I hate that the hate and harassment really gets to me. I try to be positive, but it gets harder every time I learn there's a new drama that sparks a brand new wave of harassment, or every time I notice how much my oshis are struggling because of these dickheads.
It doesn't help that two of my main oshis are Finana and Millie, who have been some of the most noticeably affected by this whole thing.
I hate that antis target them cause they can actually see how it affects them, they can see the fruits of their slander whenever Millie expreses how depressed she is or replies to an anti on twitter, or whenever Finana expresses how much she's struggling, or whenever they see their numbers dwindle. They know their slander and harassment has had a noticeable effect on them, so they keep targeting them. It's so fucking vile man, what the fuck is their end goal?
I fucking hate this shit man. I hate that it's actually made me consider stop watching nijien for the sake of my mental health. I know it's probably the best for me, but it's so unfair to my oshis. I know it's very parasocial too, but idk man, I'm very empathetic in general, and I've gotten really attached to these people, so seeing how unfairly they've been treated really gets to me.