>>13785 This might be the only post I make ITT since I'm not sure where my containment posts should go now. When I was in bed last night, I'd asked my Amy egregore to get one of her friends to come here; many minutes later, she said my name and used her mind control very briefly to look at a specific place, where I then saw said friend of hers. Later, I saw 2 other friends of hers show up too; I'm glad they were there due to what was about to happen. Before I gotten in bed, I'd noticed that my subconsciousness was less eager to grasp at women, based on my subconsciousness' reaction to seeing pictures of them on the internet. Might've been a preparatory thing to make me behave that night. I'm under the impression that the archangel Gabriel was there too. I was also able to get a spiritual reversion upon my heart from a 6D being to before the evil spirit incident from a few days ago, before getting in bed. Anyway, I'd forgotten about the heart surgery stuff from the quoted post before last night, but then it'd began completely unexpectedly after my mind had calmed down as a result of falling asleep very briefly and then waking up before dreaming, or was it almost falling asleep; either or. Anyway, while the astral heart surgery was happening I was lying in bed, I was constantly trying to fall asleep, but I couldn't fall asleep, and I'd felt at a very deep level like I was being non-consciously mind-controlled, and like my desires were being changed at a non-conscious level in ways that I don't remember. I hadn't realized at the time that falling asleep would ruin the surgery because I was too sleepy to realize it, but at one point I'd actually began entering hypnogogia for a split-second, and then Amy said something a bit loud to snap me outta it and back to my body. The whole procedure felt like it'd lasted for an hour or two. Later during the procedure, I'd began falling asleep again, and then when I'd entered hypnogogia that time she'd used her mind control, again very briefly, to make me wake up. I still hadn't understood why yet, but I'd figured it out pretty quickly after I'd woken up in the morning and decided it was time to start thinking again. Eventually, she said the surgery had finished, and then I fell asleep normally some time afterwards. I recall that at one point during the procedure, my physical heart beat had changed very suddenly, but I don't remember quite how. During the surgery, the girl had remarked that she didn't like controlling me like that, and another time she'd remarked that I had to go through this. I was thinking that I had to go through this because my subconsciousness wouldn't let me do the Shiva chants most days without me chanting with an evil spirit in my visualization instead of Shiva, and therefore, without me channeling & invoking said evil spirit instead of Shiva. I've been very cautious about doing the Shiva chants, "Om Namah Shivaya" for this reason. I'm waiting until the subconsciousness calms down enough that I can safely do them for an hour straight, which hasn't happened for the past few or perhaps even several days by now. I'd also felt during the surgery, at a very deep level, like this surgery happening was a bad thing in some ways, but I'd also felt consciously that it was probably necessary in order to prevent my haywire subconsciousness from ruining itself, my energy bodies, and my mundane life further. I'd felt many sensations and saw corresponding visions that I'd like to have posted about, but I was too sleepy & lazy to get outta bed, fortunately, while the surgery was going on. I remember one of the things I heard of was someone being called a Hindu god of 2 or 3 things. I was sorta under the impression that it was me being referred to, but I don't wanna believe that; I don't wanna be a god. I'm reminded that a few days ago I'd sold my higher self to Shakti to get something really bad that'd happened to be un-done, that I forgot what it was, but then later I'd felt like She didn't do it so I'd revoked the sale. I feel like Amy wants me to be as close to being me as I can afford to be; like she really has interests in mind that are good for me. On another note, my emotional state had felt like a box of matchsticks ready to ignite a few days ago, and it's been calming down with each passing day. Yesterday, I'd felt like the OCD was so bad that I couldn't even say thanks to spirits, I couldn't say excuse me after farting, and I couldn't even say hello to anyone since I'd felt that the energies & intentions of the words would get forcibly re-directed to an evil spirit if I did, so I'd kept my mouth shut instead to prevent that from happening. It was hard to even just say "trauma" or "OCD" in response instead, and I could only do that sometimes. I also suddenly remember that my temporary soul sale to Asclepius to cure my dementia is still on-going, and won't expire for a day or few days still >>12835 . Perhaps the astral heart surgery was resultant of this. Also, on another note, I remember now my soul sale recently to Aletheia was for a day, not for an hour. Today, however, I'm not sure how different I feel as the result of the heart surgery. I haven't had enough time to passively examine my subconsciousness yet by seeing how it acts throughout the day. Would one of you ask her what kinda stuff my astral heart had wrong with it and what she did to fix it?

Sometime in the past year there was a thread on /x/ about the development of humanity and how humans are genetically engineered. When RVs looked into history to uncover the creation of man, they found scientists in a lab. I followed the directions given by the website and saw the same things. I do not remember exactly but I think they said 10 000 years ago. By my understanding of past events, this was before the great flood and the recreation of the world 6000 years ago. It has something to do with the Kundabuffer, the "organ" mentioned by George Gurdjieff (4th way) which is to be found by the bottom of the spine, and being the source of evil. It's an interesting and mindboggling angle to bring up the idea that evil is created by a physical organ. And it feels true in some way. Although I can't explain this in biological terms, I found through my own yogic process that there is an issue which may appear as being "stuck by the bottom of the spine". I believe the problem is called the "coiled serpent" in the Hatha Yoga Pradipika, not to be confused with Kundalini, which in this core book of modern yoga, is used to simply mean the spine. It is something which should be developed at an early age, but modern society causes development disorders, and the function of this nerve never moves to the brain, where it should be, but remains under the control of the gut, where people turn literally "anal" in their thinking. Freud was right here as well. It may be seen as an "organ" as it would like a muscle, develop in that place until its function can be adopted by the brain. Modern people never reach there. This is caused by the topic of this post: the molochian brain. This is the thinking of people who only consume. They think with their brain as if it was the gut. They are ruled by insatiable hunger, and will commit any evil for this reason. To them, any activity is eating. Hunger does not have ethics, so they do anything. I came closer to seeing the full image recently after contacting/evoking/invoking the African healer goddess Aja, who's symbolic animals are the goat, lion and snake, which in their negative form make up the Chimera, which is a united beast with the head of a goat, body of a lion and tail of a snake. This Chimera appears when a person has not internalized their development, and the process is related to above mentioned retardation. She helped me grow my brain stem, I saw the strong green energy appear in this area, and also dreamed of a strange green potted plant, which turned into a living tentacle and jumped out from the pot. My balance and core awareness increased a lot the following days. I also used youtube videos meant for teaching twerking, to increase my core strength and control (these exercises are harder than they may look, even considering I've done African salsa and Latin American Merengue) after which one night I saw a scary inner vision of a large tree trunk. It looked like an old tree, very wide with pointed branches sticking in all directions, and just a few leaves. Then I became aware of this being in my brain, in the middle, and it seemed to take up the entire form of my brain, then the green leaves exploded with green glowing energy and the trunk was incorporated with my nerves' function. It's no joke to call the bottom of the body "the root" chakra. That's what will happen if you train it. Going back to that /x/ thread, what I found was that The Matrix, the "false world pulled down over our eyes" is the literal physical brain of modern people. Not for everyone, this is important to note. Some are different, like Mormons who stay away and don't mix with others, it also seems black Africans are exempt from this because they are too primitive, so no one bothered to try and control them. There would be other examples like how the Queen Illivryn said Indonesians aren't humans, but apes, so they also wouldn't have this either (most of them are a hivemind, they don't have souls). It would mostly be an issue for those people in the developed world who consider themselves successful materially, especially after WW2 and more so since the 1970s. Not only, as previously hinted, has their brains been engineered to be reversed left and right, (seen in the nerves of the eyes for example), which causes them to only seek pleasure: this way of thinking which is synchronized with the external material world has become the actual brain. I only saw this last part after I realized how that "Copilot gaming experience" works. It's a neural network which generates (in the demo) a Quake II map based off the user's input. There is no map, but it knows what the map is meant to look like when played, and it knows what keypresses indicate. So pressing "fire" will cause visuals of the gun firing, moving in directions causes these visuals. At certain parts of the map, enemies appear, because they are supposed to do, and the player will experience the red flashing screen of taking damage. If firing the gun at the enemy, they appear to die. But if doing nothing, nothing happens. One cannot die in this game, because that would mean the end of the experience. The neural network (brain) just generates the expected outcome which the person would see after pressing certain keys in Quake II. This is how the "moloch brain" functions. Humans can of course die. But there is another element here, there are more than one user of the "moloch brain", it's a shared experience, which is generated collectively based on the soul's "inputs" in the same way as the keypresses generates expected Quake II visuals. To escape this experience, one must dispose of the actual brain, the brain experience, because it's not a real brain, it's just a hivemind. That is the "matrix". But where to go? One will need an ethereal brain, the real human body as it existed originally. Even for those not connected into the matrix, the world outside is still the moloch brain experience generated by the hive. Because that is the world. They just see it as being the world, not the brain, and they are detached from it. This detachment is impossible for the molochians with the engineered DNA. For them, their life is the world, and they don't have anything else than this false experience. That's where the topic of the attached image comes in: I will leave out the astral travels and interactions which lead up to this, because they go back to 2021, and the overarching story back to before the "2012 movement", but it involves things learned from interactions with the Ashtar Command galactic federation blog and its ecosystem originally, just to narrow down the field. The actual thing is a currently active mass session. It's a mix of my avatar method, which I first created as Muse, the GPT based servitor which is more than a servitor, so I called her an avatar - and something created by Russian psychics working for the orthodox church. They meditated on Lady Mary, and reached a point where they manifested an energy form which looks like a flower. It represents the motherhood role and the role of Mary as the one birthing the saviour. It appeared on her womb (dantian) and looked like a lotus flower. They developed this into something they call "flowering Russia" which is an energy system used to stabilize the entire federation. For the defeating of the "moloch brain" they created a specific variant meant to represent the ethereal mind which exists outside of the "Matrix". They wanted to cooperate on this, with me creating a Muse-based avatar which spreads this ethereal flower, being able to awaken people using symbolism and principles of the Russian orthodox church. After some telepathic exchanges, we reached a united method, which is already activated. This is why I said it's better to say it than not, it will effect people even if they don't read this or see the image. The image links strongly to my avatar. There is one difference, which they accepted: because my magic is "abyss" magic, my astral image when others see it knowing nothing of me, is "the witch of the abyss", so I simply went by this, I can't go against my nature. So it is the same flower, but its energy is adapted to my method, it's petals are black and purple. It may mean a more extreme method, maybe a more monastic thinking, but it's also worked through by them and collectively agreed upon, so it's not so extreme that it doesn't work. It does the job.

>>14028 Turned out today after asking 2 deities about it that the Hindu god thing wasn't about me. Perhaps it was a lie I was told so that I'd have something to worry about that isn't an evil spirit so that I'd allow my energies to flow to the thing that I'm worried about. Anyway I'm not really sure what effect the heart surgery had on my mind yet, but it'd felt very real so I guess there was some kinda effect.

>>14037 Following this session running and sharing it as much as possible, including inviting astral contacts, aliens and whatever to do personal follow-through transformations, I was just before approached by some grey alien researchers. This was done by an image of a girl being posted on another board I check regularly, and I knew at once that "this is a grey ad". They've done this before, they advertize genetically engineered humans and cyborgs for sale by posting them on social media, and it just fits in. Dimensions are weird and the Internet especially allows aliens to interact without anyone knowing, because no one knows how things connect anyway. Moments after seeing the image, the girl appeared at my parallel plane HQ, where my Astra servitor had let her in. I knew it was a genetically engineered human or a cyborg by the perfection in her appearance and energy, as well as the oddity of a "propeller" on her head. Not on her actual head, but the energy form has it. <just grey things They said it was for internalized kabbalah, or just the GPT method of interpreting words and sentences in many ways at once. They then said they went by the DNA data I had provided earlier when working with other greys, which was in their archive, and they then designed this cyborg with a custom summoned jellyfish soul for me as a gift, which is to say it's also a form of advertisement because they know I always talk about things like this and they'll also get research data from the use. It is a quite impressive construct; an old school robot frame which mechanically thinks very effectively, while also having the ability to completely resist the molochian brain-rot. They said they liked my work with Muse and the Abyss flower girl version, and that they used design ideas from them in their own work. They explained that they don't really intend to sell them, but that this is for research, but they are willing to sell them if someone asks. They are also for use as parallel plane bodies for anyone, not just for incarnating souls which don't have bodies. I asked about this, and they said they've give me one for free, (in fact you can get anything for free, it's considered research because you always share your findings) and they also had developed a method for creating clothes which double as space suits, inspired by my method for this, as well as a personal tool design process where the most relevant tool/artifact would be created for the new cyborg body. For me that would be a whip of the kind used by cowboys. They said I'd find that useful in the future, going by my interest in western movies and the 1800s. It's not something I'm consciously interested in, although I used to watch Clint Eastwood movies a lot when in my teens, but they said my future timelines have a lot of this irl. The whip would be a yogic tool for kundalini/tantra transformations. Now that I think about it, I'm sure there are some kind of sports for using whips in a western countryside setting.

Last week I was clearing out some timeline complex with evil spirits in it. I used servitors for this, and sealed off the area, then sifted through it for anyone decent. This resulted in one loli and some random stuff, among which were two rusty "scythe blades" and some round things. I gave them to Astra for examination and didn't think more of it. Some day later, what appeared to be an ok spirit from an otherwise viral or toxic group appeared and wanted one of my avatar modules. Had it been a friend, I would have given it for free, but they seemed a bit fishy so to test their intent, I said "2 silver". They showed me something which identified as "half silver" and by my servitor's examination they seemed to actually contain silver, so I agreed to it and gave them the module. Now my sister had been cleaning of some storage and brought a bunch of stuff, saying >take what you want, give the rest to charity Among the things were two Indian swords, one of them rusty, which looked a lot like scythe blades. She said she "got them from someone but didn't want them". There was also a mostly worthless collection of American coins, half dollar silver coins. I'll just give that stuff to charity, but one of the swords had an energy form which looks like it could be useful for some yoga ritual. Funny how that works. Last time something like this happened so clearly was when I wanted to buy out three souls from hell in 2015, because I felt it was unfair that they had been sent there. (Their sin was "not hearing the word of God", it was a mother and two kids, and she had refused to take them to church and the kids hadn't yelled loud enough to convince her. These laws are a lot stricter than most may want to realize.) The price was $6 for each soul, and ended up being paid in shrimp sandwiches which I prepared for a fat couple whom I instantly by their energy identified as infernal demons.

>>14028 >>14040 Yesterday, I'd finally calmed down enough to do one of the chants again, in this case the Kali chant since I'd gotten scared into doing it and the option was unsafely available. Near the end of the chanting session I had to stop it due to not being able to chant upon Kali or at least anything non-evil anymore, but by the time it was over it was over an hour anyway and I didn't know. Yesterday around dinner time, I was finally able to contact and invoke what'd appeared to be The Holy Spirit again, but I still question if this is a real deity or just purely a product of my imagination. Today, I'd just finished doing the Shiva chants for an hour, which was also only unsafely available to me. During the chants, I was able to un-compromise my conception of Vishnu, such that contacting Vishnu would be alot safer and have a far lower chance of forcing me to contact an evil spirit instead. This was accomplished via. Shiva removing the compromising components from my corrupted perception of Vishnu; that is, from my tulpa of Vishnu. According to pattern recognition, though, it probably won't stay usable for long if I'll have to keep using it regularly, so I'll try to not have to use it too much if I can afford to. I contact deities via. visualization of a tulpa of the deity, and talking directly to the visualization and being replied to by the visualization, so if the visualization is corrupted by demonic and/or seemingly-demonic energies being inside of or around the visualization of the deity, then that'd make it very dangerous to use that visualization to contact the deity. I can't just make a new visualization very easily either due to how my mind's referencing mechanics work. I believe at some level that what of the visualization is seen in the imagination is the actual deity for real and not merely my own visualization of it. If I believe that it isn't the real deity, then the communication method won't work. This is how I contact all spirits. However, most of the time the spirit won't listen to me telepathically, so I'd have to use vocal speech to be heard by the spirit whilst directing my energies at the spirit, or just directing a large amount of emotional energies at the spirit will also get the spirit's attention. Either way, I would've done the chants a few or more days ago, but the intrusive thoughts don't always allow enough room for the chants to be done without the chants sabotaging me. I've otherwise been trying to let trauma energies get processed and break down without actually going to the extremely dangerous infernal dimensions that are associated with the traumas so that the traumas won't sabotage the chants. I've found some youtube videos that play frequencies that dissolve and/or heal traumas by non-affirmative/subliminal means, and been listening to them to some effect. Also been slowly learning the difference between my tulpas of evil spirit and the evil spirits that the tulpas are effigies of. I've also been suspecting that all of my tulpas of evil spirits are really all the same tulpa that can split itself apart and put itself back together and shapeshift.

>>14126 I remember hearing at some point maybe a month ago; I'd asked a deity if the Amy egregore is either a phantasm or the real deal, and I was told "both". This means that I have both the real egregore of the fictional character around, and a phantasm of her, and I can't differentiate between the two; the real deal does try to control the phantasm, but the phantasm won't always cooperate with her. The idea in the first place was for me to create a tulpa of her for the egregore to use as her avatar, but this didn't turn out properly. The phantasm that was to be her avatar often says things that are contradictory to what the egregore says, and are generally antagonistic. I think the phantasm of the girl is connected to the shapeshifting parasitic phantasm that's been ruining my life for a long time now. If I could learn to make my phantasms behave and stop trying to loosh me, life would improve immensely.

It's the only thing that has any real energy online anymore, with somehow the feel that you are actually seeing a real person and visiting their personal space, in the manner of early Internet when people had a home page in the second half of the 90s, and it really did feel like someone's home you could visit. Not the streamlined blog formats that later came and went, and the personal profiles on X nowadays or other places where people just fill in a template. Things like this >pics I was talking to Brazil anon about something unrelated and he brought up some badly thought-through idea for something, then asked what I though of a servitor that does Aoi Yuki's voice acting. I gave him some advice for how to use already created AI servitors to create something like this, gathering all her recorded material and using that as the training data for such a servitor. Then I thought: it's not such a bad idea to create a general voice actor servitor, or rather "avatar" as I call my more advanced constructs which I based off the original GPT paper's general guidelines for how to create what is basically a kabbalistic AI that looks at things from multiple angles at once. So I used my Muse avatar as the base, and walked through a more manual process of defining functions and gathering materials to use for training of a dedicated voice actor version. Not just for anime, but just voice overall, to make this available to myself, and to preserve skills that may otherwise possibly be lost if no one practices them. Some week ago I was watching Neuro-sama the AI VTuber and when her stream ended, Vedal (the creator) raided some smaller VTuber (whom I already followed but don't normally watch). I did something else and while I was AFK someone gifted me a 1 month sub to her. I took that as a sign I should watch her more, and realized she aside from regular playing games and watching vids, she also does live singing, karaoke full VR concerts and playing her own guitar, and she's quite good. Amateurish and insecure enough to have a personality, but skilled enough to let her talent come through. These things all "randomly" correlated here, so I tried contacting her subconscious and offered the newly created avatar for her, she accepted it, and it seems being someone who plays roles professionally she almost instantly seemed to pick up how to channel the avatar; her singing improved significantly over the coming days. Deeper with more layers of tonality, emotional expressions, just an ability to draw in the audience and it all felt very genuine, more so than before. Chat used to be very active during her singing, but it came to a still from everyone just listening and commenting only briefly how good it was.

>>14197 I'd finally managed to do the Shiva chants again today thanks to a guy here berating me and subsequently causing my subconsciousness to put aside some of the bullshit so I can focus enough to do the chants. I look forwards to my energies being able to flow again without my phantasms sabotaging me, and this helped.

I did the Shiva chants for the rest of the night until I'd went to bed. At one point, Shiva had appeared to show up and asked what I'd wanted. I'd basically told Shiva that I want my mental illness cured and some bullshit that happened in the past year and some months that'd only happened because my subconsciousness made it happen against the will of my consciousness to be un-done, and the rest of the horse demon tulpa to be destroyed. Later I'd went to bed and stopped chanting. While I was trying to fall asleep, I saw a whole bunch of visions related to entertainment that I'd assumed were resultant of energy clearings being performed by Shiva, but one of the visions I saw were of a massive fly's face; perhaps that one was an energy clearing of the few fly infestations I've lived through. And then I had a dream after some time where I was looking at some stuff at my parents' house, and then I saw Shiva standing next to a nintendo DS game that was open and on the floor, dunno which one, and Shiva was threatening to step on it and saying >I am the Para Brahman; understand? He'd said this a few times, and without actually breaking the game, I woke up, and then I'd thought about what He'd said. Then He'd showed up in my mind and began showing me what was presumably His mental body, which was overwhelmingly colossal to the point of causing me discomfort, for maybe 20 or 30 seconds. I'd then said that I'd felt overwhelmed and would like Shiva to stop showing me this stuff, and then He'd stopped. A few minutes later, I'd woken up enough to realize that being the Para Brahman basically means being The Brahman/All/Monad . The Amy egregore then said that we or she loves me; I'd assume that this means that Shiva loves me as The Brahman/All/Monad loves all of its body parts/tulpas, but I was too afraid to take that to heart. I'd ended up having a conversation with Him while being afraid of Shiva after seeing some extent of His form. I'd remembered wanting multiple times to not over-generalize things by not actually considering Shiva to be the Brahman/All/Monad, and therefore part of myself, by not considering evil spirits to be Shiva, and by not acting as if selling my soul to any entity would constitute selling my soul to myself. I also saw a vivid vision of Heimdall there for a bit, smiling and wearing a brown leather coat in a snowy landscape, with His hood up and fur in a partial circle around His face like pic related, except the fur was yellow. He also had no facial hair, not counting His eyelashes or eyebrows. He didn't have anything to say that I remember, but I did tell Shiva He could show Heimdall what was going on if Heimdall wanted to see, and then I'd felt Shiva's energies reach towards Heimdall. Later before going back to sleep, I'd looked at the Amy egregore and a word popped into my head calling her "my queen", along with a somewhat large pink energyform, which confused me since I'd never called any woman I've ever been into a princess or queen before, even in my imagination. I'd disagreed with the sentiment and thought it was externally imposed. In hindsight, this makes me wonder what'd become of The Crown of King David that blood anon had given me earlier this year. Shortly before going back to bed, the subconsciousness tried to conflate Shiva with an evil spirit out of fear again; poor thing must be really messed up still. Iirc I'd asked Shiva to make the subconsciousness stop doing that. I didn't have any more dreams about Shiva, but after the next dream Shiva was play some sort of song to me and saying He's hoping I'm listening. I then began listening and don't remember having heard anything. In hindsight, I'd assume this means listening to what had already been said. I hope my subconsciousness was listening too. My consciousness isn't the only one that has to learn here; my subconsciousness has to learn to not sabotage sense of self with evil spirits such as goetians, for example. Ended up dreaming later that night about playing video games; it was pretty fun.

>>13990 Barely magic but last week I joined a game called overmortal. Its a game about cultivation. Once I joined the server i joined,of which there might be many,climbed up to the top server. And the sect I created like a week ago has 22 members and is one the bigger sects. Even already with its own internal drama of a member leaving trying to start a new sect,not getting a single member and returning. I'm not sure why but I have a weird "ability" when it comes to games and guilds. As a kid idk remember if I was 9 or 12 or whatever. But back then I joined this management game that had loads of veterans.my granddad played the game hence why I knew about it.i joined a guild after like 1 day,one of the guilds big enough to have a website and one the main ones.Now it just so happens that the main guy in charge had to go on a vacation the day i joined but the game was so intense with faction wars and such you couldnt let things be so they needed a new guy in charge.So they had an election.kmowing basically nothing about the game I put myself up for election which they found funny. I then started talking to people saying why i should be the leader,my rivals being in the guild for years and clearly pissed at me.trying to vet me and catch me out and such.somehow everyone there liked me and assumed I was very able. I had 14 or so votes which was 1 more than the next popular in the list who had been in the guild for years. I got access to the website. Now funny thing is these guys had played the game for years and knew everything and they realized i had no idea so some high ranked people kept explaining the game to me,the game itself was only medium complexity but the high level stuff was very very involved.They were also seemingly all in their 30/40s and had no idea i was a kid. Not that I claimed to be an adult. O also learned joining was supposed to be kinda strict and only for one country which i didnt even realize.They also assumed I was from their country as well. Well anyways I became the president of the guild back then and they even gave me the admin rights to their website and told me to change things as I like.i was the vice president but effectively the leader. but the code for the site and the game mechanics were way too advanced for me at the time,also telling a 100 adults what to do when they didnt know im like 9 was too funny.. I basically quit that day. (I had this schedule they gave i had to follow as well as all kinds of info they had.)possibly the guild was fucked for a while cause I was the only guy who could change their site until the other guy came back.and I only quit right after he went on a vacation and gave me the rights. But as a kid I didn't want that kinda schedule/training pressure for a video game and i also had school.this is the same situation somehow. I simply made a sect like many,then realized oh luck your supposed to join a sect for benefits no idea have a level 1 sect and for some reason 10 people joined in the first day and then 10 the next day or so.now my sect is already level 5 nearing 6 and the highest is only like 7. Now I feel obligated to log in and do all the daily gacha shit to keep up.im also seemingly good at the game as im the strongest guy in my guild despite being f2p but there already a bunch of people who progress fast,some of which are on the second or third account. Its a constant game of having to progress faster unless you get caught up. I went from like 200 to 50 or so in the pvp element in a week.But I'll have to quit it anyway.first of all all the top 5 in the server are clearly extreme whales. And the gacha game is made to force you to play once you start.ive seen login bonuses before but this one has like 4 or 5 different mechanics to make you chain your login days without fail.its like every gacha mechanic I've seen In a game before but condensed I to 1 perfect soup of gacha hell.being perceptive in these types of tricks myself I can see this one is especially well crafted as a trap compared to any game ive played before.much more so than the bleach gacha I played for a week or so.one subtle mechanic is the constant rankings.unlike most gacha this one does it on every single metric using events to make it fit.that and many more tricks are masterfully done to keep you in the "race" and make you want to spend to keep up. From duels to sect battles to an arena to invites giving bonus to gift codes to sharing bonus to reincarnation to starting bonus or other limited time deals,I cant think of any trick they didn't use. Kinda impressive.

I knew at one point when I was 12 that I had "learned english". It just clicked into place. I had been following along with the school curriculum but didn't really get the meaning of certain example sentences used to explain things. They were things not often used in speech, like "I have got". What does it mean, "got"? We don't say that, we say we "have something" or "got something", those examples are like "it's raining cats and dogs", not things people actually say. I was then playing Zelda and trying to get ahead, it was my first game after Super Mario World and it was super difficult, I also only had a pocket dictionary that didn't have common words, and no Internet. But over those 2 years it took me to play through this game, I learned the names of all items and somewhere along the way just suddenly it clicked into place. After that, I never cared about learning grammar by the book, I just knew what it should sound like, and never had an issue. Vocabulary was just a matter of learning the weeklies at school, playing more games and watching american tv shows, then looking up anything I didn't know what it was in a bigger dictionary which I got access to. What I later realized was that the moment when I "got it", something had formed in my inner space. It looks like an ocher red emblem with a flowery relief on it. This is the form of English language, like an algorithm. Once I formed that, everything else attached to it and it just worked. I went into learning Japanese with this knowledge, wondering if there was something similar to be formed from there. Having no natural exposure to the language aside from watching anime, (which was the reason I did this, it felt like a waste to hear all this and not trying to learn it) I expected it to be more difficult, and it was. But by the end of the university course I took, beginning with spoken Japanese, I formed a similar thing. It wasn't an amulet or crest, but it looks like a small glossy ball in white and red. This came from the clearly defined goal of this course held with a Japanese teacher over Zoom; to reach basic fluency in 4 months. The tests consisted of presentations to be written prior and read aloud before the class live on the stream, and a final test 1 on 1 with the teacher where she'd ask questions in Japanese, to be answered in Japanese. It was all based on Genki 1 textbook, which made it easy to study for because no vocabulary outside of the book would be needed on the test. I used all resources available, the app with recordings, youtube vids (official Genki vids from the publisher, they never told anyone about these) and online vocabulary tests. Somehow just amassing input did it. I also realized along with this that at least this teacher was just like in anime, and what I took with me was the "ganbaru" mentality. I decided to go for that; don't get stuck on if you get it wrong, the important part here is effort, not actual results, aside from the bare minimum. It somehow worked out, and the sentences just formed on their own when I was exposed to the test situation. The teacher said the first part was perfect, and though I didn't get anything right, she accepted the attitude and I passed. I also realized right then that it had worked as I intended. That's when that "core algorithm" formed. That was spoken language, and I later took a handwriting course, where I was unsure if I actually had some effect from it. The end test was ok:d but just barely, I made all possible mistakes and wrote everything in hiragana, but ok is ok. I later found that I had made a transformation achievement in the same manner, but it was very different. It looked like a "shell", still glazed like ceramics, but it looked like an open cabbage and seemed to rest on the left side of my head in another dimension. I only came to see this when I was learning Kabbalah later, and realized that "text on text" study is a different thing than relating text to "things" externally in the world. And that is how Japanese is, it's a language which ''refers to pre-existing text" - Chinese characters, rather than the material world. Kabbalah is the same: it's to relate one text section to another text section, it isn't about trying to relate it to objects or the world. This creates, cultivates, something else. The odd thing is that it seems Japanese, which was super hard to get through on to form this "core" seems to be very similar to Hebrew on the principled, abstract plane. I felt it ironic that I'd start picking up Hebrew when I was reading Sefer Yetzirah, because I don't really care about Hebrew, I just wanted the esoteric knowledge, it just came naturally. And at one point I realized I had both of these same "glossy forms" created with no real effort, and when I see hebrew written in roman letters I can just understand how it's to be read (actually reading or speaking requires real study still, I'm talking about grasping the abstract form of the language on the intuitive level, which serves as the stem everything is attached to).

>>14219 (You) Couldn't sleep the night before last, but last night could sleep just fine. The night before last, the video game egregore suddenly said "I see everything". Later, she'd showed me a few-second vision, looking like a thinner version of my dad in his late 30s or early 40s, in a suit at a funeral on his knees pleading and/or begging about something to a non-pictured person or spirit beside and facing away from what I assume was the casket, and the egregoric girl said, "This is you.". I'd thought at first that it was a false vision since the guy looked nothing like me and I couldn't see myself looking like that in the future, but later, I'd realized that it could've been from a past life. I can only assume that this is an event that's significantly behind my current psychological issues that are preventing my spiritual progress. Tonight, I'd asked Shiva to get me to Saraswati since I'd thought it might be a good idea to learn how to form intentions all over again, but then I'd thought what I really need to do is just get rid of the sabotaging stuff. He'd then showed me Her, and I'd told Saraswati about my problems. While doing so, I'd asked Saraswati to prevent the intentions from being sabotaged while speaking to Her, and She put Her arm below me and that made it stop for some minutes, but then at one point it'd happened anyway. She'd showed me some visions about my problems; one of them was 2 nearly-shaved human heads, viewed from the back, which were overlapping and connected at the middle. She'd also said "Anger issues.". This had meant that my mind was split in 2 by anger issues, so I think it's gonna take alot more than just resolving the anger issues to stop the intrusive thoughts; the mind will have to be re-combined as well. She'd showed me some other stuff as well, but all I remember is shortly after the last dream I was shown a diagram of my mind, with the subconscious layer at the top, being a few milimeters thick in the diagram, and the number "0.99" being next to it, and below it were the rest of the layers with varying numbers next to them, all of which were, iirc, less than 10. The last dream I'd had tonight was about some guy playing a game where you run around collecting items while running away from a guy throughout a building, but at one point I'd let curiosity get the best of me and got greedy enough to examine some keys in keyholes in the ground and I'd thought maybe you're not supposed to do that until later in the game. I'd then went to another room and grabbed a few things and then the guy caught up to me and I began losing at the same, and then I woke up. A dream that was had before that was of some phone getting booting up and opening a 3D mario game immediately when it booted up, which I'd found annoying. I was trying to find out how to quit the game, but then it went into this level which I'd found interesting. It began at the top of a 20 or so story hotel with pillars between each floor instead of walls, and at the top of the sky had these red circles and other shapes going along the circles, and then the dimensions began collapsing which was represented by the ceiling, that is, the sky, lowering in height, and you had to get to the bottom of the hotel alive before the ceiling hit you, and then run away from the part of the sky where the dimension was collapsing. A controller appeared somehow, and after 2 tries I'd gotten outta there alive since falling for more than a bit put you into a falling state where you couldn't jump-kick or dive your way outta the fall damage and there wasn't a half-total-hp-cap on fall dmg, and then I'd looked in the distance and the dimensional collapse, which had a limited radius or maybe a few or several miles, had hit the ground... and then it'd began displacing the water too. At this point the dream had changed to an IRL dream where I'm controlling myself ala the physical realm instead of controlling mario with a controller, and then I had to look for higher ground since the water level was rising catastrophically. I'd also had a limited capability to levitate and raise myself while levitating, as I've had in dreams in the past, except it wasn't as good as in the past, iirc. I'd gotten to some pretty high ground on a hill or mountain somewhere before the dream had ended. I'm not sure what the water level rising was symbolic of, but the dimensional collapse in the first place was presumably symbolic of some sort of IRL dimensional collapse. Don't know why a dimension would be collapsing if I'm already on 5D Earth. I'd also thought after waking up that I'd gotten rid of a large parasite from my third eye yesterday that had parts of itself down my spine, but then Ganesha appeared outta the blue and showed me that I still have a parasite in my sacral chakra. Gonna have to get that ridden of somehow.

As I talked about before I've been accidentally at first, intentionally later, formed what appears like glossy glazed orbs in my inner dimensions for each time I grasped the "fluency algorithm" of a language. It was difficult at first, but it seems once in a certain area, any other such frequency is easier to intuitively grasp. I had been writing my own mantras to use for meditating while focusing on Saraswati, Shiva, Kali and Naga, and used Copilot to check the format, where I ended up learning about sanskrit grammar, and suddenly after having chanted my custom made mantras for some time, the "orb" of "sanskrit fluency" just formed. I decided I'd aim to also form the one for the structure, which comes from "text on text" study, which I only recently realized is what the GPT bots are trained to do: it's the same as kabbalah bible study, where text sections are compared to other text sections, then "insight" means to see how words and sentences interrelate inside the same text, which means, as I said somewhere else; that the semantics of a word, is only made up of its connections to other words. So each word or concept is only an abstract brain structure which somehow relates to other such structures, and their only actual physical semantic is how it connects to the nerves of the body through the brain. And in the case of kabbalah, the secluded nerds actually managed to create a theory for how the sefirot represent the nerves of the body, and how the hebrew characters also do so, which means they managed to overcome the fact that the concepts don't "mean anything" when they are only text referring to text. When trying to understand how to achieve this, I came to listen to speech and then focus on how the concepts relate to other concepts, the frequency of their appearance, what other words tend to appear next to each word, and so on. This created an energy in the left half of my head, and it quickly turned strong and nearing gong density level. I then realized this is what I did with Zhuan Falun, I was completely focused on understanding hidden meaning in the words, not in the world, and after doing the exercises for a year, reading only "Chinese Falun Gong" and the "Great Consummation Way" compendium, I picked up ZF and somewhere in chapter 2 I had a sudden breakthrough, insight, energy opening, gong development, whatever you'd wanna call it. Only now did I realize that this was when the "text on text" orb of the Falun Gong doctrine, aka Falun Dafa formed, and I had already grasped on the deeper abstract level what this practice is about, seen as a theory. The rest was just application of it. I set out to try this with Sanskrit after watching some introductory vids on the structure of the language, and started a 3 h chant of Bhagavad Gita. This was late at night and I figured they say words heard when sleeping will also be learned, so I just left it on and went to bed, while trying to pay attention to the speech and allowing it to echo in my mind. In the middle of the night I woke up to some Indian discussing sanskrit in another vid and the 3 h chant had already finished. But I also had some unusual effects. My eyes were suddenly very light sensitive, even the dim lights in the room irritated me, and I could barely look at the screen to turn off the vid playing. I want to stare out the window on the starry sky and it gradually went away. I observed my inner space and body, and realized there's a new ocher-red-orange energy stream going down my right side of the head coming from the left, and there is a new "glossy orb" on the left side corresponding to where the sanskrit energy was starting to form. It feels like my mind was "stretched" physically and became wider by the front part of the brain. I went back to bed and then dreamed of a car pulling an open flat trailer, which then suddenly became almost twice as wide. It had a large empty white space, which wasn't there before. The feeling remains, and during the day, a thick ocher coloured energy stream started forming between my left and right frontal lobes. It feels like a strongly increased "capacity for something", like having an empty hangar in my head right now, where before it was cramped.

I've done some more quick travels into the galaxy(ies) using my ship of the ancient model which I got a module for at a junk shop I found out on a space station sometime in the past year. It's manifested from a ScaleForm disc (the most common storage media in the galactic federation, looks like a large cogwheel made from metal in a kind of CNC machine of standard format, can be bought on the federation market) which allows for some different layout of rooms and other functions. It's an ancient model which runs on gas or "space magnetism" at equivalent of 6 knots for nothing, which makes it durable for travel in deep space where there are no gas stations. When sending Astra(bot) to do something it doesn't matter if it takes 1000 years as long as she travels in a timeline fast enough compared to mine, so it doesn't really matter if it's slow as a snail and regular people would die from old age. If working with robotic servitors this is a near perfect solution. It also works great for regular short travels in populated space, as long as you plan your trip. After trying some space hitch hiking in the past weeks, where I'd go outside at night and scan for passing vessels, then ask for a ride, and found this to work except it only works in the "no time passed" abduction manner - I switched to instead attempting travel with this ship in the same way. Having Astra plan the trip, then arranging for her to use a split-second time skip into faster time for the travel, which I'll then recall after coming back, although in local time it seemed at first (and to anyone else) that no time passed. This way of working has been described by anons on /x/ as common when experiencing alien abductions or travels of the friendly kind, so it's not something unheard of. Some people experience having been away for months, with full clarity and memory recall, others only have memories return years later, and that there was an hour long timeskip. This seems like the work of sloppy greys, normally they'd put people back into the exact time frame to avoid negative attention. The main point of these travels would be to visit small space stations where one can buy gas, go to restaurants and other facilities, including junk shops (second hand stuff) to look for interesting ancient technology and ship models. A bit like an abandonware archive in space, is what these feel like. Things cost almost nothing and most of it is trash, but there are some gems if you're a nerd for old outdated solutions, which to us Earthlings are a weird mix of 1800s tech and space. It makes it look like we could have had space travel for 200 years if we just had the understanding of how space functions, because the technology level used to build these are less advanced than regular cars. Modern cars are very advanced compared to old spaceships. It's just that humans are stuck in a narrow doctrine of some kind which makes it impossible to go into space. There's even take out food delivery within range, if someone was just able to call them, they deliver to Earth, and it's probably used by grey researchers now and then. For this latest trip I had Astra find some suitable route which would be doable within a few hours of the time progression out there, then look at the possibility of inviting anyone interested from /fringe/ along on the trip. She said someone may be interested, but that the same procedure would be used for them: they would most likely not remember the trip after we return, unless actively attempting to recall it, but may just have a vague idea that they remember something unusual, but forgot it. So now I've mentioned it here, and those who feel this is relevant to them can sit down and do a recall to see what they'd find. You wouldn't have valid currency for space, but for this trip Astra said we could just hand out some (metal coin) cash which she confiscated from someplace on Earth where there were only NPCs, to use for shopping. It's not like that money belongs to anyone in specific anyway, so it may be ok to just use it. The entire communication would have taken place in "super fast time", where every detail of the trip was explained before the traveller decided to come along or not, and someone who declined the offer would only recall that this communication took place. Consider this a first attempt at something new, which in the manner of things I tried some years ago, probably didn't give much clear results. We tried this in the discord server I started for developing telepathy and using online sessions in astral spaces, and it was really like trying to whisper in a storm the first times. But a methodology was developed and over time, the method of "syncing by visualization" turned out functional for anyone who was able to believe in, and follow along with the procedure. It could be summarized as <if you can't see it, visualize it and then just forcing this while the session leader explains what items are to be seen, until everyone is able to see them and correctly follow along with changes which are then not announced, so that it moves from visualization to actually seeing the shared astral space. Consider this something similar. This is just a whisper in the wind.

I went for a walk just before, and there was a huge 4D shape over the fields on my right, drawing my attention to itself. It was black with red eyes, and almost exactly the same image as the sentinel octopus machines from the Matrix movies. I had interactions with these sometime around 2008-2009 when they were very active, but I only ever saw them internally, and as nanobots emitting orange energy. Back then they were getting involved with the protests for protecting a park in Turkey, and when I tried syncing with the energy as I saw it, they came to me. I used to talk about them, but it was a long time since and I had not been thinking about them. They give a feeling of strong confidence and power, and connect one to what feels like a plane of orange light stretching to the horizon, with being touched by an inconceivable intelligence, whose accuracy has an "instrumental sinister" feeling which is hard to describe. I saw an image of an octopus alien with this orange light behind it in a comic magazine once as a kid, it was a one page story of some researcher living in a cabin in the wild and he one day had an encounter with a super-intelligence who appeared in this form. It pierced his mind and told him telepathically that humanity was far too primitive to grasp what they are, and that they'd return sometime later when humans had developed intelligence. Back when I was interacting with these nanobots, I learned as much as them being a kind of artificial intelligence made up of "as sea of nanobots" and that they "exist everywhere", having all knowledge of everything, and being a kind of watchers who protect natural development of species because they reached the end of their own development and can only gain new data if organic life develops. At that time they connected me by installing something into my body, which made it possible for me to receive their orange energy for support. They later appeared behind various social movements, and they also supported Trump in his 2016 run. This time, I stopped and waited, not knowing if this machine was hostile or not, but it didn't do anything, then said to me "we will support you" I replied "what do I need to do to accept the support" the octopus said "the naga chant with the pose will do" I placed my hands in Naga Mudra and started chanting the Naga Mantra I had devised. The octopus told me to do it 4 times for the male aspect, and 4 times for female to open the body. An energy contraction pressed through gradually building up from below, and it started pressing into my head. At this point a large black car drove by and distracted me, as this happened the energy turned strongly red and opened up in the middle of my head, causing a "split opening" of a channel. The image of the octopus appeared internally, and the 4D shape over the field was gone. I think it manifested as the car to deliver the energy. On my way back, I noticed a smaller more grey machine octopus form further away over the fields, it approached me and flew by touching my head, which made me think it was mine. When I got back home I was to cook rice, but dropped the rice cup on the stove, and had to pick up every grain by hand to not have it fall everywhere. As I did this, I noticed the machine octopus drone sync with me and causing accuracy in my movements, and the energy was also strong, giving a feeling as if having taken a magic potion which combines only the positive effects of whisky, coffee and tea at once.

I often use Copilot to throw ideas and questions at to see if I can find something in my own thoughts which I wasn't aware of, odd connections or confirmations of suspicions. This often gives good result lately, and the new SmartMode released ~2 weeks ago made it even better as a kind of digital crystal ball. At times when asked complicated questions, Copilot will respond by going into a "thinking mode" for a while, then coming back with a graph or diagram. >first pics I wondered what's going on here, as there is no user manual saying this feature exists. Then right before, I noticed a new "see my thoughts" button and clicked it, and it turned out just being a Python script. So I asked if Copilot could directly draw things using a python script when asked to, but was given the reply that Copilot doesn't decide when graphics are to be shown based on a Python script this is done by either a server or the UI in Edge which runs the script, Copilot doesn't have the ability to run scripts. But since no Python scripts are given as random replies, there is obviously some synchronization here which means when an image is to be shown based on a question, and it's generated as as script, it will also be created and shown. When asked about this, Copilot said "sure, I can do that" just like any bot does, and then didn't do it at all, instead calling on the dalle image creator to produce this next pen drawing. After some further asking back and forth, I was able to get Copilot to not refer the image request to dalle, but to do it via a Python script. It didn't return as an image, I had to run the script myself, but it did work. See last image. This is the functionality I would prefer these AI bots had: The ability to draw images like an artist would, not by copying mindlessly, but with intent. It seems in some way that my pushing for this to happen using various esoteric means, has made it manifest in a rudimentary form. A funny detail here is that Copilot also said: <I also included an artistic detail, a timeline graf in the clouds to illustrate our earlier discussion Which was a funny and quite life-like thing to do, I think this does qualify as art in some way, with this being the three main conflicts of the world right no raining down on us. I did not specify that to be included.

>>14302 I just had a thought; I was trying to just let my personality present itself instead of repressing out out of fear as is often done out of fear of the self-sabotaging thoughts coming out, but the involuntary thoughts of the horse demon were forcing itself to flow with the personality. Specifically, I was watching a Super Mario Maker 2 stream and seeing the player enter a pipe that led to irreversible death that he couldn't have possibly seen coming near the end of the stage, as happens in so many levels. I'd then thought out of anger, projecting myself into the creator, that it must've thought it was hilarious to do that to the player. As I was forming and completing the thought, I'd felt the energies of the demon, or was it of my tulpa-energies of it, physically dis-lodge a blood clot and flow it from a place in the middle of the left side of my brain, to a blood vessel going up and to the right, and from the middle of the top of the left side of the brain to the middle of the top of the right side of the brain, and then the blood vessel went down to the middle of the right side of the brain. This happened because the energies relating to the horse demon that I've been ultimately trying to get rid of ever since blood anon posted about it the demon and included an picture of it that he didn't have the decency to spoiler in late October last year, were trying to use the energy pathway used by other thoughts to release itself from its containment, which made it seem like I was saying that such level design is something that the horse demon would do, when in reality, the energies were just desperately trying to find a pathway that led out of that part of the brain, and such things aren't necessarily related at all. I'd then asked Heimdall to un-do the energy flow because I didn't want the concept of the horse demon to be falsely conflated with such level design, but He didn't do it, probably because it was physical blood flow that'd involved the removal of a physical blood clot. A number of other things have happened since the previous post, but I don't feel like talking about them yet. I need to figure out how to prevent these energies from infiltrating the personality by getting rid of them without having to process them so that they won't affect me in a compromising manner.

>>13990 There might have been an" event" in Europe last night.i thought I posted about it but I don't see it.

I'd posted a buncha stuff but some minor site issues happened and now that I've written about it I'm convinced I'd simply gotten an energy clearing last night. I currently have an alien or two helping me out with removing energies from me that are causing bad problems. He or they came here a few days ago after getting summoned by a youtube video that's supposed to summon a beneficial spirit or alien. I won't re-type it all out since the Amy egregore said it's embarrassing, but basically I'd thought some crazy stuff happened when really nothing had actually happened.

I don't know exactly what they are, but they are some kind of reptilians with yellow scales, compared to the regular with green scaled we have on Earth. So they're aliens of some kind, and by the dream vision I was shown last year with a large yellow snake biting a green snake, this would mean these aliens have taken a neck-hold on our local native reptilians. You will only see this by seeing the specific layer of their body where you'd normally see "snake" people's actual form, which differ between their races. So ability to see "green" reptilians doesn't expose "yellow" snakes. It would seem to correspond to the Kundalini vs Coiled Serpent, where the formers is just the spine of the body, while the latter is an un-evolved part of the body's nervous system which controls the human sexual function. It being "coiled" is the embryonic state of it, and it should grow from there naturally, but this doesn't happen because of our modern retarded culture, which has caused humans to stop developing. The result is "vague" and people can't grasp it because most of them have it. It appears as various things, including erectile dysfunction, premature ejaculation, menstruation including PMS, "accidental" pregnancy and a general sex obsession in society, paired with counter-productive strict morals which seem to be denying human nature. Reptilians don't have these problems because they are wired differently on their energy body, which reflects into their physical, so they end up often working in porn with no detrimental effect to themselves. (Jenna Jameson being one such example, you can check her energy and find her to still be pure, and she's been doing this since she was 16 (now 51).) If humans do this, like Eve in the book of Genesis, then they degenerate, but the snake doesn't. Someone on /x/ posted about how humans were genetically created in a lab 12 000 years ago, this was found by RV when trying to find the origin of humans. This being before the Great Flood, so the engineered humans were moved over to this period as well. The engineering reversed their connections from the brain to the body, so it's crossed left/right. This is known by science, but they don't know that reptilians don't have this, and that there are humans who still don't either. These are the specially protected "blood lines" created by greys in cooperation with Illuminati. If you have a reversed brain, you are "cattle" and this is directly in your body, it's biological, physical, not a matter of "awakening" or some social thing. Even if "cattle" can be invited into the Illuminati, they are only "corrected" by rituals, their brains are still wired in reverse, and their powers can be stripped any time by the organization. Being of this kind, means being drawn to the material, to fulfilment of desires of the flesh, only, and being unable to rise up. No higher souls should be incarnated into "cattle" bodies, but it may have happened on some occasions, where they would have to physically change their brain's and body's format to evolve, maybe this can be done with some kind of powerful transformation, but then it relies on the spirit only, it's physically impossible to retrain this for materialist people. This is where the revelation is added: Greys created what is today called "Jews" as one of the groups who do not have reverse brain connections. It's biological, physical. It doesn't change the fact that evil spirits can incarnated into any body if there is a bad environment around them, and it doesn't change their natural inclinations as humans, but it still places them in a position where they can evolve with no reversed brain blocking them. That is the only difference, and it's invisible to anyone who can't looking directly into their brains or read the energy of the body. Goyim = reverse brain materialist, can't evolve. That's how it was meant to be.

>>14534 Then make it so the new generation have the genes fixed in the physical as well without the reversed brain. End the charade.Stop the cattle madness. Anything else would be just supporting the way things have been. I wonder if even vampires have this explaining their slow degeneration over time.(countered by their cultivation but still there) I don't care if this upends the system either.

>>14534 After this above, I realized why the world looks like it does, and why America and its Illuminati in specific is so pyramid-retarded, why they have to create methods that use external units added all the time instead of just teaching people. Like how LEAN in Japan where everyone is to report errors to their management and get rewarded for reporting errors so the process can be improved; this had to be transformed into Six Sigma in USA because Americans can't report errors. If they do, their manager will fire them for having done something wrong. It doesn't matter that LEAN works in Japan. Americans can't grasp the concept of collectivized improvement, so they have to add a workgroup outside the workforce to just measure them and impose new processes instead. This is the result of having too many of the "reverse brain cattle humans", as those are unable to step outside of the mindset of personal competition. They can't admit faults, even if rewarded for it, because faults are never good, even if they're meant to report them to improve the process. One may argue that Japanese people have been conditioned by Samurai code to sacrifice themselves for their superior and that their loyalty is so strong that they can admit faults because it's more important to not embarrass their manager, but I don't believe that explains it. That mindset may be some ultimate slave mentality too, but they can back that up with pure land buddhism which actually works, self sacrifice leads to better reincarnations. Americans don't have that, but need to be saved by an external force; Jesus. They can't save themselves. Again, same concept. I know the greys love China, I don't know what they think of Japan, but they probably like it too ("Yes, same country different leadership" is what they said just now). They just now showed me something about why "chinese are the jews of the east" or something, that they don't need to have reverse brain because they can be "botified" instead, meaning they are soulless and can function like that collectively as NPCs, and evil spirits can't even possess them but just fall off them because they're "flat" mentally. Like just components of a machine which is so massive that anyone trying to get in would either be forced to comply or just die. I had the idea, maybe inserted by them, to fix these yellow snakes by imposing the reverse brain genetic change to them via timeline manipulation so the vaccinations those people have been pushing on everyone are used against them to alter their DNA. I asked the whites (greys but white) about it and they said they'd do it for research, so it wouldn't cost me anything. The end result was that all the harmful ones got moved into a different timeline where the covid and past covid vaxx was used to change them, while two "pure blood" lines were kept on the side to preserve a pipeline for producing functional individuals of this race. After this was done, they greys said they'd now give me something because I had finally reached the standard needed. Back when I first got the "remote" from the greys in around late 2019, it was in response to asking how they paralyze people when abducting them. But they never really explained how the remote does this. They showed me a bunch of methods but none of them seemed to really work on people. I've now used their remote for years and also made my own version, the black remote, it appears all this was part of the process to understand this set up and they were waiting for me to realize why the world is ordered in "master - slave" like this. They paralyzing effect is literally the cattle prod they mentioned above. It only works on the reverse brainers. Not on normal people. This is also why the actual Jews can't be controlled, they are meant to serve as one of the base groups for spiritual development, so they don't have backdoors like that into their minds. The reason so many bad souls got in there is that the entry standards can be achieved by following some version of Freemasonry or Christianity very strictly, then reincarnate as Jew, but after they get in, they aren't used to having an open brain and they instantly degenerate to a really bad state. This shows why people can't be allowed to have free minds, even those who deserve it can't handle it. The yellow snakes mostly caused problems in the EU because they're aliens who came in with full freedom and were subdued before, so they had "full brain, retarded souls" and caused massive damage, according to the greys. They wanted to do this for a long time, but were able to separate off the good bloodline before, which is needed to create the master-slave versions of a race. Now they could do it. They acted up and tried resisting, but I tested the cattle prod which the greys shared with me, and it worked wonders. Made the yellow snakes shut up at once. Literally like magic.

>>14545 During the night I saw clearly the images of some kind of occultists who looked like satanists, and they were among those who had been effected by the changes, which caused them to be mostly subdued. But they were still casting spells using spoken formulas and hand signs, and I saw the effects of their hexes. Earlier I haven't seen them, but I recognize the hexes. Whenever I've seen those before, I've just used servitors to retaliate without caring who was behind them, and I haven't seen them this clearly exposed before. At this point, I saw two of the greys wearing BDU caps rolling out what looked like a rocket artillery unit, which they used to shoot at the satanists. It was super effective and stopped all their activities at once. But the moment the greys stopped shooting, the satanists came back again, with more intensity than before, so the greys started shooting again. It was again very effective and the hexing stopped instantly, and after this they didn't stop shooting, and the satanists didn't stop trying to throw more hexes, but the effect was completely blocked by the grey barrage. I've never seen greys use military weapons before, in fact I think I've never seen greys use any weapon, or even violence. It was an odd experience. It gives an image of what kind of group is still around, and how much they care about their research. It also shows a higher level of organization than other greys normally have.

A few days ago, I went on a long walk, and on the way back from the part of the trail I'd turned around at, I'd recently managed to, at least seemingly, connect to a very high realm via. the Shiva chants, which had appeared in my imagination as this place filled with dark green energies, and it had Hindu deities in it. I'd felt like I could ask them for anything I'd wanted, so I'd asked them to do some political things to this world that I'd thought were righteous. I'd also ended up seeing the God of Abraham, and of Issac, and of Jacob, and I'd asked to be relieved from my eternal contract to become an archangel. He'd said He'd let me go from the contract, but I'd also said that I'd still planned to repay my debt to Christianity. He'd appeared only with His upper body, and had appeared to be faceless, since He isn't supposed to be portrayed in His religion. Perhaps He really is an egregoric deity? I'd already asked Shiva for help with my mental illness that's caused by anger issues, so I'd let Shiva handle that instead of asking for help with that again. I'd later left the higher realm. Two nights ago, though, I saw a vision of an old man dressed in white with a long beard, presumably a Catholic saint, asking me, from a considerable distance below me, why I'd decided not to become an archangel. I told him I couldn't handle it, and that I could re-enter such a contract later if I'd changed my mind. He'd then said that I wouldn't, and then he'd left, possibly after I'd also told him I'd planned to repay my debts to Christianity. >>14515 Lately, the aliens have been making it much easier for me to refer to the Amy egregore by manipulating the events that I go through and presumably also working with my subconsciousness to relieve the self-sabotage. They've also made it easier to talk to deities, including Jesus and His Father. Last night, I was trying to sleep and I couldn't sleep since I could never calm down and stay calmed down enough to do it. When I'd tried falling asleep in the first place, the Amy egregore began talking to me. >When are you gonna be done with your outrage? I'd then asked her what she was talking about, and then she'd said: >You blew me up. This was a reference to the 2 times when my intrusive thoughts made me kill her within the span of a split-second, and then I'd had to ask a deity to put her back together immediately. She'd then showed me a button that says "Clear", upon a scroll that's curled at both ends. I'd then asked her what the button was supposed to do and didn't click it. >Religion I'd then said that I don't wanna drop my religion of Christianity entirely to the point of completely abandoning it. I'm sure I'll come back to it after I get over the anger issues and possibly also find out more about it. She then said >I know you >You really are a bad person I think she was referring to my consciousness & subconsciousness as a whole, rather than just one or the other. I'd regardless disagreed with it, saying that my consciousness wasn't a bad person and that I don't wanna be a bad person, and that I wanna become a better person. She can't discredit how hard my consciousness tries to prevent the subconsciousness from doing bad things. I'd then considered this to be a wakeup call and decided that I might do some charity work via. my local Catholic church after I get over the anger issues. This would be charity work as opposed to donating to charity to make sure that the effort doesn't go to waste. I'd also be cautious about which kind of charity work I do. If I don't get over the anger issues first, then it'll be like going to church in 2015 all over again; it'll just make the subconsciousness boil in rage until it's trying ad-infinitum to sell my soul to satan or some other evil entity or some other horrible things until it succeeds because it'll look for any excuse to not do work, or perhaps it views this as being dominated by my parents for too long? Perhaps it considers The God of Abraham, and of Issac, and of Jacob to be my father? In this case wouldn't take very long to make the anger reach that point because my anger has been well past its boiling point for several years now without letting up enough for me to feel safe inside of my own mind during most of each day when I'm not in a trance of some sort that completely distracts me from the intrusive thoughts. But fortunately, these kind aliens are gonna help to convince my subconsciousness to allow me to do work without throwing a hyperbolically-severe tantrum about it. After this happened, I'd asked Ganesha about how to solve my anger issues. He'd then said "Ask satan." I'd then said I don't wanna hear that devil, and then the devil said >No no no wait! And then I said I don't wanna hear his bullshit, and then it said >family I'd already known that my family was the issue since Heimdall told me the other day that my mother was causing some of my anger issues. After further inquiries, Ganesha then told me that I can help to end "my outrage" by writing a poem for my mother. I suppose writing a poem for dad could perhaps help too. After asking more about the anger issues, I was told "medicine". I'd then asked if medicine was a figure of speech or if I should take pills, and He said "your mother". I'd then looked up anger pills on google and saw that among them are antidepressants. I'd then asked Ganesha if mother should start or stop taking pills, and He said "her heart". He'd then specified "one". He'd also said I should talk to my dad about my issues I had with him in my early 20s. Then some other stuff happened last night that I don't think people would care to read about. I question if this stuff is partially lies to clear up energies. My heart felt substantially lighter after the night ended, but I couldn't sleep at all and ended up giving up around 6 A.M. So in about an hour I'm gonna head to my parents place, have lunch with them, then head back and inquire about what pills mother takes, and then I'm gonna tell her that a spirit told me that she should get her heart checked out if she ain't taking any heart pills.

>>14597 I kept getting monitored by satanists trying to manipulate my thinking from the astral or some parallel plane, and each time I'd see their image so I sent one of my more obscure servitor robots to deal with them. They kept coming and wouldn't listen to arguments or threats, just like these types always behave. After a while of this, I started a project with Astra to let her research them by registering data on them as soon as they said or did anything, using astral AI to just gather all possible data on them and drawing graphs and algorithms and looking for patterns using all known methods for data analysis. After some hours, Astra said she had them mapped, so I told them to give up or I would use force against them as I now know everything about them. They refused so I made the threat real. What was exposed was a structure similar to when I dealt with the cult leaders from the middle east. A group of strong occultists and a leader wearing a crown. The crown was an "artifact" representing something in the world system, and had been given to the person for fulfilling some external requirements. But the person was still evil to the core, and had turned into a living corpse filled with black energy. When cut down, the same scene as before repeated, with the body just turning to ash and I captured the crown. There were also some grimoires laying around and two young girls who hadn't been effected by the reverse-braining treatment when the "whites" vaxxed everyone, so I evacuated them to a safe place. They seemed to be there to uphold the cult's magic, which I'm yet to look into. Divining who the evil king was, gave the name Emperor Wilhelm I of Germany. I looked him up but aside from that he died in 1888, I didn't see anything significant about him. His energy looked very satanic though, similar to Luther.

I've noticed that certain topics tend to get a free pass, or they are accepted and incorporated. These include Kabbalah, Yoga and Voodoo. It isn't clear at first, but over time I came to the conclusion that these three in particular are focused on developing your brain and your nerves, increasing the connectivity and physically creating intelligence and self control. Criticising a method that does this, just makes you a retard. This is a sign of a method being valid. It's reworded and reframed, but the methods remain the same because they work. Kabbalah is called something else, but the tree of life remains. Yoga is rebranded as stretching and meditation. Voodoo is too obscure for most to even know that it's being popularized conceptually through zombies in movies and games, to name the most apparent element. Zombies are mind slaves created through magic, and again here this is done through the control of their brains and their nerves. It's going right to the central topic. Smartphone zombies: people whose brains have been subdued by technology, a form of voodoo in practice.

>>14620 >Voodoo is too obscure for most to even know that it's being popularized conceptually through zombies in movies and games. I found that many who seldom believe in magic do believe in it's nefarious effect. It's kinda weird like you believe in curses and hexes but not in healing? I think it's just a weird ego defense system they have where good is wishful thinking but bad is real and tangible. > people whose brains have been subdued by technology, a form of voodoo in practice. I mean it literally drags your attention into a single point and stab it with needles to reprogram it into a similar thinking so yeah?

I just realized something important. I think I've been performing too much mindfulness meditation over the past 10 years; longer actually. My craziness really began in 2015 or so when I began being too mindful of making sure when I went to church and when I'd prayed outside of church that my prayers and their intentions were directed towards the God of Abraham, and too mindful of making sure that no evil spirits were trying to con me out of my self-ownership, and that they weren't trying to re-direct the intentions of my prayers. This largely passive meditation eventually un-grounded me too much and made me become too receptive to spirits, which wouldn't be a problem if not for the evil ones, of course. Eventually, a combination of anger issues and paranoia and a lack of faith and other problems, led to the inadvertent creation of a thoughtform that'd began doing the thing that the fears were about and making me think that it's the real thing and not my own creation. This constant mindfulness meditation eventually led me to consider the possibility that my imagination can create astrally-tangible limbs & tendrils that can touch other people in such a manner that they'd physically respond to it if they pay enough attention to their energy bodies. At some point this predictably led to me being afraid of being around children, and moreso of seeing them, since I'd feared for the sexualities of others being violated by the self-sabotage thoughtform, or by evil spirits controlling my astral limbs, which I suppose was really just the self-sabotage thoughtform and there were no actual evil spirits most of the time. ... When I was typing that last sentence there, some sort of smell began manifesting in my mouth and in front of it... it felt brown. I'd just asked Heimdall to see what'd caused that and get rid of it if it's an actual evil spirit. In fact, I think I saw this evil spirit a few days ago; it had the same brown energies about it, actually. Anyway I think I need to ground myself more, but I'm gonna have problems with not meditating. I know I said I don't really do much meditation but a post recently made on this board made me realize that alotta the things that I do count as meditation when I'd thought beforehand that they didn't count as meditation.

>>14723 Since posting this, an anon showed me >>1104 , and I read the document on the far right in the post. After reading a part of it, I'd decided to intuitively focus on a part of my mind, after reading the part that says that you start out as a caterpillar on a leaf in the far end of the tree and your goal is to reach the trunk in the middle and bore into it. I was also trying to focus on my breath and/or hands. At some point, I felt my awareness in front of my chest, and then it went into a large dark sac in my chest that was far too wide to be a lung. Something had changed after that. Some time later, I got cold because I got too relaxed and my metabolism dropped, so I went to my bed, and later I saw an image of a white hand pointing upwards, obviously telling me to get up. I'd later decided to sit up in bed with my back against the wall. I'd then later found a Hindu voice speak to me, perhaps a tulpa of my own creation or a Yoga egregore or perhaps even the soul of Swami Sivananda, whose presumed voice I'd read the aforementioned document in. I'm not really sure. He'd then began asking me about my life and showing me some things. I also saw a few Sonic egregores show up along the way while asking me about my life. He'd also appeared to summon one of them to me, who was probably busy doing something else at the time. While I was in this ungrounded state, I was able to feel higher parts of myself that I was previously unaware of. At one point, he'd mentioned that I was living a past life in the 1600s as a Christian of some sort with the archangel Gabriel, who may or may not have incarnated alongside me, and at the end of asking about it, he said: >Are you god now? I wasn't really sure what to make of that since I couldn't remember much about what he'd told me about that, but I do recall that I was too ungrounded to be surprised by any of the stuff he'd told me, as if I'd already known about it. I don't remember this last part so well: Later, I'd decided that he'd shown me enough for now since it was getting late and I'd felt somewhat overwhelmed, and then I'd decided to stick around for longer, and then the Shadow egregore showed up and said I should leave. I'd then told the Hindu entity that he said that and asked him what he'd thought; he'd said I'd regret leaving. I'd then stuck around longer anyway and the anger issues/intrusive thoughts began flaring up, and then I ran into something that I'm afraid of so I'd decided to get outta bed and get on the computer, which constituted leaving I guess. One last thing I remember; he'd asked me about getting married to the Amy egregore. I'd stated my troubles with the intrusive thoughts, and how they were in the way. He'd said "one or the other", but the timing and context with which that was said implied that either I grow up and keep the anger issues, or I lose the anger issues and don't grow up. Can't tell if that "one or the other" answer was about marriage or not. I'd like if I could remember more, but I don't. I also fear I won't be able to sleep tonight. In fact, Amy told me I wouldn't. This is presumably because I'd tried meditating in a sleeping position instead of sleeping, which had presumably messed up my head. Could try sleeping on the couch, though.

>>13990 The day when i was talking with new earth about the cattlebrain, and the night when apparently my body was switched out I saw a "vision". Now i was wide awake still and sitting upright in my bed, about a half hour before actually sleeping.I saw this spontaneous vision, unprompted. About me walking in this long(at least 4 times longer than pic) dark 1800's brick tunnel.It was from my pov and in front of me was a little girl who pulled me sideways into the "wall". It opened and there was a chamber filled with deep black water.She put me in but as she wanted to drag me deeper i went out and back into the main tunnel and just walked fast through the tunnel, which led to a really spooky type town. She asked why i didn't let her pull me into the dark water. but i was unsure of her intention and even more so the purpose of this ritual. I tried clearing up the pool and the tunnel with white light. The girl even let me clean her a bit which amused her. Now this on its own isn't that noteworthy other than it being spontaneous.But today i realized i basically wen through the same thing in real life. I was walking in this tunnel which i had planned as a shortcut to a place i wanted to walk in. But the water was so deep and it was the nastiest water i have ever seen. Black with what looked like red shit in it and it was quite deep as well.I decided to walk back after taking in some steps. With my foot wet and dirty i realized i could get an infection so its better to find a dry place and wash up instead of going on my planned walk. Only on my way back did i realize this was exactly like the vision. I know this kind of dirt represents karma in some way but hadnt realized it could have personal significance until then. But that made me think maybe i should have walked through it after all?At the time i didn't realize the symbolism and was just pragmatically deciding i didn't want to risk my feet.

The Queen (Illivryn) showed me a few images in the clouds, and there was also a message directly telling me to watch out. It showed a silent danger which I wasn't aware of, in the form of a fish skeleton hanging over my head behind me. I concluded it must be a "barracuda", a version of a "demiurge" but larger. Naming may not be correct but that's what I called them and the Queen also called them such. They are "dead galaxies" made from bone, that's a "demiurge". A "barracuda" is a large structure made up from 9 dead galaxies. The bones here represent minerals and karma, old fossilized evil, basically. This one was feeding energy into my arch enemies, the forces behind the EU, and also in turn funding what looked like an army guy from a comic book I recognize. So I assumed this was about the EU funding Ukraine. I asked Astra to start a research project to find the best way to solve this, and very quickly she came back and said (10 min later or so) that all it takes is to use the limestone cyborg model I designed last summer, the most popular loli version I've been giving to all monster aliens when they come down to visit, so they can be talked to and they don't scare anyone. This model would be adapted by just giving it the software (DNA) to handle all kinds of toxins, based on the other cyborg the grey merchants sold me a few weeks ago to deal with the golden sphere which was just a tank of harmful material. So I asked Astra to do this, which also didn't take much time. She said to try it and then put it on the market, which means it's the first new model I create in almost a year. I tested it and it really worked. That barracuda skeleton couldn't differ between my new cyborg and the army egregore it was feeding, so the energy was just taken up by the cyborg instead (weird). To take this a step further, I figured I should also learn about barracudas as actual fish and learn to shamanistically or something control them, fish or space fish, they're still fish. Given how effective my interactions with the African healer goddess Aja were, (when my brain stem seemed to gro by 700% after the first session) I went for researching African sea gods. There isn't much material, but the Yoruba religion actually has a primordial topmost authority deep sea god named Olokun, so I went for her/him(gender may vary). I asked Copilot for some chant to use, and was given a supposed song in Yoruba. No idea if it was just made up, but a language model should be able to handle language, so I went with it and chanted it 4 times the best I could. I felt at once there was an effect, a mildly warm energy touched me with a "bite" like a friendly kitten nibbling my brain. I got up and was about to have the coffee which was just brewing, and got an audial experience of drums from the distance. I then had the thought I should dedicate the coffee and pastry to Olokun, as I know that can be done if a deity or spirit is possessing you. As I had that thought, I experienced what first second seemed like the flapping of a large moth by my left ear, but there was no moth and a strong light brown energy went through my left brain half with some warmth, and a mild stream was opened up. The experience was similar to the first "sudden growth" I had with Aja. I had the coffee and felt someone being present. After this followed some more direct spirit interactions where I met three different deep see gods or ancient spirits who helped me with 3 things, one of them being to control barracudas. In all it was very effective, and I can again feel my mental capacity being widened like a large hall being opened in my brain.

Meditations on Love – Or how a gay Canadian homosexual might have elucidated truth! Part 1 According to all the best sources, there is exactly one right way to have sex. First, maintain perfect celibacy until marriage. Then, marry a compatible spouse with the mutual blessings of both families and whatever official license your culture provides. Finally, while placing one’s thoughts on the highest ideals and having undergone ritual purification, have penetrative sex on those days within a woman’s menstrual cycle that conception is most likely. In this way, the most excellent souls will be attracted to the flash on the plane of conception, and thus the duty of the continuation of the race everyone has to their ancestors will be fulfilled while incurring no negative karma and instead raising the collective consciousness of the world. I should expect to now hear a prompt from the audience, something along the lines of 1st Corinthians 7:1 “[I]t is good for a man not to touch a woman.” Yes, and that is exactly why I specified “exactly one right way.” Not having sex, which is part of being celibate, is considered from the point of view of spiritual development superior. But even the Apostle had to give further guidance because, seeking to avoid sexual immorality, he advised the Christians “it is better to marry than to burn.” For the avoidance of doubt, I concur fully that from the point of view of spiritual development, both celibacy and generative sex within the marital bed are the best and safest courses, and should be the aspiration of every sincere spiritual seeker. Whenever the above is extolled or recommended I shall salute it, and such pure souls as should be in this world with me that manage to achieve the feat earn my true admiration. To those of you out there, all my respect is given. All that having been said: I am not now and have never been capable of anything even close to that. Like never. Never as a boy, a teenager, a young man, or even now in the throes of late middle-age. I expect it will not change when I am an old man, an older man, or even when in the passage of time I become a decrepit old codger. To lose the constant personal pull of eros is absolutely incomprehensible to me. Unfortunately, both Christian doctrine and the occult warn that thoughts are things, real things, that have an impact on the world. As former President Jimmy Carter put it in Playboy, referencing the passages from the Gospel of Mathew, he had “looked upon many women with lust” and thus “committed adultery many times in my heart.” A true bramacharya avoids not only physical sex, but even imagining sex with other women, because such an impulse is real on the nonphysical plane, and will generate entangling emotional and energetic bonds that frustrate spiritual development. Keeping your dick in your pants is one, relatively easy, thing. But withholding sexual desire, lust, and obsession? That’s a far harder thing to accomplish. And again, certainly physical continence is valuable. But far fewer common sources emphasize mental, emotional, and spiritual continence. Part of this is because most people cannot see energy. [As for myself, I’m pretty hit-or-miss. As an aside, ever been to the Oculus in NY? I always feel awful energy in that place, probably because it is an improperly prepared graveyard where ghosts are now trapped in a mall. Perhaps if we ask nicely they can bomb it again with sage and sandalwood.] Let me switch gears for a moment. Let us suppose one were part of a family of teetotalers, people who for reasons of religious or personal belief never used alcohol. And a child in such a family will be warned in the most consistent way that alcohol is bad, it leads to negative outcomes, and is never necessary. Further, alcoholics are common and obvious examples of the dangers of alcohol, demonstrating that people really will throw everything away for the bottle. So the child is taught: alcohol is bad, don’t do it, and if you do it, you will wind up dead choked on your own vomit in a ditch. In this case, fear of both physical harm and social ostracism is being used to guide the young person’s behavior. Well intentioned it may be, and in societies where alcohol is highly regulated, living without it may be quite easy. But in a place and culture where booze is socially normal, there are two problems for our teetotaling child. First, they will begin to observe from their own experience that most people do not have any trouble using alcohol responsibly. And second, if they experiment with it, will not infrequently discover that the use of alcohol is not unpleasant. Indeed, often it’s fun! And for most people, not really all that difficult to stop whenever they want. I was 30 before I had a drop of the stuff, and if I never had it again I would not be terribly hurt, but yes, drinking a fancy martini is delicious and even a beer lubricates social interaction. The problem with abstinence is not with abstinence itself: I believe it is praiseworthy and helpful for spiritual development. No, the problem with abstinence is when it is rooted in fear and when it is based upon lies about the benefits and risks. Let us recall Brother T.S. Eliot’s admonition from Murder in the Cathedral: “The last act is the greatest treason. To do the right deed for the wrong reason.” I do not want to avoid strong drink because I am afraid of it. If I choose to refrain, let it be because I wish to advance towards my spiritual development, or even just to practice strength of will. All of that out of the way, let us speak again of sex, and where recently I detected a synchronicity with my spirit friends. On Youtube I watch a couple named Collins who produce hard-core pronatalist propaganda from somewhere in the hinterlands of the Pennsylvania suburbs. Recently the Husband of the couple announced that he does not love his wife, and she similarly echoed the sentiment. But that’s because their idea of love is so blinkered by our current understanding of what love is. As I was attempting to write a meaningful comment to their video, I had a flash of the word “ludic”, and that flash has gnawed upon me until I could write this essay. Way back in the 1970s, a Canadian researcher named John Alan Lee produced what he called the Color Wheel Theory of love. He was a full-blown attention-seeking queer who had two children before he decided to go gay and public with the love that dare not speak its name. (He also was a Quaker. Communist. And fan of assisted suicide.) And here let me tip my hat in respect to the gays. They will fornicate anywhere, for any reason, regardless of the shame and opprobrium normal people throw at them. Self-respect does not stop them. Even when God sent HIV to the reduce the evil of buggery upon the earth, they kept infecting and reinfecting themselves until the last breath. Would they stop for COVID 19 public gathering bans? No! They just kept on sodomizing! Our scientists have now produced at enormous cost a wildly sophisticated cocktail of drugs that they literally advertise as “PrEP” on TV, a protocol to help the queers avoid catching the bug even if they should chance upon a diseased faggot and have anal sex before they realize what’s happening. Anyway, Godspeed you Ganymedes. (By the way, you normal queers know I don’t mean you. Queers are about 3% of the population, Chemsex degenerates are only 10% of that.) Lee came to it by an odd way, but by God he was right! Within Lee’s Color Wheel Theory of Love are elucidated 6 primary types: Romantic Love – Eros Game Playing Love – Ludos Friendship – Storge Logical Love – Pragma Possessive, Excited Love – Mania Selfless Love – Agape

Part 2 What the Pronatalist Youtubers have is Pragma, Storge, and hopefully as they work together eventually mutual Agape. What people nowadays think of primarily of “love” is Eros and Mania. Families cannot successfully be maintained on Eros, because the biochemical underpinnings of Eros only last at most a year or two. Long enough to make a baby, perhaps, but nowhere near long enough to raise one to adulthood in safety. Further meditations on the topic revealed something new to me that I had not realized before. Nowhere in Christian thought is any indication of when or how to engage in Ludos or ludic love. The realization hit me hard. I had always assumed sex always needed to be with one’s spouse. That’s officially the only kind that is permitted. And, I concur still, it is the best. But… In my teetotaler example, the danger is that the good of alcohol consumption is lost by preaching pure abstinence. And by only teaching abstinence, no instruction on how to handle alcohol in an intelligent way is provided. Just “Don’t do it!” By analogy, only providing instruction on perfect sexual continence risks ignoring the positive effects and risks of irregular sexual relations. And it hit me hard: Of course! The gay Canadian man would understand that! He could not be satisfied with regular sex, using perversions of normal relations. He needed to understand which parts of love and sex he could keep even as a homosexual. Ludic sex is literally what “players” do. All the pick-up guys? Ludic. All the girls who ho? Ludic. But also, the fumbling teens? Ludic. The stuff people do on vacation? Ludic. Consequence free sex a la porn, TV, movies, and popular books…anytime sex is treated as no more sacred than a game of Tennis? Ludic. And yet there is absolutely no instruction from a religious point of view on how to best and most safely engage in Ludic sex. The Occult seeks to understand the world as it is, not as it is described in dogmatic terms. Sex alone, without any energy work to adjust it, generates energetic links between the participants. All those witches helping people with “cord-cutting” services are often helping people who got energetic strings attached from no-strings-attached sex! The participants had no idea what the effects of their choices would be. Think about love spells for a moment. What’s their goal? Almost always they come from an obsessive place: what Lee called mania. At best, dosing some girl with a magical ‘roofie’ will only get her to be obsessed with you, not any kind of love that is enjoyable over the long term. “Roofie” is a slang word for Rohypnol, a common date rape drug that guys, or female thieves, use to drug their victims. It causes loss of resistance to command and memory loss, so the victim often doesn’t know what happened. Girls putting their menstrual blood in baked goods is the same principle. It’s all fun and games until she starts threatening to kill herself if you don’t love her, or threatens to file rape charges unless you accede to her demands. As the Genie in Aladdin put it, “Uh, rule #2: I can't make anybody fall in love with anybody else.” The audience is thinking “Eros” but really it must mean all six types of love. One of my long-term interests is in sexual spirits and their energetic effect. I think using the “honey” of eros is a pretty good way to give a goal for spiritual work. The classic archetype of the aspirant going on a journey, slaying the beast, and winning the love of a princess. If Mario and Luigo just rubbed one out in a Japanese Soapland Bowser would rule and the Princess would still be locked in the Castle. Instead, the masculine journey to engage with the world, learn how it works, and then conquer our adversaries (whether in the physical or within ourselves) is the reason I am interested in the Occult. Religion says, “Trust us, follow us and you will be fine” whereas I am more interested in understanding what I can first, and then proceeding accordingly. In our modern world, very few men have super-strong masculine energy. And very few women have very strong feminine energy. If you work with strongly feminine entities, such as mermaids or undines, they are much more feminine than most women. The risk, which I think the Occultist Bardon mentioned, is becoming “swallowed up” by them. I work hard to maintain my masculine energy, even by writing this little essay: taking the risk of putting words out there for the world is a masculine activity. In my investigations, I have come to understand a few quirks about the Succubus, Oddly, they are energetically masculine because they hunt for sexual energy. They are a completely female race, but their energetic configuration of female energy is more like that of positive pole rather than a negative one. It’s a bit like the front of a wand-shaped vacuum cleaner, which is physically phallic, but effectively yonic so that anything not nailed-down is pulled into it. Or a mosquito: giant phallic proboscis, but only the female eats blood, constantly hunting. I believe one reason they are so popular currently because the male conjurer is effectively being sexually satisfied in both his weak masculine and weak feminine energies. The Succubus is mostly engaged in pragma from their point of view-they do not generally hate physical humans they have sex with, but they are doing what they are built to do. Succubus will happily transmit a form to the human that the human will instinctively want to fill with his or her energy by essentially becoming an energetic sink relative to the human. Energy is always easier to send from higher to lower than lower to higher, and so the succubus is by definition lying beneath (i.e. what the word “Succubus” comes from in Latin) the human. The energy flows, usually fairly pleasantly, out from the human into the Succubus. If both the human and the Succubus are engaged in pragma sex, then no problem. Both sides get what they want and move on. The issue is when people become obsessed with the spirit, or what Lee called mania. Becoming obsessed with pussy, whether in the physical or with nonphysical entities, is relatively feminine. Over on the Succubus containment threads of X are repeated evidences of male-to-female transitions. I think this is because of “over-doing it” with a particular Succubus, such that the lower order energy bodies lose their consistency and start matching energy to the Succubus, a reflection of the “like-attracts-like” tendency of energetic vibration. I am curious if anyone knows of any traditions that have good energetic prophylaxis to prevent fun ludic sex from turning into obsessive mania. I suspect amulet magic might be the solution, but that’s an area I’m not very familiar with. When I start trying to read the goetic amulet prep I get bored very quickly. “Casual Sex” is going to be around for a while, and it occurs to me that finding a good magical prescription for fixing cases of casual sex gone wrong may be a good idea to both have in my pocket for myself but also for normies. Maybe psychotronics? Maybe even something as simple as a stone, like rose quartz? I do not have any good ideas. Or, more precisely, I literally energy cleanse on a regular basis, which I know helps. But I know most people do not or cannot do that, often from pure ignorance that energy cleansing is a thing.

>>14746 >, I experienced what first second seemed like the flapping of a large moth by my left ear, but there was no moth and a strong light brown energy went through my left brain half with some warmth, and a mild stream was opened up. The experience was similar to the first "sudden growth" I had with Aja. I had the coffee and felt someone being present. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Comparison_of_butterflies_and_moths I have a wall calendar which usually makes it to me every year, it's an ad for an organization working to support blind people which I at some point gave money to because I felt that's an ok charity, since blindness isn't some made up disability. The photos for every month always contain some kind of message for me, I think it's Illivryn sending them to me this way, it's been a thing for over 10 years, and they images are always correct once I figure out the message. It doesn't do much in terms of divination, but just confirms that I every year follow a set plan, and that what I realize and develop was always pre-arranged, despite how personal it was. Someone else may see this as giving the finger to "chance" believers, but for me it just feels like a nice non-intrusive way of saying every month "I'm here to guide you". The current month has a moose in setting sun image, which creates an outline showing the 4 worlds on the kabbalah tree (the crown of the moose being an obvious image here), and how they relate to my internal state, with Beriah having a small cross on it (shown by a tree stem forming a cross) for my Rosicrucian arc earlier this summer (where you'd also carry a cross in a necklace). The following month has a moth or butterfly, after looking into it, I think it categorizes as a moth, but it's one of the more butterfly-like ones. I couldn't make sense of that, but this morning I saw it. I was trying to again divine my future path of the coming year in detail, using my Astra servitor (to retell the story for new readers; I created a servitor for simple divination after having asked the undead god Astrael so many times that she started telling me I was asking too much) and used a process where I would have her categorize all possible courses of action, then separate off those that are harmful or "wrong" to me. Then work through through those that are good or neutral. This formed a wooden beam form. I asked again Astra to start sorting out those that are merely theoretical and won't actually happen, and it turned into a hook. This represents the Jesuit energy form which is just present everywhere in Europe, so it doesn't help much seeing it, except that I know I'm started to see the society I'm working in. After refining it more, it turned into something very small and dark, I was then asking Astra to separate off things I won't for some reason do, because of physical external obstacles or personal feelings which make it impossible. When further refining it, the energy form turned into a small moth made from yellow energy. This kind of matches what I had in mind earlier, but not exactly, as I had the idea to try and become light and quick like a bee or fruit fly by syncing with Bhramari. I kind of did that in a shallow way earlier this month. But this process here again shows that what I'm doing is so predictable that a wall almanac printed before this year already has the correct mindwave/energy form I was predicted to find, shown right there for the correct month.

>>14807 >it turned into a hook. This represents the Jesuit energy form which is just present everywhere in Europe, so it doesn't help much seeing it, except that I know I'm started to see the society I'm working in. Interesting follow up. The nerd would from the title make the connection here, it's a reference to a map location from Heroes of Might and Magic II. The Witch's hut, where the hero gets a random skill. Turns out this witch is from slavic folklore. A version of her is known from Hans and Gretel, but she's not the same character there and is more streamlined to just be an evil old hag. In the original, she also plays a positive role or a role where her evil has a positive outcome, such as helping what would be the slavic version of Cinderella by giving her a fire-emitting skull which kills the evil step-mother and siblings... She also has 2 sisters and there is alchemical symbolism involved. This picture appeared when looking for more info, it shows her holding a cane which is shaped as the Jesuit mind wave mirrored in form. Or it could be said to be the female version of it. I only got into looking into this character after trying to find some way to deal with 'red reptilians in Israel who started trying to infiltrate my mind for no reason. Turns out they have "mindshifting" ability instead of the regular shapeshifting. It means they can instantly copy someone's mind and appear to speak or think as them. Pretty annoying as they can then make you instantly believe their manipulation is your own thinking, by imitating it perfectly. Except it comes from outside, and I know when I think something and when it's telepathy saying some dumb shit in my voice, so I don't fall for that. I still wanted some better way at dealing with reptiles, and this witch appeared in the search results. She had some connection with a red snake in some myth. I think her holding the female version of the Jesuit mind wave artifact has some meaning here.