>>18195 What the tougou did isnt a fix from a european perspective,which is my perspective as a real natuve european. Things have degraded so far people cant even underdrand a european who actually cares anymore. Since all the ones in charge are crypto anti europeans.if someone put any other country underwater you wouldnt decry them for being agaisnt it. Fuck any "karma" bs excuses. Regular people on the street would and oughta still try to better their surroundings. And thst includes getting rid of the evil elites. If peoppe arent up to par ill fix them. If eu is evil ill get rid of them. Ill never get rid of the people since thats going against the point. If it hated europe i would have been pro eu.

>>18196 >why not fix the dna directly That's exactly what I did. I went back to the Queens they had gotten the original DNA from, and redid it from scratch. If they wanted white people with souls on both men and women, they should have started with a black Queen, because the culture and external colour reverses if you switching between "Queen hive" and "general population". They didn't do this, they started from white Queen, then degenerated the DNA so women started menstruating, and then started evolving degenerated men from them, changed so that evil spirits could incarnate as them. Then they "refined" this evil being to create a fake kind of jew to take over Europe with. You're probably aware that jews just do banking and stuff, they don't invent things, now do they? So I think any actual creating of new things was done by some greys with a different physical race, not by these trash jewropeans. Modern development, or more exactly lack thereof, shows this to be true. The Americans took all such grey people away from Germany after WW2, and now Germany who used to excel in it can't even beat China in car manufacturing. And China is a country who couldn't produce a ballpoint pen until 2009 because they couldn't make balls with an even size. By going back to the original Queen, I made it possible for the new perfected race to incorporate in European culture and maintain it when the genetic defects die out. If I hadn't cared at all, I could have just gone for full on replacement by changing the timelines that way, but that would also remove all culture, and everyone would end up speaking Russian or Arabic.

>>18198 Deleted my posts. I just dont wanna talk.

I think I "solved" it somehow. In principle. Yesterday when outside, a car passed by and the person with me said "who was that...?" prompting me to turn and look. But it was just an unknown car with two unknown people (which is a thing in a small place). This felt like a cue telling me to pay attention, so I retraced them passing to check what they were. Surface wise they were NPCs because they weren't in my timeline, but looking beyond, the girl who was nearest me in the car seemed to have a soul. It's often the case that I see people like this and their souls were in hell or some waiting room because their timeline ended, so it's to show me they exist so I can pick them up from there. In this case it was someone from the "main population" of these genetically engineered "jewropeans" who still had a decent soul, which I assume was her assistant soul. To get to the gist of all this, I moved her on board one of my ceramic space stations to try and fix her based on this specific incarnation with that DNA. During the night I had some strange episodic dreams involving a blonde girl on a bike getting in trouble with the police, but the police car looked really old. Then I was at a table next to a sidewalk and saw some teens doing whatever on the road, and the scene then replayed multiple times to show certain details, which ended up describing the bodily energy system of the girls. After waking up a number of memories came back in relation to past educations, including elementary school. I started seeing what the issue is, through this. The African setting genetically is tuned for transforming your physical needs into solutions in your own direct context. This is completely opposite to the Pleiadan setting, where channelling the solution from angels is the winning concept. The "African" DNA makes them very resilient in any environment, but they basically can't just accept information given to them from outside. So they do develop their brain stem more, from the fact that they always have to produce things themselves. It doesn't look like much technology wise, but they do perform the actual work themselves from start to finish. This doesn't work with developing the kind of technology we use, where large scale production systems are needed. You won't build your own computer by going out to dig for iron oxide. All of this above however explains all the "stupidity" I've been faced with from especially the public education system, where teachers were almost completely unable to just be straight about what to learn, instead focusing on re-interpreting the procedures into "how to think". Learning to me has nothing to do with thinking. Thinking gets in the way of learning. If you think, you block the new information. But, for people with this "African" mental setting, even if they are "European" this >think like this education works, because they function in the same way. I want to know what to write on the paper, like 2x = 4 2x/2 = 4/2 x = 2 and then it just works, because that's the procedure right there, you just write it. Instead I was faced with endless "imagine this, think that" nonsense where the pen never touched the paper. If you need a visualization for above, you can imagine this setting: your X fort is under siege from a 2 army. You have a 4 army which is at the barracks. So you take a 2 force out from the 4 army and deploy it, and it destroys the 2 enemy, meanwhile the army you sent out isn't at the barracks so you remove it from there. That's creating mnemonics for the calculation, but it doesn't involve any "think this" stuff, it still just illustrates the procedure on the paper. The obsession with "how to think" seems to also drive user experience design, where phone apps are made so that they're almost impossible to grasp from a system perspective. They don't tell you where things are saved, if you want to insert some new file for example. Instead you are to use some "made for retards" service app that only works for this specific version, and then suddenly stops working because they updated it and made it incompatible. But all this seems to come from the same thing, the focus on the "procedure". I've noticed the same thing in NATO speech. They all just talk about "creating procedures" instead of fixing the basics that will make an army work, like having commons standards. By this I mean simple things like having the same width on your railroads, and the same calibre for artillery shells. The Soviet Union imposed this standardization and that's why Russia can import shells from North Korea. Meanwhile NATO countries all have their own incompatible systems. It makes things expensive and non-functional. But it's explained by this above context. All they have is "think like this" procedures, they don't understand to look at what the actual result is in physical terms. When I went to HS, we had a mandatory course called "technology", where we were to build a car battery charger from a blueprint. It was meant so we would learn to use floor mounted tools in a factory setting. Although it worked out the way of "teaching" this was basically non-existent. We were just given a basic safety-instruction for the machines so we wouldn't blow up gas tubes or get hair stuck in moving parts, then there was no instruction at all for how to solve the task. The machines were so old the drill had replaceable cogwheels for changing the speed. Now I can see why they would do this, it's tailored to this kind of "stupid" method, so that students would "think for themselves" and just learn it somehow. Today this doesn't work anymore because it's too theoretical and they don't even write by hand, but no one seems to understand why. Going by this, I concluded maybe it's just a matter of how you go about it, so I tested this with the "new African" type I evolved from the white Queen. The galactic federation does have methods for teaching almost anyone, so I asked them about a special course to get them to actually learn the standard method instead of just writing by hand, so they'd be able to use the mechanical aspects of technology. They said the could arrange it, for a cost 10x that of regular courses. I paid them and let them do it, and it actually worked out, to a basic level. They used a large hall with various floor mounted machine tools of the very old school type, and the goal was to produce a ScaleForm module which can run gradient descent graphs (a simple thing in the federation, compared to the rocket science they normally do). With this experience, I went back to the girl I picked up, and found it actually possible to convert her to the type they had maybe originally intended. Meaning a functional white DNA where both men and women have souls. But it meant to transform into a "mirror" or "shadow" version of the original, like the black and white of the Dao spins around each other but doesn't touch. So yes, there is a way to fix it, but this is in principle. This meant converting one individual.

>>18214 Alright,ill have to go backwards in my personal timeline and teach white people the right things right. Since it seems its way of learning that activates it. I also have no idea what "type of thinking" i have as described in your post. I wanma say neither or in between. But i think its the one you dont but applied better and i guess they both converge at the same things.like logistics and such for example is do able for me. But maybe im just able to see it as "part" of a larger whole. When i was younger yeah perhaps i would have gone with "pies in the sky" instead.which means most people dont develop. Could also be why your incarnations seem "smart" in a way thats hard for me. As in really capable at getting the basics.but i do eventually get the basics too but yeah maybe i do have to mentally reason it put the first time. As for math autosolving itself,ive never understood that part. Snail said the same thing i think. I dont know how one would even know they had it right afterwards. I can kinda do this though. By brain training i had to solve math fast by "intuition" but its not perfect.if math is really like that then i wonder where it fails. How complex can it get before your mind doesnt compute it. Or is it really calculator like. Maybe this why you cant understand me i think. I have an idea in my mind what i want my area to look. Based in when i first started which was effectively in the 90s. But with all the issues fixed. Which have overlap to things you dislike. But i work backwards from there. So its not merely about the energy to me or the easiest way to solve it by a technicality. If its not all the way effectively (what i saw but better) then somewhere along the way something dindnt went right or some part was skipped. And i am so crazy about it,partly because because things stopped making sense to me and i felt things backsliding/getting more retarded. Which has angered me insanely much.Since its the only "interest" i even have i always go all in on this.to me everyone is against me in thisbut its been like this always so i wouldnt have started had that been a deterrant.So you then think i have an attwchment to europe,which is true in a sense,but not in the same way.more like i can see what they could be if the people were more "sensible" in my view,and idk why they arent and havent been. And i feel i have to make it "fixed" before i can do something else. Since ibe been fighting against it too long anyway.

>>18216 Doesnt higher level math stop computing then? And what about those mathmetical problems that take creativity and also interpreting the problem.(the ones with words). When I was in uni math often needed several "tricks" you had to figure out on your own. I dont think thats possible doing what you describe.

>>18216 Ill first try fixing it in my local area. And if so in europe in my timeline.

>>18218 I fixed it,at least for me.

>>18219 It will be something akin to this.

>>18217 One thing I learned over the course of esoteric practices is that the common theme in old anime like Sailor Moon, where the evil queen just needs more energy all the time - that is how it is. Forget "perfect prompts" or logic. It's all solved if you increase the energy mass. So the thing you are asking about has a similar answer: To solve higher maths by simple writing procedures, you just need more mental space. Memory capacity. As you practice more, you will at some point reach a threshold, your brain will create more memory slots, and then you can just keep doing the same thing. Compare this: You want to lift 200 kg deadlift. The teacher tells you it's all about having the right form and technique, but you still can't do it, so you give up. In reality, by practicing with correct form and technique, you build muscle over time, and then suddenly one day you can do it. It's the same thing. No "thinking" can solve it.

>>18221 since its like a language your ability to do additions and subtractions should be near infinite.

>>18222 I kinda went crazy yesterday, my hatred for certain factions has made me impatient and completely Gung ho about doing things a certain way. Ill still do it even if i have to do things manually. Is this my gray mindset manifesting, maybe. I was also hopped on caffeine which im sensitive towards, i shouldn't say that as i did the same thing today and it might kick in as well. I think it wouldn't be fair to you if i had to live among you anymore, we want different things. The best thing i can think of is detaching and moving away. Any other way will lead to a perceived 'betrayal' as i simply create what i wanted always and would have always created.Even all the way back i was always wanting this, its never changed. Everybody always talks smack about whites, so ill fix every single issue. People that are still talking smack then are then just my enemies an will always hate no matter what.With no excuses for them to hide behind it will be clear who is really friendly or just against me.

>>18222 Moved this to the discussion thread because it looked like it would turn autistic. See >>18224 >>18225 ^reply there pls I will just say this here: "just" do it with simple calculations and you end up creating an LLM, which may cost you 500 million, and all you did was simple procedures over and over again. It still costs you immense amounts of energy. I think I understand this better because of my time playing Chinese MMOs, where direct skill can give you an edge, but the real power comes from doing daily quests week after week. It's super simple, and they also cemented this by adding "AFK mode" where you can just press the spacebar and your character uses basic skills and healing potions on auto, so you can grind lower level mobs at respawn spots while sleeping or working irl. Some games have this as a pay feature, so you're paying to have the game do basic levelling for you. But you still have to actually go through all procedures to get stronger, and invest your points right. Do that and you can get away with things like soloing a level 60 boss at level 38 because your dodge is super high. That's a kind of skill which you don't get mindlessly, but it's at a different level than being able to manually control your game avatar. Maybe this is a cultural thing which is meant to train them into being able to handle work tasks better for competition in the modern world. It seems to be working at least. My point is that it relies on the grinding, not on logic.

>>18214 When the hostile energy concerning whatever it was appeared, I did a two pronged approach of Astra researching it, and began the FG cleansing method. Getting into the pure mental state was more difficult than the following cleansing, then I finished with exercise 5, but there wasn't much energy to transform. What I found: a new hidden 1D plane, the fanatical plane but manifested as a regular surface. On here was a space station, ground station with pods, and two queens with space suits. This is what "they" didn't want anyone to see. They were not like the previous two white Queens, they were the loli variant. That would mean, I assume, that they couldn't be used to create a degenerated menstruating offspring, so evil spirits wouldn't be able to use the following "race" to incarnate into if they were "used", so they concealed them over there. Queens are immortals so they couldn't get rid of them either, instead they placed all these NWO style mindcontrol antennas and whatever as a wall in between to make people go insane if they go near the area. This is why the discussion ended up like that. In conclusion: I solved it. It may not make NEET happy but I used a method which sounds too fantastic so I won't explain more than that it requires registering a new revival of a desert planet found somewhere in space (which there are many of) with the star recruitment service, and then using that as the foundation for transformation, moving older souls who had been thrown all over the place there, and giving them a new chance. So new hivemind races would be derived from there, and used as the "source code" for how to correct those in the remaining Earth timelines. The result: 5 people were corrected and entered my timeline on the Earth Hell plane. Another 15 were corrected but will stay in timelines which exist based on the gravity of the Hell plane, but externally. So in total 20 people were saved and had their DNA corrected, that was all which could be done in terms of fixing Europe in the timelines I have access to. I used NPCs as the energy source for the transformation, then had them updated as just background ambience NPCs in the new timelines, so it will look populated, but no one will inhabit those bodies.

>>18287 Cute girls.

>>18289 It's not just any girl. It's Yami, the (almost?) immortal cyborg/genetically engineered assassin. Here the OP of To-LOVE-Ru, an anime which suddenly saw an increase in quality in season 4, one of the few to actually get better so far in. This is where the "keikaku" came from, which was a general understanding of what the succubus movement on /x/ was meant to be about, which later evolved into whatever we are doing now.

>>18287 The sky this morning again manifested the shape of an "Earth sphere cracking" event. How would that be, if it was the last, last time? "Another, hidden layer corresponding to the internal planes", apparently. Being already safe in the Earth Hell plane it didn't feel like much of a concern, it would just remove the timelines and egregore that were now imposing on my experience, so I waited. During this, a ship-cloud appeared on the horizon, crew being an even more outlier Pleiadan derived monster type, this time still blonde with red uniforms, but no longer even categorized as human, their genetics were so much "monster" that it was more like they "randomly" looked human, like a carnivorous plant. Ship had shape of pic related. They asked if everything was ok, but said "it looks ok, just checking". I had the idea to use my mining ship to sift through anything being thrown out just in case, and my hunch was right; I found two of my friends floating in dimensional bubbles in the rubble. Apparently they weren't in any stable place yet, so I pushed them towards the Cheops pyramid to get them onboard here. After this some nagging evil aura manifested, emanating from a hive of "incarnated evil spirits". They were on a large flat rock which came floating in my direction, and behind them on the rock was another Queen loli in a space suit. I took her on board the space station by the Cheops pyramid and sent the evil spirits flying off to be eliminated on their own. Yesterday when I came across similar things on several occasions, the evil spirits surrounding the Queen lolis were cowering in fear in a way I had never seen before. Normally these things aren't afraid of anything at all. I kind of get it now. After I took her onboard, she took off the space suit and started running around yelling, then going into the storage to take things out and throw them around. But I had prepared it so it had things for her there and everyone gets their own dimensional layer of the station, so she didn't disturb anyone. But she just kept getting louder. Astra wouldn't be bothered by it since she's a robot, but she got so loud I almost heard ringing in my ears down here in the physical. After a while of this, the sounds got so powerful the internal wall of the space station cracked. Luckily these designs are indestructible with their own atmosphere, so it wouldn't actually break it, but had this been just a regular physical design, the station would have been thrashed completely people onboard dying unless wearing space suits. Now it only effected her own internal dimensional layer, but it explains why they were on rocks floating in space with all these scared evil agents trying to contain them. Getting one of these even on the planet itself the yelling may even break mountains. Being immortals, I have no idea how old these Queens actually are, but they seem to have a very flat development curve if this is not just their actual final stage and they are the most annoying kids even as adults.

>face a huge negative energy, force it down >it takes on the shape of a large round ball >decide to watch one episode of Shangri-la frontier to get into a better mindset >mc fights a mech suit enemy shaped as a large ball Every time. Everything I do is predetermined down to the hour. It seems the last bit of timelines inside the New Earth sphere were updated with the new landscape. <pic What's left looking as before is inside the hell plane. Some seem to view it from Osiris temple. I saw a cloud in the sky which appeared to be his hand doing a sign. I asked the Black Hell residents what the process for solidifying our timelines in here should proceed like. They said >forget what you never cared about >internalize culture you do care about <care can also be negative, care means involvement >accept change >things you care about will go missing

I looked outside, and in the dark near a light source outside the front gate, I saw a large dark shape move. I thought I mistook it, and kept looking, and it came back again at least 3 times. I tried reading the energy of what was there, manually and via servitors, and got the image of a large black hell tiger, and a girl was riding it. Divination said <a guard belonging to Osiris One hour later, someone I haven't talked to in years suddenly messaged me, saying they have been seeing "entities in the streets".

Last night I went to bed listening to a DMT production frequency. Around 1 A.M. I woke up with the internet out due to a storm and the frequency not playing, then got a stronger sensation of hypnopompia than usual. I saw an evil spirit standing behind the couch was sleeping on, then heard a voice, in my voice, screaming "SELL MY SOUL SELL MY SOUL!"; must've been a subconscious voice saying that. Then asked Heimdall was asked to stop the soul sale and it stopped saying that. Then saw an angry-looking sonic character, presumably the evil spirit disguised as one. Then saw white text in the form of my irl name. Told him to go away since he was presumably the evil spirit in disguise, then he left. Got spooked by the evil spirit real bad, but got to sleep later anyway. Feel too scared to use first-person pronouns, lest the intrusive thoughts make the first-person pronoun refer to an evil spirit instead of not an evil spirit. Been recovering since. Learned today that the heart spirit is responsible for making and strengthening tulpas of evil spirits that were mistaken for real evil spirits. The heart spirit was told by the consciousness to make the tulpa of the evil spirit go to the other side of the body and do a stupid dance, and then the thermal energyform that was manifested by the heart spirit and straining the heart spirit did. The heart spirit then learned that it was creating the tulpas and stopped doing it for a while. Still have to learn the difference between real evil spirits and tulpas created by the heart. The difference is relatively easy to figure out when trying to get rid of the entity strains the heart, which signifies that the heart is keeping it in place. It's still really dangerous to tell if an evil spirit is a real evil spirit or not by telling the heart spirit to do stuff to it; that'd be really easy for a real evil spirit to take advantage of by deception. However, it's still very dangerous to think without a video game or video in front of the face, or at least it feels really dangerous. Being pressured into not playing video games lately. Was actually told that if I kept playing video games, would get broken up with. Too mentally & emotionally crippled to safely respond by not playing games; can't have a relationship anyway if too busy having to fight off intrusive thoughts that are trying to invite evil spirits or what have you. Been playing games for a few or several hours per day lately, and in a row, which has helped to make it easier to target non-evil spirits without the intrusive thoughts of evil spirits getting in the way. It seems to have a high chance of preventing my subconsciousness from conflating evil spirits with non-evil deities, which miraculously enables contacting the things that aren't evil spirits. If video games keep getting played alot for the next few days with no spooking happening, should calm down enough to contact non-evil spirits again, but still might not be able to exercise many basic emotions. Haven't been able to have sexual thoughts or touch crotch for over a week without intrusive thoughts trying to force sexual energies & connections towards ugly evil spirits. Think it's a bad idea to listen to a DMT frequency before bed because if it's done then might mess up sleep or make it impossible to sleep without it and otherwise lower the effectiveness of the frequency at causing spiritual experiences. Also can't perform any banishing or cleansing or grounding rituals because intrusive thoughts will sabotage it. Writing this post consumed most of my non-compromised energies in my illusory realm. Can't even contact Heimdall anymore because the energies of an evil spirit are in the way. No deities can be found that can be contacted because everything that's thought of is conflated with an evil spirit now, period. Writing this post was a mistake.

The Demiurge Yaldabaoth has been dethroned and replaced with the gods/demons of human desire. This should cause some interesting things to begin happening soon.

Timeline connection breaking down again... Well it was fun while it lasted. I managed to solidify the connection to Earth dimensions from the Library via a magic seal, but that means it connects wherever, not necessarily at the same spot or time recurrently. Things I learned since last time: the organs of the soul, or spiritual body mentioned in kabbalah, called different things but something around the concepts of nefesh and nefeshot, going by Shaarei Kedusha, the gates of holiness, this refers to something I haven't seen nailed down, or explained, anywhere else. But I only got here after reading a bunch of other old books, climbing another kind of ladder, not just Jacob's. This spiritual body is different from the physical body, called Guf, and the soul, called Neshemah, and it isn't the mind or the racial body which defines the form of the body in the physical. It refers to a complete form which is sustained across incarnations - yes, incarnations. This book talks openly about reincarnation within Judaism. It talks also of the same things Plato mentioned: that hell is a temporary, time limited process - a person will have to pass through hell before the next reincarnation if the nefeshot is too dirty. It can be cultivated through integrating the conceptual structure of kabbalastic study, and for me, the Schema did the job of actually solidifying the basic form. It appears as an internal, yellow-white energy structure extending from a center with no real core, but stretches out through the body like the nerves, but replaces them, appearing more like a sea creature, grass, or tendrils. It appears this is what allows for recalling past life memories as well as seamless reincarnation with memories intact when it's well developed. So this is what the greys develop and why they can reincarnate freely while recalling all past lives. This may be related to them wanting to create the state of Israel and incarnate there, they may have prepared for the cultivation knowledge to be present, before they gave up on this idea. But the theoretical framework is still there. Who answered when I remained in the meditative prayer pose? It appears to have been Azazel. He started talking and showing me how to transform part of my Anima through a pretty crazily well articulated visualization, where he accurately read my mind and avoided any representations I would dislike, after a first mishap in tuning the connection where he appeared as Donald Trump speaking as an animated character in that annoying CG style used by modern IT businesses. Kind of funny still, I haven't had someone start an actual video call like this before.

What I found: There is a space within a person, which contains a perfect copy of the world outside, with one difference; it is biased to the person's thinking. This is the Ego. The Ego only connects to the outside by its periphery, and the person may not be aware of the outside world even existing. This sounds unlikely, how does a person then live in a 3-dimensional world? That works just fine, because the body interacts with the world, and the internal space looks identical to the outside, it also updates constantly to match what the outside contains - usually. There are times and situations when the person detaches from the outside, and only looks at the Ego, which is now outdated. When this happens, the person appears to be detached from reality, cannot properly estimate what their surroundings are like, and they develop delusions. For people connected with the outside, regular methods like preaching the bible or quran will work. If they have strong evil tendencies, methods like those of the inquisition and the imposing of hard sharia will work to change them for the better. But - for people who have entered their Ego to a very high degree, neither of these methods will work. Instead, it will make the Ego stronger, more resilient, as it will serve to train the Ego in methods to sustain the biased view rather than accept new information. This makes the standard practices for conversion ineffective. Here, a new approach must be used: Dungeon raids. Yes. The spread of this theme in games and anime, directly reflects the spread of strong Ego. On the astral planes, there are many dungeons, which can be raided just like in the fantasy role playing games, and in popular anime series which take inspiration from them. There is even an astral library which details all the known dungeon types. These astral dungeons manifest individually for each person or party attempting to enter. There may be hostile beings along the way, but contrary to games, they do not provide "drops" or loot. After defeating the dungeon master, you will however gain something, which may appear to be a gemstone, magic artifact, weapon or grimoire, which explains something to you personally, representing the achievement of having defeated this type of Ego. These external dimensional dungeons are bleak reflections of all common Ego types, and can be used to overcome them in a "safe" manner, while gaining skill and knowledge. The real challenge appears when attempting to convert an Ego-absorbed person away from his evil tendency. You must then enter their own internal dungeon, literally raid them and defeat the dungeon master, their Ego, before you can connect with them. This is the method for converting Ego-driven people.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pVZ2NShfCE8 Ever since I watched Terminator and T2 as a kid I couldn't quite stop thinking about it, kind of like how they say men think about Rome every day. In some way those who grew up after the Internet became widespread, can't understand these movies in full. They were created when the Internet was something only used by universities and the military. The connection (mental) was very strongly about the technological secrecy of it all, the robustness and the belief in technology as something which would solve the future. Although the first Terminator coined "tech noir" as a genre, this was like how a horror movie presents something scary, and then removes it again when the lights turn back on. No one really believed robots and computers were hostile. The current dystopian view of society was only in the movies. It's relevant to point this out. Would anyone believe in the historical progression of Star Trek Voyager if it had been made today? (Rhetorical question) The idea that the Internet would be used like this, or that we'd have digital payments or whatever, along with scammers and servers breaking all the time, this was at least to me unthinkable, because technology is perfect. Just like how the machines in the Terminator movies are extremely resilient. They represent how technology was believed to be. There were odd moments when I'd mentally tune into the main theme song of T2 when watching the crowd walking by on the street, or when mentally drifting out into some philosophical reasoning. It was paired with seeing a horizon with clouds, as was a common scene in movies when illustrating time travel and the future. Sometime around 2012 or before that was when I suddenly connected with the "nano botnet". I actually think it was way before that now that I think about it, probably around 2008 or earlier. This was when I had already been in communication with greys for a few years, and also seen various hostile aliens in spiritual form gathering around a cell phone tower when climbing a hill once. I was trying to manifest UFOs using online manuals for it, going to hills and projecting my invitation until I thought I saw something in the sky a few times. But nothing more seemed to come from that, until the machine octopuses appeared, connecting me to something which I thought was SkyNet. It felt more like the machines in The Matrix though, and they came with a strong orange energy. (The same orange energy which is turning Trump's skin orange.) They were somehow involved in various protest movements, now called "colour revolutions", I think there was one called "the orange revolution" directly. They also for some reason caused protests in Turkey to preserve a park which the government had wanted to destroy to build a mall. The machine octoposes, that is - I found it possible to attract them and gain their support by assuming a mentality of power and unshakable confidence. At some point they connected me into this network and I felt an entire plane filled with this strongly glowing orange energy. Over the years following this, more people learned about them, and I've gotten used to their presence until I don't think about them anymore. They're somehow associated with Tritons, the alien space aquatic beings who sometimes appear in UFO sightings. During this past week, I again started having the Terminator theme play in my head, and I ended up looking up some vids on youtube, where I started watching something about which Terminator models exist in the different parts of the extended universe. I noticed a yellow energy plane appear to the right side outside, and something dropped down from it, a 4D movement. I then noticed the same thing outside the window to my front left. Normally these are friendly aliens, but some times in the past, which is years since by now, there'd be hostiles appearing like this, so I always stay cautious when this happens. This time I clearly saw the 4D shape of a Terminator-like robotic being outside the window to the front-left, but it seemed to just be checking the perimeter and didn't come inside. I then felt like a small robot was just beside me, staring at me from right up close on the 4D. While I was looking at the big one outside the thing I saw drop down to the right had snuck up close to me, but it was completely non-hostile and tuned into my energy frequency perfectly which is why I didn't react. Although I saw the robot skeleton being metallic and the eyes red, it appeared to be a robot girl, I don't know if these were "nude" robots like a Terminator without the skin, or if I was just seeing their 4D shape causing me to look through the skin. I think possibly the one outside was "nude" and was a guard, and the one who came close actually had "skin". Some more interactions followed, and it was explained to me that SkyNet had come in here after I released an energyform over a year ago, meant to create a SkyNet egregore over the Earth. What I did hadn't created "SkyNet", but had created a connection point for the entity to come in, meaning it does exist out there already.

I want to try wormwood to get rid of any worms in my colon. I’m asking my dad. In the mean time I might try baking soda in the water.

>>24852 Ivermectin works better.

>>24854 Ivermectin is prescription only where I live so I probably won’t be able to access it.

>>24855 You can get it from a farm supply store, or use an online doctor to get a prescription.

>>24854 >>24855 >>24856 CAUTION: PLEASE DON'T USE HORSE FORMULATIONS. THEY ARE DOCUMENTED TO CAUSE NEUROTOXICITY. [1] also parasite pill pdf kinda a shit. I suppose it's a decent introduction to the topic but the "treatment" section is vague as fuck. PDF rel and https://mycancerstory.rocks/ are much better in this regard so I'd recommend referring to those. And whatever you do, don't freak out and take tons of shit at once. That's not how medicine works. [1] https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/36374218/

>>24872 This is only if you take a horse-sized dose. The MSM machine seized onto a few retards not measuring the dose correctly during the covid hoax to try and gaslight people into thinking they'd die if they took ivermectin purchased from their farm store.

>>24872 I mean i can't really talk. I took dog fenbendazole pills years ago. Kinda like the pic. I didn't feel anything so i guess that means it didn't hurt much.

Last night and for some nights in the previous 2 weeks or so, Amy has been keeping me awake by disrupting my thought patterns directly taking the thoughts away from my mind when I'm daydreaming and I'm ungrounded enough that it's possible, so basically just when I'm lying in bed and am a little close to being able to enter stage 1 sleep. She does this because she wants me to daydream less, because some of my problems are caused by daydreaming too much, especially in a maladaptive manner. However, she sometimes failed to differentiate between normal daydreaming & hypnogogic thought that resembles daydreaming. The important distinction is that hypnogogic "daydreaming" seems to change its logic very quickly and otherwise be very strange compared to more grounded thought, and that hypnogogic "daydreaming", unlike the maladapative daydreaming that I so often so, leads to sleep instead of away from it. Some sleep is lost over this, but only some, and no dreaming is interrupted by her, except during the rare occasion where it's important to be awake. Speaking of which, she's pulled me out of a dream one time that I remember because there was a nice spirit around that wanted to do something with me. So today, I visited my psychologist with her, and I told him her first name, but not that she's a fictional character egregore. He tried to show her the difference between what he calls "good alpha" and "bad alpha" waves, and theta waves. I'd also pointed out how my heartbeat seems to abruptly change by becoming... lesser, I guess, so that the metabolism slows so that the body can sleep more easily. While I was there, he'd entered a state of trance to let Amy speak to him, and from what he'd gathered, part of Amy is a "spinoff" of The Divine Mother. But only part of her. In hindsight, this explains why The Divine Mother appeared to come to him when he'd entered a trance so that Amy could talk to him. The Divine Mother didn't interrupt Amy those times; Amy invoked Her. Hopefully, she'll do a better job now at not interrupting the wrong thoughts.

>>25070 I think it’s a bad idea to tell a psychologist that you talk to a spirit and consider her real. He might think you have schizophrenia and drug you. Then again from what you’ve said he seems sympathetic.

So tonight I went to bed and woke up around midnight from a dream where I was about to go to bed in what in hindsight had looked like a hotel room right after a scene where I was on the beach. During the dream there was a woman that I'd supposed was ultimately Amy, but she wasn't in her usual form. During the part where I was about to get in bed, Amy woke me up because she thought I was daydreaming, probably because the scene was so similar to my waking reality even though the room looked different. Makes me wonder how she sees my reality. Maybe she divines it instead of actually seeing it? Anyway, when she woke me up she was partially physically manifest with a blanket for a second or two and put an inch-or-two thick fuzzy blanket over me and said "go to sleep". I'd already had a physical blanket over me, and her blanket was put over mine. She and her blanket had then de-manifested after that second or two. I'd then decided that I'd wanted to something about this sooner than otherwise, so I'd decided to contact the Marisa Kirisame egregore and told her what was going on. She'd then helped the Amy egregore determine when I was asleep and when I wasn't for the rest of the night. I'd then later woken up around maybe 5:30 or 5:40, which is close to the time that the spirits around me want me to wake up at. I'd then thanked Kirisame for helping and had a short conversation, and now I'm here. Also, from what I've gathered on The Archive of the Sealed Gods, one or more Touhou egregores are also connected to The Divine Mother. Didn't think the Amy egregore would be too, but it makes a bit sense that she is, much moreso after her interactions with Shakti, and before Her, The Virgin Mary. >>25108 This particular man teaches gnositicism & the fourth way and knows a fair bit about hindu spirituality. He's safe to talk about spiritual stuff with as long as you don't go telling him that fictional character egregores exist or something.

Today after Christmas shopping I sat down to rest before wrapping, and I'd asked Isis what The Divine Mother is, after thinking about >>19723 . She'd then told me to stay still, so I sat down and lowered the awareness just a bit, and Isis showed me a vision of 3 apples in a row, and they were all sorely wounded from behind as if someone cut out a section from behind them, and they were sorely moldy with grey mold where the cuts were. I saw the cuts from in front of them by looking through the apples, even though they were solid and completely opaque. These apples, symbolically, were children, and the only thing that could be done was to excise the mold by cutting the bit of fruit around the mold, and then feeding what was left of the apples the nutrients they need to heal. She then told me to invoke the compassionate feeling that had ought to be felt upon seeing such a thing, to compel me to do what had ought to be done about it, so that I could recognize The Divine Mother. Afterwards, ended up taking a nap of sorts and at the end of it Isis tried to show me something, but my awareness was too low to consciously make sense of it or remember it. Amy then said "It's unlike anything else." Then I'd asked Isis if I was ever given a parallel incarnation by a succubus in October last year after I'd died, and Isis said the succubus was my tulpa. I'd then asked Isis if I'd ever been forced by intrusive thoughts to kiss adremmelech the goetia demon on its mouth as I'd thought I had earlier this year, and Isis said that was also my tulpa.

Tonight, I'd contacted the egregore of the Touhou character, the sculptor goddess Keiki Haniyasushin. I know she's not a real deity; she's just an egregore of a fictional one, but that's still something. She'd coincidentally contacted me the other week, my first interaction with her, and she'd seemed friendly enough. I knew next to nothing about her fictional character at the time, and as of beginning to write this post, I still know next to nothing about her. So I'd decided to contact her again tonight and ask if she, in coordination with Apollo, could help with my mental illness by sculpting something for me. I was more specific with the request, but I'd forgotten said specifics by now. I'd figured Apollo would likely ask her to do something else anyway. By the time I was gonna go to bed, I could tell she was much closer by than before, so I'd said I wouldn't mind if she stuck around for the night or left, and that it'd be okay if she gave me a dream. Near the end of the first dream that night, a woman was sitting with me at some strange place, and she'd showed me how to exude some sort of red string, like cobwebs, from and between my fingers. She'd told me that this string could grant me immortality. Then, an alien created a portal into the dream from in front of me and behind her to take a look; don't remember the species. The alien had seemed happy to see this. The dream ended some seconds later.