirits may have driven you to this situation because they want you to take these meds and become a controlled occultist instead of just turning into a mass shooter where you'll be locked up and would be useless to them. https://web.archive.org/web/20180408105851/https://www.jaysongaddis.com/the-shamanic-view-of-mental-illness/

Does anyone here know how to force unlock spirit senses?

>>8174 Yes, it's known as Mk-ultra or trauma programming.