>PLAYAN Factorio as ever, started Trails of Cold Steel II >WATCHAN nothing. May start DS9 S5 soon. >LISTENAN Destiny music. Makes me miss the game, but there's many reasons I quit three years ago. >READAN just dumb web stuff, will start something proper soon >EATAN Taco salad. Want to try a cheese I've never had before, but not sure what to get. >DRINKAN n/a >FAPPAN Shouldn't, but Trails has lots of pretty girls >FEELAN Good tired, the kind that comes from getting stuff done and exercise. Expecting next week to be deranged, but should settle down over Thanksgiving.

>PLAYAN Sonic Origins. People complain about it, and maybe it isn't worth much money, but it's still the classic Sonic games, and gave me an excuse to play them all again like five more times (at least once with each character). Should have had Spinball, Chaotix, and 3D Blast, though. And the Master System versions of all the 8-bit games. And Sonic R, because it goes with 3D Blast and they might as well have made this a definitive Classic Sonic collection. Also, Sonic Origins Plus includes the Game Gear games, so they should have had an option to make them fit into Story Mode. They don't need new cutscenes, but it bugs me that Story Mode skips most of the games. I know they aren't as good, but some of them are pretty decent, and they're in the collection, and they have stories (except Sonic Drift 1. That one doesn't). They should be in Story Mode. >WATCHAN Rankin Bass Christmas specials. I'm sad and alone, which reminds me of how I usually spend Christmas. Rudolph and Frosty are my friends in my lowest moments. >LISTENAN '90s alt-rock. Remember Blind Melon? >READAN Old Sonic manga that I have to use Google Translate to understand because it doesn't even have fan translations. But it's the origin of Amy and Charmy, so it furthers my autism. I need fantasy worlds to escape to, and Sonic is one of them. And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape. >EATAN Pizza. Feel guilty because I've lost like 40 pounds in the last three months, and I need to lose like 20 more, so I shouldn't have cheated, but my family is a bad influence on me. They convinced me to get fast food, then ditched me. >DRINKAN Water, because I'm not a degenerate. >FAPPAN Shitting dick nipples. >FEELAN Awful. The girl I am seeing came up with a lame excuse to cancel our plans for tonight. I'd buy the excuse except she used the same one like three weeks ago, and often has other lame excuses, so now I'm skeptical. I'm too old for this shit, but I haven't found a better one ever, and trying only makes me want to kill myself, since I have to put in so much effort, only to find a bunch of awful spoiled brats that treat me like shit. Sadly, this one that doesn't give a shit about me is still the best I've ever found. And I know what site I'm on, and I might be doing better than other anons, but I'm also confident I'm older than many of those other anons, and the clock is ticking. I'm tired of looking. I'm tired of games. I'm tired of life. I'm just tired, and if I lose much more hope I'm just going to stop trying at any of it, including life itself. I'm close to just giving up, but I can't tell anybody because it just chases them away. I have to pretend I don't care, or else I lose the things I care about even harder. And then I lose them anyway. And that includes time itself. It's all so tiresome.

>>1934645 >And I know what site I'm on, and I might be doing better than other anons Being obligated to deal with women makes you by default infinitely worse off than other anons. Made all the more evident by your paragraphs of venting.

>>1934645 here's my advice dump the bitch & spend your time elsewhere. If you aren't doing well with women don't blame yourself modern human beings regardless of sex are shit tier. Some anons are decent since a majority of us are here for a reason that said get over yourself. You'll die alone regardless accept it.

>>1934645 Ignore the jaded cynics above me. First, congrats on losing 40 pounds, that's an accomplishment that almost anyone would be happy with. You're already on the home stretch, a pizza's not gonna ruin everything unless you let it turn into an avalanche. With regards to your life situation, you need to make some changes. Just because you've gotten older doesn't mean you've done what you needed to, and you still clearly care too much about what the wrong people think about you. If you wanna find a good girl, you should look where the good girls are. That means things like Church and places like the library, a gym that's not filled with girls trying to get attention in the wrong ways, or some other place that people would go to to otherwise better their lives in some way. Friends might also have some connections too that might help. If you wanna keep a good girl, you gotta do your best to work on yourself too and genuinely try to be better than the person you were yesterday. You're clearly struggling with some stuff in your life as your post's tone indicates. You sound at least somewhat resentful of your family and wallowing in your loneliness and pain. Finding love isn't supposed to be easy. Hell, when it seems easy, it tends to result in divorce more often than not. Start reading the Bible and making friends, or an effort to make friends at a church that seems good. Don't put all your value in life into romance. The right woman will come when the time is right. A family member of mine didn't get married till they were around 40, and they still had kids with their similarly aged spouse; things couldn't be better for them. Figure out what's been hurting your life and try to heal it in some way, the first step is talking about it with someone you can trust, and faggots on the internet isn't one of them. At best you can say things here that you wouldn't be able to IRL, but that's not a real solution, at best it's a bandaid. If necessary you might need professional help, suicide is no joke. Don't give up on life anon. You clearly have some grasp on your senses and situation and it makes sense why you'd feel the way you do, but you also don't know where life can take you because you're in the depths right now. Nothing wrong with enjoying your creature comforts, but you're aware they're merely staunching the blood flow rather than healing the wounds. That's not sustainable in the long-term. I'm not saying your life needs to be perfect or anything, improvement is usually a gradual process and you've clearly already made some on one axis (physical health), you're capable of doing it on others with enough effort, time, support and the right changes. Don't give up on yourself anon.

>>1934645 >Pizza. Feel guilty because I've lost like 40 pounds in the last three months, and I need to lose like 20 more, so I shouldn't have cheated, but my family is a bad influence on me. They convinced me to get fast food, then ditched me. Family is cheap when you get physically ill, people who pretend to care will ghost you and play dumb while playing social games to get rid of your relationship they bothered to build up in the first place to knock you down since they think it's funny.

>>1934664 >Being obligated to deal with women makes you by default infinitely worse off than other anons. As much as some people joke about it, I don't think most anons are gay. But part of my problem is that I do have empathy, so sometimes people tell me that others have it worse than me, but when it is true, that doesn't make me feel better, it makes me feel worse, because I then just feel bad for those people as well. That said, when people outside this site say it, they're usually wrong, or they have to use cliches like "starving children" or whatever. (Which is true, but again, doesn't make me feel better.) But when people here say it... man, I feel bad for the average anon. Because say what you will about how stupid this is, but I do think most of you are good guys. People think that being anonymous means we don't know each other, but that isn't true. It means we know each other better than anybody. We're our true selves, and we have understandings that are hard to achieve in real life. >>1934824 >that said get over yourself. I try. My problem is that I can't help but see and have to interact with people who have it way better than me and take it for granted, so it makes me envious, and that makes me depressed. And I spent decades escaping into fantasy so that I wouldn't run into those people, but new fantasy has all been taken over by the worst types of those "people," who make it their mission to kill all our escapism and shove their faces into all of it so we can never get away from it. So I indulge in retro stuff instead. But eventually I start running out of retro stuff I love. I can only relive my childhood so much. Eventually instincts start kicking in and tell me to start living, so I try, and I fail to live. In the morning, I get up, and I try to feel alive, but I can't. >You'll die alone regardless accept it. No. If I were to actually manage to have a family, I'm confident I'd die before them, so I wouldn't be alone. Your advice is still reasonable. But where else would I spend my time? Playing vidya? I do an awful lot of that anyway. We've had threads here about listing games we've actually beaten, and when I post my list, people are baffled at how much longer it is than everyone else's. And vidya isn't even my primary hobby these days. So many movies and tv shows and books. And I don't even think of them as wastes of time, because frankly they're what I did when I couldn't do anything else anyway, and I couldn't do anything else because nobody wanted to do anything else with me. And then I got old enough to have to work, and I do. And I guess the other thing people say to do is exercise, so I spend hours every day doing that now, and I still have enough time left to play so much vidya that I get bored of it. But despite having all this time, I still feel the time ticking and running out, because I know I'm wasting it, but not by choice. It's not the vidya's fault I'm wasting it, it's not that I'm addicted, it's that I have nothing else to do. It's already being wasted, so I might as well play vidya. >>1935045 >Just because you've gotten older doesn't mean you've done what you needed to You got that right. That's the problem. I feel that too acutely. I'm not where I should be, and time is running out to get anywhere, and then all my work will have been for naught. It feels like running a marathon, only there's a time limit, and I can see that the time limit is going to run out right when the finish line is within reach, and I'll have trained and run all this way for nothing. >and you still clearly care too much about what the wrong people think about you. Really the issue is that I just want a single one that thinks of me positively. I could ignore everyone else if I just had someone to talk to. And anons are the closest I have, and you've gotten me through decades of dark times, but ultimately, for all the beauty of these relationships, they're not the same as one in real life. But those real life relationships elude me. According to everyone I've ever met, I'm not good enough for them. >church, library, gym Tried them all. You aren't allowed to talk to women at these places. Even just showing up as a single male, you're automatically looked at like a weirdo. And yeah, admittedly, when it comes to church, I would be going purely for the women. And you'll say that's terrible, and maybe you're right, but I'm just not convinced by the magical stuff, so that doesn't attract me. I also feel it is bad to go when I'm not an actual adherent, especially when my real reason is to pick up chicks. >friends My friends have all grown up and gotten married, and I've actually have asked them for connections. No luck. If anything they're all more autistic than me. Don't know how they did it. Well, they have more money than me. Maybe that helped. Plus it's not like I have many friends in the first place, and now they're all grown up and busy. >work on yourself Exactly. So I got a good job, a good income, a comfortable place to live, and I'm having success with getting a bit healthier. And it's all been useless. What's the point of having a job? To get money. First you get the money, then you get the power, then you get the women. Well steps two and three have eluded me so far. I'd rather live under a bridge than work just so I can afford a comfortable place to live alone. I don't need that much physical comfort. I can be physically comfortable pretty easily. It doesn't cost as much money as I make, so why am I working to make it? Because I'm tired of being unwanted, and no woman is going to live under the bridge with me. And does that mean that any woman I get is a gold digger? Yes. They're all gold diggers. But I don't have enough gold, at least not to make up for my physical shortcomings. If I did, then at least I could try to convince myself it isn't about that. >resentful of family Yeah. They were trying to be nice yesterday, but I have too many fights with them, about other things. I don't really resent them much for being a bad influence on my diet though. That's not a big deal. It's all the other things that I guess this post is too long to get into. >wallowing in loneliness and pain You got that right. >Don't put all your value in life into romance. As you alluded to, it isn't just about romance. It's about family. It's about legacy. And it's about having at least one person who gives a shit. And no, my parents telling me "let's get a pizza" then leaving to do their own thing might show an ounce of care, but you know that your parents not literally wanting you dead isn't the same as having something resembling romance. Ideally, we are supposed to outlive our parents and have someone else to make a new family with. Your anecdote of someone not getting married until about 40 and still having kids gives me some hope, but that age is coming up real quick, so I'm still running out of time. >Figure out what's been hurting your life and try to heal it. Well I told myself it was money, but now I have enough to be comfortable. I have enough control over my material conditions that I'm not concerned about that anymore. So now what's left is loneliness. That and the envy of those that take me, and their lack of loneliness, for granted. And that leads to resentment. And people say that emotions like that only hurt ourselves, as if I don't know that. But we don't choose our emotions. If we did, we'd all be happy all the time. And frankly, I think my emotions have perfectly reasonable and logical causes. I can explain them well. Doesn't do me any good, though. >talk with someone you can trust, fags here don't count. Like you said, I can say things here I can't IRL. But you know what else? People here listen. Nobody IRL does. My family is the closest I have, and they don't listen. They get mad. If I admit to this girl that the way she treats me bothers me, she pulls away. I know because I've tried. And I've had that experience with every other girl I've ever even gotten to speak with me in the first place. They're all like this, and this current one is the one that comes closest to giving a shit, because she at least hasn't pulled away entirely yet. >professional help Tried it. Just made me more suicidal than ever. Turning to someone who has to get paid to pretend to be your friend is depressing enough on its own. But they're also all feminist bitches that think I'm privileged for being male, even though actually they're so privileged for being female that they cannot comprehend the things I'm talking about. Women can't comprehend what loneliness is, because any time a woman is alone, it's by choice. And they project that onto me, and tell me that I'm just not trying enough, meanwhile they're all mean, stupid landwhales that still think they're too good for most guys, including me. But they're trying harder than me, apparently. Just look at results! They must be trying harder since they have better results. Meanwhile they're all commies who say that in every other area of life, effort doesn't equal results, so we must steal from the successful. I've had multiple "professionals" tell me to my face that I'm lying and that the things that bother me don't actually happen. They're the worst people of all.

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>enjoying your creature comforts isn't helping, not sustainable Exactly. I'm aware. But I take any opportunities I can find to actually better my situation. But most of those attempts fail, and I'm left with time, just looking for the next opportunity. Thanks for your actual thought out post, Anon. Even though I don't agree with all the points, you've shown more care than anyone else, including everyone I know in real life.

>>1935918 >As much as some people joke about it, I don't think most anons are gay. I was more implying that most anons are apathetic and checked out of interactions with women entirely. You aren't describing sex, you're describing wanting long term committed relationships where you need to constantly maintain and tolerate interacting with people you don't want to for a long term emotional payout. Normalfags are incapable of compartmentalizing loneliness and thus end up in your endless cycle of courting women that have infinite options and string you along until the last possible moment. The women you're interacting with probably feel your desperation which results in you getting fucked over by subhumans. A mentally strong man instantly drops a women the second he senses she's even slightly disinterested in him and moves on to the next one. I'm not knocking your attempts at living a fulfilling family life, but you should probably min-max a bit harder and be more willing to abandon people that don't share your intentions.

>>1934645 >40 in 90 days achievement unlocked Congrats man.

>PLAYAN The Binding of Isaac, mostly. Realized I haven't done the challenges and so I'm making my way through those. >WATCHAN Gachiakuta, Toujima Wants to be a Kamen Rider, Digimon Beatbreak, and random video essays on things I didn't care about until after listening to someone talk about them for an hour >LISTENAN Whole lot of nothing >READAN Dusted off my copies of "Ramen Wolf and Curry Tiger" in hopes that it'll somehow manifest volume three into being (it didn't) >EATAN Chips. Guts are still rolling. >DRINKAN Coffee, Tea. Hot drinks to keep my throat down >FAPPAN I'd love to, but everything down there is out of commission until I get better. That said, I recently remembered Elza from Interspecies Reviewers exists, so she's on the "to-do" list once I'm back up to 100% >FEELAN Well and truly sick. Went to sleep at 2, didn't wake up until 11pm. Shot my sleep schedule through the knees and if I didn't have a shift later I'd probably still be asleep. It's just a few hours, though, so I'll tough it out and spend the weekend passed out. I don't usually get sick enough that my weirdly consistent internal clock can be interrupted. Still groggy and zombie-like, and I don't want to work but I don't want to call in two days in a row. On a lighter note, I've had time to think of my schizo theory wherein the "pokemon trainer" program is a secret breeding program, so that's been fun.

>PLAYAN Moonscars. I have gotten to the point where I need the ultra-dash and the mechanic is pretty shit. I also hate the blood moon mechanic to get the earrings. >WATCHAN Blacklist and whatever anime slop I find on Crunchyroll. >LISTENAN Vidya gaming and anime osts >READAN Nothing >EATAN Going to get 5 Guys later tonight. >DRINKAN Iced Coffee and water >FAPPAN Nothing. Oddly, I haven't wanted to for a few days. >FEELAN Almost electrocuted myself after raging at Moonscars and making my Xbox usb controller wire short out.(Context: I lost 24900 bone meal and couldn't get it back thanks to the Blood Moon. My own fault for not alleviating it first.). The controller was close to 6 years old and the wires at the base as well as the usb connector itself were in rough shape, but I have never had that happen before. Unplugged it as soon as I smelled burning plastic. Could see little arcs in the usb male end. Left it in my bathtub to cool down before tossing it in the dumpster.

The day is just starting, but- >PLAYAN Still with Kid Icarus Uprising. I'm so getting that Chapter 13's 7.0 Intensity Gate loot. That said, holy shit, putting an Intensity Gate of such a high level AT THE END OF THE STAGE is absolutely evil. >WATCHAN Nothing at the moment. >LISTENAN Don't have to pay my flight I'm living my own life I got my hands up feeling free! I am loving my new view as I leave the ground be-hind! LET EVERYTHING GOOO AS I TOUCH THE SKYYY!! https://soundcloud.com/user-987439985/namie-amuro-fly >READAN Nothing at the moment, I can always use a good romcom recommend, though. >EATAN Eggs for breakfast >DRINKAN Water, I've been drinking a lot of water lately with this summer heat. >FAPPAN Hopefully not today... >FEELAN A little staggered, honestly. Had a DnD session with friends last night and that session went to some places regarding my character and a friend's. I fucked around and found out with a joke I instigated, and the end result was the canonization of those two characters becoming a couple, kissing under the starry sky in a rooftop and all. I don't feel particularly regretful, but I can't help but occasionally stop and say "Man, that really just happen..."

Woo Friday Holiday! >PLAYAN E33. Just got done with one of the Axons. Although, I'm kinda dissappointed in how easy it really was, I wanted to do a sidequest that regarded a dungeon that had insanely overleveled enemies, but by the time I reached the boss of that dungeon, I noticed it was going to be nigh impossible to beat the guy. So by the time I went back to the main quest, now everything is piss easy, I had to put only Monoco in my party and claim it as a fail if only he died to get a semblance of challenge. >WATCHAN Use cases for VR >READAN Godot docs >EATAN Rice with... I don't know what I will add to the rice >DRINKAN Water >FAPPAN I went to an escort a few days ago, and the fact that I didn't get it up, despite the chick having insanely large tiddies, kinda discouraged me a bit. Not claiming that I am gay, just that maybe gooning is a cover for something else, and having insane udders isn't enough to actually get it up for the act Yes it was my first time but even then I visited her twice, so clearly I am just completely fucked >FEELAN Good, busy week but at least it all worked out. Tomorrow I'm gonna start seeing apartments so I can start renting and have a space of my own. I just want my own space without having to tend to my dad. I know he's in his 60s, but even he's getting more action that I ever will, so I don't think it'd be a problem.

>>1953620 Nigga, you gay

>>1532986 >PLAYAN Nothin yet. Not sure. >WATCHAN Gonna watch hazbin hotel. >LISTENAN Some siren ASMR >READAN Canticle for Leibowitz. >EATAN Gonna make some breakfast in a bit. Eggs and toast. >DRINKAN Either apple juice or Pepsi. >FAPPAN The waifu. >FEELAN :I

>>1953620 >spoiler Couldn't it be that you're just nervous and inexperienced? I mean, if this is your first time, then you have no idea what to do, your brain is going to focus on filling in the blanks of the lack of practical knowledge and you're going to lose track as a result. Not to get in your head, but if I'm allowed to be schizo for a second, I think saying "I'm fucked" is an ego defense mechanism; better claim something is wrong with your body, something out of your control, than claim something is wrong with your mind, something you can totally control. May not be the best advice, but why don't you try being honest with yourself and her by admitting you are inexperienced and ask her for help? Maybe she'll know what to do in this case, having dealt with cases like yours. Who knows? Knocking ain't trespassing.

>>1953620 Escorts are disgusting and I wouldn't be able to do it either. Unless she sucked it. Pretty hard to stay flaccid in that situation. But even if that did happen, I'd still reason that it could be partially because having to pay for a slut is gross and not fun. Someone in your situation will probably think this is bad advice or a coping mechanism, but it really does mean a lot more when there are positive emotions involved. Might be gay for me to say this, but it really is more about the emotions than the physical sensations, at least for me. The girl I've been seeing won't commit or get physical, even though we seem to get along great and always have a good time. So yesterday, after she said she was busy this whole weekend, I called an old "FWB" for a booty call. Regretted it. Not only is she gross, but without the emotions, I didn't even feel good. I think she did, but all I felt was physical exhaustion, which I suppose is good since I could use a workout, but it wasn't what I was looking for. Really I just want the one that I actually like, but I now have to wait another week for a chance. If I had to pay for that booty call, I'd have felt even worse. I don't think I'd have been able to get it up, either.

>PLAYAN Ridge Racer 64 on NSO, never actually touched RR serie, is fun but damn this game has the jankiest drifting I ever seen. Maybe cause it was meant for N64 joystick? I fear I can only complete races with the unbalanced as fuck car >WATCHAN Finished Uncle from Another World. It was really funny despite uncle extreme autism. >LISTENAN Racism OST (Eurobeat) https://youtu.be/KReWn_vi8uM (Please ignore uploader lamenting someone stole his video) >DRINKAN Been drinking a lot of coke as of late. >FEELAN Got my final lmaocoding class project and group memebers insist in vibecoding it. Semester got me too tired to give a fuck anymore to object, I just dont wish this shit to blow in our faces.

>PLAYAN half-life 2 sudoku variants on logic masters germany. Here's, a sudoku not too difficult: https://sudokupad.app/9r6rjj5duo >WATCHAN Dungeon chill - Yuuyami Doori Tankentai, over 4 hours of entertainment. >LISTENAN Nothing >READAN The manga X.X.X. holic, the original translation is bordering on duwang-tier, (do those guys even speak English?) Thank god I found the official translation. BTW, I like clamp's designs, with is the main reason I am reading the series. >EATAN Some vegetarian garlic noddles. >DRINKAN B33R >FAPPAN Ain't feeling like it. >FEELAN ok, looking forwards to Christmas..

>>1954254 Isn't ridge racer 64 the worst of both worlds? If you want story play "Ridge racer 4" if you want arcade gameplay play 'Ridge racer (PSP)', please correct me if I'm wrong.

>>1954286 It was probably for people with just an N64, shame Nintendo mismanaged that console back in the 90s

>PLAYAN Civ 5. I dont actually want to play it though. I wanted to play heavy metal fakk 2 but I am having problems installing the game. No idea how I am going to make this work. Installer wont even complete. I have heard a lot about this game and it being made by the same dudes who did SIN makes me hopeful but none of that matters if the game cant be installed. >WATCHAN jewtube vids. >LISTENAN Nothing. >WRITAN Had an idea for a ranger subclass that got sci-fi equipment from the future. Kinda like turok where a hot alien chick gives you ammo for a laser gun. >EATAN Nothing yet. >DRINKAN DR.pepper. >FAPPAN Trying to cut down on it. Just fapping once a day is kinda excessive when you think about it. >FEELAN Very hungry. I should have gotten a pizza or something dude. Just kinda lost. Filled with idea but no motivation or skill to actually accomplish those ideas. Even less motivation to learn those skills that I need. Was thinking about learning how to draw by just taking a pen and paper and trying to draw an apple.

>>1954013 >Couldn't it be that you're just nervous and inexperienced? Thought about it, then I went again with her to make sure that wasn't the case. Same thing happened. Maybe I need to fall "in love" with the other person. I think jerking off lets you pretend she likes you for who you are and not for your money or for the time she's doing it. So it could be that. >I think saying "I'm fucked" is an ego defense mechanism; better claim something is wrong with your body, something out of your control, than claim something is wrong with your mind, something you can totally control. Not too sure, I think that I shouldn't have waited until my late 20s to try, now my dick is fucking dead like my will to live. >why don't you try being honest with yourself and her by admitting you are inexperienced and ask her for help? Ehh, don't really wanna go for another round anymore. Besides she took a flight recently. >>1954106 >first spoiler Definitely, it just made me feel a bit disgusted at myself. As in, I could ogle a chick, but I know that my dick wouldn't work, so now I got something extra to deal with, besides the eternal retardation. >second spoiler I dunno about you, I think I mostly wanted to get a try with her tits. Ehh, who knows. Either way I am really pessimistic now. Too "normal" for regular imageboards, too "weird and offputting" for regular internet.

>>1934015 >PLAYAN cant play anything >WATCHAN doing a marathon of old Nostalgia Critic videos I just reached the 2011 era. Enjoying it so far >LISTENAN 100 gecs unironically >READAN nothan >EATAN chicken strips >DRINKAN tea >FAPPAN no >FEELAN Kinda bad. I broke my wrist on Wednesday and haven't been able to play games or jerk it for a while. work still sucks ESPECIALLY because of that "friend" I mentioned before, I didn't have to go today but I will have to go back on Monday. Watching Nostalgia Critic has been fun though, I'm on his 3rd commercial special as of writing this.

Gonna go play Titanfall 2.

>>1954524 Roboboyfriend simulator

>>1954524 Northstar or EA servers

>>PLAYAN Megabonk, has reddit-as-fuck humor but the gameplay is entertaining enough to let that pass >>WATCHAN Nothing >>LISTENAN Fief 2 >>READAN Nothing >>EATAN Spaghetti >>DRINKAN Gonna make some Coffee later >>FAPPAN Oppai lolis >>FEELAN Pretty okay, i guess, nothing special

WHATCHA' >PLAYAN Nothing >WATCHAN Chainsaw Man the Movie Reze arc, finally. I heard good things about it on half chan so it got me curious about it even more so. >LISTENAN Video game music >READAN Info on how to mod my switch >EATAN Quinoa and ham. Made some chicken breast and rice for tomorrow. Eating healthier. >DRINKAN Coffee, water and maybe some Arizona ice tea that my amigo has laying around. >FAPPAN >FEELAN Alright. Christmas is coming soon. Still trying to quit vaping I think its been two months now.

>>1953490 I did it! I got to the gate and retrieved the look! Not only that, I also beat the boss without dying, at 7.0/9.0 difficulty no less! Man, the satisfaction of overcoming a hard vidya challenge through grind, strategy and a little bit of luck... there's nothing like it.

>>1955062 That's weird, the file didn't upload even though I put it in, I suppose 8chan doesn't support .bmp, but it's weird it gave me the option anyway.

It's been a bit, might as well type up one of these. >PLAYAN <Deep Rock Galactic Played some with friends. Finished up a stupid mandatory quest chain I got stuck in to unlock those deeper digging quests. Had fun overall. <The Outer Worlds 2 Going through a second playthrough of this game. Something about it keeps bearing down on my mind in an odd way. I can't quite figure out why it feels so strange and was hoping a second run would help me resolve that. Decided to play the most stereotypical GIBSMEDAT character. Playing on very hard this time too, to test the balance on harder difficulties. <Granblue Fantasy VS: Rising A few small matches, some replay discussions with friends to try and understand some peculiar opponent behavior, and some figure mode shenanigans. <Pokemon Legends: Z-A Plan to start this later tonight. Hope it'll be as good as Legends: Arceus was. Really liked that one and consider it one of two redeemable "modern" Pokemon games alongside Super Mystery Dungeon. >WATCHAN No, playan. >LISTENAN See attached vid. >READAN No, playan. >EATAN Spicy chicken nachos. Good stuff >DRINKAN Water and Soda. >FAPPAN No >FEELAN Free. Finally got a cert I've been working toward for a few months. Was close, but passed the test and HOPEFULLY this is enough to get me a decent career in Cybersecurity, at least something entry level when combined with my degree.

>>1954842 Whose ya favorite OL?

>>1883644 >PLAYAN Fallout 4. >WATCHAN Dragon Ball Z Kai >LISTENAN Magdalena Bay >READAN Taking a break from literature. >EATAN Nothing. >DRINKAN Coke. >FAPPAN Not tonight dear, I have a headache. >FEELAN Pic related.

It's saturday but fuck it >PLAYAN KCD2. Enjoying it a lot so far - about to head to the wedding that I assume signifies the end of act 1. >WATCHAN Nothan >LISTENAN The Strokes >READAN Not tonight >EATAN >DRINKAN Just did a big costco run - gonna make some brussel sprouts and maybe chicken for dinner Also got a peppermint cold brew. Rarely get any coffee with sweeteners in it but felt like treating myself today >FEELAN Good - been pretty consistent in running 2-3x a week (only a mile each time but may try increasing that). Hoping to drop 10 or so pounds in the next couple months - may buy a used treadmill sometime as well. >>1954879 >Chainsaw Man the Movie Reze arc, finally. I heard good things about it on half chan so it got me curious about it even more so. I saw it twice in theaters and I loved it - definitely a better adaptation than the anime was. >>1954483 >doing a marathon of old Nostalgia Critic videos I remember first watching NC back in the day on a laptop that got hot as fuck, so I closely correlate those vids with laying on my couch and having a very warm laptop heating me up. Good times >broke wrist How'd that happen? If there's a will there's a way when it comes to jerkin it >>1953620 I've had my weiner fail on me occasionally from being very nervous (though less-so with escorts since I know they're just there for the payment, so I have less nervousness from it) That said, if you're older and been jacking it for a good chunk of your lifetime then your brain probably has trouble realizing it can get satisfaction from other people - seeing the girl twice doesn't necessarily mean that you won't be nervous or that you won't have trouble with those brain pathways. I agree with the other anon that said physical shit feels better when you have an emotional connection though - but shooting a big load due to someone else still isn't a bad time.

>PLAYAN The Binding of Isaac and I Wani Hug That Gator, mostly. Warframe's got an update down the pipes so I'm..not looking forward to grinding it. >WATCHAN Usual weekly animes. >LISTENAN A video essay(?) about the plastic-gen beyblade anime. (refreshing, since Metal Fight gets so much more attention) >READAN Shamefully self-indulgent fiction on AO3 >EATAN Chicken sandwich with sharp cheddar. >DRINKAN Coffee. Gonna make some hibiscus tea once I convince my legs it's worth getting up. >FAPPAN Lolis, mostly aloe from pokemon, for some reason. >FEELAN For the first time in two weeks I've managed to sleep a full night without waking up and hacking up something gross. Feels like I'm finally back up the upswing and just in time for the weather to become absolutely terrible so I can't go outside. Been working on another "Body horror eroticism" type character that's making me realize I do NOT know enough about music to write a character who DJs at raves. I only know about makina by accident.