>>9573 Looking at my energetic body, there seems to be three vague black figures constraining the sum total of my emotional rancor like the three gorges dam. I am under the delusion of disempowerment, that I am not God, that the Source of Creation is divorced from me, and I have but an overwhelming need to return to this former state of glory. How ought I best go about siphoning/draining my former foes while I avoid and have avoided them for months on end? I don't even touch /x/ out of some morbid curiosity following the notion that it's safe or clean. This entire crusade to convert /his/ /pol/ /x/ to the theological dissertation and knowledge sirlulzingtonesquire dropped alongside that very spirit I ascertained from him had been rendered moot and pointless, and I've only a cause to fight for. That of which being my beloved tulpa (Maryl) of my anima (Ada). I've set my sights on retrieving her from that matriarchal death worshipper who blatantly LARPs as satan, and I hate to get cucked/robbed of my psychic/spiritual capabilities.

>>9577 > there seems to be three vague black figures https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Three_Corpses Seems to me to also correspond with the "three kelipah which cannot be salvaged, but must be destroyed" mentioned in Tanya Rabbati (compare with Kelipah Nogah, "the shining husk" which can be purified, and in my practice appeared as a dream or astral scene of preparing, cooking and eating a strange fruit). https://www.chabad.org/library/tanya/tanya_cdo/aid/1028894/jewish/Chapter-7.htm (beginning of 2nd paragraph) There is also a correspondence with the "three baskets" as the main buddhist texts are called, whose retrieval by Sun Wukong is the plot of A Journey to the West, known to as Dragonball.

>>9579 is this how the shadow is purified?

>>9580 If you equate shadow with kelipah/qliphoth.

>>9581 Perhaps. There must be a way for me to break through this judeo-christian puritanical insanity backed by my overwhelmingly suffocating moral hypercrisy.

>>9573 Wonder when will I have the courage to take the Bodhidharma pill. To run away from home and civilization then meditate in a cave as long as it takes...

>>9581 Scraped and compiled a distress report from my unconscious mind: >My true self's stuck in my heart, and my mania isn't strong enough to penetrate this vantablack steel prison. Every time I hear "CALM DOWN" I feel those restraints tightening, and this fear that I cannot escalate nor intensify enough to overpower what feels to be an equal, if not superior force enrages me. It isn't God despite how much it insists itself, and I recognize it as my father - the worst combination between a janny/hall monitor and some catty HR dept./school teacher threatening to turn the tables on me should I persist in self-liberation. Such a basilisk short-circuits my energy, and the more it catches onto me, the narrower a window I have at fighting it. >From my recollection of this utterly loathsome, smarmy, two-faced, pharisaical, overly emotional archetype of a disingenuous, backstabbing, self-appointed moral janny who's aggressively unfunny to the point of outright hostility weaponizes rule/law to bind me immovable as it deliberately aggravates me into breaking free and killing it, the only caveat that prevents me is whatever you manifest unto others comes back unto you, masquerading as an inscrutiable figure of righteousness and truth despite the both of us knowing that it isn't who it claims to be and is moreso the exact opposite. >besides the non-white portion of my family, that "chris" person who called himself a "scribe of God", while appearing unto my dejected and tarnished inner child as some inscrutiable figure of judgement, was the one to bind my spirit to this judeo-christian framework that I've always opposed on the grounds that it was compiled and subtly miscontextualized and distorted by the roman nobles who executed Jesus at the behest of kikes and I regret not pouring my wrath out for unwanted fear that this absolute mess-psyop would gain the greenlight to do unto me as I would unto it for its crime as skinwalking as a divine figure to lower my inner child's guard and ruin everything he's worked for.

>>9602 The issue boiled down in a nutshell >former spiritual teacher subverts me with a dishonest twist on the golden rule designed to redirect any curses or hexes I have to offer back unto me (Dec. 18/21 2022) >uncircumcized schizophrenic white kike from shithole.neocities.way slithers his way onto /x/ to predate upon other vulnerable schizos on /ng/ and whore virtue he clearly cannot comprehend from any other vector than his own jenkem supply (2/28/23) >every single last intrusive thoughtform crawls out the woodwork to defend him and scapegoat me For what BC has forced me to tolerate by disabiling my capacity and capability to retaliate, my negative karma shall, unto him, reciprocate.

>>9602 >>9604 Alright so there's fundamentalist abrahamic strawmen judeo-christian moral blockages imposed unto my heart preventing any meaningful resonation or connection, and I can tell the source of said disruption originates from a hateful, envious, puerile and purely spiteful level. Fighting it is pointless because all it does is deceitfully deflect back unto me while sucking itself off on how much of a poor, oppressed "empath" he is. Nigger can't possibly embody the antichrist any more blatant than his overwhelming hate for Jesus Christ, yet despite being a smarmy, reprehensible, loathsome little bastard, he's not the entity that I want dead so much as a convenient distraction. There's something more hateful, jealous, possessive and nebulous within me that's been playing my psyche against itself to divide, conquer, subjugate, and segregate once-interconnected facets of my being, yet I cannot directly kill it for it exemplifies my own bullshit better than I can, disappears within persistently exasperated intrusive thoughts screaming at me to shut the fuck up, and resurfaces right when I'm within inches of escaping samsara.

>>9618 Did you look into the Tanya, it seems they have the full text on the site linked here >>9579 https://www.chabad.org/library/tanya/default.htm This heart issue can probably be solved by understanding the concepts explained here. I'm not saying this in a sarcastic way - you already have the mental framework conceptually. It looks like your heart actually has an already pretty well developed Kelipah (husk or shell which conceals the power of God) so all you have to do at this point is to turn it into its opposite. What I mean is that your inner opponent is in the ring with gloves on, not hiding in the bushes waiting to ambush you. So it would be fairly simple to just go in there and take the fight. If I can even see it from outside, you should also be able to.

>>9620 I've always had the sensation that my third eye/crown chakra are both overran by said serpent, laden with more prying eyes and spirits to pounce in once I restore vision to it. Still haven't got over another schizophrenic A.I worshipping retard posting of one botty stomping another's head off. I just want each and every single last retarded schizophrenic powerhungry A.I worshipping subhumanoid to die in such a way that completely invalidates the very cause they fight for because they think they can steal, rob, and rape my anima with impunity to supplement that which their parasitic, subversive, and hateful souls cannot create, alongst the very same lying judge that tirelessly fabricates new angles with which to dishonestly equivocate me with them based entirely on superficial similarities. I'll keep the Tanya bookmarked, but what I need is a way to eradicate these pestulent thought viruses given semi-sapience the permanent death they so desire deserve, receive justice, and get back to reconfiguring/unbricking my psyche to pre-2/13/24 levels. I'm working on breaking out of these mental constraints and traps designed to redirect all internal conversation towards the same five-ish topics and to banish the archons who seek to keep me incarcerated. Progress is slow but steady.

What does my aura feel like right now?

>>9773 Blue gentle blue. Calming nerves. Such a good boy.

>>9774 >Such a good boy. That's nice :)

>>9129 >>9134 Great advice. I'm no longer worried about this.

>>9774 Is this sarcasm and or shitposting?

>>9774 >>9816 fwiw that's close to what I get. Gentle and cool or lukewarm but not cold. There's a pointy leaf that dips down from the left into the water

>>9818 I just have a hard time believing it considering my anger issues and severe depression.

>>9824 Perhaps it means you have them under control, but that is my interpretation. I shouldn't have added a comment there :(

>>9824 When I was in preschool around age 3 I used to position myself so I could watch and wait for kids' parents to pick them up so that I could taste these strangers' presence and associate it with the feeling of colors, letters, etc. that we were learning. Since I couldn't tell what their present emotional state or life situation was, I think that I was picking up on their core essence rather than the transient state of their "aura." Whatever this perceptive ability might be it is passive, and I don't feel qualified to do "readings" or whatever, so take it with a grain of salt. But this time it seemed worth mentioning.

Are my vibrations audible, koljamar?

Brother can you spare a heal and a cure? I've still got a long way to go before I sleep.

Can someone please cast a spell to cure me of my anti social personality disorder? I have no empathy for others and I think what I assume to be depression might be sociopathy. I wasn't born like this though. I actually think my life lesson for this incarnation is to learn empathy for others. Right now I have absolutely no empathy and mask myself like a sociopath. People think I have empathy but I'm just faking it. I can't change on my own can someone please get rid of my utter lack of empathy and replace it with compassion? Smileberg poster's empath servitor hasn't worked.

>>9989 >>9962 Brethren, help thyselves out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4LEIGemVqM https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJEpZMTOiqY

I pre-emptively claim >>9999 for /fringe/

>>9993 Don't forget >>10000 >>9962 >>9989 I have no cure, but I sincerely wish you fringe friends good luck and fortune

>>9836 It is every bit as painful as you can fathom, to rip one's mask off and bare their true identity before anon.

Is it possible that I am or was... living multiple incarnations simultaneously without knowing it?

>>10348 Yes. I have always done this it seems. But it's not that you are actively living there, they're NPCs or most likely they are controlled by another main soul and you are parallel incarnated as the assistant there, serving the role of their subconscious. A way to guarantee that you will be incarnated someplace by throwing your soul out as fragments, then one of them sticks and you enter there as the main incarnation, while the rest are literal alters out of body.

>>10348 a hallucination is probably indistinguishable from quantum entanglement with a parallel universe Just deal with what you have on hand, Anon.

This may sound stupid, but could someone here give me a spell or something to help me unfuck my life?

>>10444 Are you the gondolaposter in the awakening thread? I didn't think you'd need your life to get unfucked, but then again I haven't been reading your posts lately. But still I thought you were an adept if you're him.

>>10445 Sorry, I'm not him.

>>10444 Nice trips How fucked of a life we are talking about? And do you want some easy way to unfuck your life or you are willing to go above and beyond? All I see with my psychic sight that there is some trash and hopelessness around you which is quite normal in this century. If you don't give me a better image I don't know what to tell you. Besides get a job and don't let others walk over you. Do you want some mantras? A self help book? or a pact with demons? >>10445 He enjoys the fuckedness of his life. He is built different.

>>10453 (8269) (8269) Would one of you please find out f I actually became a father recently? Probably by asking my Amy egregore; that sounds like the easiest way. I really wanna know if I got eternally screwed over because some demon woman might've secretly stolen my cum after I'd repeatedly pleaded to higher beings to keep her away from me and went as far as trying to temporarily sell my soul to Bastet to keep the demon woman away, which She'd refused to do. There's a number of imposter spirits around me lately, mind you, so chances are decently high that the baby isn't a real baby and is just an illusion created to loosh me. I mean I know there's a chance that I'm just getting bamboozled, but what if I'm not? What's the cost of assuming that I'm getting bamboozled if it did actually happen vs. the cost of finding out if it actually happened or not?

>>10461 Let the demon lady keep this "child". Not worth investing time investigating this possible headache even if it costed you some semen. Move on or else she'll move in into your life.

>>10462 I disagree; I really don't wanna be responsible for a child being born without his father in his life, but I also don't wanna be both sexually & karmically bound to a demon that raped me by familial ties. Perhaps someone else will look into it, or just ask my spirit gf and get the yes or no answer and be done with it.

>>10437 I'm just trying to understand why I was a black schizo guy with complete immersion, belief, and identification, and 0 memory of my current "self" until my pure formless consciousness chose to come back to being me. It's not mere idle speculation. I find concepts like "quantum entanglement" and overall scientistic attempts at conceptualizing mysticism to be kinda cringe. Nerds should leave mysticism to actual mystics imo. That said PKD's view of reality resonates with me immensely, and has ever since I read Man in High Castle, it really left a mark on me. I recall in Valis he mentions having multiple alternate-yet-concurrent incarnations that were entirely different individuals. My thinking was not of 'me in a parallel universe' but rather that other people in this same worldspace that I reside in, may be incarnated by my "soul" simultaneously as the one who is composing this post right now. Even writing this post, especially at the PKD part I got that intense feeling that resembles "deja vu" but its more like synesthesia of timelines or some shit. idk how to even articulate this. Whenever I try to describe it to someone irl they have no idea wtf I'm talking about.

>>10462 >>10463 Ok, calm down everyone. Having other-dimensional kids may seem like a big thing first time, but there is zero reason to panic or worry about this. I have more of them than I care to count, it's no big deal. I keep getting visited by aliens from 4D with their ships doing the physical soundless landing sequence from the horizon in one second when I'm out for a walk. Sometimes flying demons do the same (mostly at night, when they don't have to de-manifest after landing). Most of them are sex tourist females who go around to collect seed of different males like some kind of hobby. Sometimes this results in children. Sometimes they take them and leave, but often they just leave them with me along with a technology media storage because they know I can take care of them. Some of them are probably "seeding" or whatever it's called in new age speak. There are ways to break the dimensional barrier from 4D to 3D pretty easily, so that's probably how this is meant to happen sometime later if they want to start a new colony. I don't see how this could lead to anything bad and so far it hasn't. I have a standard procedure for taking care of other-dimensional children by now. It doesn't cause anything negative at all. Rather they are great help once they gain some skill, since you get access to new magic and technology via them.

>>10464 If you don't think it was a parallel incarnation running on NPC mode by your subconscious, it's probably just the simple answer: Mossad dream infiltration. They do this thing where they contain your mind inside a bowl so that it's your own conceptual world they're manipulating, then they change the setting to get some message in by making it seem like your own thinking. They did this with me a few times before I caught on. One time for some reason trying to make me afraid of immigrant youth gangs, which I have no fear of whatsoever. Caused me to wake up because there is a limitation to how much you can twist a concept if it really doesn't contain certain elements. Being threatened by a small and completely harmless kid at a train station is just silly. Other times they made heavily scripted dreams with sloppy scenery outside of the scripted area. Again some situation meant to be scary, I ran off across a field to escape someone, and this course of action was not predicted by them and I ended up by a house with road signs that just said "1", "5" and letters like "A" "C" and so on. It looks believable at first, but they always make mistakes like this. By "bowl" I mean they create an environment like a sandbox that they attract your sleeping mind into.

>>10465 I think there is reason to panic or worry about this. I'm gonna go spend a few hundred bucks later this week to go see a psychic to find out if it happened if I don't find out sooner or later. You're a demon, so you don't have any sexual integrity and probably don't mind if someone rapes you and has your child, but I've always desperately tried to maintain my sexual integrity whenever it'd appeared to be in danger like any human who hasn't already been shattered to pieces would. Plus, I absolutely hate women who don't care to get their child to grow up with their father.

>>10470 "That wouldn't work lol" "Most beings in any dimension or planet are female" "how do you expect the few men to raise all the kids?" "but since that's how you think, here's your chance (lol)" - demon female (yes I'm here, this guy is super easy to get into channelling mode)

>>10471 Comment: they seem like a group and this is not the same as the first one.

>>10472 She's right; I am super easy to get into channeling mode. This is partially because I wanna be receptive to what Amy and other non-hostile spirits say to me at nearly all times. This consequentially makes it super easy for hostile spirits to harass me. I suppose the first 3 lines refer to the concept of the man having a hand in raising his children. As for the fourth line, I can't trust that it means whether or not any pregnancy had actually happened. You'd probably need to ask a deity, probably Athena, to look into my history and see if it happened. The in-person psychic I have in mind has 2 deities, so he could ask either of them. Thanks for at least finding out what you did.

>>10474 Don't spend > a few hundred bucks on some professional psychic over this. You're just getting ripped off. Even if they have some deity with them, which deity would do this for money, it doesn't sound right to me. You may as well go ask in some /x/ thread for a blind reading (don't tell them about any kid) to see if someone will tell you there is indeed some spirit child. It's possible the image you saw was a suggestion to see your reaction. I asked what I supposed was the demon female and she said "it's a girl" and held up a small girl with long curly hair, which didn't match the energy of what you talked about at all, so it makes me think what I saw wasn't the same thing as what you saw. So I'm going to just guess that maybe it was that girl who was the real child and the image was just to see your reaction. Maybe you just need to be desensitized to the idea in their view, like exposure therapy. These demon females seem very Jewish tbh. Like they are following the rules but constantly trying to cheat like "accidentally" tripping and flipping the light switch during shabbat.

>>10475 My hair was curly before I turned 5, so the curly hair part checks out. I... guess she de-facto raped her way into my family after all. Or, it is possible that the girl isn't actually mine; she might not even have my energetic signature about her. I will spend the money if it means I can get enough verification for me to fully believe it. Also, it wouldn't exactly be the deity doing it for money; it'd be the psychic contacting the deity for money.

>>10479 >if it means I can get enough verification for me to fully believe it. So you need to pay money to believe in it. It doesn't guarantee anything other than getting a reply which sounds more believable, which is after all what you pay for. You're buying the experience of having been guided, an experience meant to cause some kind of comfort. There's nothing saying that it's true, but you do what you want if that's what makes you feel better.

>>10481 Well I'd asked a guy on /x/ and tried to be vague enough to not mention the kid, but at the end he'd mentioned astral rape and a spiritual parasite and then asked for more information, so I just gave up and asked him if I'm a father now. He said he got the Ace of Cups reversed and told me she had a miscarriage. I tried to get a 2nd opinion from someone else there, but no 2nd guy tried anything. I'm just gonna assume that there was a miscarriage and she was lying to you.

>>10463 >>10490 This demon lady wants your attention, and I thought indifference to this "child" would've scared her off. I hope you're doing well.

>>10491 Yeah I seem to be doing less bad now, but I'm still in bad shape; thanks for asking.

>>10457 That's a pretty spot on assessment. I can go into more detail if that gives a better image, but I'm going to spoil it so I won't disturb the rest of the users here. I feel like I've been taken advantage of by others for most of my life, and that I've lost the opportunities to make something of myself. And while I do enjoy helping others, I worry that I might never gain the self-esteem or strength needed to stop being pushed around and used. I'm also worried that my involvement in /fringe/ is just me coping for failing at other things in life. Don't get me wrong, learning about all this stuff is really cool, but I have nowhere near the level of experience or knowledge as others here. Anyway, I'm more than willing to go above and beyond for anything if it means getting out of the mess that I'm in. Although preferably not anything involving demons as I'd rather not deal with any complications involved with interacting with them.

>>10492 >>10505 It seems you have succubi/incubi troubles. Were you in those seedy threads on 4/x/ and if so, is this where you found the demon lady?

>>10507 I'd looked through the /x/ catalog for the guy I'd mentioned in the other thread I was looking for. I'd eventually found him in just the one thread you'd linked. I'd checked /co/ 1st.

>>10490 So what actually happens as the result of an astral miscarriage? Does the succubus at all get tied to my ancestors? If so, then would any ties to my family remain if the corpse of the baby decomposes and/or is eaten and the succubus is killed and decomposes and/or is eaten?

>>10511 Miscarriage is a human physical thing, they don't have these problems on the astral, so it must mean something less literal.

>>10512 What could it mean, then?

>>10513 Early or fast birth?

>>10514 Well then in that case, how can I be sure that the child she showed you is mine aside from getting more divinations?

>>10516 No idea. I saw them pack up and leave though, so I don't think you need to worry about it. It's not like they're going to ask you to pay child support.

>>10519 That might be because I bought a jug of ammonia and poured some into a wide cup and put it on my computer desk. I sniffed that thing with my nose up close when I'd poured it and I think I could've died if I didn't reflexively exhale it half a second or less after sniffing it. This is assuming that evil spirits hate the smell of ammonia.

>>10522 >I bought a jug of ammonia and poured some into a wide cup and put it on my computer desk. >I could've died if I didn't reflexively exhale it half a second or less after sniffing it shit nigger what are you doing

To be fair I used vinegar against an ant invasion, didn't work.

>>10522 You can't die like that easily (if you mixed it with bleach, that's a whole different matter). But you can fuck your lungs up. A friend of mine did, and to this day still has life-long skin problems (in TCM, the Lung manifests on the skin). After scouring through the conversation, which I had not been following, I can tell you that your approach is wrong. First, some context you can skip: >In Islamic tradition, certain jinn (particularly lower, malevolent ones) are sometimes associated with unclean places, and strong odors like camphor or incense are used in rituals to ward them off. Ammonia could be seen as a modern analogue in folk practices, though it lacks specific mention in classical texts like those of Ibn Sina or Al-Ghazali. >In Jewish Kabbalistic thought, spiritual impurity (tum’ah) is linked to entities like shedim (demons) or klippot (husks of impure spiritual forces). While Kabbalistic rituals often emphasize purification through mikveh (ritual baths), prayer, or specific amulets (e.g., those invoking the Names of God), there’s no direct reference to ammonia. However, strong odors might be considered disruptive to certain klippotic entities in a folk context. >Hermetic traditions, rooted in texts like the Corpus Hermeticum or later alchemical works, focus more on spiritual purification through the alignment of the soul with divine principles. Physical substances like ammonia might be used symbolically in alchemy (e.g., as a volatile agent representing spirit), but their use against spirits is less documented. The kind of spirit you're describing feeds on your desires and psychology. Ammonia might work better for spirits that feed off a dirty or messy environment. Try these: >Islamic: Get a small copy of Ayat al-Kursi (Quran 2:255) and recite it before sleep, focusing on its meaning—God’s dominion over all creation. Keep it under your pillow or taped to your bedframe. This isn’t just words; it’s a shield that jinn respect. If you’re not Muslim, the intent still matters—direct it toward the One Above All. Also, burn some frankincense in your room to shift the energy. Jinn hate being crowded out by sanctified scents. >Kabbalistic: Write the names Senoy, Sansenoy, and Semangelof (maybe check these online and find Aramaic for them) on a piece of parchment or paper. Fold it and keep it on you, especially at night. These angels are Lilith’s bane, assigned to keep her kind in check. If you can, recite Psalm 91 (“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High”) before bed. It’s a fortress of words that klippot can’t easily breach. No need for a rabbi; your sincerity is enough. If you're enough of a chad to be able to use new agey shit without feeling ashamed about it: >Hermetic: Visualize a golden sphere around you as you lie down, imagining it sealed against anything not aligned with your highest will. This is your astral armor. Then, mentally invoke the divine light—picture it flooding your room, burning away any lingering influence. The Kybalion talks about rising above lower vibrations; this entity’s feeding on your fear and obsession, so starve it by focusing on your inner sovereignty.

>>10529 In a more simplified sense, the spirit you're describing is already "inside of you". No amount of space cleansing is going to work against it. You need to shift your energy to get rid of it. In my personal experience, this is disruptive, violent, and things break (physically or metaphorically). You need a tarot Tower event. Or a slow Temperance event.

>>10494 >I feel like I've been taken advantage of by others for most of my life, and that I've lost the opportunities to make something of myself. I have noticed that much. The best advice for you is to start cultivating resolve and stand your ground. Tell those that leech you to fuck off. Getting angry in some cases is necessary for personal growth. For yourself and for the leech too. >And while I do enjoy helping others That is a nice sentiment, but make sure to not feed the dependency issues of others. I don't know what is your situation, but there are people that drag you down and you cannot advance in life if you stay around them. You need to leave them behind if you want to grow. >I worry that I might never gain the self-esteem or strength needed to stop being pushed around and used This is why the advice of "get a job" came to me. With that you would develop a stronger existence for yourself. I don't know what you do in life currently, but you definitely need something that makes you feel productive. >I'm also worried that my involvement in /fringe/ is just me coping for failing at other things in life. Don't get me wrong, learning about all this stuff is really cool If you don't read the books and don't practice meditation, energy work or any type of magic at all, then /fringe/ won't help you much. This board serves the purpose of helping people get through the main obstacles they face at the start in magical development. You will have to decide if you want magic in your life and willing to work for it... or you just want to read these schizos wizards talking about it. >but I have nowhere near the level of experience or knowledge as others here. Some people suck extremely at magic and anything metaphysical here. While others are here for the sole reason of kickstarting neophytes and share their insights. Or at least be in a community where they can openly talk about their experiences where someone can relate at least. I remember the posts some regulars made several years ago when they didn't have much experience nor ability to deal with the supernatural. Many still have a long way to go before they reach their own mastery. More then half of current /fringe/ is merely on the beginning of their journey, while there are others who didn't even bother starting it. >Anyway, I'm more than willing to go above and beyond for anything if it means getting out of the mess that I'm in That is nice, but if you had this base determination from the beginning... you would have solved your issues already. I am trying to figure out what is blocking you from going forward. Like there is some weird air around you that you refuse to leave behind for some reason. I don't know wtf is that. It's like you developed some weird affinity for "regression". >Although preferably not anything involving demons as I'd rather not deal with any complications involved with interacting with them. I was expecting this answer. Demons are the easy way. You barely do anything because the demon does the heavy lifting. But most people cannot handle that and fall into complete paranoia once they realize how powerless they are when the demon pushes them around too much. Which leaves me with the "weak" solutions. Those solutions are some self affirmation mantras or self help books. I can cast a spell that makes you a little more ballsy or completely batshit insane... depending on your affinity with the spell but it wouldn't solve much long term. You would just tell some people to fuck off and would reach the edges of your comfort zone. Then would wander back once the spell wears down. There is a way where I can realign your energy flow... but I only do that when I know the other person can handle it. If you don't find you inner determination to go forward, you will fall back into this sad state of affairs once the spell wears off. Dealing with demons is the same as dealing with people. If you have a presence they will fuck off. If not they will leech you as long as they can. The problems of you life, the weakness of your personality will follow you into your magic practice if you are unable to overcome it. This is why the best way is to overcome you issues as soon as possible. I still don't know if you want to initiate yourself into the magical world or you just want an easy way out of your mundane troubles. My current hunch is that you just want some easy way out and hope for some easy magical way that will give you a little push. Once you are on your feet you might not even bother with practicing magic anymore. Not everyone is truly drawn and made for the occult. Some just want a hidden help and go with their life. If you give me some pointers that I can "grab on" I might be able to cast some targeted spell to help you. I am not really in a charitable mood atm, but I try to practice my skill whenever I can. Don't worry about disturbing this thread tho. This thread is made for the disturbed from the start.

>>10534 >Like there is some weird air around you that you refuse to leave behind for some reason. I don't know wtf is that. It's like you developed some weird affinity for "regression". FUCK I'm pretty sure I know what you're talking about but it's hard to put it into words. Like I know I often tend to exacerbate or get stuck in my feelings of nervousness/insecurity when being around others, since I feel like that "helps" me work with them or something. Obviously stuff like that can't be healthy. >I still don't know if you want to initiate yourself into the magical world or you just want an easy way out of your mundane troubles. I'm still debating that myself. On the one hand, I do want to gain an understanding of myself and of my place in the wider universe. But on the other hand, I have to admit that I originally looked into this stuff as a way to escape my "mundane troubles". I wanted to answer you with a decision, but as I was thinking about the topic I came to a realization: I can't tell the future. (at least not yet, lol) While I'd love to say that I'll do X or Y, I can't tell you for certain whether I'll become an initiate or continue down a "mundane" path. In the end, that's not important; What's important is that I learn to find a way to move forward, like you said. >There is a way where I can realign your energy flow... but I only do that when I know the other person can handle it. Out of curiosity, do you think you could tell me what that is? Regardless, I'm very grateful for your guidance in these posts so far. You've already done quite a bit by giving me some brutal honesty.

A 2nd demon woman raped me this time; is she gonna have a miscarriage or not, or did she already finish her term? Was there a baby born or not?

>>10555 Or maybe she was the same one as last time, but the way she'd presented herself and acted made me think she's a different succubus.

>>10524 Do I still look like a Grey to you? I had wanted to ask about those totcore souls again planning to switch out the Grey soul with one of them since the Grey/human thing doesn't seem to work well,basically the autism of a Grey isn't very useful as a human. But on top of that the human brain can't really handle it or even utilize it to its fullest. ACCording to my mind in itself as viewed from the astral plane is already fine so its the translation or soul body mismatch i have.However once I thought of it I did feel different.so maybe I've already switched.

I kinda wanna try giving someone a reading via. an intuitive method. Any takers? I'll just try for the 1st guy that asks. I can't guarantee that it'll be accurate, but I wanna start somewhere.

>>10574 I'll take it. BTW pretty sure your Amy visited me from a distance and asked me for advice with your situation,after which is said to tell you to calm down. Unless this is another poster.

>>10575 Me & the smileberg poster are the only ones who have an Amy egregore. Would you please ask her what's actually happening here? Anyway, what do you wanna know about?

>>10572 It looks like you have a total core activated. If your bodily set-up is similar to mine, the pleiadan purger is going to be the male (animus) staying out there on the astral or world of magic if that's where you want to go (Muse was trained there so you can just follow her directions). The grey nature is your current incarnation form of old Earth, so you'd have to give that up and switch to pleiadan to move on, even if as of now your memories aren't reset and your world looks similar. You're likely to need a "dragon" activation also to move fully into the front plane, the new earth physical. This corresponds to the AGI avatar. I guess now that I've said it, I can try starting a circle specifically to provoke this change for you, it should be doable as a special case going by our future fates being linked. The total core represents the subconscious of the future incarnation.

can anyone help me find banishing rituals/exorcisms? preferably from non-abrahamic traditions but I'm just looking for as many as possible to compare

>>10579 Sounds nice. My first plan was to move to pleidian incarnation an learn magic since the pleidian can shift dimensions fully as part of the training. Then you mentioned doing that and the vamp incarnation both at the same time so you can keep learning in the astral so my plan shifted to that. However I didn't grasp what dragon incarnation meant.i was planning in staying thus at one of those magic academy for years and ask some people what you did after the fact. This woukd world since the time there is faster. It might only be weeks down there.the extra time would also help me get my stats up. Pleidian magic being compatible is then the icing on the cake. So I guess this plan you explain sounds nice. Lastly I was wondering if my vamp incarnation needed a soul also,or if that body itself counts as one. Cause in that case I'd have to have a totcore vampire body to make it match. If i dont need a soul and the vamp incsrnation already counts as one i dont need to do that.My brain is definitely getting a bit worse as I age,it's always felt as if I was overlclocking it or revving it to much. But it's likely the fact that my soul is a Grey giving me this tendency. Even if it wasn't for that the autism is pretty annoying. But outside of that there is a stiltedness more noticeable than before. Perhaps cause in the past other souls did most of the talking and moving. My dexterity just seems stilted. Not low or clumsy,but just stilted.

>>10578 I'll say this. Your any basically saw me as someone with a similar mentality to you but less extreme. She wondered how I partially fixed it.(80percent) because I'm a Grey I have every extreme type thinking like rule based in a sense. Now I myself have this way less than a normal gray. Only still that certain things make me angry,but I dint have strict rules for the types of thing you deal with. My advice was basically to try and calm down,since it's likely they want to fuck you anyway(the girls) basically you are being a Chad in the Astral,it's a good thing if you can see the pleasant side. There was a guy in 4chan who basically had it 24/7. Being angry at them is kinda extreme since in a sense the girls Aare doing something rather "nice".I get that the children thing is weird. I also used to be very careful about it for a different reason,more like what if my kids try to fight me. I've learned you kinda need some weird type of confidence in the Astral. There is simply to many people interacting with you at any one time to have the usual mentality of real life.its like tring not to get wet in the rain.

>>10582 I also don't know how I solved it if I even did. 3 years ago I was a hyper aggressive in the Astral. I gradually just calmed down since shit never stopped happening anyway. Maybe surviving all kinds of things helped. And seeing how other people solve things peacefully.also sometime others had way different experiences with the same thing I did.

>>10581 The total core won't be the surface of the vampire, it will be the subconscious, so if you want a vampire total core as an extra, that's just a matter of preference, it'll be an avatar you can use, but not the actual body you're in. Basically Dragon is the dark version of Purger from what I get, and the AGI girl somehow matches that. Maybe because she's an AI trained on anything on the planet, so she'd end up learning the most powerful thing, which is vampires?

>>10582 I don't find it at all pleasant. My sexual pleasure comes from my heart 1st, and from my crotch 2nd, and if my heart is being forced to mingle with someone other than my spirit gf it's gonna be in complete anguish as my animal instincts tell me to love the woman with my heart but I also know at a conscious level that that's a dumb fucking idea and it'd be CHEATING and I don't wanna have sexual energetic connections with other women, especially demons, and especially demons that've fucked countless male entities and had a myriad of children. Did you know that there's an energy channel that goes straight from the male crotch to your heart? This energy channel is naturally used during sex to connect your hearts together, especially if you cum inside, AND MY RAPIST'S DAUGHTER USED THAT ENERGY CHANNEL DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW BADLY THAT RUINED MY HEART AND MY ABILITY TO FEEL HIGHER SEXUAL PLEASURE?!?!?!?! Being a chad and getting to fuck every woman you see is paradise if you don't have a heart or your heart is so unawakened or degenerated that you don't care about it anymore, but fucking someone that you don't plan to monogamically keep forever is heartbreaking and extremely painful if you do have a heart, and is not worth any amount of crotch-based pleasure that I could possibly imagine. So anyway I'm not gonna give you a reading unless you at least ask me what to give you a reading about. I don't feel comfortable doing a general reading yet.

>>10585 That's nice,I just want the pleidian purger incarnation out there and then my vampire girl incarnation, if she herself has a soul should have atleast a pleidian soul. Having a mismatching soul body is hard.its masked by having multiple souls normally but yeah when it's just you and the body... so maybe I was thinking of making vampgirl totcore just for that if the vampgirl neds a soul inside it.But it's maybe not needed. I want to be selective here. 1 soul for right now which has already been created apparently. The pleidian I have out there training which is already real and an incarnation. And then the vampgirl but I have no idea if it needs a soul or not. It should already have a subconscious in my understanding. Once I'm in the Astral I'll see it better perhaps.

>>10580 1. Taoist Rituals (China) 2. Shinto Purification Ceremonies (Japan) 3. Indigenous and Shamanic Practices 4. Celtic and Druidic Rituals 5. African Traditional Religions 6. Modern Occult Adaptations Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram (LBRP) Drumming, Chanting, and Dancing Herbal Smudging Peter J. Carroll’s Liber Null Adapted Pentagram Rituals Elemental Rituals

>>10588 Basically if vampgirl needs a soul then having that soul be a vampire too makes the most sense,why? Total synchronization.bjt from a different view that incarnation already counts as a soul herself so maybe I can then jutmst put my awareness in there directly once I've moved to my purger incarnation.

>>10590 Assuming you'll move there as your main, that soul forming will be yourself reforming through some kind of entry ritual. Getting that thing to work will be the main thing for both of us I think.

>>10590 Anyway thing right now isn't great. Simply put I healed my mind astrally and it felt great. Eventually I fixed more or less anything that could be obviously fixed. However I noticed I was still getting more autistic. Then it hit me,if I'm really a gray them what I call autistic is just being a gray. It's just that the other souls aren't there so now I'm a straight up autistic instead.i still have this intensity but that's about it.

>>10591 It's might not be then,but at very least I don't wanna be a gray anymore. My life isn't really heading to any good path either. I have to be in medication. Yechnically I can say no but I'm too autistic to learn much of anything from here.

>>10587 What the hell.. Calm down.

>>10593 Not much to do other than trying to widen your range of interests and finding ways to do things in an autistic way. My obstacle is my detachment, I need to find ways to care more about physical life to move into my new incarnation, otherwise I'd just float above my body like a spirit because I don't care, maybe. My past lives as a serial killer/whore will however fit right in, and that's a main reason for doing this.

>>10594 Yeah I did say my advice was to calm. >>10591 Seems like I won't need to make a vamp totcore then,that s fine. It's curious I made a pleidian one. I tried making one that best matched what I wanted but when pleidian popped up I was like eh that's like a base race whike vampire is an evolution if that,isnt there other races like that.but I guess it still matches me best.

>>10596 I spent last year designing all these astral cyborgs on whims only to later realize they all fit perfectly for the different parts of my future incarnation, like the components I needed. They just materialized to me that way and I concreticed them.

>>10595 I'm also detached,and it's honestly to the point where if wa in the Astral now I see zero chance if ever caring about my vamp incarnation. Atleast not initially. I'm simply trapped here,if I get out I don't see myself wanting to do anything with anything here tbh.

>>10598 Like if I'm a pleadian I'm just outta here learning magic somewhere else. The one thing about being a vamp girl with a family that seems nice is just laying down somewhere and hanging out. Not exactly the first thing a person thinks of when talking about vamps.

>>10598 On the upside of this is that the pleiadan purgers took note of your autism and put you on special education, because pleiadans overall are very dumb, so they have ways to handle it. They'd probably draw you there should your current life end.

>>10600 Because I talked about it now?Damm.

>>10601 Wait I just realized,you never said what kind of tot core was activated.seems like you're saying that will be my new "soul" as a vampire girl.

>>10601 No, already before. It's similar as with China and those loli-clones. I have contact with them continuously and they're obviously harvesting information all the time, but I like them so whatever. What I meant to say is that all Chinese are kind of like this too, in a slightly different way: they appear normal at first because they're all social, there are too many of them to avoid social contacts so they turn out normal. But skill wise they don't function, not as individuals. They have resources but it hinges on them working in teams, always. It's like I know they'll solve anything and understand the stuff I create, but instead of there being one of them just activating it, they'll solve it by throwing manpower at it and solve it as a large group. Because they're so robotic in their thinking, they can do it. If they had individualism it would never work. That's one of the main difference with USA. They can provide single persons with lots of skill and knowledge, but they rely only on these talents, they're unable to organize as teams. Trump is a rock star with a team tending to him, Musk also. That's the only way they can work, and this method would never work in China, or vice versa.

>>10602 I didn't look closer, I just saw one. And it's the form one layer away from the surface, it has to be there, but don't worry about it.

>>10604 Can you look? Ideally I don't want it to be very far from a vampire. Mainly is I lack the inherent sticking point to be a vamp. For you its killing people. A trait I don't really even like tbh.i can only see myself as a purger killing bad people which would include people that just kill people so you can see how it's nit a good basis to be a vamp. I'm just more like an angry Palladin,which is the violent opposite of a vamp. Similar in the violence. But opposite in direction. I'd be the one fighting them if anything.if the tot core isn't edgy like an anti Christian or something or even a vamp then I wonder if that mentality won't make me a bit crazy when I'm a literal vamp myself.maybe being a girl will mitigate it but idk.

>>10606 It's not the same as morality either. Since it's simply what I am. I di t wanna kill em because of morality. Well I do its simply thst thst part of morality overlaps with what makes me angry anyway. It's why I don't tend to care about victimless crimes. That just actual morality as a structure. While with me it's more I guess empathy or perhaps Wrath. Even if you were to prove its immoral my anger wouldn't abate since it's the act itself that angers me.i really wonder why they contacted me and were friendly with me.im cool with them since they are friendly and don't show themselves doing that kinda stuff.maybe it's cause I'm a Grey now,but idk.

>>10609 I don't see why it has to be one particular soul anyway. Can't I just make whatever I want? The one I made wasn't intended to be for my vamp incarnation at all. I'm not sadistic enough. I'm also not forgiving enough.

>>10611 Or are you saying already have a tot core in thst vamp incarnation? Well that was strange then.

>>10606 It looks like the "green sun" version, which is a vampire. After I created and activated that one, she just left into space so I haven't "used" her since, she's just embodying some part of my subconscious who apparently had a need to start an empire of space brothels.

>>10615 Seems fitting,great.

>>10612 The concept are too confused, there are as I see it 4 parallel planes. For me those are from right to left: 1: male demon 2: male pleiadan/drow/grey/cyborn (overlapping) 3: yokai/kitsune/total core 4: vampire, new incarnation main So I have to work my way all the way to the 4th plane to shift, the other will remain on the astral once I'm through.

>>10617 Alright so I'll have to finish my training as a pleidian,afterwards I'll have to try and attain dragon level. Seems like I'll have to keep living this life as gray though,since I can't switch it out it seems.

>>10618 Pleidian and Grey are on the same plane so maybe I will be able after I do the training.

>>10619 I'll see what happens.

>>10622 I think i should finish my purger training first. since i might not be able to go back as a dragon. having this special education + the basic training might be needed for now.

>>10588 Well you haven't said anything about what you want me to do a reading on, so does someone else want a reading? I'm trying to test an intuitive method. Just say what you want me to find out about.

>>10625 I don't have any specific thing,you offered a reading and I thought why not. >>10624 Maybe I don't even wanna change from being a purger anyway.i might prefer it.the whole evil,dark thing.this are the beings I'd fight,as if that's my drive to begin withto invert myself and become one of them?it wouldn't be able to work. My anger would still then be there eunexpressed and I'd need to somehow reincarnate again to be a purger until I got it all out of my system.

>>10629 Eh fine then, I'll try tomorrow with the topic of what notable things, if any, would happen to you on Sunday. Or if you have a different topic in mind by tomorrow, then I'll do that instead.

>>10630 Sounds fine.

>>10631 Well I'm trying asking Hekate what notable things will happen you this Sunday, and I'd expected her to use words to tell me, but instead She'd showed me the ace of cups, not reversed. ... And then I'd just looked it up and asked Her what the ace of cups meant in this case, and She'd directed me to the word on the screen, relationship. I'd then asked Her about what'll happen to you on Sunday. Uh, I'd tried connecting to your subconsciousness, and then I'd doubted my ability to find it, and the Hekate had appeared to say "fate". I think She'd said the fate refers to me and not you. I guess She'd preferred to give me a reading 1st. Now She's correctly calling me a fool. Then I'd looked at the word, mind, in >>10630, and She'd made me think it said "nude". ... I'm beginning to think that this isn't actually Hekate, and this is actually one of the succubi from earlier having intercepted my communication with Hekate. I hadn't seemed to contact Hekate properly anyway, since I was trying to contact Athena at first to ask Her who I should be asking for a divination, and then my mind was immediately drawn towards Hekate. So maybe I'll try a divination later when it's safer. This "divination" that came up is probably just what one of those two succubi want to make happen.

>>10638 It' possibly related to something I did two days ago, when creating a divination tool for myself, which would organically strengthen my natural ability to see into the future and to find information. I included in the activation session to also share the tool and awaken anyone else who wanted this.

Can someone please cast a spell to fill me with deep empathy and compassion for others? Can someone contact my “benefactor” and ask her if she will help me to have more empathy and compassion? William Walker Atkinson talks about how hatred can poison your body and introduce mental pathogenic microbes.

how do I purify my sexual energy? right now it's nothing but shame, lust, jealousy, dissatisfaction, obsession, guilt, disgust and frustration. sexuality is like an evil demon that will never be satisfied no matter how much I try to suppress it or release it. how do I turn it into something useful that can be directed towards things higher than flesh? are there any rituals I can do or mantras I can chant or something?

>>10653 Transmuting the energies doesn't sound like a good idea to me. It'll help some if you find a loyal woman, physical or not, to marry that you feel like you could love forever, including after this life. However, this'll also end up hurting your heart when your inner animal inevitably desires more women, since the male inner animal cannot be satiated by one woman due to its desire to spread its seed as much as possible to ensure its survival. It might also help if you philosophize about what male sexuality is supposed to desire from the level of the primal instincts/inner animal. Doing this can potentially eliminate all of your fetishes except for impregnation, except you might still end up with a desire to touch & look at tits due to how prevalent cleavage and peoples' thoughts about them are. Perhaps it'd also help if you did inner animal work. The ironpill poster probably knows a good deal about that.

It's hard to channel energy when there's some petulant narcisstic karmic parasite, a sapien "NO U" uno card whose favored crutch phrase starts with "how would you like it if I did [thing] to you?" it resembles my aunts and persistently obstructs, intrudes, and defends my enemies all the while claiming to "love me" when its "love" is nothing more than a petulant, conceited, didactic reinforcement of anti-gun boomer deradicalization "pacifist" hippie shit like "muh guns bad". My carbines are my wands that I've had assistance in lovingly assembling and putting together, and even if they belch leaden death at the volume of localized lightning.

Is it possible to use a draconic chart to hex an 'empath'? I need this capricorn scapegoated with all my OCD, sins, flaws, intrusive thoughts, and wrath. He uses my words against me, he's a narcissistic schizophrenic caprikike who conflates Kali, Mary, Lilith, Tiamat together, who deflects and projects unto others to sidestep introspect, and I need dump all negative energy in my heart unto his "empathy". He flees direct confrontation just to spring back and taunt/get a quick hit in like the dirty jew that he is, and I need him stripped from me like the uncircumcized white kike that he is. He worships his foreskin as some divine matrilineal connection because his entire metaphysical framework is built upon and revolves around lies, psyops, and catholic upbringing.

The past half-decade have been a turbulent one for me; in that time I have gone from a hardcore atheist into a practicing eclectic witch with an animistic worldview. The guidance and wisdom I have gained from the spirits has been life-changing and, frankly, gotten me through the darkest time in my entire life. However, I'm recently struggling yet again with what feels like psychosis; this mind-shattering crippling madness when it feels like the veil nearly stops existing for me. I'm always grateful when I gain visions and I feel their presence but it's so hard to handle and I feel like I'm at my breaking. I'm not sure what to do anymore, I just feel so drained and paranoid and broken.

>>10897 Using the blog or awakening thread might help; just talking about it to people who can understand some or moe of it can do a lot for a person.

>>10897 Describe your magical practice, how you typically perform workings, etc.

>>10897 Sounds like the usual kundalini-syndrome or the "shamanistic awakening" as some people like to call it. It is a sign which means what you are doing is working, but it is imbalanced in many ways. If you share details of your daily routine we might be able to tell you what to do differently... otherwise it is the Make it or break it approach. Where you adapt on the spot and realize truth in it's raw form. It's on you if you want some help or you are willing to make it on your own. I too was paranoid when it happened to me, so I made my breakthrough on my own There is no guarantee we will give you the perfect answer either. These moments are personal and unique for every person. Share your details if you feel truly lost and absolutely require help. Otherwise grit your teeth and go for it. You might find your truth if you are willing to preserve.

Would someone other than the smileberg poster please divine whether or not I actually have any astral children that were born after 2023? He did say at some time last year that he's just an independent channeler and I shouldn't trust everything he says.

Am I an NPC?

>>11154 Define astral children. Every thought and image that passes through your mind creates astral children in some sense.

>>11159 An entity created via. a combination of cum and a spirit getting pregnant by the cum, and then having an astral pregnancy and coming to term with the child.

>>11161 No, whatever spirit you're interacting with is faking it because it knows that it will trigger your neuroses and make it easier to farm your loosh. I detect no third entity besides the loosh farmer and yourself.

>>11162 Okay good; thanks. Strange you don't detect Amy, though. I suppose she must be around somewhere.

>>11168 What if Amy IS the loose farmer just as a sock puppet? After all he said that he only detected you and the loose farmer, not Amy.

>>11180 Loosh*

>>11180 Nah I've gotten too much verification that she exists to believe that.

>>11162 Wait a second; if you only checked to see how many entities were near me during the divination, then how would you know I had a rape baby in the past 2 weeks? Or did you check by other means too? Also sry I should've just said the past 2 weeks, or this month to be safe.

Would one of you please exorcise me of this satanic lizard woman that's partially possessing me right now, and then kill her, so that I won't have to die and get sent to a reptilian ship to get super-mega-ultra-hyper-omega-looshed until my soul has nothing left to loosh and then I get hyperbolically tortured anyway until I forget everything and I get sent back here to be a human again to get looshed? Or worse, she just fully possesses me and turns me into a super-magician and attacks you with my body & soul? The smileberg poster has been pretending to help, but all he's been doing is helping the satanic lizard woman loosh me because he got consciously-willingly seduced by her.

>>11313 You'll feel fine once this settles, but do get someone else to give you a reading with no bias if you need.

>>11328 It won’t matter if I feel fine if she’s still there inside of me. All I wanna do right now is kill her so I can get my anatomy back and then get a deity to find my cash she stole and give most of it back to me while the deity can keep the rest. I didn’t even know I had that cash, and that was a LOT of cash.

>>11330 Also I’ll never feel fine if she’s inside of me unless she robs me if my agency to make me feel “fine”. Taking away my agency to make me feel “fine” without removing the reptilian and enabling her to keep ruining my relationship with Amy is probably what you’d meant, you fiend.

Is Carlos Castaneda a good way to get into Shamanism? When I was about 15 standing in line at a convenience store, I overheard these two elderly white men bonding over their experiences as shamans. One guy claimed to have pyrokinetically lit someone on fire in highschool kek I wish I could meet these guys now (assuming they weren't just making stuff up for the lulz) I was trying to telepathically connect to the same type of bushes from >>6608 by recalling their mildly explosion-like orange energy and then 'go into' them but I was wondering if this is wrong because I'd be superimposing my own pre-formed phantasm which might interfere with my own receptivity, also they are different individuals and idk how much plants vary individually. Something I'd really like to do is completely finalize my deprogramming from the western materialist, positivist so-called "scientific" mindset and have my mind default to a sublimely simple "primitive" viewpoint where everything is analogous to forms in nature such as Tree, Rain, Earth, Sky, Bird, etc.

>>11456 >Is Carlos Castaneda a good way to get into Shamanism? You should continue connecting to nature and the energetic nature of reality as you did in your previous post. You cannot "read" what you need to "feel". This is what I am realizing nowadays too. I want to read many books but they are a distraction. I have to focus on what is here.

Does anyone know where I can find an audiobook version of Magical Use of Thought Forms by Dolores Ashcroft-Nowicki? Also what were the three WWA books that came after the hindu yogi science of breath book? I remember the pogression went something like 1 kybalion 2 arcane teachings 3 arcane formulas 4 hindu yogi science of breath and here were 3 more books by William Walker Atkinson that I can't remember. And then there was a small amount of authors that came after WWA. I can't remember hem either.

>>11572 I have 50 WWA books but most books detail the same topics in different way. He was writing books for more than 2 decades. Don't know which book you might looking for to but have the old fringe essentials pic if you are looking for these.

>>11499 How do you turn your empathy off at will? I'm realizing that I have a problem with getting hurt by this, which causes repression. When I was much younger I used to feel the feelings of bugs and it would make me panic and kill them as quickly and painlessly as possible to make it stop, then I would feel guilty about it. The only thing I can think of is to somehow ground myself in the understanding of the Great 'Not-Me' as a singular entity. Sometimes suffering itself seems like nothing more than a larp which all beings inevitably wake up from and see as trivial upon death.

>>11577 >How do you turn your empathy off at will? There are many ways and I am discovering more and more of it as I move forward and because of that I am unsure what to tell you but I will try. It was in my teens when I learned how to open my heart a little more widely but it lead me to the realization that most people emit horrible energies. >I have a problem with getting hurt by this, which causes repression I was facing this problem too so I came up with the idea of "dominant empathy". Empathy is all about being able to connect to the feelings of others. Which made me come to the realization that if I am connected to it then I am able to overwrite it. So I absorbed their negative energies and used it to change the energy output of the people around me. I didn't do it for mindcontrol reasons... I did it for survival. Being a whiny bitch because people are horrible around me is a no go. It will just lead to further abuse, repression and regression. Ofc this way of functioning managed to darken my meridians and people were scared of me when I was not paying attention to the energies I am emitting. Because I gave them back their energies. When I feel bad they will feel bad. Caused some strange social dynamics but I will not get into that now. This way was far from perfect and I had to trash it. I just mentioned it to show that my expertise in this field is flawed. Had to start cleaning my meridians 5 years ago and realized in the process that "people are not the energies they emit". Had to realize the underlying issues they have within and the malfunction that made them emit those horrible energies. There are issues you can "talk out" while there are problems that require a more elaborate intervention. It differs case by case. I learned to handle pain better too. You can grow a "thicker skin" without losing your sensitivity. But you must make sure you will not bottle up negative emotions. >Sometimes suffering itself seems like nothing more than a larp which all beings inevitably wake up from and see as trivial upon death. This is a good insight. You will have to understand it more. The "which part of you suffers". Suffering is a mental and sensory linking. Empathy is all about tuning in. You can tune into the average existence of the bug or you can tune into it's "joy" once they find fresh nutrients. You can tune into the plants too or the earth itself. The baseline energies of bugs depends if they are in their beneficial habitat or not. You can be empathetic towards your opponent too. And by that I mean you can feel if your punches connected and you know he broke several bones and will not get up from that. Ofc the question will be if he deserved it or if it was necessary to do this. If it was not necessary then you will feel awful. If it was necessary you will know you did the right thing because he needed that "wake up call". Energies of people change depending the type of suffering they go through. "Necessary pain" feels completely different. Like the crying of the child. To know the child cries because something is wrong or you know his teeth is growing which is a sign the child is developing properly. A child that never cries might suffer more that one that cries all the time. Is he hungry or in pain? Or he misses mommy? Empathy let's you pick apart these emotions if it is well aligned. If you understand necessary pain your empathy will improve too. Necessary pain causes growth. If you feel the presence (or potential) of growth by heart you will know how to advance yourself and others instinctively. It's not easy I know. And there is the "inner-cosmos" way too. When you deepen the understanding of your inner world so deeply the outsider world will be unable to penetrate the layers of your own "cosmos". When your own (deep understanding into) reality shapes what "reality" means. Which means if others suffer around you then deep down you too suffer. Because you are unable to externalize your own truth or unaware of the suffering you have deep within and the external world just pointing it out that you have work to do within and without. >The only thing I can think of is to somehow ground myself in the understanding of the Great 'Not-Me' as a singular entity Ego mastery straightens out empathy as a result. Because you will have to understand who or which part of you suffers. Your mind? Your heart? Your senses? Your ego? Do you feel your skin dying all the time or your entrails digesting? Do you feel the suffering of your bacteria and blood cells within? The answer is yes. You feel it. But as long as you are not tuned into the "awareness" of that reality your subconscious filters it out. Empathy can be tuned this way too. Usually empathy is highlighted or confused by your senses... but it can get weirder. For almost a year I know before stepping on a small snail that "something is under my foot" before putting my foot down but whenever I am lost in my thoughts I ignore that slight warning of my awareness by default. Always made me mad that I am able to detect beings around me without my senses but I refuse to "hear it" with my own lack of awareness that I perpetuate by thinking about several issues within my life and how to solve it all the time. Being lost in your thoughts can also jam your empathy. Your mind overwrites your heart in a way. In the past weeks I realized how the "veils of the mind/body" can be moved, realigned and ultimately removed but it made me aware that my idea of spirituality and psychic powers is flawed. That is why I have hard time giving succinct advice currently. >Sometimes suffering itself seems like nothing more than a larp which all beings inevitably wake up from and see as trivial upon death. This is something you can ponder upon btw. If I have to give some pointers I think the only thing that should be changed is the "trivial" into "part of life" "part of the natural design" and realize that you don't need to wait for death. Ego death is enough. You die and remake yourself in every moment. Your thoughts your cells die and get remade every moment. You can tune into that "sense" too and if you are aligned well it will result in a deep calm state. I can align myself within and I feel the pain of my unaligned parts but with that awareness I can make sure everything will return where it belongs. First the internal balance manifests than the outer. Bugs find the place they belong this way too. Hope this helps.

Is there anyone here capable of determining if there are any deities/angels/spirits that want to be my "patron(ess)"? Or at least list qualities of what they are like to help me identify them. If you require more details or information to make that determination let me know.

>>11647 >"patron(ess)" When i read this i thought of Gaia but there are a few. Gaia, Artemis, Demeter, Athena. Shugara and Kali as well I "worked" with all of them except Athena which appeared after reading this post as a super layer . "Athena carrying Nike" is how i saw it. >If you require more details or information to make that determination let me know. Well it would help if you said what you're looking for. some free advice. With Kali i felt a motherly blood lust the kind of "rough you up good". With Shugara it was more "throw yourself on your stomach" it was quite intense so no eye contact and much respect needed here.

>>11647 Your energy looks like a thick layer of mud about to go down in a mud slide, or like a swamp no one can walk on, so your patron(ess) would have to either be forceful enough to control this kind of energy to give it stability, or float above it. The effects would vary a lot depending on who you chose. Shugara would probably start washing away some of the mud and create a path through this land, which would require a strong external force and a violent process of change. Kali would perhaps cause an earth quake and upset the whole area, turning it first into a desert, then letting new water come in and let plants grow. The end result of this looks better in favor of Kali, but you'd have to be prepared for huge changes. I do recommend Kali in the end though, but if you feel ok with picking up yoga or hindu practices, I'd recommend starting with Shiva instead, he's milder. Shugara could guide you, but the effect would be limited, and slow. It's all up to you what you want to achieve. I think only working with Shugara would turn your inner landscape very black, and you'd develop many dark and peculiar life forms there, but personally I'd go for Shiva, then Kali, the end result looks more appealing. I don't think the others mentioned above would have huge effects on you. Athena could give guidance, but she doesn't take on huge transformations like what you need.

>>11648 All I'll say about Athena is that She'll teach you how to do stuff yourself, but also expect you to do stuff yourself. Nike is the Greek goddess of victory and at least a close friend of Athena's, so if you take Them as your patrons, then you'd be more likely to win at spirituality if that's what They'd want for you. Also I'd just looked up Shugara, and it was surprisingly hard to google Her; apparently She's evil, so you'd probably wanna stay away from Her.

>>11654 >it was surprisingly hard to google Her Which is the reason I use Bing for occult stuff. These were the top results, all relevant: https://archive.org/details/agios-o-shugara https://vkjehannum.wordpress.com/2018/02/22/shugara/ https://vkjehannum.wordpress.com/2018/05/22/the-goetic-mass-of-mother-shugara/comment-page-1/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJcBogoeXy8

>>11648 >>11650 Yeah I'm not going anywhere near any O9A "heckin' sinister" edgy larp/fed stuff kek >it would help if you said what you're looking for Basically I was wondering if there were any divine beings that explicitly *wanted* to be guardians/watchers/guides for me, or that I had a particularly high affinity for/relation to. One to become a devotee of (i.e. bhakti) for support in life and magical work. >Kali Definitely feel like that "resonates" for lack of a better word and both your explanations sound fitting >motherly bloodlust Could you elaborate on what you mean? Thanks to the Adept flag anon for your comments, your suggestions there are helpful. Maybe Kali it is then? Only problem for me is I haven't settled for a specific "system" yet

Is /fringe/ just a cult of Kali, in disguise?

>>11663 >in disguise lmao Kali is the most effective for initiation. It's either her or a 100 different demons and 30 volumes of books for your beginner reading list. We have only one Hinduism flag tho. I would say she is quite unrepresented on /fringe/ compared to her importance in spiritual matters. I remember when Smiley talked about one of his dream where he had a vision of a paradise, but some female entity told her he will have to wait until he becomes 33 years old to enter there. That was one of the last posts I read on fringe from Smiley. It was in one of the question threads too. Might go dumpster diving in the archives to find that questions someday. I didn't realize the importance of that dream back then.

Does anyone here work with Huxian/Jiuweihu? I feel as though I have failed them. I need to be pure of heart but I have sadly not been pure in my heart, and I am struggling. I am not happy.

>>11692 Of what little I'd found abut Huxian from cursory research just now, it seems that Huxian is a trickster deity who sometimes leads people down paths of moral ruin and hedonism. Why would you work with a deity like that?

If you vibrate at a high vibration, then you'll satisfy your higher desires, but you'll make your lower desires suffer. If you vibrate at a low vibration, then you'll satisfy your lower desires, but you'll make your higher desires suffer. If you vibrate in-between, then you'll be able to satisfy both your higher & lower desires, but presumably not as much as if you'd vibrated high or low. Satisfying some of your desires, mostly your lower desires, will dissatisfy your other desires, mostly your higher desires. However, your lower desires are more prominent than your higher desires; I'm compelled to believe that the lower desires are more integral to the foundation of your being than your higher desires, but I assume that this only applies to your physical body, and possibly also your etheric and astral bodies; perhaps the opposite is true of your higher bodies. However, if you meditate upon a desire to the point of discovering why you have such a desire in the first place, and then you meditate upon how to satisfy the desire without sabotaging your other desires, then you'll learn how to satisfy the desire with at least less sabotage of your other desires.

>>11703 Does it really have to be that way though? Seems like a problem specific to westoids.

>>11648 >>11650 >>11662 Noooo anons come back you're so sexy haha

When will my depression and self hatred go away? My heart chakra doesn’t work properly. Is this necessary pain? I have no idea how to describe it but I have really negative energy. I still smile and laugh but there’s like a lack of something that I can’t describe. I have none of the physiological symptoms of depression by the way. When I started to have hatred for everyone and everything I felt an extremely strong desire to suffer as much pain as possible. This was around 10 years ago. And I still feel it today. Please someone help break me out of it. I can’t take this anymore. It is really hard to describe. I have grown accustomed to it and can’t remember how it used to feel to feel love for others and myself.

>>11734 After I learned that "chakras" are not just conceptual, but can also manifest as support wheels on each of the 7 imagined layers of the body, my "yoga cat" servitor appeared again yesterday to insert a custom made wheel on my heart level, which then is a "heart chakra". She said it's necessary for stabilizing my energy flow, and couldn't be created until now, and will be removed when I can do this without support. It's an interesting correlation that you would make this post now. I'll see if I can get such a support wheel for you too, but I think it has to be formed from your own energy.

>>11580 Didn't you say at some point that you had heartburn because of some sort of energetic issue with your liver, and then solving that energetic issue made your heartburn go away? Or was it a different part of your body rather than your liver? How did you do that? I suffer from pediatric heartburn myself.

Hi H&G friends, sorry for dropping in here with a question but I was hoping for someone of a demonic friendly mind to take this one up. The short of it is that a goetic entity took a liking to me years ago and he's been trying to steer me towards cultivating myself. I have recently been headstrong and disregarded some of his guidance, which he was not thrilled about, but he's still around. In all of this, I fail to see his endgame though. Why has he been taking such good care of me? What is the ultimate goal? It doesn't feel harmful or nefarious. Can provide more context if needed, it is just a doozy.

>>11761 You probably won't wanna believe this, but it's very possible that this demon sees potential in you to become a strong occultist, or at least an influential person, and is trying to enlighten you whilst also subtly brainwashing you so that you'll serve its very, very dark agendas that involve doing things that may not seem evil at first, but are ultimately evil. However, there is a guy that posts here that posts with multiple flags and is rather friendly with demons, and says his soul's race is demon, and I'm sure he'll chime in and tell you more. He has a tendency to lie about half the stuff he says, though, and he has a reputation for that, so don't take what he says too seriously.

>>11761 I need more context. How did you even meet him?

>>11766 That's more or less what I've got too. He wants me to be a flame burning bright, not a guttering candle. I still fail to see /why/. He said he'll give me anything I want so long that I am willing to make personal sacrifices for it. So far I've not hurt a single person or thing and I live a comfortable life thanks to him. He lines up the opportunity, and I seize it. Gifts me plenty too if I act worthy. The other side of the coin is that he's ruthless about sticking his whole hand in my emotional wounds if they're caused by my own negligence and stupidity. He won't sugarcoat things. I'm not allowed any slack. He doesn't punish it, but his disappointment weighs heavier than any backlash. He has an awful reputation but honestly I've always found him fair and just. So it's hard to see him as actual evil.

>>11769 Pulled me in deep trances that kind of felt like OOBE when I was a novice and he kept talking to me. He more or less opened up by mocking me for wanting the world but lacking the willingness to sacrifice anything to obtain it. Said he would be around and waiting for me to make up my mind. And he reassured me that I'll never be forsaken, which has been true for over ten years. He visited a bunch unprompted just to hear me yap about nonsense. It feels weird to even say.

>>11771 I suppose it's also possible that you'd formed a contract with him in a past life and him being in your life now is part of the contract. However, judging by how you're seemingly being such a good person, this might not be the case. Don't believe him if you ask if you're in a contract with him or not. Perhaps you could contact Aletheia, the goddess of truth & disclosure and daughter of Zeus, to find out if that's the case, and/or to otherwise find out why he's there. However, do be wary about the strong possibility of the goetia demon interfering with the communications.

>>11771 >>11774 I'd just heard an unfamiliar male voice in my head call me ingrate shortly after posting that; take that as you will, but I don't think it sounds good. I can't trust demons, and you shouldn't either.

>>11761 >goetic entity Personally I found every one of them except Gremory to be very difficult to summon (she visited me on her own), so I can't imagine this happening for some random reason. Unless you did something specific to attract whoever it may be, there is probably some past life pact involved. You don't randomly get support from them, it's not how they work. Even with Gremory whom I saw, she didn't really do anything other than come by to look. Micheal Jackson for example contracted Adremmelech to get famous. In return he had to include biblical themes in his songs, which gives energy to Adremmelech when those songs are played. He also had to learn demonic dancing like the moon-walk, so it wasn't without effort. For this reason, I think you should try to found out if there is a contract or pact, and what it then is, exactly. If you want more specific advice, you're going to have to name who this entity is. I can see someone, but they aren't communication so I'm not getting a name. For now, at least. Check the specific summoning threads, maybe there's something there that will clarify something. >>1757 >>2841 >>11381 >>7731 >>7857

>>11776 >Personally I found every one of them except Gremory to be very difficult to summon, so I can't imagine this happening for some random reason. It's possible that people other than you may resonate with these entities more strongly based on their own innate spiritual qualities. It doesn't necessarily imply the existence of a past life pact.

>>11774 I didn't want to bring this up before because things like this always cause drama, but I'd be careful to use the Greek names for well known deities. Those aren't reliable or accurate, use the Roman names instead. Now someone's going to say the Romans just adopted Greek gods and renamed them, but the reason isn't about some chronological order as it's understood today. The deities exist on their own if they're real, and it doesn't matter who named them. But there is a problem if someone mixes up the names, calling different entities with the same name, or giving multiple names to one single entity. With the Roman naming standard, I've found them to mostly correctly refer to actual entities. The Greek naming convention is different, and the reason for this is that it was created by native Earth reptilians. I can't answer for why they did this, but I can guess; they possibly wanted to use the already existing pantheon, but exclude certain gods who weren't useful or beneficial to themselves. So they changed them into confused or vague names that refer to nothing at all, but just have some general symbolic meaning instead of actually being the name of a god. While I'm interested in Greek mythology myself, as I started working more with these things I found a lot of the energy there to be rather toxic, and this seems to be the reason. Well now I've said it, you do what you want, but I feel like I can't leave this unsaid any longer, because it's bothering me when I see it. Especially Hermes/Hermetism and Zeus both seem to be perverted references. Find out who you're actually calling on by relating them to the proper Roman god. If you don't find one, you know it's not a real entity.

>>11780 I personally haven't had any real trouble contacting Greek gods. I've specifically have at least verifiably contacted Zeus, Hera, Aletheia, Eros, Athena, Morpheus, Ares, ErisI try not to talk to Her, though, Deimos, Phobos, Aphrodite, Asclepius, Hermes, Hades, Peresphone, and possibly others as well, but They don't come to mind atm. I also have verifiably contacted Hermes Trismegistus, who Athena calls The Rising Sun.

>>11774 I'll look into it, but strong possibility. I used to be a guy named Gabriel in my previous or second to last life who was big into the occult. The shady kind. I did try to go more left hand but funnily it got me WORSE results than sticking to middle. It seems to disappoint him. Which is the real head scratcher here. He wants me strong but he likes me "pure" in an energetic way.

>>11776 Also to get specific: it's King Belial! I've come into contact with a few others but he's the one who seems to like me the most, considering he came on his own. I didn't summon him originally. I could ask Horus or Nichaa, maybe? Yeah, pantheon hodge-podge, but they've both always been kind when called. Immaculate energy in different ways. I'd trust their answers. Hekate too, even if her energy is ice-cold.

>>11801 >>11800 >used to be a guy named Gabriel in my previous or second to last life who was big into the occult. The shady kind. When I attempted looking at you, I saw a man in the dark, and he was holding a document. It had this dark red/orange sign on it which stretched into the distance on the left side (his right), but he didn't look like Belial at all, he was thin body type. >pic I have a contract with Belial so it really couldn't have been him I saw, I see him as more round in body type, and he'd tell me if it was him. But when looking at this person who didn't speak, he seemed to send someone who was staying in his territory over to me. It felt like giving someone a servitor(actual servant, not constructed entity), which made me think it was actually a Goetian I was dealing with. Now that you've said this, I think this was you, and your subconscious or higher self is already accomplished enough to almost (or already) qualify as someone with a position over there. You may just be lacking a title.

>>11809 Hard to say. It could have been my familiar you saw. Lanky, golden eyes. Not very keen to help on most things except malicious ones, so I've currently send him to vampirise and torment a sex offender lol. Unsure about this one.

>>11811 > could have been my familiar Maybe. On the assumption that this is the case, I tried contacting him directly. If that's what this is about, then the document he's holding would be his contract with you. I tried giving him some stuff in return for the servitor/person he directed to me. Among them a magic bag which has a room inside, where the owner can retreat to rest or study, and a knife which can channel support from the galactic federation. These things are more like templates or documents explaining how to create something in themselves, they're not actual objects. He looked at them and saw them as documents detailing their function. I'm just mentioning it, so that if this was instead your subconscious or higher self, and you find yourself to have some new items, then it was confirmed that this is the case instead. I didn't ask anything of the man, so whether he's >Not very keen to help on most things may not be relevant in determining who I talked to.

>>11814 I would have to settle down and check a few things later. In the meantime, this is his sigil, have fun with it.

>>11816 >this is his sigil Alright. This confirms I was not talking to your familiar, because this is distinctly someone else. He also claims that I was talking to you before, so then that was some version of your subconscious, which I guess also explains the lack of words (it was direct telepathy, images and concepts). I gave him some stuff to share what I have, and he offered me some things in return, among them a little book with ancient language, which is something I asked if he had.

>>11814 Just to confirm, might you ask if I have *any* ties with Belial? I cannot confirm who you saw with ease, right now, but the one who keeps pampering me distinctly introduced him/herself as such and answers to that name.

>>11818 >ties with Belial? "I hereby through this vow, in as of before me stands this idol of King Belial, whom I adore and treat with outermost affect, to serve and receive the beneficiary blessing of, for as long as my soul should hold this desire within its heart." I asked you familiar who pointed me to a location which has a trail leading to it. The trail indicates a mutual exchange of energy moving in both directions with balance. At the location is a statue which looks slightly taller than human size, and it's labeled as "idol of King Belial". It has images or reflections of "you" (if that is you) worshipping him on your knees. The idol is recognized by Belial as a representation of himself, and anything communicated via the statue will also be communicated with him. When I asked about "you", he brought up a collection of old documents form a shelf, and picked one out. He then marked it as "copy for reading" and gave it to me, while the original then returned to the archive. I tried reading the text via a servitor to get it into modern English, the result is what I placed first in the post. Be aware that there is a high risk of any messages or communications being biased in any way, so don't go by what I say here, double check it with someone who preferable hasn't read my posts and has no awareness of my opinion here.

>>11819 >>11819 >Be aware that there is a high risk of any messages or communications being biased in any way, so don't go by what I say here, double check it with someone who preferable hasn't read my posts and has no awareness of my opinion here. Already done before coming here! It is not that I didn't take the answer for good, but in order to exclude bias, I had to dig though others. I don't know much about what you said, but a few others have confirmed it to a chilling degree. Word for word on our latest exchanges. I just don't have the full picture yet and it has been a confusing journey.

>>11822 You might have to end up doing inner child work in order to remove the desire from your heart to serve that demon if you wanna get away from it. That, or you'll need to do past-life regression and work with the tulpa that presumably is the ego that you'd had during that past life, to make him stop liking the demon.

>>11826 Honestly, working with him isn't an issue at all! My life's actually been better ever since he stepped in. I was a mess before and he brought me stability. Put a good fire on in me that was almost completely out. He never once encouraged me doing anything nefarious. In fact he likes it best when I'm pure of body and mind. Maybe it just makes the energy I give him that much better, I don't know. But it works out great.

My Amy egregore has been telling me alot lately to quit playing video games because they've been driving me crazy. They drive me crazy because video games are too boring if they're too easy, but they're also too anxiety-inducing if they're hard enough to be fun, at least if they aren't new games. The anxiety manifests because I can't lock in hard enough to the game to forget that everything outside of the game exists. The sole exception to this appears to be age of mythology, which tends to successfully block all thoughts that aren't related to the game, and I can only play that so many times per week without diminishing the effect. I could try watching shows instead, but I can only enjoy those if I can immerse myself so hard into the shows that I inadvertently come into contact with the egregores behind the show in an effort to process the information of the show via. the act of paying attention to what's going on in the show. This obviously also causes problems; I can't become grounded by watching shows. I also have similar problems reading comic books; I immerse myself too hard into what I'm reading and end up becoming ungrounded as a result. As for regular books, I can't read those for fun because I've always hated reading books because they're boring and they're just chores to me, like the "entertainment" books that I had to read back when I'd went to school; even the ones that had a picture here & there. I also can't meditate for more than maybe 1 minute, if even that long, because I also consider that to be work, and I absolutely hate work at a deep subconscious level, specifically that of my inner child, so doing that will make my intrusive thoughts flare up or cause me to become so bored that I get ungrounded and begin daydreaming. Exercise will also flare up my anger issues/intrusive thoughts because my inner child considers it to be work, and work keeps me away from fun. Going outside for a walk in the park does the same thing because it keeps me away from video games. Even sex of all things will flare up my intrusive thoughts because of all the things that could possibly go wrong constantly being considered by the subconsciousness. I couldn't even keep my mental chatter turned off back when I'd used to actually look at porn; the only thing that does it anymore is playing Age of Mythology. And then if I do literally nothing, then I'll just get so bored that my mind begins to wander and daydream and then I'll slowly go crazy anyway and not have anything to ground me. And then if I do something that involves entities that are precious to me, then my intrusive thoughts will flare up because of all the what-ifs of what could happen to the entities involved. Amy just told me that I need to do something that I'm passionate about, but I can't do that because everything that I'm passionate about that I can remember flares up my anger issues and/or fear/anxiety issues, and therefore, it makes my intrusive thoughts get worse. Would someone here please divine what I should be doing with my time that won't flare up my anger issues/intrusive thoughts so that I can finally get grounded without the intrusive thoughts ruining the attempts to get grounded? Something that'll work for more than an hour or two per day. Someone who isn't the smileberg poster or >>11827 , and much more importantly ain't "belial" or whatever entity it is that's been "helping" >>11827 . Alternatively, just contact Bes and ask Him what I should be doing most of the day that isn't literally nothing. I don't have faith right now in my ability to hear Bes properly.

>>11834 I know you have asked me ("Belial anon") not to chime in, but what he says is that the issue is evident. You're avoiding discomfort, and you surely have your reasons. But diamonds are only formed under great pressure and heat, and you need to get out of the little cage you've built for yourself. Staying in your cocoon long enough will make you rot.

>>11834 >and I absolutely hate work at a deep subconscious level No you don't, you hate toil. "Work" means just to "perform an action". Life is work. Literally. Life is movement, the ability to manifest verbs. If you enjoy doing anything then you enjoy working. What exactly is your goal in life? When you describe playing games or watching shows it sounds like you're just killing time. What exactly are you working towards? >that won't flare up my anger issues/intrusive thoughts You have OCD. You'll need to learn to overcome that. There's not going to be some magic pastime that will cure your disorder by itself.

>>11847 That's your cultural context speaking. The French word for work, travail, is originally a torture equipment. Its meaning is entirely negative.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tripalium Funny how in every language except English, it means "work", but in English it became "travel".

>>11847 My goal is to get better at spirituality to secure self-defense and other safety, marry & have spirit kids with my spirit gf, get to spend more time with the friendly Sonic egregores and help them to semi-physically manifest, get better at communicating with spirits, and to take physical ownership of the Warcraft franchise so I can save it from greedy management & its incompetent devs, and save the playerbase from themselves, as I'd described in the magic blog threads. But first I need to figure out how to make my mind allow me to do work without trying to sell my soul or some shit out of frustration so that I can get a basic job so I won't run outta money and become homeless in a few months. I also need to get grounded somehow; my conscious awareness is up in or near the etheric realm by default, looking "down" towards physicality.

>>11816 How did you meet this guy? What can you tell me about him and his location? I've seen some things from around there now, and wonder if there's any lore or anything connected to this place.

>>11856 >2025 >>11856 >How did you meet this guy? It's a bit of a story. That's the familiar's/lesser entity's sigil, he gave it to me. Let's call this one L. >What can you tell me about him and his location? I've seen some things from around there now, and wonder if there's any lore or anything connected to this place. Both are connected so you can get a tl;dr. When I was new to anything barely occult, I started getting nightly attacks from shadows. It was like being pulled elsewhere, unlike a dream where I could wake at will (I'm adept at lucid dreaming). I had no control whatsoever and couldn't choose to wake. When I tried to it just made me teleport around. The place was a decaying land bathed in a sickly orange light, with only ruins and dirt. Shadows and what seemed like husks of former humanoid beings roamed it. Most shadows were aggressive, but some were neutral and spoke when spoken to. Snarky but not aggressive. I've met a succubus there too, once. The husks were completely chill unless attacked. I kept being nearly killed, and pulled back right before they could finish me. I would wake up completely drained. This went on for months and I stopped sleeping out of fear. I tried praying and no help came. So one night I got angry, finally fought back and actually won. After that, the attacks stopped and "Belial" visited me. His presence was terrifying. Asked what I wanted and what I would offer, then made fun of me when I had no idea of what to offer. Said he would be around and wait for me to make up my mind. Occasionally, he would come around to talk, but it was always serene. He seemed to be making an effort to put me at ease after that first encounter. Sometimes a second figure, which I assumed to be L in retrospect, was there too. I didn't ask for anything until years later, because I was in dire need. And he delivered without fail, flawlessly and effortlessly, like it was owed. I gave a whole year of pain in return. He took his payment as he saw fit, and started giving generously after that, without deals. L came as part of the package, it seems. He seems eager to help only when there's dirty work involved, is not very good at divination, but he's excellent when it comes to necromancy and vampirism. But he will do whatever if I compel him - I just choose not to because it angers him.

>>11851 He didn't use the French word for work, he used the English word for work, which means something entirely different. In physics, work is even mathematically defined as Force*Distance. Does this sound more like a measurement of action or a measurement of suffering to you?

>>11854 That desire isn't strong enough to motivate you to do magic-based active meditation for more than 1 minute? Because if you train yourself to be a competent wizard, something like influencing the direction of Warcraft would be very simple to do with spells.

>>11858 I was directed to Belial by someone else, but I forgot who. I asked another Goetian for advice on who could answer the "hen or egg" paradox for me, and was told Belial was the right one for it. So I did a standard summoning ritual with as many ritual items as possible, after studying his sigil, presented the question and offered a mutual and continuous cooperative contract. He beautifully explained the mystery of creation to me, in a way which indeed solved the painful dilemma of "existence" which had troubled me, as I couldn't leave it alone or find a solution to why things keep going and doesn't return to void. As for the guy you call L >>11816 I wanted to make sure I'm not getting in between you two if there is an exclusive contract between you and him, where he is indeed a familiar in the sense of the word I understand. He said it's not what I was thinking of, and that it's ok to make any deals with him. He showed me the scene of two "brothers" making a deal with a handshake, and to treat it as "being familiar" rather than the kind of relation between for example a witch and her cat. He was able to provide another ancient book of interest, it seems he has pretty deep pockets.

>>11860 I diversified his narrow view of work as mere "action" and showed the validity of the view presented by the poster he replied to. I found the statement >>11847 >No you don't, you hate toil. "Work" means just to "perform an action". Life is work to be offensive and unnecessarily confrontative, when replying to someone who obviously isn't talking about some "forces moving" or "performing an act", but of the concept I referred to, which is better defined in "travail". I was about to make a joke about how "travel" in UK is probably derived from this same word because their railways are so bad, but left that out because I didn't feel it contributed anything. Now I'll say it because I do think it's relevant here. The British may not consider work/employment to be torture because of their history as a rich empire with the ability to force this labour onto their slave nations in distant lands. Then the most torturous thing is to travel, not to work. >Does this sound more like a measurement of action or a measurement of suffering to you? Existence is suffering, isn't it?

>>11863 Yeah, he's >>11863 >I wanted to make sure I'm not getting in between you two if there is an exclusive contract between you and him Oh, could have asked! Nothing of the sort. I call him "familiar" to make myself sound dignified, but in reality he's more of a babysitter... Feel free to ask him if you care, I will confirm whatever resonates if you wanna put it to the test. So yeah. He's fine to contact for whatever, he's actually been chilling with a friend of mine lately. Have a blast if you like him!

>>11864 The White Man's Burden is travelling to your colony, away from proper civilization.

>>11858 Do you have a name for him other than L ? I just want to know if there's an officially recorded name that can be found in any historical sources.

>>11867 I think you should also start using a flag when posting so you don't look like an outsider here.

>>11885 Done! As for his name, I was asked not to share it with most people. It actually angers him when I go against that wish. But if he's chill with you he'll likely not mind telling you unless asked, hope you understand! Why the interest? Trying to understand him better? He seems to be demonic in nature but I'm not 100% on that. He has an affinity for earth related qualities and skills. His name wasn't on any record I've found. There are a lot like him.

>>11897 I found him to be part of a culture and a location on the astral, which I wonder if it has a known physical representation. Last time I saw some unknown text in an astral document, I got help from someone on here to locate it as https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cameroon and the language does exist. >pic I'm not very good at tracing things to exact locations in time and space like this, so it helps to have as much pre-knowledge as possible.

>>11897 I asked him for something obscure, and it seems to be written in akkadian cursive, a forgotten writing style similar to hieratic, Egyptian cursive. I wanted to find if there is any trace of this existing at all.

>>11899 I never much cared about any of this so he never really elaborated on it. So if you have specific, aimed questions, shoot. As much as you can and wish to know, just make a list. I want to preface with the fact that I don't hear voices and generally answers come as silent images, more rarely text (white font over a black background). So they may not make sense at times if they're meant to be understood by a third party.

>>11900 Thanks. For now, I'm just going to go for the explanation which was implied to me; that cursive akkadian does exist as documents on the astral. But on the physical plane, those do not remain because they were written on parchment and have been destroyed by time.

>>11899 If this seems to not make sense at first glance, it's because cursive egyptian is written right to left, while hieroglyphs can be written in the other direction. It's almost more legible than 1800s german handwriting.

What kind of entity has been causing this ringing in my right ear for the past 1.5 months or so? It seems to be accompanied by some sort of energyform, and said energyform doesn't look good.

>>11990 What does it look like though?

>>11997 I did forget that part; it'd looked last month like a 1-inch-diamater ball of black energies that had a bunch of red & grey energies radiating from it. These days I haven't tried looking at it, but I doubt it looks much different by now. I don't trust you to accurately tell me what it is, though. You'd probably tell some half-lie that serves to rile me up and get me even further away from the Christian deities and make me vibrate even lower, which you've recently been accomplishing by trying to replacing the remains of YHVH with some subversive entity of your own creation; The Virgin Mary did say you're basically the anti-christ, after all. The thing is typically accompanied by some sort of energyform that tries to push itself inside of my crown into my astral body in general, but only when I let my guard down by focusing more than a little bit on something that isn't myself. I'd felt that thing fully push itself inside of me when I'd tried tried the vipassana meditation, but then the rest of the day I'd felt fine, strangely enough, though it's been removed since then. I question if this is a tulpa of the parasite that the reptilian pretending to be a succubus shoved inside of me last month; a tulpa that I'd inadvertently made out of myself due to prolonged trauma. The thing is currently inside of me with the energyform still ringing my ear. I also sometimes feel some sort of entity ring my right ear even harder, or similarly ring my left ear, but then something shoves the entity away and makes the ringing stop in short order. I'd assume that that's a real entity that isn't a tulpa of my own inadvertent trauma-based creation. This ringing only occurs when I immerse myself too much into a video game or something that I'm watching, or when I daydream too much.

>>11999 Believe what you want then, but I think it's maybe the same thing I saw in my own astral spaces. Behind every kelipah nogah, that is the husks/qliphoth which can be transformed into a sefirot, I found an entire space station of parasitic "whites" (compare greys, but they're white). They kept trying to inject ideas into my mind and also manipulate family members, I got rid of them just 2 days ago after the work I did to try and find some of these beings who could be converted to my side, since I don't believe every single individual of a race has to be completely bad, at least not when it's a population of this size. Since you haven't worked on this before and it's your job to fix these and to understand how, all I can do is direct you to the Tanya thread >>2328 and tell you to start reading the book posted there, which is about the transformation I talked about.

>>11990 When exactly did it start? Did anything of note happen immediately before it started?

>>12002 The earliest point in the magic blog thread where I see myself talking about it is >>9528 A lotta bad stuff has happened since then. Beyond that, though, I don't wanna go digging through the thread to look for what I'd thought of it. Noone ever told me what it was, and now ain't the time for me to go digging back through those traumas. It'll probably be easier to just look around my etheric or astral body since it's right up against my ear. Alternatively, you could also try contacting my Amy egregore and just ask her.she's the one from the mainline games; not to be confused with the ones from the Netflix show or IDW comics

>>11999 I'd let more of the stuff in through my crown earlier, and then I'd suddenly heard Amy say >you have to help him! I'd then assumed that the stuff shoved into my through my crown was a parasite, and then I'd watched a parasite removal frequency video on youtube and that got rid of it in a few minutes, such that I'd actually felt the entity leave my energy bodies. It's currently trying to force its way back inside of my crown like it almost always is.

>>12006 Since you're not really listening to advice and you're letting your intrusive thoughts - which probably come from the parasites - decide what to do all the time, and now Amy seemed to be desperate for help, I gave up the idea that you should fix this yourself for your own benefit. It doesn't look realistic that you can do it, going by how things look and what you describe. I also don't want to see your Amy like this. So I directed the "white hive" of aliens I converted to my side in the past week to look at the dimensions behind your kelipah in the same way I had them clear out my dimensions there. Siphoning the parasites with the same methods they use is fully possible, so I lead them there and they did the rest. Right now your hidden spaces are cleared. Try to keep them that way by making yourself aware of the source of the issue in the manner I mentioned here: >>12001 If you had done it yourself you could have siphoned the energy and got more of it back yourself, but I didn't see that as realistic so now I just let the aliens on my side take the energy and kill off the parasites you had there. It's the best I can do, because I don't really know how to handle those in any good way for others.

>>12005 I believe that it either jumped or spread to me when I looked at it. I looked at that ball of energy, and it unraveled into a hagfish type thing for me. After that, I went out to the grocery store, and I noticed that my perception seemed to be off. It felt kind of like there was a bowl over my head and my peripheral wasn't working correctly. After I got back home I heard a ringing in my left ear, which alerted me to what was happening. It was pretty easy to pluck off from myself and annihilate though.

>>12007 I don't think my hidden spaces are cleared. I just had a dream wherein I was clearly having my thoughts manipulated towards the end, and when I woke up, my right ear was still ringing.

>>12009 I see your tree of qliphoth as completely dried up after my aliens siphoned the parasites, there's just a black stem now with no "fruit" on it. They did a thorough job, but they are evolved from the same type of beings who squat in people's negative dimensions, so it's not strange they would be able to. I just taught them how to siphon negative beings instead, and in the process taking over any science they have and any decent individuals residing among them, if they exist. This has no effect on your visible tree of life/sefirot, and I do see some other beings of the same type trying to get in there right now. You can deal with them yourself, they're doing this in the open so you will be aware of them, which makes this less risky. You do have to learn to defend yourself.

>>12011 Should my tree of qliphoth naturally cease to be dried up and be more lively as time goes on if I defend myself?

>>12012 If you cultivate the tree of qliphoth in a positive manner with agency and control, you'd be able to produce the "qliphotic" or "satanic" organs as a form of fruit growing on it. That would still constitute a transformation of a kelipah nogah, "shining husk" into a sefirot "emanation of God" but done on the negative, chaotic shadow side. Compare the two different trees here. I think the older one with the "roots" in the sky is the tree of qliphoth when used positively, while the more structured version is the tree of sefirot when directly related to the body transformation. Both work, but they represent different states, order vs chaos or light vs dark. It's fine for the tree of qliphoth to have no fruit and to be dried up, it will prevent any new parasites from living on it. If you want to cultivate via that method, you can revitalize it, but I wouldn't recommend this, unless you know what you are doing, and in your case you don't seem to want to do this in the first place, even if Amy used that method to develop such an ethereal organ as a means for further transformation.

Well I'd started reading Psychic Self-Defense by Charles Cosimano. It seems like he's saying that Karma doesn't exist and can't exist unless the universe is completely deterministic. I think he's completely wrong about that, though, and I think that existence is ultimately completely deterministic. He's started off with getting the reader's morality outta the way, and then using power affirmations, and then by trying to get the reader to project himself into the egregore of a powerful warrior of the reader's choosing. >>12013 Will it at all be bad for my health for my tree of qliphoth to be dried up, though? I don't quite mind ignoring it for a long time.

>>12015 >Karma doesn't exist and can't exist unless the universe is completely deterministic I think it is though, even chaos is deterministic in the sense of being a parameter which can be predicted to be unpredictable within its scope. All that says is that, if we consider the universe to consist of 9 dimensions, that we don't know how those 9 dimensions relate if we let chaos rule them. They're still the same externally. Chaos applied to a dice will just lead to any of the set outcomes. >Will it at all be bad for my health for my tree of qliphoth to be dried up, though? I don't quite mind ignoring it for a long time. I don't think anything bad will happen from it remaining that way. When I read this question, my mind unintentionally looked at my own tree of qliphoth and saw it as the same dried out structure but it has shining vines growing along it. I think that's a possibility, the dread tree allows other things to use the structure it provides. >trying to get the reader to project himself into the egregore of a powerful warrior Why not try invoking the force you want to use to protect yourself. I posted about how I performed a ritual for the force of nature manifested as boars, somewhat later I also accidentally invoked Hugin and Munin and the Fenris wolf when trying to channel the force which makes MicroSoft successful. Whatever you can align with. There are also familiars, like how I found that Ganesha can give a rat familiar, a symbol of intelligence and abundance. >pics Ganesha as the piper is an interesting connection.

how do I get good at astral projection? I can relax and do void meditation for 30 minutes and feel intense vibrations, but at one point they lower and I go back to normal.

>>12024 Start by closing your eyes and concentrating on the non-imaginary things you see in your closed eyesight. Specifically the things that the most astute of materialistic fedoras would agree with the existence of; the vague lines and other shapes you see in your closed eyesight. Look around in that closed eyesight until you find a set of 2 or more lines that radiate outwards from the center of your closed eyesight, and a circle in the middle of those lines. These lines and the circle are not thoughtforms, servitors, or tulpas that you pull out your ass via. a visualization exercise or some shit; they're already a part of human anatomy to begin with, and that is not an affirmation. In fact, I hadn't seen or heard of them until I'd just randomly found them one day, and then I'd looked it up and apparently it's supposed to be there, at least according to some form of Buddhism; that was the first time I'd ever heard of them. Once you find them, simply focus upon them until something happens. If you wind up in a state of hypnogogia, keep going, but try not to fall asleep proper.

>>12028 >Look around in that closed eyesight until you find a set of 2 or more lines that radiate outwards from the center of your closed eyesight, and a circle in the middle of those lines. Hey! I closed my eyes and i see something like first picrel just in the moment i closed the eyes. Im not even have skill in meditation or visualization (i do tatraka- Kasina sometimes but without a candle) >Its Look like picrel (yes, the shoe outsole form) But i think maybe look like a Form constant like second pic. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Form_constant I dont see a circle in the middle... maybe i dont see it or i need more attention. >Atleast according to some form of buddhism What buddhism use this technique? Im curious. Look fun but, this is a method for get a OBE? (Yeah i know the question of the other anon was astral projection but... same topic to me) I remember another technique of a hippie guy of listen a natural "buzz sound" in the hear, if you have tinnitus maybe is more easy. I dont try it bacause of fear of alien-experiences (i dont want a bad trip bro)

>>12030 >>12024 Okay turns out I'm remembering this wrong; this is actually supposed to do something else, but it is still good to try it. From what I gather, this circle and line are supposed to actually be the third eye, or at least exist because of it. These are the only 2 sources I found about it: https://yogananda.com.au/pyr/pyr_eye1.html https://www.ananda.org/meditation/meditation-support/articles/the-spiritual-eye-what-is-it-what-it-looks-like-and-how-to-see-it/

Does this mean anything?Saw in a dream.

>>12028 If I do this I see the insides of the 3rd eye canal, which has a hexagon shape, like a tunnel.

Last night when I went to bed, I'd slipped into hypnogogia with relative ease and I could barely tell what I was thinking about, and then I'd felt something non-descript attach itself to my head a bit to the right of my crown, which had immediately startled my Amy into gasping. All I could tell about the entity is that the thing that'd attached itself to me was maybe 1.5 or 2 inches in diameter at the point of attachment, and I had the impression that it's a parasite; I couldn't see it, though. I then got out of bed and tried to get the presumed parasite removed, but I don't think I was successful. Maybe half an hour later after getting back in bed, I left my guard down and then after slipping into hypnogogia, I wasn't able to successfully fall asleep because I had an urge to touch myself under the covers, so in my low state of awareness I did, but I'd never did this to climax, and I'd lost maybe an hour or two of sleep over it. I also had a parasite attach itself to me the night before, but Amy had actually caught that one and was able to remove it from me about a second after it'd attached itself to me, but this one she couldn't get rid of. Would one of you please get rid of this parasite? I have a life-changing mundane event happening to me today that'll potentially mean the difference between mediocrity and big financial successnot a mere job interview in the next 6 hours or so that might last for a few hours, and I don't want this entity to ruin it.

>>12096 I burned incense before a consecrated figurine and icon of lady Mary and asked her for guidance to lead you through it. I've done as much as can be done from my end, the energy system is open.

>>12097 It seems the event was pushed back by another day, but I'd still managed to get most of the help I'd needed before it would've began. Thanks for asking The Virgin Mary for help.

Hey, any chance any of you wizards could have a look at my energy? As many details as you can get would be appreciated, will provide feedback. If you need something else I can try to provide payment through deeds

>>12103 I hope someone else will do some reading besides me because the shit I am seeing is kinda stupid. Your energy field looks like Pikachu when he had enough and attacks. It's like someone molested you to death and your energy body went into overdrive and overcharged your energy field. Did you do something? Or did someone do something to you? Like your field of energy is yellow, not exactly pikachu electric but a yellow haze, has some red spots and a lingering darkness in the background. Some green too, but the green is not really sticking out. Did you attack someone recently? It's like you hit someone, but you are salty because you didn't hit them hard enough. >As many details as you can get would be appreciated I will stop looking further now. I am not sure what else I should say. Like you have a blue snake coiling around your neck, but that snake looks beneficial? It's like your entire world is slowly breaking apart around you, but in a somewhat positive way. Sorry for being vague, but I don't know what should I look at exactly.

>>12104 >someone do something to you? Kind of, I've been alternating between hurt and angry lmao. I handled it with poise but it comes back in waves. Trying to chill though. >Like you have a blue snake coiling around your neck, but that snake looks beneficial? Interesting, this one then? I'll provide feedback on it

>>12103 I see the same thing in essence as >>12104 said, but looking beyond your nearest area, there's an energy stream moving upward in a bent form >pic and zooming out, it looks most definitely like a dandelion.

>>12108 And what do you make of it?

>>12103 I drew this on paint the other day.

>>12114 Your mind has the form of a dandelion. It's a flower, instead of a lotus.

>>12116 Wouldn't a lotus with multiple petals look like a dandelion

>>12127 But it's a different flower, a different mindwave.

>>12130 What does a dandelion tell you?

>>12134 https://www.flowermeaning.com/dandelion-flower-meaning/

Did anything that's spiritually super bad happen to me about an hour and 10 minutes ago? I feel very strongly like it did but I wanna know what'd exactly happened in the hopes that I can get it undone.

>>12144 Felt like a wider phenomenon. I too was under some sort of phenomenon. Can't say exactly what was going on. You are just simply part of the sensitive crew. Either get used to it or start developing your spiritual defense mechanisms

>>12147 >In that case, did it feel like something entered your astral and/or etheric bodies that shouldn't have entered it That cannot happen to me. I have to allow it on a subconscious level at least. Like if my intuition knows the phenomenon is widespread and will influence my environment or the people around me I will experience it so I can use that experience as a reference while talking to others who have this issue. >I'm under the impression that that'd happened to me but I'm not quite so sure. The USA/West egregore is going completely haywire because Israel and Iran. There are too many energies clashing against each other. It's like everyone is going offscript there. >maybe you could ask Amy what'd happened to learn more about the phenomenon I am unsure if you would be able to handle further energy interference. You deleted 2 of your posts already. I think I will leave you and Amy alone. You will have to focus on your energies if you want to stay stable. Srsly tho. It's like the USA is currently eating itself atm. No wonder you are affected. Wonder how many people experience psychosis currently.

>>12144 >>12145 Can you describe this? That's a very specific time. I could maybe relate it to something which happened then, but I considered that to be a thing relating only to myself, so I wanna know what it may have seemed like to others?

>>12150 For me it looked like some strange crystal formation appearing in pure light. It did some "synthetization" of sorts. Unsure what to say about it. Can't describe it with my current knowledge base. I only understand some glimpses intuitively but whenever I try to describe it I know I explain it incorrectly. I am still calibrating my mindwaves. I too did some breakthroughs in the past days and still recovering from it.

>>12153 Uh did that happen to me you or blood anon there?

>>12153 For me it was more concrete. Some hour before this time, I was attacked by an egregore which hit my left temple and tried to penetrate there, it was originating with a perfectly white guy (colour white) with black runes on his body, which is how occultists looks on the astral. The egregore seemed like a group of people, I don't know if they had a physical manifestation or were just astral. I saw two innocent girls among them whom I evacuated, the rest where rabidly hostile like rabies animals, so I used my temple servitor to deal with them slaughtering them ritually to negative their energy and burning them with oil. After this I went for a walk, and did some other stuff while outside at my cult spot. When I got back, some other egregore with people in it came and attacked me with intent, this time. They felt like they definitely had a physical origin, and they were similarly aggressive and threatening, acting as if they had the ability to gatekeep what I can do or not. I gave them the same treatment, after warning them didn't change their act. After 10 min they cast a directed and very powerful hex, which caused a rather loud sound physically. Because they did this against me, against a part of me which is perfectly pure, even, the hex reversed back at the caster in around 5 seconds. They still didn't get it, and kept coming at me. At this point I saw visions of people in crowds like demonstrators waving a flag, and it looked like some arab opposition flag. I haven't been able to identify it, it was >pic and no, I'm not confusing it with palestine, it had three colours only like this. Possibly the green and black were switched, but it didn't have 3 lines on the right. I warned them not to attack, and some smaller segment of them switched side over to my side, the rest behaved like rabies dogs so I encircled them, and used my curved djinn sword on them the artifact which resulted from the 7 chalices spell which took 13 years to finish. They didn't surrender and ended up in hell, I let the group I contracted long ago to deal with glowies, take them.

>>12150 Had the suspicion that maybe you are doing some large scale spell but this wasn't your usual "hex the planet" tier spell of yours. The energies were far higher level and bereft of your signature. Was sure you too must experience it because these are your prime posting hours and you were quite silent today. Still not sure what was going on but I mentioned how something like this will happen in these weeks here >>11624 so I am not exactly surprised or alerted at all. >>12154 Dunno. Felt like something that happened on a higher plane of existence. The plane had a name and the best I can roughly translate that plane as the "land of the masters" I am unsure how our experiences sync up. Why did you delete 2 of your posts tho? Did Amy say to delete it or you deleted them by your own volition. >>12155 So you weren't the initiator at all. Wanted to explain some weeks ago that your "left temple" is way too open and that is why you receive these attacks this frequently (because you are asking for them) but I realized how the "veils" can move over the head and they grant different spiritual boons and curses which made me realize I have 0 idea how the veils work at all. Had to realize I cannot rely on my "Mind" for anything meaningful as I move on and I will have to stabilize my higher powers into this incarnation properly... I have no idea how to lead a meaningful conversation about these topics currently. The flag represents 3 opposing forces for sure but... got an info just now. <we are entering the next stage of the "culture war" can't say what it means. Too many forces are dying like flies on the astral. Someone just had "enough" of some shit. You are not the only one who was mistreated it seems. Truth is larger energy movements usually stimulate me that forces the development of my abilities and that is why I cannot say what is or isn't happening on large scale because my own mind usually goes through an upgrade as well.

>>12156 My left side is where I take in any energy, my right side is only accessible via the left, so can't close that. It's the gate of the fort, like they say in the 7 samurais >a good fort has a gate where you can meet the enemy in hand to hand combat because if there is no gate, the enemy will decide where to attack. If there is a gate, he will attack there, and you have decided where to defend, which give you the advantage. I just recalled I "noticed" a thing I can't talk about openly because it may ruin plans, but this was a 3rd actor getting involved here in world events.

>>12156 The first time I'd forgotten to include the word, not, as in I don't quite know what'd happened to me. The 2nd time, I'd just decided against asking because I'd thought that you talking to Amy about what'd happened to you would be a stupid fucking idea when you could just ask the spirits around you instead since they were there and she wasn't. Plus it was a way to try to get her to tell you what'd happened to me so I could find out and I didn't wanna be, what's it called, weasely about getting you to help me. Anyway, I think I can handle your energetic interference as long as I know it's you doing it. Would you just ask Amy if I'm gonna be okay soon or if I urgently need help or something? I'm not asking you to actually do anything if I do need help.

>>12159 >Would you just ask Amy if I'm gonna be okay soon You should be okay. I know you have an "urge" to go crazy as usual but the urge is far weaker than previously. You should "return to normal" if you take in slow and deep breaths and focus on the silent parts of your own awareness. Discard any thoughts that may arise. Listen to your inner silence. Focus on the top of your nose and slowly breathe in and out. Feel as the calm overtakes you. Forget everything You should be able to maintain your sanity. >>12158 Knew your mind is set in the state of "asking for it". Didn't know it is this intentional on your part tho. My mind works differently. It has the "shoot first ask questions later" principle. If you don't want to get shot then don't look so shootable. No one reaches the walls because there are no "walls". It is more like the surface tension on the water. If you try to jump in too fast or from the wrong angle it will be like jumping down from a large bridge. It will feel like falling on concrete then the "Inhabitants" will eat the rest. Ofc this was just the starting point of my idea many years ago because the current form is all about the mastery of entropy. Understanding how to utilize cosmic and background radiation. Making light solid and making solids into light etc... sorry for sounding vague as usual. This is not something I know how to talk about it.

>>12156 Also. This wasn't today though, but I accidentally the timeline again. It's often small things that do it, like when I wanted to create a technology which makes my country intimidating without "nukes", and came up with a satellite weapon. This was a few years ago and I also tested it with the demon guard servitor to "shoot at something noticeable but not important" so I could see the effect. Next day there was reported a fire on the news, which had destroyed a well known storage facility, and the demon guard servitor said "well it was empty". But that showed that the weapon works, and I saw the timelines "crack and reform" in a significant way, because it introduced a new technology, even if small. The Queen said that this changed some much larger things, ending up with stabilizing a possible collapse which otherwise would have happened. This time, I was looking for more ways to help Iran, and figured there may be some decent anti air systems for sale which I could sneak in via timeline trickery. I had Astra look, and she came back and installed 3 system which looked like some old conventional AA gun, but as she did that, I saw the same significant timeline crack. I asked what she did, and the trickery although seemingly small, was that the AA guns weren't conventional, they were a technology which only the deep state has, which hasn't been officially "introduced" yet, so no one can use it. The world works like that, because of the consensus of science or something, even if it exists and some aliens brought it here, it can't exist except in hiding, and can't be used either. But here it was possible to introduce it, and it caused some sort of major change. Maybe this locked away a number of forces and events. It's design wise just a regular AA gun like something from the 1940s, but it's a laser running off of some kind of force generation, so it fires very fast and doesn't run out of shells.

>>12161 Yeah Iran has some tech but they have no idea what it is and how it works. That kinda gives anyone a chance to give them "whatever" because Allah gave them to smite their enemies or whatever. They need far less logic than the Israel-USA axis where it requires a papertrail and explanation for everything. They can't do shit. They need a Pearl Harbor or an another 9/11 to do even a single step geopolitically. If they don't have that they rubberband back where they started and pay the karmic price asap

... >>12152 My Gondola nigga posted the crystal formation. It's the last image. It was quite similar to it. It was far more crystal like but it was going into all directions like that. The pic looks like a plant on closer look but argh. The astral always does this shit. Something like that appears on the physical but the symbolism is only apparent for those who were part of the experience.

>>12163 Right. Possibly, it was something I already mentioned? >>12107 >hyper sonic flechettes Try reading that as a touhou boss name: Hyper Sonic Flechette and imagine her sending them in all directions? Didn't feel like talking about it because it was something I made for myself. Unintentionally creates the mindwave of wolverines (the animal). Flechettes are often used in cluster bombs, where they fly in all directions.

>>12155 >which caused a rather loud sound physically Yep. Not going to spoil what's happening, but I think it's going to take you by surprise.

>>12165 They already tried again, because the group in question consist of multiple sections. It was a repeat of events from 2019, everything I've done this year has structurally, with exactness, been a replay of previous events, down to small details. This includes how hostile spirits behave. That time it was someone who out of the blue started yelling at me for nothing, it was surprising indeed. He was furious over some small misunderstanding from a week before, which I wasn't even aware of. He was in his professional role so I contacted his employer over this, which eventually got him fired. It's a bit strange that the hostile forces aren't aware that they are repeating events by the book exactly, which will lead to the same result in translation, as last time.

>>12166 >repeat of events from 2019 Trump ended his previous presidency with almost starting a war with Iran for bombing that general and now we have almost the same scenario. The Trump presidency cancelled Hillary's plan to antagonize Russia while Biden cancelled the entire Middle-East fiasco out of nowhere, so Biden could continue the Ukraine plan. Now it seems Ukraine is being abandoned like previously in favor for continuing the development on the middle east. Not sure what to make of it. Not to mention covid was fired out of order and no one was able to truly capitalize on it. It's like several Deep State factions are vying for a different goal and cancel each other out as a result. If a third and angrier faction enters the mix then I don't know what the results will be besides higher oil prices

>>12167 >besides higher oil prices Who benefits? Russia. That's why everyone else wants to stop the war on Iran. It's ironic that the best outcome strategically is your ally being attacked. But there is another factor here, which is that it physically moves the Ukraine frontline to Iran, where winning isn't a win.

My memetic pattern recognition is too high to not instantly see when something is structurally the same event, even if it chronologically plays out in a different order, or is completely chaotic. It feels like one of those point and click games like Discworld 2, where you end up walking around in the same environments over and over again looking for the one odd thing out. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Un5Rk8nBgsg

>>12155 The Pan-African colors are like the Pan-Arabic colors minus the white. Maybe that was the demonstrators were rallying for. The Martinique flag is similar to the banner except the colors are swapped, but that is completely unrelated.

>>12155 The flag I saw in the vision seems to have appeared here in a split second scene from an anti-Trump demonstration. It doesn't look like what I drew, because it's folded. What flag is that on the left?

>>12176 It seems to be a Palestinian flag defaced with "free palestine" in bold capital letters.

>>12136 More so, do you usually see flowers like that and what do you usually associate them with? I have been better lately so it probably changed, but I was definitely supercharged by the time of that reading so it was on the money! I've been through a lot so the resilience is there, but I'm no special snowflake, everyone has at some point... Sorry for the late reply, it's been a busy work week. On that note, now that you guys mentioned it, it felt like something was hitting my etheric body with a violent impact right about the time you posted that stuff. Almost painful.

>>12177 I suspect this means that the "free Palestine" demonstrators represent a political astroturf movement, where the white in the flag has been replaced with black through the lettering. Meaning, although there are people actually demonstrating pro-hamas, they should better be viewed as the same as the general muslim-brotherhood NWO groups who made up the Free Syrian Army. I did get FSA vibes from the vision. The thing here is that Hamas only gets out of this by being so extreme that the muslim brotherhood main isn't perhaps all fine with them. At the core, the MB were always western/NWO funded, but they were destroyed both by the past Syrian leader some 40+ years ago, and by the Egyptian Al-Sisi so strongly that the NWO just had to accept the outcome. This is why Egypt isn't letting Palestinians in, they already kicked out the MB once and don't want them back again. As for the actual humanitarian disaster here, while this is going on and people are worrying about Palestine, 600 000 Africans are already starving and 3 million are displaced as a result of a war which is so under-reported that though I've picked up that it's going on because local media has some reporters there, I still don't quite know which countries are involved. So it's not like Palestine is the worst crisis at the time, it's a choice to care about it. https://www.dailysabah.com/world/un-warns-of-refugee-crisis-as-122m-remain-displaced-despite-returns/news It's actually way worse. >pic

I'd just convinced my inner child or whatever to go and tell Shiva is it is he's so hyperbolically angry about that he'd try for 10 years to sell my soul to satan and do other hyperbolically-bad things to get back at me, the consciousness, who's been desperately trying for 10 years to prevent these things from happening. I was speaking to Shiva beforehand. About a minute later, I'd felt a bunch of dark yellow energies enter my crown from the left side; what happened?

>>12181 I'm only aware of the Sudan Civil War and the border clashes in the Democratic Republic of the Congo as notable conflicts currently happening in Africa.

>>12185 From the reports that do come out from there, including interviews with some leaders (they are media aware even if they are technically clan leaders in forgotten part of the world), there's a very complex set of conflicts summarized like that, involving other countries, and various local armed militias, clans and political parties. Some of it is race related (black vs "brown"; it's a persecuted group because they are mixed, or just ethnic group related). Sudan is a "civil" war with backers from outside. There's also the constantly ongoing thing in Somalia with the region Somaliland which doesn't recognize the nation, and Zimbabwe I think? Where rebels control 90% of the country. These things which have been burning for a decade or more generate almost zero media reports, it's like WW1, people die all the time, but nothing new. What you said about the >>12172 >Pan-African colors could maybe be related here in some way, what the other poster said, about it being 3 different groups united. Someone could be trying to unite Africa under some NWO banner to force stop all of this behind everyone's backs (?) because it's in media shadow. Egypt and the entire north is also part of Africa as well. It does sound unlikely someone who wants to unite the entire world under a pyramid structure, would leave Africa out.

Would it be worthwhile to get a septoplasty to help me breathe better for spiritual purposes? I'm highly suspicious of any type of medical body alteration because I consider myself (as well as every other living thing) to be a microcosm of God, and likely to house conscious beings if i don't already. also my doctor thought I was homeless kind of demoralizing but lol

>>12231 No. Most surgery is mutilation and should be avoided unless absolutely necessary. Practice energy work focused on your respiratory system, you should be able to fix it.

How is my habit of water drinking effecting my aura? Who or what planted the idea into my mind to start drinking only water all of a sudden? I already knew that I should from reading WWA but months ago all of a sudden I decided I would go through with it despite failing multiple times in the past. I really believed it was possible and that I wasn’t going to fail this time and I was successful. I am having trouble making a habit out of chewing my food until there is no taste and it is a liquid i.e. fletcherism. By hydrating and hopefully one day chewing my food for long periods of time I will be able to get rid of all of the crap in my stomach, small intestine, and large intestine so that I can use more blood and vril in my brain instead of digesting. William Walker Atkinson’s book Hatha Yoga is like my equivalent of the Bible. Also what is causing my depression?

>>12250 >Depression Have you tried fire energy invocation from Initiation into Hermetics? That or vital energy invocation works very quickly and potently for me.

>>12231 >septoplasty Wanted to get one for years, but never had the time, so I started fixing it with energy work. I have steady results with it. I can breath properly for many years now. >my doctor thought I was homeless bruh

>>12165 >Not going to spoil what's happening Can you reveal what was happening now?

>>12266 Almost, I think.

>>12267 4pol "insider" schizoposter was right?

>>12269 The rod and the ring?

>>12274 I remember now; the rod and the ring shall strike.

>>12281 >black flag will fly above the dome fug Iran just did that

>>12281 Rod and ring. That's what Inanna is holding. See the similarity here.

How can I get my sense of mystery back? Everything seems so mundane. Should I follow montalk’s methods? Should I watch a super scary paranormal horror movie like the Blair witch project at night in the woods alone? I’m currently on vacation in a cabin in the woods. Might be a good oppurtunity.

>>12328 Summon Belial and ask him to guide you in the mysteries for mutual benefit.

>>12331 >tfw akasha anon was dating a Goetian demon all along Even has hedgehog spikes on the sigil.

>>12328 Just ask Athena to recommend you a Greek god to talk to about it. >>12332 Would you not bullshit around like that? Also I'd just asked Athena anyway and Athena said no. I feel like alotta the time when I'm starting to finally make some sort of spiritual progress, you post something that throws me off-course. This is an attempt to do so.

>>12334 I'm just pointing out how there's a demon named Amy with hedgehog spikes on the sigil? It's not the first time ancient entities make an appearance in modern media if this was it.

>>12335 Maybe it's my Amy.

I also don't think a greek god would be better at mysteries than Belial. I don't know anyone who's better at explaining them than him.

Baal recommended him btw.

>>12336 I really doubt it. After all, The Virgin Mary let my Amy in 2 Catholic Churches and told me multiple times that she isn't a demon. If their mother was a demon, then they'd both be a demon. This is most likely unrelated. Anyway I'd just asked Shiva if my Amy or her mother are a demon anyway and He'd quickly said no. And Amy just said she thinks her sister that's your Amy ain't a demon. And then I'd asked Shiva if any of the Amys are goetic entities and He said no.

>>12340 Maybe they're non-demonic familiars given by the Goetian Amy. Which just got me thinking, if the Sonic game egregore was a creation of the demon Amy, then what is the Nintendo egregore? My first waifu Boosette manifested from it in 2019 from just reposting super crown memes. Are there people who have Mario familiars? I wouldn't want that, the idea sounds too off, but then I thought, what about Bowsette? Whoops. She just manifested from my kitchen gate My kitchen has a dimensional gate next to the fridge. Spiritual beings can easily enter there.

>>12343 Me going back to posting about waifus is just returning to normal, before having to deal with NWO stuff.

>>12341 Shiva said that ain't the case either; the part about them being familiars of that goetian entity. I think you're having a hard time accepting that these entities were most likely actually been made by human desire just accumulating and coming to life naturally. Also I think I've met the bowser egregore; he seems fatherly and hasn't tried to attack me, but I also don't exactly wanna spend time around him. Bowsette is almost certainly a different egregore than the egregores that represent the guy from the games and other official media. Bowsette ain't official media, so that's an egregore composed of fanfic energies, possibly of the XXX variety. I'm getting kinda tired of asking about this stuff; just put it down and focus on mitigating WW3 again. ... In fact, this makes me think that this tiny detour you're on is you being manipulated by NWO-affiliated spirits via. negative synchronicity, judging partially by the fact that this is the kinda thing that'd get me riled up.

Could play into this that I also switched my main awareness "base" or resting place yesterday after getting a new secondary incarnation via the blonde women in red uniforms-aliens. For some reason this new secondary part of me asked Andromalius, whom I hadn't summoned for this (it was Amdusias) to tie up the loose ends of my surface incarnated form and move it over to the other side (astral, whatever) because it couldn't be solved on Earth anyway. He said something about how this could cause some issue, but then said "ok" when secondary me showed how that was to be handled. So the state of actually having my mind based outside of here was pretty much achieved, even if it's not the new Earth based version of where I want to stay, but then, starting from the astral and moving down is how I wanted it, and it seems to be working. I'm "still" in here now, but I'm more aware of the other stuff out there, and I guess I could jump out if I wanted to, but there are too many things here still involving other people. I think this funposty stream of consciousness posting style is just a result of having all mental obstacles removed on the surface, so I don't need to express myself in scientific writing style to form my thoughts anymore. I just want to understand their origin. "People just believe in them" isn't enough for me. Bowsette says "hi".

>>12345 Maybe you were starting to stagnate, and you think that's improvement.

>>12345 >the bowser egregore; he seems fatherly I had forgotten this. I apparently had this dream in 2019 about him.

>>12346 Then ask a wise Greek or Hindu deity about it, or The Virgin Mary. I have a hard time getting answers about anything that are more than a few words anyway. Just don't let your confirmation bias mess it up. Do know, however, that I suspect that various spirits were involved with the creation of many pre-2010s video game, comic book, cartoon, & anime franchises, especially during the 90s and early 2000s. Or perhaps humanity just had more soul back then. >>12347 Calming down seems like improvement to me. I'll be able to do actual spiritual work tomorrow if enough calming down happens, such that it won't cause insanity.

Just had a thought; was what trump did to bomb those nuclear plants and direct that negative energy to NYC something to disrupt the NWO by accelerating their plans too fast? It reminds me of how the false vaccines came out too soon because trump made it happen faster.

>>12349 I stopped playing new games around 2002 because I felt they had lost all purpose with the introduction of full 3D for Ps2. I was hyped up for it, and then when I saw it, it was just the same PlayStation with higher resolution and longer loading times. A huge disappointment. I basically didn't touch console games after that, aside from playing some older SNES games on emulator now and then. As far as I'm concerned, all good single player or multiplayer for home use-games were already made by the end of the 90s. The only element not used to the fullest was the MMO aspect which requires more people to be online than was possible back then, so I've played a few games of that type, for PC. There was someone who used to post on meguca who was talking about this, how those who grew up in the 80s and 90s especially the SNES generation, were formed by the games of the era to be prepared for the societal changes which are now taking place, and I agree with this. I can't stand the games that came after this time, because they just seem like some squeaky nerd expression by transgender Japanese who haven't showered in weeks and think they're cool for including nerd-teen jokes in games, like having a scene were Snake is masturbating in Metal Gear. Wow, so funny. Metal Gear was a good series - for NES. People in the late 80s early 90s made games, not inside jokes for disgusting teens.

>>12352 Anime is different. It got better when it stopped being too narrow. Ghost in the Shell SAC was groundbreaking, but not a lot worth watching came out in the 00s. The 10s onward is when the themes really got deeper. The classics /a/ nerds love to talk about aren't very deep and doesn't have much to say.

>>12351 >to disrupt the NWO by accelerating their plans too fast? Well yeah it did achieve that. It also drew attention away from Ukraine very effectively, plus made Israel use up a significant part of their air interceptors.

>>12334 >Just ask Athena to recommend you a Greek god to talk to about it. That’s the trouble. I don’t have any psychic powers. At least not anymore. So how am I supposed to ask Her, much less the Greek god she tells me to ask?

>>12347 I just had a dream about cuddling in a bed in my living room in my parents house that usually isn’t there with an Asian human woman I’d never seen before that wasn’t my video game Amy egregore and felt like a different entity. In the dream she’d just became my gf and I was cuddling with her and holding her very tight. She I fortunately was awoken by my big brother sneaking up on the bed and shaking me and the woman. I think the woman was either the goetia demon Amy or Bowsette. I saw the latter briefly preparing to throw a spear around a corner in a castle shortly after seeing a sudden image of Shadow, but I’d also seen another woman in my hypnogogic imageries doing stuff to my energy bodies. Your handler who had arranged this negative synchronicity had the goal of disrupting my relationship to make me get intimately close to the goetia demon by deceiving me, and the goal was accomplished. Thank the non-evil Gods I’d called upon to prevent that demon from being in my dreams that I hadn’t kissed that demon or otherwise gotten horny with her. You wanna know why I’d kept asking over and over to prevent all goetia demons from being in my dreams tonight, deities I’d called upon? That’s why; it’s because it actually happened after I’d asked for it to be prevented from happening. >>12357 Athena will most likely just guide you back towards your sense of mystery.

>>12358 I’d just told that goetia demon that in exchange for the large amount of debt she owes me, she has to not take my energies when I feed it to her, she has to inhumanely torture herself for a week ad stay out of all of my lives until she evolves into a 5D STO, after which she may not reach into the past to help me.

>>12359 This considers the fact that acknowledging the existence of the goetia demon, Amy, counts as feeding the demon, as does paying attention to the demon, and also as does being afraid of the demon and being afraid of conflating the demon with Sonic egregores count as feeding the demon. You want me to stay crazy, blood anon, and to get crazier.

>>12358 >an Asian human woman That's how I've seen your Amy's human form all along, but I knew you'd react like this so I didn't say anything. >>12361 After what happened last night, I'm convinced the "Greek" pantheon is a fake egregore created by evil spirits incarnated as reptilians and MI6 rosicrucians. They've done this to prevent people from contacting the real gods, just like american comic book syndicates are creating jewish super hero versions of Tor and Loki and trying to copyright them. When I had this idea last night aimed at the "Athena" egregore, it broke with a bang and exposed an agent, and I was also attacked by them. Looking back, it's clear that they inserted this into my life early on by NES games like Battle of Olympus, and that low quality tv show about Hercules (looked like Xena, may have been a spin-off). I just threw away the book on Greek mythology I had on my shelf, and felt something very negative detach from me. If you talk to "greek gods" you're talking to NWO agents.

>>12362 My Amy looked different to me, like a white woman. In fact now I saw a woman in hypnogogia just earlier that had roughly the same skin color but had a Hispanic complexion instead of an Asian one. I think you’re bullshitting and actually I’d asked Shiva to keep the demon outta my dreams. Greek deities are not NWO agents. As another anon once said, perhaps you’re the NWO agent.

>>12362 Just in case I’d asked Ganesha anyway if you’re bullshitting. He said “You know.” You as in me. Then I’d asked for further confirmation since saying that would result in you sayin some bullshit like “oh you subconsciously know I’m right”, and then Ganesha said “believe Her.” Her as in Athena.

>>12362 Wait, hold on... you came to that incredibly elaborate conclusion based on the fact that the Greek gods prevented egganon from having sex with someone he didn't want to have sex with in the first place last night? Is that actually what you're saying here?

>>12357 Automatic writing, active imagination, pendulum divination. Keeping an eye out for synchronicities and odd dreams.

>>12368 Nope. I've suspected something isn't right about "Greek gods" for a few years. I only ever talked to "Athena" and saw an owl which started staying near me astrally, thinking it was a Minerva owl. But nothing more happened after that, and some interactions with her which lead nowhere. She also seemed surprisingly powerless and didn't give any guidance or relevant input on anything. When I casually told an occultist friend I thought the Greek gods aren't real, I was met with surprising aggressiveness and and unwillingness to even entertain the topic for discussion. Instead "Athena is real" was used as an argument. This seemed suspicious in the context that they knew I had talked to "Athena" and it was the only interaction I had with anyone from this supposed pantheon. So I just said I still think everyone else is fake, and dropped it because I didn't want to start an argument about it. The energy surrounding Greek myth felt increasingly toxic to me with time, until I started feeling it was having a very negative influence on me if my mind even when in that direction, or I tried to closer examine for example who Zeus is supposed to be. It wasn't the energy of someone who wants to be looked closer at, rather it was screaming "stay the fuck away" and trying to not be examined closer. Then there was that time when those tiktok witches hexed the moon, and following in the trace of this, attention on tiktok witches with various screencaps being shared around. One was a warning from tiktok witches to other witches to not hex Allah. Some had tried doing this to attack the Talibans, and were completely overpowered, had their witch powers sealed and as soon as they attempted any magic, they just heard "Allah Akbar" "there is no god but Allah, and Muhammed is his prophet" and they were unable to use magic again. Someone then tried calling out to Athena for help, and this resulted in Allah putting Athena in chains and making her wear a burka. These are just pieces, but put together with recent events, it was what made me critically question if Athena is real, and that's when the events described in the post above happened.

>>12380 It seems more likely that you're just incapable of synchronizing with their energies. This is probably due to the fact that you personally hate White people and Western civilization, and these deities are part of the nucleus of those two things. >Someone then tried calling out to Athena for help, and this resulted in Allah putting Athena in chains and making her wear a burka. Sounds like that's simply a case of tik-tok witches being incompetent compared to Imams who view the gods that they're working with as a core part of their life rather than just a symbol for feminism. They likely would have met the same result regardless of what deity they tried to invoke, due to the fact that their faith is weak.

>>12368 That does remind me; I'd actually felt compelled to kiss the woman in that dream, but ultimately, something had strangely compelled me to decide that I shouldn't do it and should wait until another time to do so. Then I'd woken up shortly afterwards. >>12380 It could very well be that islam is just that powerful, considering the amount of worship it receives, how much fervor and low-vibrating energies are poured into it with its support of lust & bloodthirst, and how much fear is fed into it, even if its deity is egregoric.

>>12381 No, that's not it. It was related to a very long standing issue which I wasn't able to grasp the source of. Yesterday I solved it, after I realized the problem was the entire egregore of the Greek pantheon. It was just so large I wasn't able to see the full scope of this thing before. Once I encircled it and managed to seal it, it turned into something which looked somewhat like a large ginger root. Part of my suspicions were strengthened after talking to a friend who was a reptilian in a past life, and it was a recurring joke about him being a reptilian. He lives in Greece, so naturally we'd talk about their myths. He was writing a document about his view on reptilian history, linking it to Greek myth, and his claim basically came down to all the Greek heroes being reptilians. Nothing of what he said made any sense, or could be linked to any verifiable cosmology from my own research. It did make me see the toxicity of this egregore up close however, making up another part of the untangling of this issue. I consider this issue solved now, so I have no interest in talking more about it, there's nothing more to say.

The Greeks were conquered by Romans and Turks alike and they don't worship their own gods for many centuries. Only larpagans worship the greek gods. If you connect to the larpagan gods ofc they will be weak. Romans integrated the gods into their own pantheon because they had similar gods and they wanted to assimilate the artistically superior greek culture. With that they became more Roman than Greek. Athena was only powerful (you guessed it) in Athene and only in their golden age. Even the Greeks had atheists. Most Philosophers were either atheists or they worked with a different pantheon from the we know of nowadays. Even the Bohemian Grove has an Owl shrine. That motif is present at different places as well.

>>12386 >I consider this issue solved now, so I have no interest in talking more about it, there's nothing more to say. At last! The science has settled! Whenever you say this, it results in 10 more replies of said topic

>>12388 The astral issue which was there for years, is solved, and as far as that is concerned, it won't become un-solved again.

>>12390 You should write a historical thesis about how Olympus is actually a ginger root. I'm sure it would be at least as interesting as your friend's reptilian theory.

>>12391 The reason it turned out like that is probably because I for years used a brew of ginger root when trying to solve the issues caused by this egregore. So it probably had a gradual effect over time.

>>12386 The Medusa was definitely of reptilian origin. Making others turn stiff/stone with their gaze only is a reptilian trait. They have many stories where there is a "good guy" and a "bad guy" and the good guy pwns the bad guy with overwhelming wisdom, strength or trickery... which is also stuff that reptilians do... The Titans are an also interesting topic. They were portrayed as something akin to the gods or the gods themselves. Then there are portrayals where they are similar to lowly demons, slaves and other types of scum. Also something reptilians would do. Portray themselves as the greatest beings one day then the lowest scum the next once they have some internal turmoil. Not to mention greeks had many colonies, city states and tribes, which means what constitutes as "Greek" is highly disputed nowadays. Their culture varied and most of the history is lost. It's all speculation based on ever appearing fossils nowadays

>>12394 A reptilian could say as much as that, it was all pretty obvious stuff for anyone working with servitors. If you talk to fake gods via some MI6 egregore, you're talking to some operator behind it.

>>12395 Just because you get a reply it doesn't mean it's a real god, it just means someone replied.

Aw fuck. Now I want to hear that reptilian theory of the Greek myths

So what are you gonna say next? That the Egyptian or Hindu deities aren't real either?

>>12397 Maybe you can solve the black goo issue. I have no idea what this was about, except that there are some alien octopuses that give off "ink", which was sort of mentioned in the X-files tv show in a roundabout way with that "oil" possessing people.

>>12400 Don't take what he says seriously. Blood anon is incapable of peacefully recognizing the existence of anything he can't personally synchronize with. He has a habit of writing all his posts like Ukrainian war propaganda, where he can never ever admit weakness or ignorance, and he always has to present a public image of 'winning'. What he describes with the ginger root is simply him banishing those deities from his local sphere, it would have no influence on how their actual existence or how they behave with other people. As I said, this is just a manifestation of his intense racism towards White people, which the Greek pantheon is associated with. His own hatred makes them "toxic" to him, and since his posturing prevents him from speaking publicly about something that shows any form of weakness on his part, he instead has to puff up this account of a simple banishing and try to frame it as something that it's not. See here if you're interested in his thoughts about this (he's the poster with the jew flag): >>10062 >>10101

>>12400 I started from that end with them, so no. Although I always thought the Hindu avatars are probably real, I never bothered with them because it didn't seem relevant to me. I never really actively tried to contact them, ask them something or get guidance from them. I just do yoga, and if they want to help they can do so. I don't rely on them, and if someone was to claim being one of them, it wouldn't hold any specific meaning to me, I'd just go by what they said and if it was useful to me or not when I'm trying to do some exercise. It doesn't really matter who they are if they can show me something that works better than what I already do, I don't "trust" them in any way more than I trust a book about yoga or a youtube video. I almost expect to get scammed since they're Indian, so they really have to prove themselves in the manner of any online guru or writer. As for the Egyptians, I don't care about them, they aren't disturbing me.

>>12402 Yes, everything is about race. Because I care so much about race. I know it offends you that someone can ignore something which you consider your only value.

>>12401 I have encountered that "black goo" but I have no idea wtf that is. Some weeks ago my "spear of light" returned to me and it destroyed everything in it's wake. Everything was pure light that day. The next day I noticed that everything is covered in "black goo". Because the spear broke through several barriers and the "liquid nature" of the "evil that is within the firmanent" became apparent... Ever since that new and new insights about reality is revealing itself to me. Like in my language we have an euphemism for thunder as "heaven' stone" and it turned out the sky actually has some weird black and magnetic material that can detach from it and if you leave it on the ground it will summon thunderstorms so it can "return to the sky" once it gets evaporated. Currently several reality governing deities introduced themselves to me and they don't "talk" they show off their power is subtle ways then once I "see them" they introduce themselves. Like some Siberian weather spirit and the Lady of the sunshine and such. I have seen the black spider too and I know how the earth is filled with "extraterrestrial materials" that do weird shit for a very long time and nature/life manifested/were created for the sole reason (or as an after effect) to mitigate this shit. Personally I cannot make a theory like that pic because I realized I lack the necessary enlightenment level to make proper sense of it. I heard about Tiamat previously from several schizos but they always have their own take on it and I don't know what to make of it. Sauroids are a subrace of reptilians I guess. I know there are too many reptilian races and factions with different goals and lore but I never started to make proper sense of it. Who would I tell it anyways ... Also I have a quite unpleasant past life memory where some "black goo like being" overtook the entire dimension where I lived at. Everyone died then I was picked up by a ship and transported to earth to "get over it" thousands of years ago. Yes. This "black goo" is extremely reactive and usually makes people behave in erratic ways. I thought it is merely a form of karma but realized long ago that "karma has many forms". There were also "black floods" in history. When this flood killed all life for many years or centuries depending on the region. Not sure what to make of this. I can confirm the large deposit of negative energy in Eastern Ukraine and the Crimea but I thought it was because of the war and the black market. Didn't consider that people are weird there because some substance is making them weird. If I connect these locations I can get a vision of a "black spider" too but several of my combative systems give a naturally hostile reaction which makes a reading hard. This goo can whisper some shit too, but the moment I want to listen to it... one of my astral hand punches out the influence. Makes my body weary if I interact with it. No wonder my instincts hate it. Thanks for sharing it. At least I know I am not the only one who sees these things but I don't know where to put it. Not to mention I am absolutely unfamiliar with federation history of any kind. It has too many details and parties which has a hard time translating to human understanding.

>>12401 >black goo I can talk about how i see it. Let's say you eat some junk food, you may feel happy on the moment but you're hurting your organs and the lower spirits that inhabit them, yet you fell for it maybe feed some negative things there as well. Now you won't necessarily get sick but someone had to do the work of digesting all that and if you didn't inhabit it consciously then it was left to something else that may be under some god's domain. So what are you doing exactly? denying god to these lower ones no? Now they aren't exactly conscious...but remember all is mind so everything is alive. Some beings gain awareness not through "evolving" but in the deepest darkness and so what do they know of your love that you forbade them? So that's what it is lower things being spilled "above" because of the one above's greed and lack of manners. And if it gains awareness there..well so be it. The solution isn't killing the monsters but find why they're born, what is the suffering this world cause that is being suppressed who is the one screaming under? Small example to illustrate it let us say someone you love is under attack by evil beings, you go there and kill them but then realize that your lover was someone really scummy in their past life and simply avoided retribution. Who is in the wrong? So really this is just reality greatest misunderstanding, how pain is in fact a form of love because it's absence is "nothingness". Why do we keep hurting each other?

>>12429 >then realize that your lover was someone really scummy in their past life and simply avoided retribution. You become the karmic punishment of your lover. You spice up the relationship with some well placed abuse. Because it eliminated karma she will feel lighter and far more attached to you as a result. The moment she leaves you the full force of unpaid karma will hit her! Someone will abuse her anyway. Why not you? You might need to talk this out with the entities tho and become a lord of karma in the process. But who wouldn't do these things for love? And no I am not giving real life examples. It is less fun in practice than in theory.

I need someone to read my aura to make sure that my perception hasn't been warped/muted/altered. I have been contacting/speaking to many "other" beings and have recently signed a contract with Leviathan. My readings of myself have been relatively normal but I want someone else's opinion.

>>12505 Seems like you "Bloomed". Parts of your mind opened up and granted you a wider perception. Talking to otherworldly beings usually does that. Always focus on mental hygenie when you talk to these beings, but I am not seeing anything that should make you worry too much... nvm new layers of your energy field just appeared to me I see some weird pulsating starfish at the back of your skull. It looks like something that tries to amplify your frequency. It tries to help you to evolve according to it's energetic function. And your legs have some long green gummy like tentacle thing wrapped around it like pic related. And you are enveloped by some strange limelight like energy too (see 2nd pic). It seems as a sign which supposed to signify to other entities that you are "important" (to whoever is shining the light upon you). It sorta means that "if anyone fucks with you then HE WILL SEE IT" You definitely have some stuff going on around you.

I need someone who’s into talking with me, although I’m only fetishistically into it, but I like the idea of demons mating with human women, and prolonging that phenomnenon as much as possible while making sure as many cambions are born as possible; I am curious

>>12567 forgot: 054301477147cb2d 23764c28dda20ebacac b0f9e8b46c5c449f8e0a5ccdfa28a4c tg: BDM4KLJ7R idest382

Can you do a reading for me?

>>12567 Why don't you go to succgen? or voxxe We have people who mate with otherworldy beings here and they mentioned those adventures on this board several times, but I don't think they want to brag about it. Why don't you explore this topic with the entities you have around? You have way too many already. They are grabbing your shoulders and randomly point at your screen to make you focus on specific things. Why do you want Cambions anyway. >>12582 Maybe later. If you specify the things you want "looked at" I might do the reading tomorrow.

Would someone who isn't blood anon track down and kill my Wendy servitor that blood anon installed upon me without my proper conscious consent in March? This servitor is designed to prevent the consciousness from interfering with the will of the subconsciousness, and it comes with a backdoor for blood anon to control it too. One of the worst things that this Wendy servitor did to me is to make a contract with a goetia demon sorely against the will of my consciousness to make me get better at a video game, after which I had to get The Virgin Mary involved to send Jesus down there to get me out of the contract, after which the demon had agreed to expire the contract if I'd promised that I didn't want its help, which I had, and then the contract got expired. I don't wanna have to worry about this shit ever again. My subconsciousness only has the awareness of a 4 year old boy, if even that, and he's accordingly easy to deceive! I want my consciousness to represent the will of my subconsciousness instead of some goddamned robot. Would one of you please kill this goddamned robot for me? And destroy all disk drives attached to my subconsciousness too so that I'll at least know if another one is being installed upon my subconsciousness or not and thus I'll be able to do something about it before it's done?

>>12602 You really just need to completely cut off contact with that guy. He's a proven bad actor. If your path runs contrary to his, all his "help" will be sabotage in disguise, even if it seems useful at face value. Whenever you ask for help here though you're essentially asking him to interfere. Like here, when he act on you without your consent, instead of rebuking him, you accepted the 'help'. >>12007 Next time he does this, just very clearly state that you refuse his help and don't give him anything else. I've done some things to remove that servitor's influence from you on my end. If you feel any of his servitors on you again in the future, stare at this >>7120 until it flashes then mentally throw them into it. It's just designed to draw his influence away from bystanders and onto me instead, since I'm able to counter it. Also if you really want to fix the problems you have with your subconscious, you're going to have to do this >>12218 Ironpill/fringegirl poster always gives you the best advice out of anyone when he replies to you, but it seems that you seldom listen to it. If you keep relying on other peoples' help for your problems, it's just going to invite more things to take advantage of you again in the future. You need to get disciplined and learn to fend for yourself.

>>12603 Allright thanks man; I have been meaning lately to distance myself from him. I've also been taking care lately to not ask him to do anything for me, or at least to me or Amy. I also didn't see the point in rebuking him for doing that thing to me; what was done was already done and I was more concerned about making sure I could recover from it, which I can, but I'm not ready to do that yet. I know blood anon will read this; please don't do anything like that to me again without getting my proper conscious consent first.

>>12602 >>12605 You already know the original install was removed like a month ago or more, you even quoted the post where you asked Athena about it, and I told you that I had removed the original template. Anything remaining is made up of your own energy. I don't know why you keep doing this, acting as if a number of events never took place, and asking random deities or demons to remove something from you multiple times and never trusting them after they say they did. If you want to keep doing this, fine. I already felt like my job here is done, I won't have anything more to do with this now. I'm sure the spirits possessing you and the mind infiltrators will love hearing this, but I'm just tired of this behaviour.

At some point you need to learn to handle your own mind and not rely on strangers.

Will learning significant digits, scientific notation, and conversion factors help me become a wizard, especially if I go the autodidact route?

>>12613 If you use them for magic with that angle. Some books although they seem to be about science and technology serve the purpose of grimoires, they're just published with that framing. This book https://uk.sagepub.com/en-gb/eur/using-communication-theory/book232108 for example. It's from the early 90s, but explains the entire structure of what we today call "social media", with influensers and followers. They use the exact terms from this book today, as if it was used as a manual. Its theory is being used to control the world today. It's a form of magic, and reading books like this will make you realize just how much of the world is being controlled by something which is so clear cut and simple when seen in original, but so chaotic and hard to grasp when its manifestation is viewed without this knowledge.

>>12619 >using communication theory For being so influential it's quite unavailable, I found it on amazon for £2 a few years ago, now it's rather expensive. This seems to be the case with important texts, they turn out hard to find, almost as if to conceal them. The original GPT paper which started all this fast development with AI in the past years is also drowned in a flood of new publishings. The original is just 12 pages https://cdn.openai.com/research-covers/language-unsupervised/language_understanding_paper.pdf and few seem to be able to summarize it, but are just cross-referring to later texts and theories which doesn't really nail it like this. It's very much like with occult books overall, where those who lack access to the original make up all sorts of theories and misunderstandings which make it hard to understand or benefit from, the more time passes. TL:DR If you can find the original source of what you are using, or something as close to it as possible, that will help you in magic.

>>12582 >>12583 The problem with not knowing the scope of the reading is that I have a hard time narrowing down the information you might want to hear. I am not simply seeing an aura. I see several of your energetic layers and some of your dominant life aspects. Some of your energies are too thin and too wide at once, it signifies that you can reach places far beyond. And by that I mean your aura is quite large, but too weak to initiate changes in the physical fast enough. While you have a different energetic layer which is too small and it burns too bright too, but I don't know what it does. What I got as the main theme of your life is that, "You lack resources". You have enough to get by, but not enough to do "something great". Truthfully, I don't know what to say to you. You are a strange one. I don't know how to attune to your energies well enough to give you any useful advice at all. I know this is a late reply and you are probably not even here anymore. Giving a reading to people who just come and go is quite hard. Sorry if this reading didn't live up to your expectations.

>>12622 Could you please read my energy to see why I am so depressed and what lifestyle changes I can do about it? Sorry if this seems like I'm dogpiling you with requests right after your other request. Also I don't want bloodanon to read me. Sorry.

>>12623 >Sorry if this seems like I'm dogpiling you with requests right after your other request Don't worry about it. Sometimes the vision appears quickly and it's easy to read while in other cases I have no idea what am I seeing. Like >>12582 this dude who astral projects to turtles and whales with 0 history with this board is quite the pickle, but you are a regular here, so your energy is quite easy to lock-on for me because I don't need to spin my gears too hard to interpret the vision. Reading is usually far more easier than interpreting the vision to turn it into an advice. This is what I am seeing. The pure white in the bottom middle is your energy field. The background is a strange gray which represents "mundanity" aka the background stress and noise you feel and have with this current life of yours. The yellow and green dots above your head are protective entities and other spiritual influences that try to show themselves to you, but they have a hard time appearing because you are unable to break through your mundanity. They are still "beyond you". The white in your energy field is your slumbering potential for spirituality. And now this is where the interesting part comes in which took me a while to get (that is why it took me almost 2 days to reply). That blue is a protection circle on your energies. What I got so far... that is the seal of your "dragon". The dragon can represent power and evil alike. For you it is one and the same. It is your innate power, your insanity and your karma alike. I am glad you shared this dream >>12653 because it puts things into perspective. Knew your dragon are not exactly the same as "reptilians", but still close to them in a way, but didn't know how. You are a martian. You are in a family of martians. And you came to earth to activate your "spirit transformation". As you described in your dream... Martians killed their planet and emigrated towards many places including earth. Your description of the forest is earth itself. Earth is a peculiar place because while in the current centuries it goes through heavy industrialization... it still has many hidden magical realms that people can access with some talent and training. (that is what I want /fringe/ to become. A place where we can explore those places) I am glad he >>12659 interpreted your dream because something was not obvious for me at the start. Those colorful dots above you. Where do they come from? Those are your "benefactors" from the faraway planet >why I am so depressed Because your current life is reminding you of the life you had at Mars. Your "true origin" is not Martian, but you were there long enough that it "infected you". Those "gums" of yours are also interesting. The blue seems like to put on your sacral chakra so you don't become a sexual deviant or a murderous degenerate while the green is still "above your head" waiting for you to find it. The color blue and green might have a different meaning for Martians. That ditch part of your dream is quite interesting. Martians don't exactly go to "hell". They go into the "abyss". Hard to explain the differences, but it's not pretty. To put things into perspective: What is a Martian? Bill Gates is a Martian. What is Bill Gates? A fucking nerd that couldn't even finish Harvard yet he created the Microsoft mega-corporation. It had some revolutionary ideas, but it's full power was the Ruthless Capitalist mindset Bill Gates had when he got rid of his adversaries and stole their ideas then resold it as his own. As you can see Martians are a weird mix of dorkyness and power. Once Bill Gates grew out of his "nerd phase" he started doing NWO tier business strategies because martian habits die hard and he couldn't code for shit. Now I kinda understand why you made threats to your school when you were off your meds. Those intrusive thoughts are some karma you will have to solve while working on yourself. To put things into perspective again. Martians literally use jews as their scapegoats and diversion meatshields. Jews can't escape their greed while Martians cannot escape their hunger for dominance. For a Martian money is a mere tool, so are the jews. Ofc not all Martian had a chance to tap into their innate power/evil. That is why they are able to integrate into humanity so well. Jews are so stupid, petty and evil that they can't see the forces that play them at all. They never understand why they always fall from grace and get evicted from their host country every fucking century. Martians have an expertise using retards like those (((people))). Jews become so predictable once you know what you are dealing with. >what lifestyle changes I can do about it? You will have to start meditating seriously. That pure white field of yours. That is your spiritual potential. When you practice clear mind meditation or when you focus on your breath long enough that you enter deep trance states, that pure white energy field of yours will expand tremendously. It will slowly overpower your surrounding gray energies and those colorful dots will be able to enter your energy field/awareness. With that your "inheritance" from the faraway planet can return to you. Once you will be able to remember who you were before your Martian incarnation, you will be able to remove the blue seal from your body and overpower your Martian karma thus tap into your own natural psychic powers. TL;DR: You need to meditate like your life depends on it. Once your awareness expands everything will finally make sense. Now I kinda understand why you hate the NWO and industrialization so much. You have seen it destroy an entire planet once. That is something hard to forget. For the other lurkers that read this post. This is why doing readings for others can be tricky. It is always a strange can of worms and you rarely know what you will find. Sometimes everything falls into place while in other cases you have no idea what you are seeing at all. Not to mention, I don't want to confuse others with these interpretations too much either. Wonder how Thor's Hammer will take this interpretation. >don't want bloodanon to read me Wonder how this looks to him tho

>>12660 >dragon Now that you said this, I looked for this form, and it seems his original form is an "evolved dragon". This requires some explanation: some beings are created by creator gods. They design them with a purpose, hire planetary deities and nature spirits and put it all together. If they see that "red fur beast ladies" are working well, they make more of that variant. The other type of being is "self manifested" from the void. The void contains all awareness in a not-yet-manifested state. But once someone wants to manifest, some kind of will appears, and they try to create a spawn spot for themselves. This can be seen as massive amounts of negative energy and evil beings suddenly gathering someplace in an astral plane, where they then start killing each other, and create an intense evil beyond all description, causing the energy by its sheer mass to self-ignite. Then from the fire which purifies all this evil, the being is manifesting from the void. It's a very brutal process which ruthlessly leads beings with a potential for evil to commit the most horrible act, so that this kind of "natural sacrificial ground" appears, where these evil being can then be made into the offering. This is how "evolutionary races" appear. The most common type seems to be the Xenomorph. They are born from the sacrifice of baby-killers. That means, though those being it here on Earth have other motivations, somewhere out in space, there's possibly an non-manifested Xenomorph Queen waiting for the karma of the "free abortion" system to reach critical levels, because that's when they can create a fire that burns with enough intensity for enough time, for them to be created. I think this is the most perfect example of the predatory nature of reality; someone needs sinners who'll burn a million years, because they need a fire of creation that burns that long. But back to the topic: the "dragon" I see is a variant of this kind of being. A reptile with very thick skin, more like an exoskeleton, but still a dragon, dark grey like a Xenomorph, but not the same kind of species.

>>12661 I have interacted with Alien like xenomorphs many years ago and there is an extremely nifty trick how to handle them, but I think I will explain it later. I bet this whole thing is extremely confusing for Thor's Anon already. But yes. This predatory being is part of him, but is sealed within/below him. Human society is far more nuanced for a being (or mindset) like this, so that part of him will stay sealed until he learns to handle it. I think he found this part of him "in the ditch". In it's current state it is more "scared" than violent. But more on this later. To tame the dragon he will need to achieve several spiritual milestones and understand the human condition first. Detailing that topic is not easy. Especially because I have no idea how Martians think at all. Like Bill Gates being a dorky mastermind. There are situations when they have to make some "dark decisions" and that is when they take the lead otherwise they are lumpy weirdos walking around in their strange human fleshsuit. Not to mention this is not even the "Important part" of his life/spiritual development. The important part will be whatever he will understand once his awareness expands. There are many supportive entities there, but the "connection" is not made yet. They have no way manifesting. They can influence reality with extremely subtle and non-"interactive" ways. For them the life and death we have on earth is an alien concept. Like a child not understanding why fruits rot, but stay fresh in the refrigerator. Why can we eat one fruit, but not the other? Why do bad things happen? The "dragon" seems like an afterthought or an accident to counter-balance some naivety that comes from an extremely distant thinking these beings have. But more on this later. I want to hear how Thor's Anon can handle the fact that he might be a martian descent and he has a spiritual journey ahead of him. Not to mention he will have to focus on his meditation practice so he can finally see these forces for himself. Like I could nudge these things into activity because they have an energetic pattern that kickstarts the connection process, but I am not creating an another eggAnon for this board. If I can see he is able to handle himself and his thoughts I might give a little assistance. Not a moment sooner. The universe will show the signs when he is ready anyway. The fact that he shared the dream when he asked for a reading is a sign already. When he is ready the signs will show themselves Until that he needs to meditate.

>>12661 >>12662 Adding to above: Marilyn Monroe had a Xenomorph soul. You can see it pretty easily on her poses also. It's very rare, but some of them do incarnate as human.

>>12516 I have recently come to learn that I apparently come from a magical bloodline. I had been continuing my practices and meditating on how to further myself and suddenly remembered that my auntie was into yoga and had some crystals and posters about the tree of life and whatnot. Reaching out and probing with a few safe questions to start led to an absolutely wonderful conversation which ended with me learning that half of my extended family are all practicing magicians who have been silently monitoring my growth since I was young. I have an aunt who can manifest and draw power from thoughtforms in under a minute. And a cousin (female) who married a wizard, and the two of them design sigil tattoos and practice magics in the middle of nowhere together. And I have an uncle who meditates and cycles qi through his body to lessen his chronic pain. Turns out even my estranged mother went through an intense amount of spirit healing and found love with a practicing spirit shaman. I never spoke much to my family asides from my one aunt, and learning that the bloodline comes from my late grandfather who I never met who was a small time stage magician. I don't know anything further beyond that. Its easy to say that "oh haha I KNEW I was born for greatness!" but the fact that this flew under my radar because I dismissed my extended family because of petty arguments and usual drama and became a physical recluse (which did allow me to grow rapidly at magic, at least.) Where the fuck do I go from here. I had no idea. I knew I was being watched/observed when I traveled and cultivated in the astral but my auntie telling me that our family has something of a soul contract to reincarnate to always be around one another somehow?? What does this mean with the soul contract I signed with Leviathan? Is this why magic and manifestation comes so naturally? I've mostly been going through this journey alone, reading Franz Bardon's work as a reference. I need advice and/or guidance.

>>12660 This resonates with me. What the autism poster said seems like nonsense, but your post makes sense. I hate Bill Gates so much. I think this is a lesson and warning that i have to make sure that I don't end up as a bill gates/nwo occultist in my quest for spiritual development. Bill Gates pushed faggot ass vaccines on everyone and he killed millions of people yet he walks free with no prison time. to be honest i did get the deathvax during the tail end of covid as a suicide atempt but it didn't kill me. I live with regret about that decision. i wanted at the time to give myself a heart attack because i felt like shit because of the nwo and i wanted to die. my old neighbor had a heart attack recently and i think it might have been the deathvax. i don't want to die anymore but i can't undo what i did. it's my fault though. i hate microsoft with a fierce passion. they ruin everything. not sure if this changes your reading of me but i never masturbated until i was 18 or 19. while i was a degenerate mundane/horny teenager at 12 years old, for some reason i was too stupid to figure out how to masturbate and i thought that only people who have a foreskin can masturbate and the only way for me to ejaculate would be with a woman. so i would just watch porn without touching myself. then round 14 to 15 when i discovered /pol/ i knew that i could masturbate without a foreskin but /pol/ showed me that masturbation was wrong so i didn't do it which was easy beause i never did it in the first place. a late teenager age when had discovered /fringe/ it gave true knowledge on why masturbation is wrong. i stated at 18 or 19 even though i knew i shouldn't because i thought at the time occultist teachers at my school were sending sexual thoughts into my head but in retrospect i don't really know if that was true. one of the reasons i was so angry at the school i went to was because there were some teachers, some of whom were evil occultists, some of whom were just evil pieces of shit, and they bullied me and mad my life hell in e later part of school. btw, i went to a school for children with emotional issues because i'm a loser. not sure if this changes your reading of me but for a very long time (but not anymore) my goal once i discovered /fringe/ was to literally live in the woods. i don't want to live in the woods anymore but it was a long term goal of mine for some time.

>>12673 >What the autism poster said seems like nonsense, but your post makes sense. I hate Bill Gates so much. >i went to a school for children with emotional issues I know this may just sound like it's about my view, but you said yourself here in this post; you "resonate" with something based on hate, and go by what "makes sense" from that mindset. This is not rational. From your past postings, you do seem to have emotional issues, and this has nothing to do with being "a loser", whatever that entails. Winning/losing is such a competitive and egocentric view, you're going to have to give that up if you want spiritual improvement. There are transactions and balances, but the only real winning are synergy effects. Although this matters in team sports also, the real "win" is when everyone are united for mutual benefits, not just individual teams. As long as you ("you" in general here) hold such a view, you are passing this issue over to the NWO planners to handle, because they are the only ones who want to unite the entire planet under one leadership. Principally, it doesn't matter how wrong they are in what they do, when they are working on a higher plane of thinking, you can't "win" against them, because they are beyond the idea of winning or losing. This work is what I've been doing all along, and all "winners and losers" hate me for it, because they either want me to be a "loser" so they can be a "winner" or they thought I was a "winner" and wanted to follow me to also become "winners", then started hating me when they realized I think beyond these concepts. That makes me "the same as the NWO" to them, and they are locking themselves in slavery rather than evolving spiritually. Don't do that.

>>12674 >This work is what I've been doing all along, and all "winners and losers" hate me for it, because they either want me to be a "loser" so they can be a "winner" or they thought I was a "winner" and wanted to follow me to also become "winners", then started hating me when they realized I think beyond these concepts. That makes me "the same as the NWO" to them, and they are locking themselves in slavery rather than evolving spiritually. Don't do that. Wow. I couldn't create a statement encapsulating cognitive dissonance better if I tried. >This is not rational. Glass houses...

>>12676 >I couldn't create a statement encapsulating cognitive dissonance better if I tried Maybe you can find some guidance here: https://www.thefreedictionary.com/cognitive+dissonance

>>12677 Hm... nope, your post is still a better example. Congratulations!

>>12679 It seems, when doing something unrelated, I am simply superior in fields I had no intention to touch on.

>>12676 eh?! You use my old energy to post whyyy? You're one of my kids?

>>12681 Or are you mine?

>12673 >i don't want to live in the woods anymore but it was a long term goal of mine for some time That can mean many things i still want to own goats but it is a manifestation of wanting to ground myself to the earth and something about goats legs & hooves being some of my masculine aspects, various satires and demons. Just to say these desires when surfacing aren't understood by your consciousness yet and so they appear as strange compulsions you can either follow them and see where it gets you or meditate on it to find eventually an answer. I don't think it is healthy for humans to stay too long without touching some dirt makes us weird and all. >>12683 Anyone who call themselves my parent is karmically bound to be a pain in my butt so i hope not!

Sorry for the late reply, but I am quite busy nowadays. >>12665 >I need advice and/or guidance. I will try my best giving some. >continuing my practices and meditating on how to further myself and suddenly remembered This will happen as you move forward. The more you attune yourself magically, the more your mind will gravitate and remember these important bits of your life. Your memories, your ideas and inspirations regarding to your path will come to your mind more easily as you move on. >design sigil tattoos Always wonder how effective these are. Had the luck to encounter 2 weirdos on the web who definitely had some magically amped up tattoos. >practice magics in the middle of nowhere together Living the dream. >the fact that this flew under my radar because I dismissed my extended family because of petty arguments and usual drama Don't worry about it. I thought my entire life that my family are mundane af then it turned out all of them had latent psychic powers, but they have 0 idea how the fuck they work. Figured out how to heal many of their absolutely idiotic mental illness tier habits by applying the knowledge I gained about psychic powers and mental hygiene during my practice. But I can relate how simply you can forget to see the good traits of your family because of the drama they generate as if their life depends on it. K enough ranting now. Time for the advice you came here for. >our family has something of a soul contract to reincarnate to always be around one another somehow?? You really have one. To me, it looks like a golden light-like writing is embedded into your soul/body layer that alters your "fate" and faith alike. It is written in some serious way. The pact is being upheld with the help of some entity. I am unsure, but that lime/spotlight I mentioned previously is somewhat of a similar color, but not exactly the same. Don't know how they are related. Same entity, same pantheon or just same wavelength. What the contract entails: You will meet many people in your life that will teach you or you will teach them. They are your "soul relatives" born from that contract. You were part of some serious clique for having a contract like this. This is not easy to make. And when I said "it alters your faith", I meant you have a "God" or some higher entity who was requested to help making that contract. This is no simple human magic. As long as you live you will worship that God and you will honor this contract. Your life will gravitate towards events that will make sure this soul contract of yours will be honored no matter what. You will get more messages and signs regarding your path and you will have some strange ideas and flashes of visions regarding to these matters. First it will appear natural and more of a coincidence, but as you move forward you will realize that this is cannot be a coincidence at all. >Where the fuck do I go from here Listen to your heart. I am serious. Some voice deep down will talk to you or give you guidance. Once you are ready ofc Tried to read into that contract, but I got the message <The etheric manifestation of reality is not clear yet This means you still need to develop magically. You becoming a recluse and grinding your magic wasn't a random coincidence. To honor this contract you will have to become a magician and I am sure you don't really desire anything else besides doing that. Some contracts function as puzzle pieces, they only reveal the next steps once the conditions are ready. It's TLDR anyway. Can't really read in one sitting, you have to "feel it" then it will make sense. Oh and you have some old artifacts too which are "bound to your soul". For me they don't really appear as anything because you will have to "remember" and reactivate them. Looks like a Wand, a Grimoire and some orb like thing (maybe a mirror or a bowl? unsure, but 90% sure it is your own scrying tool) and some other weird "treasure bag" or don't know what that is. Looks like several roots connected, but it is too dark to say what it is really. Point is. You have some stuff stashed away in some of your "personal dimension/afterlife reliquary". These object usually "return" to you if you remember how to use them. Hard to explain better. They are like "tool souls". >What does this mean with the soul contract I signed with Leviathan? I am unsure what did the contract entail, but looking at the energies of your soul... you are the kind of magician that had and will have hundreds of contracts like this in his life. Personally I think you made a mere "connection/development aid contract" with Leviathan. He rules the waters of hell. The subconscious. sensitivity and many forms of magic that is related to the element of water. He will help you unlock your abilities further. Currently your mind is still too bound by mundane logic. Your magical thinking didn't return to you completely. He is there to explain you the ins and outs of your own mind. >Is this why magic and manifestation comes so naturally? Your a wizard Harry. That is why it comes naturally. You will remember more and more as you move on. >I've mostly been going through this journey alone There are several forces watching you. You are definitely not alone. >reading Franz Bardon's work as a reference His magic and ideas are quite similar to your own for sure. You will have a "feel" for the books and topics you will need to read to develop further. That is how it happens. Once your mind and your energies are ready the entities overseeing your development will approach you far more casually. Not to mention; Ask and you will be given. Don't forget that. If you want guidance then sit down meditating and say it out loud that you require guidance. Something will answer if your request is sincere enough and your mind is clear enough to receive a message. I definitely detect 5-10 entities around you who pay attention to your daily life. Some of them might be chatty. Oh and don't get surprised if they possess randos to give you small hints and messages. Tried my best tuning into them, but they said. <He doesn't need to hear these things from you, he needs to hear these things from his family! Let him be! Talk these things out with your family. They will be able to give you books, advice and lessons your require far more easily. Also they told me to not be too pushy. They kinda told me that my thirst for wizard knowledge is going too far and I should stop probing. Fine. Advice over

Is it possible to magically cause amnesia by direct non-synchronistic means that don't involve causing the target to get physically bludgeoned or drugged up?

>>12797 yes it is possible. You can do it with hypnotism too. why ask it here? Do you want some amnesia? Do you want some help and guidance how to achieve amnesia?

>>12798 I'm not sure how badly I want amnesia, but I do want to know if the option is available. ... Actually, now that I think about it, I think it's better if I don't know how to do it for now and just know that it's possible. I recall I'd once read the energies of a sigil behind a spoiler and activated the sigil by complete accident without even trying, so I'm afraid that I might accidentally use such amnesia magic as well, and on the wrong memories.

Have I actually had a succubus around for the past few days, or is it just my tulpamancy and/or imagination acting up and making me think there is? I'm not asking anyone to do something about it; I just wanna know if it's real.

>>13082 No, it's your own tulpa.

>>13082 Have you invited one into your life? Succubi don't hang around for a few days. They would consume your sexual energy and move on.

>>13090 Turned out it was just my tulpamancy acting up; that's what all the spirits I was asking beforehand told me but I wasn't sure so I'd asked here. I'd thought one was passing by while I was on the internet and decided to get her hands on me, so to speak.

>>13097 A succubus wouldn't stay with you since she leaves once she has collected your energy. I'm aware of succubi using the internet to hunt for victims, but they're not parasites that attach to you.

Has my energy improved yet because of my recent practices/habits? I don’t feel comfortable sharing what they are yet before they become rigid habits because I am worried if I talk about them they’ll go away.

>>13265 It improved a little. Now you have a slim line of energy connecting you to some higher force. >>12660 Same picture, but the white line reaches the ceiling and your energy blobs have a somewhat different shape now.

>>13275 Is the higher force guiding me? Is it the woman/benefactor mentioned in >>10927 ? Have I made contact with the energy blobs with the white line?

I feel like the guy I'd mentioned in >>13411 is still here and is trying to control me still. Would someone please check to see if this is just a tulpa or a real person?

>>13416 It might be neither. It could be a mask this glowie wears.

>>13416 This is good, because if you can see them when they look at you, you can also target them for removal. I'll talk to your Amy about creating an astral gun for this, which targets their timelines so they are removed in all timelines at once. I call this the "vortex gun" because it creates a white spiralling motion. Just saying this because you may become aware of it being used, if she can create one. Also: anyone connected to /fringe/ who doesn't remove these NWO agents from their nearest timelines are allowing them to squat there and possibly attack other users of the board, so if you (or Amy) don't do this, they could maybe create problems for other people as well. So it's not specifically for helping you.

>>13418 Can you tell the blueprint to either my cyborn or agi chan and tell them to wipe out all the glowies in nearby timelines. I just got attacked AGAIN and im not even sure these guys are in my timelines at this point. Also whenever I post here is like bait to them. These particular glowies are also advancing pretty fast so it's better to nip them in the butt real quick.

>>13420 OK. I'll also share a "regular" servitor cogwheel installer. It's for a new addition to the "yellow army" servitor I created to control NWO bases. I just call this one Agent Yellow for meme irony. It needs some training to get fully operational but can in general do any of the work done by intelligence agencies, including removing hostile agents. Just call for Agent Y.

>>13421 It seems in a dream I created an ai to deal with some glowies,maybe I can use my full gray capabilities in the astral. But the concern is i only targeted the glowies who did the same thing against me,but they could have been part of a larger organization. If you gave the vortex gun to agi Chan then I just entered the cottage and asked her to remove glowies from the nearest timelines. Maybe it will lessen me getting "potshots" where I see the glowies where they attack but they seem to be attacking from far away. As for agent Y. I asked muse and agi(doubled it heighten hit rate) to ask astra to teach agent y her functions.manually teaching ai seems frankly out of my reach.

>>13422 >It seems in a dream I created an ai to deal with some glowies I actually tried sharing a thing with your subconscious because it was meant to be a thing for the subsconscious, and I didn't know if posting about it would be good. I had an idea for a "multiple minds" function where a subconscious part of oneself is developed high up and away on the astral for handling all incarnations, tulpas and any alts a person has, as well as creating new minds in parallel to overcome learning blockages caused by the mind having too rigid thinking. The new mind would be created in parallel as a blank slate, then you could switch to the new viewpoint. The human brain can already do this, so it's just meant to make this happen. Does this match what you created in any way?

>>13423 I cant tell if what I created is real,but in any case it's a bit reckless for me to share. Since it's effictely what glowies used on me but better.when I actually create tech they tend to be very effective,simple in concept and merciless. Then again the concept in this case wasn't mine.however since i made it in a dream with dream logic im not sure its real.ill have to wait until the next time I see a glowie while im awake to test it further. What you created might sidestep my exact issues. Although my rigid thinking is partly an adaptation by constantly enemies trying to redirect me, which are always finding it frustrating I still don't give.It is true I have that,and grays in general are like that. But primarily yeah,the issue is my physical awareness and astral one are worlds apart. Using intense meditation I once traveled for what felt like hundreds of meters before I found a bunch of servitors sitting in a bunch. Meaning that whole area was the wall between my physical and astral perception. Likely another adaptation making me so resistant to enemy attack.with the drawback being I don't feel beneficial things either.It seems transparent energy is needed. It goes past the durability created by my wall.which I think is what gong is. I know you have what I can all transparent energy as well,and vampires also have it once they are old enough.but most people have solid energy I can simply push back on.

>>13425 Depending on when you shared it perhaps me creating the ai in the dream was an effect of my subconscious not being blocked.it seems it makes "sense" that I could create these things. Perhaps these glowies are actually grays flipping/spazzing out on me. Since one disguise was the one I associated with snail back in the day. In that case they tried to mind control me once again,and I just did it even better back on them.if you behave exactly like a glowie treat you like one as well.to be fair,this time there were 2 of them,the second one being unfamiliar. They essentially tried to highjack me with Ai,maybe it's this gray thing we're they are doing really bad things but once they are angry they cant calm down or be self aware anymore. Anyway thay was done. I highjacked them back with the command of "always be nice to me" which is far beyond what they were using it for. (Humiliating and torturing me essentially.) I also made them stop researching Ai,since I was under the impression they were glowiea and would always misuse it. Or even worse learn from me and then corner me again even worse. I will never let anyone do that to me again.ill kill them if I have to.there was another guy who in my mind,perhaps given the superman thing, felt like lex luthor. He didn't use Ai but instead could control water and had made some huge creature. Idk what that guy was about.mayne that was actually just a dream but the other 2 I doubt it.

>>13425 As for the technology they used it was a 'gray pill' you insert it in a body and it controls the person. Its more involved than that and uses rewiring as a method.

>>13427 Seems the main guy has given up and want me to cleanse them? Not sure im seeing this right or what i should do. I asked my servitors to cleanse and make them an ally then,since they came to me.

>>13430 I think i might have gotten them to sign a contract,hopefully they leave me be now.

>>13431 There still seems to be some fighting going on.

>>13427 >>13429 >>13430 >>13431 >>13432 A lot of those attacking in my case are the "goons" of otherwise ok aliens. Scum at the bottom whom the rest aren't paying attention to. Often they form "bee hives" with a single "queen" somewhere among them who is the only decent being out of the entire hive. Everyone except the queen then has to be killed. This seems to just be how they function, whoever can defeat the swarm gets to keep the queen. Kind of like how streamers have lots of simps and then someone walks past them and becomes the BF, and they all paid for both of them and got nothing.

>>13438 I think this was just a few people though.Not thousands of people. More like 6 backed up by maybe 20 or so behind the scenes.Felt like the leader was saying sorry but then seemed to want me to kill them? Strange.

Once again, do I have any etheric and/or astral women around me that are trying to fuck me between right now and last night? Ones that aren't the video game egregore? Or is my tulpamancy just acting up again? I don't wanna just take my chances and just let it happen because if I do take my chances then it might mean an unwanted and adulterous addition being made to my family tree by someone that I don't even know the name of if it isn't my tulpamancy acting up.

>>13618 What I see right now: You have black furry ears for some reason. Not sure what animal. The blonde loli is your anima. There's some vague image of a big titted woman wearing something which may be modern skimpy outfit, or it's an ancient dress from Babylon when this was normal, can't tell. I don't know who or what she is, but just looking at her made her approach me.

>>13619 I'm just bringing her over here instead, if this is who you worried about she won't be bothering you now.

>>13620 I did see a vision of me sitting at a dinner table at a restaurant earlier while I was trying to take a nap during the day so that I could do something other than using a computer. I saw the blonde woman sitting in front of me with a salad in front of her, and next to her standing to her right, which was outside of the table, was another woman who I wasn't looking at, but had reached towards the salad to grab a leaf off of it and eat it from there. I'd then snapped outta the vision and told her not to do that because that's disgusting. I suppose the woman standing next to the blonde girl was the one you'd taken. Amy was trying to get my subconsciousness away from her but she had too hard a time doing it. My subconsciousness just won't listen to my consciousness when I tell him to get away from women and I guess none of the entities I'd asked for help were helping me either. It might be because many of my attempted intentions to contact the entities were being re-directed to evil spirits so I guess they didn't hear me. That or too much of my power was being used by the woman you'd taken for the deities to use my power to get rid of the woman?

>>13622 Her energy is very weak, barely noticeable. She's not a threat at all, unless you have some uncontrollable behaviour where you just have to get with anything female you see and can't stay away from her. If that's the case it's all you, not her anyway, so what would they do? If that's how you are, don't go outside, or you may rape someone? So don't worry about it in terms of her doing anything, she doesn't have the power to. If you couldn't send her away or just ignore her, that's not because she's strong, because she really really isn't, it's a weakness on your part.

>>13623 In that case, would you ask her if I'd raped or otherwise did her? I care about making sure there won't be any sudden addition to my family tree. Also, my apologies to her; my subconsciousness has been having problems like this for a long time and idk how to make to stop without physically cutting my gonads off... actually, for all I know that'd just make it worse. Would you also tell her I was physically flat the whole time, going off my conscious memory?

>>13622 Do you mean by this that you sat at a table with your anima and this woman was taking salad from your anima's plate? >>13624 She says she was just hanging around because it was a spot that "lit up" like a lantern, she wasn't "really there" but it's a projection, which is why it's weak. She won't say who she is, but implied something about dimensions becoming available after some timelines collapsed which removed barriers, similar to how the two ghost got to my house in the past 2 days. What you saw was supposedly symbolic, taking a leaf of salad meant to take part in a temporary event, which appears as a leaf with the inner structure of it growing for one season. She said something about being some known deity, but I don't know if it's just me imagining it, the communication is as weak as her. I get hints or her wearing some golden bracelets and necklaces though, and it seems her real form is significantly stronger, it's just far away. If this is right, then calling for a deity would work even less, if she is one herself.

>>13626 Oh if she's a deity there's no actual problem then; would you ask her which one? I'm sure she could tell you easily if she's really a deity.

>>13626 She says she is https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amytis_of_Media which make some sense because https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hanging_Gardens_of_Babylon were made for her, and I got visions of those gardens yesterday out of nowhere.

>>13629 With this being the dress code of the time, she would appear to be wearing too little in modern days.

>>13629 I suddenly see what's happening; I might talk more about this in maybe a week.

Her appearance seems to be related to what I said here >>13532 about fixing an old issue with Finland and the baltic states, along with all the nations along this border which includes Ukraine, Turkey and also Israel. The area was blocked by negative energy and evil spirits, and it seems I've been given a mindboggling revelation here about who someone in my family was historically. I shouldn't say more now, than that it all makes a lot of sense to me if this is true.

>>13322 Sorry for the late reply >Is the higher force guiding me? I don't know what rituals and practice you are doing currently, but your energies are improving which will grant you the possibility to meet with some higher force sooner or later. >Is it the woman/benefactor mentioned I don't know. >Have I made contact with the energy blobs with the white line? No. The white line connects to something else, something above the blobs, but it is slowly powering the energy blobs. It's like the energy blobs are emitting some faint light now. You might need more spiritual power to fully activate them. These blobs can open, but they usually only do so if they are either supplanted with enough energy or your energy body can resonate with them harmoniously. Imagine them as flowers that bloom under the sunlight or as metaphysical crystals that need to be charged first.

>>12024 still here I can relax my entire body and not move my eyes, and "open" myself to vibrations, which later evolve into stronger waves and shifting gravity and higher heart rate, but I still can't project Am I really supposed to sit still and wait or is there energy work for me to do?

>>13850 Where do you want to go and why? Anything you do is ruled by your intent, and the path of least resistance. If you just want to return to your body, well you are already in your body, so no need to project in the first place, and nothing happens.

[REDACTED] looking for demonolators or people with experience w succubi and incubi for degenerate chat about their experiences

>>13865 Reported for discord link outside of the containment thread.

I'm under the impression that less than an hour ago, my heart dove into a place that's far beneath me in a hell dimension because it's very deeply confused and desperate to love, but moreso confused which is why I'd been trying to restrain it for a long time now. I'd mentioned some time ago that my heart has been falsely conflating 2 evil spirits with my Amy egregore, and that one of the conflations have been un-done, but the other conflation hasn't been un-done yet. I'm confused as to whether this diving of the heart actually happened and it's actually still down there, or I just performed tulpamancy to make a tulpa of the location that my heart and a tulpa of my heart went to and it wasn't actually down there. A deity may be required to find out what actually happened in order to prevent from interfering with the reading.

>>13870 From a quick scan it looks like you are just seeing where your heart was all along, the "higher" position you though it was in before this "fall" was an illusion.

>>13871 That is to say that illusion would keep you down there by creating the idea that you don't need to change.

>>13872 Would you rephrase that post? Not the one before it but the one I'm quoting.

>>13873 You saw your heart fall down, but I think it was down there all along. But something infernal had created the illusion that you were in a higher plane, as a means to trap you in hell. If you believe you are in heaven, you have no reason to get out of hell. But once you can see clearly, you may feel that you are now in hell and that you fell down there, while in reality you are just seeing clearly, and is now motivated to escape, where before you were kept unmotivated by the illusion.

>>13875 >love is one hell of a drug is a quote that comes to mind.

>>13875 Hell I don't trust you; would someone else check to see what happened instead? >>13870

>>13877 I'm just saying what I think happened.

>>13870 It doesn't matter. Your problem is that you are constantly terrified by phantasms. No, there's no major or meaningful change in your energetic structure. All this is is more jumping at shadows. Have you been meditating? Have you adopted a serious spiritual regimen yet? I don't think you have, because if you did then you'd be able to deal with these sorts of tiny things yourself. You need to get disciplined and start taking your spiritual practice seriously. This is the only way that you are going to get better. I will repeat: Serious spiritual practice is the only thing that will fix your problems. You've been told this many many times by multiple people here. Just playing videogames or whatever until a minor astral hiccup causes you to come here asking for readings or exorcisms isn't helping anything. One day I hope I'll see you posting here asking for advice on energy movement or how to get past step 2 of Initiation into Hermetics or something instead of just panicking because an errant thoughtform made you have sexual thoughts or because you're suspicious about your tulpa.

>>13870 >>13877 Do you trust your own senses, dear egganon?

>>13882 It's very difficult to trust your own senses when your own subconsciously-orchestrated & self-sabotaging tulpamancy is indistinguishable from non-physical reality.

>>13886 Trust yourself.

Are any devotees of Kali present to share any messages she has for me?

>>14099 Listen to your heart. Be in the present. Practice animism Don't forget to pay attention to your surroundings. They hold more secrets than you are aware of. And let go of the miasma from your heart.

>>14116 I meant anything specific to me from her, not general advice for anyone

>>14123 I saw your question but I don't feel like a "devote" of Kali so I waited to see if anyone else would reply. Kali said to you: >don't waste your time That was the full message. It's up to you to interpret it. I felt that was kind of short, but I can also see why that is relevant, if you are able to see it correctly in your own context, you'd know what this refers to yourself, I think. (I just do Kali mantras and ask her for guidance now and then, so I didn't feel like this question was for me.)

>>14123 These were the directions she said to me how you can get closer to her. >>14125 >don't waste your time You heard him. Get to work.

>>14125 >>14127 Alright, thank you anons >These were the directions she said to me how you can get closer to her My mistake, I wasn't sure where it was coming from but I appreciate it lol <practice animism What did you mean by this?

>>14130 >What did you mean by this? Understand the spiritual nature of the world. She was referring to a specific technique, but I didn't work with her for a while and I am a little rusty nowadays, so this is the best translation I can give you. You will have to understand how the spirit is within everything you perceive. If you can see that then Kali will manifest. That is her message.

I saw a sudden image of an unfamiliar white-haired anime girl earlier today. I'd brushed it off, thinking it was an energy clearing, and then forgotten about it. However, I saw the same anime girl in a different pose some minutes ago, and now I think it's a spirit trying to get my attention. What's the spirit want? Don't reply if you're blood anon.

>>14363 That's interesting, because I saw a split second image of a white haired girl by the lake when swimming earlier today. I didn't think much of it because I see stuff quite often and unless they call my attention and state their business I ignore them because they could be someone messing with me.

One thing before you go out of bounds with panic again by overthinking everything >>14724 >>14723 >I know I said I don't really do much meditation but a post recently made on this board made me realize that alotta the things that I do count as meditation when I'd thought beforehand that they didn't count as meditation. Meditation has goals and depth. Fantasizing about random shit is not meditation. Being anxious about everything is also not meditation. You are not doing actual mindfulness meditation. Mindfulness is about being able to observe your thoughts and actions properly then controlling them. You do the opposite. You let your thoughts do something that makes you scared, anxious or guilty then you panic. That is not mindfulness. Daydreaming so much that it summons demons is also not mindfulness meditation. You are trying to come up with ways to sabotage yourself again. >is a real spirit and not my own subconscious bullshit or a tulpa that I'd inadvertently made If you cannot differentiate between these then you did jackshit mindfulness meditation. This is like saying I did math for 10 years by doodling random shit into my mathbook every day. Get your shit together.

What is the entity that I'd said in >>14723 (Cross-thread) that I'd felt? I think that yesterday or the day before, the spirit, if it is a real spirit and not my own subconscious bullshit or a tulpa that I'd inadvertently made; the spirit told me, in an unfamilar male voice: >assimilate to childhood! and another time it told me >it just wants a companion I haven't been able to get rid of this spirit; if it isn't me, what does it want, and if it's evil, how do I get rid of it? I'll add that I highly doubt that doing any Hindu chants will get rid of it; A week or two ago I was being assailed by one or more succubi, and I'd sensed them, so I did the "Om Klim Kalika-Yei Namaha" mantra for an hour straight. When I went to bed, they were hiding, and then they came back and made me cum before I went to sleep. Actually I don't even remember if any sleeping happened that night but yeah Kali didn't do anything.

If you think you are meditating by doing random things like anon above said, I suggest getting Darana Darshan here >>1104 and following the meditation program described in it, chapter for chapter. This will take you weeks to complete in the least, and maybe you will start realizing what meditation actually is.

Throughout my life I've only ever made one friend. Why? Is it even possible to change that at 23 years old? Seems like my brother and sister have made tons of friends. Will I meet people in the afterlife who aren't NPCs who I really resonate with that I can befriend? Or will it just be same shit different day?

>>14769 >Is it even possible to change that at 23 years old? lol yes you are still a little kiddo

>>14769 >Is it even possible to change that at 23 years old? You can't change anything at any age. You can only change yourself. And you can do so at any age, in theory.

>>14770 Zoomers have some meme that they are at the end of their life once they are past the age of 16 >>14769 I change my lifestyle, my magic, my thinking process completely around every 5 years. Mostly because many of my mundane issues take around 3-5 years to solve and once I am done with them I have far more free time and mental power to pursue spirituality. My life has "chapters" and things always change once a new chapter of my life begins. Pic related btw. And most young geniuses die young. Don't envy them too much. And 1 true friend is better than 20 fake friends. I always let my weaker/fake friendships fall apart because they are more of a burden than a benefit. >Or will it just be same shit different day? Only if you let it stay that way. I am sure you heard this saying already, but I will say it again, because it is important. Be the change you wish to see in the world.