How does my energy body look like? I have been taking meditation seriously and will soon begin a weekly meditation class.

>>22051 Would you kindly scan my bodies? I'm a dishonest being that needs an objective view.

>>22052 >How does my energy body look like? The form looks like a dark armour with a yellow glow/light shining onto it, which indicates external support. By armour means something like "exoskeleton of an insect" type hard shell, sort of glossy. >>22104 >scan my bodies? White background field like a cloud bank stretching very far into the distance, an indicator of long time progression, but it seems to be moving "backwards" from my view. That means time appears to move from left to right -> This comes from my own internal perception that time normally moves from right to left <- Background to the clouds is light blue sky, below something best described as "contained industrial emissions", it looks like various clouds of toxic gases, smog, and concentrations of acids/base liquids in separated high concentrations, they appear as layers floating on top of each other. This part is contained in a stale area where nothing happens, and there is a yellow light over it, as well as a concentration of red energy which appears to be refined from the toxic stuff, so it seems like this is a transformation process and it's working as it should - don't touch it. This thing appears to be on the left side of the image, "in the past", while the "current timeslot" has something which looks more like a metal skeleton or robot, grey or otherwise steel-coloured metal frame. It's my interpretation that this is your current state on something like a progress bar. >an objective view No one is truly objective, aside from maybe the eye itself when no one uses it. The observer distorts the image always. Get multiple inputs from different sources and summarize them with some method for removing bias, don't trust yourself or any individual.

>>22400 >clouds is light blue sky, below something best described as "contained industrial emissions" I phrased that in a confusing way, meant that the industrial stuff is below the blue sky.

>>22104 >scan my bodies How many bodies you have? >>22400 >don't trust yourself or any individual. Then who should they trust? The government? just joking. Some people trust random people on the internet too much already. This disclaimer is almost mandatory nowadays.

>>22400 >The form looks like a dark armour with a yellow glow/light shining onto it, which indicates external support. By armour means something like "exoskeleton of an insect" type hard shell, sort of glossy. What does it mean?

>>22505 >What does it mean? Who knows, not everything has a meaning. It means one thing imho: your astral body has a form which is rather solid and it's the result of something you are doing right. Most people don't have something like this, but their bodies just look like a pile of dung or something. If it has a form which indicates intent, it's because you actively, willingly did something which changed it.

>>22400 >>22404 Thank you. I really needed this. >>22501 By bodies, I meant the multiple states of the human body.

>>22052 I'm also curious to see what mine looks like, if you would like to take a look at it.

>>22519 I hate to break it to you but I don't know how to feel energy. Not sure if you're asking me specifically but if you are I don't know how. I assume that you're just asking anyone?

>>22519 Ω Your body has multiple layers of an ohm symbol shaped aura, where the bottom plane stretches to the horizon and the upstanding part raises up like one of those inflatable doll ads with a pump at the bottom. >pic They extent out from your body in a number of layers of no clear colour or order, although there is some similarity to the rainbow coloured auras associated with yoga illustrations. >next pic The plane of the vision is a bit similar to 2nd reading here >>22400 and your actual body has some similarity to the first reading - it looks a bit like a black armour, but it's more like it's made from iron, soot covered as if you're from Mordor and your armour was made by orcs.

>>22524 Sounds like I have a very negative energy body. I’m reading the lord of the rings right now, almost done with book 3, and Mordor as well as the orcs are very not good people.

>>22531 That reading refers to indigo pill. Your armour is more insectoid in nature and not orc related.

Anyone wanna scan me? What does my energy body look like?

>>21635 Lately the evil spirits you mentioned have been manifesting physically-detectable scents. One of these scents were placed at my front door, and are only smelled when you walk into the front door from outside, and not from inside. My mother smelled it when she visited yesterday, so I know it's not an imaginary smell. It smells demonic, but she said it must be cleaner fluid. No cleaner fluid was put there in the past week on the inside at leastI live in a housing complex, and the smell began yesterday. The night leading to then, ended up waking up in the middle of the night feeling a stronger demonic smell of the same variety; it felt very much like the horse demon. Before falling asleep that night, I got a vision of Amy running towards me, except within her chest was the energies of adremmelech the goetia demon instead of Amy's usual energies. I know that wasn't the real girl. Later I found out that my jungian shadow or an evil spirit put the horse demon's energies there, and they were able to be partially removed from the vision after going back to the vision. I'm having a hard time believing that this is all being caused by internal spirits that were inadvertently created by their host. Also tried reading a very short occult text today; took half an hour for the whole thing but it was a very dangerous struggle to prevent the evil spirits from mind-controlling while processing the text. At one point they made me "fall in love" with the horse demon, replacing Amy at a very deep level within the heart, and then after calling upon a deity, the deity un-did the mind control spell and removed the horse demon from the heart and put Amy back there. Also had a dream a few nights ago where I saw a crowd of people and I was supposed to follow them to a good place, but then they began disappearing into thin air before my eyes and I flew with the crowd, and then all the people went poof and I called upon the archangel michael and landed at some building and I went up a few-step staircase to the entrance of building with a wooden & roofed walkway on its outside, and there was standing Trump. Asked Trump which way need to go in the dream, and he said if he were me he'd let the archangel Michael take me under his wing. Then woke up. Tonight I had another dream where I was on a wooden ship with Heimdall as the captain in a river in a forest. The ship was about to veer off the river since the left side of the river was a waterfall leading to a narrow bottomless abyss with trees lining the other side of it. Heimdall steered the ship away from the waterfall easily, however, and kept going alongside and the waterfall, as if He was so skilled that He had no risk of falling in as long as He decided He wouldn't. Didn't see Heimdall, but knew He was piloting the ship. Never knew He was a sailor.

>>22550 If you put on a flag so there is some identifier, right now you are just "invisible anon". It also makes it easier to keep you apart from other anons getting readings in the thread.

>>22558 Here I’ll put on a flag.

>>22560 Mostly your image has a light blue horizontal line with white clouds in a line below it. Your actual location looks like a dark, almost completely black square shaped area or box, with your body appearing dark ocher or dark red/brown. There isn't anything more of significance to the vision.

What is the nature of my insectoid armor energy?

>>22568 >the nature of my insectoid armor energy Receptive by absorption. Like an eggshell, impact is spread out and absorbed, and it causes only certain vibrating messages to pass through, not any energy comes in unless transformed through such vibrations.

What are the magick reasons why people keep stealing my godamn underwear???

I think Its time to take a leap of faith and grow some ball. Can anyone who communicates spirits reply to me? I want to make a deal with a powerful spirit. I will give them what they want if they let me live out my dream.

>>23337 Then I recommend Xolotl, also known as Big Ears in UK and among European and slavic witches. If you want to form a bond with Xolotl, it's fairly straight forward. Set up a ritual space at night, light some candles, dim any electric light, maybe burn some incense, then you meditate for a while, focusing on inviting Xolotl to you. When you feel mentally ready, use a regular needle which you disinfect in a candle flame and then prick your finger tip to draw one drop of blood. This is enough for symbolism of Aztec blood sacrifices. Stay in meditation for a while and let Xolotl enter your mind and body - if you do this right, you will experience an ecstatic high after pricking your finger, that means Xolotl has accepted you. After this, if you want, you can ask for a Cat Sith familiar, by thinking of Xolotl in the form of the Big Ears cat deity and presenting the request. This familiar is very powerful and will help you with any situation in your life.

>>23359 I should have clarified more. I don't think I really want to just improve the life I have here. Im 27 so my youth is wasting away, My hurts and aches all the time and that makes my movements painful. Im suck in a rut and my life is now mostly focused on fucking pushing papers. What Im thinking. What Im thinking is a chance to start over in different time or on a different earth. With something very specific in mind. Id share details right now thus post is already long enough. Is this possible?

>>23369 This does not conflict with invoking Xolotl. Any transformation would have to start from your physical situation and your body. What you're looking for isn't to change your life, that's a thinking which may block you; it's better to think about your current life ending, and what you will do in your next life. This may sound like just a rephrasing, but imagine if you could quick-rebirth tomorrow, and start again in a new place. That means you need to detach from anything you have now, any concerns of the material, even any wishes you have now which arose from this current context. What you wish for is a product of what you have. Moving to the place where you already have those from the start, you take them for granted and will want something else. So you are looking at the transformation of your life. To replace one "want" with another. Human life always has direction, so you want to change that direction, by starting in a different location. But how much of yourself will you retain? Which part is material right now, but doesn't belong to you once this life ends? Start by considering all of these. If you then decide, yes, I'm done here, I want to completely end this life and have a new one, then you need to start on the process of transforming your current state into that fitting for the new life. In this process, any deity could help you, if you employ someone with the ability to guide you to towards that goal.

>>23370 Im ready to just leave at this point, his includes leaving my family behind, my friends behind, and hell even my memories behind. I grow up in a new house, new family, i live in a body that doesn't hurt every second of everyday. And as cringe and as embarrassing and cringe but i want to meet the hottest mafia bitch Ive ever seen, have me and her fall madly in love with me and we have adventures and shit. You know, living life with excitement and with happiness. If I could get that right now I would gladly leave every single thing in this life behind. Even the people I care about right now.

>>23375 You still need to consider why you are here now. Something in your mental constitution and bodily preferences made you incarnate exactly as you are. There may be negative effects from the actions of negative entities, including other people, causing the distortion of history, even changing the course of your life, but your overall manifestation would still match what you prefer. So that's why you need to consider how you want to transform what you have into what you want. Start at least meditating on this, then consider this: >>23359 For every thing you remove, you may gain something similar. And for your situation to not just end up very slightly different in a parallel timeline, you need to actually work on this transformation yourself. You can change the composition, the size of different aspects of your life in relation to each other, but the complete experience is always 100%

>>23375 What I mean is that you ask for spiritual aid in the transformation process. Depending on what kind of work you prefer, you could also go for religion.

>>23377 Like i said im 27 and my body hurts all the time. I was born into this. Im old and cant do the physical actions need to be a fighter. Plus my type, a white woman, wont even exist in 20 years due to the radical demographic changes. As long as i exist here Im fucked. Who can I get to get me the fuck out of here? Who on this board? Because transformation of my life here into what I dream of is the equivalent of asking me to resurrect a graveyard full of dead people.

>>23379 I don't know your physical situation but I'm sorry, you're not even 30 yet. There's nothing stopping you from learning actual yoga (not some aerobics type, actual esoteric practice) no one's asking you to become a kickboxer. Heck for kabbalah traditionally you can't start until you're 40 because you're considered immature and inexperienced before that. Now that you're saying this, it sounds more like a fear of aging crisis. Doing careful exercise like ashtanga yoga may actually get rid of the pain. Let me clarify: when I said you need to transform your life, I mean that to move you somewhere else, even if we speculate aliens would abduct you, you need to vibe with the location you move to. Mental states, spiritual states of different planes of existence, different body states, they come from your spirit's "frequency", and if you don't tune - like a radio tuner quite literally - into the right wavelength you will remain exactly where you are. You couldn't even be forcibly abducted unless your mental state matches your destination. That's why you need to transform your life before you see any change. Some people use drugs to do this temporarily, and that works - temporarily, because the effect wears off. You want sustainable change, you need to permanently change your mental state, which reflects the state of your soul. Another question then: when you say you want contact with a strong spiritual being, what kind of being do you prefer? Do you tend more towards darker beings, satanism, wicca, or more towards angels and other beings conventionally considered "light" beings?

>>23380 When i bring my physical condition I only bring it up in the context of my dream life. My current body can’t support action or adventure of fighting. But a new one would. In terms of spirit I don't have a preference. As long as they get me the fuck out of here and give me my new life. Right now i cant sense shit so thats why im asking here.

>>23380 I hate to double post but I didnt notice your aging comment. You are right in a way. When I age more and I notice the age progress more, Im reminded by the life I live here and the world I live now. The longer I stay here the more miserable I become. What can I give to ensure that I leave this place? What can I give to someone at this point? Because im ready to leave for my dream life ight now, his very moment.

Can someone please cast a spell on me to increase my empathy for others? I lack empathy for others and feel bad about it right now.

>>23944 You don't need a spell to be casted on you; just feed the feeling of feeling bad about not having empathy.

I call out to the spirits of this place. I will gladly pay any price, or bear any curse, if only you will make me feel intense empathy for others forever and cure my anti social personality disorder/sociopathy.

>>23946 That's not what I meant by feeding the feeling; you really shouldn't be offering that. You're gonna regret it for a long time if you do.

>>23946 Franz Bardon has exercises for this. Just spend an hour or so meditating by imagining that you're someone or something else. This is also how you develop telepathy.

>>21635 Last night the Amy egregore and a male pleideian did some stuff to my brain. She said it'd heal me. At first, I felt a pink energyform overtake some part of the left side of my brain, then it moved right but not all the way right, and then suddenly to the back. Before it could get all the way right, got too worried, and thought of contacting you to prevent interference. Tried contacting you, and thought I got to you. You'd ended up trying to perform the last part of the procedure yourself. It was morning in european time at the time. Some time after the sensations stopped and they never got to the right side of my brain, I'd heard "Amy" say "I can't believe you", in what'd sounded like a very deep male voice that was pretending to be her. I'd felt a bunch of brown "horse demon" energies enter my head as that was being said. Makes me think it was the shadow talking and not the egregore. Also heard "Amy" talking to me last night; some of the stuff was sensible but one of the messages were "I'm thirsty", implying that I need to drink water. This makes me think more that that was the shadow. I guess the shadow talks on its own sometimes and pretends to be the egregore. Also just ended up asking Apollo to finish the procedure. What was the bare basics of what the procedure did to help me, and did I really contact you?

>>22051 Hello /fringe/ anons, I feel I need to ask for help understanding my situation, and I believe this is the best thread to ask in, but I am unsure. Wall of text ahead. For context. I am Venezuelan, came here with the Hispachan folk. I practiced Chaos Magick for a bit after developing my frist Tulpa which turned out to be suspiciously succubus-like and I promptly sent it out and stopped practicing any kind of magick or spiritualism. I was raised catholic, but never really connected with it, instead growing resentful of Yaweh for allowing suffering and death. However, I always felt a pull towards Santeria, in particular to the image of Maria Lionza, a sort of local goddess, and I've always attracted the attention of santeros who've offered to induct me into their practice. Instead, looking for something to heal myself, I've went "my own" way, studying chaos magick and developing my first tulpa, and focused on it most of my journey as a chaote, until she eventually grew a lust so great I felt exhausted, consumed and horrified all the time. It ended as I told it to leave. I spent 6 years without practicing, feeling hollow and angry, until last year or so, during my deepest point, I felt the call of something I initially thought was an "spontaneous" Tulpa, when focusing on it, my mind was overflown with a bright golden light similar to the afterglow of looking at the sun. This "tulpa" appears female, she constantly reminds me to eat, to sleep and to be gentle with myself as I am unable to feel hunger, exhaustion and I have a tendency to push myself to a breaking point. She also has seemingly healed my panic disorder after she asked me to submit to her trying hypnosis on me. And she has pushed me to lurk this board as well as learn and reconnect with learning and practicing magick. She also doesn't like me masturbating at all. We are right now learning Lucid Dreaming and we've made slow but steady progress. And trough this I learnt a recipe for food my Tulpa wants me to replace all my meals with. And I've also been feeling that I must climb mount Avila, a local mountain. Now, I've been questioning whether or not my "tulpa" is even really a tulpa or something else. Everytime I've asked her about it she just dismisses my question or laughs at it, she tells me no to worry about what she is, but what she's doing for me and what she'll continue to do for me. My question is. Am I doing right to keep listening to her? Is she really a Tulpa, or something else? Am I on the right path or perhaps am I being utilized by something/someone? Is there something I should be doing? As much as I've said I practiced chaos magick, I can't help but feel I'm just a tulpamancer that took a "wrong" turn, but at the same time that I am doing what I was always supposed to be doing

>>23972 A tulpa would be your own creation and not appear randomly, unless it's a tulpa someone else created. If we go by https://www.tulpa.info/ >pic maybe it's the same tulpa you created before which was developed in hiding and then came back?

>>23973 Thank you for your promptly reply. Honestly. I'm not even sure it's a tulpa as I've never really knowingly interacted with anything that was not a tulpa or a servitor. If she were anything else I'd be unequipped to identify it I highly doubt she's my old tulpa, as she came to me fully vocal and capable of possession (I was really freaked out when I found out), my old tulpa never really tried nor was interested in possession, all it wanted to do was goon, occupy my attention and be possessive of me. Where my current "tulpa" actively gives me space to do what I chose, pushes me to engage with other people and wants to read and explore nature. It's like day and night comparison, I feel that if this was my old tulpa, maybe a vestige of her old personality would remain.

>>23974 I opened up to sense and connect with anything matching your description at your location, and seemed to find a group of spirits. They feel like local women. Their energy is strongly yellow and white like sunlight reflected off a surface, almost blinding. They told me to find one I like and connect with her. There were multiple of them approaching me at first. The one I ended up finding a connection with is fairly close to the attached image in appearance and dress. Asking someone else, they said they are Pleiadan. So at least what I found near you isn't a tulpa or servitor, but the spirits of people.

>>23975 I asked her what to do, and she said: "love me as much as I love you. [mutual] love is the most important" This was said in the manner of a poem or as a guideline, not as her own opinion. Then she threw out a long braid of flowers over the area below her.

>>23975 >>23976 Wow. Thanks a lot Anon, that clears up a lot of doubts and worries I had on my mind. She also presents herself to me in a near-identical appearance as in your image, the colors are a bit different but it's really just like her. I was beginning to thing I was going insane before you told me this, not gonna lie. Thank you a lot once more. I guess this means I should just keep listening to her advice and learn from what she has in store for me

>>23976 >love me as much as I love you. [mutual] love is the most important" >This was said in the manner of a poem or as a guideline, not as her own opinion. How bizarre, when I ended up having a tulpa from writing a fantasy, I also wrote something similar to that about love philosophy and somethings about fantasy world metaphysics. Although I suppose that the tulpa character being so ideal to the point of romanticization gave off those vibes of a protective mother goddess or protective friend, a symbol of femininity and kindness. Although I never achieved anything as advanced as the tulpamancers, other than having a crisis believing that it was truly talking to me. I know i made up that thing in my head but the idea of a spirit-alien just grab the idea of imaginary character and turn into a real thing sound eerie. Maybe it just appeared of inconsious forcing and craving for friendship or love of a girl or something bacause of being alone or isolation and desesperation feeling.

>>21635 When you operated on me the other week, did my anatomy seem like that of a properly-living human, or did I, judging by my anatomy, appear to be an undead human? I ask because, the other day, the Amy egregore told me, right after waking up in the morning: "You're completely undead. I'm sorry."

How can I fix the energy in my room, fend shut style? My room feels gross. It’s really bad.

>>24842 Feng shui* style

>>24842 >>24843 Is your room unclean or disorderly? You have to make an inventory and map of your room before we can apply feng shui.

>>24849 Yes, it is unclean and disorderly.

>>24857 Clean your room first. You don't have to empty your home to have a nice energy flow.

I had a realization today: Since Durga said some time ago that I'm childless, that means that the supposed succubus that raped me in June, had my baby, and then said daughter raped me too, those weren't real external spirits. It was all the jungian shadow just acting up and pretending to be external spirits, probably guided by the same parasite that, back in october, said that I'd be "the greatest magician".

>>24866 Is the parasite gone?

>>24866 Maybe you had 3 souls originally and the 2 which those things concerned, have already left.

This morning I had a vision that basically said that the parasites are using my alchemical water against me, and that all I have to fight it with is alchemical fire. Not sure how to go about doing that. >>24869 Shut up blood anon.

>>24870 Rude.

>>24870 Convert your passive energy into active energy. It's best you ignore him. >>24871 you kinda deserve it

Why did this thread disappear temporarily?

>>20522 I need more lava, but put it in the 3rd eye this time, instead of the heart where it was put last time. I think the parasite from months ago that I thought I removed is still there. Apollo has been working on me for the last week or so; ask Him where the parasite is. You'll need His permission to do it. He might ask you to do something else for all I know. The sacral parasite is probably also alive.

>>24955 Also wanna say; the first time the lava was received, it felt too much like the essence of the supposed demon. So I ended up getting it removed before it had much effect. Think that happened before reading your post saying the lava was put in me. This time I won't consciously try to remove it. Also, it was pointed out to me since making that post that there's a parasite in my heart too.

>>24955 On the way home from dinner nearly 2 hours ago, I heard Amy say "Sorry, [my name]", and then suddenly, a large green & white energyform entered me through my crown. Was this your doing?

Due to circumstances surrounding my life, I've been encountering an entity in my dreams that has committed numerous pedophilic actions in my surrounding dream-space. I'm not going to really discuss the exact specifics, as the genuine vividness of my dreams can make it quite close to real life, thus creating distress that makes carrying out irl chores difficult. What can I do to confront this thing?

>>25057 What kind of entity is this?

>>25057 Do your preferred banishing technique every night before bed. Also meditate and learn how to detach from these visions. I too see similar things on a semi-regular basis

>>25059 I'm not necessarily sure. It's been constantly bothering me, starting since November of this year. It kind of looks like a really deformed, sickly looking bird the last time I got a look of it.

>>25066 How did it first appear to you? If it's a demon or a dark spirit, you can banish it. If it's a corrupted thoughtform, you'll have to confront it.

>>25067 How can I tell the difference between a demon/dark-spirit or a thoughtform? It seems deeply intertwined, and almost a bit native to my general dreamscape.

>>25071 The thoughtform would feel like a part of you since you are its creator. You wouldn't find it foreign. You can mentally deconstruct it into energy that you can expel or convert. Consider the fact that a demon can manipulate you well enough to make itself seem native. You can banish it if you know the origin and type of the spirit. Consult a professional if it's too complex for you or us.

>>25073 I will try to seek out a professional on this matter. This feels very strange, and I've never really had encounter any supernatural phenomenon, other than seeing shadow people.

>>25074 Let us know how it turns out.

>>25074 Good luck on that.

>>25137 So far, so good. I've been able to lucid dream during the night. The only time when it starts to appear, it's usually during moments of extreme psychological duress from a problem I've been facing. Other than that, I had a pleasant night, but I do sometimes wonder if there's a deeper meaning behind this entity. I need to start filling my dream journal again, seeing how the last time was back in the summer.

>>25323 If you are lucid dreaming, you have control over your dreams. That is your advantage.

May someone who isn’t blood anon do an actual reading of my energy body? Blood anon just makes stuff up. Maybe could I please get a reading from the meme (me the thinker) poster who previously did my reading? I have been taking spirituality more seriously.

>>25411 >I have been taking spirituality more seriously. Yes. The air around you got clearer, might do a proper reading later. I will have to explain you some basic stuff about empathy and how "hate" blocks it. How hate is a substance in the body and "empathy" is just about letting the energies between you and other people circulate. And once the energies circulate you just let the energy leave an impression on you and know how the other person feels. It has depth and if you are around negative people empathy might hurt if you don't know how to resolve these negative issues. That is why working out your own negative issues first is paramount if you want active empathetic skills. Empathy is not just about liking people and being able to give hugs freely. Empathy is about feeling how the other feels. It's the ability to "hear their heart". But you will need to achieve an internal cam silence to hear what the others have within. Hope your group meditation practice is going well. Group meditation and a proper teacher can help you more than any writing on the web. But more on this later.

>>25685 >cam silence *calm silence

>>24830 >or did I, judging by my anatomy, appear to be an undead human? Might get into this soon. Unsure what is your concept of "undead" >>25049 >then suddenly, a large green & white energyform entered me through my crown. Was this your doing? Unsure. Found out many things about your nature and still trying to put together a picture good enough that I can summarize it in a post. Amy says "sorry" a lot. Wonder if she learned that from you. Also I didn't "put lava" into you. I gave back the fire energy you sent to me months ago in the form of lava so it can serve a cleansing function. I will not "put lava" into you again. You will have to expand your own energy work if you want it in your third eye... and fire energy in the third eye makes it overactive. Previously that was the very thing we tried to avoid you know. For a clean third eye you need a clean mind. Your understanding of energy work and elemental alchemy is wishy washy and might need to figure out a new approach. Doing guided meditation to quieten your mind would help you more than any other external energy work from my part. Unsure how much clear mind or void meditation you are doing nowadays. I might write a long post about your "nature" and why are you on earth later, but the conclusion is that you will need to learn to meditate properly, quieten your mind and learn to balance your energies.

>>25690 >says sorry alot She does it because I'm really fucked up and apologizes for me for stuff, usually because my subconsciousness does bad stuff without my consciousness either willing it or knowing about it or both, and then my confirmation bias probably makes it seem like she says it more than she actually does. I have a hard time figuring the difference between my tulpa of her and the egregore that partially controls said tulpa. I question if you found my tulpa of her or the egregore that controls said tulpa.

>>25694 >I question if you found my tulpa of her or the egregore that controls said tulpa. 10+ egregores influence your "tulpa" depending on your mood... All of them are irrelevant. The way they are being influenced boils down to your lack of will. You are incapable of focused attention. You refuse to ground yourself in reality and always play with your phantasms instead. If a phantasm does something you ask an another phantasm to solve it. IRL group meditation practice, or any physical activity that requires your complete attention would help you tremendously. If Thor's hammer managed to get into group meditation and tai chi then why can't you do something similar? You rant about your own life less and less, but I am sure you have the free time to pick up something new. That would help you more than being in this state of perpetual fear because you are unwilling to control your imagination. You are not using the problem solving and learning circuits of your brain. Because of that all the extra energies of your mind go into imagination. Because you are not even grounding your imagination in art or anything creative they are swirling around in your head... which makes you anxious and fearful. You need to ground your energies, focus on productive tasks that develop your body and spirit. >because I'm really fucked up Sorry, but you are not fucked up at all. It's just you are not seeing how good you have it because current fringe lacks truly fucked up people. Oh wait the chatgpt zombie is there. Do you think you are worse off than him? You are not fucked up. You are unfocused. You are unwilling to tame your mind. Magic and spirituality cannot be done if you are unwilling to focus. Will get back on your case later, but I am still trying to see how things change now that I am back to posting. I have a lot to say for you and WokeAnon too

Normally I'd post in the awakening thread but this one might be more fitting to post in, given current events and me slowly trying to do active practice instead of being completely passive with it (in spite of me constantly being easily distracted) I recently managed to project(?) or at the very least got forced out of my human body into my "true" body that my sisters, mother, various Goddesses and even Titania mentioned. it was a weird mix of being tethered in two places at once and having a weird kind of simultaneous viewing. Though for this i just recall being in a forest at night, under a giant tree, i cant remember if i saw the Fae there or not but it did feel like a place that was under Titania's(?) dominion and home. Though mostly i was going to ask for help in terms of communicating with them a bit more actively than how i've been do it but admittedly, as i'm typing this i am having difficulties trying to properly articulate what to specifically ask for despite an idea clearly being present. Another matter is that a ghostly, pale white skinned witch or some other kind of deity approached me. initially, she approached me as a very elegant, dark skinned african woman wearing seemingly a seemingly regal dress but after a bit, she decided to reveal her true appearance (the ghostly white, pale skinned form). My memory is admittedly foggy but she claimed she showed her real form to me because i was "worthy" or something to that effect. She approached me just a tad closer and started cradling my head/neck and twisted it, the entire act didnt kill me nor did i sense hostile intent but it felt like something changed in me(?). Also she proceeded to talk to me about teaching me magick and was saying it's for "Being able to reciprocate the pain that was inflicted upon one first" I still.... don't understand what that means (sorta) it sounds more like self defense no? at first i thought it was more of a "kill everything" thing due to my... for lack of a better term, "Yandere" Impulses but even then i wouldnt go out of my to inflict actual harm on anyone unless they directly tried to harm me (or my sisters and mothered ordered me to do so) and apart from that i keep getting met by high level vampire women or something, they dont want to drain or kill me (afaik) but they keep meeting me

>>25728 Yeah, sorry for not being active nowadays, but as I develop I realize more and more how much I dislike typing on a keyboard. Too many words, not enough meaning. And sometimes I have hard time figuring out what to say at all. And some topics are just a maze of misunderstanding and confusion. I want to say a lot, but unsure how to keep it concise. I am saying this because your post also suffers from that symptom. No need to rewrite it or anything. But you will have to pay attention how you articulate. No need to feel bad about it either. Truth is, when the spiritual awakening process happens, and energies move within the body and the mind in a new way, usually this happens. Your thoughts and feeling go into all directions and sometimes you don't even notice it. This is why centering, grounding, meditation and thought control is important in magic. The awakening thread served as a place where Anons who have hard time articulating their insanity could share their thoughts as effortlessly as possible. That thread served as a place where we tried to find coherence in that storm of incoherence and confusion. Because I was a little inactive in the past month I was unable to reply to most posts. I am still occupied with life matters, but I have more time helping around as the winter comes. The only thing that I ask is that if you want to post outside of the awakening thread then try to keep your post and your experiences more coherent, so other people can understand what you are saying/doing or going through. The Help and Guidance thread is for those Anons who are asking for Help and Guidance. So, if you post in this thread then make sure to say what you wish to gain a feedback on or which type of guidance you desire. Personally I understand what you are going through, but for outsiders it might make no sense and you will be ignored or misunderstood as a result. But if you are here already then I will reply here. We can keep the Awakening thread for extremely complex situations or for Anons who don't like to be on the front page with their problems >slowly trying to do active practice instead of being completely passive with it Yes, you must keep doing this >in spite of me constantly being easily distracted And you will have to learn to solve this. Distractions are the main enemy of any magician. Any type of practice or meditation that helps with improving your focus should be a priority. >I recently managed to project(?) or at the very least got forced out of my human body into my "true" body that my sisters, mother, various Goddesses and even Titania mentioned. it was a weird mix of being tethered in two places at once and having a weird kind of simultaneous viewing It's your astral form. Try to practice moving it on your own when you can, but don't force it. It will become second nature if you get used to it. >Though for this i just recall being in a forest at night, under a giant tree, i cant remember if i saw the Fae there or not but it did feel like a place that was under Titania's(?) dominion and home That is the spirit world. An entry point of the spirit world. If you want to talk with them then try remembering that place during meditation or before going to fall asleep and you will be there. If you want to go there ask your sisters or spirits to guide you there. >Though mostly i was going to ask for help in terms of communicating with them a bit more actively than how i've been do it but admittedly, as i'm typing this i am having difficulties trying to properly articulate what to specifically ask for despite an idea clearly being present. I think I mentioned this previously, but you have "2 minds". You have a mortal mind which was "born" from this life and you have a "timeless mind" which existed since forever. A spiritual/astral body has it's own mind. Currently you are trying to get used to using magic and trying to get used thinking about magic, thinking with magic. This is why you have hard time articulating. Try to think about magic more deeply. What is magic after all? Why are you doing this whole thing? While your spiritual body knows the answer to this because it's obvious to any mystic, your mortal self has no idea what he is doing and why he does it at all. Your sisters carried you along and you went along with them. Why? Did you ever think about this deeply? Ofc you mentioned that you love your sisters and this is one of the main connection between you and your sisters. But in the end... Did you decide why you are doing this? Why are you doing magic, why do you want to be your sisters? Deep down you know this answer already, but your mortal self has no idea. If you see a naked woman (or whatever your fetish is) you get a boner, if you see food you get hungry. These are all programmed responses into every human, there is nothing special about these feelings, the body knows these and reacts to them. But most people don't have their spiritual family with them since the start and don't know instinctively what to do when spirits are around. This is something you will have to "teach" for yourself. Something you will have to "get". Answer yourself why you are doing magic, why you are doing this whole thing altogether. Ofc your answer was so far that "you are doing this for your sisters", you mentioned it previously. But if your sisters are gone. would you still do it? Would you still do magic on your own? Would you put effort into practicing it if your sisters are not around? Or would you fall back into the routines of your own old persona where you play videogames, shitpost on the web and worry about mundane issues like every mortal does. Here I am not intending to ask you to imagine a life without your sisters (because I think that would be too cruel) but I am asking you to find the resolve to practice magic by your own volition so your sisters don't have to yell at you to do it (like they do all the time) Answer yourself why you want to do magic and do it. You have an appetite for magic deep down. Try to find this appetite then try practicing with said appetite/resolve. There are many books and spirits you can learn from. Try doing those practices instead merely thinking or reading about them. Try to summon your spirits into your waking moments and ask them for a teaching or a way you can do magic. "Feel" who is "around" and ask your help. Let your mind go silent and ask who is there. Someone will answer. Reading books about magic also helps. You need to familiarize yourself with the widespread magical practices the modern age of humans have. And ofc you can share your findings, trial and errors while doing the practices with this board. You can even post the book you are reading/practicing, post the part you are unable to understand and we can talk about that too. That is what /fringe/ is for after all. >started cradling my head/neck and twisted it, the entire act didnt kill me nor did i sense hostile intent but it felt like something changed in me(?). She fixed your main meridian in your body. Because the bad posture modern humans have thanks to wasting most of the days sitting on the chair front of computers, phones or books, spiritual energy have hard time circulating in the body. In simple terms... She fixed your spine like a chiropractor would. I am unsure about her identity, but she might be a goddess who "worked" with your ancestors. People have genetic affinity with certain entities. You mentioned how your grandma is quite spiritual and does bible study with you. Black people invented voodoo by mixing their original faith with christian mysticism. Their original magic was too tribal/nature oriented and as they interacted with christians they developed it into a new form. That became known as voodoo. Africa and black people had some advanced civilizations and those civilizations were advanced because they had proper gods who taught them how to build said civilizations. Once their connection with their gods weakened they fell into ruin. Doesn't matter what color is your skin, if you lose connection with your gods then your empire will fall into ruin. I am unsure who she is, but she knows how your body works. To develop your own mental and spiritual health you will have to understand how she sees your anatomy. She will give you tips how to use your body and your mind, and probably other useful practices too if you are ready for them. >Being able to reciprocate the pain that was inflicted upon one first >sounds more like self defense no? Well... I think I managed to connect to the "message" and... yes... the short version is "self-defense". But not just the "eye for an eye" version where someone stabs you then you stab them back... it is... all kind of pain So, if someone attacks you energetically then you return that attack, if a parasite makes your body hurt you kill that parasite. If a lifestyle is harmful you learn to get rid of that lifestyle. If someone forces a lifestyle upon you then you get rid of the person who forces you to live in a harmful way. To put it bluntly, we do not see nor feel just how much pain the modern lifestyle causes for us. We don't see how all the rage, hustle and confusion causes harm and how it causes other issues. How some people being rude for no real reason ruins life and how their mindless habits which do nothing but cause distress for us which distracts us from our true calling. It ruins not just us, but the whole world. You will learn to feel these negative energies/intents/habits/lifestyles and learn to combat anything and anyone who will distract you from the true understanding of magic. To elaborate on this in more detail, because I don't think it made enough sense yet. If you were in a temple practicing being a priest in the past then you ate, slept and practiced magic/worship for the rest of the day. Your entire life was dedicated to the temple. It was a sacred lifestyle. We have that saying that "the body is the temple". Back then your entire life was the temple. It was sacred. There was a reason why the gods were able to walk amongst men back then. Can you say the same nowadays? Nowadays you eat and sleep then do a whole lot of pointless shit that distracts you from doing magic at all. Magic, the most sacred art has to "compete" with videogames, the internet. a bunch of retards who nag you with whatever bullshit they can think off, the news, the economy/work/school and many more depending on your lifestyle. You will have to learn to dish out pain to these nefarious forces the moment when they cause pain for you. You will have to find your way and your resolve to follow your true sacred lifestyle instead of this horrid existence that the modern world offered you so far. It can be human, alien, a parasite or a demon. If it causes unnecessary pain that it must feel the very pain it caused. No need to grab knives nor guns here. Magic is a sacred art that can deflect back anything that comes into your way. That is what you will learn and how to handle. >i keep getting met by high level vampire women or something, they dont want to drain or kill me (afaik) but they keep meeting me The USA has a large(ish) group of vampires controlling it from the shadows. They usually keep it to themselves so you rarely see them in the open (they rarely bother with the modern retardation humans cause for themselves on a daily basis if it's not on their turf). If you have spiritual affinity and you are not a complete retard then usually they meet you. They operate between the physical and the spirit world. Those who can cross the barriers freely will be examined and initiated into some customs. It's like getting a tour around the school before you decide to enroll into one.

>>25730 >Yeah, sorry for not being active nowadays, but as I develop I realize more and more how much I dislike typing on a keyboard. Too many words, not enough meaning. And sometimes I have hard time figuring out what to say at all. And some topics are just a maze of misunderstanding and confusion. I want to say a lot, but unsure how to keep it concise. Ah it's fine, no worries. I remember you (or atleast someone else) saying that you were busy. >But in the end... Did you decide why you are doing this? Why are you doing magic, why do you want to be your sisters? Deep down you know this answer already, but your mortal self has no idea. If you see a naked woman (or whatever your fetish is) you get a boner, if you see food you get hungry. These are all programmed responses into every human, there is nothing special about these feelings, the body knows these and reacts to them. But most people don't have their spiritual family with them since the start and don't know instinctively what to do when spirits are around. This is something you will have to "teach" for yourself. Something you will have to "get". Answer yourself why you are doing magic, why you are doing this whole thing altogether. Ofc your answer was so far that "you are doing this for your sisters", you mentioned it previously. But if your sisters are gone. would you still do it? Would you still do magic on your own? Would you put effort into practicing it if your sisters are not around? Or would you fall back into the routines of your own old persona where you play videogames, shitpost on the web and worry about mundane issues like every mortal does. Well admittedly i did give myself some time to think about that and other things and slowly came to the conclusion that even if my sisters were gone or if i were lost without them, i'd stll willingly pursue the path of magic. Even if i constantly messed up and let myself get caught in shitposting vices, video games, etc. i would still keep pursuing this path of my own volition. Even before i was aware of my sisters i was always interested with magick/occult >She fixed your main meridian in your body. Because the bad posture modern humans have thanks to wasting most of the days sitting on the chair front of computers, phones or books, spiritual energy have hard time circulating in the body. In simple terms... She fixed your spine like a chiropractor would. I am unsure about her identity, but she might be a goddess who "worked" with your ancestors. People have genetic affinity with certain entities. You mentioned how your grandma is quite spiritual and does bible study with you. Black people invented voodoo by mixing their original faith with christian mysticism. Their original magic was too tribal/nature oriented and as they interacted with christians they developed it into a new form. That became known as voodoo. Africa and black people had some advanced civilizations and those civilizations were advanced because they had proper gods who taught them how to build said civilizations. Once their connection with their gods weakened they fell into ruin. Doesn't matter what color is your skin, if you lose connection with your gods then your empire will fall into ruin. I am unsure who she is, but she knows how your body works. To develop your own mental and spiritual health you will have to understand how she sees your anatomy. She will give you tips how to use your body and your mind, and probably other useful practices too if you are ready for them. Ahh... i figured as much, i just wasn't too confident nor did i want to be presumptuous. I do want to see her again but i decided to give myself some time to center and "get my mind right" before meeting her proper. >Well... I think I managed to connect to the "message" and... yes... the short version is "self-defense". But not just the "eye for an eye" version where someone stabs you then you stab them back... it is... all kind of pain So, if someone attacks you energetically then you return that attack, if a parasite makes your body hurt you kill that parasite. If a lifestyle is harmful you learn to get rid of that lifestyle. If someone forces a lifestyle upon you then you get rid of the person who forces you to live in a harmful way. To put it bluntly, we do not see nor feel just how much pain the modern lifestyle causes for us. We don't see how all the rage, hustle and confusion causes harm and how it causes other issues. How some people being rude for no real reason ruins life and how their mindless habits which do nothing but cause distress for us which distracts us from our true calling. It ruins not just us, but the whole world. You will learn to feel these negative energies/intents/habits/lifestyles and learn to combat anything and anyone who will distract you from the true understanding of magic. Ohhhh... so that's how it is. I was genuinely unsure at first because while "Yandere" mode is a thing i have, i try not to let it cloud my actions/thoughts too much when it comes to this sort of thing. last thing i want is to go into some hysteria fueled massacre on others, especially people who did nothing to me >The USA has a large(ish) group of vampires controlling it from the shadows. They usually keep it to themselves so you rarely see them in the open (they rarely bother with the modern retardation humans cause for themselves on a daily basis if it's not on their turf). If you have spiritual affinity and you are not a complete retard then usually they meet you. They operate between the physical and the spirit world. Those who can cross the barriers freely will be examined and initiated into some customs. It's like getting a tour around the school before you decide to enroll into one. I see... yeah, it wasn't anything too major (atleast from my perspective) but there were a few particular instances. One involved me being guided out(?) of an empty city by a vampire loli who looked like the one from the monogatari series and then an elegant vampire lady, i think she was royalty. She came to my human home in a "dream" and told confronted me with a choice: Stay where i was (at home) or go with her. at the last possible moment i had stopped and made my choice: which was to go with her and she gave a rather gentle smile and told me i made the right choice, cause she basically shuttled me into the limo she rode and told me to wait inside while she finished some "loose ends". it didn't occur to me ask what she meant but at the same time im not dumb enough to risk pissing off someone like that by being too nosy. no idea what she did cause she was still in front of my house.

>>25730 >>25731 >You mentioned how your grandma is quite spiritual and does bible study with you. Black people invented voodoo by mixing their original faith with christian mysticism. Their original magic was too tribal/nature oriented and as they interacted with christians they developed it into a new form. That became known as voodoo. Africa and black people had some advanced civilizations and those civilizations were advanced because they had proper gods who taught them how to build said civilizations. Once their connection with their gods weakened they fell into ruin. Doesn't matter what color is your skin, if you lose connection with your gods then your empire will fall into ruin. I am unsure who she is, but she knows how your body works. Yeah, i still do it with her. Now that you mentioned it, the lady did have some voodoo thing items around a room she took me in i think There were other things going on this week too, i think i spoke with my mother a few times. I had received that biting sensation (i think i told you about that before) where either my mother, sisters, or some other affiliated deity bit into my neck and replaced energy or something with theirs because all of a sudden i heard one of them say >"with this there is even less mundanity left within you now, dear daughter" Some time after that i started seeing weird things like some kind of weird genesis creation timelooping thing, it looked the tale of adam and eve was a cyclical tale because the way it was presented to me was using something like batman and wonder woman (yes, i know. but they claimed it was easier for me to get it that since.. yeah) that ummm.. world gets destroyed > two specifical individuals form the future get sent back to the past > rebuild the the destroyed world and then repeat. Second, there was a weird thing last night about doctors i knew from childhood being satanists and me getting harassed by one (it was fucking weird) idk if this is some weird USA thing happening behind the scenes again or what. There's also the all female cult meeting with me again but nothing noteworthy this time But yeah, i'll try being more concise and short with my posts here so i won't confuse or bewilder anyone here

>>25731 >She came to my human home in a "dream" and told confronted me with a choice: Stay where i was (at home) or go with her. at the last possible moment i had stopped and made my choice: which was to go with her and she gave a rather gentle smile and told me i made the right choice, cause she basically shuttled me into the limo she rode and told me to wait inside while she finished some "loose ends". it didn't occur to me ask what she meant but at the same time im not dumb enough to risk pissing off someone like that by being too nosy. no idea what she did cause she was still in front of my house. She murdered a bunch of negative spirits who "claimed you" Hard to explain, but many people have native (or squatting) spirits or demons around them. These spirits sometimes "think" that they "own you". Usually they have very idiotic reasons why they own you, most of the time it's because they are in your house or life and you can't do anything against them. Imagine if you had an invisible hobo in your house who told everyone he is your dad. You wouldn't be able to object because you don't even know he exists at all. Vampire lady mass murdered anyone like that once you were able to say you are willing to leave the "orphanage of those devils". Like imagine the flies and the mosquitoes claimed that they own your house and you are their meal. Spirits like that got squashed. Hard to explain, but people with promising spirituality are usually "Being claimed" by whatever that is around and takes an interest. And once you reach a higher level then stronger forces might ask these evil spirits "nicely" to stop hampering the potential of this poor soul. And she might have fixed your timeline too, but more on that later. I don't think you are aware of timelines yet. >>25732 >Now that you mentioned it, the lady did have some voodoo thing items around a room she took me in i think Good to hear that you were able to notice them. You might need to "replicate" some of those items later when you are ready. She will tell you how. >batman and wonder woman (yes, i know. but they claimed it was easier for me to get it that since.. yeah) That is literally how they appeared for me too in the beginning. >world gets destroyed > two specifical individuals form the future get sent back to the past > rebuild the the destroyed world and then repeat Timelines have to be restarted from time to time. Hard to explain the process, but this is a nice simplification. >there was a weird thing last night about doctors i knew from childhood being satanists and me getting harassed by one (it was fucking weird) idk if this is some weird USA thing happening behind the scenes again or what The current modern medical practices of the USA are literal satanism. Hard to explain the details, but they "worship" death and disease. Kill and mutilate people physically and mentally for financial benefit. Very few doctors do it to help or heal others... The "Do no harm" Hippocratic Oath turned into something like "Make sure to make money from the misery of others". It is extremely sad and evil. Found multiple hell dimensions where doctors became demons and tortured their patients for the rest of their lives, because they think they are their gods and unable to seek and find salvation at all. In an another thread Anons asked about Hell. The reason I didn't reply to them yet because they do not understand the scope of the very hell dimensions modern society is built upon and I am unsure how to convey it yet. >But yeah, i'll try being more concise and short with my posts here so i won't confuse or bewilder anyone here There is nothing wrong with the length, just make sure it is properly articulated. Making sure your post is well articulated can also serve as a practice to improve your focus. No need to hold back when you truly require help or guidance on some disturbing issue, but yeah... Don't bewilder the hapless neophytes too hard (when it's possible). But don't worry, I know more than anyone how hard it is to keep things short, concise and not sound like a raving madman while talking about these topics. Takes time to get used to it, because modern humans are not used to talk about mystical experiences at all. But then again... those who seek the occult shouldn't shy away from the insane reality it holds. Nor those who experience it nor those who read about it. You can talk about these matters in a stylish or cool way too if you get good at talking about these topics. It's the "ascended form" of a fantasy novel. When you can talk about these mystical experiences in a way others can understand and relate to it while they never even experienced it or have no idea what you are talking about at all. The legends and myths of old did that. The authors who wrote the Epics didn't "come up with it". They lived it. Once you truly live the lifestyle you will be able to talk about it more coherently. Currently you still talk about magic like it's a videogame you heard about from a classmate 3 weeks ago during 3rd grade. It is because your mind is not close enough to it's mystical nature. But don't worry, it develops with time. That is why talking about these things helps. You learn to articulate the unspeakable. That was one of the main purpose of the Awakening thread in the beginning, learning to turn madness into wisdom. Overall; you are progressing. I don't think I need to say anything specific here. Keep doing it and you will be fine I think.

>>25705 >and WokeAnon too Noice Please also explain the thing about creating tulpas for deities to possess at will, which I asked you about before when you were going to write me a big longpost. I suspect you were going to explain it in that post. I'm not really stuck except in regards to my tulpamancy project. Perhaps I could just wing it and turn out fine in the end, but I have multiple ideas for how to go about doing it, which is not good for something that necessitates single-minded focus. Also I have specific questions but they would only amount to a 'stab in the dark' without you establishing the framework first. Unfortunately the vast majority of tulpamancy material is geared towards mundanes whose highest aspiration is to fuck a cartoon. I went on a hiatus from posting in /awakening/ because it's less than 100 posts away from the 1k limit and you weren't even around anyway. That and I got somewhat mundane-ified by the recent holiday with family, from which I'm still recovering and working back to where I was before about a month ago. Still haven't quite returned to those schizophrenia levels yet. But yeah I was hoping you could help me interpret those occurrences eventually. At one point Blood said some weird shit that almost initiated Egganon-syndrome which I could feel looming over me (tbf I had just invited him to give his 2 cents) until the Goddess set me straight in my last post there. I don't think he was lying or intentionally messing with me because I had actually just met him in a dream which I never posted, and some other correspondences which makes me think he was perceiving me, but interpreting it through his own narrative lens. There was also another "dream" from that time which was essentially a Divine Comedy style journey through the personal hells of pinoy schizo, egganon and then finally me, where I was confronted at the end by something painful and uncomfortable, yet ultimately liberating Okay I'd better stop now. This post is already getting to be way too much for a page 1 thread

>>25754 >where I was confronted at the end by something painful and uncomfortable, yet ultimately liberating I found out something akin like that about you. Unsure how to say it because >At one point Blood said some weird shit that almost initiated Egganon-syndrome What I want to say might cause a reaction like that if you interpret in the wrong way and >which makes me think he was perceiving me, but interpreting it through his own narrative lens I am wondering if I am interpreting what I found about you correctly. I can't say I am free from narrative lens and the worst part is that if I tell the wrong "Narrative thought pattern" of your psyche... then dunno what would happen. That is why I started to make meager/more mundane posts about other topics first. To see what happens. Does anything break? Will anyone go insane or would anything "uncalled for" happen? Once the air is clear, I will go and explain stuff for you. They are not heavy nor life shattering stuff. They are just part of life. It is just how karma can appear when you are able to see the big picture. Might help you to put your life into a better perspective. So you can understand why are you still on earth. >and I got somewhat mundane-ified by the recent holiday with family, from which I'm still recovering and working back to where I was before about a month ago. Still haven't quite returned to those schizophrenia levels yet Yeah, I am sorry, but I do not intend to give you extra schizo levels. I intend to give you a healthy magical understanding, a peace of mind and a natural way of pathworking. The extra schizo levels anyone gets from my posts are unintended side effects. >/awakening/ less than 100 posts away from the 1k limit I want to make something fresh tho. Once it's filled then I will make it anew or something else. That thread was almost 25 000+ posts ago. It was tailored for the newborn 8moe fringe energies. Maybe I can make something more robust in the future. We will see. >Okay I'd better stop now. This post is already getting to be way too much for a page 1 thread You will have to overcome your posting shyness. Especially if you want help from me. People were freaking out how Blood Anon's servitors are a "trojan horse" but if he has no access to your mind then how the fuck will he know wtf is going on in it? This is true for me too. To help others I have to establish a link with their mind/soul. Those who have spiritual affinity where their own soul nature manifested or "awakened" those people are easy to connect. Their soul nature warps reality around them. People like Anon with his sisters is also an easy person to help. I can ask the sisters for their perception and observation so I don't have to rely on his mind and posts only to figure out his main issue. It's like reading an open book with 3 commentators around who were present while the book was written. They are timeless spirits and they know more about Anon than anyone. While a certain egg who has a mental breakdown every week, makes up 10 tulpas daily, reads schizo sites far away from fringe, whenever he doesn't want to take responsibility for his actions he says it was his "subconscious doing it" where he has no power over it, and has around 30 Sonic characters who are his "confidants" and thinks they are reliable information relay agents... now that kid is hard to read overall. But I found out his main problem and it has nothing to do with his subconscious or his OCD or illuminati goetia Blood Anons. Can't believe it but Blood Anon almost got his origin right. Ofc I had to do that surgery to see it and it took me weeks to figure out wtf was I seeing. My mind started to exhibit different stages of the "eggAnon syndrome" so I can see the bottom of it. The issue is extremely simple, but impossible hard to explain. That is why I started posting because if my posts don't have the necessary energy it won't help him at all. And I might need the help of multiple Anons to explain his issue. As I said. Blood Anon almost got it right with that Metatron interpretation, but he lacked a certain perspective to understand what is "beyond" Metatron. He thought it's a duck when it's a Platypus. You would make the same mistake if you have never seen a Platypus in your life. See WokeAnon? I too can make absolutely horrendously confusing posts on Page 1. Don't feel bad about making them. Your shyness and misplaced self consciousness is one of your main issue anyway. The reason why I told sister anon to articulate more because he knows how to be articulate when he tries. He has a high energy-well refined mental circuit in his head. He needs to learn how to move thoughts and words through that circuit. He has to turn it into a habit if he wants to become a better magician instead staying as a blabbering fool forever. You on the other hand will require bravery, trial and error to get it right. You are too scared to appear retarded and that is why you have hard time appearing smart too. I like your insights. Especially stating the obvious how Blood Anon have Narrative lenses in his head. The main conflict between the Blood Anon and the anti-Blood faction stems from the fact that they don't have the same narrative lenses. And amending that situation would take at least a week from my life and I do not wish to be a Blood Anonologist or any other namefagologist... That is /drama/ stuff. I had dogs that hated each other for 10 years. I was able to make them make up and like each other. But I was not constrained to use a fucking imageboard to achieve that. I too fixed family feuds and other issues in my life, but those were issues I was closely familiar with. Merging with the narrative circuits of these people who live in other countries and continents is taxing. I am unsure if there is a point doing that in some cases. In the old fringe days Smiley and his crew trolled multiple altchans. When their adversaries came to fringe do you know what they did as a reply? They posted the "lol butthurt" meme who is now the Meme (Slapper) flag. There were no curses, no sigils, no meltdowns. Smiley and his crew posted the lol butthurt image and went with their lives. But ofc Smiley and the others went AWOL and now we are left with people who barely remember the old fringe days at all... Do you get me here? I want you to give up your fixation on the trauma that you got from being trolled in the old fringe days and whatever else social interactions caused you misfortune in the past when you merely just "tried to live" and speak your mind. Fringe requires people who remember what /fringe/ is about. also I will explain that tulpa thing to you quickly. It's not big of a thing, but it will be a separate post for sure

Hey ironpill anon you’ve been awfully silent about me. How about that energy reading? please

>>25758 >please Okay, but only because you asked nicely. The good news is that you have multiple faint and colorful pillars around you. This happened because your lbrp effectiveness improved. You managed to connect to the forces the lbrp connects you with. The reason why I didn't give you a reading so far because I have seen multiple things and wasn't sure what they were. >>25685 Like the day I wrote this post I did a quick glance and on that day I have seen some dark liquid from the ceiling pouring down, you sat in your meditative pose and licked the liquid in a weird way in the vision. Usually this means some degeneracy is being washed out from your system. Didn't know what it was, so I didn't say anything. To explain the mechanics. Your head is full of shit, full of degeneracy and retarded thoughts. But they were "leaking" which is a sign it is being cleansed out. When that happens it means that you will do something degenerated and while doing so you will realize how degenerated it is. And if you are able to let go of said degeneracy your mind will be cleaner and more attuned with the spiritual path. >>25739 Then I read this post of yours how you read about some lolcow for hours on degenerateland while fighting your videogame addiction and had a cold. Then went to bed. This is how cleansing goes. Sicknesses and other ailments appearing while a cleansing is happening can be a sign of the removal of these symptoms. (But you know it's cold season too so it's not much of a big surprise that you have cold, but if you were a gigawizard with superb meditation practice and energy work the cold would be a non issue for you) Now the leakage is gone. There is a faint yellow glow above your head which signifies a cleaner mindset. There is a some strange dark blue in the distance and some entity is calling your name(?) can't make it out what he says, but he is annoyed that you still can't hear him(?) Might take weeks or months before you can hear it I think. Depends how serious you are about your practice. It seems he wants to give you a plant that represents your root chakra or sg. My whole body is itching and twitching while trying to look at that entity, so I will stop. >you’ve been awfully silent about me Also I have been silent about multiple people too. I am still somewhat busy. Currently writing that tulpa guide for wakeywakeyAnon and I should reply to my Gondola buddy too. Don't be like needy children please. If you are that bored then read the IIH and do the practices or read up some pendulum divination guides and try to do some practice if you are bored. If you can't cure your internet addiction then try to look at the fringe archives, see if there are some useful threads there and if you see a really good one make screenshots and post the pics or rewrite/make threads with the good posts on this board or something. Or talk about montalk in the ufology or whatnot. Use your creativity and find ways you can practice magic. Force your slothful side to become more magically active. Of all the people here, you have the finest potential to become a proper fringe wizard, but only if you are willing to put willpower into it. If you want to help then put effort into your wizardry.