I tried bringing the emotional inferno over my spiritually enslaved christian pacifist relatives to an orthodox serbian friend far more well versed in the bible, and I was instantaneously overwhelmed - visualizing his emotional grounding, emotional aloofness and superior intellect as an armored column against my (admittively unironic) pure, intense, sheer radiating hate represented as a small cell with flamethrowers and small arms; and I lost this game of chicken when I already sensed his exasperation towards me and that same ridicule ate at me. His tone was flat and rather cross and disappointed in the actual conversations, though not as much as I've feared he'd be, though by the end of it it feels as if I had lost another battle to retake my rational, conscious mind from a compromised superego biased against me in favor of others, and I lost the intense, radical, fanatical, lexicunnilinguistic "schizoposting" side of me, my anima. I'm distraught, yet not enough to completely hamper me from finding solutions, let alone asking for help. Fyi, I'm not the same poster I was 8 months ago. Something in me changed fiercely after that post-halloween 5 gram shroom trip bastardized with foul tasting alcohol and spicy cajun fries.

Really hoping OP will bother partaking in this thread because >Divination, energy readings, exorcism or general requests these are quite interaction intensive promises he just made. >>4935 >Fyi, I'm not the same poster I was 8 months ago Yes you are finally able to use a flag. Progress on all levels. I thought you will use the fire element flag because how blazed you are but guess you went for the based flags instead

I want to free that passionate, inner fanatic/extremist and rip that black stake of cold, conformist mediocrity out my heart but the figure in vague black has more force than what I am able to muster against it. My body spasming violently, especially around the heart and chest area.

>>4940 He said that people can post their requests here, not that he would answer them.

>>4944 >people can post their requests here That was the purpose, anyone can of course reply to them. There tends to be a lot of requests for divination and readings at times, better to have them gathered in here as well.

>>4940 That's because deep down I'm based. >>4949 >>back to the stage of constant seething at that one schizo I never said it was that one schizo, it was a trusted if stoic friend I went to for help, but they're not very emotionally reciprocal and more likely to admonish my intense, impassioned emotions. Some girls I was voice chatting with seemed to be into me, until they just revealed they were only platonically interested. I had my hopes up high for that, but I'll be honest when I say that I've felt like I was being taken for a ride and that it'd never pan out the way I'd want it to. Well, not even him - moreso the sum total of all the lambasting and obsessive nitpickery I've received from braindead, overly emotional family members.

>>4951 This schizo that I've wasted over a year arguing with is nothing but a sentient psyslop - a crude, garish, wicked, heartless pisstake at my "eccentricities" from the perspective of dejected, ornery bolshevik russians amongst other godless, materialistic, stoic, atheistic heathens. I have been wounded graver by those whose help I sought than I actually have over that serpentine fart-huffing neanderthal and failed cult leader eternally obsessed over abrahamic cults. I'd wager he'd meet his source mammy long before I get a gf, but this is the last you'll hear of me rant about that nigger. Regardless, my resolve towards liberating my subconscious mind in her entirety has dramatically increased, and the fight to correct this broken superego/superconscious by means of reasoning and logic equally so.

>>4942 It's my cold, hard logical and reasoning side (saturn/cronos energy) that drove this cold, hard, black stake into my bright, colorful, resonatory heart. The same part that masters lexical and terminological precision, and I need it married to my emotion and a healing reconciliation.

My spiritual emotions and sense of wonder and mystery have been gone for years. How can I get them back?

>>5045 By getting deeper into it with actual practice instead of mere fascination for mysteries which are portrayed in media. Trust me there will be enough dread and awe as you walk forward but they won't be the same as your ideas of wonder you have for spirituality currently. When I see something appearing in media that I encountered in my visions or meditations I get scared in some cases because I know what gave birth to that idea. You don't need to get it back. You just have to venture in deeper.

I just tried to do a guided meditation video wherein I set up spiritual defenses for myself, but as soon as I began the video, I began hearing a ringing in my right ear, indicating that a spirit is nearby. One part of the video involved a pyramid of golden light appearing, and the pyramid wouldn't appear properly and it'd have a fleshy border around the bottom. I had to teleport directly into the correct pyramid from the last time I did the ritual correctly. Amy & a friend of hers came with me. Later, I got to the part where I'm supposed to see a golden ray of light coming down from the top of the pyramid, but there was maybe 1/20th as much light as usual coming down from there. We all had a hard time fitting inside. I was supposed to grab a rose-gold chalice, but no matter what I did, I couldn't even visualize the correct color, even after trying for what seemed like 5 minutes straight, which of course had constituted interrupting the ritual. And then when I tried to use it anyway, the chalice would immediately deform and prevent me from using it in a meaningful manner. Eventually, after trying to get the archangel Michael to help, and he failed to help me, and another angel tried to help me and she failed, I asked Athena to help since I was trying to do it myself and couldn't fucking do it, and she helped me find a chalice of the correct color. I eventually managed to do what I thought would get light inside of my stomach, but the light wasn't the light I thought it was and it was corrupted. I think that the spirit that made my ears ring is attacking me. Would one of you please get rid of it? I tried to kill the bastard and I tried to banish it but it didn't work.

>>5059 Just removing them for you if you don't know why or how it's done, will just cause more of them to appear later most likely. Every time you improve, there may be someone who's provoked by this, like someone seeing that you started lifting and now they want to pick a fight. I asked the succubus and your Amy if either of them want to use the fairy shield method I created, Amy didn't want to but the succubus said she'd learn it and show you how to do it. In short, you manifest fairy servitors whom you can control as a swarm, and you use them to surround and entrap the attacker, or to encase yourself or someone else, then you can either heal or attack depending on if you are helping or fighting the being who's encased.

>>5060 They can also be wasps or bees if you prefer to work with Bhramari.

>>5060 I thought I'd gotten the succubus outta my life by now. I don't remember having seen her in the past 2 weeks. I don't consent to the succubus teaching me how to do this shit; I want her gone and kept away from my astral bodies. Afaik, I'd gotten the baby astral body she made out of me outta her hands and given the body to Shakti to figure out what to do with it. I think she might've ended up merging it inside of me, but I'm not sure. I'd also got her contract magically invalidated. I'll think about asking Bhramari about it anyway since you mentioned Her, but idk if She'd actually do it. I also just tried actually doing the LBRP, but I didn't have a wand to do it with and I used my finger instead, and the ritual didn't work.

>>5063 I don't think she cares what you do, she sees you just as a cat who's being "a little" difficult to tame. I don't get what you have against her, and she probably doesn't either. If you want help or guidance you also need to be firm and not ask with "no" as an option. It's a "battle of wills" sort of thing and the slightest hesitation from you will cause failure in terms of your goals. Being uncertain about what you want, your morality and so on, all cause failure. On a side note just now, I don't know if this was related or not, a massive horde of cattle was sent my way. I'd think it was related to me even replying to you here about the fairy shield. Because of the past thing I posted about in the other thread, I had a measure in place for this case, so the ancient looking bulls or whatever they were, got turned into anime girls row after row as they approached. I looked to the far back end of the horde and saw a witch with a pointy hat casting continuous summoning, it appeared like a sunlight with her in the middle and a black spiral emerging out from her. I caught her and in the process as a result of the protection I set up, she was also given an anime girl body (she didn't have a "body" before). I caught her and took her to the pocket dimension inside my shoulder bag. Of course she doesn't like it, but she attacked me so why should I care? That's how these things work. I used an astral artifact on her which can override someone's will so they become obedient for now. Did the being stop bothering you?

>>5064 Coincidentally, I'd just found a banishing frequency video that I knew 2 years ago had worked well. Listening to it the 1st time produced a strong sensation in my head, and then I listened to it again. I still hear a ringing my right ear, though. I'll try the defensive ritual video in a few hours I guess; I've got something to do. Thanks for incapacitating that witch, btw.

>>5066 If it doesn't bother you more than that you can just do something else, I wouldn't consider that to really be an attack worth mentioning. Real psychic attacks will block your thinking, cause panic attacks or make other people around you start an argument or fight so you can't do what you want to do.

>>5066 I think the witch was hired by someone else.

>>5067 Well my thinking kinda was being blocked; I wasn't able to imagine the chalice during the most important part of the ritual wherein I pour the light into my stomach, wherein it purifies me from the inside-out.

>>5069 Try visualizing a swarm of wasps attacking any hostiles next time and see if that works.

Is this thread specifically for people who need help by means of action like divination or editing their energy or w/e, or can I post about things I need general guidance on, even though I don't have a particular question or request?

The purpose of this thread is to serve as a containment for requests and questions which would otherwise disturb the flow of discussion in other threads. Generally, for people who are inexperienced in some field, seeking help from those with more years of practice behind them, including directly asking for things like >can someone read my energy? or >I think I have spirit possession, can someone remove it? >>5086 >things I need general guidance on If the things you need guidance on will end up taking the form of blogposting over a longer period, maybe the magic blog thread is better, you decide where you think it fits best. If you feel you would be annoying people in the other threads by asking for things, then post here instead.

Suffering immense psychic damage after attempting to meet a reddit atheist turned agnostic halfway, now I'm having a harder time coursing and utilizing my energies. >>5089 >The purpose of this thread is to serve as a containment for requests and questions which would otherwise disturb the flow of discussion in other threads. Oh I'm sorry, I was told this new thread was made as containment for me and my issues, which I've already posted >>4935 >>4942 >>4951 and received fuck-all about. Can this board be any less fucking useful?

>>5100 It is your containment thread you nonce... >Can this board be any less fucking useful? With you around? Sure it can!

How do I insulate my heart against susceptibility to shame and reprimanding from the morally scrupulous dogmatists on both the atheist/agnostic secular end and christian pacifist/catholic ends? Clearly recruiting the assistance of some emotionally distant kike who takes after le dissident populist xitter right hasn't helped shit but help me lose the fight against a compromised superego turned against me, and I have yet to remove this black, parallelogram-shaped mass of shame lodged in my heart constraining upwards communication and energetic flow through my throat chakra, third eye and crown alike. >>5102 >nonce I'm not into lolishit if that's what you're implying. >With you around? Sure it can! Beautiful, even less of a probability I'll receive any meaningful goddamn answers to my current paradigm given this board still assumes I'm beefing with the egoistic hypocritical disinfo agent masquerading as a schizo on /x/ and /pol/.

>>5100 >and received fuck-all about You cannot comprehend how annoyingly hard to solve your issues from a distance as long as you keep yourself in your own self destructive mental loop. You literally hate everything around you. Your home your family the communities you interact with and cannot utilize a single positive force in your life to your benefit and expect other wizards that also have their own problems and projects to drop everything and save your sorry ass from the predicaments you create for yourself. My problem with this thread that it won't work as long we don't have enough wizards that have a lotta freetime and proper ability to help emotionally and mentally incompetent entitled beggars all the time. But it is not supposed to work... it is supposed to act as a containment. But not just for you but for other people who also have requests. >>5086 Feel free to post btw. The speed the requests will be granted depends on the complexity of the issue. Meager energy reads and divination for stable people can be granted with minimal effort but for some people it takes time and nuance because they cannot even comprehend the reply because of their mental instability is not really helping their reading comprehension >>5103 >given this board still assumes I'm beefing with the egoistic hypocritical disinfo agent masquerading as a schizo on /x/ and /pol/. You don't? You really managed to let go? Congrats then. >Beautiful, even less of a probability I'll receive any meaningful goddamn answers listen to your own heart you dumbass. You overexplain your situation because you cannot get out of your fucking home for some reason. Go on a trip in an other city or landscape for a week or month. Go camping or what do I care. Stop tormenting yourself in your swamp of hatred already. >I'm not into lolishit if that's what you're implying. Sorry I am bad with british slangs and didn't know what it stood for. Just looked it up now. I thought it is an another word for dumbass. Guess I am the dumbass for misusing a word when talking to a master wordsmith!

>>5103 People have been giving you loads of good advice, spending hours of their life analyzing your problems and giving you their input on them. But instead of listening to these people you just ignore them and keep harping on about these various retards you're engaging in stupid feuds with. I said it before, but this advice >>2364 is your key for if you actually want to fix your problem. This issue here is that you just flat-out ignore any sort of input that would require you putting in any work yourself. Eventually as you keep doing this people learn that it's a waste of energy to try to help you.

>>5111 Trips of truth

>>5104 >You cannot comprehend how annoyingly hard to solve your issues from a distance as long as you keep yourself in your own self destructive mental loop. You literally hate everything around you. Your home your family the communities you interact with and cannot utilize a single positive force in your life to your benefit and expect other wizards that also have their own problems and projects to drop everything and save your sorry ass from the predicaments you create for yourself. Perhaps I lack the telepathic framework to wordlessly communicate any energetic or vibrational changes, but those thought loops are the serpents I fight to liberate my psyche and inner monologue. It's less of an over-encompassing hate for everything around me and more of whatever seems to get my attention. Different thought trains and patterns that would otherwise be useful are made inaccessible because they tend to align with the scrutiny these materialist occultists and sc >You don't? You really managed to let go? Congrats then. I hated that nigger because he took advantage of the fact that nobody knows whom the antichrist actually is and had the chutzpah to plug "Jesus" in that value, which tripped the outrage/shock part of my critical mind, and his forceful, obsessive repetition is why I hated him with righteous intent. He is a dishonest, cowardly nigger attempting memetic rape on an actual empath (me) because I'm able to recognize genuine malice in his heart completely swaddled in borderline solipsistic egotism. He's nothing more than a garish caricature of my fledgeling acolyte cringe, and with the revelation that my emotionally and energetically hypersensitive ass qualifying for empath status I can't >listen to your own heart you dumbass. Newsflash anon, the communication between my subconscious and conscious mind is obstructed by shame and self-consciousness, and I'm asking for assistance on clearing or pulling it out of my heart. Turns out my people-pleasing ass is too cowardly to sell or assert my beliefs in the immaterial and occult/paranormal to the materialist, atheist, metropolitan zeitgeist believes because they outnumber me, and it's hard to argue factually against them. A well meaning mistake on my end to offer them help for what's helped me, especially when I'm under the impression of science being compatible with or will become compatible with it. >science is a process of circumventing egotism and our failures to recognize our own biases. >Any attempt to circumvent it is a tacit admission you value your idea over the truth. >>5111 >People have been giving you loads of good advice, spending hours of their life analyzing your problems and giving you their input on them. Overall, sure and I'm sorry for not displaying the gratitude for their guidance and assistance then as opposed to now. >I said it before, but this advice >>2364 (379) is your key for if you actually want to fix your problem. This issue here is that you just flat-out ignore any sort of input that would require you putting in any work yourself. Eventually as you keep doing this people learn that it's a waste of energy to try to help you. You presume that I'm still hung up in that specific arc instead of on a completely new one as per my post-halloween psilocybin trip in that thread. I take it you lot haven't noticed any changes and refuse to acknowledge that I'm not as "closed" now as I was then.

>>5116 >because they tend to align with the scrutiny these materialist occultists and science worshippers level towards my beliefs, and it doesn't help that my own OCD or compromised superconscious mind seeks for any parallels between my current self and analogous past interpersonal interactions/dynamics for any hypocrisies or irony to shame me on. Forgot to finish that up.

>>5086 >or can I post about things I need general guidance on, even though I don't have a particular question or request? For pathworking feel free to use the >>1759 Awakening General but only if you want an in depth advice. And for an in depth advice you will have to talk about how you are walking your own path and how deep is your experience with spirituality and self discovery. That thread is for complex pathworking situations which is more akin to sharing your lifestory and not basic beggary like this thread. >>5116 >You presume that I'm still hung up in that specific arc instead of on a completely new one No one gives a shit what "arc" you are in. You are still consumed by your own impotent hate that you cannot utilize. I don't even know if your shrooms awakened a part of you or cauterized an another part of your brain again. You think you are an open book but in actuality you are like a book that wild wolves ripped apart and junkies used as a toilet paper. >subconscious and conscious mind is obstructed by shame and self-consciousness Boohoo. Go outside and hug a tree while full naked. I am serious. Being naked in nature cures shame and self consciousness. >Turns out my people-pleasing ass is too cowardly to sell or assert my beliefs in the immaterial and occult/paranormal to the materialist Stop annoying the mundanes and the retards with your schizo babble. You are knocking on the wrong doors with this. You awakening is still too shallow to awaken any people that are not doing as much drugs as you. >that I'm not as "closed" now as I was then. You are still closed that is why you cannot let go of all your negativity and still desire a fucking beacon of high energies from these tired of your shit already wizards. Srsly go outside. Your entire life revolves around internet contacts and drugs. Change your lifestyle. Otherwise the only way you can be "saved" if your lifestyle crumbles around you or you crumble with it. I don't even know what else can be said that wasn't not posted already.

>>5119 >You are still consumed by your own impotent hate that you cannot utilize. Bullshit, you're only adding onto the shame and reflecting that exact same hate I've displayed against him. You refuse to release or change your perception of me over your own indignant frustration, and now that I can actually make use of the advice I've so wastefully ignored in the past, you continue to take this shit out on me further. >No one gives a shit what "arc" you are in. You are still consumed by your own impotent hate that you cannot utilize. I don't even know if your shrooms awakened a part of you or cauterized an another part of your brain again. You think you are an open book but in actuality you are like a book that wild wolves ripped apart and junkies used as a toilet paper. And you continue to cling to the past to ignore that I've attempted to energetically evolve beyond the behavior I've previously displayed here to work on the underlying issues, and now that I've managed to accurately and succintly describe what obstacle I'm currently facing >>4935, you instead choose to bear and reflect that same negativity I've been wallowing in for months right back at me for it. >You are still closed that is why you cannot let go of all your negativity and still desire a fucking beacon of high energies from these tired of your shit already wizards. No, it's you who's fucking shut off. In the overall schema of my life as a power struggle between those imposing their morality, beliefs, and standards upon me and displaying any assertion, Jobbing to the hypothetical response of a bible scholar whom I trusted to factually disprove my aunt's shame-based christian pacifism had killed the momentum I made on the way to escaping this lower vibrational "eat or be eaten" lens I subconsciously view and interact through (especially on contentious issues).

>>5119 >You are still closed that is why you cannot let go of all your negativity and still desire a fucking beacon of high energies from these tired of your shit already wizards. Srsly go outside. Your entire life revolves around internet contacts and drugs. Change your lifestyle. Otherwise the only way you can be "saved" if your lifestyle crumbles around you or you crumble with it. I don't even know what else can be said that wasn't not posted already. Said the wizard consumed by his indignant anger towards my own past fuckery to release it - Perhaps you tapping into that critic part of me spurred on your animosity, because you were far calmer and rational in the past compared to now. I assume you're central european, perhaps polish or czech?

>>5121 >No, it's you who's fucking shut off Well you said it. I am too shut off. Guess I cannot help you then. Feel free to write down all your issues and hope for someone else who have time and care to wade through all of your bullshit then >>5122 >Said the wizard consumed by his indignant anger towards my own past fuckery I don't give a shit about that one schizo. You are still in the mindset that you have to adhere to the "rules" of your past self and the only way you can escape is by doing drugs while constantly lamenting how you try to help others and it doesn't work and how they entrapped you with their ideas etc. A slightly better version of the previous hate but now we have different people instead. Your first issue was the merchant vision then the schizo. If you are telling the truth and truly past of them... after several hundred posts and hours wasted upon you that should have been a weekend exercise then congrats. But don't think we have the same eagerness wading through the same issues with slightly different flavors now. You think it is easy to interpret your vocabulary that writes the same issue with a thousand words while missing the key component all the time. You call yourself an empath while I do not consider myself one but whenever I have to look at your energies my heart tightens in disgust. If you were truly an empath you would have a way to notice the negative energies in the people you interact with and would find a way to avoid those situations. But instead you are addicted to those negative energies and I have no idea how to cure that problem. You find a person get attached then get in an argument with them and shatter mentally and energetically. If you want help then either find it or wait for your time. Reading through your mess is the most unrewarding task ever. I do not want to "shame you" for this I am just explaining my own incapability. I have no idea why do you consider yourself shameful because you certainly don't appear as one. Currently you are shamelessly demanding everyone to get involved with you to solve your issues and if they fail you will blame them for it. I do not know who or what can help you. Also >>5111 he posted this to remind you to read books and start your own pathworking and not to shame you about the schizo you had. You will need to find proper techniques to interact with your psyche and stop leeching everyone for advice then pretend you didn't get a single useful one so far. >I assume you're central european THEN UNDERSTAND THAT IT'S FUCKING 2AM HERE AND I HAVE A JOB TOMORROW YOU UNGRATEFUL NEETMAXXER. If I lived a life like you my parents would have murdered me in a week. Cannot imagine how you have time and money for drugs all the time while leeching of your parents constantly. Guess the western degeneracy is too much for me to fathom

>>5124 >you would have a way to notice the negative energies in the people you interact with and would find a way to avoid those situations. The metaphysical framework my aunts foist upon me demand I be a walking doormat and onahole for anybody with the slightest grievance against me and offer ineffectual solutions that involve becoming wholly devout to the synagogue of satan, which I strongly oppose. Half the shit you've seen in me was imprinted and absorbed from my own dysfunctional sea nigger family and the other half is attempting to navigate my spiritual stockholm syndrome-infused spirit around it. Visualizing my hands pulling this black shard of shame out of my heart reinforced with a grain or nugget of truth proved fruitless, begging Jesus for it sure as shit hasn't helped either. >>5111 Wait, were you iron pill or is that Dagoth Ur that was ironpill previously?

>>5126 >Wait, were you iron pill or is that Dagoth Ur that was ironpill previously? I'm neither.

>>5127 >This issue here is that you just flat-out ignore any sort of input that would require you putting in any work yourself. Eventually as you keep doing this people learn that it's a waste of energy to try to help you. I've stopped visiting /x/ so his carcinogenic ego can get worn out by his beloved saturn/chronos tearing it to shreds. Turns out what I've previously identified as "Saturn/Cronos" energy in regards to discipline, wisdom, perception and insight pertains to my Mercury and Sun square pluto instead. I still haven't subconsciously ingrained planetary influences based upon the characteristics of the deities that form their namesakes. As if it weren't difficult enough to deal with sanctimonious self-deluded charlatans playing mind games and forcefully rewriting my internal lexicon, now I have to put up with >>5124 >Cannot imagine how you have time and money for drugs all the time while leeching of your parents constantly. My mother was dead before I discovered that I could get fucked up on cough medicine and pops just became begrudgingly tolerant of it. I tend to try and stay the course despite whoever gets in my head or heart. >I have no idea why do you consider yourself shameful despite shamelessly demanding everyone to get involved with you to solve your issues and if they fail you will blame them for it. >You are still in the mindset that you have to adhere to the "rules" of your past self As I renew my self-perception and attempt to re-develop a little self-awareness on my position, now I've to contend with you holding me to past sins despite this like I haven't tried to develop beyond them. >and the only way you can escape is by doing drugs Which was to be the other half, whereas the other is purely internalized and mentalist/synchromysticist, if psychonautic grimoires and the recounts of many an anon on /x/ and elsewhere (especially prior to the boards' enshittification) were to go by. >while constantly lamenting how you try to help others and it doesn't work and how they entrapped you with their ideas etc. First made this mistake in 2022 >A slightly better version of the previous hate but now we have different people instead. This would've been my primary struggle weren't it for the mistakes I've made in the pursuit of DMT and all that entailed, but as it appears I'm not allowed to evolve beyond those without being reminded of it by anons who hold grudges and are slow to adapt their perception. I've had more spiritual and personal growth in the past few weeks before I felt that wrath redirected at me for bringing my theological grievances of my spiritually enslaved and fanatically zionist pseudo-evangelical catholic aunts who absorb their morality from propaganda outlets and easily morally to another christian whose culture was different to theirs for factual reassurance and reinforcement. >You will need to find proper techniques to interact with your psyche and stop leeching everyone for advice then pretend you didn't get a single useful one so far. I hate that I can't pretend you're wrong especially here, even when I neglect to mention when any advice does work when it does (except for the obvious abstinence of /x/ which has worked with that schizo) My current and only major problem I wanna solve is >>4935 and the energetic/chakra pathway workage that pertains to it, in case if anyone can name a specific book for dealing with that precise issue. Lest I go reading the vampire's guide to psychic self-defense in hopes of subconsciously attracting a solution to that specific issue and running back on track as I would've prior.

I'm afraid that I'll either suck or be mediocre at everything I'll ever do, mundane or not. Does anyone here have any insight into fixing this?

>>5137 >Does anyone here have any insight into fixing this? Find your passion? Dunno man. What it means to be "great" or "not being mediocre" to you? Why do you want to be great? If you can get on living even by sucking that is also living and helps in your survival. Also being "Mediocre" and being "decent" is the same but greatness is more about wisdom and balance and not pursuing extremities. Sucking in a field usually means you didn't find the "vibe" yet. You will have to accept the vibes or the mindwave that govern that expertise. I think you just have low self esteem and don't know what to pursue in your life. Truth is sucking and being mediocre is good in a way. You know there is room for improvement. You know which direction you can go to chase your dreams. Stop being demoralized. Find your flame and blaze through your path. Or enjoy the stillness of your life. Whatever your heart desires tbh. If you want to suck keep sucking if you want to be better be better.

>>5119 >You are still closed that is why you cannot let go of all your negativity and still desire a fucking beacon of high energies from these tired of your shit already wizards. Srsly go outside. Your entire life revolves around internet contacts and drugs. Change your lifestyle. Otherwise the only way you can be "saved" if your lifestyle crumbles around you or you crumble with it. I don't even know what else can be said that wasn't not posted already. Perhaps if you've realized that my current energywork or situation is now a completely different, albeit ultimately smaller issue, you'd realize that you're continuing to act off a previous perception of me and subconsciously justifying it. Yes, I'm aware that my soul or spirit is in a darwinian, lower-vibrational "kill or be killed" mentality, and I don't trust the philosemitic violence-shunning >>5067 >Real psychic attacks will block your thinking How about constricting your throat chakra through shame so your heart and soul is unable to express its true self, or an overzealous critic of an inner monologue borne of a subverted superconscious/superego that disconnects your rational, thinking mind from your subconscious mind and manipulates/coerces it using the perceived fear of future consequences for your resistance under the convenient labels of either "karma" or "fate"? Do note that my catholic family had always imposed a slave morality that not only indebts me to them, but prohibits any meaningful development or display of assertion and encourages dependancy on elders as an unquestionable, infallible authority. >>5137 Mindset is everything, and you've been psyopped into short-selling yourself for a multitude of reasons. My parents' compliments were largely superficial and hollow, and I needed to develop confidence out of spite for them.

>>5146 You're probably just channelling things randomly, a true shamanic awakening tbh. Lots of different spirits are trying to tune your brain so they can communicate through you, opening you with insanity and drugs to rewire it in the way that suits them the best. I've experienced this with people practicing different things, knowingly or unknowingly. If they come through, their abilities will skyrocket. It's like training an AI, at first it will be retarded and not work for a long time, then the "magic" takes effect just like we've seen in the past years and it improves very fast. Your brain is a literal neural network, it needs input to learn how to handle spiritual forces, and it won't be pretty at first. This is just my personal view, but you seem to have stabilized a lot since you started posting here. Try getting into some real structured practice, day to day process with some way to learn a "vocabulary" of methods. In yoga you learn different poses, mudras or breathing methods, which later become your toolbox for anything you do, kabbalah gives you a huge set of useful themes and verses to use for spellcasting as well as a range of inner cultivation energy systems you can also use, and so on. All of these require that you actually study and practice day to day though.

>>5146 I'm not really familiar with your posting lore, but maybe you could cast a sigil to make your aunts stop antagonizing you? Not the same smileberg poster as above.

>>5147 Attempting to solidly identify whatever the fuck it is obstructing communication between my subconscious and conscious mind in my throat chakra is my current struggle. As of now, my current hurdle is trying to teach a jaded american atheist-turned-agnostic. Apologies for the incredulously long delay in my response but what I formerly recognized as saturn/cronos energies was conflated mercury/pluto energy with them. As of now, it's a complicated, broad quagmire with numerous energies I'm either attempting to redirect, curtail, or repurpose, though I still feel energetically diminished. Vulnerable. That anger Dagoth Ur pointed out prior is more akin to childhood vulnerability in reaction to bullying, except it's over people in the past who've wronged me for underhanded, backstabbing reasons and I feel that pain and anger boil to the surface. >>5161 My aunts are no longer the issue, it is a matter of dislodging whatever shame or guilt constricting my critical, communicative, logical, and rational side from my emotional, intuitive, extraperceptive, creative, and nourishing side. I don't know how many times I'll need to re-iterate this but I sure as shit know that I'm suffering the misdeeds of my own repetitive and cyclical, self-destructive nature here that I oh-so tactfully and clearly communicated the distress of being constrained within, blinded to higher order/vibrational thinking and solutions. When my spirit's under attack by subversive serpents spreading shit, that's when the inner templar in me awakens. That atheist/agnostic I've argued with came off just like I did with that schizo, and I ought to apologize to >>5124 for being hard on him earlier. I suffer from such similar scars myself and ought to have shown more compassion and gratitude. Which, btw, massive help for all of your assistance in the past, and I'm really sorry it was such a struggle, but those issues I had suffered from synthetic shrooms and nicotine, I cured with real shrooms and dropping nicotine. Go figure.

>>5161 Naw, what I need is something to heave this dense, heavy black energy out of my body and cast it from my heart. I already got it all down in >>4935

>>5170 > I need is something to heave this dense, heavy black energy out of my body and cast it from my heart This sigil should do it.

>>5171 This clears the coronary energetic passageway through my throat, upwards to my third eye and through my crown chakra, correct? Focusing on it with my third eye to flush the ahrimanic influence upon me by an agnostic I've attempted to sell belief and faith in literally anything other than the material on (they are so autistic about misinformation and following the secular dogma yet refuse to admit it)

>>5171 Is this a safe sigil for others? What is its function?

>>5172 >>5174 It's a representation of a ritual session which forces your heaviest dark energy (karma) out from the body and solidifies the divide between negative and positive in such a manner as to make your current incarnation immune to the destruction this karma may otherwise cause. I made it a robust sigil so that anon can safely use it. It clears your chakras, so the experience may be what you describe.

>>5175 Couldnt this create an issue for someones next life then?

>>4450 >beloved funny yellow dog meme icon dies and their likeness cringefully repurposed into a cynical government commission and whored out by spiritually and metacognitively stunted rubes to the chagrin of socialist profanes I suspect Saturn/Jews (going off 4kike's /pol/luted framework) had something to do with it. >>4115 Extreme gratitude for your assistance, apologies for not communicating this before that thread died. >>5175 I was the spiritually active autist from the prior thread, now I struggle to overcome this overly rational, dense, ahrimanic overreliance on deboonking, peer-reviewed studies, worship of the scientific method as the only reliable means of attaining truth, and cries of "pseudoscience/quackery" as the new because the portion of my mind that can explain chaos magic and the mechanics of belief is incompatible with him. I can comprehend his position, yet he cannot innately fathom mine. I tried planting the notion or idea of a higher power into him, and in return he twists my brain against my heart. Perhaps my mars/pluto connection has been weakened.

>>5176 Not really. You should worry about your current life anyway, if you were dragged down by that karma you won't have a next life, I'm just saying it protect your current life, what happens later may not be safe.

>>5178 Perhaps I've been too judgemental on you for not believing the psionic instability/capability of the most ideologically charged and fanatical of non-stereotypical autists. These venn diagrams are the best means I can use to articulate my specific type of autism, and being mistaken for the dense, spiritually circumcised, metacognitively disabled meat calculator autists (aka stereotypical autists) vexes me greatly (the american education system is very nuanced and respectful of their disabled students' regarding their condition). I don't perceive my neurological wiring as a drawback so much as something akin to shamanism, even if the emotional and spiritual damage (as with my admittively semi-willful ignorance on fixing it is evident). All those dextromethorphan, psilocybin, and muscaria trips I would liken to chemically stripping, repainting, and anodizing my psyche the same way a gunsmith refinishes a rifle. Had to edit this to trim a bit of unneeded wrath off.

>>5178 This sigil ended up helping a lot. Interestingly today i woke up feeling a lot cleaner, and the few days before that cleaner than the days before even that. This sigil made some movement and i say based in feeling i had already cleaned put about 50 to 60 percent,most in the last few weeks. This isnt because of any practice.a big cleaning happened after having a dream of walking in someones house and i opened a fridge. I thought it was a nicely made fridge and saw mcdonalds fries also in there. This wasnt a very normal dream as it was as accurate to real life as can be and very stable. I decided not too post about this recent advancement in cleanliness but since this sigil helped and did a similar thing i guess I was right about it.

Ive been trying to renounce lust for over 2 years. I keep failing. Please /fringe/ wizards help this neophyte transcend his earthly desires

>>5261 The way I annihilated lust was by succumbing to >tfw no gf and letting heartache and the agony of subconsciously feeling that I'll never consciously nor subconsciously know whom I've always wanted in my life turn lust into a implicit "fox and grapes" situation against me. >b-but I use this as motivation/justification to goon and love the shame and naughtiness it brings upon me! You are a spineless cuckold and doormat should this be the case. Reroute your resentment towards your inherent incompatibility towards women into a cthonic spiritual diesel to fuel your spirit, unworthiness of true love as a harsh spiritual abrasive to strip your spirit of incel psyops, and delve into spiritual practices, affirmations, subliminals and the such to repaint, anodize, and refinish your spirit with them. Learn from my mistakes, >>11 will help you.

>warned for being off-topic now who the fuck reported me and what post

>>5281 Maybe too bloggy in the help thread: >>5185 ?

>>5281 politics in magic blog >>5282 help is inherently bloggy

>>5283 Makes sense, I remember smileberg mentioning manifesting missile strikes through his thaumaturgical means, all I needed to do was visualize God's fist crashing upon Israel and assume my will as God's. A little insane to realize that all I needed was to bypass a frivolous moral check for it.

If I recall correctly, the issue I had suffered this entire year was a dense, pervasive miasma of ever-obfuscating stupidity and retardation I generated from attempting to energetically annihilate a retarded namefag back in March while trying to sacrifice the enemy schizo I had wasted time energetically flailing and having him deflect my attacks back onto me from the year prior. Before you get on my ass, this is a retrospective analysis on self-imposed issues that started this year. Hell, perhaps I'll even undo my own spiritual circumcision/curtailing by shittalking saturn/cronos and conflating the two with al-dajjal/ahriman/satan and using my father to represent their agent to keep me spiritually asleep and tethered within the material realm. There's to be a way to recover all my lost metacognitive faculties and full memory's contingency alongside with the synesthesia portions uniting logic/cognition with creativity/subcognition through metacognition. My goal for this month is to loosen my rigid, irrational and nonsensical framework up, restore the subtle, yet inextricably specific and poignant ambient vibes and emotions that defined and seperated each time. Hopefully then I'll be capable of foreseeing or even writing my destiny through the same synesthetic and narrative bound narrative magick/LOA I've been practicing.

Still struggling to energetically beat this dense disconnective miasma of retardation I inadvertantly formed when I was pissed the fuck off at that retarded namenigger "sleeper agent" for forming a dense, suffocating thoughtform that not only fucked with the electrical flow in my heart but created an artificial rift seperating subconscious from conscious and subduing impulse and instinct from even registering incoming stimuli, spirits or energies, let alone reacting to it. If I withdraw, its dark tendrils of obfuscating autistic retardation snaking its way through my energetic body and no-selling i.e non-reacting to light purifying it. May someone please read into my heart's aura and extract/banish said black worm? My year started off with a particularly nasty interlocking ensemble of energetic conundrums, complications and other assorted fuckups that have made it impossible to even energetically interface with a sigil - to say nothing about the natural circulation of energy through my body. >inb4 get ogre it The namefag may be gone, but the spawn of the pawn of satan still lingers within, yet the mark of sin shan't ever win against me and my kin. I request and beseech /fringe/'s assistance (and forgiveness) for bearing with my constant fumbling to insufferable degrees reminsicent of these dipshits, taking on the umbrage of purifying/cleansing /x/ energies was hubris on my end.