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>If you have these intrusive thoughts within you you will have to burn in hell until you are pure from them. These intrusive thoughts these "sinful desires" cannot enter heaven. They will be burned and if you are unable to let them go you will burn with them.
Autism in a dogmatic catholic family can beget a lot of fear over blasphemous intrusive thoughts and the such.
>I am not saying accept him but try to read between the lines. Try to understand what he is saying and what is the truth that keeps his delusion together.
While we both understand that the christian framework is broken, he distorts it further into an incoherently hare-brained, serpentine, matriarchal death worship based on distorting and misinterpreting malice and sociopathy into verses that are void of them to substantiate his insanity. There are parts of his belief system that I don't hate right off the bat and times where I felt our belief structure similar, but his ultimate flaw is declaring christ to be the antichrist and demonizing masculinity, ego and judaism despite backing his titanic ego with deceitful character attacks supplemented by rhetoric similar to pilpul to distract from the fact that he is clearly male and judaism is matriarchal in framework.
Not going to deny that I fucked the reiki and 7 seed chakras cyclic chanting meditation, mostly for sealing negative gateways, clearing bad timelines, and unfucking some energies. The reikis and chakra stuff were done seperate, I just continued it the next day while trying to connect to/meditate on some cute and whimsical artwork but one glance at /pol/ fucked it all to high hell. I only fuck with /x/ and /pol/ because there aren't many niche, "old internet" type spaces online (Mostly compulsion in the /x/'s case)
>What is "saturn energy" to you. How do you even see that energy type?
That was months before the reiki shit, and that was an egregious display at my tenacity upon myself but also carpet bombing /x/ to get rid of that dipshit as well as swiping at the untouchably powerful sectors of society because /pol/ couldn't meme it on their own damn terms.
>HE LITERALLY PREACHES DEATH. You managed to karmicly connect to him... Now I understand your obsessive hatred and why you are this bad at controlling it.
I was pushing sirlulzingtonesquire's "I HATE THE ANTICHRIST" when this mothercucker went around and called Jesus Christ the fuckin' antichrist on "LUCIFER IS SIN", banking off the fact that nobody knows who the antichrist actually is so he pushed to fill that slot with Christ and pissed me off to high hell. Wasted time and reason on a cheating, smug pigeon shitting on the chessboard and declaring victory, my mistake was to play his game or dissect his framework through a more critical and developed framework.
>what I felt was my closure
You mean
https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/37373429/ and the others on
https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/37437995 where I attempted karmic disentanglement from him by sacrificing him (starting march 4th), his presence and those ties to this anon? the starting act before the reiki/chakra shit from the 7th/10th, but sacrificing the psychic hold the anti-abrahamic matriarchal death worshipping "empath" had on me that tethered me to check /ng/ for his presence went to hell the second the namefag decided to get in the way for him.
That was where the tense, dark, negative energy took hold of my heart, and quashing the nicotine headrush was a disservice.
>Also what do you even consider as an "unification" in your mind. How does that look like to you?
Making these comics by Sirlulzingtonesquire/cereal guy memes
the egregore to springboard schizoposting off of instead of both boards trading schticks (which was a side thing I did for the lulz until it backfired).
>If you want more help from me write down how you see the saturnite energies and that ritual or spell that you unleashed to unite the most obsessive parts of 4chan. Also post the reiki site maybe. I will look at the chants and figure out which parts of your mind you unlocked.
That saturn energy I was going off of from the last few months of 2023
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LsDG7vqkKi0
The reiki videos I was listening to
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSPQVHDKYWY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cX0Zj-heLI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e2JJLvw18tE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEiYRZCA4QY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLqQFLa-jOg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_d7V0Om3c7E
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_dxJ2KbqaI
The chakra chants I listened to
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_dxJ2KbqaI
Keep in mind, the saturn and reiki/chakra stuff are seperate - the former invoked prior to enact global changes in the name of discombobulating the NWO, the latter two months later to disentangle myself from the matriarchal death worshipper and his energy, though the "OM" and "AH" chants were right before I quickly checked /pol/ and checked my shit in.
>Wtf did you even try to describe with that. That is the opposite of the feelings the heart provides. No wonder it locked. Try to go back to your heart and understand this feeling of yours of
Part of me going off on how unscary suicide mouse was and how dumb I was to get scared of it in retrospect while fucking around in this newfound opened state, heart closed off because I strained to find the right word I had on the tip of my tongue. I pride myself on my scholarly and fluent vocabulary owing to another passion in etymology, syntax, grammar, context, and everything pertaining to linguistics.
>Also if that battle is important to you then explain to me what were the parts where you "lost". What did your pops said that made you this defeated. I too can be quite ruthless with my words so I have to understand what even was the thing he had to say so you are this low currently. The way you handle spirituality is peculiar.
Flyting on a higher vibration where word, feeling, intent/flow and thought were all one as a form of "spellcasting", moreso on denouncing his mindset, particularly the anti-drug shit based on him being unable to let go. By summarizing in verse what I hate the worst, I'd overcome the curse - certainly not the case, I entered a state that couldn't be put into phrase, and in turn I was turned in my ways (felt like my "self" got lost in dad's psyche, hence the descending blue mandelbrot fractal that resembled a dark jailcell corridor in interior).
Timeline as follows:
>saturn stuff in December 2023
>going off on pops and his subconscious impulse to prevent me from attaining a spiritual breakthrough by bothering me on Feb. 13th
>first part of the disaster involving eclipse ritual and sleeper agent on Mar. 4th
>reiki and chakra stuff for disentangling on March 10th, which culminated in the happy merchant incident the next day