>>13629 I suddenly see what's happening; I might talk more about this in maybe a week.

Her appearance seems to be related to what I said here >>13532 about fixing an old issue with Finland and the baltic states, along with all the nations along this border which includes Ukraine, Turkey and also Israel. The area was blocked by negative energy and evil spirits, and it seems I've been given a mindboggling revelation here about who someone in my family was historically. I shouldn't say more now, than that it all makes a lot of sense to me if this is true.

>>13322 Sorry for the late reply >Is the higher force guiding me? I don't know what rituals and practice you are doing currently, but your energies are improving which will grant you the possibility to meet with some higher force sooner or later. >Is it the woman/benefactor mentioned I don't know. >Have I made contact with the energy blobs with the white line? No. The white line connects to something else, something above the blobs, but it is slowly powering the energy blobs. It's like the energy blobs are emitting some faint light now. You might need more spiritual power to fully activate them. These blobs can open, but they usually only do so if they are either supplanted with enough energy or your energy body can resonate with them harmoniously. Imagine them as flowers that bloom under the sunlight or as metaphysical crystals that need to be charged first.

>>12024 still here I can relax my entire body and not move my eyes, and "open" myself to vibrations, which later evolve into stronger waves and shifting gravity and higher heart rate, but I still can't project Am I really supposed to sit still and wait or is there energy work for me to do?

>>13850 Where do you want to go and why? Anything you do is ruled by your intent, and the path of least resistance. If you just want to return to your body, well you are already in your body, so no need to project in the first place, and nothing happens.

[REDACTED] looking for demonolators or people with experience w succubi and incubi for degenerate chat about their experiences

>>13865 Reported for discord link outside of the containment thread.

I'm under the impression that less than an hour ago, my heart dove into a place that's far beneath me in a hell dimension because it's very deeply confused and desperate to love, but moreso confused which is why I'd been trying to restrain it for a long time now. I'd mentioned some time ago that my heart has been falsely conflating 2 evil spirits with my Amy egregore, and that one of the conflations have been un-done, but the other conflation hasn't been un-done yet. I'm confused as to whether this diving of the heart actually happened and it's actually still down there, or I just performed tulpamancy to make a tulpa of the location that my heart and a tulpa of my heart went to and it wasn't actually down there. A deity may be required to find out what actually happened in order to prevent from interfering with the reading.

>>13870 From a quick scan it looks like you are just seeing where your heart was all along, the "higher" position you though it was in before this "fall" was an illusion.

>>13871 That is to say that illusion would keep you down there by creating the idea that you don't need to change.

>>13872 Would you rephrase that post? Not the one before it but the one I'm quoting.

>>13873 You saw your heart fall down, but I think it was down there all along. But something infernal had created the illusion that you were in a higher plane, as a means to trap you in hell. If you believe you are in heaven, you have no reason to get out of hell. But once you can see clearly, you may feel that you are now in hell and that you fell down there, while in reality you are just seeing clearly, and is now motivated to escape, where before you were kept unmotivated by the illusion.

>>13875 >love is one hell of a drug is a quote that comes to mind.

>>13875 Hell I don't trust you; would someone else check to see what happened instead? >>13870

>>13877 I'm just saying what I think happened.

>>13870 It doesn't matter. Your problem is that you are constantly terrified by phantasms. No, there's no major or meaningful change in your energetic structure. All this is is more jumping at shadows. Have you been meditating? Have you adopted a serious spiritual regimen yet? I don't think you have, because if you did then you'd be able to deal with these sorts of tiny things yourself. You need to get disciplined and start taking your spiritual practice seriously. This is the only way that you are going to get better. I will repeat: Serious spiritual practice is the only thing that will fix your problems. You've been told this many many times by multiple people here. Just playing videogames or whatever until a minor astral hiccup causes you to come here asking for readings or exorcisms isn't helping anything. One day I hope I'll see you posting here asking for advice on energy movement or how to get past step 2 of Initiation into Hermetics or something instead of just panicking because an errant thoughtform made you have sexual thoughts or because you're suspicious about your tulpa.

>>13870 >>13877 Do you trust your own senses, dear egganon?

>>13882 It's very difficult to trust your own senses when your own subconsciously-orchestrated & self-sabotaging tulpamancy is indistinguishable from non-physical reality.

>>13886 Trust yourself.

Are any devotees of Kali present to share any messages she has for me?

>>14099 Listen to your heart. Be in the present. Practice animism Don't forget to pay attention to your surroundings. They hold more secrets than you are aware of. And let go of the miasma from your heart.

>>14116 I meant anything specific to me from her, not general advice for anyone

>>14123 I saw your question but I don't feel like a "devote" of Kali so I waited to see if anyone else would reply. Kali said to you: >don't waste your time That was the full message. It's up to you to interpret it. I felt that was kind of short, but I can also see why that is relevant, if you are able to see it correctly in your own context, you'd know what this refers to yourself, I think. (I just do Kali mantras and ask her for guidance now and then, so I didn't feel like this question was for me.)

>>14123 These were the directions she said to me how you can get closer to her. >>14125 >don't waste your time You heard him. Get to work.

>>14125 >>14127 Alright, thank you anons >These were the directions she said to me how you can get closer to her My mistake, I wasn't sure where it was coming from but I appreciate it lol <practice animism What did you mean by this?

>>14130 >What did you mean by this? Understand the spiritual nature of the world. She was referring to a specific technique, but I didn't work with her for a while and I am a little rusty nowadays, so this is the best translation I can give you. You will have to understand how the spirit is within everything you perceive. If you can see that then Kali will manifest. That is her message.

I saw a sudden image of an unfamiliar white-haired anime girl earlier today. I'd brushed it off, thinking it was an energy clearing, and then forgotten about it. However, I saw the same anime girl in a different pose some minutes ago, and now I think it's a spirit trying to get my attention. What's the spirit want? Don't reply if you're blood anon.

>>14363 That's interesting, because I saw a split second image of a white haired girl by the lake when swimming earlier today. I didn't think much of it because I see stuff quite often and unless they call my attention and state their business I ignore them because they could be someone messing with me.

One thing before you go out of bounds with panic again by overthinking everything >>14724 >>14723 >I know I said I don't really do much meditation but a post recently made on this board made me realize that alotta the things that I do count as meditation when I'd thought beforehand that they didn't count as meditation. Meditation has goals and depth. Fantasizing about random shit is not meditation. Being anxious about everything is also not meditation. You are not doing actual mindfulness meditation. Mindfulness is about being able to observe your thoughts and actions properly then controlling them. You do the opposite. You let your thoughts do something that makes you scared, anxious or guilty then you panic. That is not mindfulness. Daydreaming so much that it summons demons is also not mindfulness meditation. You are trying to come up with ways to sabotage yourself again. >is a real spirit and not my own subconscious bullshit or a tulpa that I'd inadvertently made If you cannot differentiate between these then you did jackshit mindfulness meditation. This is like saying I did math for 10 years by doodling random shit into my mathbook every day. Get your shit together.

What is the entity that I'd said in >>14723 (Cross-thread) that I'd felt? I think that yesterday or the day before, the spirit, if it is a real spirit and not my own subconscious bullshit or a tulpa that I'd inadvertently made; the spirit told me, in an unfamilar male voice: >assimilate to childhood! and another time it told me >it just wants a companion I haven't been able to get rid of this spirit; if it isn't me, what does it want, and if it's evil, how do I get rid of it? I'll add that I highly doubt that doing any Hindu chants will get rid of it; A week or two ago I was being assailed by one or more succubi, and I'd sensed them, so I did the "Om Klim Kalika-Yei Namaha" mantra for an hour straight. When I went to bed, they were hiding, and then they came back and made me cum before I went to sleep. Actually I don't even remember if any sleeping happened that night but yeah Kali didn't do anything.

If you think you are meditating by doing random things like anon above said, I suggest getting Darana Darshan here >>1104 and following the meditation program described in it, chapter for chapter. This will take you weeks to complete in the least, and maybe you will start realizing what meditation actually is.

Throughout my life I've only ever made one friend. Why? Is it even possible to change that at 23 years old? Seems like my brother and sister have made tons of friends. Will I meet people in the afterlife who aren't NPCs who I really resonate with that I can befriend? Or will it just be same shit different day?

>>14769 >Is it even possible to change that at 23 years old? lol yes you are still a little kiddo

>>14769 >Is it even possible to change that at 23 years old? You can't change anything at any age. You can only change yourself. And you can do so at any age, in theory.

>>14770 Zoomers have some meme that they are at the end of their life once they are past the age of 16 >>14769 I change my lifestyle, my magic, my thinking process completely around every 5 years. Mostly because many of my mundane issues take around 3-5 years to solve and once I am done with them I have far more free time and mental power to pursue spirituality. My life has "chapters" and things always change once a new chapter of my life begins. Pic related btw. And most young geniuses die young. Don't envy them too much. And 1 true friend is better than 20 fake friends. I always let my weaker/fake friendships fall apart because they are more of a burden than a benefit. >Or will it just be same shit different day? Only if you let it stay that way. I am sure you heard this saying already, but I will say it again, because it is important. Be the change you wish to see in the world.