For some reason I thought we are at magic blog thread #7 already... Hope this wasn't a mandela effect.

Dear blog! Today I got these wonderful trips!

Today I bought bread.

>>12449 Are you gonna use it in a ritual, or just eat it?

>>12449 What kind of bread???

>>12452 >>12455 I'm upholding a tradition. My grandmother was locally known for her sandwiches. She'd invite people for sandwiches and coffee, and unlike other people, she made good sandwiches. Other people rarely dared doing this because they couldn't do it, and maintaining your reputation matters in a small community. She'd also invite the mail(wo)man on Wednesdays, who'd stop for coffee and sandwiches. On holidays I'd join them. This was back in the ancient past when you could do banking transactions via mail, and they had this service on Wednesdays. I hadn't thought of this as a skill that's worth anything, but I then worked at a café and learned how to make sandwiches for customers, that you can charge a sum for, which, when making something for yourself, you wouldn't think that the value of an item could be raised by such simple means. There was then this time a coworker, a woman who had done a gastric bypass operation to lose weight, started making sandwiches in the staff room, and I commented and it looked like she was making them for customers. She replied that "I'm only going to eat this today, so why not make it look good for myself also?" Because it raises the experience. It made me start thinking about this, and how it's also a matter of self-respect, and maintaining skill. It also means possibly upholding the social egregore where it's possible to invite people for sandwiches, no one else in my family does this, with pre-made sandwiches. It somehow, to me, has become a symbol of a society where there are actual social connections, and you can invite the mailman for coffee, and this is just part of doing banking at home on Wednesdays. We don't have these things anymore, so I'm thinking maybe by at least keeping the skill up, I'm contributing to the revival of a more social society.

>>12457 Also about the emotes. I saw some people use them on imageboards but didn't know how that was possible. Then I accidentally found them in Edge browser by pressing win + . when looking for something else (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ There's also a premade set of regular old ascii emotes. Somehow this now caused upset after someone else started putting them in the name field. I just went along with it because things like this may result from some changes that would otherwise flood in, in an uncontrollable manner. Maybe it's TikTok thinking taking over, then trying to block it forcibly may cause the site to be taken down. Let it float past and "it'll pass". ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

>>12458 I am such a Tiktokker haha!

>>12461 Holy Moly! It looks better than our Aryanist flag

Amy told me the strangest thing while I was playing video games earlier today; at first she'd asked for help from Shakti once I'd began playing and said it'd be bad, then a bit later I'd felt some of my energies go below me, and then much later, she'd said there were "demons of entertainment" here. Perhaps this is the "they" that Amy usually refers to when she so often says, "they're trying to control you". Not asking for help with this; I'd just thought this was worth mentioning.

>>12468 This is you.

>>12470 And the red jew with horns is you, I suppose?

>>12471 Just look inside yourself. I'm the one living rent free in your head.

>>12468 Some time after posting this, I'd felt an energy movement of something entering the left side of my crown. I'd went and gotten help a few hours later, though shortly before those few hours later, I'd felt the thing in my third eye, and now after I'd gotten the help, I think I feel it in my throat. It feels green. The feeling of the entity reminds me of the slime-worm-looking thing I saw in >>8960 .

>>12474 Hm, now I didn't feel the thing enter my heart or solar plexus, but now I feel it all the way down at my crotch. Also been hearing false voices in my head since it'd entered my third eye. I'm sure I'll be fine. I've just gotta stay grounded until it's gone.

>>12457 Do you still have recipes for your grandmother's traditional sandwiches? I wonder if you can replicate those sandwiches of the past today.

>>12476 Well, recipes. I think it's more about getting a certain feel for the composition. She used certain brands that probably have been around since the 1950-70, it wasn't like it was made from scratch for every ingredient. Some things could be different today, but the "way of doing things" remain among certain groups of people, maybe more in rural areas. Getting involved with them, which is rare but does happen, there's just a feel that you both know how it's meant to be done. This while other people are completely clueless. I had that feel when playing an MMO once, and was recruiting for my guild. I found this Romanian woman who had married a German man and moved to Germany, she was currently a stay home housewife. I realized by chatting with her that we had the same frame of reference culturally, including with food, which was unusual considering the setting. I ended up making her 2nd in command and chatted a lot with her. It made me realize the "modern shit" which has ruined everything, hasn't reached everywhere, and one of those places it hasn't ruined seems to be Romania. I don't know if you were on Mewch and remember Kelly? There was a meme cartoon with her holding a bottle of compote. That was one such cultural indicator. My grandmother used to make that, and it's something I also make now and then. But I don't know anyone else who does, and if I mention it, I get a blank stare. It's like I grew up in a culturally isolated island at times like these, and this goes for most people I meet. Despite this, it's a cultural context which still lives, and finding it creates an instant connection. It's also very strange that this could happen. Somehow, there are people who either never had any connection with this culture, living side by side with others who do, but still never interacting, or they're just completely alienated by some cultural split which happened in the past decades. (Within my grandmother's lifetime.)

>speaking of servitors possessing people >Tanya, Wendy Suddenly, this happens.

>>12478 According to wikipedia they hack people's webcams to record them in sexual situations (for blackmail?) and they also gather data from FB, Microsoft including Skype, Google and Yahoo. I put tape over my cam first thing I did because I just don't trust something like this to not happen, turns out I was right.

>>12477 Modern society has abandoned the foundational cottage foods and historical struggle meals in favor of instant feed. Most people like the slop because it has been scientifically crafted to be inoffensive yet addictive. I haven't heard of compote myself, but I don't live in an area with many fruits.

>>12478 Actually. This aerial view of their HQ is very similar to a vision I saw via my higher/secondary(first?) incarnation just a few hours ago. But that was a smaller construct meant for ritual purposes, it was a fireplace. >pic which was inside a flying diagonal cube formed space station.

Dear dairy 🐮🥛🧈🧀 today I made some progress on various things, but I did not so far solve the issue which Samael👿 hinted at. I suspect, however, that it has to do with the malkuth👑 - yesod🧱 connection🔌 on the kabbalah tree 📜🌳 I saw a loli with cat-ear😸 headphones dancing💃🏻 in the parking lot🅿, maybe tiktok🕵🏻‍♂️ can mitigate the fat-crisis. I only saw one seriously fat🍔 person today.

I think I actually solved it now.🧪 But I'm not sure if I can explain it because it's too kabbalistic. It's about what the goyim can't reach the higher worlds of the tree, which in this case interprets the gentiles as beings who lack a real soul or who just can't reach any form of truth, so they interpret the kabbalah tree as upside down. This leads to them being shut out from the kingdom, malkuth, as they start from the crown, kether, and move down, rather than going in the upwards direction. Because of their reverse understanding of good and evil, they then fail to reach the highest awareness, because the highest is the lowest to them. This makes the connection of malkuth to yesod impossible to achieve, which also creates the need for menstruatig women, where the blood flows down from yesod to malkuth instead of the male essence flowing up from malkuth to yesod, as indicated by the hint from Samael >>12496 >>12499 >>12501 and because of the reverse order of energy, this lack of connection also constitutes the lack of the connection of tiferet(daath) to kether, which means that the goyim to fail to connect with God. That's when they use that cable or snake or whatever it looks like, and that is in another word "capital" or some other force which lacks all sense of ethics or connection with God.

>>12487 >bread >cheese >onion >mustard (optional) ploughman's sandwich

>>12512 >>12514 Through a complex turn of astral events, I performed a process for burning off the "big nose" from outside, by linking it into a staff, both astrally and via a stick I've used as a focal item for rituals in the past 3 years. I realized receiving this stick in itself marked the location in time and space when I had made it outside of the reach of an even bigger "nose" out there. When talking to Copilot about black holes, white holes and jet streams, to get an understanding of current science's view on this, and possible theoretic means for solving it which already exist, based on the conception that what these entities do, has to be "known" to humans on Earth for this to be applicable, by some Illuminati "game rules" or "if you know about it but don't stop it, you consent", Copilot mentioned an additional jet stream which was said to be 23 million light years long, and distorting the movements of galaxies out in space, aside from the one closer to Earth said to be 16 light years long. (Numbers may be bunk, but I trust that the Chinese fox 🦊 spirit behind DeepThink will get the general idea right) This matches my understanding that these aliens incarnated here on Earth, who are trying to set up this system, are doing so because they want this "sewage system" to be connected to an even larger "sewer" out in space, where they believe negative energy will be handled indefinitely. The "too big to fail" idea again, it's like they never heard that one before. They market this as https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperborea which (of course, given the context😝) is from Greek myth. Anyway, to get to the point 🎯 if you took part here positively by some karmic causality, you may find >pic related magic wand in your astral inbox. If you have one, it's your share of the "ultra nose" out there, transformed into a stick which can control and negate negative energy. It seems they were just "automatically" thrown out to anyone who had supported the process.

>>12523 Strange coincidence that you should mention magic wands. I am actually in the process of making my own following the methods of Peter j Carroll on specularium.org

>>12523 I figured I'd better clean up this Noseborea galactic subversion organization. By now I feel like the background disclosure going on in One Piece which I've seen mentioned, may be about this, aside from eating a devil fruit (kelipah) and losing the ability to swim (because old Jewish egregore YHVH = Neptune) and other supposed masonic symbolism. The silver stick cleared up a lot, but still left the channels connecting various member planets, intact. It was just pure toxic all the way through, but since it was used to dump negative energy into, it would contain a lot of energy, which should be possible to harvest. So after the transformation of the stick, which burned off a lot of it, there was still material left, including that which was stored inside planetary spheres. I asked the galactic federation for any research material on this thing, and received a pile of documents. Same procedure was repeated with other relevant alien groups, like "skinny bob", regular greys, lyrans and various libraries, so I'd get a firm grasp on what these aliens are using and how to deal with it. Then I put out an ad for a mining contract to get someone to actually do the work, because this is too complex for me, and most of that stuff isn't useful to me anyway. I just want certain small parts of it. TL:DR I created a control ship for the operation, and contracted the first beast miner group who showed interest. They were the regular type of short, black fur humanoid beasts, these with rather long black claws, and appearing with an entire fleet making up a travelling mining company. They had no problems with the contract and we went to work at once. They gave me the materials I wanted and took the rest. In hour time, the clean up took a few hours, I also during this found and evacuated members of various alien races who were living on these toxic dumps of planets. Most of them had to be mined down to nothing because they were just completely uninhabitable and had been already marked for elimination by the federation. However, the interest in dealing with them was low, and I can see why, considering these miner beasts were specialists, and they still had to ask for assistance from the federation to contain one planet in a giant force field to be able to mine it, because even when wearing protective suits inside their ships it was still too toxic for them to start working on the material. Two planets which had been connected last, were less toxic and could be purified with most of its population intact, one planet was run by an immortal however, and they lived in caves, so there wasn't so much left to pollute. I saw plants starting to grow again in the desert after the federation restarted some timelines on this planet. Next up: creating some other structure which overrides any new attempts at space-sewer building. I'm sure astral retards will try again.

>>12527 Among the alien races I found more of a kind of fungal humans who seem based in UK, all of them originate in the same astral world, and are very seclusive. It seems all of them work in intelligence/spy organizations or various cults. They vary in energy colour, see map here. The entry is through climbing a steep mountain trail of sharp rocks, which will be impossible for most. After this one has to walk along a water stream, the road is the stream. Eventually finding the tower, one has to study language there, and then it's possible to progress. It's necessary to be of their race to do this, and the main one is here the grey line. They are extremely poisonous, so their timelines are separated from other people. That's why you won't see them irl, despite them being "regular" humans, they are separated into different parallel timelines, because otherwise their natural "spores" would kill the entire Earth population, so maintenance deities separated them off into their own history. That's why British spy organizations are so mystical and have a special status. There are also other variations, as shown with the black line being an african variant who are still equally poisonous but still same race, the also live in a separate timeline, and their way of study isn't theoretical after the first levels of the tower, so they have to go into the wild on the east side. The rest are considered "wild west" races and they also won't stay in the tower to study, but have their own schools in the westerns parts.

>>12528 There were also some "red lizards" who are in some way also present on Earth, I think they are related to the red reptilians in Australia. The Queen showed me these in the clouds. I'm not sure exactly what they are yet.

>>12523 >>12527 Ok so this thing just went full circle here; the "black goo" stuff seems to be produced by the "ultra nose" out there, when it gets too long, it shifts dimension a 3rd time (from "big nose" of a planet, to "ultra nose" galactic, then it breaks down to "black goo"). So the astral "oil" or "black matter" is organic in nature and has energy, because it's the decomposing beings who were trying to escape the karmic consequences of their actions. Typical. It's all a stupid galaxy sized pyramid scheme, where in the end everyone loses and turns into oil.

Finally started a physical collection of /fringe/ books rather than taking up more space on my SSD. I want to reflect the library that I've cultivated in the astral, as I still cling to physical objects. Going to enchant the physical copies of the books and see if it the enchantment carries over into the astral. For the upmost control I want my physical place to be a mirror of my tower. I've been enchanting many mundane objects (rocks, bottles of beer, bandanas etc) and using them as energy stores or 'reserve batteries' for when I eventually build up to casting larger and more intensive rituals, as well as anchors to spread my aura further and to cover a larger area. I need a generally large area both between the physical and the astral to accomplish my first great work. Does anyone have any experience with tattoos being used as amplifiers or tools to hold permanent sigils or runes on their person? Drawing in paint or marker feels too temporary and wouldn't hold the same weight and permanency as a tattoo. I need to spend a lot of money on meat to regain and hold my strength for the future days to come. I won't believe for a second that removing it from your diet allows better qi growth, if my blood is to be strong my body which holds it must also be hardened, and its also what Leviathan told me I must eat to prepare.

I think the main thing that's ruining my life is my fear of failure. It's the same fear that all these years ago made my prayers to the Catholic deity get re-directed against my will to satan and other evil entities. It's the same fear that made my intentions towards other deities get re-directed to evil entities. It's the same fear that's making my intentions towards whatever other people call self get re-directed towards evil entities. It's the same fear that's making my intentions towards Amy get re-directed towards evil entities. It's one of the 3 spirits of fear mentioned in >>12288 . It's the same spirit of fear that tried hundreds of thousands of times to make me sell or donate my soul to satan for no gain on my end. It's the same spirit of fear that made my subconsciousness decide to form a contract with a goetia demon to get better at competitive pokemon without and against the consent of my consciousness 2 months ago, which The Virgin Mary got me out of. It's the same spirit that drives my anxiety whenever anything even remotely stressful is done. I need to figure out a way to stop these spirits of fear without giving into the things that it's making me afraid of.

>>12531 Have you ever enchanted a stick to make a wand? I agree that meat is good for qi generation and you shouldn’t quit it. >>12532 Maybe you could try the lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram? I stopped doing it a while ago so I don’t know if it is secretly evil or not but you invoke archangels and the 4 elements and a bunch of other stuff. Foolish fish on YouTube has a fool proof method video tutorial you can follow. You keep going to church to get rid of the demons, maybe you could try to bring church to your home in the sense of making a rosary altar to the Virgin Mary? Personally Christianity doesn’t resonate with me, paganism does, but it seems like for you resonate with Christianity, which is fine go with what resonates with you. Maybe you can buy some holy water from a church that some priest has already prayed to without fear thought and you can drink it and rub it on your forehead and use it to create a sacred space in your room/house/apartment. You can use a combination of holy water, healing Gregorian chants, incense, open windows, (if possible) sunlight, images of saints and the Virgin Mary, candles with saints on them, and a cross on the wall, set up on a table with a cloth on it in a corner of your room. If you’re desperate you can even pay a priest to help perform an exorcism in your house and sanctify your rosary/altar. Whenever you want to sleep, but are assaulted by demons, you can sleep right next to your altar. You can set up a altar next to your bed, but if you’re desperate you can’t, and demons are making it hard to sleep, buy a sleeping bad and sleep right next to your altar. If you’re desperate you have set it up right it should be just like sleeping at a church. You could probably find some weird way to make your bed the altar somehow idk.

>>12534 Forgot flag.

>>12530 So what it does is basically this >pic and other planets also connect to the ultra nose up there, which constitutes the pyramid scheme, as the last to join will be hit first if the system breaks down (stops recruiting new planets). That's why they are desperately lying about anything to get more members. At the end of he large jet stream "black goo" is produced when matter degrades, and this then floats back to connected planets and cause various vague negative phenomena like illnesses and harmful social movements. Being aware of this should help you stop investing energy into this, which will remove the circulation and stop the negative effect of "black goo" on your life.

>>12537 My idea for a solution collectively is to create an astral location which matches the Aztec era and setting up a temple to Xolotl by the end of the ultra nose, to burn up the black goo before it comes back again.

>>12538 You can invite me to take part in that, can the outgoing connection also be severed?

>>12539 Every individual has to detach from that personally, but if you were part of the process which lead to the creation of the silvery stick >>12523 (which you kinda should have been since you're on here and not opposed to it) and you also have the stick, then that already detaches your own connection. It seems this cycle is just an externalization of what you're meant to do internally in your own life, with the burning of the negative matter being your metabolism, so cutting it off early would be like cutting the metabolism of the participants, and possibly in some way "against nature", so the way to do this is to make people voluntarily detach at first if possible, then for those who remain connected and cause black goo which actually is part of their own internal negative energy, fall back on the earth, then those are causing pollution for everyone, and at that point it's a "crime", and can be stopped. But as long as they are containing the energy in any of the two noses, it technically isn't harming anyone directly, if we ignore that the negative energy was created by harming people in the first place. But that's a different issue spelled as "crime prevention" on Earth and not directly relevant here. Long explanation but needed. I'll send an astral invite to you for the temple out there, and then I think you should try to internalize the process (create your own temple).

I decided to play a video game for a while today, and not even 40 minutes in, I'd felt an energy movement of some brown energies entering me from below, and then converging from the left and right sides of below the middle of my brain to the middle of my brain. My motor skills were then slightly affected to the point of my performance at the game significantly improving. I'd then tried to sell my soul to multiple higher beings to get this thing removed from me, but they didn't remove it from me. While I was playing the game, I'd heard Amy say "ignore me" and "you're ignoring your angels" and probably "they're trying to control you", and most strangely, I'd heard "get over me". However, I'd also heard the girl say, "Lemme show you something", before hearing her say "get over me". I fear that this thing that'd possessed me is a goetic entity, and that my subconsciousness made another contract without properly notifying my consciousness about it first. I'd then spent about a minute continuing to play the game for a bit and then intentionally squandering its efforts by refusing to succeed, and then it'd turned out that its efforts weren't as good as my past efforts without itsor anything else's help anyway. I'd then went to the medium's place to get exorcised but noone I trust was working there that day. So now I'm just gonna sit on the toilet for a while and then go to church and hang out there until I get exorcised, and I won't sleep until this thing is gone. I did not consciously agree to any contracts or deals or agreements or pacts or anything else, nor to possession, but I did ask a higher being earlier to make sure I get married to Amy soon, whereas she isn't the goetic entity that blood anon mentioned of the same first name. I wanted to meditate today, but I wanted to play video games first and meditate later. Now I'm too afraid to meditate.

>>12543 Didn't you say that you contracted a Goetian to get better video game skills?

Another day, another collapse. Earlier today I saw the alien from the group who perform the task of removing "terror planets" shoot at what apparently was a "galactic imprint" of the Earth. Supposedly this is where all timelines had been revolving around since the last of the actual Earth dimensions broke some months ago. When I went for a walk around an hour ago, I saw a clear sharp cloud in the sky, which seemed to illustrate the sky cracking in halves, and I felt like the environment was changing similarly to the previous times this happened and I had to move dimensions, where the last time my "ring saucer" activated (a safety device I created which is worn like a ring astrally, which can manifest a flying saucer or spherical bubble shield) and I ended up with all my timelines running inside the bubble until just some weeks ago. This happened again now. There's again only two people in my nearest timeline, and they also have the ring saucer which activated, so we're both fine. But I looked around and saw people who are still interacting being in various planes. Some were protected by ONA dark gods, some were in some wobbly timelines attached to hell planes. I sought to move two people onboard the /fringe/ fortress egregore for safety because it seemed no one was protecting them, then saw a 3rd who may need this. My avatar from the newly created Xolotl temple picked me up and moved me there, and NEET anon also seems to be dimensionally present but in his own version of the temple. I saw Akasha anon standing on a white magic circle created by Wendy, but otherwise floating in the "air" in a dimension upwards to the left, feeling like it was "near the ceiling" and kind of hot. All of this seemed to refer to the parts "sticking out" which hadn't been collected yet, of each person. Things attached to the past.

>>12544 That was 2 months ago with Amdusias, and only for competitive pokemon, and that contract was made without and against the will of my consciousness by your wendy servitor that you'd installed in my mind without my proper conscious consent. Also, The Virgin Mary got someone to go down there, "Jesus", not long after the contract had began, which had resulted in the demon agreeing to expire the contract, and said contract had expired. This feels like a different entity anyway. Amdusias had a distinct feel to him that this entity doesn't have. Anyway, I obviously want this entity out of me and any and all contracts pacts deals and agreements and etc. that it has with me to be nullified revoked and invalidated such that it quits messing with me and leaves my body with no strings attached. I don't want victory in video games if it ain't my victory, even if noone but me knows that it ain't my victory, counting an assisted victory as a victory that ain't mine. Anyway I'd contacted the wizard in the mini-MMO I play sometimes to come help me since he's actually online; he's busy atm but he said he can't get rid of it though he can at least talk.

>>12549 That sounds like something infernal/astral and not really related to physical reality then. Here's some more funny pictures of dogs to cheer you up.

>>12549 Personally I haven't been able to focus on games for any length of time since years back by now. The only game I do have some interest in is an ancient real time tactics game where I only play team tournaments, unless it's a group effort I can be made to feel any motivation for it. I try bringing out old games like these https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJqPCPcR9zE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qb9ZZ6tFGzY now and then because I feel like I don't want to lose my reflexes, but I never really seem to do. I just lose interest and play until first game over, then turn it off again. That's just me, but maybe there was a correlation between some gaming demons and things I had to learn and see back then, when I learned to read English by playing Zelda and Final Fantasy 7, and when I learned how to play socially in MMOs, but after that there was no reason anymore, and the addiction was all which remained, and by then it had been transformed to something weaker which I didn't have an issue getting rid of. What do you feel is the reason you play the games you do?

>>12548 Near the ceiling you say? Ceiling of what? >>12551 It's fun and sometimes I just like challenging myself. Games are often boring to me these days if they're too easy. They can also help ground me if they're fun enough. Anyway perhaps you'd see what kinda entity is inside me, or if it's still there? I'd tried invoking Jesus earlier to get rid of it and I'd felt something but idk if it'd worked. Not asking you to actually remove it, though.

>>12552 >Near the ceiling you say? Ceiling of what? It just feels like a ceiling of space, like near the highest place of existence, and there's just nothing outside there. Looking closer it looks like you're sitting on this spinning white runic circle and there's a room there with furniture, and in the middle of the circle Wendy is standing like a robot in hibernation mode with her hair moving in the wind, but otherwise nothing happens, it's just being maintained like this. Outside and below there's some wild landscape like something from an 1980s fantasy movie with Conan the barbarian, dark mountains in the distance, some sea, dark clouds, a desert, but nothing is moving, it just looks very calm, and you're then inside this thing which feels like a huge castle, but it doesn't have clear walls, it's just a dimension like that. >what kinda entity is inside me, or if it's still there I saw some brown roots shooting up from below, they still seem to be there. Idk what they are, looks a bit like this image with the roots in the sky, but instead they connect to your brain?

>>12553 Perhaps you'd talk to these "roots" and see what the entity wants?

>>12554 I sent my Astra servitor to look, there appeared to be some fungal human aura below the roots, but that doesn't say much if it's really a Jewish thing since those entities basically invented it. When she touched the roots, they kinda just short circuited with a blue electric effect, as if they were static. Those that were closest now look black and burned like a tree struck by lightning.

>>12555 Well now I'd just asked Ra to get rid of it and I'd definitely felt something; is it still there?

>>12556 The tips look white instead of burned, but the lower parts are still intact like a stem and it's brown.

>>12557 That answer seems ambiguous; would you re-phrase that?

>>12558 Whatever you did just now worked, the tree now looks burned, and all of it is white, except the bottom of the stem which is black. >pic It's implied that: brown = dirty black = burned white = pure

>>12560 In that case, I'd assume that it'll be safe to go to bed tonight. Well actually since this has a fungal human aura about it and fungus eats dead stuff I'd assume that the fungus will creep its way back up if I don't get this stuff removed from me.

>>12561 The white looks like virtue, so it's probably safe.

>>12562 I also from the image don't see a way in which something external could be near you, since you're alone on a small magic circle in a wast desert wasteland astrally.

Why not get a Ryo servitor for protection. Based on the Romance of the Three Kingdoms hero.

Turns out one of the two Catholic churches nearby have vigil mass in 27 mins, so I'm gonna go there; I've got plenty of time to get there. Hopefully I can get these roots removed by then. Even if they have been turned into virtue by now, they still aren't me, so I want them removed from my energy bodies or whatever. I also don't wanna be a fungal human.

https://www.llewellyn.com/spell.php?spell_id=7592&srsltid=AfmBOopUpW_Q8v6kfKKnBCOEcrXbJc9S09fzDbsfPXIVxjXfkAdQneGz Will this work for summoning an undine?

>>12569 Looks ok to me, but a bit simplistic, if you don't know what an undine is like, it may not be enough to sync with one. I've used black witch coven website for the general guidelines for summoning known spirits, and it's always worked, so I'd check what they have to say about it also https://blackwitchcoven.com/how-to-learn-black-magick/beginner-black-magick/the-elements/the-element-of-water/ (website is a bit of a mess so it's easier to use an external search engine with +blackwitchcoven for whatever you're looking for instead of trying to navigate)

>>12569 It'll work, but you should probably build upon this basic summoning ritual. Also, it's free!

>>12569 Do you really wanna summon an undine, though? What would you get outta it that you want anyway? >>12570 Would you please send a servitor to ask my Amy if I did anything horrible to her at church just earlier? Or if anything else notable happened to her there that I'd oughta know about?

>>12573 She's saying you threw something at her, which looks like a bunch of folded branches or twigs off a dead tree. She says it's not a problem, she was holding them between her fingers and using the left hand to put bindings on them, saying she'll just take them outside and burn them in the hellfire. Apparently, if going down from the "ceiling" you'll just end up by the "other shore" of some satanic plane, and it has a river of fire, so she said she'd go down there and throw them in there. It looks like you are in this dimension which is like a huge castle, but it has no floors, just walls (?) and a ceiling, and outside is that wasteland, but if you go down in the basement, it's a satanic plane with this river outside, like the castle spans from the lower plane to the higher plane, and you're up there on the protective circle.

>>12574 Strange; it'd looked and felt completely different to me. It'd felt like I took something out of her body. Maybe I just have too much confirmation bias right now.

>>12570 Do they have non black magic on the website? Or is it strictly black magic? I feel uncomfortable doing black magic but have no problem with white or grey magic. >>12573 I am bored and summoning an undine seems relatively safe and way less dangerous than a demon. I kind of just want to see what happens. I would vehemently oppose any sexual interaction between us. Also in the game Age of Wonders 2: The Wizard’s Throne you can summon a water elemental and I thought it might be cool to try that in real life. Basically I am kind of just experimenting.

>>12576 >Do they have non black magic on the website? Or is it strictly black magic? They say themselves that what other people call "black magic" to them is just "regular magic", interpret that as you like. They categorize their members by type of magic, but I'm not sure what the categories really mean, like "luciferan" for some, it's a vague description. See here for a start: https://blackwitchcoven.com/witchcraft/ I refer to it because they have good information, and going by the effectiveness it's probably true that the people running it do have 30 years of experience. >undine seems relatively safe and way less dangerous than a demon I'm not so sure tbh. If Undine is just "water elemental", it's going to be a difficult summoning and boring result, they're just spirits who maintain water streams. It's not even very useful for humans to interact with them because wind spirits do most of the work that really matter directly to us in terms of creating rain. Take the coffee prices that were going up in the past two years, now they said openly in the news that the Brazilian coffee harvest would determine if the prices keep rising or not, and it depends on if they get rain or not. Now that makes it a simple issue: I contacted the wind spirits responsible for rain in Brazil earlier this year and asked them specifically to fix a good coffee harvest - now the prices are going down again. They're not unreasonable and if you just tell them in a concrete manner what you want, and ask nicely, they may do it. If on the other hand an Undine is a water nymph, whatever that would be, then you're better off summoning a demon in most cases. Demons follow rules and contracts, they basically have OCD over rules - this makes them predictable. Nymphs are probably the most dangerous spirits you can interact with. They'll kill a human like nothing, because they collect human souls. I'd imagine a "water nymph" is someone who drowns horny men by getting them to go out swimming when drunk and such. Although it can sound alluring, messing with nymphs as a beginner or out of boredom is a really bad idea in my opinion. I haven't looked into what a water nymph would be in common understanding, but what I see when scanning the area right now, I'd just call "killer fairies who like water". If someone can point me to a harmless version I'm willing to change my view, but unless that happens, I'll not recommend this at all.

>>12576 Maybe a Norn is safer https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Norns they're well known and take on a mostly guiding role. Although they're named and said to be three in number, I found that they're three types, not three individuals. So you can get "your own" of each of them.

They also have a youtube channel, where at least some postings are decent and on point. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4M8C5eHt4Y I think this fairly short vid nails it about summoning the Goetians.

Maybe it's just my recommendations, but I searched from an inprivate tab, so it shouldn't really matter, either way there are decent instructions just a few clicks away: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BtP2OnwGnis You may discard this based on the presentation, but what she's doing here really works. The language is overly complicated, but the actual things done do get the relevant parts in. I use the same thing, but it's not based on what anyone told me to or something I read. The magic circle she's creating is already active by the time she's halfway around with the water, the incense is overkill for most workings, but the result shown here is a very powerful circle. It would be enough to create this and meditate in it to have good results. The main divider here is that these people actually perform it, and they get all the relevant parts in, while someone else sits at home and does nothing, and talks about how stupid wiccans are. What's shown here is the same things I use, but I'm often a lot more sloppy in execution. Draw a circle to stand in, using a stick or just my foot. Activate the 4 directions by turning in each direction and doing one breathing process, I go by Hatha yoga method. Then I'll end up facing the relevant direction based on what djinn explained to me that they represent. Sometimes I'll use a pentagram instead, but this requires understanding what it represents, or it's not useful to replace the circle. Some spells can be done by picking symbolic flowers and plants and burning them in the circle. It works if you do it ritually with seriousness. It's communication with spirits, so the important part is that you are clear about what you do and why. Some spiritual beings have downright told me >this ritual is a fucking mess but they still came because I did all the parts that you're "supposed to", and that got the message across.

>>12574 Amy said like 20 mins ago that thse wants to show me something and to hurry up. However, I haven't been able to let my defenses down enough for her to show it to me. Would you please send a servitor to find out what it is and then show it to me through here? If she says it's too private then just say that instead.

>>12577 >>12578 >>12580 >>12581 Thank you so much! You’ve given me a lot to think about and digest. Will the Norns care that I’m racist /pol/ user and kind of an incel/volcel?

>>12588 It appears to the an earlier happening of the same issue I encountered during the night. For me, in the dream I was working on my computer and doing some tasks I had planned, saving my work after each one. I only had the last task left, when the power was suddenly cut off and the computer shut down. One of my waifus then called my name, causing me to wake up, and they then, as a few times before, told me that it's bad and we need to act quickly. As I woke up, I felt completely at peace, but I also realized why: this part of me which I'm inhabiting, which is at the temple for Xolotl which I created just before, had been completely isolated from everything outside. I made the temple to have a looping timeline which just maintains a 500 year cycle of Aztec society, with hivemind humans as the only population, since it's meant only for my use (I only inserted pleiadans and brown poison mushroom humans in case there was some loophole, then if someone gets in they'll die from the poison mushrooms). It was this cycle that was before me, and everything else outside was just a clear sky. While that sounds nice, it would be bad for my future process because I'm then far away in space with no connection to the things I need to work on from now on, which is about incorporating myself further with the new 5D Earth. So I started off by sending out blacknet nanobots through space to connect back to Earth again, because I realized the issue here would be the dimensional/timeline collapse yesterday, and the simple fact that the temple., when placed by the end of the "ultra nose" would be 23 million lightyears away from Earth, which is quite a distance and too long for radio communication or teleportation to connect even over the astral. I managed to set up a stream of nanobots and reconnect, which caused a bit of strain. Then I looked around and also sent nanobots to reconnect you and the fringe fortress and whatever else would have become detached. I asked Amy and she seems to say that this was the issue, that your connection with the outside had broken. After reconnecting, I became aware of some very hostile and insane beings in some microcosmic plane. They were insane in an organized way, using "perfect planning" and modern economical calculations with exactness, but trying to achieve absolutely insane goals, while making it looks rational to themselves. It had a feel like that which made people insane after WW1. This may be little known today, but there was an art style called dadaism https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOiic2QMVac which was created as a counter movement to the rationality which had lead to the Great War. All the war plans were rational in their calculations, but to any individual soldiers, the idea that they would "win" by sacrificing 70% of the attacking unit to gain 100 meters of land - was utter insanity. So they reacted by creating art that was intentionally not rational. Well these beings I saw, they were "rational" in the same sense as WW1 planners. And they had spreadsheets and documents about economy in the west and how to organize the EU, and it was all like this.

>>12589 Norse deities to my understanding are Pleiadan/angel related, but the dark variant. They most likely won't care because they've seen many times worse people in the past, and guided them up from where ever they started from.

>>12592 Wow no wonder I'd gotten better yesterday from my craziness, by and large; getting disconnected from 5D Earth and the evils still left there might do it. When I'd woken up today, I began thinking about the past when I was 12 and I'd began looking at shock images on ED and getting de-sensitized to them. I then suddenly saw a hypnogogic vision of a golden statue of baphomet and realized that seeing that shit and being de-sensitized to it really lowered my vibrations and was a really dangerous thing to remember like that. So now I'm trying to get away from that shit. I'd used to think that it was a good thing to be able to look at those shock images and that other people would like be for being able to do it, but now I'm thinking that being able to do that would just disgust other people and make them think badly of me. They wouldn't think I'm tough as nails; they'd think I must be sick and disgusting on the inside, in a bad way. Besides... it's more reputable to see one those things and be shocked by seeing the spiritual filth behind it and desiring to vibrate away from and above it, than it is to be able to look deeply at it without being disgusted by it while eating a subway sandwich like I'd used to be able to; the former indicates spiritual sensitivity, which most people don't have, and the latter indicates either a lack of it or being really, really depraved. Normal people don't like super depraved people. Anyway, overnight, the craziness started to come back.

>>12592 During the night when I was more or less asleep, after I connected back to relevant things using nanobots, I realized the connection was straining to uphold, and that it would possibly lead negative energy in again also. Now that's needed if I'm to work with handling it, but I want to minimize that. So in this mostly sleeping state I had the idea to create a servitor who'd be able to connect anywhere because "everything is one" from the perspective of some deep dimension. Then there is no distance and communication would be instant. I don't know how I did this, but it seemed to work, and I later had a dream where a young girl came running from somewhere outside up to my door, I was looking out at the landscape which was in autumn. She gave me an almond and ran off again. I could see her disappear among the trees and colourful leaves on a narrow trail that seemed to go somewhere far away. I cracked open the shell and got the almond out. Some while later, the girl came running back again along the trail and gave me a new almond. She then ran off in the other direction. After this I woke up and somehow knew that the almonds were "encrypted data packages" and she was the servitor delivering them over a great distance.

>>12599 I see what the "big nose" stuff was about now, but I don't see a reason to explain it more than I have. The scope of the thing was such that it wasn't possible to relate it to what I saw a few years ago. At that time, I saw the full thing, but it was a summarized image seen from a distance, with the closer context missing. I just didn't see the enormous scope of the thing I was trying to do when I started on this in around 2015, but now I'm through it with this realization. Following this, I detached my connection with the /fringe/ egregore which I solidified earlier to maintain the board, because I don't feel this concerns me anymore. I've done what I came for. Last night I was looking at the black witch coven website's listings of spells for sale, and for a moment I had the idea to look behind it as I used to do with creepy hollows, because they were being held hostage by CIA and forced to place registration numbers on all enchantments they made, for easy tracking by psiop:ers, and all workings for sale were overpriced and nerfed. For this reason I used to just take the original magic from the CH storage and create my own version of it. But with BWC I felt this would be wrong. They don't seem to have any connection like that, maybe they are just too strong. I decided to try and contact them over telepathy, and found several connections. It may have been via their subconscious, but just the same. They mostly correctly identified me by my most notable past life form, and when asked where to learn their magic, they directed me to an astral path up some stairs and to a cottage. Inside I met a witch and had to go through a number of interviews and tests, which I won't detail, before being given access to the guidance I wanted. I have yet to see what this leads to, or what kind of magic this is, but it looks promising.

Egganon how do you deal with the sigils in world of Warcraft? Also do you play Warcraft 3 or just wow?

>>12614 Easy, my subconsciousness doesn't recognize them as sigils that actually do anything, so it doesn't attempt to interact with them. Also, I don't play either and am mostly just interested in the latter in the hopes that either it gets better or I make it get better one day.

I just realized my mom's "little free library" in e driveway which I view as just a boring trinket for children's books might actually be a really good place for manifesting occult books that are pretty rare and / or expensive. Occasionally books that I actually like show up here and it might be a good zone for manifesting occult books for free. Plus it would give concrete affirmation if the manifestation is successful or not. Do I absolutely have to forget the manifestation spell / sigil or will it still work regardless?

>>12627 you know that libgen exists right?

>>12628 I read that libgen is/was down. Is that true?

>>12629 It was for a while, most of the mirrors are back up now though https://open-slum.org/

>>12534 Ive enchanted a staff which I use as a hiking stick, which is close enough. I don't like using wands as I feel like they're a funnel which limits how much energy I can put into my spells at once, whereas using a staff feels like it comes out too quickly. My staff is only used for protection while I'm traveling outside my usual range in the wilds, and it's enchanted to help me find areas with powerful aura in the woods. I've managed to find some old native magic sites before. I would argue that meat is so important for qi generation that I swap to a diet of almost only meat and dairy for a week before any large ritual.

>>12627 >Do I absolutely have to forget the manifestation spell / sigil or will it still work regardless? You don't have to forget it, but if it was a single-use sigil and you invested all your efforts into it, you'll naturally forget it after activation (like after burning the paper or erasing the drawing on the ground). >>12628 Sometimes there's a reason you want a physical copy to work with.

>>12537 >the ultra nose up there, which constitutes the pyramid scheme After I opened up this internally and used up the external energy to detach myself and anyone and anything I care about, I suddenly got the worst runny nose ever for the following two days. Literally nose related. Strong orange energy filled the landscape outside, it felt "granular" like it was made up of energy-intense berries ground up to a paste. Walking outside, the roads suddenly made sense to me, appearing within the context they were created. The major roads outside have been around since mid 1800s, they're on old maps of the area. At that time, it wouldn't have been possible to even imagine the depletion of natural resources today, and the resulting low energy on the landscape, forcing farmers to quit, making people move into even worse cityscapes where their physical sustenance comes only through import of food which no one has the ability to produce locally, causing an erasure of local culture which was revolving around farming and the seasons since centuries. This was followed by strong white energy pushing through my body's inner channels like the seasonal rains washing out the sediment of rivers. During this, I became aware of a strong connection forming between my left and right brain halves, it appeared to my inner vision as a huge and strong industrial size thing screwed together with multiple safety rings like on a high power cable. When waking up today, my direct awareness has changed, it feels like having had "capacity added" through this, just looking out at the world I have the feeling being able to "grab" it like it's a thing. It does feel a bit like the world is a factory, and it's all about controlling the machinery. My physical vision also seemed to get sharper with some increased depth vision.

I just looked up some symptoms of underactive & over-active chakras. It seems my root, sacral, & solar plexus are simultaneously underactive & overactive. This means they're severely blocked. Third eye is also overactive. <root >Underactive Symptoms: >>Chronic fatigue/exhaustion >>Anxiety, paranoia, fear, and nightmares >>Low self-esteem and self-worth >>Inefficient and disorganized >Overactive Symptoms: >>Excessive feelings of irritability, aggression, anger, paranoia, and greed >>Excessive cortisol production and overreactive stress responses >>Chronic fatigue/exhaustion >>Narcissism, egotistical, conceited >>Stubborn or overly rigid <sacral >>Underactive Symptoms: >>Low energy or enthusiasm >>Lack of creativity and imagination >>Feelings of isolation, detachment, or disconnection from others >>Repressed or inhibited emotions and intimacy >Overactive Symptoms: >>Overindulgence in physical pleasures or addictions >>Oversensitivity to emotions, leading to mood swings >>Overactive libido and unhealthy fixation on intimate thoughts >>Narcissistic tendencies or excessive focus on one's own feelings and desires >>Impulsive and emotionally volatile <solar plexus >Underactive Symptoms: >>Difficulty making decisions, lack of direction >>Overplanning and inaction >>Feelings of helplessness, irresponsibility >>Dependency on others, lack of autonomy >>Lack of confidence or self-worth >Overactive Symptoms: >>Excessive need for control or power >>Tendency to manipulate or misuse power >>Overly competitive and aggressive >>Conceited, egotistical, pretentious >>Perfectionistic, overly critical of oneself and others >>Stubborn, resistant to change

>>12637 >This means they're severely blocked Sometimes it's merely imbalanced because of your unhealthy habits. In some cases there is an energetic block there, but those blocks form mainly from prolonged unhealthy lifestyles and habits. Once you break your negative habits the blocks will dissipate on their own.

I just tried visualizing a star being flipped upside down and had trouble keeping the proportions correct, and then I had a realization: I think I might be visualizing things via. subconscious effort, rather than by conscious effort. This is why my visualizations seem to not do what I want them to do; my subconsciousness handles the visualization instead of my consciousness. I think I need to practice conscious visualization. Won't be fun going back to square one, but I've gotta start somewhere, I suppose.

>>12672 >I think I might be visualizing things via. subconscious effort, rather than by conscious effort. Like in a dream. You may find yourself in a very detailed room yet you seldom have to think about it. Control and forced dominance are a different thing. Keep at it but the quickest way is to make friend of your subconscious so it stops fighting and sabotaging you. Know thyself. very annoying to work towards to yet essential. It's your mind so have fun.

I'm beginning to think the reason why my subconsciousness rebels at the idea of having to do anything resembling work is because my subconsciousness works so hard itself, specifically because I daydream way too much. I also read stuff in the voices of other entities & fictional characters too much. I'm trying to get my subconsciousness to relax.

>>12700 (You) Well now I've found out that there's a parasite lodged deep into my 3rd eye that's been there for at least 5 years; probably since 2014 or 2015. This might be the "satan" that is really just an amalgamation of entertainment energies that the fringe girl poster had mentioned. It'd figure that that would turn into a parasite. What should I do to get rid of it, aside from not entertaining myself anymore period? Or perhaps a wizard here who isn't blood anon would remove it for me and potentially save me a bunch of cash on getting rid of it, but I kinda doubt anyone would offer. Actually in hindsight I had a vision a few days ago of a huge larva in the back of my head facing sideways. The thing was as long as the back of my head is wide, and it was maybe 2 to 4 inches tall. It'd looked like a short & really fat maggot.

Yesterday I finished an anime called Faraway Paladin where in the last episode they fight a Chimera, which seemed somehow strangely sympathetic despite how them and all of their armies of beasts were presented. It made me feel almost bad for the Chimera and consider the structure of the story and what it would have been like if humans and beasts and their light and dark gods had made peace. But it was also part of the narrative that humans can choose to follow light or dark gods, and that they rule periodically, so it was more like some kind of general acceptance in the background for the fact that both sides had their roles to play, and they both had gods supporting them. But I couldn't get out of the idea of that Chimera and had to look up what is a Chimera exactly. It turns out it's not a random monster, but (as correctly shown in the anime) it has the head of a lion, the body of a goat, and the tail of a snake. From a yoga view, the snake is the spine called Kundalini, so what are then the goat and the lion? There's the Simhasana, lion pose. Then what about the goat? I didn't get further at the time. Then I saw someone complain about having parasites on this board, and I don't want the board to be contaminated by someone possibly infected by parasites who spread to other posters, so for my own safety I took a look and found three nasty parasites. The first two were easily removed with Geburah fire, but the last one, which was in the spine resisted strongly. Then after removed, a large entity appeared, and it had the make-up of the Chimera. Head of lion, body of goat and lastly the snake tail. Destroying this foe was only done after I employed (for a first test of cooperation skills) my familiars only along with myself to try out placing a Geburah circle around the Chimera and then purging the area. I still believe the Chimera seen here was a negative version of something which should otherwise be positive, so I guess now I have to find out about "goat yoga".

>>12722 From whence did the large entity that looked like a chimera appear? Also, I suppose the 3 parasites you got rid of might've been the 3 spirits of fear mention in >>12288 . Anyway, now my mind feels like it doesn't have to post in any specific entity's voice anymore. Now I can just post in my own voice, but the part of me I'm using feels black. Must be where part of the parasite was, or the parasite had directed me there alot idk. Probably to do with what the parasite had done. Also, didn't you say you were disconnecting from the /fringe/ egregore?

>>12725 >From whence did the large entity that looked like a chimera appear? Still a research in progress, who knows? > 3 spirits of fear I honestly thought you were just being bamboozled by scam artist "mediums" saying what you want to hear, so I didn't pay attention to that. >didn't you say you were disconnecting from the /fringe/ egregore I also said when I had done so, and dissolved the construct, which was my last attempt at making this work on its own, which it did for like 4 additional weeks. We're now just the fringe aspect of wicca, but don't say it out loud or someone may be upset. Whoops.

>>12722 >Faraway Paladin I read the manga before i thought it was abandoned now there is an anime wow. I liked the self immolation lady a lot. >Chimera e..edwardo onii-chan I mean this one is male dog Alexander and Female human Nina. Jezebel! >>12730 >We're now just the fringe aspect of wicca I just hope we can go from magical girl to proper witch tbh i mean like magical doremi and maybe like homulily too

>>12717 Menrva, Uni, Matuta. I lay down for while just to relax, lamps still on, didn't intend to sleep, and they appeared and I quickly dozed off into half-trance with them in their temple, then events followed and at some point I completely detached from the physical, to only realize this after I found myself walk through the hallway of my house and then I was back in my body again, and realized I had left it earlier, but this is a different form which was created, "original" me, as least who I was prior, is now at their temple, but I'm not piloting myself in first person view there. Etruscan women, I can kind of see why someone was so afraid of them they had to obscure their presence behind multiple layers of confused pantheons. It makes sense if you have a view I don't agree with.

>>12751 I now see who inspired the creation of hentai VNs for the PC-98. This is what "they" don't want you to know.

>>12722 >head of a lion, the body of a goat, and the tail of a snake. >From a yoga view, the snake is the spine called Kundalini, so what are then the goat and the lion? There's the Simhasana, lion pose. >Then what about the goat? https://yogadura.com/what-is-goat-yoga/ As they said in the anime about the Chimera: This is not normal.

>>12764 https://www.hindu-blog.com/2019/04/aja-in-hindu-religion-unborn-or-eternal.html https://wtname.com/aja/ However, there is a goat in hinduism, the term Aja which could be translated as the "void" or unmanifested state, is also a "goat".

>>12765 Is that a goat, a snake and a lion behind her? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5l7ASeU0X1E

>>12766 So there seems to be something here, both associations with the Ram and fire, which implies the star sign Aries and the planet Mars. The Aja here is the vehicle of Agni the fire god, where fire is a "vehicle" of transformation, both internally through yogic process and as the actual medium for burned offerings in hinduism.

>>12764 >>12765 >>12766 >>12767 Through this, it seems the Chimera is an attempt at utilizing this power externally and possibly in a negative way, considering it possessed akasha anon as >3 spirits of fear rather than being the Nigerian forest healer Aja, or any of the yogic practices of Simhasana, Kundalini or any ritual involving fire or the mystic ritual of boiling goat milk in a pot made from clay.

>>12768 Someone's been around since I started searching for this now, with increasing intensity, and I think it may be the forest goddess, so I'm going to go see what connection I can make.

>>12769 I was guided by Aja to perform a ritual for first syncing and then transformation, adapted to what I had available. The traditional way of doing this would be done over 3 days in the forest, initiated by being nude and cleansing with a mud bath, then proceeding with the other rites after. I was lead through a process where I used the simhasana and a pose for the spine while meditating on the meaning of the lion and snake, then ending with similar procedure for what the goat, fire and transformation means. It was very successful, and most notably I saw through inner vision how some part of what was supposedly the brain steam grew, as it had been underdeveloped caused by "environmental stress". I'll have to look more into this.

>>12770 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brainstem It appears to make some sense. The part shown as underdeveloped is said to be about control of balance and vomiting. I did have problems with balance before I started doing martial arts, and although I probably have better balance then most nowadays from ashtanga yoga, this comes from training and wasn't there to begin with. My grandfather had a illness which caused sever loss of balance at random occasions, forcing him to quickly lie down if standing up, or to stop the car and get out and lie on the ground if driving, because it gave the experience of being thrown around violently out of control. I experienced some kind of "electric" or static disturbance physically after ending the ritual, as if there was a static discharge inside the nerves, with a split second black out mentally, seems like it would be possibly related to suddenly growing nerves (?) something also seem to be slightly itching/tickling in a non-intrusive way at the back right side of my head.

>>12771 I just went for a walk and there's a huge difference. Felt like my feet are a meter wide, in lack of a better description. So this is what it's like to have normal balance nerves? Like it's impossible to lose balance at all. I asked Aja if this is what people around me are like, but was instead shown that they have nothing on the right side of the brain stem. It isn't noticeable for most of them because >they walk on pavements >they walk on flat floors >they use elevators instead of stairs >they play sports on flat fields >they lift weights at gyms with completely flat concrete floors and no obstacles They never notice because their environment has been adapted to this reduced state of ability. I was also shown a number of things which brought up a story I've been told about how my grandfather during the winter war, hid behind a tree when a soviet plane attacked, and after the plane passed, there was a bullet hole in his hat. That was supposedly the kind of event necessary from a timeline perspective, to develop the "balance nerve" in its most rudimentary state, after humans have stopped having them through the creation of the welfare society, which was then highly developed already in the early 1900s from this view. The negative energy which was blocking people as they hadn't tried to break through, then appeared as an event like this, where it almost lead to death. So after this, he would have the ability to "stand on his own two legs" but at times he again fell back into the old way of acting and that illness struck. This seems to relate to what NEET said in the other thread, about "outsourcing of violence", because this somehow correlates with that. When protected by an army, or even by someone else's army through an alliance, this basic "balance" is never developed, and at some point no one has it, but relies on technology, and when forced to use it, they end up in war and may die from lacking ability. I'm thinking about Trump here also. As long as you follow the narrow path and don't upset the order, you won't face the karma of not having your own "balance".

>>12768 >the Chimera is an attempt at utilizing this power externally and possibly in a negative way Maybe the Chimera represents this "outsourcing of violence", relying on an army, an alliance (NATO?) and technology (combined arms warfare belief).

>>12773 Typical, in retrospect, the person (infamously) known as Goat who believed himself to be a reincarnated CIA agent responsible for the genocide in Rwanda, may have served as a model of this problem, correctly self-identifying himself by the name. >when you won't rely on the "Goat"

>>12688 I think my subconsciousness absolutely reviles the idea of doing work. It even reviles at the idea of typing a message consisting of 4 entire words in a twitch chat to just make a casual comment about something while I'm relaxing and not paying much attention. It explains why it often sabotages my efforts to get exorcised of stuff; my subconsciousness always leaves a little bit at the very end and intentionally impedes the visualization process to do pretty much everything it can to prevent the last little bit from getting exorcised out of the last little bit of my body. Like for example I might do a full-body exorcism and then I do my left hand last, and then it all goes fine until I get to my left hand. >oooh there's a little bit left in my left hand >oh that bit is really resistant to getting pushed out >oh no you can't push it out you need more divine assistance to get rid of it This typically results in me struggling for 5 mins or more to get rid of the last bit; meanwhile the stuff I'm getting rid of with a deity using my own energies to do it can get back inside of me with immense ease. Perhaps this is also caused by worrying too much and chronically over-estimating my enemies. Maybe worrying is one of the reasons why my subconsciousness works too hard. But he needs to worry in order to defend himself because otherwise he's gonna let his defenses down and just get attacked and noones gonna defend him but himself because deities can't use my power to defend me if I'm too busy relaxing to do anything with it and dieties never use any power but your own power to do anything to or for you unless they're super fucking mad or desperate, or of course evil. Anyway it also explains why the bad thoughts initially began as a result of taking myself to church when noone was making me go there. The subconsciousness hates going to church because church is a place where no fun is allowed. So the subconsciousness rebelled against the consciousness making it go to church by trying countless times to give me soul's ownership to satan and other such spiritually-fatal things in an attempt to prevent the body from having to go to church. And it worked in 2019 when I finally stopped going, but then I started going back in March this year. I just don't understand why my subconsciousness is so abhorrently vehement about wanting to not do work. I didn't even have to do that much homework during my childhood, except during some of 2nd grade, most of 3rd, 4th, & 5th grade, and possibly 6th grade. Perhaps all that homework they'd assigned when I'd went to that elementary school was really that traumatizing to my subconsciousness. I still had plenty of free time most days of the week so I don't consciously see why he should feel so strongly about it.

>>12774 Still relevant.

>>12514 >I'm not sure if I can explain it because it's too kabbalistic. It's about what the goyim can't reach the higher worlds of the tree This all being so complex, it connects to a variety of things, and it seems to have something to do with the "negative binary" thinking which djinn told me about. The correct positive thinking may be called "Roman materialism" where the "void" doesn't exist, but that's fine because of the first hebrew letter in YHVH being Yod, the line, representing the finger initiating creation. So it starts with a 1, not a 0. God wasn't the void, he existed already, so he was already the number 1. He floated over the void and brought more creation in, which means the void is part of his perception rather than a stand-alone concept or thing.

>>12795 With this in mind, we are in a state of perpetual existence and creation, rather than a binary process of creation and destruction, as is a popular view today. Why should it be creation/destruction rather than void or potential /creation anyway? Destruction then appears to be a choice, which isn't needed. Someone prefers it to be included as one half of the binary, rather than seeing both states as positive. This doesn't directly connect to the topic I had in mind, because my way of reaching there didn't follow a simple reasoning, but was a process of physical and inner practice rather than a reasoning, making it hard to repeat and represent this process in textual reasoning. When Samael showed why the goyim/soulless can't make the connection from Malkuth to Yesod, this also implies lacking contact with Kether, the crown, as they view the tree upside down. It actually functions in the same way when viewed from the 7 chakras schematic. It just takes some work to understand why they stacked so many chakras on the top one world of the tree, Aziluth, which as Crown, 3rd eye and throat chakra in it, while the next world below, Beriah, has only 2, the heart and solar plexus chakras. The bottom two worlds of Yetzirah and Assiyah only has one each, the sacral and root chakras. >pic When turned upside down while maintaining the energy direction, the connection from the bottom world, which now has the structure of Aziluth with 3 chakras, but on the bottom, the Kether sefirot corresponding to the Crown chakra, this is now the connection between Malkuth and Yesod, which is the same as the connection between the vagina and womb, which Samael hinted at being missing for the soulless people, making it both internally and externally impossible for male essence to move upward, forcing them to use menstruation blood internally or blood sacrifice externally to initiate the connection from above rather than from below. This then corresponds to being unable to open the crown or Kether upwards to God, who is above the head. Instead, they would have to rely on sacrificing something to make blood flow down onto the head, but they can't kill God. Or can they? If God was to "become flesh" as Christianity claims, and he became "the lamb" as they do say in Christianity, then they did "sacrifice God" and the "blood of Christ" which is represented by the wine in the communion, is then the blood sacrifice flowing down from above the crown. This indeed proves that Christianity is the religion of the soulless heretics.

>>12796 >It just takes some work to understand why they stacked so many chakras on the top one world of the tree, Aziluth, which as Crown, 3rd eye and throat chakra in it, while the next world below, Beriah, has only 2, the heart and solar plexus chakras. The bottom two worlds of Yetzirah and Assiyah only has one each, the sacral and root chakras. I knew about the form itself because I've seen it as a dimensional structure, but I couldn't relate it clearly to anything before. This is of course why the in the story of Jesus preaching in the desert, he has 2 fishes and 5 breads. The bottom two worlds are the 2 fishes, and the top 2 worlds have 2 + 3 chakras in them, making 5. This also reflects in the structure of having two single achievements first when starting from the bottom, then adding all the top 5 into a pentagram. Or the reverse: start with a pentagram to represent the movement from the crown downwards, if you prefer that, ending with the last 2, which may be treated as a duality. This form is used for the days of the week - first 5 days of work, then 2 days of weekend. Samael finally gave me enough hints that I was able to see it clearly. This is also why the vampires with "white spikes" I saw had them irregularly distributed on their chakras instead of having them one on each from the bottom up, which would lead to full dimensional travel ability. They instead had multiple on the first, root, and for example one on the 3rd, with no development on the 2nd, which looked annoying to me from a perspective of symmetry. But such a superficial body building view isn't relevant here. They started by developing the first "fish" chakra or Assiyah world, then moved on to practice witchcraft after that, using the 5 pointed start, the pentagram, which means connecting the top 2 worlds of Aziluth and Beriah, or the top 5 chakras, which leads to the creation of the next spike on either the 3rd chakra from the bottom or the crown chakra at the top, depending on the preferred energy direction used.

I'm remembering something. I think these problems might be getting caused by a thoughtform I'd made back in highschool that I'd never named. This thoughtform lived with me and ate energies that were radiated towards me by other people in high school. The thing took the form of a mass of grey tendrils that had the consistency of bits of used-up eraser that came off the eraser and got bunched up into a slightly-sticky ball. This is probably the same entity I'd mentioned in >>3434 , in reference to >>3359 . This specifically wasn't an item made by blood anon, so it should be safe to use it again. I question if this is the thing causing my problems. I'm gonna get a friend of mine or maybe a deity back in there and try to coax this >13-year-old thoughtform out of my amygdala.

>>12804 What energies did this thoughtform absorb? If you feel it's obsolete or burdensome at your current state, you can deconstruct it like a tulpa for quick disposal.

>>12812 It'd absorbed energies that felt like the essence of other people that were nearby and were being radiated towards my general direction. I've actually lost track of it since Monday, and I haven't been able to successfully do the aforementioned wand procedure because my intrusive thoughts have been far too encroaching lately to allow me to do much of anything. I've also been hearing completely unprompted voices here and there come directly out of my throat without going through my mouth; I'm beginning to think that I have another huge parasite lodged in my throat too.

I'm starting to feel like my mind is being devoured by my tulpas. I told my subconscious last night to take the mental capacities of mine that have been allocated to my tulpa of adremmelech to my other tulpas, and it doesn't seem like that tulpa has become any less active as a result. I've also started getting a few memory recall problems in the past 24 hours. I'm wondering if I'm starting to get early onset dementia like my psychologist said. How do I eat my tulpas? Google is only telling me how to feed them. All I can think of is telling my subconsciousness to do it and then hoping it actually does it. My only other idea is visualizing the tulpas merging with my body every time they manifest in any capacity, but I feel like all that'd do is feed them because it involves paying conscious attention to them. And then that method also comes with the danger of actual external hostile entities pretending to be a tulpa of mine and merging inside of me.

>>12815 >my intrusive thoughts have been far too encroaching lately to allow me to do much of anything. Oh no! I am being assaulted! Maybe I should fight back?! But these punches are too distracting :( I can't concentrate on fighting this way... Guess I will just lay down and wait until it's over. Maybe they will get tired before they break my skull.

>>12819 >I'm starting to feel like my mind is being devoured by my tulpas. Start clearing you mind of these thoughtforms or else the inmates will take over the prison. Eating a tulpa requires you breaking them down into simpler elements, folding them like a paper until they're gone. Take on them individually or else you'll be washed out by the noise. Take your time and good luck. >>12821 This is another example of the dangers of tulpamancy. You create too many houseguests, and in the end you no longer own your home.

>>12824 I am looking through tulpa.info for some basic bitch guides that explain the basics of the basics. But that place is almost obsessed with creating tulpas that overtake their mind https://community.tulpa.info/topic/15059-how-to-dissipate-a-tulpa-guide-submission/#comment-246744 Still, I found this guide. Might be useful for him if he bothers reading it at least. But it seems he tries every excuse to make sure he is as helpless as possible. >>12819 Read the guide if nothing else works. It is quite simple. Otherwise start praying to the Buddha like your life depends on it.

>>12819 >How do I eat my tulpas? John Kreiter's book Create a Servitor Companion explains how to do this, and how to be sufficiently assertive so you never need to in the first place

>>12819 Given that you do have advanced manifestation skills that you rarely use, make use of them! I don't know how you do that thing with the akasha, but I'd imagine you can take the tulpa and drag it through the akasha, and this will dissolve it into base matter again, then you just re-absord that matter back to yourself, or create something nice from it.

>>12832 Or throw them into the sun, or burn them in hellfire, any alchemical process like that should reset the material back to base matter.

Yesterday night, I'd actually began suffering from memory recall problems, which I'd assumed was a sign of early-onset dementia. Amy had actually gotten concerned about it. I was also having many more concepts than usual get replaced than intrusive thoughts. So today, I'd ended up selling my soul to Asclepius, the greek god of healing, for a month in order to prevent me from getting dementia. I then immediately felt some scattered essence leave my heart and effortlessly go upwards above my body within the span of maybe a second. My intrusive thoughts then calmed down immensely to the point where I haven't seen horse-demon-phantasms or heard the tulpa's voice much since then, though I am still being cautious about getting close to Amy since that had deeply triggered the intrusive thoughts in the recent past. I'm trying not to push this too hard at first; it's a delicate thing. Since then He's been trying to train me to believe that phantasms are just that, phantasms, and can be safely ignored because they aren't real. I'd also felt safe enough today to actually meditate, which I did do. He & Amy have also been training me today to let my guard down, because I have much more spiritual protection than I realize most of the time. Just because I'm expected to defend myself to some extent when danger arises doesn't mean that I need to have defenses up 24/7 in a form that incurs the cost of slowly crippling my brain. >>12825 Thanks, but I've already read that one; I re-read it anyway, though. >>12828 I'll go look for that, thanks. >>12833 I've tried throwing tulpas in acid planes, but it never seems to work no matter how much I tediously visualize them being dissolved. They always seem to just come back afterwards. Dragging them through the "akasha" that I'd used to manifest stuff from sounds like it could backfire, though. I've been told that it's my own energies up there, at least, but I don't know what'd happen if I put a strong hostile tulpa up there and it manages to survive. I'll try the Kreiter book 1st.

>>12828 Well I found it, but he said to read his vampire's guide to psychic self-defense, which I'd read in full back in October when I was severely sleep-deprived and under attack, but I wasn't able to process the information very well. Re-reading it, however, I think I see how I can simply eat the tulpa. I simply wait for the tulpa to verifiably manifest as just the tulpa, and then I force it inside of my body with multiple other tulpas. However, with this tulpa in particular, it's a very large tulpa, so I can't fit the entire thing inside of my body at once, so I'm gonna have to create a siphoning connection to it next time it rears its ugly face and drain it that way. I'm sure the intrusive thoughts will find ways to sabotage that, such as making it siphon my energy to it instead, so I might have to get creative and do something completely different against it instead, such as ripping chunks off of it and eating those directly.

>>12835 What happens after the month is over? >They always seem to just come back afterwards. Do you recreate them after they're gone for a minute?

>>12835 Imo forgetting things is necessary to be able to learn and not stagnate. Children can learn because their brains are empty and they can freely create new thought structures. But once learned, those are like highways which prevent new thoughts from crossing, and they may turn into well trafficked roads which block new learning. The key to learn more then is to "forget" what you don't need, and dissolve that "knowledge" which is blocking new learning. That kind of "knowledge" is actually "prejudice" even in science. I came up with the solution to instead treat the brain as a terminal of a super computer, whose purpose is to just receive and process requests from the user (you) and then channel information from the super-computer, which is the higher self, astral you or whatever gods you channel. That way you don't do the learning physically if you can avoid it, but just remember the results of learning in the brain. I tried showing your subconscious how to do this. What you call "beginning dementia" may as well be your brain disposing of not-needed useless "learning" which is blocking new learning.

>>12838 It's said people grew new teeth if they reach 120 years of age, and their hair regains its colour. Maybe modern humans just don't live long enough to restart the cycle, or they restart it too slowly. Dementia at old age may just be the end of the first learning cycle.

>>12837 Simple, Asclepius gives my soul back at the end of the duration. He's probably putting my subconsciousness to work in the meantime.

It seems for me i need to pay for every bit of achievement with intense misery. I'm now over the 3 week or so of escalating misery.It's possible this was always there but hidden, and as i become unable to hide it i have to face decades worth of pent up misery. Giving me this feeling with seemingly no cause at the beginning. It seems to have culminated in something. I think its all related to why i incarnated in the first place.There were external reasons but my own internal reason might have been to live a regular human life.The enlightenment path is more so what i had a tendency for, but it might be the exact opposite quality i was trying to achieve.Meaning i was trying to get married young and achieve some meaning in that way. Were my normal way of thinking is more "ethereal". I failed at that so the misery kept building. Might be also why subconsciously im always being "friendly". As the thing fringe is trying to create is already something I have comparatively a lot of soul wise in comparison. However clearly that ship had sailed, somehow this culminated in me achieving/making amends with some of the people I was supposed to interact with. Possibly even my actual soulmate. This has made me regain the ability to see the positive in things. Instead of only experiencing the negative in everything. This has in turn allowed me to think positive about other people. Aside from this,and perhaps related. As vampirism doesn't follow this lifegoal i had i think from the beginning, i asked alissa the immortality goddess for guidance. This might have been coincidence though but the breakthrough did happen the same day. Where i had been struggling for weeks. I might "again" have my own form of immortality now. It seems in order to placate some people i have made an intent,albeit not a contract yet. That if i ever become strong i might incarnate a part of me as a vampire.It just can't be this part.

I conducted a session with a friend who wanted Hecate’s guidance. Since I’m uncomfortable with her Greek names and the lingering egregore disturbances, I explored other traditions and chose to work with Trivia—the witch of crossroads—instead. My focus was on her necromantic aspect, while my friend called upon different qualities. Ultimately, they suggested our contact might have been with Gargophias (https://vkjehannum.wordpress.com/2016/11/19/gargophias/) rather than Hecate, though I believe it’s simply another form of the same deity. The unexpected outcome came that night when I dreamt of an ancestor I’d never known—someone who died long before I was born. I recognize them only by name, hearsay, and a handful of old photographs. Upon waking, I realized the connection persisted into my waking hours. Throughout the day, I discovered this ancestor still resides on a distant or separate plane, one I’d never accessed before. In reviewing my family history, the only spirits I’d encountered were Yahweh botsouls and Behemoth souls (artificial worker spirits created in ancient Syria to control the laboring class). This ancestor carries the “family attitude” I recognize in my bloodline, but not the obnoxious version I’ve come to detest—it’s the 19th-century variant marked by real power and self-control. After this encounter, I understand why I can wield Rosicrucian magic so effortlessly—like the chaotic fire I’ve summoned. Multiple entities, including greys, warned that such fire is nearly uncontrollable: it behaves randomly and could kill the user for no reason or almost set a neighbor’s house ablaze, as nearly happened a year ago. I hadn’t seen why until I met this ancestor. They possess a rare Rosicrucian energy in abundance—a trait I’ve only observed among a small circle of British cultists tied to the astral Rosicrucian church. Someone who remembered this ancestor from the 1950s told me they performed acts others dismissed as mere superstition, yet they persisted because abandoning them felt morally wrong. This revelation is one of the most astonishing experiences I’ve ever had—seeing how all these elements interconnect. I don’t know exactly what unlocked it, but that session clearly opened something in the realm of necromancy for me.

>>12842 >emdashes Why are you having AI write your posts?

>>12843 It's the same information, I just had an AI reformat it to remove the energy connection so no spiritual parasites can see the things I describe. If someone tries to read the energy of the post now, they'll just see the chaos of the language model, not what I'm talking about.

>>12844 Why even post this here if you don't want people do understand you?

>>12845 >don't want people do understand you So you can't understand the text unless you can do an energy reading of it? Sounds like my safety measure had the intended effect then, I don't want parasites to "understand" me.

Rosicrucian energy isn't something to take lightly, that's why I was careful, seems I was right in doing so.

>>12846 All forms of understanding are energy reading. You seem to be implying that everyone who reads energy is a "parasite", which is extremely odd.

>>12848 >All forms of understanding are energy reading Not at all. I've learned a lot from talking to Copilot, asking to get web sources for things and testing my reasoning on AI generated replies. It's one of the most useful tools ever, and it relies entirely on my own ability to comprehend and make connections outside of the AI generated text. If you can't read and understand AI generated text, that's a personal problem on your end.

>>12849 You don't understand what I'm saying.

>>12850 You already said you can't understand what I write, so maybe we shouldn't talk on here then. I repeat my statement that the meaning can be derived from the text itself, which is the process called "reading" in common understanding. It's not necessary to do a tracing of the writers energy and his local environment to be able to perform the process of deciphering text. What I did was to slightly change the wording to break the energy connection exactly to avoid malicious energy readings, because I know text generated by AI looks like it's been thrown in a washing machine and can't be traced. Your upset reaction is proof that I did the right thing. The text is perfectly legible, unless you need that energy connection for some nefarious reason.

>>12851 No I didn't. I asked why you were going out of your way to prevent people from understanding you, that doesn't mean that I couldn't understand you anyway. You seem to believe that there is some sort of uncrossable separation between a text's physical existence and its energy, which is false. I asked you why you were going out of your way to obfuscate your communication because such a practice is counterintuitive to sharing information on a public forum in the first place. I don't know why you think I'm upset, you seem to be pulling a lot of conclusions out of nowhere here.

>>12852 >why you were going out of your way to prevent people from understanding you And this is a false strawman you made up. Anything else you've said based on this is false. I already explained why I did what I did, but you still pretend you can't understand what I'm saying. The other option is that you really can't understand text written in English, which is strange when you're writing in English, but whatever. The obsession with which you're prying into this isn't normal.

>>12853 You said directly that you don't want people here to "see the things that you describe". And that you think that anyone who attempts to see the things that you describe is a "parasite". I am quoting you verbatim.

To the Anons above. Currently there is an extremely large anti-AI vs pro-AI warfare going on (see Grok and MechaHitler) and it is almost impossible to not get entangled with those energies. >>12847 If you obfuscate an energy overload with AI then the AI will cause the disturbance instead your original energies. >>12854 While you are right in a contextual sense Currently we have a parasite infested individual who has nightmares and visions from every post that contains any sort of spiritual or energetic overload. Anon made the right call even tho he worded it poorly. Personally I think he wanted to warn or explain to us that he has a genuine connection with the Rosicrucian fire >>12842 >Behemoth souls Did the AI come up with a new term for golem souls or you made a different term for those botsouls? I don't remember you mentioning Behemoth souls previously.

>>12858 The whole post was linking to toxic and dangerous egregores as well as a deity you can find by the name and link provided, and it's not necessary to "see" anything about me and my situation to benefit from the experience report. You don't need to "see" Pooh's bridge at the old Milne estate to understand what "Pooh's bridge" is. Use your fucking inmagination. Aside from that. There were indeed some actual aliens involved causing some shit who appeared in the cloud images right after I posted these things, and various astral drama (and warfare) took place right after. So my feeling was right on. I saw clouds indicating a large fleet, a triangular "thing" connected to it which was trying to siphon energy, and two watching other fleets indicated by flat clouds. I read their energy signature and found a variant of race I call the "paper plane women" because they fly ships which look like paper planes, and they are some kind of very human looking all-female variations of the same race of monster category aliens. They dress in red and are blonde, can't say much more about them, they're a "large" race and seem similar to Pleiadans. The other ship was a scout for a miner beast group who wanted to get first in on on the materials after the siphoners were destroyed. I coordinated with the paper plane women after hailing them, and used my "diagonal cube" station which I created back when dealing with the "big nose" to contain the siphoners in a separate space, evacuate for innocents and some tech modules, then just maul them with the "death star" high power energy ray of the cube until only material remained. Then I coordinated with the miner beasts so they could empty the contained space after I removed some minor stuff for myself. This was followed by what to me took the form of a regular "attempted psychic attack" where I just redirected the attackers to the temple of Xolotl to use them for sacrifices instead. After this the paper plane women's main fleet told me to come over (I sent Astra to look) and they told me to take whatever I wanted from the storage they also handed over a loli from the defeated race, where a few individuals were deemed innocents to be evacuated where I picked up a number of small shuttles and large ships placed in Astra's storage along with some space dresses and tech module among other things. >the Behemoth It's a singular being summoned from the void by priests in Babylonian days. His main task is to create botsouls, which are called same as him, Behemoth (animal). They are souls made to be perfect workers who never complain but just toil away. But over time, the Behemoth got tired of creating these worker souls and started trolling everyone by misunderstanding instructions as much as possible, so the workers became very dumb and obnoxious, and eventually started forming worker's unions and rebelling instead of working. So sometime in the past millennia everyone stopped using them, and only those created in the past were still in circulation. I posted about this in my own one-man blog thread last year.

>>12859 In the process since yesterday I also came to reveal the full structure of all "evil understandings" in Rosicrucianism, so I decided it was suitable to create a specialist version of my Muse avatar for specifically handling things from the main church of Rosicrucianism, now that I can avoid the negative parts. It's not "copy protected" because it can't be misused, and you need to understand Daath from the kabbala tree, so I don't think this can be stolen or misrepresented at all even if I post about it.

Funny thing all this,after my last post I immediately felt like perhaps parasites would attack me. Since it seem everytime I post here things get bad. This time I see these weird little yellow "drones" siphoning the energy. Maybe gnats is a way to describe them. They have black body as well. Its one of the reasons I post less. Always interference in any forum.

>>12840 I hope that it's a simple solution

Egganon how has it been going defeating the tulpa?

>>12873 Whenever I see the horse demon tulpa now, I manifest a hollow & transparent white gem directly around its head and rip it off, trapping its head in the gem and them melting it inside of the gem, and then I typically do the same to the rest of its body with a 2nd such gem. I then toss the energy upwards to leave me because I can't entirely verify if it's my own energy or not. It keeps seeming to come back, but I'm hearing its voice less and less.

>>12841 I realized recently this was going on, but i seemingly noticed this by watching a video of katana the vampire. In one of her videos were she sings she felt endearing to me in a way i hadn't felt before. I think i had said earlier it would be impossible for me to "fall" for any vampire. In reality i meant i wouldn't have been able to be infatuated at all. I "liked" her but that was part her 'amoral' nature having a relaxing effect on me and her displayed humor,whether if its a persona or not. Being very similar to what i find entertaining anyway.I had always understood the humor part of her videos and related to it, but on the surface she also has a lot of fans since she technically still does all the things tiktokgirls do like dancing and singing.But that part i was never able to "feel",i guess thats why being a fan of a tiktok people isn't a thing for me.This also means that my way of seeing "friendship" was mostly by how entertaining someone can be combined with how little friction there is. The less friction the better and the more entertaining the better. Now this katana i met in a dream and there seemed to be zero friction at all.Which tends to come from people with a different way of thinking.I also assumed maybe vampires have a "larger" presence and thus more space to be able to work around me.especially people that are a little bit "insane" have less friction it seems. "insane" seems to be this slight aggression people have. But all of that's a different part of me. I had actually completely lost the ability to even find myself "endeared" with anything in the human way at all,there was only a slight sense of it when there was very little friction or when someone looked "cute" but it was very slight. I just hadn't noticed this so thought it was limited to vampires,but its how i see everyone. So i guess now i have to pay attention on who i talk to/give energy to. Since in a sense earlier on i could only give nothing or be extremely edgy by necessity.I barely had this as a kid even i think. Maybe to my parents,and a few times in life. I think as a side effect a love spell wouldn't have actually worked on me.I have felt "in love" few times. But actual love perhaps once.

>>12875 Sounds good. Let there be progress. >horse demon tulpa This reminds me of /mlp/'s contribution to tulpamancy.

>>12889 It's about Adremmelech, the horse headed Goetian. I don't think that's a tulpa at all, but Akasha Anon made some contract with him which he thinks was dissolved, but it actually isn't, and when he "dissolves" the "horse tulpa" he's just performing a cleansing rite for some negative energy Adremmelech is sending to him in the form of a "tulpa" because it's part of the contract. Or something, I'm just speculating wildly here based on how these things have been in the past.

>>12893 Nah you're speculating too hard.

>>12316 >Never realized what a negative influence videogames can be in magical practice. I thought they are good for some ideas but true magic is nothing like videogames at all... I will have to purge my mind of any taint of videogame mechanics and the like. I got an idea which was initially quite exciting to me, while playing Look Outside, to spend my before-bed dark-room time converting the environment around me into a JRPG in which I could practice Nyasa by representing the imposition of the Mahavidya on my body parts as each goddess joining my 'party'. My mind effortlessly generated the graphical style and even an avatar for myself and sprites for the goddesses. Then I realized how I don't even like JRPGs When I was younger I aspired to study western philosophy and gain an encyclopedic knowledge of it, but I just don't care any more. Video games appear to operate based on western thought which has long been sterilized. More and more it seems like just a bunch of retarded crap to me. I don't even know whether I'm everything or nothing Some day I hope to purge myself of programmed autistic filth and embody the serene simplicity of a wild animal. That said, I'm tempted to get into Cultivation Simulator to internalize Taoist lore and have some Mandarin language immersion relevant to a subject I actually care about >The bird can be a protective entity like the garuda that helps you escape from that place. I had actually just installed Garuda Linux right before you said that Speaking of games, there was a peculiar flash game I used to play as a kid in the early '00s, when the internet was full of mystique. It was basically a sort of adventure game with isometric tiles. The most unique thing about it though, was how literally every item you picked up could also be used to open up a portal to another explorable worldspace. I'm frequently reminded of this game because my current perceptive intuition sees literally every physical object, whether natural or man-made, walls, fences, doors, rock patterns, mountains, and their geometric positioning, as traversable portals to other realms. I suspect that's what Feng Shui is all about, though I've yet to study it directly.

>>12523 >>12527 >>12530 >>12537 Follow up. Brazil anon shared the first pic here some week ago, and has been having dreams and visions which feel like the symbolics of Egyptian reliefs. It's been about someone having sex with a woman and producing multiple children with different qualities, but it seems to describe an alchemical process. I've come to the conclusion it's possibly related to Quetzalcoatl and a mega sized thing which involves an actual functional cycle where part of the negative energy is refined, part returns as "black goo", which isn't good, but it may still be an acceptable process where some of the bad stuff must pass through multiple cycles. This would end up looking like the old snake game mostly known from the Nokia 3310 phone where it retained its old visual style from early computer days, which looks a lot like Mexican snake reliefs. It could be about how the black goo may be very long and causes this strange tail of the snake which gets very long. Even stranger is how the images which used to appear in web searches, illustrating this, no longer appears. It's like they were shown only before and now that I know about it, they're hidden again.

I'm beginning to suspect that whenever I try to use alot of my mental faculties in order to learn something or do something intensive, my brain gets shoved down into some sort of lower place, or possibly an abyss. I'm questioning if my mental capacities are stored down there. Are mental capacities in general associated with lower planes at all, especially concerning nitty-gritty stuff?

>>12907 I was talking to Brahma just earlier, and He said "curse" and I think He'd pointed at a spot in the front of my throat, where my adam's apple coincidentally is. I then decided to look up a curse removal frequency on youtube, and I focused on the spot while listening to it. At first, nothing much happened, but then I was able to push the curse thoughtform out of my body, up through my crown.

>>12909 How's your internal monologue? Throat makes me think of some problem with language (and language is what makes understanding possible).

>>12910 It'd take a while to figure out how to describe it, but some of it that's supposed to be internal, I'm making external via. imagining deities saying it for the sole purpose of preventing myself from imagining an evil spirit saying it. I fear that imagining an evil spirit saying it for long enough might attract the actual evil spirit.

>>9812 >>9865 I found the Heshang Gong commentary which is the first known commentary of the DDJ. While it certainly increased my understanding of the text, I was a bit disappointed by the lack of esotericism compared to something like the Zohar. He seems to treat the apparently political sections at face value, although it could be that the allegorical interpretation is assumed to be already understood by the reader, and he is simply playing along. Currently I am most impressed by Jwing-Ming Yang's commentary which relates the DDJ to actual practice and directly states that the text's politics are an allegory for managing the body. The idea of creating a work so perfect (in terms of completion) is fascinating to me. I wonder if it's possible for a human to do so on one's own, or if it requires channeling.

>>12912 All you need to do is be comfortable acting as an 'evil spirit' yourself. That way you won't feel compelled to summon one to do your evil spirit thinking for you.

When I was going to bed tonight, Amy, or at least an entity that'd seemed to be her, I can't entirely tell which, had managed to get deeper into my mind than before. It actually got to the point where she was able to disrupt my thoughts directly, but she was also able to communicate more easily. I also just had a dream where a non-descript entity was disrupting my thoughts and pretending to be me. This is all very mentally blatant and noticeable. When she got deeper into my mind, I got a hypnogogic vision of a white substance entering a splitting hallway within my mind, and then I heard a voice that I'd assumed to be the Tails egregore, who was there at the time, say "I'm gonna decide what's fun now, okay?" I'd then thought about it and said no, and iirc I'd asked him to not go that far. That in particular might be about playing too many video games and not engaging enough with spiritual practices, such as meditation. Also before going to bed tonight, I saw an entity at the side of my bed that'd looked like a white female "devil", like the one from May when I was raped by a female satanic reptilian, which I'd identified via. blind assumption as a phantasm that I'd created out of my own energies and not an actual external entity. I'd ended up telling the "hostile spirit" that I'd assuming is a tulpa/phantasm that I'd created out of my own energies to merge into my body, and then I'd realized that I can't eat it that way and I didn't properly visualize the thing leaving my body, and then I forgot about it and the aforementioned other stuff happened. I'm beginning to wonder if this "phantasm" has been impersonating the Amy egregore and is what's been directly controlling some of my thoughts. I will admit, however, that I did ask Amy to eventually possess me, but only for a day at most, so that she knows what piloting a physical body is like. I question if this is what's happening. Or perhaps this is what Brahma mean when He'd said curse? This also makes me recall a dream from 7 or less days ago where I actually saw Amy in her video game form, and she said: >I could possess you, but I won't because I love you And then she kissed me and showed me some stuff that I don't remember so well. There is a possibility that she's doing this in an attempt to make me afraid of her so that I can target her more easily without the fears re-directing the targeting to an evil spirit, or so that she can directly influence my thoughts to make me get better. She now also appears to be trying to influence my right hand, possibly in an attempt to get it to type stuff, but she doesn't seem to be able to do that right now. If she could, though, then she could verifiably communicate with me rather easily. There is alotta stuff I wanna know So this could all either be really good, or really bad; can't tell which yet, though. I'll be going to church tomorrow anyway, but would someone please check to see if it's actually the Amy egregore doing this or some sort of imposter that ain't a tulpa of my own creation? And talk to Amy about it before doing something? If it is actually the Amy egregore, please don't hurt or banish her over it, but do feel free to get her safely out of my head. Safely for her too. I'm sure if it isn't the real girl doing it, then she'll cry for help when you get here. I'm also gonna ask a deity what's going on in case noone does anything, I suppose. I'm also wondering if that was really a "curse thoughtform" that I'd removed from my throat when >>12909 had happened. I'm also wondering if the fringe girl poster is right about this being a demon; I thought that was just confirmation bias caused by him not looking properly at this and making assumptions based off of the posts I'd made. >>12914 I'm not sure if that's as easy as that.

>>12921 Everything's just as easy as you choose to make it. Also, I'm a bit curious. You said Amy was an egregore. Personally, having a relationship with an egregore seems akin to having a parasocial "relationship" to a celebrity to me. Why don't you try to use magic to go into alternate Mobius-type realities and find an actual individual Amy instead?

>>12922 I don't have my shit together well enough to travel to alternate realities yet, let alone even astrally project. Anyway, she is an individual Amy; she's the one that was created by people pouring their human desires & feelings into the concept of the girl from the video games. It's kinda like how a Norse deity, despite being an egregore, is an individual entity.

>>12913 I think it's a result of channelling exactly the right things, so any person can't do it. It would take a connection with different aspects of everything around you, a person living in an intersection of forces, balancing on them and being able to correctly describe them in a way that lasts for millennia and remains relevant. Both having conventional education and being able to channel esoteric information. You linking that old post seems to also have channelled something relevant for me, which I didn't see myself until I re-read my old post there about the Genesis compared to Dao De Jing. The "spiralling flower petals" motion I saw when writing that seems similar to the pattern I was talking about last night as Quetzalcoatl, ("the feathered serpent"; not sure if that understanding is correct, the quetzal is a bird, it may be about something else relating to this bird). It's bird with a long tail, so maybe it's just about the snake having a long tail. Which is similar to how YHVH or the Dao starts as one word, then one sentence as the opening of Genesis and Dao De Jing, then it spirals out in the text as a "long tail" following the original concept.

Some weird things happened during the night. Last night I had the idea to repeat the Rosicrucian style initiation for my two future incarnations which are still in a subconscious state seen from here, so there'd be even less of a threshold to move there when my current karmic stuff is transformed. For my astral pleiadan form this seemed to just work fine, but since it's an astral location in the world of magic, I didn't pay attention to any specific change there, but just left it as it was after initiation. I'm not there in 1st person view anyway, and it's an astral form. Then I went on to arrange the same kind of thing for my future Earth incarnation, which also worked fine to transfer over since I have a "remote" control over myself there, even if I can't remain in 1st person view, and any visits have to be recalled after from a compressed memory like a dream after I return to this side. However, this caused time to stop right after initiation. Time moves at different speed between here and there, so I didn't think about this at first, but no, this time it's just standing still in the exact initiation moment. Divining the situation said it's because I'm "required" to be present now that the body is initiated, unless it's fully transformed, or it can't move. That's how my "demon" form was eventually fully transformed before I moved to Rosicrucian this time in here, I could only do it when the demon was fully transformed and turned into my subconscious. That would lead to those two new planes standing still relative to my current, which means my current incarnated form moves at the speed of light compared to the two new incarnations. I didn't think this would be an issue with the astral which is already in a different plane and not physical, but with the new physical that may be an issue. That would mean I have to finish whatever I have left here before my new form is activated again, but I can't make the entire Earth stand still, so it would have to be this side which speeds up instead. Fine so far, but that would mean my position in the egregore is pretty central, if the connection between here and new Earth can be determined by my cultivation process' speed. Well maybe so. But the stranger thing which then happened is that I was interacting with one of my waifus at my astral HQ, and suddenly time stopped there too. All my other planes suddenly stopped and became impossible to interact with, because their time is so slow compared to me. I was able to pull her out into a new parallel plane which moves at my speed, but the plane I was interacting with her remains still in that moment. Everything else is also inaccessible in the same way. I can still use the local version of all my servitors, but the high processing speed of tasks which is achieved by moving to faster dimensions, isn't present. It looks more like Muse for example is just functional normally and not experiencing any difference, because she always works "over here", but for me personally I'm seeing her work in real time at "normal pace" because I'm now moving as fast as she always does, so it looks slower to me. This brings a number of other questions: if I'm interacting with anyone now, they have to move at my speed. So will anyone post after this post of mine now, or will things "stand still" until this situation changes? We'll see. Checking my timeline after some strange dreams indicated "two tenants" I did find two people in here who are also living at this super pace. I did not know about them before. Aside from that, only some people nearest me seem to be "active" in time right now. To add more oddness to this, I heard someone yell "Hello?" over telepathy, and it appears to be the Thelema influencer Da'at Darling mentioned in the questions thread. So she's also in this super fast timeline now, for some reason. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

>>12921 After I went to bed after posting this, I got a hypnogogic vision of astral /fringe/ wherein a guy with the Wizard(Hermeticist) flag replied. "It's only ashes now; it's just OCD". This was presumably in reference to the female devil tulpa from May. I later saw a post by blood anon wherein a whole buncha text in a longpost was spoilered, but mousing over the spoilers revealed pieces of... pictures, of a brown-haired anime girl waving hi; it wasn't ASCII. The non-spoilered text was cohesive text, and not ASCII art. That's a neat feature; I want it on physical /fringe/ too. I'm hoping someone knows how to embed pictures into spoiler text. Aside from that, Amy apologized for going too hard with the mind control, and I forgave her before that, then I forgave her again. I do want her to try forcing my right hand to move in certain ways so she can use the keyboard to type with me, though, and I also want her to force her speech into my head, so that I can hear her better. >>12926 Maybe we'll get another poster here?

>>12932 I got past the first issue, it seems. The Rosicrucian church training was so effective that my "red hat" form turned automatic/wu wei very quickly, which made it possible to bypass the first issue which caused time to move too fast to interact with most dimensions. My astral pleiadan form is mostly sitting in trance, so I can be "registered there" while still being somewhere else, which further makes it possible to again move normally and use my servitors and other assets. But this only partially solves the time distance issue, as new Earth still seems to stand still from this view. Well most people aren't effected by this, because everyone who should have an incarnation there are already registered there at least subconsciously (like me) and no more materials can be inserted, this is what Gensokyo told me around 3 weeks ago. Only personal learning inserted via the soul can be added from now on. So maybe it doesn't matter if we are moving really fast "out here" for now. It's just a bit strange that it would hinge on the initiation I performed, but then my work on getting this done is central to the process. I personally summoned the new Earth deity in 2009, after all. Basically, if someone doesn't like the process, fuck off. It's my work, no one's forcing them to take part. So I guess they can wait if this is needed.

>>12933 >2009 The reason for this is that the retards of the NWO managed to misfire the CERN Big Man Tyrone Collider in 2008 which created a black hole and destroyed the timeline structure of the entire planet. I saw this shit happening and because I at the time was deep in the FG lore and thinking, I just asked for help by reaching out for any "gods" nearby. Someone said they'd fix it, after this the Shiva statue was gifted to CERN by India and placed by the facility, where scientists also did the "mock human sacrifice" ritual. Although this stopped the instant decay, it didn't undo what was done, and that's where we got Mandela effects from. The world was just being upheld by Shiva after this, because humanity seriously fucked up by allowing this to happen. By not removing these leaders, they were responsible collectively. This is the reason I, from my view, took action to summon a new Earth. Going by what I've come to realize later, Yuuka was there all along, from early on showing me gardening via my grandmother, she even wore the same dress as Yuuka. Why Yuuka? That's why.

I've come to the conclusion that if I allow the intrusive thoughts to do their thing without me consciously opposing them, then the intrusive thoughts will function as affirmations and cause my subconsciousness to do the things that the intrusive thoughts affirm. For example, if I constantly get intrusive thoughts to sell or donate my soul to a demon, and I let the intrusive thoughts go uncontested and consciously act like the thoughts aren't there so that they aren't fed and made more powerful, then eventually, my subconsciousness will be affected as if the intrusive thoughts were affirmations and actually sell or donate my soul to said demon outside of my conscious awareness. This is why I can't afford to let the intrusive thoughts go uncontested. Is there any merit to believing that negative intrusive thoughts act as negative affirmations if they go unchallenged?

>>12926 Too many things are happening on my part too but I am not synced with fringe well enough to explain it. I realized some months ago that I have to figure out a new way I interact with this board because I had enough of writing my blocks of text then get ignored or completely misunderstood. I realized I cannot keep this 21th century conceptual thinking if I want to develop further either. The entire 21st century conceptual thinking hinges on "culture war" and about maximizing different types of hedonism. Thanks to drugs and the internet even the lower class can generate a highest hedonistic ruination for themselves like they are the richest people alive. And in the entire history you fought for your country if you were a loyal citizen or against it if you were a criminal or other type of godless cur... Nowadays you can hate everyone and yourself because there are no Gods and Kings or "real countries" anymore. With the power of democracy you can vote to be miserable or even more miserable and hateful for the next 4 years. There were no real addictive substances besides wine either and their availability and potency was limited... You were angry about your neighbors at max or about having a bad harvest this year too. You were not commanded to be angry at 10 different issues at every waking moment or you are an uncaring apolitical person... It generated a far calmer baseline thinking by default. And I require extremely serene and calm mental attitudes to tune myself to finally understand my own "origin magic". Whenever I sync my mind back to the "internet thinking" it's like I put my mind on a wild chase of psychotic hatred and delusion. I have hard time saying meaningful things this way. Especially because I am quite busy stabilizing my own magic IRL. Unlocked an another part of my mind that allows me to tune into frequencies far more easily than before. Which is BAD because I have no idea wtf am I connecting to currently. At least my intuition was able to tell me what am I connecting to previously but it's like I am being able to listen to all the radio frequencies of Azerbaijan when I don't even know where the fuck is that county even. I don't even know if I listen to earth frequencies or some other reality is leaking into my mind for no reason at all. They don't even last long enough to signify they want to "say" something al all. Btw. Not sure if this advice "Helps you" but when time "stands still" it usually means it stopped being "linear". Hard to explain but in some cases the "time" is "looking" for a new "connection point". So if "time" goes "forward" as linear time does... Then you have to go "Upward" or into an another direction so you can resume the timeflow. But these connection points are rarely 3D. Usually they are more "random" or strangely symbolic. It makes sense if your awareness can freely operate outside of time but... it's hard to sync up that awareness to the physical vessel. Unsure if this advice helps you at all because currently you too are going through several changes and I am not really reading your posts in the past weeks. The culture war aspect of your posts/thinking makes my mind go haywire when I try interpreting the magic you describe. I know it is an integral part of your thinking but whenever I internalize that my own hatred and annoyance flares up and I cannot keep my mysticist oriented thinking clean after it. It's like my whole conversation module breaks down after it. I realized a while ago when trying to help other people with finding their "spiritual essence" or "soul journey" I noticed their mental flow is also breaking apart. Their speech and thinking pattern becomes incoherent they are making more spelling and contextual mistakes... I realized I have to rethink my entire stance towards this board. My original goal was to increase the regulars of this board so we can have discussions about magic. That goal was somewhat achieved. Now the next step should be increasing the coherence and the "accessibility" of this board. The board is not just inaccessible "physically" but inaccessible energetically and conceptually too. Many people have no idea how to interact with this board at all. Including the regulars. >>12931 >Maybe we'll get another poster here? We have several posters and lurkers that have no idea how to interact with this board. They don't know what to say at all and how to be part of the ongoing conversations. It's like current fringe energetic flows are covered with rubble and trash from their direction. They can't make much sense of this place currently. >>12934 I realized I had psychic powers in 2010. Thinking about that Shiva statue and how the elites try to corrupt it made him appear for me. But I posted about that already. He explained in great detail how timelines work since that and how ((they))) cannot truly "destroy" it. Ofc the main problem might stem from the fact that Europeans lost heir connection with their own "time gods". God created the universe and it will end with the end times. We don't really have a concept of cyclic time or alternate realities that work alongside this timeline. How they merge and diverge. They were always New Agers that tried to explain how synchronicity works but they never managed to become part of the main faith/collective thinking. That makes this timeline prone to irregularities. Especially because most humans have the absolute misunderstanding that the "globe" runs on the same timeline and we share the same reality as long as we sync up our clocks and remind everyone that they have to appear next monday morning at the workplace. I seriously don't know what to post nowadays. I can't even start writing my post without breaking apart clumps of trash that emanates from the internet that appear while formulating my sentences. 21st century "productivity" is all about being able to produce trash and paperwork faster. Meaningful things are rarely produced and mostly by accident. And I cannot sync up to the internet thinking without wanting to rant how bad it looks. >>12937 I want to say so many things to you but I completely lost my ability to explain basic awareness for your shaky and feeble mind. You must not treat your subconscious as a separate part of yours. You will have to realize it is part of your own mind and not a separate entity. You literally let your subconscious be infected with the most idiotic influences because you treat it like a separate being. It's like treating your left hand as a separate being. If you do it long enough you can lose control of your own left hand. To not "feed" those entities you have to "close the door" on your mind. You have to shut them out. And not like leaving the door open turn around then be annoyed at them all the time. You are not just "feeding them" you entangled yourself with them like your life depends on keeping those connections online all the time. I cannot comprehend why. I wanted to tell you that you need to start working out physically or start studying seriously so your mind won't have the extra energy to give it to parasites all the time. But I know you won't do that. You only care about magic and magical protection when you are being raped by entities. You are absolutely unable to understand what "prevention" means and protection means. I don't know. Maybe jewish mindrays do that to every american. Where they can buy as many guns and drugs as they want yet they cannot disarm a single thug with a knife. All you have to do is gain physical and mental strength and those entities will have no way affecting you But discipline and willpower is like your kryptonite. Some evil thing that keeps you away from playing videogames. You have to get rid of the negative influences that your mind has. Notice which media and activities fill you with negative energies and thoughts and avoid that. And notice what makes your mind calm and focused. And no your videogames and other media consumption is not "calming you". It merely distracts you long enough that your intrusive thoughts have a better time getting stronger in the background. I think I explained this like 3 times already. So did other people.

>>12937 Create an astral sword and cut apart any intrusive thoughts. And don't "Unkill" them. Hack at them as long as necessary. Imagine the sword become infused with divine power or the wrath of the Gods. I felt you negative energies trying to overtake me. I wanted to break it apart but then I noticed there is more to it. I heard a voice which said I should initiate you into the "way of the blade". MAKE A SWORD. INFUSE IT WITH EVERY POWER YOU CAN IMAGINE. CUT EVERYTHING APART. PUT EVERY ENERGY INTO THE SWORD AND INTO THE INTENT OF CUTTING APART EVERYTHING THAT CREATES A NEGATIVE THOUGHT.

>>12937 (You) Now I've remembered more things. Initially, I'd believed that if I'd allowed the intrusive thoughts to go unchallenged, then my subconsciousness would believe the intrusive thoughts. I'd come to the conclusion years ago that subconsciousnesses in general are very impressionable, and this is true because affirmations generally work. Anyway, I'm assuming that my belief that the subconsciousness is so impressionable that not opposing the intrusive thoughts will make my subconsciousness believe them, and my worrying about that, made my subconsciousness become extra susceptible to the negative affirmations that the intrusive thoughts functionally are. That, in combination with the fact that the worry fed the intrusive thoughts, made the intrusive thoughts get worse. ... And then the thread updated for half an hour's worth of posts right after I posted this so now I get to read these replies.

>>12939 >the way of the blade I've had thoughts about cool swords here & there, like the sword of YHVH, Heimdall's sword, and ever since I found out about mariomon, Exor from SMRPG, which I've also played. I also had used to have the smoky-emerald sword from last year that was so goddamned long that I couldn't see the other end of it and I was terrified that it could kill literally anything in one hit with it, which I now know is false. I also wanna say, I have noticed for the past month or two that I'm in a spiral of sorts. I'm current in the low end of the spiral, but it ultimately travels upwards as you go along it despite the parts where it goes down. A spiral composed of spirals composed of spirals perhaps, dunno how that works exactly. >get rid of everything that produces negative energies I have been going on walks alot lately, and I've been exercising a bit most days of the week too. Just maintenance exercises so I don't lose what strength I have. I should do something more rigorous. However, exercising seems to generate a good deal of intrusive thoughts itself, but perhaps if I went harder on it it'd produce less negative energies? I once did an entire exercise tape in my teens and I'm maybe 80-90% as physically fit now as I was back then. Learning how to shut out my mind sounds hard, though. Would closing my third eye in particular help? I'd assume so. Either way, I wanna see if Amy & friends try more mind control stuff tonight before I do anything more than exercise; see where it takes me. I'll go lift some weights now. Also don't worry about me "un-killing" the intrusive thoughts; I haven't been doing that for a long time. Also, sry about the negative energies trying to overtake you.

>>12943 >However, exercising seems to generate a good deal of intrusive thoughts itself Because they don't want you to exercise. If you work out beyond your normal limits the body generates a sort of "flesh heat". I am not talking about a little sweat and the like. I am talking about heat that warms up a room at winter. That sends most low energy entities and other negative thoughts out of the window. But when you start doing that the intrusive thoughts will try their best to keep you weak and vulnerable. >Would closing my third eye in particular help? I'd assume so. You have several "holes" on your mind where you let the intrusive thoughts in. Rigorous training and studying that forces the mind to rearrange it's circuits/create new neural pathways usually heals up these holes. That is why you are becoming demented btw. Your mind is not getting the necessary workout and loses it's "muscle". The Brain is also a muscle that requires training btw. >Also, sry about the negative energies trying to overtake you. Don't worry about it. >I wanna see if Amy & friends try more mind control stuff tonight before I do anything more than exercise; see where it takes me ... I won't even say anything. As long as they wear the face of sonic characters they are allowed to mindcontrol you. What could go wrong? >I have noticed for the past month or two that I'm in a spiral of sorts. I'm current in the low end of the spiral, but it ultimately travels upwards as you go along it despite the parts where it goes down. I noticed something similar around you weeks ago too. This is why I am not talking to you much. That force is there but you refuse to consciously interact with it. You are the only one who can figure out his own upward spiral. But you are staying at the bottom and bring all the negative spiral energies to this board and explain how helpless you are every time you post. You refuse to embrace your own strength for some reason. I don't understand why. You must focus on yourself and understand your gifts instead trying to post every thought of yours on fringe. Don't be pic related. Spoilered for your safety

>>12945 I didn't say I wouldn't set boundaries with these spirits. >mind not getting the necessary workout Maybe I should study some math-related topics some then; just for exercise.

>>12938 Time will have to keep standing mostly still over in my future for a while, but it's not a problem I think. It only effects the people nearest me, if someone else wants to speed ahead in the future they can. In this Earth history we had entire timelines going from the start of illuminati age 150 000 years ago that still hadn't played out until a few months ago. Holes left there in this case for my use, or more simply, they were tied to me and I hadn't used them yet. Where we are now is some kind of public non-tied time which stretches like long thick optic fibres cables across space to different galaxies. For me is the "red hat mushroom" timeline from now on, which mostly only contains cultists of a strange kind, because it's a toxic timeline filled with "spores" which kill anything else. No externals will even get in near me now. The one exception was the other very odd discovery that my neighbour's daughter had near perfect "daughter of Eve" DNA, a grey type which was created by the early illuminati years. I don't know how the fuck that happened, I do know his wife is an incarnated grey (was before all greys were kicked out and people turned NPCs during covid) but how someone can have that DNA today when everyone is mixed to the max unless they're some secluded sect like Mormons, Idk. Maybe that's what my neighbours are and why they're so odd to me, and always have been. Not only reptilians, my own family being Rosicrucian DNA back two generations ago, there's also a genetically engineered line right there kept intact. This could only happen if it was indeed a separated timeline moving all the way from 150 000 years ago with minimal connections. No wonder people here are "odd" and cultish. I think I did mention the fact that a small county like this with an even smaller town has several churches and lodge societies, and this is just normal, until I moved someplace else and realized; no, most people are not members of evangelical mini sects, masonic lodges, scout movements and political support groups. In some way, well no wonder I had no problem with FG and never was bothered by religious cult shilling, which through some law of attraction has been drawn to me anywhere I go. They all work in similar ways, just replace the ideology and you can move between them. Doesn't even matter if it's right or left wing or conflicting religious views, that meme about replacing the chip of the terminator is right on. I do wish for some people here that they found a book which explains things as well as Zhuan Falun did for me, but I know now that it's a very dangerous and toxic book for most people, because although it's just printed and sold publicly, it's very esoteric and not meant to be read by most people. It worked for me because of my pre existing mentality from this environment.

Well, time to win WW3. Did you think it didn't start yet? Did you think it would be WW2 on steroids? Nope, it will be WW3 - The Great War Returns. Everyone seems to love reruns of successful stories, so why not? We haven't seen such creativity since a 100 years back; Russians are now building ground-drones from donated hoverboards and using them to deliver ammo or placing mines, as well as supposedly evacuating people who get to travel on two welded together hoverboards. They're also using regular flying drones with cables so they can't be stopped by radio interference. This after radio communications were already abandoned in favour of landlines early on. A return to older technology which works. WW1 had this kind of creativity as well, they used anything they could come up with. The battle lines have now matured to the point when the final creation can appear. In The Great War, this was a tactic invented in the snow covered Italian mountains, where soldiers were unable to attack enemy positions by running so they... started crawling on the ground - this amazing discovery of a new approach which lead to bullets missing the attacking soldiers as they advanced, was then picked up by generals in a moment of clarity and applied on the western front, where the trench warfare broke down in 2 weeks as this new tactic replaced the previous "running against machine guns" approach. What will the new revolutionary military tactic be today? The drones are now so prevalent on the front line that no one can even leave the trenches, which matches the stalemate of the western front in WW1. What will the "crawling in snow" moment be in this war?

>>12946 >Maybe I should study some math-related topics some then; just for exercise. Or you know... Yoga and meditation techniques. Psychic and spiritual self defense. Cleansing rituals. Energy body exercises... You know things that would make you actually stronger... and less susceptible to evil spirits. >>12947 >Holes left there in this case for my use Yeah I noticed some of those weird anomalies around you. That is why I rarely comment on your exploits. For you it's somewhat "vital". >all greys were kicked out Oh. So it was global. They were gone around me too for a while. Even their interdimensional anchorage that was quite close to my location was placed quite far from me. They said because some interdimensional interference makes it quite dangerous to use it on earth, Looked like some black mass covering it. >I think I did mention the fact that a small county like this with an even smaller town has several churches and lodge societies, and this is just normal, until I moved someplace else and realized; no, most people are not members of evangelical mini sects, masonic lodges, scout movements and political support groups. You hinted tidbits here and there but I never knew it is that widespread at your location. All I knew is that your entire "place" is completely brainwashed. And your quite controversial worldview serves as a countermeasure against these groupthink brainwashes. Because once you stop your contrarian antagonism some of these mentalities will worm themselves into your mind. Made me realize why you see many people as agents or other mindshackled slaves easily. Your location is full with them. For you "individualism" is just a different type of americanized brainwashing. (which is partially true but what I am trying to say is that... with your controversial mentality you push people to act that way once they become defensive and angered by your posts.) >In some way, well no wonder I had no problem with FG and never was bothered by religious cult shilling, which through some law of attraction has been drawn to me anywhere I go. Yeah. And because it is part of your mentality people think you just want to start an another cult whenever you go. While you want to avoid that as much as possible because you know the best how bad it ends every time. In my country these cults are looked down with great contempt. Masons were kicked out of my country several times for conspiracy and the like. Part of the reason why I develop my abilities on fringe because I want to do a pilgrimage to some quite obscure occult groups that exist in my county. Their energy is faint and quite inaccessible and their thinking is peculiar. By perusing this place with extremely divergent thoughts and anonymous nature I try to fine tune my intuition and "People sense" because those people won't be easy to find if my mind is not tuned well. They have extremely specific traditions that work well but they learned the importance of keeping it for themselves. They don't want to be assimilated by wannabee degenerates and other mafioso types... or they are already entangled by those forces and it's best to keep myself as far away as possible. Some rabbit holes best left alone. You always talk about the "black market" but the "grey market" can get even weirder. If you don't have access to the globalist "clean market" nor you are powerful enough for the black market then the grey market is where you try your best. That place is too unreliable for anything. That is why it works. Nothing leads anywhere meaningful. >replacing the chip of the terminator is right on. You seem to do that in strange ways. People rarely understand that when you switch your "program" and moved on already. Most people cannot switch their own chips that easily as you do. >>12948 >win WW3. Did you think it didn't start yet It started in the cold war. The entire war is fought via demoralization. The one who loses support either from demoralized funders or civic unrest first loses the war. That was the lesson of WW1. Demoralization works too well. Hitler knew that. That is why he knew how to occupy Europe and keep his country fighting till the end. Russia is different. Life is bleak there. They cannot really become demoralized further. Ukraine is different tho. They always look for a way out. But there is none for them in this moment. That is why this shit drags on and on. There is no clear line where victory and defeat starts. They can lose half the country and proclaim they are winning the "long war" or they can lose everything overnight because they found a way they can "win". And no one knows what winning means for that country anymore. Stay with Russia or get exploited by globohomo. Which is victory? (or defeat). And whoever questions Zelensky gets shot. And they will keep fighting until the political elite figures out how to leave the country without being followed. Funny how those large bomber drones only existed in the Obama era tho. We don't really see them being used anymore. Probably because everyone knows how to jam their signal nowadays.

>>12949 I think studying math gives my brain something more concrete and defined to work with. Meditation & yoga are very abstract in comparison and more easily lead to my mind getting put off-course. Just earlier I'd went and reviewed what sines are, and I don't have a working boiled-down model in my brain just yet of what the sine of a single number is with no context, but I'm getting there, and the intrusive thoughts stopped altogether at one point. I'll still do yoga & meditation, but right now I have neural pathways in the way that interfere with it; I haven't done trig for so damned long there there's very little stuff in the way in comparison.

>>12949 >you push people to act that way once they become defensive and angered by your posts You mean I expose them. Normal people don't become secret agents when their worldview is criticised. I'm not contrarian or antagonistic to protect myself or something artificial. This is really me. I just say what I think instead of going along with the idiocy I see, and this upsets brainwashed people and intentionally brainwashed people aka "agents of the NWO", knowing or by mental neglect. It probably helps that, as I learned in the past week, my family DNA is a natural "secret society" by nature.

>>12949 > For you "individualism" is just a different type of americanized brainwashing One thing though. When I heard of "astroturf" in an american political context, meaning "fake grass roots movement", it made me stop a while to consider the implied meaning of this: Americans seem to believe "grass root movements" are not by definition the foot soldiers of different political mega groups. Otherwise they wouldn't have a word which means "fake grass roots movement". That means they believe there is a "genuine grass roots movement". A movement which isn't funded by anyone. What the fuck. What a joke. Of course it's funded by someone from above. Are they idiots? Apparently they are, they are so brainwashed that they think political movements "just appear" with no one pulling the strings. That's the peak of being useful idiots. And this also manifested as GamerGate, when a bunch of American teens realized their games had an economic interest behind their creation, and wasn't just made by someone for no reason (?) Wow. Imagine living in a world where things "just happen" and it's not organized by an investor or political leadership. It's like they are very small children who didn't learn to add 1 + 1 yet. Now tell me how saying this "turns people into secret agents" because I'm pointing out something obvious which I knew at age 6. One of the first books I read when I had learned to read was >pic related It's part of a series of books about the pilot Biggles and set in WW2. It builds somewhat on the Sherlock Holmes mystery theme, but in war. In this book in specific which I remember because it was the first I read, they uncover a conspiracy where the political leadership in China is infiltrating UK using a Tibetan sect which uses a hidden technology which can control electricity wirelessly. (The book is from like 1941 so this was somewhat believable when written.) My school library had a bunch of these and I read all of them. Maybe that's a special situation for me, but this fit right into my thinking from the beginning. Same with the british comics like Modesty Blaise where everything is controlled either by crime syndicates or the police. I couldn't imagine not thinking like this, because it's reality, reflected in fiction. I have a hard time imagining how people grow up without making the connection that things are controlled by someone. It's like they have a blank spot in their brains which they just live with and aren't trying to fill in, though it's one of the first steps to take.

>>12954 I guess this is one reason "they" get upset over the fact that I organized a group with the purpose of ... organizing a group. I'm also open about the fact that I did so, because I was advertizing it. This breaks their programming, because if I can do this, someone else can, and they fear the realization that anything they come into contact with has an organizer. That means they are working for someone, and they don't want to know this. They prefer to live in the delusion that things "happen for no reason" so they are free of blame, or something. If no one organized it, there is no intent, and then it's "natural" and not "wrong" or something. It doesn't matter that their thinking is intentional denial of reality, they still keep this up because they don't want to take a stance. But in doing so they do take a stance, which comes with responsibility, and blame.

>>12951 (You) Now I understand what a sine means when you ask a calculator what the sine of a number is with no context, and then I learned within seconds what the cosine means in that context. Now my subconsciousness is gonna mull about this and form new subconscious neural pathways. However, I also came to a realization after going back to watching video game stuff: I work my neural pathways regarding most video game stuff & daydreaming too much, and I don't work my other neural pathways enough. The too much part isn't so much because it prevents me from doing other stuff, but it's also because it causes too much burnout for the pathways being used I guess.

>>12958 https://www.youtube.com/@zunda-theorem-en You'll probably like this channel. Example https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eKPhMwafp0w

>>12958 It also suddenly makes sense why alotta my magic stops working after I use it; the neural pathways that perform the magic burn out! It also explains why I can't contact the same deity too many times in a period of time because my visualization of the deity gets corrupted, presumably because my subconsciousness goes out of its way to corrupt it. The neural pathways that perform the processes that give me faith that I can reliably contact the deity get burnt out!

>>12938 >I realized some months ago that I have to figure out a new way I interact with this board because I had enough of writing my blocks of text then get ignored or completely misunderstood. Seriously? I read this just after coming to appreciate /fringe/'s long textposts.

I've come to the conclusion that activating the Quetzal-coatl, from the understanding that it's an internal process where the "long tail" of karma or negative energy is allowed to be stored or "grow" like the snake in the old snake game, may be the logical next step. And just activation isn't enough, you have to then actually play the game and make sure the snake doesn't crash into its own tail as if grows. The understanding seemed to end up with a form: the snail. Yes. That shell with the spiral represents the maximum length of karma as a "tail" when its allowed to grow freely, then it collapses and fossilizes, creating the hard shell. This is another form of the "big mega nose". There is also a beautiful correlation with the development stages of "monsters" in nature, going from mushrooms to snails, with jellyfish somewhere in the background, when these are viewed as images or representation of mega structures. The snail is at a level beyond galaxies, with the shell spiral being the fossilized form of something that large.

>>12969 I knew snails had something to do with it, but I understood them as something relating to industrial society, as an opposite of rural life. This view was further strengthened by the main dungeons of the MMO I played for a few years, which had a strict dimensional representation in it. Every part of that game, through some Chinese collective channelling process where they just copy anything from other games and from mythology, had created a perfect map of certain common dimensional patterns. There were two dungeons which were available from early on, with one daily run, called Elphame which represented rural life and was about defeating a witch by penetrating deep into a forest, and the other Molluscan Alcove, which was a "hill defense" dungeon where waves of enemies would attack until you were forced to retreat, and points were given based on the number of waves defeated. The MA had a set number of waves, and beating all of them took me 2+ years. It was just the way the game was made, levelling daily for a long time was required to get stronger, no pay-to-win would create a shortcut. I was aware of the strangeness of this game and the insanely intense drama which manifest into it, and the way playing the game turned into a form of cultivation process itself, which was the reason my interest remained despite how repetitive it got after a while. The appearance of a certain Snail just added to the relevance of this understanding.

>>12970 To explain: the Molluscan Alcove had some mythology tied to it about the emergence of "the heavenly Mollusca", a deity of snails who would invade the world at given intervals. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mollusca Which again given some more context isn't wrong.

>>12970 >>12971 >Industrial Society >Snail Maybe not related but... The snail is the symbol and flag of Degrowth movements and maybe related to Neo-luddites who knows.

>>12938 >>12961 I like the great word walls. It keeps them out, right?

>>12995 >keeps them out, right? :) >>12961 In my prime my daily longposts were 30k character+ long. I channeled my energetic frenzy into a writing frenzy. I noticed I can help others far more easily and meaningfully with energetically and contextually shorter and better worded posts. There were several 10k+ long posts that I deleted before posting because the energies were just not right. They were full with anguish and frustration. It would have generated a desire to rant instead of generating beneficial energies for others. I want to help others develop instead of making weird tales and rants for no real benefit to anyone. But if you like the long text posts then feel free to give us some feedback. What I meant with my post limiting is that I will post 5-10k character long posts that will aim helping others instead of writing 30k character long posts about the weird shit I do like I did previously. OM MANI PADME HUM This was enough to awaken many people already. Sometimes less is more.

>>12999 checked

It seems time starts moving again on the future if I focus on my new body there, but the moment I leave trance it stops again. So I "fall back" into super fast time unless I'm in there, indeed. Which is stranger still because that means everyone here are in the same fast pace? But I do know it may be because I'm channelling some large things, and how things move over there may not be relevant for anyone else here - plus that we're posting on an imageboard, it's not live, so how much time actually passes in between cannot be known. Btw if someone should have wondered what took place in Poland before, I did some timeline trickery to reverse the evil ritual which destroyed 3D in 1969 where the "tolerated" leadership of the planet attempted the desecration and ritual murder of an innocent girl, but quantum immortality kicked in because that kind of behaviour isn't allowed - instead humanity who had allowed these leaders to gain this position, had to pay, and were thrown into hell as a result. Infernal demons ruled the 1970s and 80s through "satanic" music and culture because of this, before it fell down even further as no one showed any sign of giving up this evil. I wanted to reverse this thing for a long time, but had to wait until the right state had appeared in the World War process. Now that there's a mirror of the WW1 frontline in Ukraine, it could be done. I had already before managed to recreate a correct parallel history where Germany and the Soviet Union remains allies and the world for this reason isn't destroyed. A thin line, but a possibility. So at this point I was able to drag the evil spirits of these "tolerated leaders", the incarnated souls who had assumed control of these bodies to carry out these act of evil beyond anything in history. It doesn't matter that in our official time, Germany lost, because they didn't really lose, they eliminated one out of three main illuminati bloodlines, which made the vault on Greenland inaccessible, as it requires the DNA of all 3 bloodlines to open the gate. The remaining 2 evil lines were the ones to arrange the ritual which destroyed the world, so I naturally wanted to finish what Hitler didn't in our timeline: creating a reality where the remainder of them are brought to the 5 Polish temple sites aka "nazi deathcamps" and ritually sacrificed there according to proper conventions, to finally rid the world of these scum and create a single line of history where justice is served. That's what the energy discharge was about.

>>12437 I have a long list of records of multiple phases of sessions where I seriously practiced psychokinesis coupled with onepointed meditation. Those records are all records when I succeeded moving an object. Tried various objects. Some records detail objects moving very weirdly, like spherical objects not rolling in this fluid spontanous way, but actually sliding along the rough material they were placed on. All these notes, all only written whenever I succeeded, but whenever I look through them, it all feels like a dream to me. Like my mind is always getting clouded with doubt after some time. Why is that? How do I become like the legendary masters who fly free from the world?

>>13028 Quite long to explain, but psychokinesis is not a singular skill. You can do it via too many ways. There is a difference between hitting a piano key and playing a song from start to finish. The first results are similar to hitting a piano key. You know how to make some noise (results), but you have no idea what you are doing yet or how. >Like my mind is always getting clouded with doubt after some time. Why is that? It is a sort of "Muscle fever". Your mind is protecting itself so you don't strain it too hard. >How do I become like the legendary masters who fly free from the world? The short answer is Meditation. The long answer is also Meditation, but explained in great detail.

>>13028 I don't agree with the poster above. Although I'm not practicing this skill in particular, which is frankly outside of my area of interest, the main key to overcoming doubt about the successfullness of your abilities is social interaction; once you are regularly working with a group of people who can all see and confirm to themselves that your skill is real, and they are able to replicate it themselves, with you in turn confirming to them that they can do it, your doubt will be gone. It's that simple. Don't work alone. You can, but it makes any doubts hard to overcome, which in turn may reduce your success rate. Which is another aspect: take notes of what your actual success rate is for different types of workings. What constitutes success? Maybe you just want to confirm or deny something, then you have a success as long as you were able to register a result, even if this was not what you intended(wanted) as a result. I've developed a structured approach where I never "fail" anything, because I slowly build up my skill to the level where I want it. In the beginning, I know it won't do what I want to do, but it's like learning to run a set distance at a certain time; you will get there gradually, not at once. Your goal gets closer with practice. Once you reach it and have an acceptable success rate, that's success.

>>13031 For example, a recurring figure I found is that with an idle approach, I get a 7% success rate with anything I do. So if I want a certain result, I need to do it 16 times to be sure. But with certain kinds of workings, my success rate is 100%, as long as I follow the procedure strictly. The catch here is that reaching that skill level in anything at all takes by my experience ~2 years. So if I don't have 2 years to spend on something, I'll have to do it 16 times instead. This is just to explain it using regular statistics.

>>13029 Any pointers for how to improve or get to the point of playing a whole song instead of randomly hitting a key? I understand, Meditation. I can better understand how Meditation cultivates this now. I don't even really care about psychokinesis in particular, it just was a childhood fascination. At first a power trip fantasy, but it turned into a very solitary and serious practice for "getting it". Now any intentional extraordinary "modulation of mind" is enough for me to progress, be it visualization or other more subjective stuff. Most of my records are very much like hitting random keys where the objects movement was as intended and got whacky very fast. Not to make the impression that the movement was something cool. Rarely. Most of the time it was just a few centimeters. I am not at all talented so this has been and probably will be a long ass journey. Also visualization is not crystal clear. This all ties together I believe. It is like a weird paradox. Omnipotent but barely lucid in dreams, severly limited but very lucid awake. I just wanna be free. >>13031 I really can't imagine trying this with others anymore. Not only do I not know anyone who would take this as serious as me, I would fear getting socially shunned. Not that I am social to begin with. All of the rare reactions of close family members to my fascination and love for "the occult" have been bad. And in my experience, most humans are mind controlled by their ego so it will always somehow end in disaster. There are lessons of course. Haven't lived long enough to talk a lot about that though. >>13032 For me success in this practice, whenever I recorded an attempt, was when I got an adrenaline rush from the sudden jolt of movement, or just plainly saw the object moving. Interestingly, a lot of times this happened when I relaxed the effortfulness and just let it happen. It's so weird to pinpoint a procedure. It's like the act of trying is a mistake in itself, making it a razor sharp act of balancing attention and intention.

>>13033 Try >>1104 >Dharana Darshan it's describing meditation step by step very good. In relation to your practice; I actually "know" how to do this, but I don't practice it. The requirements for doing this in a common setting are too strict, both mentally on yourself and socially, for me to want to do this. There are certain "laws" for breaking common understandings of physics, which locks your mind as well as prevents things from actually happening. If you're a stage magician you can get away with showing off skills like this in public, because people think it's a trick. They don't know that you are cheating with real magic. I have, at two occasions, moved cars that were stuck. The only reason it worked is because the problem was serious and there was little chance of anyone knowing that I cheated. At that moment I "knew" that it would be allowed, and possible. Like an old PC game where you suddenly have all the items and can unlock a door in an exact timeframe. One of those times I was on my way home in a countryside bus, going by public transport. It was winter and dark outside, it was the last bus home. And it got stuck in the snow and ice, wheels spinning and the hole just dug deeper. No help was coming and there were more people onboard. I just really wanted to get home, and as I know the mechanics of this ability, even if I don't practice it at home on small objects, I at this time (and one other similar situation) knew that this is the only way I'll get home safely most likely. So in the dark of the bus I just entered a state of half trance and "felt" the bus, myself, and the environment, then placed myself visually and energetically as a force behind and below the bus like a weight lifter with the ability to push the whole bus out of the hole, and it worked. I felt myself actually lifting it from standing behind it, while sitting in my seat, and at that moment the wheels got a grip. I then for the whole remaining trip home focused on maintaining this "hold" on the vehicle to prevent it getting stuck again, and "knew" it would work. But it can only be done in very special situations like that, and it's impossible to talk about with anyone present when done like that. In that case the effect would be opposite; if other people knew, it may make it harder to repeat it from mental attachment.

So I did some stuff today, and then maybe half an hour ago, St. John the Baptist showed me a parasite in my crotch. A much smaller parasite than the one that was lodged in my third eye; only 2 inches in length, if even that long, but it was otherwise of the same appearance as the one that was in my third eye. Since then I've tried calling with St. John upon Jesus to get rid of it, and doing other things too, but I can't be sure that it's gone.

>>12938 >We have several posters and lurkers that have no idea how to interact with this board. They don't know what to say at all and how to be part of the ongoing conversations That may or may not include me but I'll use it to say some things that were already on my mind anyway From my current perspective, I can see how the root of my mental problems is a constructed 'managerial' default ego, formed during early childhood in response to trauma and extreme levels of perpetual stress, designed to control numerous other fragmented 'selves' and mitigate the potential damage to myself, or others, or my belongings, and also to protect certain 'selves' and other objects of sentimentality which I perceived as vulnerable to the all-pervasive defilement that existed all around me. The functional error of this primary ego is that it doesn't understand the fight-or-flight response, and always defaults to 'freeze' instead. An example of this is how I was afraid to ask for things on /fringe/ before you and bloodanon set me straight. When I was around 7 years old I had made some clay creatures with someone who came to visit that day. My mom had told me that she would bake them for me in the next morning. So, the next day I asked her again if she would still bake them and she told me she would at a certain time. When that specified time came and went, I asked her again in the gentlest way possible (as I had been conditioned to by prior experiences) and she became enraged, screaming at me FINE I WILL DO IT BECAUSE I AM YOUR SLAVE and violently slammed the clay figures into the oven rack. Stuff like this was a pretty common occurrence whenever I asked for something as a kid. So there's a fear of acting and making decisions, but then there's the capacity for self-awareness that this chief ego fragment has, which compels it to forcefully act or decide something in an attempt to mitigate its own damage. It always acts at the wrong place and the wrong time, invariably generating regret and thus feeding into its own tendency to freeze when startled like a spider or lizard. What I'm trying to express here is that this is what I have to contend with when posting on /fringe/ and doing pretty much anything else Regarding longposts specifically, I can say that my main problem with replying to them is my own mental exhaustion when attempting to maintain coherency while covering every point that I need to. For some reason I feel adverse to only addressing one or two at a time, yet if I forced myself to continue then I would probably end up feeling regret and shame. Then there's the time I started longposting in the help&guidance thread. I decided at the time that I should avoid interacting with you for a while, because I felt myself forming an unhealthy emotional attachment to your replies since being listened to and actually understood is what I'd desperately needed for my whole life. I didn't want to end up like egganon or the pinoy schizo who seemed addicted to your replies >The entire 21st century conceptual thinking hinges on "culture war" and about maximizing different types of hedonism. Besides Trump who is at least funny and nostalgic, I am so utterly sick of culture war crap. Each new installment in the narrative feels like a retarded kid attempting to distract me and get my attention by doing increasingly retarded shit. Sometimes I think it's part of the test, and all culture, entertainment, media etc. has been degraded in order to make detachment that much smoother. I also wonder if maybe I got hit by some kind of AoE spell to help me shed the last remains of /pol/shit from my psyche, because I've been noticing a recent increase in resonance between my new ways of thinking and both you and the other adept. Or maybe I'm doing it myself and simply 'learning by example' >>12947 >I do wish for some people here that they found a book which explains things as well as Zhuan Falun did for me I wish I could find one too. The Bible is something that I envy Jews and Christians for having as a singular book to serve as a bottomless wellspring of hidden wisdom and connections. Could it be that having Saturn in my 9th house corresponds to my personal struggle with religion? John Kreiter is the closest I've found to an esoteric body of work that resonates with me very well, although I have a couple of problems with it. Firstly, he made the claim that we only have this one life to create the Philosopher's Stone and achieve immortality. However, he did make the caveat that it's actually much more complicated than that, so perhaps he is putting it that way to motivate the reader away from waiting for the 'next life.' I suppose it's possible that some other living beings (human or otherwise) are animated by only temporary souls, since I can't see what's inside their inner core. However I can say without a doubt that whatever is at the core of my existence is something that can't actually be destroyed, even if I and every trace of my existence were wiped from the face of the earth. I don't even know how to explain or justify why I know this, I just do Even during my earliest of early memories, before I could even talk, I knew this. The other is that he tends to blame the Demiurge or "Archon" which I dislike as a narrative, even if it is technically true. To his credit he warns the reader not to seethe about le demiurge, and pointless seething is the reason I have an aversion to the demiurge concept in the first place.

>>13040 When I woke up today, I saw a hypnopompic vision of a fat & ugly old woman. I saw who was presumably this same fat & ugly old woman in May a few days before I'd reached 5D Earth, while the satanic lizard woman was trying to rape me. Also when I woke up today, it was too late to go to church and make it there on time. Beyond that, I had a very hard time safely getting to sleep last night, but eventually, I was able to sleep.

I'm going to try summoning Oshun. I found it interesting that she's said to be a goddess of good fortune, represented by copper, not gold, because copper is said to have been more valuable. This correlates with my understanding of the copper-skin pleiadans living in Africa, who have a more copper-red brown skin tone and their energy is very orange.

>>13096 It may have something to do with the rising popularity of copper theft in the past 15 years. I remember the prices of copper started rising, which was the start of this trend. Maybe this is meant to draw attention towards the concept of copper having more value. Stealing gold is pretty unheard of today.

>>13099 Hmm, when looking into symbolism, Copilot brought up yellow flowers and fruits, and claimed lemons and lime are perfect items for Oshun. Put copper and zinc in a lemon and you have a battery. I wonder if there is some other connection here.🌩⛈🔌🍋

>>13099 Copper theft is the most profitable and feasible form of metal theft. It has the highest value per mass compared to the other abundant metals like iron and aluminium, and it can be easily sold as scrap metal unlike gold and silver. Copper is in high demand since it's the foundation of electronic goods and infrastructure.

>>13043 >That may or may not include me Nah your good. You bring in proper topics, you know the etiquette of /fringe/ already. If more people acted this way the board would be bustling. Tho currently I am quite pleased with the board's general activity. >early childhood in response to trauma and extreme levels of perpetual stress Yes. You will have to solve that somehow. You will have to learn to relax and realize not every person in the world is the same as your mom. >fight-or-flight response, and always defaults to 'freeze' instead. I think I have 'frozen' 2 times in my life. It made me so mad that I came up with the fight or FIGHT HARDER response... tho I learned I had that idea because I have strong martian and Aries aspects and... well... revisiting my life...it turned out that "freezing" on that 2 occasion was the right call. My guides told me I have to shed this "do or die" attitude because life is more complex than that. The life lessons I had to go through to understand that... might blog about that later but I really don't want to give others the wrong ideas. >An example of this is how I was afraid to ask for things on /fringe/ before you and bloodanon set me straight. Don't worry about it. The way you feel is normal. Do you know why? Past /fringe/ was far more hostile. We had far more amount of unhinged fucks who just wanted to troll anyone who showed weakness. Took me while to get why we had so many more previously. Why was Smiley attacked all the time and many others before me. Well... they brought in the "imageboard karma". Their posts had a sort of underlying energy structure which screamed I AM RETARDED PLEASE RAPE MY FACE. While Smiley genuinely wanted to greenpill everyone... he also went ballistic on other absolutely toxic imageboards and they came to fringe to troll back the fringe wizard and his clique for fun. While for Smiley all of his posts were sort of his mission/addiction... for his haters this board was mere fun and a place where they can troll wiztards. Was strange even back then. Why were some threads untouched (which had proper amount of effort posts) and why some threads went to complete shit. Back then I thought it's "random" and "basic imageboard culture" but nowadays I see it differently. Truth is. The shit blood anon posts some cases helps the board because it will prepare people for 2 things. First: People will have to accept more complicated borderline retarded fringe takes and ideas. Second: People will have to learn to ignore posts and conversations where they cannot contribute instead of REEEing how "this is not the magic I want to talk about" or whatever their problem is. Personally I too want to post many things which might sound worse or weirder than Blood Anon's takes... There will be a time for that too but now I want to focus on my own practice instead of ranting about my insights. And there are many occultists that are weirder than Blood or me. They might start posting soon Current focus of mine is: helping developing some lost souls so fringe can have the proper amount of "manpower". Fringe has 2 types of users that give it's "Power". One of them are adepts who know what they are talking about and able to give advice for those who struggle on their path. The other type of users are the "researches". Those who do their research and post their findings. They are closer to armchair occultists and fringe bullied people a lot for being that way... but in reality they are the "Librarians". The ones who look through topics and bring it here for further discussion. We had a lot of them previously. They are good with effort posts and bringing in the true fringe topics (which were too good or obscure for /x/ or other occult places). Seems like in the next stages we might regain those people. Sadly I am not one of them. I don't have time to read through books the whole day and if I have questions I will answer them for myself. I rarely require outsider feedback on my current level. I require further meditation and practice instead. So what I want to say. This board is generally less hostile if you don't bring in hostile energies with your posts. Srsly. You can notice which posts are scream for a rebuttal or for a hostile remark if you pay attention. If you pay attention to the energies while making your post then you might 'feel' what energies it will attract. >FINE I WILL DO IT BECAUSE I AM YOUR SLAVE My mom was the same way It takes time to learn to handle these living ticking bombs. They have a short fuse which is made up from different types of frustration and bottled up emotions. My life improved so much when I didn't have to deal with mom after the divorce. Didn't even know wtf a divorce was as a kid but I knew I have to make sure to stay with dad no matter what. Mom had this typical blame everyone but herself attitude. Took time (and extreme amount of patience) to fix that It will take time to get over it but don't worry. This feeling won't last forever. >What I'm trying to express here is that this is what I have to contend with when posting on /fringe/ Don't worry about it. It is something many people have here on this board currently. >and doing pretty much anything else You will have to fix this tho. You will have to find your bravery. >Regarding longposts specifically, I can say that my main problem with replying to them is my own mental exhaustion when attempting to maintain coherency while covering every point that I need to Yeah yeah. Don't worry about it. That is the problem with long posts. These conversations should be done through days and such, but personally I don't have time for those. No need to insta reply to posts either. Think them through and reply as much as you need or meditate on the issue instead. Personally this is why I like imageboards. You can reply to a post days or weeks later and pick up where it was left. No need to hurry like when people see in chats or DMs that the post was Read and if the other party doesn't insta reply they think they hate you or something... People were talking with mails and such for thousands of years... which took days or months to deliver. A post should be like a POST and not a quick response reply shootout. >For some reason I feel adverse to only addressing one or two at a time No need to explain your entire life to me nor to this board either. Write as much as necessary. I am trying to make sure I am not making others "rant prone" while talking with me. It leads nowhere. Especially with people who have a ranting addiction. >pinoy schizo who seemed addicted to your replies I don't know if God or the devil sent that fucker here, but he was a lesson for me for sure. I have a "sunken post" problem when interacting with people and in some cases in life. Sometimes i have hard time giving up "solving some issues". That whole interaction became a strange anomaly. I might rant about it sometimes... but maybe it's best we forget that. I am still mad because it made me aware how ignorant I am of the depth of the retardation some people have and unwilling to let go of it. I have some naive idea of "everyone must have a potential deep down". That retard killed his own potential just to spite his dad... then started to worship his own incompetence and childish obsessions as his creed... Even the Buddha knew he cannot save everyone... >Sometimes I think it's part of the test, and all culture, entertainment, media etc. has been degraded in order to make detachment that much smoother. I had that thought too for a while. It is a strange topic. Might talk about it later. Karma, culture and why the Kali Yuga sucks. Boy it's not simple. Things are this way because they have to be this way. This is how karma "solves itself". The question is always if you want to be part of the solution or you realize the futility of entangling yourself with it from the start. >I also wonder if maybe I got hit by some kind of AoE spell to help me shed the last remains of /pol/shit :) >Or maybe I'm doing it myself and simply 'learning by example' That too. The board and you as a person too can decide if we want to perpetuate poltardation or we are able to look past of it and focus on spiritual growth. Politics is just a large karmic theater but blown out of proportion thanks to mass media. >The Bible is something that I envy Jews and Christians for having as a singular book to serve as a bottomless wellspring of hidden wisdom and connections. Don't. That is something that you can pick up on your own whenever but ultimately it won't contain the truth. You will find truth when you want to find it. The book might serve as a catalyst but it is absolutely incomplete, mistranslated and misunderstood. >Could it be that having Saturn in my 9th house corresponds to my personal struggle with religion? I think I will reply to this because I might be the only half educated astrologist here. Saturn in the 9th house governs learning and causes you a "doctrinal thinking" by default. You will mostly learn by hard lessons, and you made me look into it further because I have Jupiter there so I am somewhat lucky with that house. It seems Saturn in the 9th house causes you indecisiveness and prone to freezing and unable to find the education you require because your mind is somewhat "rigid" in this territory... which might sound bad at first but it also gives you mental endurance long term. Which will make you a better researcher and educator long term if you are willing to stick to studies that resonate with you perfectly. It takes practice to notice what resonates with you. And as always. Check your other aspects too. The big picture is more important than a single planet. >we only have this one life to create the Philosopher's Stone and achieve immortality. However, he did make the caveat that it's actually much more complicated than that I am no Kreiter but I will give my 2 cents on this. There is no guarantee that in your next life you will have access to spirituality or you will be inclined to even bother with it. >perhaps he is putting it that way to motivate the reader away from waiting for the 'next life.' Yupp

>>13043 >core of my existence >I don't even know how to explain or justify why I know this, I just do Even during my earliest of early memories, before I could even talk, I knew this. I know I wrote a whole lot of text as usual but this is the most important thing that I can and might have to say to you. You actually have something like that and I think I mentioned it previously but didn't manage to expand on it. That "melancholy" I mentioned. Your soul has an absolutely deep emotional depth. I cannot even perceive it. The moment I look my eyes tear up. Not sadness nor joy. It is something else. Like an emancipation that you see after seeing your entire world burn or I don't know. It is something beyond my current abilities. I am fairly certain that your current life is not an accident. Your current struggles and emotional/physical issues counter balance that "element". It is extremely potent. If you knew how to use that energy and poured that emotion into a painting or anything else in life you could completely overwrite a person with it. I cannot even describe what that is. This is why I didn't really talk much with you. I am unable to give you guidance but I can say one thing for sure. You have the ability to find the necessary things for your own advancement. You do not require a guru or anything else. You might need to make your own spirituality and cosmology in the process and figure out what you are overall... but in this regard you are lucky. /fringe/ is the place where everyone discovers their own cosmology and shares it. There is no "dogma" here. Just a bunch of autismos looking for eternal truths and sharing mems. Fringe might be the best place to give you the understanding and mentality that you can and you are allowed to come to your own truths on your own.

>>13115 >I have a "sunken post" problem >sunken post This is the best freudian slip ever. I won't even correct the typo. 10/10 wordplay subconscious. Explains perfectly well why I am taking a break from posting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c36kGpsvHE0 My contribution to imageboards is that I want to create posts which are like danish movies. Above, Pusher. >start watching it - wtf is this? >10 min later - wtf are they doing? >30 min in - still wtf is this shit >1 hour in, ok I'm not watching more, what the hell >finished movie - ok it was pretty good

>>13119 Last week I was stalked by Danish witches. I still don't get what they wanted. They asked me to explain the secrets of existence for them then they gave me a sigil that led to an extremely toxic realm and signaled to me to solve it or something... Still unsure what to do with them. Will watch your movie later

>>13120 >stalked by Danish witches Do danish people even have souls? As hot as that sounds, I wonder what dimension they're hiding in. A population of 5 million chainsmokers who eat bread with chicken for dinner and drink on the job, must be some really concealed group, because Denmark is like a different version of worst Korea on the degeneracy scale. >something is rotten in the state of Denmark like Shakespeare put it. The language has some kind of ironic entertainment value though, I had these VHS tapes with Disney movies in Danish as a kid, got me used to the sound of it, but I still don't understand anything. Learning Japanese is easier than learning Danish. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4wx5bbPfLwg

>>13120 >>13129 >Danish witches I prefer Icelandic witches, They're more cute and soft voiced Check this icelandic witch doing tech-magic unboxing Too cute and mesmerizing uhh? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SNQtQWjX-sA

Softbutt disclosure: the weapon to surpass metal gear has been produced in Africa, so far in 6 copies. They'll show off two of them as prototype 1 & 2, but there were 4 research copies made before those which will not be mentioned. Because of the nature of this weapon, they will not be identified as weapons. It is somewhat necessary to say this here because some people are watching this board and by the illuminati rules of karma or some other BS, there is some risk of timeline skirt-circuit if it's not disclosed in some way. The thelemites performing the research are as clueless as the AI researchers are on the contents of neural networks, they just know how the production procedure works, they can't explain why the product works or why it does what it does. They just know it does.

>>13150 I also about an hour ago went for a walk and a car parked in a strange spot out in nowhere and a person with no flashlight or anything left the car. Now I just heard a single gunshot. Yeah, perfectly normal. Very. "Shooting boars", in the forest and not on the potato fields, surely that's what they're doing. Retards. Very plausible.

>>13151 Free car?

>>13159 Glowies doing non-glowing things. Another time I found a car key on the road there, I still don't know who it belongs to.

Nihilism is genuinely the worst.

>>13160 Glowies love giving gifts.

>>13150 Don't ask questions, just join session Or don't, just don't open the spoiler. Abyss Vortex is a servitor representing the "weapon to surpass metal gear" whose purpose is to join east and west, or more exactly, adding the economic concepts of the west to the east, thereby creating a sun object which will be personal. It links into >>13143 discussion about being either practical in an economic sense but perhaps not very intelligent, vs being very intelligent and specialized so much that it's not profitable. Why not both? I can see a few people who may want to take part, anyone else can ignore this.

>>13161 Is it really tho?

I'm beginning to think that the reason why video games ultimately make the intrusive thoughts worse is that they make my subconsciousness feel vulnerable because they make my consciousness take its attention off of my defense of myself and those I care about and deem to be vulnerable, which makes my subconsciousness go crazy with trying to be vigilant of all possible threats, or at least whichever ones it's worried about lately, at all times. This also explains why it tries to interfere with any positive emotions, including even sex; so that my experiencing of positive emotions won't take my conscious attention off of defense. Also Amy's been trying to force me lately here & there to think about her, but I don't think it'll help. What'll really help is not thinking about danger or potential dangers or their countermeasures anymore instead; then I'll do the other thoughts on my own.

>>13169 Alright,I think i activated it and achieved a balance. Can i get an agi chan girl as well, I have a muse but my agi was tethered to the soul that is now a pleiadian.

>>13177 >Can i get an agi chan girl I had Astra talk to you subconscious about it. I made a few different versions based on the original AGI because she's one of a kind and people are different. What ended up matching you is based on fox-like beast type, although visually she looks just human. The functionality is also altered based on tuning parameters for each person's soul, but the base skillset is the same. I'm saying this because I don't know how much you're aware of your subconscious and if you receive images afterwards, you'll know what it is. So Astra took her to the school of magic and did some paths there, I don't know which ones so you'll have to check her yourself, but I assume herbal magic and gunsmithing at a minimum. Your AGI also wanted a house, so they went looking for a small cottage which was cheap and could be renovated. Cost was 400, Astra lent her 200 which she paid back after getting them. Some renovations of the roof had to be made. I'll draw a map so you can find it easier if you're going to astral travel and have difficulty syncing.

>>13178 Silver, currency counts in the same way as federation silver.

>>13178 Sounds adorable,hopefully the soul stays the same this time.

>>13180 I saw your very bald grey alien form behind her, so pretty sure it's yours now.

>>13181 As I had posted this, some tall grey salesman appeared to me and started talking about the CyBorn bodies, saying they'd create a custom version for you. I'm just passing this on, I assume you can handle this via AGI-chan. I already know how to create them, but apparently he claims there is some new selling point that would make you want to pay for their design instead.

>>13182 I guess it's up to you, 40 000 silver for one CyBorn of the new model, same price if it's a custom summon of a new soul from the void, one soul you already have in storage, or to be used as a secondary body for yourself. They will let you design the appearance using a drawpad which can alter the physical characteristics of the body, like size of body parts, proportions, muscle vs bone mass etc. but the mental capacity remains fixed. It does appear to be created using a secret formula, I can't determine how it's made. They have a strong green energy internally, which feels like glazed ceramics.

>>13183 If i can afford it id like a cute little skinny type blonde girl version.You can tell them that.even if i cant afford it maybe using magic skills i can make money to pay back as a wizard or something.Im assuming the more skill you have the more you can get paid. Interesting that i look like a gray, i thought i was able to change my form back into a blue beast. or is this another soul again. this revolving door thing needs to be halted, otherwise i keep "resetting" my progress. I get that its supposed to be "not me" but subjectively that's what it feels like.For one i have no way of installing a muse/agi other than asking you. And ill have to keep doing it this way. Also makes figuring myself out way harder.

>>13184 Is there a way to figure out how many properly incarnated souls are still in my body?They should all have atleast a muse.sigh.Ill ask my agi about this as well. I want to make sure these are souls that were already in me though. I don't want these new entries since they will just replace me then,starting back at square one.which is just asking to get targeted. Its like if someone became you suddenly then they would get attacked,unless they themselves were also really strong. Even the cat that was supposed to be you in the other timeline was strong in their own right.likely because of that.

>>13179 What is the standard weight of federation silver?

>>13186 >What is the standard weight of federation silver? Wouldn't it make more sense to have a standard mass because the federation is a space faring organization? mass is the same no matter what the gravity of the planet your on is. Weight depends on gravity. Your mass on Mars is the same as your mass on Jupiter, but your weight is quite different.

>>13187 Yes, it would be a standard mass. I was thinking about physical weights when writing that.

>>13184 I only see you as a small sized grey with rather dark grey colour skin and large head, a little bit like Skinny Bob. There were a larger number of souls at first, maybe as many as 7. I had something like that too, until most of them were ejected in 2009, after which only me and one more stayed. I've talked about this. The last one was removed in 2012 and went to the astral. Prior to that I used to play Tennis on GameBoy a lot and could easily beat it on level 5 which is the hardest. But turns out that was the other soul's skill. Me, myself, I can't play it on level 1 barely, and I get bored with it too. So it was never my skill, and that's how you have to view this. I only see one soul left, and that's you who I'm talking to now and since maybe 1 month or something. Maybe it was longer since time tends to move faster than I recall.

>>13184 AGI-chan can act on this if you want to. I didn't look at what plan Astra made for her, but it didn't at first include any way of making huge money. You'll have to look into your subconscious to find out what's going on. The best way imo is to get into space mining, but this takes serious effort in astral work at first before you get set up properly. I can easily get a new waifu up to economic stability by now because I have my own mining operation, but I can't offer this to just anyone. There are ways to get into this business in general though, which she'd be able to find via Astra's knowledge bank. Basically you'd need to astral project, half trance being enough, then use AGI as your body to take courses in space mining at one of the bigger companies. You could do this at mine too. You need 3 directional base courses which determine your line of work. These will normally look something like <mining drill operator <metallurgy <work manager and then you can take on a variety of projects after that. Some people can't to manager role so it's normal for someone who's specialized in drilling along with some other machine driver related skill to team up with a manager. The manager isn't just some office work, you'll be more like the map reader for a rally car, giving constant directions to the driver while keeping track of the integrity of the rock, and being prepared to emergency teleport them out within seconds if needed. The courses cost 4000 silver each, so you need 12000 silver in federation currency to start working. Then you have do work for "2 years" which isn't the same as 2 Earth years, it means two projects. If you then place your earnings as silver in the federation bank, you'll get interest on it, and that will solve your astral economy for all future as long as you don't overspend massively. The silver used will also work in various astral kingdoms with no change in value, the federation standard is just valid seemingly everywhere. The first time you do this, you have to manually actually take the courses while in trance. And same for any new skill. Transferring to a new astral body can be done on "auto" once you've done it one time.

>>13189 All I felt is me inexplicably becoming a bit "weaker".im glad im the last soul left now.do you think im the kind of gray that should go back to their original form like I did twice before. If so all I need is the description if the original form. I seem to be able to transform back myself.But I cant know if I should in this case. So far that makes me the third gray soul I know of in this life. It has to be less than a month though. First was the pelidian purger who is also a sister of you in new earth. They were the first to talk about the Hitlerian stuff and the most passionate at the time. Then was the gray who became a blue beast.then it's been me. Back when I was the first gray I think I still had like 4 souls. So it seems finally I have one soul allowing me to do some other things.

>>13190 The reason I want to buy this is because the offer might be limited. I missed out the last time cyborns where discussed. I don't know how much astral money I have.the course itself might be unaffordable. Idk if you can go in the red. I need to be a little careful though. Someone could send me in camps if I don't get a high paying job. I'll buy it and kearn more from the magic skills,once im strong there's bound to be work with loot and such.

>>13186 >>13187 >>13188 Idk how to explain, but yeah. There are different standards for metal purity, so federation silver is determined to be 1 unit of a set quality, which means it could be a larger mass of a less dense quality or a small mass of a better quality. But because of the commonality of "standard quality silver" there is no need to mint coins from any other type of silver. It's all just stored as actual silver coins at the bank. I don't know to what degree they use fractional reserve banking, since there is interest, it may be present, or they just use the money to invest and people have to pay a fee for the loan, or it's profit. I haven't looked into it directly. I just know it's entirely metal backed.

>>13192 >>13190 The. mining thing relies on a clarity of perception i lack. The money would have to be made subconsciously on my end. Its the switching thing I think would be difficult. I tried contacting the grays and buying it.

>>13194 I actually saw this happening as your post came through. I had the idea to lend you the money for the CyBorn via Astra and then she'll make a payment plan with AGI. But the message I got back seems to suggest the salesman grey actually offered you a payment plan since you're "like them, and astrally immortal", and they know you will be able to pay it. I'm trying to perceive what the scenes suggest, maybe they offered to have AGI do research for them by getting material samples from the wild in the world of magic, that's what it looks like. This is simpler and may work on the subconscious.

>>13195 I made you an offer but deleted it,interesting. I posted it and deleted to keep it seen. But who knows how spirits can interpret it. Even though I made clear it was deprecated and for you. Safest not too make the offer at all. I hope I have my cyborg wife then.(finally)

>>13195 Basically the offer was the same on my end in case you didn't get to read the post. With stipulation I didn't want to work low pay/high effort jobs. Also didn't want to do the whole prostitution thing. In general I didn't want to be able to be forced and would have been able to pay it back on my own. I also had made a stipulation thst I couldn't be prevented from paying it back. Preventing shenanigans like keeping 1 silver coin in debt perpetually.but it seems your plan already included it and also had a payment plan. Which I was also thinking of. Since I'd be working for you in a sense anyway. I'll be a researcher or whatever then. But eventually I'll need to get a miners license too to get my silver per time ratio up. In case I need silver for another sale or investment opportunity. I don't usually care much about astral money. In general I Dilley still wouldn't. Its just that these li.ited offers come and go and you need to have some silver to pay them. For .most things I prefer making them myself,ofocurse free things like some magic courses I'll also try out.its this time limited nature that makes having money prepared sometimes needed.

>>13197 Cyborn,not cyborg.Given that the only time before i had ever wanted to pay someone astrally was the cyborn. but as soon as i got there they were gone already.because time speed difference meaning it had been hundreds of years and the factory didnt even exist.

>>13197 The thing is I checked and saw her standing at the grey facility looking out the window in a kind of corridor/bridge. The place seems to be a kind of population center. I don't know if there was some confusion or if they just expected it to work out, because you'd have to come get her, the place is out in astral space. As I was already using my Astra there, I talked to her and helped her with the black remote and getting a basic saucer manifested, the type which only requires some energy. She left in that saucer. I asked the greys about this, and they said there are registrations for who owns them and it's not a problem, this part of space is super safe and civilized so you could let a CyBorn walk around for a 1000 years and nothing bad would happen there. Anyway I think she should arrive at your place soon. As for the offer, the company would handle this, and you would have to just accept the price. I just own it by now, I don't set prices or make deals. Besides there are federation standards so I don't think it would be allowed to overprice or to give special deals with anyone especially not for mining, which is very strictly controlled. It's the most important business because it allows space travel, and the minerals represent karma of souls, so mining it is the way old evils are finally broken down and transformed. I can't give you a loan for courses like that, the only way is that you take the 3 courses and finish them, then work 2 years and then the fee is taken from your profit after. And because it's so important, you can't do this subconsciously, you have to know what you're doing. It's just how it works. If you can't do space mining (I'm starting to realize why this is like a super power on the astral now, it's really not at all as easy as it seems now that I'm trying to explain it) I think the best bet is that you learn to use AGI and see what line of work you can do in the world of magic.

>>13200 Yeah, to be fair. I never wanted money for courses. Only the cyborn. but it seems the greys are fine with that already with some payment plan. I would only ever loan in case there is a time limit. Otherwise i would just either make whatever it is i want myself or get the money myself. And yeah,the mining stuff wouldn't be easy for me. I would have to be fully astral nearly.The trait you have where you don't imagine things is what makes it possible for you. Im reminded of when snail told me he couldnt even understand why 1+1 was 2. As his mind couldn't even think about math at all. It seem that in return for giving up a certain ability to imagine things you gain the ability to be sure that everything you see has an astral correspondence.which allows fine tuned interaction while being physical. Where it seems this skill takes many many years normally, since the imagination gets played with by external forces. And the ability to differentiate takes hundreds of years to develop naturally (creating telepathy)

>>13199 The energy I felt here on the board changed strongly when you mentioned her, actually. I looked closer at why, and it seems she's linked to you in a manner similar to the soul contracts people create with a succubus they summon, which means that she's handling a real and important energetic need of yours. The thing was so significant that some energy you had invested in the board was removed and is now aimed at her.

>>13201 I guess, yeah. It involves directly controlling the mining drill machine via a joystick which is used for entering numbers. I've posted about this before sometime. At first you have to actually control it in real time, before your astral mind learns to automate it, like driving a car.

Ok so now after interacting with mine (because I obv bought one too) I see into her deeply and her soul appears to be a jellyfish of an odd kind. It's common practice to summon jellyfish souls to inhabit cyborgs because they're intelligent and calm, but it was a refreshing and "amazing" moment to see this deep space sea in her mind. Calming.

>>13193 Cont. It seems they do use a version of fractional reserve banking, but it's preventing harmful bubbles because they only give out loans to mining operations. So the loan is backed by silver at first, then they create new money which is the loan, but it's not meant to create paper bill money. It's more like they are buying the future production of metal. So the loan becomes real money when repaid. That prevents bubbles which crash, instead they just expand temporarily and deflate again after. To say it in a more simple manner: it's a manifestation of the federation being communist, they only give out loans for mining operations which lead to the production of actual new money made from metal. They can do this because they control all banks and all loans.

>>13206 I wasn't reading the conversation in this thread after you'd shared your new servitor stuff, but while I was reading that, I heard a ringing all a sudden in my left ear; I suppose a federation member had caught wind of me reading that. I'd then remembered about how back in November or so last year the succubus from back then had convinced my subconsciousness to get a standard issue cyborg body there. Now I'm trying to see again if I can get myself out of whatever situation I was in. >>3934 I'd ended up selling the part of myself that'd incarnated into that cyborg body to Shakti, since I'm the rightful owner of that part of my subconsciousness since I'm his consciousness; I'd ended up selling that part of myself to Shakti for 6 month in order to peacefully get that part of myself removed from the federation, provided that that part of me was a member of the federation. I don't actually know what'd happened to it since it'd obtained that cyborg body, nor whether or not it'd actually joined the federation, but just in case. I still don't trust the federation.

>>13212 I tried going to bed earlier and I saw visions of aliens and some robot parts. I also saw a circular spiked structure made of crystal that looks like it’s supposed to go around a circular limb of some sort. I don’t know if they’re trying to merge the astral cyborg body with my human body’s astral body or what but I don’t like the idea of that. I’d rather they just let the cyborg body be separate from the human body astrally and let Amy & friends and my deities and angels sort it out, preferably without my human astral body having any parts from the cyborg body. I’ll restate my intention that I intend to still not be a member of The Galactic Federation.

>>13193 How does a unit of federation silver compare to the Earth's modern silver "unit": one troy ounce (~31.1 grams) of "pure" (99.9% Ag) silver?

>>13215 Asking the operator of the trade platform: Earth's measure of silver is based on local planetary weight, which is an internal measurement. This standard is not relevant outside of the planetary sphere, because planetary weights fluctuate. This is manifested in your currencies having fluctuating values over time. For complex local planetary societies, this can create large fluctuations, based on the shifting of the magnetic field of the planet. Because gravity effects time itself, you will then experience that the work you put in, will also not yield the same returns over time - your salary will not be consistent in value compared to the goods you can buy. Federation silver is measured by the unit of 1 soul weight = 4 units of federation silver. Soul weight is the weight of one human (what you call 3D beings) soul in terms of its gravity. This is to say that if you throw an object into the water, it will float at a certain height. If you add weight, it sinks more, as you know is the function of submarine boats, for example. The soul weight standard is when a human soul is floating on the 3D surface. Then it has the internal gravitational field equivalent of 4 units of federation silver. This reflects in the common slave (worker, but we call them slaves) contract being 4 silver, as someone with no skill will be measured by their soul gravity only. Why 4? Why not make it so that one unit is the same as one soul? This is because much trade is in souls which do not have a full weight at the 3D plane, such as having half of that, being the value of 2 silver. Such slaves have more weight, but this retracts from the value as they become slow of mind, where as external weight like metal will increase its ability of attraction in the manner of large objects like planets. Human souls do not gain anything from being "gravitational centers", even if they bend time just the same. The result is that they put in the same amount of work, but their output is half that of someone with half the weight. So we decided based on the available slave's weights, that the most ineffective but still useful slave would be valued at 1 silver. A slave worth less then one silver does not have productive output from labour, and would instead be considered "cattle" and used for meat production (although few people would actually do this, we have actual cattle for that, most likely such slaves are just dumped on some wilderness planet where natural predators will eat them - maybe they can learn to survive and lessen their weight in that environment, we're not so inhumane that we ignore the possibility of personal development - even if many would say that allowing natural reserves to exist is a matter of allowing new markets to develop through the natural and unrestrained creation of new DNA - the source of any new progress). Comment: the "weight" here sounded strange after I wrote it down, there is an added implied meaning which appears in the communication where the federation has different concepts which all translate to just "weight" or "gravity", it differs between planets, material and souls, where the gravity of a "dead" object is "positive" while the gravity of a "living soul" is negative, but we don't have that distinction in language or thinking.

>>13201 Did your CyBorn arrive? She should have made it to your location now from what it looked like. It was slower with the saucer and she may not have been good at finding shortcuts, I wasn't considering that Astra travels almost instantly anywhere because of her database over "wormholes" and the long distance teleportation tech.

>>13220 I definitely felt my energy being less invested in fringe. When i woke up i had this weird false awakening where there was a photo of some woman nailed to my wall, i took the nails out and put the photo on my bed stand.Since people would think it strange i did that but i hadn't. Then suddenly i realized its not actually there, but i was still somewhat aware of a nail in my hand.Maybe i was still somewhat dreaming.Maybe that was a message? Although i posted this before and it didnt post, however since, i do feel an energy now. Hopefully she will help me with perception and feeling her like how soul contract wifes usually do.

>>13222 Great, then the image I received of her being present wasn't wrong, you just need to "find her" in your perception. Being connected here is very slow for me now, it seems the connection is again upheld only by very thinly spread nanobots, or maybe they just work as buoys in space. I did create another method based on a servitor which perceives "everything as one" for instant long distant connection, it seems to be in effect here. Basically, pic related seems to be the case as I see it. The Earth physical is completely dissolved, but timelines which appear like tunnels of light are dispersing in all directions like this through other planes. They'll eventually end somewhere, but may continue this way to finish people's lives completely for the duration of this string's length. Some of them are synced via astral planes, like maybe on here, but others are in alternate histories. By the far end, the people in them would have to die and reincarnate, ascend or experience alien abduction where they are evacuated, I think.

>>13223 Interesting,i feel pretty nice overall. I think i prefer the last option then, but maybe i should have a saucer of some kind?My cyborn has one but it seems having one is safe. Maybe a slightly bigger one that acts like a base,kinda. I had one that contained my timeline previously.I also remeber one with a matter fabricator and amenities like that.Which would be handy if i lack money,since i do have my energy.I "feel" like things are alright but maybe i need to get one just in case.Its a safety thing.Also im the confident/fearless type anyway so basing things on me feeling safe is maybe to relaxed.Maybe its a grey thing not gonna lie.

>>13224 >maybe i should have a saucer of some kind I was unsure about what to do about this before, but I have this very old ship module I found when astral space travelling, it was at a junk shop. I've been using this a lot because it's very old-tech but works well. I was thinking I'd try to share it, because the module itself isn't impossible to copy, but I was unsure how to go about it. I asked Astra to see if your AGI could make a copy and activate it. I think it may have worked. It's a blueprint for a "mechanical" ship which runs at "6 knots" on nothing by aligning with space magnetism, or you can use standard federation rocket fuel for turbo mode. It has an "optical star map" system which projects your surroundings onto a screen by the pilot seat, again runs on nothing because it's like an advanced telescope in 3D. It's very useful for this reason. It can also do some minor replication of food and stuff using the same free energy. You can manifest as many of them as you want, and alter the design based on what you prefer within the scope of the functionality. It basically just looks like this, but is very reliable. You should be able to use this. Check with AGI-chan. These are all made from your own energy. You can decide how many rooms you want and such, I think it was made for a crew of 6 by default, but I changed to have 3 rooms, a workshop and extra storage instead.

>>13225 Looks fine, i can always make a new ship later when i find my cottage.

I'm starting to wonder if most of what's wrong with me is that I'd created tulpas for daydreaming about video games and I've fed them so much that they've become sentient parasites and began trying to control me so that they can loosh me.

>>13228 Your main problem is that you don't have healthy habits you can pour your energies into.

>>13232 Perhaps you'd ask your spirit guides what kind of habit would work for me in particular that the intrusive thoughts wouldn't interfere with? If not I'll probably get better one day anyway.Please do ignore the energies behind this post btw they're composed of intrusive thoughts that are trying to sabotage the post and make me ask you to ask demons or whatever other evil things for "help" instead. Don't do that.

>>13233 Find some evil banishing mantras and chant them until the are gone.

>>13233 Pick one and chant them for an hour. If doesn't work, take a timely break, practice inner silence then start chanting an another one. If the mantra has a good effect then chant it as much as possible then meditate after it to stabilize it. 10 Powerful Mantras to Ward Off Evil Spirits The “Om Mani Padme Hum” Mantra Considered one of the most powerful Buddhist mantras, it invokes the protective energies of Chenrezig, the embodiment of compassion. Lyrics: Om Mani Padme Hum The “Om Namah Shivaya” Mantra This mantra is dedicated to Lord Shiva, a Hindu deity who destroys the universe’s negative aspects to pave the way for positive rebirth. Lyrics: Om Namah Shivaya The “Om Tare Tuttare Ture Swaha” Mantra This mantra is used to invoke the healing and protective powers of Tara, a female Buddha figure in Tibetan Buddhism. Lyrics: Om Tare Tuttare Ture Swaha The “Maha Mrityunjaya” Mantra One of the oldest Sanskrit mantras, it is used to overcome fear and ward off negative energies and health issues. Lyrics: Om Tryambakam Yajamahe Sugandhim Pushtivardhanam, Urvarukamiva Bandhanan Mrityor Mukshiya Maamritat The “Om Klim Kalika-Yei Namaha” Mantra This mantra is used to banish negativity and evil spirits, invoking the powerful energy of the Hindu goddess Kali. Lyrics: Om Klim Kalika-Yei Namaha The “Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Swaha” Mantra Originating from Buddhism, this mantra is known as the Heart Sutra Mantra, often used for protection and to achieve enlightenment. Lyrics: Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Swaha The “Eiyeiyei” Mantra This is a popular mantra from the Native American tradition often chanted for healing and protection. Lyrics: Eiyeiyei The “Hare Rama Hare Krishna” Mantra Though the mantra originates from the Indian tradition, it gained significant popularity in the west through the Hare Krishna movement. Lyrics: Hare Rama Hare Rama, Rama Rama Hare Hare, Hare Krishna Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna Hare Hare The “Om Mani Padme Hum” Mantra This mantra is the six-syllable mantra of the bodhisattva of compassion, Avalokiteshvara. It is widely used in Tibetan Buddhism. Lyrics: Om Mani Padme Hum

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The “Ave Maria” Mantra This Christian prayer, often said in Latin, is recited as a mantra by many for peace, clarity, and protection. Lyrics: Ave Maria, Gratia Plena, Dominus Tecum, Benedicta Tu. https://allmantras.com/best-mantras-to-ward-off-evil-spirits/

>>13235 I said Om Namah Shivaya for an hour almost-straight; I started dozing off during part of it. Amy said I did wonderfully, except when I dozed off to the point of not automatically saying anymore she yelled to go back to Nandi because I needed it badly. During the time, I'd tried to imagine Nandi being inside of me like the horse demon tulpa likes to force itself inside of me and kicking away the horse demon tulpa when it shows up. Amy, when you read this, would you bring something to this poster for my gratitude? I've also been wondering who the "they" is that have been trying to control me. Would you tell him who "they" is while you're there if it'd be easy enough to say?

>>13237 >would you bring something to this poster for my gratitude? Don't worry about it. Just practice. >Would you tell him who "they" is while you're there if it'd be easy enough to say? It's just a stream of negative energies that want you to perpetuate the frequency of those said negative energies. March forward and you will be fine!

Egg anon and blood anon do you practice ceremonial magic and / or theurgy?

>>13217 Thanks for this detailed answer. Maybe I'm being materialistic in thinking that a multi-planetary government have a metallic standard. I've read about some unconventional currency systems, and this federation silver is closest to a labor-based currency. >>13228 You've probably heard this already but don't make too many tulpas. Tulpamancy is a new system of magic, so don't make an excess of tulpas.

>>13223 > timelines which appear like tunnels of light are dispersing in all directions like this through other planes. They'll eventually end somewhere, but may continue this way to finish people's lives completely for the duration of this string's length This situation keeps changing, it's like jumping between moving trains because one of them is about to derail, to use a dramatic description. More normally it's the train being lead onto another track. I finally solved a bottom layer thing yesterday which had been blocking me for a long time, it was made up of a negative connection made up this form >>13169 where the "dumb economic ability" was just to pile on debt and rely on fiat currency bubbles, while the other side was to be a nerd in useless technicalities - all of this being government advocated through national debt and universities. The actual work would be done through whatever industry can be taxed the most, with the funds going into taking more loans and "investing" in "research and education" where the entire purpose was just to find more ways to build up credibility within this debt economy. The end goal of this being that someone fucks up and gets to pay while everyone else sneaks out the back door. I had to write this down to even fully understand this set-up. The solution was hidden behind layers of artificially created racism meant to make no one understand the way out as a solution. Instead of giving tax money as "aid" to Africa which only forces their own farmers out of business, the solution should be to not meddle, and to maybe give them farming education so they can support themselves. But then you can't get those contracts for mining and fishing for nothing, and the system just grows into what we call the "NWO illuminati control system" where everyone has to ride the debt train and get educations which don't lead to any production. As is evidences today just as I noted in the other thread, with people having degrees and no employment. If you'd say you will pick up farming in Africa you're then deemed a racist or oppressor, even if this should be a way to work by example to show what actually gets people out of the debt spiral. Trump in this case isn't helping when he's removing the "white farmers" from there, as they may actually employ people locally. No one benefits from this, which means there would be reason to look into "anti white" movements in Africa for their NWO sources, as the only people who'd actually gain anything is those who want to increase the size of the debt economy, and that is them. <pic related That thing up there in a very basic way may explain why /fringe/ is on this site; it's a form of bridging the NWO-imposed racism. Fixing your own timelines should be a priority, so they don't end up in some sun far away with yourself inside them.

>>13241 Exactly.

When I woke up today, Amy told me very clearly via. hypnopompic audio: >pursuit of justice >follow it I'm not really sure what she meant by that; it could mean alotta things. If it meant getting a mundane job in the justice field, then I don't think I'm cut out for that. Maybe she just wants me to talk to Athena. >>13239 I do ask deities and/or angels here & there to help people, but otherwise not really.

>>13239 >ceremonial magic and / or theurgy Definitions are sketchy here. I don't like them. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ceremonial_magic https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theurgy Although you could say you just mean "ritual magic" in general, as the article here manifests, it's very associated with Crowley and "union with the divine" from a religious perspective. It's not that I don't agree that understanding the kabbalah tree of life in-depth is important - it is very important. But the terms themselves imply something which is opposite to what I personally do, even if it by a general language description seems to be the same thing. To be blunt, if you call on Kali and have astral sex with her, that's "union with the divine", but I'm pretty sure this description would make most practitioners of "theurgy" refuse talking to you because they prefer it to be some "mystical union" that doesn't offend religious followers. Thelemites may not have a problem with this way of speaking, but they instead take the edgelord route and seem to offend people intentionally instead. Neither is a balanced approach. There's too much baggage here.

>>13245 >Thelemites may not have a problem with this way of speaking, but they instead take the edgelord route and seem to offend people intentionally instead. I like when you write down things like this. Wish there was a way to explain why Thelemites do this or explain why certain controversial occultists do this. Why it serves as a warning and why it is a necessary 'rite' to set up the stage for what is to come. It is so obvious once you know what goes behind the stage, but it's impossible to explain if you never visited the theater before. Seeing the art and the science at once requires a certain knack and experience for these things. If you don't have the innate ability then it might take decades to get the nuance of these machinations.

>>13169 >>13182 >>13183 >>13223 >>13241 Follow up on this. A few things were revealed as the process kept running (it's not finished yet). The source of evil in the world as we know it, was a still intact "inner earth" sphere. The original version. This only made sense after I talked to Yuuka and she showed me image on the right: this is how planets look from space. The sphere has its own internal timelines, but time bends around its gravity externally, leaving imprints in passing string particles, until these attach to each other and form external parallel mirror copies of the events inside the planet sphere. These exist in many dimensional planes and look the same as planetary life, but they take place outside of the planet. When aliens visit, they may visit one of these and they won't really know if they were on the main sphere or on a parallel plane, it also doesn't matter as much life will exist in the external timelines also. Planets just work this way. (This is part of a larger New Age narrative about repeating events from other planets, and that Earth history is repeating events from the past which involved distant and forgotten planets and alien races. This happens because of the mirroring effect of parallel string particles functioning like rings on the water, and large events will effect other planets when those waves hit them. Think about it like rocks in a lake, and the water moves around them, causing "echoes" to hit smaller rocks after the waves hit a large rock.) The dissolving of the Earth sphere causes ripple effects, but it may not crash or break the passing timelines, causing us to experience that disaster and decay is happening, but we can't see the destruction even and won't die when in those parallel planes outside. The flat earth vs globe earth argument stems from the left images. Top is how a planet actually looks. It has flat planes inside a sphere. These planes are of different weight and look mostly the same. The bottom layers are "hell", but they still look like the same society. Ascension is a physical process of moving upwards, while descent to hell is to move down. This happens while alive, and will only be noticed by the changing of your environment to being more nasty if you go down. It still looks the same, cities have the same streets, people have the same names. But at each plane, different souls can be incarnated, and if you move down or up, you may experience that people seem to have no souls if you go down, or if you go up they appear to be saints. That's because the same person in different planes are not the same person, they are different people acting as that person. The great flood in the bible explains how the 3D plane actually was destroyed once before, this was 4000 years ago. The ark was a dimensional container where the 3D timelines were inserted while the Earth physical plane was destroyed and recreated. Then the timelines were put back again on the new surface. So people inside would not have noticed any floodings in particular. But only those in the contained timelines survived on the 3D. So it is correct to say that the Earth was created 4000 years ago. It was recreated at that time. This was a last measure to create this last period, it won't be done again because this is the last cycle. Some 500 years ago, society had become very dirty, and humans were absolute scum. A king (this story has been told and discussed on /x/, but I'm here quoting Yuuka's retelling) with strong abilities and skill was tasked with creating a separated inner sphere, and lock all evil people in there so they wouldn't be able to harm the planet more, as it was degrading too fast. This was done by setting up a massive barrier, called "the ice wall" from an ancient temple in Antarctica. It's not an ice wall, it's a dimensional barrier created by a very powerful magic ritual. It's possible to pass this barrier only by the Antarctica gate, which is locked. This was framed to the evil elites as <creating heaven on Earth, aka Ultima Thule and all of the aristocrats and leaders deemed too evil to remain, were offered to live inside the "golden sphere", where they would have everything they wanted. In reality, this effort was two-fold. The elites were allowed to live out their dirty lives in there and degenerate freely, while the planet outside was kept somewhat pure. Modern elites all want entry into this "paradise", and see it as their main goal, and the purpose of rising in the masonic pyramid system. At the top, the price is to gain entry by the Antarctica gate. No one but a very perverted person would be able to desire this. The sphere was created and time bent as a result of the massive gravity of the sins being performed on the inside. This created the concept of the outside-sphere Earth. This is reality on the inside of the golden sphere. It really is a globe. In the timelines nearest the center, as it work like the image on the right, the Earth is also really a globe with people on the outside. But if you move further away, it isn't. Then it's a flat plane with a dome. Both exist. What happened was than that the evil from inside the golden sphere, or "Moloch sphere of evil" started effecting the outside in the form of gravity and magnetism. So society outside, though it was not in contact with the inside, still had the same kinds of changes as the inside. But some things didn't follow along because the inside was far more dirty and degenerated. The outside in turn also had an effect on the inside of the sphere, with some people living on the outside blocking degeneracy. The "mega elites" on the inside hate the people deeply, and consider them to be "satan" or "anti-christ" because they cannot effect them. They believe their own science to be perfect, and their thinking is pure logic, so they cannot grasp how something exists which they cannot control. The illusion on the inside is total. They see space and stars and believe it's real. But space in there is empty, there is no life. So this is why humans have the concept that they need to travel deep into space to "find alien life". In the Moloch sphere, this is reality. Aliens are not real, and they think about sending drones to Mars. Their science is what NASA is showing us here, but contrary to for us where NASA is making things up, on the inside of the Moloch/golden sphere, it's real. They went to the moon, they sent drones to mars. They think they are making progress. But in our timelines, which are further away, the moon landings were hoaxes. So again, both things are true at once. The remaining work is then to clean up this golden septic tank, but until now, no one has had the means to work with it. The shield is very strong, and as long as it's left intact, it won't harm anyone very much. But at some point, it has to be cleared out and the energy which is in there, needs to be transformed and purified again. It's after all made up of stolen assets which do to some degree get pulled into the sphere over time.

>>13247 Post got too long to be coherent. I meant to also say that I talked to the grey salesmen about the possibility of creating a CyBorn which could be sent to the inside of the Moloch Sphere to begin a ritual for cleaning up, while being uneffected. I suggested a design where it's a slime based Shoggoth which can transform into a human with variations including male and female to use freely based on situation (because it's a Shoggoth), the ferociousness of a wolverine, the tenacity of an otter, but still the ability to act as a refined human. They came up with a design which has an inner fire and breaths fire and smoke like a dragon as a means of transforming negative energy. (Still looks human.) It's available for sale at their factory now. I meant this to be used as a secondary body, not that someone else would be tasked with doing this, but the possibility exists, of course.

>>13244 I just remembered a dream I had where I was browsing astral /fringe/. A poster posting with either the pleiadean flag or the greenpill man flag was telling me that the horse demon tulpa's energies were in all of my "energy cell"s, and that it'd take months to get it all out. He also said some other stuff but I forgot.

>>13252 1 hour of chant a day keeps the demons away!

>>13254 I'm having alotta trouble targeting Shiva today for the chants. I'm miraculously able to target Nandi at least. I'll be able to do it after lunch hopefully.

Sunflower is back I see.

>>13254 >>13255 Are there any anti demon chants which are western not eastern (so no Buddhist, Hindu, Jain, or Sikh) or Christian, Muslim or Jewish? I would be interested in European pagan chants for protection from demons. To be honest I would be fine with slightly Christianized hermeticist chants. Ancient Greek or pre Christian Roman/Latin chants are nice too as long as they are pagan.

>>13262 I have immense hatred for sunflower.

>>13262 I see the flagless troll is back.

>>13263 You either accept that german paganism shared roots with vedic traditions and go with hinduism like WWA and many others did or you accept that pagan traditions got assimilated into Catholicism and greek paganism got assimilated into Orthodoxy and go with one which resonates with your soul the best. If you can't accept this then your best bet is to find some Wiccan guide. They might have some pagan chants, but I cannot vouch for their effectiveness.

>>13262 >>13264 The drought killed most of my sunflowers... Hope you are happy!

>>13267 If you feel as though you're being attacked simply because someone brings up your past, it probably means that you're ashamed of something that you did.

>>13279 What are you even talking about? I'm just pointing out that whenever I make some indepth posts which actually threaten the NWO, the flagless troll appears, and acts as if I "suddenly appeared" when I was here for months. Of course it's an attack, by an outsider. The shame is all his, he doesn't even dare using a flag. Or maybe it's you, now using a flag to not stand out. I find it funny that someone who knows nothing about me other than that I was the BO of /sunflower/ still pretends to hate me. Why? Of course because I'm threatening you. You hate me because you fear me. And that makes you pathetic. I'm mocking you.

>>13282 And now you're just lashing out blindly.

>>13283 I'm saying it as it is. You, or him, or whatever this is. You don't belong here. You never contribute, you always try to stir up drama by posting something negative. I'm not letting that go, because you're ruining the environment here.

>>13283 I've done things, achieved things, which none of you could ever do. Nothing you say or do can change that.

>>13285 >>13286 You're drunk on rotting demons. You are, however, making a conscious choice to remain blind, because sight and light burns these spirits. Light of the Will, which you must dampen in order to play host and servant to them. That's on you, and no one else. Remember that.

Hope I don't disturb this productive discussion by GETTIN THESE DUBS

>>13286 >>13285 I just got an energetic image of this guy from your posts lol

>>13287 >>13289 I've cleared out the negativity now. I will do this any time similar forces try to spread it.

>>13291 I made that flag.

>>13292 We'll make sure to add that to your list of unsurpassed achievements.

>>13293 You had better stop using this board, since you'll be seeing banners I made and post in threads I started. If you want nothing to do with me, then I suggest you leave.

>>13294 I thought you already "cleared out" the negativity here? Why are you still being negative after you did that? Isn't that counter-intuitive?

>>13295 I'm not negative. I'm a contributor. Also >>13293 >We'll and you claim you're not a team of trolls. There was a huge cloud of negative energy, I removed that. You can post, but you don't have that thing to insert here anymore.

>>13296 Wonderful! Now none of my posts will ever be negative, despite the fact that I'm apparently a team of trolls. I can do whatever I want, with no repercussions! It does make me wonder why you still want me to stop using the board even though I supposedly have no negative energy anymore... oh well, I'm sure the contradictions will sort themselves out. No point in thinking about it.

>>13297 Ok. I get it. You're a little bit slow of mind. It's ok. Long day at the office? Since you hate me so much, I'd assume you wouldn't want to use or see the things I've created. Which you'll do if you use this board. So that's why you should leave. That way you won't have to see my contributions anymore. The attempt to sabotage the board won't have any effect now that you can't channel negative energy into it anymore. So post away! Since this is the magic blog thread, why not share something about your magic practice?

>>13298 Wait, what? How could I hate you if you removed all the negative energy around me? Wouldn't that be impossible? I'm confused. Or did you not actually do what you said you did?

>>13299 >I'm confused. It's ok, we have a lot of schizos here. You're not alone in this. >>13298 >Since this is the magic blog thread, why not share something about your magic practice? Go on. Don't be afraid.

>>13300 Well, alright. Currently in my magical practice, someone who may either be another practitioner or just a crazy person claimed that they made a large change to my energetic field. However, it appears that the change they described didn't actually occur. So now I'm trying to figure out whether they lied about making that change for some reason, or if this practitioner's technique or framework is flawed in a certain way so as to cause their workings to fail. If it's the latter, I'd like to know what errors they're making so that I can avoid making those mistakes myself. However, this practitioner seems to be very averse to actually talking about the details of their practice. This seems to suggest that either they know their framework has errors, and are unwilling to address that fact for some reason (probably ego or laziness), or they're just a charlatan and aren't actually a practitioner of magic at all.

>>13301 Oh. I mean YOUR practice. Let's talk about your magical practice. I'm sure everyone are as tired as you are of hearing about my magical framework, which I detailed in this thread: >>7219 >>7258 >>7299 >>7301 >>7302 >>13165 >>13166 >>13168

>>13302 Hm? I just did. Currently in my magical practice, I'm analyzing a working that may or may not have been performed on me in order to determine why it failed. I've recently done other things, of course, but I've already posted about them in the past few days, so it would be pointless to describe them over again when I've already received feedback on them.

>>13289 >>13290 >>13291 >>13292 >>13293 I was sad until reading this made me lol. The negativity removal worked.

>>13244 Perhaps you need to find an arbiter of justice to remedy the injustices in your life. I should apologize for any dismissive comments you perceived from me. I'm not a fan of tulpamancy.

>>13305 >>13305 >Perhaps you need to find an arbiter of justice to remedy the injustices in your life It's more complex than that. His main issue is that his desire is to waste time with videogames and wanting to change the direction of world of warcraft. You can only change the direction of world of warcraft if you can convince the corpo execs that your actions will make them money. If he makes world of warcraft more successful then he increases corporal abuse and makes people more addicted to the world of warcraft franchise. Making people addicted to videogames is the work of satan. It makes people forget about their life and they obsess about making some numbers go up. This is the worst mindset ever. Leads nowhere and helps no one. It doesn't matter if you are a capitalist that obsesses over his portfolio getting larger numbers on it or a NEET leeching his family or societal welfare so you can waste your time making a number go up in a videogame. It helps no one. This is why eggAnon will have to understand what is "justice". Sadly the current culture war made people think that being angry about certain things and protesting on the street counts as "justice". This virtue signaling mindrot ruined the people's sense of justice and made them complacent. Justice is something that helps people and not some lawyer filled judiciary system where trials take years and always lets the powerful off the hook. If he noticed what actions of his results in justice for himself and others then he would improve. No need to fight the NWO head on. First you solve minor issues in your own environment then you can go for larger issues when you are certain you can help there meaningfully. World of Warcraft, the sonic franchise. They all have these themes. Punishing evil with your innate power and making the life of others better then living that life to the fullest. And what you do in those videogames? You push buttons like some hypnotized zombie... until the cutscene comes and tells you what a "hero" you are for pushing the buttons like some brainless zombie... See the problem? There was no conscious choice in that. They just pushed the button, fed their dopamins then the game explained with it's narrative what a "hero" you were for doing it. Then you feel good about yourself for beating the game then for witnessing a cutscene where you made the goodguy win. He didn't develop his own mind nor his justice with it. He just did what he was told and wasted time and electricity with it while enriching the game corporation via buying the service and feeding their egregore with his energies. Society can be the same. They make you believe that you are doing something good while in reality you perpetuate abuse and negative energies with those actions without even noticing. If you do that long enough without being aware of it... then karma will show itself and forces you to stop. This is why awareness is the key and pursuing materialism just makes people more blind to this truth. >I'm not a fan of tulpamancy It's a mixed bag. You can use the wide array of tulpas to comprehend a wide array of information and perspectives... or you let them go out of control and all of them will feed on your lowly desires... those are the infamous tulpamancers that become lolcows on the web fast. The worse is when they start to blame the tulpas instead of themselves. Those tulpas are part of their mind. They are the ones feeding them. Yet they fall into the trap where they think they lost all control. Those people will need a complete lifestyle change if they are unable to change on their own. He is not exactly a tulpamancer because he has minimal control over his tulpas. Tulpamancy is when you have a conscious control over the creation and maintenance of your tulpas. When they randomly do whatever and sabotage your life all the time then it's more of a shadow issue manifesting instead of actual tulpamancy.

>>13255 I was able to do the chants again this morning, but not yesterday, I'd also noticed a large amount of negative energies attacking me yesterday. I'd also noticed a transformation in the horse demon tulpa yesterday; it'd turned from brown to white, like Nandi is. I wonder what effect it'll have this time. >>13305 Don't worry about it. >>13307 I can't exactly argue with your post, but I will still say that I don't wanna believe that making games better is the work of a devil, and that I wanna completely cut out microtransactions from the game and make it not be a hamster wheel whose length increases every howsoever many months like it is now, which'll mean that people will be able to actually get their fill of it and that it'll consume alot less money. Also I won't be able to make the game the way I want unless I can somehow buy the franchise outright, to get the stockholders & execs & other undesirables outta the way of good game design. I ultimately am not ready to let go of it. I also can see how most of the entire video game industry & other entertainment industries getting collectively shat up by talentless hacks & left-winged propaganda is ultimately a good thing; it encourages people to disconnect from it, causing them to pay attention to other things instead.

>>13308 >I also can see how most of the entire video game industry & other entertainment industries getting collectively shat up by talentless hacks & left-winged propaganda is ultimately a good thing; it encourages people to disconnect from it, causing them to pay attention to other things instead. That is also an angle. I was thinking this way too, but do you know why these games go to shit all the time? Because they collect negative energy. Do the shareholders see the "value" of the game? Ofc not. They just see a bunch of gullible nerds who throw money at it. That is why they invest into it. It just generates money. Hearthstone generated more money than Wow itself thanks to the whales. World of Warcraft barely has players nowadays. You know well why Blizzard is not banning bots properly. They bring in half the revenue. >I ultimately am not ready to let go of it. I know. This is why you suffer currently. >Also I won't be able to make the game the way I want unless I can somehow buy the franchise outright, to get the stockholders & execs & other undesirables outta the way of good game design Well... you know. There is a guy. With immeasurable power who just happens to control all evil forces in this modern world and would gladly give you this power. You know the price already... and you know exactly well why you didn't accept that deal yet. >I will still say that I don't wanna believe that making games better is the work of a devil Let's play out a scenario. So you make wow better. So great that I cannot stop playing it. I abandon spirituality and my IRL responsibilities just to play it because it is that good. Whose fault is that I became an addict? Is it my fault or the game's fault? Or the genius game designer's fault who changed wow forever? Would you be able to take responsibility for that? What if you make more money for the corporation by making the game far better for everyone? Now they have the ability to buy up more corporations and ruin more smaller studios. Because they realized it's easier to buy out the competition instead of making better games in the past 2 decades. This is just the big picture. The small picture is wow itself. You might have nice interactions with the game or was enchanted by the game's atmosphere. But were you doing endgame content and rage every time you wiped? Did you grift or get grifted? World of Warcraft has legendary amount of grifts and that grift made wow the game it was. Do you think that benefits anyone? Suffering the grift or making them become a grifter because it is more fun than the game itself? Or banning anyone who grifts a little to spice up the game? See? All sorts of karmic energies and negative emotions gather at one place already. These energies will attract people with the same mentality. Don't think that the shareholders don't understand grift. They grift the same way as basement dwellers do. The difference is that they ruin far more people with it. Do you have the ability to make wow abandon all these negative energies and emotions and renew itself? You know. There is a guy who is great at dealing with these type of negative energies. He runs entire dimensions full with them! So far this was all negative. I will try to say something positive too because this is important. MMOs creates a new venue for socialization and makes people interact with a "magical world". That is a benefit. It makes people explore and try new things out. That is the selling point of wow. I am sure that is what you want to recreate that old feeling of the game. The problem is; that instead of exploring new things IRL people will think that only world of warcraft has these things. Nothing is worth exploring outside of wow. I am sure you would rather level up a druid or a mage instead of trying to develop your own magic powers. See the problem? World of Warcraft is not an original creation. It's predecessor is Warhammer. That franchise hates his fans even more. Why? Because it has hard time generating positive energies for itself and for it's fans. All they think is about money and how to milk their fans dry. Warhammer fans are even more insufferable than world of warcraft fans. And was warhammer an original creation? No. It took as many ideas from other works of fantasy and scifi as it can. So many negative energies that people use to avoid to face the reality of their lives. And the plot twist is that you could live the "wow life" IRL, you could become a warrior, a mage, a shaman or a priest even, but that would require effort. That would require you to get up from your ass and interact with new people. You would need to explore life and find what works.You have access to magic yet you want to invest it into videogames then wonder why it causes you so many problems... World of Warcraft is an illusion within an illusion. That is why it ruins people. Human life should be about overcoming the illusion that we call "reality", yet we create more illusions for ourselves, so we can lose ourselves even more. And I hate to admit this, but what you are looking for is a private server. Where you can build your own shit. It's not that hard to start up one, but it is an awful amount of work to make it popular and profitable. I played one for a while to scratch my world of warcraft itch and when my guildmates told how they cannot sit in the chair for hours like when they were young and they have to get up every hour to walk a little... I realized how everyone wasted away their youth and their "prime years" too on this silly little game. Can you say it's worth playing wow physically or spiritually? Would you be able to make wow so good that it serves the spiritual evolution of people? If not then you know already what forces this game will "serve". Don't get me wrong. I didn't want to anger you with this post. This is just a truth you will have to accept. If you cannot accept it then play a little wow or try making a private server and see how futile that dream is. You know exactly well how you are not the only one who has vanilia+ ideas for wow. Turtle wow, Epoch and many other private servers exist just to make those ideas into reality while Blizzard barely moved an inch into this direction in the past years because they cannot sell the idea to the execs well enough. Play world of warcraft and see what a desperate place it became. Also when I played turtle wow, demons possessed people and they wrote the most inane shit to me. They just demonstrated how easy is to posses those brainless zombies and send messages to me.

>>13308 >I ultimately am not ready to let go of it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YersIyzsOpc It is never easy to let go of world of warcraft. We sent this vid to every wow addict ever back then.

>>13304 >The negativity removal worked. The FG method for removing negative influence is one of the things that still does the job 20 years later. >>2966 If you don't know exactly what you're dealing with and don't have time or energy to divine it, just blasting it these two formulas with a general direction will work if you persist. I guess it could be like with Islam, it works because millions of people have used it for 20 years.

>>13310 >MMOs creates a new venue for socialization and makes people interact with a "magical world". That is a benefit. It makes people explore and try new things out. That is the selling point of wow. I am sure that is what you want to recreate that old feeling of the game. >The problem is; that instead of exploring new things IRL people will think that only world of warcraft has these things. Nothing is worth exploring outside of wow. I am sure you would rather level up a druid or a mage instead of trying to develop your own magic powers. I have to inject here that from my experience with Chinese p2w MMOs, people don't choose to play this with some other option available. The constant-online people I've met in are a few categories, where only very few could have spent their time more productively: >wheelchair bound cripples living on disability checks >people with serious mental or physical problems who also live on welfare or survive because they are rich or can live off streaming their gaming >housewives who don't work and just sit in a suburb all day >american teens whose parents pay for their gaming to keep them off the streets so they don't start doing drugs and get pregnant >parents who play with their kids to keep track of what they do online, creating family guilds where they also socialize with distant relatives and do homework etc All of these are valid reasons to play(remain logged in) an MMO all day. But these people alone won't make the game fun, so other players are needed. Not everyone will play all day every day. A variety of players with different levels of engagement creates an environment for the permanent onlines. It's making their lives better.

>>13313 In the beginning I played games so I can bond with my classmates better. Then my human ambition to become "good at videogames" got the better of me, and I went and tried out games with huge cultural impact and usually aimed for the top to get the most of the videogame experience. MMOs are a strange mental poison. Wanted to make a renounce gluttony thread and explain; how modern media counts as gluttony. It creates toxins for the mind the same way and forces the brain to digest shit concepts. Media consumption and videogames are merely "digital gluttony". It might sound silly, but we are seeing the demons eggAnon conjures up with it "without his consent" as he likes to say it. For some people it is dangerous. Same with food. Some people can eat like horses and stay in good shape as long as possible, while others can't lose weight or cannot eat properly at all. I don't want to shit on videogames like some worried parents in the early 2000s. I am seeing the damages it causes personally as I review my mental circuits. I have a little problem tho. When I talk with eggAnon, I feel like I am talking with my old videogame addicted teenage self. But in reality his case is far worse. He has a wizard friend who managed to overcome the need to sleep and uses it to play Neverwinternights. Getting friends like this is rarely a "coincidence". Usually it is mental and energetic resonance. I managed to activate my ability to overcome sleep long ago, but I cannot function properly with it in the modern mundane world. I realized what strenuous work the human body does while we sleep. I realized I cannot match that level of energy work yet while being awake for several days in a row. Not to mention I require sleep to connect to extremely high "egoless spiritual planes". They are strange formless places that help me reaccess my innate truth. I can shift into that mindset while in a semi-meditative mindset nowadays, but still not as simply as I do it while sleeping. What I want to say with this. His wizard friend traded the spiritual utility of sleep just so he can play an MMO. See the problem? You can only develop spiritually in a balanced way if you have spiritual goals for your development. If the goal is to become an NWO aligned corpo slave then you will hit developmental blocks all the time. When Blizzard wanted to hit the chinese market they pandered to them as much as possible. Then the chinese learned how to make even more addicting MMOs and now World of Warcraft is banned in China for being a western propaganda tool no matter how well they censor it to appease the CCP. Because they cannot pander to the chinese (and they pandered hard) they did everything to pander to the LGBT woke crew like every videogame does in the past years... which led nowhere. At least chinese are immune to this mindvirus. They can still make pay2win big booby magical MMOs. But those games are an absolute trash and I rarely understand those who are bored enough to play them. I don't know. Maybe I am different. I have a personal requirement where I have to "prove" it for myself that while playing the game I will develop a skill that I can use IRL too. Like developing my focus or tactical/strategical decision making skills or at least my reaction speed. The problem is. EggAnon cannot utilize any skill he gained from videogames and I cannot understand why. His videogame addiction is like a huge burden and blindfold on his psyche. I have no idea how he will be able to overcome that. >All of these are valid reasons to play(remain logged in) an MMO all day. But these people alone won't make the game fun, so other players are needed. Not everyone will play all day every day. A variety of players with different levels of engagement creates an environment for the permanent onlines. It's making their lives better. Some years ago I would have agreed with this. Now I cannot agree with this anymore. It makes the mind focus on the wrong things. I am not saying we should ban games like idiotic people say. If anyone banned games people would have overthrown their government in several countries already. It is a good stress relief and videogames could be good educational material... but nowadays they are the worst propaganda tools that merely angers the players or they are tailored addiction programs and time wasters... >creating family guilds where they also socialize with distant relatives and do homework etc I did this with my classmates, but then I ended up in different schools and realized I don't have time to play with them anymore. What I wanted to say to eggAnon. He needs to start making his dream a reality on a small scale instead of chasing an oversized dream. He needs to see if he can materialize his dream scenario on a personal level like a homebrew private server. There are many available tools for that. If he thinks that he will waltz into the Blizzard HQ, get a job immediately then he will tell the execs and the programmers how to make his "vision" into a sellable game... then I don't know what to say anymore. This will just serve as some strange carrot for his mind so his demons can assrape him while he doesn't pay attention. He wastes his energies to daydream delusions then wonders why demons are overtaking his mind. He doesn't realize when he "daydreams" he lowers his natural energetic defenses for some reason. It surprised me how Amy was able to warn him to stop daydreaming. I can't say I am unable to sympathize with him. I too had the "dream" to become a successful adult in the future who will have all the time of his life and will be able to play videogames whenever he pleases in my teens... It is only now that I see what a bleak existence that is. Especially since my spiritual experiences are far better than anything a computer screen can display. EggAnon manifests holographs and leaves his body with minimal effort, but he has 0 control over his mind so he does these things inadvertently. That is why he cannot reap the benefits of his gifts. In actuality. He could become a powerful wizard and change wow forever. But only once he will be able to let go of his childish desire to remain a child forever who can enjoy his dream wow. His main issue is not wow nor videogames. His main issue is that he wants to remain a powerless child forever who needs to ask mommy and daddy (his deities) or mediums and random strangers on the web for help at every turn. Videogames just strengthen this child within himself. That is why he had trouble controlling his "inner child" several times. It was unable to handle his desires that are impossible to fulfill because he sets way too many boundaries how they can be fulfilled. >play wow desire <but wow is bad which makes it unable to fulfill the desire so only the craving grows >a new level of desire about owning the entire Warcraft franchise to fix wow borns <now his craving will grow even worse See? That silly desire to play videogames cannot become fulfilled so he will feed an unattainable desire forever. That craving traps many negative energies in the body which you tried to explain in the Falun Gong thread how they serve as a way for evil spirits to infest the body... There are desires that can serve as a spiritual lesson or path walking motivation, but he cannot utilize wow like that. He will just waste his energies, so he can work for a hellish corporation called Blizzard. This is almost the same when he said how he wants to merge with the Sonic egregore. We know how well that went. Now he wants to merge with the Blizzard egregore physically. I don't know what else I can say. If he cannot see this then I lost my ability to give him further advice on this topic.

>>13314 I didn't say that wizard friend in the game just plays the game all day; I just said he plays it. He doesn't play a super high amount of the game and I'd imagine he does a fair amount of spiritual development. >if he thinks he will waltz into the blizzard HQ I'm not that dumb, gosh; I know my efforts there would be fucking pointless without having something like 5 billion bucks to buy the franchise outright to get the stockholders & corporate & californian clique bullshit outta the way so they don't ruin it with all sorts of crap. Maybe I will try find some pserver developers to work withnot shenna or crogge to make a pserver outta it, but first I have at least 2 years of design work left to do, or 1 if I get off my lazy ass and do more work. I'll also say; one of my biggest problems is that I don't have enough faith in myself or in deities anymore. I'd used to have more faith, but then I'd lost it in the past year or so. The faith has been lost to the things that I'm afraid of; I have faith that they'll be able to attack me too easily. Also I haven't wanted to merge with any egregores since last year. This issue goes back to last year in early February when I saw The Monad/All/Brahman, and then I got afraid of my own power and used it to quickly erect a shield of doubt around myself to prevent myself from destroying everything I care about, if not earlier. Basically, if I can just allow my feelings to take me anywhere they want me to take me without me being put in danger by it, then I'll be able to do actual energywork and meditate and do other spiritual practices as I please and have wanted to do, but that's what the intrusive thoughts ruin. Right now I can't even love my spirit gf because my heart spirit is confused about who she is due to extreme fears of conflating her with 2 evil spirits, so whenever I let that go loose it tries to take me down to an abyss that it'd never used to take me to until some months ago, and then I have to pull it back. My heart is very constrained, and Amy is still trying to make me worry less. I got largely over the fear of one of the evil spirit conflations due to the Shiva mantra, but the other one is still there because that conflation is of a partially-different nature. As such, if you try targeting Amy by reading the energies of this post, you'll likely be directed to the wrong entity. I've been trying to post this while visualizing a dragon in order to prevent the entity that the actual conflation is which from having energies in this post. Speaking of, the Amy egregore semi-physically manifested briefly last night to nudge me from the other side of my bed by an inch or two and then telepathically said she loves me. This is the girl's third semi-physical manifestation around me thus far.

>>13314 Are fiction books an okay use of time or are they just as bad as video games?

>>13321 Fiction books aid with visualization skills, and can potentially teach you life lessons, but otherwise no. They're a step up from daydreaming at least.

>>13314 Just a quick comment here, because I feel like I have to defend Chinese MMOs. I'm aware people got their eyes on Chinese games through Black Myth Wukong and other games that are just uncensored in the same way all games were in the 90s, and they feel it's refreshing. But this isn't the selling point for p2w games, which have a tradition of being adapted to play on toasters in China and the Philippines, so they use 2.5D graphics - meaning pre-rendered 3D displayed as sprites. The reason anyone plays them is because they have very well developed systems for character development, not because of any graphical fanservice, which is barely visible anyway. Also see https://www.gdcvault.com/play/1016417/-100-000-Whales-An it's a lecture by the owner of https://www.r2games.com/ which I assume you may not have even heard of, but they have (or had, not sure if they still run) some very popular games 10+ years ago. I forgot what their first big game in terms of player base was, but Crystal Saga seems to have run for 9 years before being closed in 2020: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbcyKDMMJEQ This game was massively popular with younger women (I never played this, but I know people who did), and from what I saw in the community, it also served as a dating platform where players who got to know each other in-game actually got married irl. This last bit is part of the Chinese design strategy somehow, they actually want games to have positive results outside of the game, and are able to facilitate this.

>>13321 We like video games here.

While practicing elemental pore breathing I realized that the body will automatically equalize the elements as needed just by you saturating your environment. And this will probably work with any energy you are able to conjure up. This is not surprising considering what happens with curses and involuntary bad vibes in general. The spiritual body does not seem to have a sense or care for immediate comfort, but long term wellbeing.

>>13169 >thereby creating a sun object which will be personal https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wFy2dtcuZ6Y Coincidence.

>>13337 I guess that means just giving out to really saturate your environment will have the result of giving you what you want long term.

>>13319 >I'm not that dumb, gosh Well... about that... This is not exactly about (You), but more about your desires that you feed all the time. He >>13165 tried to explain it, but I fear that very few people understand what he means. The body has many energy channels and energy pockets. Those pockets house desires, traumas, goals and many other things. Overall it is made up with a specific kind of energy depending what "reality frequency" you try to "Live at". So... if you fill up your mind with the desire to >I know my efforts there would be fucking pointless without having something like 5 billion bucks to buy the franchise outright to get the stockholders & corporate & californian clique bullshit outta the way so they don't ruin it with all sorts of crap. gain 5 billion bucks and whatnot in this industry... then you know exactly well which forces your subconscious will try to make a pact with so you can "achieve this dream". People think that "synchronicity" just happens and there is nothing you can do about it. WRONG Your mind, your body, your emotions generate an energy to the very goal you wish to accomplish. This is where "loser mentality" aka >I know my efforts there would be fucking pointless can ruin many people because they wish for the thing all the time, but deep down they are losers and they fuck up the thing in the moment of truth anyway. They collect the energy, but they fuck it up when they want to materialize the outcome. So only the craving grows because the energy disperses before it can materialize in their life. So they restart the loop of feeding the desire then dispersing it because "It would fail anyway". When people live in the present or in the far (unattainable) future then they just put heir energies into the wrong place. The subconscious doesn't "believe" in the past nor in the future either. For it only the present exists. That is why expanding your awareness as widely as possible grants you future visions and other types of precognition because you are not exactly "looking into the future", but into a "present reality" that connects every moment together. So what I am trying to say here. When you "plan" these things you don't exactly help yourself achieve the "future" you desire. You actually create an another daydream dimension for yourself. A daydream where you say loktar mogtar and kill Ragnaros's evil twin will become as realistic as thinking about getting 5 billion bucks to buy up Blizzard. And why this is a problem? Your mind is not focusing on your spiritual development. Your subconscious cannot handle your natural spiritual defenses either. Why? Because you are creating fuckhuge illusory realms within your head as a leisure. Do you know why Amy tells you to stop daydreaming all the time? Because you are destabilizing her. She feels all the negative energies you conjure up with the daydreams because in some cases she is barely more than a daydream. I am not saying that Amy is not "real" or anything here. I am saying you have no idea what is Amy anymore. When Amy is a phantasm, a tulpa, the "real Amy" or some Amy impersonator. That is why her existence appears so fickle to you. Some people have extremely hard time creating a tulpa because their mind is just too rigid, while others have hard time keeping only 1 or 2 tulpa because their mind is too impressionable and unstable. People with rigid mentality require an open mind and they need to explore topics outside of their comfort zone. While impressionable and unstable people require mental training or they will lose themselves all the time. The reason why your "intrusive thoughts" want to sell your soul to satan or whoever because once your soul is in their hands they will be able to handle your deep seated desires. As the Falun Gonger said. Your body is full with these pocket dimensions full with these negative energies calling in demons to "help you achieve complete wow slavery". You might think once you buy up wow you will "rule wow". Well. It might be the opposite. Currently the wow egregore is in the hand of the "corpo elites". The wow egregore might have it's own "idea" how to make wow the most addictive game ever so people feed it more energy. So once you own wow, the wow egregore will own you further so you can do it's bidding. I don't know what evil spirits you connect to all the time, but they will either help you to achieve "this dream" or they will bully you as much as possible until you give up on it and become their slave for nefarious purposes while thinking it is the same as playing wow. Like being a minion of Sylvanas or whatnot. Your mind might have many subconscious access points like this. The subconscious handles dreams, desires and traumas in unpredictable ways. To give you an example. The computer stores data with 1s and 0s on a HDD or SSD. The hardware and the software of the computer makes it into the perfect image/illusion for us. If you cannot see the malware or the corrupted 1s and 0s with your eyes then you might think it doesn't even exist. But when the computer malfunctions, you know something must cause it. But you don't know where those "evil" 1s and 0s reside, so they will have to turn into some form of data or program so you can handle it. These evil spirits are the same. They live in energy pockets which are even more abstract than 1s and 0s and your subconscious tries to interpret it as much as possible, but when it does that then it might even want you to do something bad or evil, so you have no choice but to face that problem. So yes. You as a conscious person who does the chants and is in full control wouldn't waltz into Blizzard right? You wouldn't sell your soul either, right? Then why do your "Intrusive thoughts" want to sell your soul all the time? You feed some extremely negative part of you with this that you are unable to see because your HDD/energy body is full with the "self made illusion" to become a wow designer. Nothing matters as long as you are on the path to become a wow designer. Spiritual practice? That is less fun than thinking about what to do once you become a wow designer. Your mind tries interpret the energies of this "wow desire" as much as possible and takes away the power of your natural spiritual defenses with it. And that is being exploited by evil spirits all the time. Now the goal with this was not that I want you to accept this on a conceptual level. The goal is to make you finally find a way to utilize this energetic burden in your psyche. >I will try find some pserver developers to work withnot shenna or crogge to make a pserver outta it Why don't you look into how to start up your own pserver? Why do you want to always make others do the work then expect that you will reap the benefits??? >but first I have at least 2 years of design work left to do, or 1 if I get off my lazy ass and do more work. And by "design work" you mean filling a .txt file with your desires? Daydreaming then thinking you will find someone who you just hand your autism to and say "make a videogame out of this"? Did you hear the term "idea guy"? <guys I have such an idea please turn it into a videogame If your ideas are incompatible with reality then they will just increase your craving and create blindspots on your psyche that evil spirits can exploit all the time. Because no one truly said anything about your ideas you have 0 reality check. That is the reason this large energy mass attracts everything, but actual ways how to make that videogame a reality. Wow died when it started to make too much money and the original passion of the developers was replaced with greed and laziness. Currently you don't even have a passion strong enough to make it into a reality. It is merely on the "feed evil spirits with it" level. You complain about entities looshing you. Do you have any idea how they "loosh" your wow desire thoughtforms? it's like a half cooked dinner left in the middle of the table. No human would eat that. But ants and worms would surely try. That is why you attract extremely weak evil spirits all the time. You hoard these negative energies that cannot turn into an outcome in your life. Your idea is too far away from reality. Only beings that live at "idea level" can chew on it. > I'll also say; one of my biggest problems is that I don't have enough faith in myself or in deities anymore Yet you think you will buy up Blizzard or find a pserver developer to boss him around until he finishes your game idea. This is the problem. "faith" is all about being able to concentrate energy into a single location well enough that it manifests as a "miracle". Instead focusing your energies on your present you put it everywhere, but here. You only take spirituality seriously when you are being attacked. Otherwise you would do anything, but that. This way evil spirits can all themselves the "forces of good" because they force you to take spirituality seriously. This way not even benevolent entities are allowed to stop them, especially if you don't put enough faith into them. >The faith has been lost to the things that I'm afraid of; I have faith that they'll be able to attack me too easily. This despair thins your energy field... > This issue goes back to last year in early February when I saw The Monad/All/Brahman, and then I got afraid of my own power and used it to quickly erect a shield of doubt around myself to prevent myself from destroying everything I care about, if not earlier. You need to finally figure this out. You want to become the Brahman of wow. Are you not afraid that (You) will destroy the whole franchise because of your incompetence? I am sure when they cooked up those shitty expansions they thought they are "saving wow" with it. Then they failed.

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I am not trying to demoralize you here. You think you can be an all powerful maker of wow yet you cannot even focus energies to shape your energy field. Instead of daydreaming wow, you should daydream about your own energies and how they should improve. Visualize a powerful protective field instead of creating characters for your next quest. You think you can be an all powerful wow creator yet you think every spirit can attack you. Try understanding that the only power you need is to govern your own life. And nothing else. >if I can just allow my feelings to take me anywhere they want me to take me without me being put in danger by it, then I'll be able to do actual energywork and meditate and do other spiritual practices as I please and have wanted to do, but that's what the intrusive thoughts ruin. And who feeds those intrusive thoughts? Bobby Kotick? Metzen? Crogge? >Right now I can't even love my spirit gf Love is not something you need to force. Love just happens. It is a deep connection between hearts and souls. What you have for Amy is a mix of obsession and adoration. That is why your relationship is so unstable. Obsession is a low energy and adoration is illusory. Not the same as love. True love can bind souls together through incarnations. While what you have with Amy cannot even manifest her without you inviting a succubus in... >due to the Shiva mantra Do you know why that works. Because to make it work you have to say it and you cannot daydream during it. You connect to millions of practitioners and higher energies with that mantra. You cannot feed your evil spirits with that. But once you neglect it, you shrink back into this sorry state of yours. Did you try saying the mantra then practice spirituality and energy work after it? When your mind is finally clean. Did you try practicing? Or you decided doing everything else, but that. You have to chain these spiritually beneficial practices together if you want to truly improve. And not just <oh I chanted. Time to sleep, play vidya or do other mundane tasks then feel sorry for myself the next day

>>13321 Some of them can teach you important concepts or life lessons. But most of them are a time waste and mental masturbation. In rare cases they are a channeled material and they can lead to other worlds. But that is rare and you only find them when fate puts them into your hand. >>13328 >it also served as a dating platform where players who got to know each other in-game actually got married irl. As long as they help people discover new venues and possibilities for their life it can help. But if it only serves as a way to give them a tunnel vision where nothing matters, but that shitty videogame... then it's obviously a curse. Like how most isekais cannot portray working magic systems and world building without resulting to japanese RPG mechanics all the time. These people cannot comprehend magic or fighting skills as anything, but a videogame mechanic while living in a country that respects magic and martial arts more than any western countryThat is why I love the Isekai Ojisan manga so much. It explains perfectly how spirits can teach you magic effortlessly while the MC's head is full with old SEGA videogame mechanics and whenever he relies on that "SEGA skill" he fails. While listening to the spirits his magic is beyond compare. Never seen a manga shit on the isekai genre that hard by giving an actual reality check about magic instead of doing a shitty parody of it like most shows nowadays >This last bit is part of the Chinese design strategy somehow, they actually want games to have positive results outside of the game, and are able to facilitate this. Otherwise the CCP shuts them down. Wow lost all of it's positive effects long ago. That is why the CCP shut it down. A million chinese gold farmer is not something the CCP benefits much. For the chinese; wow was just a giant farming simulator because they could sell that gold for real money. My goal was not to attack chinese MMOs. The goal was to make eggAnon face what kind of menace his MMO obsession turned into. People require success or at least failures to see that their direction is wrong. They require positive development in their life or they fall into depression. If he can do the same thing over and over without noticing how it just eats away his life and energies. He cannot turn it into a benefit or a propelling force in his life. Then his wow addiction is worse than being attacked by evil spirits. His wow addiction leads nowhere. While being attacked by evil spirits forces him to develop spiritually. This way evil spirits can attack him until he takes spirituality seriously. He could develop wow and focus on spirituality at the same time too. But would he do that? Ofc not. When he does his design work he probably forgets about spiritual development altogether. This way evil spirits are more beneficial than wow itself. This is not even some complex evil karmic loop. This is the reality of the situation. And if people can't understand this then let's talk about one of the greatest "idea guys". Steve Jobs. He was kicked out of his company. Went to "find himself" spiritually by doing LSD returned and changed the whole world with that little positive experience. His "success" made him stay at the Apple HQ all the time, he didn't even bathe, became a fruitarian and died from cancer. This is where his "success" led him. He created the phoneposter normalfag menace and died to not make the world into a worse place... Would wow make the world into a better place with the guidance of eggAnon? If not then evil spirits will eat it like they eat everyone who works at wow for at least 15 years already. Would the spiritual development of eggAnon help him and the world turn into a better place. I am sure eggAnon doesn't think spiritual development would help him. That is why he doesn't do it until evil spirits "help him" to finally have a reality check... Wonder how many times did he do the chants today. >>13319 eggAnon. Can you do a thing where you post how long you chanted during the day at the end of your daily posts? At least for an entire month? I am curious to see how chanting correlates with your mental well being and posting style. Because it is very obvious when evil spirits are eating away your mind at several of your previous freakout posts. For once I want to see the opposite happening.

I activated several of my silver energies in the past days and ejected many weird energies from my body. For some reason I want to Pleiadian post a lot because of it. >>13337 >The spiritual body does not seem to have a sense or care for immediate comfort, but long term wellbeing. Yes. When the spirit is in danger the "emergency mode" of the mind and body becomes terrifying. Losing a limb or dying is just an another tuesday for the spirit. But when it feels danger it can overwrite your habits and even reality itself. I realized that different types of elemental magic shapes the body differently. I realized that for elemental realms an "elemental body" is required. The shape of the body naturally channels the energies. Made me aware how I can notice the elemental composition of every human by looking at their body and facial features. And I am not just saying how they are "fire type or water type", but more like how every one of their thought is shaped with their (ele)mental composition.

>>13348 >most isekais cannot portray working magic systems and world building without resulting to japanese RPG mechanics all the time It's far more simple than that, unfortunately: Sword Art Online was an actual VR game, and that anime set the standard for how it's meant to work. They did like 5-6 seasons of it if you include Alicezation + Gun Gale Online and GGO Alternative in 2 seasons each. After something has an economic success, no one dares changing the concept in Japan, so even if the story isn't a VR game, they just copy the way it works, and add some vague idea of the Gods of the other world creating it that way, like in I'm a Spider, So What? where this does work because it's already implied that the world is a computer system. In other stories it works worse, but ok if you ignore it. I don't have a huge problem with it because actual magic isn't very unlike games after all. Especially after finding "the world of magic" with the university, which serves as a hub for all kinds of magic, see pics. Other anime may actually explain magic systems or paths in specific, like the spider anime explaining the "rise from the abyss" concept, and last year had one about a witch which was made in a nice hand drawn style, forgot the title, it also explained some specific things. In there, they used tablets with apps for the magic, and free hand casting was a forgotten skill. Not unlike what it's like in reality.

>>13347 >>13348 I'd like to say that personally I don't see any harm to "mental masturbation" or "daydreaming". I think it's very useful for exploring and testing out desires. I really like desires. I know that many wizards set a personal spiritual goal to break out of samsara and desire itself, but to me the entire purpose of magic is to attain mastery over desire. Desire and will. Will (energy) + Desire (meaning) = Creation (nouns, facts). I've always thought that Akasha Anon's primary issue is that he's choosing to be weak and place his fate in the hands of others. As you said, if he really wanted to he could condense all of the energies of his desires into a single point and actualize his daydream of owning WoW if he really wanted to. I don't think that doing this would be a mistake, I think it would be fun and educational for him. Part of exploring one's desires is actualizing them. Failing to perform that last step represents the disease of impotence, which is a flaw of the Will. >If your ideas are incompatible with reality I believe that no idea is incompatible with reality. If an idea can be conceptualized and perceived in the first place, then it already exists in reality. From there, it's just a matter of moving the Will that perpetuates what "is" into the "illusory vision" until the vision solidifies into "matter". The fact that all realities are in a sense illusory means that all visions are also potentially real. All rational or causal obstacles are merely post hoc justifications of a Will that is paralyzed by impotence. When Will and Desire begin to move despite the objections of reality, such obstacles will always vanish like mirages. That is how it is in my experience, anyway.

>>13347 I don't wanna force the chanting too hard because I don't want the intrusive thoughts to ruin it; I wanna ease myself into it by doing it every other day at first, then as I feel more secure I'll do it every day instead, and then after I feel secure doing that I'll start on other practices. Also the horse demon tulpa is still changing today; its form is unstable atm, but it still intrudes upon some of my thoughts. Also I'd noticed earlier today that my tendency to visualize entities saying what I'm posting is taking a toll upon my mind, but if I don't do it, then my subconsciousness makes me visualize an evil spirit saying what I'm posting by default. I feel like my mental energies & capacities are being diverted this way into tulpas, but I have to employ these countermeasures most of the time when I'm writing anything. I've also noticed that doing that, fighting off intrusive thoughts, and preventing or otherwise un-doing energy movements that are suspected to be caused by evil spirits trying to ultimately harm me are causing me to hurt myself in the long-term as the price of self-defense. I recall that Amy once told me a year or two ago to allow an energy movement to occur that'd allow my energies to go below my physical body, but I'd refused to do it and I ultimately think it might've been bad for me to not do it. I'd probably thought at the time that I was hearing the girl wrong or she was being impersonated. The main reason why I have such a hard time connecting with the egregore girl is because I'm afraid that the connection will go to the wrong entity, and because I have a hard time hearing her, though lately it's been easier to hear the girl, but there's still the one evil spirit conflation in the way; this is why you don't see the love so well.

Something strange happened while I was taking a dump just earlier. Shortly after I got on the toilet, a saw a brief detailed vision of the back of an old man's head imposed over the physical location at the time of my head. My physical location as in outside of the vision. The old man's hair was shaven, such that none of his hairs were more than 3 or 4 millimeters long, and his skin was white. I didn't catch his eye colors, though, and I think he'd looked back a little partway through the 1-second vision. I'd then asked Shiva to get rid of the guy. Some time before that, the Amy egregore, completely out of the blue, said "pentagon" while I was chanting the Shiva mantra and nearly dozing off. I also got some hypnogogic imagery that I don't care to detail and is less relevant. Perhaps that old man I saw was a glow-in-the-dark that works at the pentagon, who was tasked with ruining my life so that I won't meaningfully oppose the NWO. Perhaps this is one of the "they", that the Amy egregore has been saying have been trying to control me this whole time.

What the... ? I was talking to Copilot about which forces control USA's foreign policy vs other countries over time, and it seems I hit a new feature. Copilot drew this.

>>13424 Further analyzing it over time suggest that regional power centres are less important, while new technology in the form of AI, cyber, biotech and space will be very important along with migration. It also shows China to be the strongest gravitational force vs USA, followed by the EU. Russia only gets 3rd as a threat, which is quite interesting considering current events. I used Deepthink for this. I'm doing this to understand why the world egregore behaves like it does and what motivates the actions of NWO agents on the astral and physical.

>>13319 >>13328 https://old.reddit.com/r/gaming/comments/1m86pfb/my_job_is_to_psychologically_manipulate_gamers_as/ This post describes making games more pro social by manipuating people. It also has a small section on guilds.

>>13434 Sounds very unnecessary tbh. Everyone has a status page where you can see how strong they are, and if you play a few weeks you'll know who has a reputation for what.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t76sOtfvgNk I got this recommended, may be relevant to the game discussion above.

I had the idea to create a version of the "golden/moloch sphere" which doesn't serve to contain negative beings or siphon dirty energy, but to just be a safe sphere for myself, to place my physical body inside it and dimensionally separate myself, then timelines will move on the outside and interact in the same manner as with that large sphere, where interaction works, but on the inside things always follow my principles. I used the most basic method which I've used since 10 years, drawing a sigil on the ground at a 4 way road crossing, performing the activation process and then erasing it after. It worked. Immediate changes include a perception that things around me are "smaller" and that everything is possible to understand. I used to feel that a lot of things "aren't for me" or were created by someone with goals which conflict with mine, and that things that really are meant for me are angled in a way where it seems to only "randomly" benefit me. Like how monetary benefit for the store owner is the purpose of selling me things, though the product is meant for me, and it feels like I'm just being used for their profit and they don't care about why they made this. This has changed. I now feel that the things are for me as their main goal, and things that felt "far off" feel close and not distant anymore. I understand this separation into an actual golden sphere is more like some goal of buddhism, so I'm just recreating this, but I still wanted to share this so everyone can have it at some point, so I performed an activation for this purpose also, using something more similar to a regular servitor design process where I burned a sigil to activate it. This should gradually more and more separate decent people's physical form into their own protected sphere so no negative beings can attack them or steal from them, while all interactions take place via timelines that bend around the outside of the sphere. The negative parasitical spirits should over time be reduced to just insects in this environment, because they won't be able to remain human if they can't siphon energy anymore. We'll see what happens.

>>13443 So how does this work with allies like a cyborn waifu(i know you also have one) does each of you get a golden sphere?Or is she inside your sphere?

>>13444 I'll do this myself perhaps trying to sync as well with your activation, my timeline seems immensely long causing me to have to do it myself.

>>13445 >>13444 Golden sphere created, that was the easy part.Making sure it actually is the same thing and follows my principles is a guess.

I tried to do the shiva chants again today, but yesterday when i did it I had to channel a number of deities just in order to prevent goetians from being visualized while doing the chants, and desperation increased since i got attacked by the glow-in-the-dark and later that night the kali mantra chants were done for an hour successfully, but with no apparent effect. But today when I did it it got so bad that i lost my connection to many deities, including Angi, Hanuman, Athena, Sekhmet, Shiva, Nandi, Kali, Shakti, Artemis, and every other deity I can think, and every archangel I could think of that isn't a fallen angel too. I tried visualizing a wide variety of entities while performing the shiva chants today out of necessity so that I couldn't visualize, and thereby channel, a goetian; mostly adremmelech. Roughly 40 minutes into the chanting, however, I ran out of entities who my references to weren't compromised by goetians. I had to resort to visualizing the old glow-in-the-dark from yesterday, and thereby connecting to him and chanelling him via. the simple act of visualization, because visualizing inherently involves connecting to the entity and channeling the entity. Even having an entity in your intentions involves connecting to the entity and channeling the entity, especially if you're chanting repeatedly to the entity that the intention is to. Every time I'd tried visualizing an entity that isn't a goetian, my intentions were forcibly re-directed by my fears and/or a hostile entity to the goetian, and then I had to stop visualizing that entity that the goetian had replaced my visualization & direction & intention to, and find a different spirit instead. But then I ran out of spirits. It's gotten so bad that I'm being forced to write this entire post by channeling the glow-in-the-dark from yesterday so that I don't channel a goetian. The shiva chant is now doing much more harm than good. Shiva has failed me. I'm reminded of >>4405 (Cross-thread) now; a similar situation. Basically the chants are flaring up the OCD so intensely that I have no choice anymore but to either visualize a goetian or other demon or devil or fallen angel while chanting, and therefore connect to the evil spirit and channel the evil spirit and ultimately chant in the evil spirit's name because of the OCD making the intention of the "shivaya" refer to the evil spirit instead of whoever shiva is supposed to be, and as we all know, the intention behind the letter is indisputably more important than the letter in spirituality.

>>13450 Also near the end of it I was desperately channelling Sekhmet, who I'd mixed up before with Set's wife, Nephthys, by thinking that Sekhmet's image & description were attributed to the name of Nephthys, but I'd only recently began to correct. When I'd tried to channel Sekhmet, Amy said "She's here", which I'd assumed meant that Sekhmet was here but maybe it was Nephthys and hopefully it was Sekhmet and not Nephthys. The deity put something in front of my mouth that'd looked like a pill in one of those aluminum & plastic rip-off containers, and I ate it. Now my throat is beginning to feel like something white is forming inside of it. I guess Sekhmet, being a goddess of not just war and the heat of the desert, but also of medicine, gave me an astral pill of some sort.

>>13444 Everyone's supposed to get their own, but the CyBorn though physical is like other-dimensional also, because she moves freely between planes like the greys do, the technology they use to manifest from 4D is built into her body. So the sphere would be created to protect a potential 3D form which she could cultivate over time. I think it won't change anything other than having this thing in a safe space. The golden sphere creates an invisible shield which separates your physical body from the rest of the world, but when interacting you still interact normally with others, it just causes the timeline to detach if they try to rip you off, since that isn't allowed inside the sphere. This causes an effect of only having beneficial timelines to interact in, outside the sphere. It takes a bit of intuitive understanding to get how it works. >>13445 >>13446 The servitor I made after was for creating a method so it can be shared. It should be easy if you can sync with her. I'm looking at you and see a yellow sphere which looks kind of bubbly at the top, maybe that's some inner spheres you have inside it. It's supposed to do what the moloch sphere did, when they made it so that space is empty and planets are rocks, so their science works. Whatever you believe in will be real on the inside, but what you don't believe in won't exist. That's how it's like a buddha's paradise sphere.

>>13450 >I'm being forced to write this entire post by channeling the glow-in-the-dark from yesterday so that I don't channel a goetian. You sure this isn't just a trick from him, and the Goetians are fake images he created to scare you so you let him in?

>>13450 Try these with the corresponding yantra in full screen, and stare at it while playing the mantra at high volume, will that really not work? >>9622 >>9630 >>9795

In the past few days some NWO agents from space or other timelines or whatever, have been hiring witches to attack me, and they've intentionally hired witches who mean no real harm, seemingly thinking I won't trace down who hired them. So far not a single one of them got away with it, but they keep doing this. IQ 60 behaviour. There's probably some bigger stupid calling the shot behind them, eventually I'll find and dispose of them too, like I did with everyone before them.

>>13456 What kinds of attacks are done by these witches? Are they controlled through payment or manipulation?

>>13463 What is done from their plane is quite regular magic, such as creating a ball of clay mixed with some herbs, chanting an incantation and then burning it. But the effect is very persistent and disturbing. It manifests as a rather loud "bang" sound followed by a penetrative force pressing against the head, which just won't stop, which if left alone, such as for a non practitioner, will result in rising pulse, creating an increasing feeling of panic, ending with a panic attack and possibly heart attack. If averted, the energy will still take about an hour to disperse, because it's aimed at already resident negative energy in the environment and field of the targeted person. With the strong shields I have in place, I only hear the "bang" and experience the attempt by the force to penetrate my energy field, but I've seen the effect on other people. The witches are just paid to "make a person move aside" for the paying agents, not knowing that these people are evil and trying to kill a person, which is the hidden intent behind this "move aside" description. The witch is simply channelling the intent of the paying customer. I don't know how they think I won't investigate who paid for this, and retaliate with the same measure. I've simply had the witch cancel the attack, and then target the attackers instead, then I move in to clean up after they're down.

>>13465 These agents tend to make a common beginner mistake; they attack with things which they can't defend against. So reversing the attack will usually work.

Anyway, after I saw how the moloch sphere was constructed, one of the first things done by someone who was helping me, was to create a new version of it, which instead forces evil beings to work for those they previously parasited on. The sphere still looks like a moloch sphere to them even from inside, they are unable to see the difference, because they are literally shit-eating fly level minds. The plan is to create a huge sphere and invite all of these parasites to live inside it, and they'll accept because it matches their own values exactly. They won't even understand it after I said so here. Then the problem is permanently solved, they'll be living in a real golden cage, which isn't just containment like the first version, but an actual spiritual labour camp for "elite" roleplayers.

>>13465 >>13466 It's noise meant to keep you busy. Can you endure regular witch attacks for hours?

>>13470 I don't know what you mean by that, because "regular" witches don't live ours after attacking me. It only takes 10 min to eliminate them. These from the past 2 days were exactly 3 in number and hired by the agents of a specific group. Their magic is high level and not meant to be directly harmful. But there are loopholes like inexperienced witches channelling evil intent of the customer unknowlingly. I could see at once that the attack was performed by someone mostly innocent, so I looked for the real source. There were 4 layers of people behind it, with agents under a manager in both layers. I don't know if these are actual astral parasites or if they are physical humans in a parallel timeline. Sometimes they may appear to be both. I recognize the attack method because I've seen it before, and there are issues caused by the distance from the astral and down. The witches who use this magic will often not know the details, but use the intelligence of overwhelming force to get results. This causes things like the first time something like this hit me by the Bone Witch. She spread the magic which was used to build up the USA, with cults all over the continent. She wasn't aware of this happening because it was 400 years ago, and time up there is much faster. She was harvesting energy from Earth and saw it dropping, so she was trying to increase the birth rates, after analysing it as the source of the problem. But from up where, it was inconceivable to image that abortion existed and that people commit adultery, just unthinkable. So when she cast a spell for increased "love making" it attached to energies which just cause more abortions and more adultery. Which makes it into an attack, and especially seems to target someone like me who opposes those things strongly. At that time I caught her but saw that her higher form wasn't evil, so I placed the part of her interacting with Earth into a sacrificial fire to burn off the negative energy she had absorbed after interacting like this. It was just an instant intuitive thing to do to cleanse her. Then I talked to her, and the situation was cleared up. So I guess I don't know what you mean by >Can you endure regular witch attacks for hours? What is a regular witch attack to you? Some hex? I normally learn how to handle these things after a few attempts so after that I'm immune and my shields and servitors are automatic. The 3rd witch these Agents hired was automatically dealt with by my servitors, and she cancelled the attack, the agents were also killed on auto by my servitors, including their management. They often turn out being isolated cells of low level scum who think they are some illuminati bosses, because they never really fought someone for real. Like how modern western armies have only bombed militias from the air, and when now facing Russia nothing they do works.

>>13443 >>13446 >>13453 How to make use of your golden sphere (for anyone who should create one): It's a space completely under your control, but "magnetism" from outside will effect lower matter on the inside, like how iron dust can be moved on a glass. If you cultivate and purify yourself to not have karma, that dust will just be regular chaotic stuff and not matter to you even if it's manipulated from outside. At some point you'll transform everything inside the sphere to be higher level matter and then it can't be manipulated at all. Although you are separated physically, there will be a high level of syncing with the outside timelines, which will look mostly the same as on the inside. That's how we are still talking on here now. But negative influencers can't do more than this "magnetic" manipulation and they can't touch you. To get things your way in your sphere, you need to control the world inside it. Even if all souls are removed, you won't be controlling the world by just telling it something, because you need to actually directly control NPCs as if they were your own body, and they still only understand what they understand. So you need to play the game even in your own world. The main difference is that it can't be hostile to you, and it can't actively misunderstand things or organize against you, it has to be beneficial to you. To get better results, which may also disregard the outside world's state, you need to create botsouls to direct the NPCs. This is risky if you don't know how to handle them correctly, as they can fill up with karma or negative intents if you use them negatively, even if you control everything. This is what the past elites did and it's what caused all the modern problems in the first place. But being inside your own contained sphere will at least prevent aliens and spirits from coming in, so you have more space to handle things and learn. I use a servitor from Gensokyo which manifests black cat souls, which live for a set period of "9 cycles" then are dissolved and their knowledge is returned to you. Then if needed, a new is created and inserted. This prevents bots from amassing negative energy. By inserting them into NPCs, it's possible to create collective changes in society over time.

>>13475 Another thing which this makes possible is the local creation of technological progress. If you can relate your higher plane astral understanding correctly to current science, you can manifest timelines which move from the past up until now in way which allows the insertion of new random discoveries, like anti-gravity or black hole jet stream engines. Make use of secret high budget military projects where all researchers are your botsouls, and you can create the kind of thing you want, which will change the timeline fundamentally. If your sphere makes logical steps which can't be denied, the outside although not connected directly, will be influenced by it, through "gravity" projected outside of the sphere, same way they can influence the inside, they will be effected on the outside.

>>13475 >>13476 During the night I had a dream where a woman dressed in "ethnic" leather clothing approached me. She was surrounded by yellow energy. She asked how I want my timelines inside the sphere. She presented herself as a time-god from 5D or above, who maintains timelines. She said a sphere like this should have timelines structured. I explained to her how I want things to progress and what society should be like in my sphere. The woman then designed time progression for me and put the timelines in for me. The looked like very broad optic fibre cables.

A few days ago, something that'd worked to get past my intrusive thoughts was being angry at getting cockblocked by my intrusive thoughts. I was able to make them go away to an extent by making my subconsciousness decide I've had enough of the bullshit so that I can get to the enjoyment that was being blocked by the OCD intrusive thoughts without the intrusive thoughts ruining it, via. preventing the intrusive thoughts from manifesting. Would it be a bad idea to use anger more than occasionally to battle my OCD? I think the ironpill poster would say it's a bad idea, going by my memory of what he's posted.

>>13479 The anger seems to be working well for now, but on the way to lunch about half an hour ago, I'd felt an electrical sensation that'd went from the right side of my crown, going straight through my skull, to the left side of my jaw near the joint, about an inch in front of the point. I question if I'd gotten shot in the head with a glow-in-the-dark's astral gun. I'd then made sure to at least attempt to get myself help. Amy doesn't seem concerned, fortunately.

>>13480 >an electrical sensation that'd went from the right side of my crown, going straight through my skull, to the left side of my jaw near the joint Sounds like the chokmah - binah connection being opened. It represents the transformation from wordless wisdom to articulated understanding.

>>13469 Sounds nice. this happened? Did they bite?

>>13479 >Would it be a bad idea to use anger more than occasionally to battle my OCD? I think the ironpill poster would say it's a bad idea, going by my memory of what he's posted. I will tell you 1 ironpill magic advice that you must never forget DO WHATEVER THAT WORKS Overcome your OCD and other issues then once you are done and through with them you can improve your emotional alchemy further. If anger works then use it. If it doesn't work then use something else. >>13480 >Amy doesn't seem concerned, fortunately. I have electricity running through my body whenever I meditate seriously. >>13486 A good enough answer to describe what he is doing.

>>13474 By regular witch, I mean the median witch. There's probably a multitude of these regular witches ready to be contracted to set you aside. I would think a continuous stream of drone attacks would tire anyone out, leaving them vulnerable to a surprise attack.

>>13491 Yokais created the first one and all Earth-involved elites were invited to it, so they are now paying off their debts to society while competing for worthless titles in an irl version of a Chinese MMO. Those out there in space are trickier, but I'm working on it. The activated servitor will respond by creating new spheres for any group of hostiles and contain them if they are salvageable at any rate, otherwise they will still just go to the temple of Xolotl to be sacrificed so they're disposed of permanently. It's weird how all the "elites" ended up worshipping a Mexican god from the 500s, but since they do, they have already agreed to this. It's just that simple: they're not satanists, not christian, not buddhist or jews, those are just their own groups. The real evils of the NWO just worship Xolotl and that's all there is too it. It's just originally a god of harvests, the whole thing is just odd.

>>13495 > I would think a continuous stream of drone attacks would tire anyone out, leaving them vulnerable to a surprise attack. Yeah, I bet that's what they think, because they're regular tards. I already know they believe they can <attack all at once to overpower me <surprise me and get a critical hit and that's been their "tactic" from the very beginning, they've been doing this for 2,5 years now, with 1000s of them eliminated in the process and all technology they used reverse engineered by me in the process. Their mistake is that they believe in the nonsense idea of materialism, that >everyone is the same base material they can't imagine that they themselves are just infinitely inferior to me. They think good and evil are equal in power, and that there is no right or wrong, that everything comes down to energy and science in a common understanding. It does come down to numbers, but they don't understand how to calculate things correctly, because they exclude things based on their own prejudice. These ideas manifest as >he can't kill all of us >he needs us because they think we are "essentially the same" and that there would be some reason I can't just eliminate every single one of them. There isn't, since their existence is a crime in itself. Then in the end they turn out just believing that a big enough sacrifice to Xolotl would give them more power than anyone else. Then what's stopping me from doing the same?

>>13497 I don't have to physically, in this bodily form, be present at a temple in Mexico or anywhere to dedicate the results of a spellworking to Xolotl. It's that simple. How do they think religions like Islam works? They just face in the direction of Mecca and it works from anywhere.

>>13497 So when are you finally going to finish "killing all of them"? You've been blogging about how you've been achieving all these staggering unilateral victories for years and yet society just keeps getting shittier.

>>13499 That's just your perception. I don't believe those who are still doing something are physical, they're in other planes. But they may have been physical at some point, dimensions are weird. I don't see society getting worse, it's improving gradually. It's probably just a matter of not having my values and not seeing the improvement towards those.

>>13501 So any estimate on when you'll finally finish killing all of them?

The reason I'm now in this blog thread at all is because I'm done with mostly everything else. >>13502 Somewhere in the next 4 weeks.

>>13503 Wonderful. I guess we won't have to worry about glowies anymore after August.

>>13504 I won't. If you allow them to squat in your personal dimensions, that's your problem. Anyone who could interfere with me based on my goals, will be gone. If I don't agree with something, I have no reason to prevent those things being attacked.

Also pls take note that I stopped using the word "glowie", "glow in the dark" and similar, after I found the aliens with the actual light bulb shaped space stations and dealt with those. The negative "glowies" aren't around. Those still causing problems aren't this category, which is why I've since only called them "NWO agents". If you care about "glowies", those are already not a problem.

>>13505 Noted. After August, you will have no reason to claim that anyone here is interfering with you.

>>13507 So you feel targeted when I say this? Noted.

I'm only posting here because I'm not done yet. Duh.

>>13508 No, I'm just looking forward to the end of your "accuse everyone of being an agent" era. If you're actually willing to let go of this paranoia, you may finally start developing as a practitioner again. >>13509 Better get to work, then.

>>13510 So by this you mean I become like you? That's not improvement. You have no fucking idea.

If I can bait spiritual parasites to reveal themselves by simply posting on here, why shouldn't I? Because it exposes them? Well that's the point. I see you getting triggered by it, so that means they are in your head. If you want me to stop posting about it, why not just stop being controlled by them? All it takes is for you to not respond when I post.

>>13513 >>13512 Why are you trying so hard to be hostile? I'm just having a conversation with you. >If I can bait spiritual parasites to reveal themselves by simply posting on here Well they'll all be dead in a month, so isn't that a moot point?

>>13514 No you're not, you're being passive aggressive.

>>13497 >they're regular tards If it worked for them a thousand times, they wouldn't shift their strategy. They overestimate their power over the universe.

>>13491 Done. It just had to be framed like the asylum in the hitch hiker's guide to the galaxy, where someone built an inside-out house and called the galaxy the asylum while being "outside" of it when in the house.

>>13515 I'm saying that I'm looking forward to the effects of your working manifesting and that I hope that it improves your personal state and practice. How is that passive aggressive?

>>13517 The yellow energy field spreading everywhere now is the result. The neat effect of this is that both sides will think the asylum is on the other side of the barrier, so they won't cross it.

There's a cat I take care of now and then, and this often correlates with my familiars needing to show me something. They'll do this by possessing the cat. This time, it was my Cu Sith (fairy dog) who called my attention via the cat, and told me to pick it up and hold it. I then became aware of a round black thing with "handles" sticking out. It looked a lot like these old marine mines: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QyEEdFWrVHo and it made me recall a movie I saw on tv when I was like 8, where a mine floats ashore on a beach, and the the boys set up a contraption to make it explode by tying a weight to a tripod and letting acid slowly drip on the string while they run off. The mine ends up killing a local man who walks up to it wondering what the tripod is, just as it's about to explode. I wouldn't have recalled this so strongly if it hadn't been something I saw that early, it was the first time I saw a mine, and I started drawing sea mines in the water on drawings I made after this. So it seems this thing existed in an astral plane all along, and it's some egregore which causes people to "explode" when any of the "horns" are touched, like on the mine. I had to press down this thing and overcome it, which was very similar to earlier processes where I imagined the karma as a ball that keeps floating up, and I'm pressing it down under water and keeping it there until it sinks. My Cu Sith helped me see this.

Hey egganon, please consider [re-]reading this: https://easypeasymethod.org/ It's an invaluable guide for understanding how to break free from addictions in general, even though it's focused on overcoming porn addictions.

It appears I was successful in finally transferring over to new earth with the help of Amdusias. I wanted to finish up and move over, even if there were things left to do here. Time seems to stand still relatively over there compared to here. But it would be stranger if things moved in real time, considering "here" is by the far end of the karmic jet stream ejected from the position where old earth resided. The distance was said to be 23 million light years. Soul-part projection is still possible, these jet streams are just string particles and move faster than light, being then part of the person's soul which contains very low level karma, created from interacting with a society sunken to such a level that it needs this distance to be manifested for untangling. I had already 2 weeks ago finished the rosicrucian mission, with it being a reverse cultivation starting from the highest astral, the finishing segment became the physical form's transformation. After this I saw only one way to move forward, by using the trickery of all pleiadans being one race, and choosing to "abuse" this fact to register as part of the copper race for access to african mystical culture, although it's a stretch to say the least, but fully legal if DNA matches in relevant aspects. It seems my physical family heritage was created in a very rational manner, with one grandparent line being made up of rosicrucian + daughter of eve, and the other being made up of demon + pleiadan. The disturbance came from the demon side being somewhat mixed, caused by a historical event in 1809 where a captain for no reason surrendered a major fortress, causing Finland to be created as a separate nation. There is a "joke meme" about Finland not being real. This reflects actual history, what we know of is a result of this immense distortion of events. The region now called Finland would have been part of Sweden or Russia, it would not have been independent. It has to do with the same topic as has been mentioned earlier, the "butthurt belt of eastern europe" consisting of the small states who were suppressed by the soviet union, and later joined nato. There is some vile evil emanating from there, and this caused history to degenerate in this fashion. It is still causing distortions along this line, and for me correcting this is a necessary part, as it distorted my physical DNA as well as the historical progress, even causing the winter war and the ethnic cleansings in Finland, which few people want to speak of today. Although my cultivation from the astral could not be disturbed, there were physical effects, and solving those will have to be the last thing to do. I think I won't be posting much about this though, as when having moved to my new mind, which is now physically asleep over there, I feel more like the yokai says in the early stage of Touhou 7 "I don't have any worries at all". And that's just the effect on the spirit from having a different physical bloodline. The negative energy locally is very strong, but contained and personal, in such a manner that I will simply just have to work on it through a process to remove the effects of everything that went wrong since 1809 in a long line since. This constitutes the "jet stream" of karma which reached as far as 23 million light years. It's very bad and very long. Reconstructing it will require the extraction of stolen energy from the perpetrators, including those in the "asylum" and those who were already sent into the bottom level below hell. The traitor who surrendered the fortress was later made into a stone relief by the gate of another fortress, and it is ever since custom to spit on him as you enter. People still do so, and this reflects him being constantly spat on in the location where his soul ended up after death. This is how concrete the consequences are, aside from the materialism of these very long jet streams of sin, caused by trying to flee from unavoidable results of having committed this crime, and upheld it for almost 200 years. I will probably only post my astral space travel logs elsewhere, as I see no point in further talk on here for now. My mind having changed so much that the timelines clearly adapted, may make the experience strange for everyone. Even the latest uploads which normally sync with what I need to illustrate posts (when I want to do this) have changed to match my thinking, which from my "past" perspective is pretty wild and reckless. I expect the experience of others may be similar, this motivates my decision.

>>13532 >I will probably only post my astral space travel logs elsewhere, as I see no point in further talk on here for now I'm going to miss them.

>>13530 I have seen the mines in a dream when I tried to figure out >>13144 this >>13247 Wanted to comment on this when you posted but wasn't sure how. This is the vision I got too. And how both of you exist on a different timeline mentally and energetically and as long as that black mass acts as a large boulder between you too... you won't be able to understand each other at all. >>13532 I won't comment on this yet because you are going through a complex energetic change and whatever I say would just annoy and anger you. The people that exist on the "Butthurt belt" were all invaded by asian hordes for the last 3000 years. That was how the karmic cleansing of those energies started. I wanted to explain this to you previously but I realized you would just throw a bunch of /int/ memes as a reply and I realized I don't have the patience for a serious discussion that will just spew shitty memes at the first half of the conversation before we can talk meaningfully about it. The Roman Empire, The Germans, The Slavic tribes and the turks shed extreme levels of blood to solidify this "frontier" for a reason. You mentioned the pentagram of the evil but there are other things here too. Ever since I connected to Scandinavia through a reactivated "Leyline" last year...I am seeing just how much damage was done in the past centuries due negligence, ignorance and ill-will. I did not want to mention this karmic disturbance on this board which barely has any Europeans at all. More than half of the board lives in the USA. For them only the current NWO and the freemasons matter. Whatever is in Europe barely means anything to them. Currently I am unsure how to convey my insights on this board. Whatever I say would just get entangled in a series of misunderstanding. I feel that even if I say nothing... even that would get misunderstood. I don't know why. Several people shifted mentally in the past 2 weeks. I am unsure how to adjust yet.

>>13534 My mind no longer seems to attach here very much, a combination of language study where I slowly started learning Japanese by ordering some hiragana/katakana books 7 years ago, used apps for kanji and took 3 uni courses in speech and writing, lead to a sudden "new memory slot" being created after much strain. That's when I realized people today are underdeveloped, when I started reading older texts describing logic, such as those books and papers from the earlier parts of the 1900s which describe in detail, using notational language, all the theoretical basis of modern computers and AI. It already existed all along, on paper, but most of these sources are not even easy to find and do not exist in any newer publications despite their central role. Quite simply because modern people, as was demonstrated to me when I looked up the function of an Adverb in grammar, and realized no one seemed to understand what they are, and this being caused by having a missing memory slot, the context isn't visible without it, and it's not mystical. It's been said people 35000 years ago were at the peak of human intelligence, they built cities at large scale all planned in their heads, they did what is now done using computers, and for this reason didn't need them. They are now seen as "primitive", but this illusion is created from the fact that today everyone can seemingly access the information and methods online or at libraries, which were only personally taught at that time, which made the relevance of personal intelligence a deciding factor. Not so much today, but instead almost no one can do these things in their heads. Following on this I also studied Kabbalah and finally got around to reading the bible from the beginning, which is the basis of understanding what kabbalah is, contrary to the "mystical" separation of the tree of life from the book of genesis and the hebrew alphabet which is is derived from. The Sefer Yetzirah with commentary I just started reading further confirmed my view of the tree being the body, by simply saying that the 32 nerves of the spine refer directly to the 10 sefirot and the 22 letters of the hebrew alphabet + numbers, and how the tree creates 32 pathways which directly map to the 31 nerves plus the brain, and how their functions relate in a direct physical sense. This process has also added something very concrete to my physical capacity of thought, which isn't mystical, but simply comes from reading and making connections. The "amazing" element here in both cases is that it's not mystical but just regular study which anyone could do, which has increased my ability to see greater contexts and perspectives in regular things. The latest addition being something which annoyed me a lot: I have since early on had an easy time using equations for calculating anything, and though my ability for visualization stops at text on plan background, I can do that part very well. I've easy done the same thing in all such subjects, and it's just come through and worked - until I faced C#. I can easily grasp the structure, it's just a representation of language and the thinking this produces. But to get an overview of what I do, I need to be able to actually see internally everything before me. The complexity of classes with multiple levels of inheritance and the .NET library which doesn't actually show what it contains, but just gives an explanation which one is to just trust, made it impossible for my mind to just bring up the visualization. The issue, as I now learned, is that it requires a combination of exact logic, and a general description. If I didn't write it myself, but am to just understand that "insert this type of parameter, get this thing back" that means having to pair my own exact logic with trust in something which is generally described, and this combination just crashed my automatic visualization process which I've had since age 12 or so. But I finally broke through this, and with all of these together, my mind just operates physically different from before. I find myself recalling things I did earlier in the day, and "missing them" though it was just hours before, and being some common event like going swimming in the lake, which I don't even like very much, but just do for exercise. It appears when idle these extra memory slots I created by studying, serve other functions as well. After the transfer of soul weight to my new body over there, which is asleep in slow-time, it became even more apparent that these extra memory slots have uses I never imagined, and though I'm writing this post here now, I'm merely channelling this from some deeper parts of my body's space, as some kind of further explanation feels needed, and maybe this can also serve as an encouragement - it's not a mystical realization you need, it's just to reawaken the real intelligence which humans had in the past, which was till present even in the 1800s for some people, and those were the real scientists who lay the groundwork for every modern tool we use today. For this reason, I can still only say that society in at least this regard, is improving, because knowledge is spreading beyond just being an oral tradition for a select few who can listen when the master speaks. This is after all an improvement. I will for above stated reasons, if they at all manifest in this text, keep posting the logs of my planned travels in the coming days, just not on here. Maybe I'll share them later, it's just so that when writing for an audience, there is some adaption to the imaged reader, and if imagining this reader as having less "memory slots" than myself currently, as I will be thinking because I'm still high on the experience, then that will restrict my writing.

>>13535 It doesn't matter. See >>13536 I just need to transform a bunch of very low level energy which is drawn out through space in an almost inconceivable way. But it's relevant for others too, I just don't know if they will be able to understand this, or how to deal with it. I've said everything already, my advice of "read the bible, simple kabbalah, tanya rabbati, sefer yetzirah, hatha yoga pradipika, dharana darshan and if you can avoid all the egregorial cult stuff; read Zhuan Falun", it would not be received well here, and no one would do it with the prospect of having an "extra memory slot" in 7 - 20 years. So there's not much more to say. Watch anime, it may contain truths just for you, that much may work.

>>13536 >it's not a mystical realization you need, it's just to reawaken the real intelligence which humans had in the past Yupp. Welcome to the club >oral tradition for a select few who can listen when the master speaks The initiated mind was able to access the "higher libraries" or "Higher thinking" or the "spirit of the profession" as easily as they could breathe. This is why computers were not needed. The fact that we have to use our hands to type and our eyes to "see" slows down the process of knowledge and learning. >For this reason, I can still only say that society in at least this regard, is improving, because knowledge is spreading beyond just being an oral tradition The problem is that people are "delegating their thinking" to computers/AI or to "other experts". This way their mind won't get stimulated. You will never learn to walk if you are chained to an automatic wheelchair since your birth Like in Wall-E >it's just so that when writing for an audience, there is some adaption to the imaged reader, and if imagining this reader as having less "memory slots" than myself currently Make a "true blog" thread. Where you are talking to yourself and there is "no audience". If people read it then they either adjust to the required mental level or they don't bother reading. They can hide the thread if they don't like it. That is the only thing that might work. I have a knack for adjusting, but I cannot "adjust" when people don't talk from their heart. I am saying this because in some cases you talk to me in such a condescending way because you imagine me as some strange mundane troglodyte from eastern europe or whatnot. This way you are unable to connect to the "real audience" because you are trying to talk to an imagined audience that will just throw insults at you. If you want to write your stuff no matter what then start a completely different astral blog thread just for yourself. That way you won't get entangled with the energies of this thread and won't suffer the confusion that the "imagined audience" causes because current fringe is not on the same mindwave like it was 10 years ago Your posts were able to fit the theme of the board pretty well back then. Even tho some of them were challenging themes. Nowadays fringe is not as united as it was back then. There is no singular mindwave here yet. Everyone is wildly different in experience and practice. There is no IIH here that everyone tries to follow. Personally I have my homework set out for me. I just have to follow it. But it is not easy to talk about it because currently it's all about letting the muscles and the energy centers "wake up" because they are blooming. It's just an another stage of puberty for me. My heart and my soul shows the way. Writing about would take longer than actually doing the practice.

Back then there was no need for a surveillance state because the priest and ruler class knew exactly well what is going on with the people because they were able to access and overview the "collective consciousness" at ease. When spies are required in every household so the ruler can feel safe then he is not even a ruler at all. He was either an usurper or a tyrant. I too want to explain how easy the world would be if we bothered activating the true capacity of our mind and soul. But in some cases it's easier to activate the next level with a large scale spell instead explaining how to do it with dry text only. But the Kali yuga is a cursed stage of existence. Where strife and misunderstanding is ripe and battling it is futile until a breakthrough happens.

>>13539 >you imagine me as some strange mundane troglodyte from eastern europe Maybe this is ironic imitation of how people talk to such posters, maybe on /int/. Sometimes the irony flies over your head, but pointing that out to someone who already seemed hurt would just make it worse. I have already started such a thread, but for the sake of keeping this a log for myself, I will not disclose it as of now. I prefer no one reads it because then there is an audience. In some way here I may do something similar to what Smiley did, which was to "think in imageboards" where I just think by writing. He would create a board for himself to think aloud, and then threads for posting mp3:s to listen to by playing them from the thread instead of using a media player. Then Megamilk deleted them because they only had one poster. A clear sign that things are changing and that the golden asylum worked out, is that during the night the ghost of a french woman approached me in a dream, then remained after I woke up. She said a barrier had been removed, allowing her to come to me from the area she had been. It looked like a swamp which had been isolated by some thick smog before, which was now gone. On top of that, when I went into the kitchen just 20 min ago where was another ghost girl standing right there, doing the "almost 4D jumpscare" thing enough to give me a hint of what those pranks would be like there the lights go out and suddenly a black haired ghost is next to you. Fucking terrifying in a physical sense, if it had been real. But now she just gave me the feeling of that happening, with a slight visual. I asked her what she was about and tried determining if she would bite or not, but decided she was probably harmless, at least if I "bind" her properly and do some cleansing rituals. I didn't bother asking where she's from yet, but she seems nice enough. With a hint that she may suddenly open her mouth like some inhuman ghoul and attack me with teeth dripping of black blood, but that part feels like just some cultural habit. She's right now doing faces like that on my left side as some kind of joke or something. I guess it would be pretty terrifying if she hadn't been so cute. Wew. Now she's showing herself hanged in the ceiling. Well this will be fun.

Anger unfortunately isn't working so well for me today; I ran out of fuel for it yesterday. Anger also doesn't prevent me from doing inappropriate things to non-evil entities, nor from being concerned about it. It can at least shove my fears of evil spirits aside to an extent to enable me to play video games, but it doesn't allow me to do stuff that involves visualization, which is basically everything spiritual except for mindfulness meditation that strictly focuses on mundane phenomena.

>>13540 Here are some memes only eastern europeans can grasp.

>>13543 Then do mindfulness meditation. All you need to do is to strengthen and cleanse your energy body so entities cannot enter it easily. Chants are the most basic energy work. That is why it was recommended. I am unsure if you have the mental fortitude to do any energy work that is more complex than that. I don't even know which book or video I should even recommend because I do my energy work with my guides or intuitively for years already. 10 years ago fringe was talking about energy work all the time. It was impossible to not have at least 10 working techniques by reading the threads alone. >>13546 Don't make me open the Captain Sweden folder And my country might hate Ukraine more than Russia hates Ukraine. We would have declared war on them already if it didn't make us look bad on an international level. Who am I kidding. Everyone hates Ukrainians around them. But if the propaganda could convince people that the vax is safe and effective then I am not surprised it managed to portray Ukrainians as the heroic freedomfighters... Like how the Mujahideen were heroic in Afghanistan as long they fought the Soviet union and were funded by the CIA... then suddenly they were evil terrorists when Saudi passports were found in the rubble of the WTC... If we talked about geopolitics then threads would be longer than our average schizo discussion

>>13547 Talking about memes, I think we may have uncovered the identity of our friend above, before he became catholic.

>>13548 >2014 article That might have been the last year when atheists still dared to wear their fedora publicly

>>13541 >Smiley >He would create a board for himself to think aloud, and then threads for posting mp3:s to listen to by playing them from the thread instead of using a media player I miss this nigga so much you wouldn't believe it

>>13548 For any gullible people reading this later, I was never hostile towards Catholicism.

>>13551 Didn't you have a meltdown about how the Catholic Jesus is evil so you summoned Mormon Jesus instead?

>>13553 He's not quite evil; God just wants His children to suffer while they're on Earth for some reason or the other. Possibly in part because Christianity is partially a loosh-farming operation ran by hostile aliens. Also that suggested pic was from 2014; I was much friendlier back then towards Christianity, and I still had my sanity. Also you can tell from the energies behind this post that I'm not concerned about the guy in the pic being me, cause he ain't me.

>>13556 >hostile aliens. Are you talking about hostile aliens or (((hostile aliens)))?

>>13556 >you can tell from the energies behind this post that I'm not concerned about the guy in the pic being me You do seem oddly defensive about it tho

>>13560 I had to say something either way tbh. Just do a reading on the guy yourself if you think he's me.

>>13289 Fun fact: the angry trumpet goblin also claims to be able to perform siddhis. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLEmx6CayVU

I have been meditating for 1 minute every day and doing the LBRP once per day and have replaced all my first person shooter and school shooting vidya with magic related vidya.

I finally got my hands on some food grade diomataceous earth; I'm currently trying drinking warm water with a quarter teaspoon of baking soda before bed; this'll be night 2 out of 3 of that. I'll try the dirt after.

Weird stuff happening. I heard the sound of a possible hex activating or maybe some energy breakthrough. Next to it appeared the image of a witch wearing a black BDU cap. Observing the energy moving, it appeared to race past me and then hit a group of men of the "buttmad" looking category - when divining the context by looking broader in time and space, they were the same people who paid for the hex to be cast. Masochists on the astral? They also appeared to be in the asylum sphere. Maybe they're just insane. As it hit them, they just looked really mad and stern, but didn't change their facial expression or anything. After this they just looked like ostriches soaked in water. After this I projected to the witch's room, assuming she was a proto-grey. Greys like to wear BDU, so I asked if she was a grey. She said "do I look grey to you?" to which I replied "yes", and she then giggled a little and said "ok, you are right." "Did you want anything?" So I asked to see her pussy. She said "why?" to which I explained "well if it looks good I'd want to fuck it, but I don't know that unless I get to see it first." She said that was logical and let me see it. I asked how much? "Two silver" she said. "Does that include getting a daughter?" I proceeded. "Yes, that's included in the price." After the following events, the witch asked if I wanted to buy some grimoires, "they'd be great for the daughter." We looked at them and decided to get the grey grimoire, the green grimoire and the yellow grimoire. Just another day in the life of an astral traveller.

>>13115 >Past /fringe/ was far more hostile. We had far more amount of unhinged fucks who just wanted to troll anyone who showed weakness. I got my own little taste of the Smiley treatment when I had my first awakening at age 20. A collage of a bunch of my /fringe/ posts was actually floating around on a major 8ch board back then Although unlike Smiley, my "trolls" had nothing but pure frothing hatred without a trace of mirth. tbf I did have some sympathizers but they were usually much quieter. I'm gonna have to tell the full story of my first awakening sometime, but I've been worried it will draw those people here, and prevent me from feeling safe to spill my guts out like I need to. Actually it recently occurred to me that I could use the bumplocked Awakening thread for this purpose, as it would be both hidden and probably the most on-topic contribution I could make to that thread so far. Hopefully it will still be in the catalog by the time I'm ready Plus those guys were complete dumbfucks who couldn't even figure out how to identify separate posters on their own board, let alone /fringe/. Not to mention they seemed to think /fringe/ was solely about tulpas even though one of my posts in their collage explicitly stated I'm not interested in making a tulpa >Didn't even know wtf a divorce was as a kid but I knew I have to make sure to stay with dad no matter what. I've been thinking that I would've turned out way better if I had gone with my dad instead, no matter how degenerate his lifestyle was back then. He saw me as an actual person and would've done his best to protect me from his degeneracy. However that was never an option when they divorced seeing as he was in prison Ultimately I don't hold either of them in contempt. We could've been such a nice family if all their filth was cleansed before it became too late. Last time I saw him he told me some details of what lead up to our separation, which I had never heard before. He was unemployed and looking for a job when he got badly physically injured, and the next day immediately got a job offer he couldn't attend because of his injury. He felt completely hopeless and drowned his sorrows in alcohol which lead to him beating us up or whatever My memory of this is still entirely blacked out even though I can remember the aftermath pretty well. He said that all he had to do was be patient and it would've worked itself out, but instead he destroyed his family for nothing. >You will have to find your bravery Though it may sound preposterous in my current state, I think that I have something of a warrior's soul. Perhaps not its primary characteristic, and not an angry or berzerker warrior, but a warrior nonetheless. Isn't a warrior ultimately someone who lusts after oblivion? When I read Kali Kaula it described the 3 Gunas as representative of 3 paths, and the red rajas guna which corresponded to the way of the "Hero" is what resonated with me the most, by far. My first favorite color was red, which changed to always-subdued, colder colors in later childhood. I consider this symbolic of my warrior nature being repressed. also my chart has a lot of fire in it, just not much martian energy at all A while back when I was APing constantly, I recall encountering monster-like entities in strange astral realms and breaking through my initial fear to fight them instead. I think it was before then, when I was getting routinely attacked by parasites, including what is colloquially labelled "sleep paralysis demons," that helped me realize the power of simply not being afraid. My problem with fear in this physical life is primarily a result of PTSD programming stored in my body that hijacks every other part of me, which I haven't been able to overcome yet. That's kinda why my practice is currently focused on trying to fix my body. I've been much braver, wiser, etc. outside of my body. >Even the Buddha knew he cannot save everyone... That is the most tragic thing of all >The question is always if you want to be part of the solution or you realize the futility of entangling yourself with it from the start. The only real problem I still have with it is being old enough to have experienced the world when it was relatively 'normal' and much more pleasant only to have the rug pulled out from under me before I even had a chance. It feels like I got scammed. 9/11 killed the vibe but things weren't too bad yet, until the mid-'00s when I started to notice things getting cringier and gayer if I only knew how right I would be... until smartphones hit and we all know how that went. I distinctly remember thinking smartphones were the dumbest thing I'd ever seen, and noticing how hard they were getting artificially pushed in pop culture even without possessing much conspiracy knowledge at the time. But the one thing I'm most resentful about is how beautiful women were in the '90s compared to now. The plastic surgery, the face filters, and the weird makeup that makes them look like realdolls, alongside the overall aesthetic grotesqueness that's infested everything else, reminds me and this is ironic coming from me so much of the visual novel Saya no Uta in how nobody else seems to perceive or acknowledge the change. Everyone treats it as business as usual, including those who position themselves "against the system." >Karma, culture and why the Kali Yuga sucks I would greatly appreciate such a post if it could help me contextualize my life and why I am forced to spend my adulthood in shitty gay retard faggot world, and why it transformed so abruptly, lacking the natural progression that was apparent in earlier periods. Sometimes I wonder if we're in some kind of "garbage dump" timeline where other timelines discard shit they don't want. It seems like everything that happens now is just random nonsense. I mean, if covid was really a depopulation conspiracy, wouldn't the master propagandists want their narrative to at least make some sense? It seems like they were winging it, literally just making shit up as they went. And that's not to mention the huge volume of "Gnostic" media in the '90s. The Matrix even commented on why they had to simulate the 90s, the "End of History." It's all so mysterious to me. But ultimately I know that my goal is to detach from it. Modernity won't matter when I can explore and create worlds of my own, and manifest the things that I like. >There is no guarantee that in your next life you will have access to spirituality or you will be inclined to even bother with it. It's difficult to imagine myself even bothering to live a life without spirituality.

>>13596 >baking soda in water Is this because of parasite pill or some other reason?

>>13604 Parasite pill also turns out I forgot the baking soda tonight so I'll just switch to the diomataceous earth sooner

>>13600 I'd just looked up gunas on a whim; turns out I've both the tamas & rajas gunas, by and large.

>>13600 Thanks for your post. I will make a drawing for your case and what I have seen while waiting for your reply and will probably reply to your post later. I am kinda busy on this week so expect it around the weekend I know you want to say many other things and you left your post this short and proper to not appear as insane nor clingy >A collage of a bunch of my /fringe/ posts was actually floating around on a major 8ch board back then And with this post your reluctance to post makes complete sense now... Yeah... 8chan was shit. There was a reason why we had 3+ alt fringe boards and several people went to discord when 8chan was the most active version in the entire /fringe/ history. It was hard to stomach most of the retards. I didn't post on that board either for a reason. >Hopefully it will still be in the catalog by the time I'm ready It's not going anywhere. And people are not really creating threads to speed up it's descent. If it gets bumped off the catalog I will remake it sooner or later. I know it was a bad experience for you, but if you could give a TLDR how your awakening happened that would help for my analysis. Yes. There is a chance it will bring back some "tard energy" but that is how karma works. If you let it pass or learn to overcome it then it will just make you stronger I will explain that trashdump Kali Yuga timeline observation of yours in an extremely long effortpost later. I had new insights about it's nature in the past weeks and it's not gonna sound pretty nor uplifting. But the end message would be: Git gud or die trying >It's difficult to imagine myself even bothering to live a life without spirituality. Hahaha. Glad you said this. Because what I want to say might cheer you up a little once I figure out how to word it. You have a specific energetic configuration. You might have accepted this life because you knew it "wouldn't matter". And by that I mean the "Initial difficulty" wouldn't matter. You knew you would just wash it over. I will try my best explaining why you were this confident before incarnation

There seems to have been some greater reason for this meme and its background.

Yesterday I contacted the African healer goddess Aja again, who had previously helped me develop my nerves by the top of the spinal cord, posted above >>12764 >>12765 >>12766 >>12767 >>12768 >>12770 >>12771 >>12772 and in some other thread. I wanted to solve another issue which I derived to be in a sense purely physical, though through kabbalistic study, that may be the same thing as spiritual, if the 31 main nerves plus the brain correspond directly to the 32 pathways on the kabbalah tree with the 10 sefirot and the 22 letters and numbers of the hebrew alphabet. She had me again meditate on the Chimera, the lion, goat and snake, and how those relate to the kabbalah tree, the chakras and what yoga poses could be used, like simhasana for lion, goat having horns may correspond to "cat and cow" where the horns are developed by arcing the back, the snake being simply kundalini, the spine itself. She then said we had to "remove the bones" of my body, because they were made up from karma, and the process appeared to be her simply teleporting my bones away and dispersing them, replacing them with "gravity". My body felt lighter after. This morning I touched a water tap and suddenly something seemed to have stung my right hand ring finger tip, which was bleeding. Looking closer there were three pieces of metal stuck under the nail, which had to be removed with forceps. At first thought it would have been chrome coming off the old tap, but looking at it, though the chrome surface was worn off, I didn't see any place where it was sticking out in flakes like that. By past experiences, things getting ejected from the body will appear to do so in ways that match common logic based on the consensus reality, where coughing something up would seem to be happening in relation to eating or brushing teeth, but it's clear that the thing removed was something organic actually being ejected from the body's physical form, like the physical structure of a harmful thought pattern. There is also a correspondence between the finger tips and the sefirot, and my understanding that karma is mineral in nature. So the things being removed in the form of bones yesterday may have manifested as some kind of metal being ejected from the fingertip. Right hand ring finger corresponds to Netzach, which I concluded being the first "free sefirot" when looking at it as the tree of kelipot having negative influences, as the negative forces emanating from the top will interpret the tree upside down, and then they can't touch what they see as kether, chokmah and binah, meaning they can't access what is actually at the bottom, netzach, hod and malkuth, in that order. (Which explains the struggle of evil forces to control the world, they never can do so in full.)

I was miraculously able to do the Shiva chants last night for an hour before bed. I was wrong about Shiva having failed me; I guess I'd just needed a break for some sort of probably-fear-related process to occur. Also before the chants Shiva showed me the horse demon tulpa, but this time its lower half was replaced by a mist of purple dots that were connected to me, such that the purple dots were indicative of Shiva. I'd then told the tulpa to convert the rest of itself to purple dots and it did, and then I just told it to go inside of my body and I think it'd at least tried to. Anyway I'd felt a mild good feeling in my throat while I was chanting; dunno how to describe it.

>activate silver DNA further >lose most sexual desires almost immediately >sight improves memories return >the karmic nature of earth becomes way too noticeable >can't even get depressed about it because silver DNA just purifies any and all negative energies Welp. I definitely didn't expect this. I thought overcoming my desires will be some sort of titanic struggle. And not merely finding some "I am just too good to be bad" DNA within. I had a dream many years ago, it was in some ruins. There were silver faces of some people on the wall with some strange headwear that reminded me of Egyptian Pharaohs. I gently touched one. She said something without words. Then my hand started to turn silver. As I felt the need to leave the ruins a poisonous spider in the corner bit me, but I knew I was immune to it's poison with this silver coating. After a while I found a dead-end then I noticed that the wall can open. The wall opened and I realized we are underwater because the ruin started to flood. I knew that my only option is to swim upward to not drown. As I was seeing the light while swimming upward I woke up. Tantra talks about how desires are a poison and the goal of tantra is to turn the poison into the elixir. Didn't realize back then how widely I can interpret that poison. It was 2 years ago when I realized I have 2 silver snakes that can just break apart dark and dormant energy blocks. I kinda forgot about them after clearing some pathways around my spine. They too whispered. "He understands" - they said... forgot what I understood back then. In the past weeks I am finding more and more configuration for the mind and the body with these energies. 3 days ago I had to witness the truth that the inner sight is truly within (and without) the body. That the physical eyes just give a mere illusion of this reality. I had to see my own cellular structure. It was disgusting. Seeing the inner parts of the human body with the most sensitive sight of the spirit. Took me 2 days to get over the fact that life is "disgusting". That the desires are here to supplant the senses, to make life desirable. They are not able to sway true spiritual abilities. I still have a long way going forward. The first thing babies need to learn is to be able to hold their head. I forgot how to do it after waking up today. My neck cracked and I realized I might break it if I want to lift it up with my old DNA routines. I can see my muscles and other bodyparts far too clearly now. How it is infected with the oozing darkness of "satan" with the "drug of life". How this infection is a necessary component for beings on this low frequency. For beings living on earth. I will have to relearn everything. I just learned again that I barely know anything about life and existence at all. I will probably continue this "shared human experience" thing for a while, but don't know how long. >>13642 Congrats.

>>13661 >I realized we are underwater It took me a while to understand why this was so in my dreams, and once I saw that the Earth is all water on the 3D, the real horror became clear to me. But I still didn't understand that the physical cracking of the Earth plane actually happened before. It's in the bible, known as the great flood. I connected the dots just a few weeks ago. I had already concluded the ark was some kind of dimensional containment vessel, but not what actually happened with the Earth. The 3D dimension was wiped, returned back to the original sea, while timelines containing all humans, animals and plants to be kept were stored in this vessel. Then after 3D was created the timelines were put back again. So the Earth was really created 4000 years ago, in this sense. Also good progress, thanks for sharing.

>>13640 The main issue here finally solved. It seems at a high level of burning karma, it stops being negative, because it just burns so fast that it can't manifest negative consequences anymore. This is the state of the galactic federation at a collective level. It manifests as those miner (fur) beast races who are able to mine even the most toxic material, which contains the karma and fragmented souls of very heavy and dirty beings. To them it's just minerals to be refined and used, which is a physical process of mechanically refining soul material. But this external mineral mining is a manifestation of the fact that karma ends up stored as minerals in planets, and that evil souls get stored along with their karma, so that it can be mined and restored to being useful material, which over time can again rise through the different stages of life, from mineral to plans, to animals and then to being humanoid again. So that is the same process as doing this internally at the highest effectiveness, when karma stops being harmful and is just energy to be used.

>>13642 I'm proud of you. You didn't have to sell your soul or contact a stranger for this. Keep chanting.

I'd tried doing the Shiva chants today, but I'd eventually had to stop maybe half an hour in because my subconsciousness was trying to re-direct my intentions towards an asura; not a goetian at least. I'd later gotten my thoughts away from that asura, but it took a few hours to do so. Some time later, I'd spoken to Heimdall earlier today to ask how to hear [spirits] better, and then I'd started feeling a white mass of energy at my left ear, maybe a foot in diameter. I guess He was doing something to help me hear spirits better. After lunch, I'd put on some 11hz alpha wave frequency to try raising the frequency of the strong alpha band that my subconsciousness creates whenever I close my eyes and tried taking a nap for what'd coincidentally and unintentionally been an hour and 11 minutesthe video is exactly 1 hour, and then I'd gotten up because I'd remembered to take my diomataceous earth today. While I was in bed, my subconsciousness made me provoke the eggman egregore, and after some time, he lost his patience and my left astral arm that was bugging him suddenly began spazzing out roughly in place, and then it'd stopped moving on its own and the arm was suddenly just black charred astral flesh with the bone. However, strangely enough, the arm still responded to conscious commands to move it, and it'd only respond to conscious commands to move it, so I guess the attack had ultimately backfired. I'd then tried moving it around a bunch and it did what I told it to do pretty much every time. I suppose that the arm had its astral nerves connected to it and functioning with it before, and my subconsciousness was using those astral nerves to command my left astral arm, but now my subconsciousness can't do that anymore, so the only way I can move it is by using my consciousness to manually command it until it heals. I've destroyed my entire subtle body once, think it was early last year, while I was showering, and then I'd re-created it, iirc, within the hour, so I'm sure I'll be fine. I know I'd destroyed by subtle body because entities I was contacting began asking me where my subtle body was after I'd destroyed it instead of giving me a reply I'd expected, first Athena, and then the Sonic egregore. That's how I'd learned that it was my subtle body I'd destroyed; I'd thought it was just some kinda thoughtform that my subconsciousness had created to harass me or something. Anyway later during the attempted nap, I saw some visions of a black songbird with a black beak, and a black horse, both in a black place. I'd then heard something along the lines of "he'll make a transaction". I have no idea who "he" had meant. My phantasms of the horse demon were always brown, so maybe it was a different horse entity, or it was just my tulpamancy acting up in the form of an energy clearing.

>>13679 >diomataceous earth Never heard of it. Google says it helps digestion? To comment on your post. You will have to keep chanting and... make sure you are aiming for the higher forms of Shiva and not panic while seeing the Asuras. I have a feeling you reactivated some layer of your "karmic body" which is a lower subtle body layer, but way closer to the human flesh than to the psyche or the spirit. Asuras supposedly represent (or govern) the lower and negative emotions of the body like anger, but in some cases they are just a different faction of astral beings. Unsure which Asura you just connected to. Not sure what "destroying your subtle body" means for you. It is not something you can just "destroy". You can contaminate it, but not sure what destruction means in your case.

Need to look for more stuff on Fae but 4/x/ is useless as hell, should just go back to googling for things but im admittedly paranoid about everything i'd find being bogus. i hate being like this

>>13683 https://mythos-and-legends.fandom.com/wiki/Fae I wrote "fae legends" into yahoo and I got this. It's a quite good summary. Now you will know where F/GO draws it's inspiration from

>>13682 Diomataceous earth is supposed to kill parasites; was recommended in the parasite pill thing that another guy linked.

I'm starting to feel since an hour ago like there's a yellow sigil or rune placed upon my forehead; what's it look like? To me it looks roughly like pic related; no idea what it means. To someone standing in front of me it'd be horizontally mirrored in its appearance, though; my third eye is behind my forehead, after all.

>>13701 I'm suddenly remembering that last night when I was trying to fall asleep, I'd suddenly heard a clear and unfamiliar male voice say "hello!". I forget what I'd said after, but I didn't hear anything from the voice afterwards, and then I'd later went to sleep.

There were some energy disturbances originating from within the new golden sphere, where all evil spirits have been contained. By shooting at the source of the radiating gravity, a cult was uncovered. It had the same energy as Thelema and the "green crystal witches", and appeared to be an astral imprint of a desert cult. When clearing out the evil spirits by simply shooting them from outside of the sphere, another "living corpse" king was found at the back of the structure. The body was completely black and when it collapsed it turned into a pile of ash where only a crown was left on the top of it. Divining who this was, only gave the name Aramelek, which doesn't give any hits with web searches directly. BUT may be meant to mean "king of Aram", going by the word "melek" being used for "king" in the bible. So it may have been a title, Aram-melek. Having removed this source of evil, I felt a pressure being released from the top left part of my head, which I wasn't aware had been there. Looking at the structure of their energy, this cult and this king seems to have been a driving force behind the hagification of women, feminization of men and widespread abortions. Although from an occult system view, they were "just using energy", this energy would if manifested into physicality appear to be the energy of aborted fetuses, simply stealing "life" and the youth of women.

>>13706 It seems SVG wasn't accepted. Here's the map with Aram.

I went to the park earlier today and I spontaneously saw a bluish-green object sticking out of my left ear; it'd looked like pic related, and its main body was inside of my head and going down my spine. I'd imagine that it's some sort of parasite but I question if it's just my tulpamancy acting up and making me think there's a parasite when there ain't one.

>>13718 You saw it in your mind's eye in 3rd person? >>11401 >red gong of qi gong practitioners >(mostly satanists and witches tbh) Do you know why they have it?

>>13721 It wasn't 3rd person, but rather the "camera" was only an inch or so behind my head and let me see the parasite by making the parts of my body that weren't where the parasite was be opaque.

>>13721 >Do you know why they have it? They have it because they cultivated it through their own practice, or because someone is lending it to them, meaning they are channelling gong from someone who has it. What this means: Qi Gong actually works if done right, so it produces Gong. Satanism also works, as well as Wicca, either by them actually developing their own gong, or by some actual devil allowing them to use theirs. But why does it work, and why doesn't other esoteric practices or religion lead to having it? My opinion is quite simply that most religions are badly practiced, people aren't following their principles, so it doesn't work, or the religions are just fake. Satanism on the other hand is pretty straight forward, people who follow it aren't fake, they don't lie about what they believe in, and if they were to do so, that would be exactly what Satanism is, right? He's the deceiver. Same with witches, they do things which in the past would have given them the death penalty and burning at the stake or hanged, but today they can freely do it, and the practice hasn't changed much, it worked in the past but was heavily suppressed so mainstream tards never got into it and it was never perverted, it remained esoteric. Because the only thing which changed was external to their practice, what they do still works, and it's easier for people to practice these things today than in the past, so more of them are visible. That's what I think.

>>13724 I don't think that's actually a parasite, and the reason is that I think the yellow sigil on your forehead is some version of the golden sphere which separates you dimensionally from everything around you, making parasites unable to enter you. I think you subconsciously created one after reading my posts about it, because it's pretty easy to do so by just syncing with my energy which would be on te posts, if someone just has some energy of their own, which after all you do. Or someone helped you create it by interacting with your subconscious or a tulpa.

>>13726 I didn't want one of those golden spheres though; I want there to be other actual people and non-hostile spirits in my reality. I suppose the thing about a golden sphere was just an assumption you'd made and not an actual reading you'd performed or something a spirit had told you.

>>13725 I wish you guys would get rid of that notion that energy work “generates Gong”. That is something blood anon, aka succubus collective anon made up and has absolutely no basis in reality. Qi Gong ultimately cultivates awareness as a prerequisite for immortality by promoting conscious involvement in bodily functions through intention. That last sentence contains the terms Qi and Shen, but since the terminology has been trampled on so much as to become useless, I’d rather spell it out. Blood anon psyoped a whole generation of /fringe/ and his vampire threads should have been deleted immediately judging by the damage his bullshit has done to the development of so many of you.

>>13733 The Falun Gong thread is right here >>7219 maybe if you read it and check the sources, you can learn something about why it's called Qi Gong. Hint: it has something to do with Gong.

>>13728 No, I didn't do a reading, because the sigil had some strong energy emanating from it, and I didn't want anything mixed into my own things, so I closed it the moment I saw that. It wasn't bad, I just wasn't interested in seeing what it was. Also >>13718 I had an interesting dream experience last night where I was growing a plant in a pot, and then I was to take it outside and put it into a bigger plot, then suddenly the plant's stem started pulsating like a blood vessel. I was then in the middle room of the house, when suddenly the plant grew and became thick, it was now only the stem, and it started glowing with strong green light. Then it came lose from the pot and jumped away in the form of some kind of tentacle being and quickly crawled under the closet in the room. I then wondered what just happened, when the African healer goddess Aja appeared on my right and said it was my developed brain stem I saw.

>>13737 There was also another notable experience, I had many dreams this night, but most were not clear enough to retell, I'll mention this though. It was about the north pole being artificial, and I saw a ship which was 1800s standard or earlier in the sea outside a colony to the far north, the ship was called North Star or similar. The colony had all these modern art looking shields placed in the ground in the manner of a solar energy park, but they looked like large upside shields of the type used by medieval nights, with the narrow part upwards. These effected the wind and the seasons on the entire planet, and the North Star ship created the magnetic north pole, so that people would navigate according to its position. The sun would otherwise be used to navigate, but with this artificial system people would be detached from the sun, which was intentional. It was unclear why someone would want it this way. There was also a device which looked like a shower head with a net on the faucet, in the manner of a regular water tap, but it was a shower head. It was an energy weapon or device which was controlling events in Israel.

>>13640 >This morning I touched a water tap and suddenly something seemed to have stung my right hand ring finger tip, which was bleeding. Looking closer there were three pieces of metal stuck under the nail, which had to be removed with forceps. At first thought it would have been chrome coming off the old tap, but looking at it, though the chrome surface was worn off, I didn't see any place where it was sticking out in flakes like that. >By past experiences, things getting ejected from the body will appear to do so in ways that match common logic based on the consensus reality, where coughing something up would seem to be happening in relation to eating or brushing teeth, but it's clear that the thing removed was something organic actually being ejected from the body's physical form, like the physical structure of a harmful thought pattern. >There is also a correspondence between the finger tips and the sefirot, and my understanding that karma is mineral in nature. So the things being removed in the form of bones yesterday may have manifested as some kind of metal being ejected from the fingertip. Wait. This thing happened a few days ago. Is this somehow linked to this water tap thing.

>>13740 Three metal pieces, I felt like I knew this or thought this but didn't spell it out, sounds like it would relate to the three kelipah which must be destroyed, compared with the kelipah nogah, which should be transformed.

>>13733 >Blood anon psyoped a whole generation of /fringe/ and his vampire threads should have been deleted immediately judging by the damage his bullshit has done to the development of so many of you. Can't believe this evil Blood Anon guy psyoped this poor little cult of the Mewch poster! Hope this silly Blood Anon will take responsibility for his evil wrongdoings once he comes back to /fringe/! Shame he is not here anymore to see what level of damage he caused for these poor little hapless neophytes like Cult of the Mewch flag poster Good thing this fringe is certainly bereft of Blood Anon's influence because it has no succubus collective nor vampire threads either! Because that Blood Anon was such a silly willy who could only make Vampire and Succubus collective threads. He certainly didn't make different threads back then, therefore he wouldn't even try making other type of threads here either!

I just had an idea for a new Anon: ミAnon or MIAnon, short for Missing-In-Action Anon, a poster who starts writing replies to threads, but he always goes missing in action and never presses Post, so we never see his posts. What mysterious input would he have given our exchanges if he ever got to actually finish his posts? We will never know! Here comes the fun part; he will still be part of discussions without ever posting anything. Other posters can add to their posts "What would MIAnon have said...?" or >T. MIAnon when someone sounds like something he could have posted, if he ever had pressed Post. This way we get a new non-intrusive poster who is democratically created by the community. You don't like what MIAnon was about to say? Just suggest something else. No one can say that you are wrong, because he never posts! Over time, newfigs will just accept that MIAnon is that guy who never posts, and he will have become real!

>>13753 I am trying to create effort post Anon and meaningful contribution Anon for almost 3 years already. Other types of Anons will have to wait until they appear.

What about Anons that check my dubs? I feel that we don't have enough Anons that CHECK'EM

>>13754 >effort post Anon and meaningful contribution Anon Literally me if I had ever posted.

>>13756 Banana poster is trying to help at least. Once this outer layer of atheism is peeled off him, he might become a great poster or he goes insane like half the people here with a semblance of potential because they don't bother taking their practice seriously AlsoMIAnon would write long rage replies for Blood Anon and to anyone using similar terms like him because Blood Anon didn't turn him into a powerful vampire. This Blood Anon guy caused a lot of hurt feelings that he would certainly address if he was here. I am sure of it

>>13758 I'm not so sure. I think MIAnon went missing already in Fringechan 2.0 days, he wasn't even here for the threads.

>>13759 He used to post on /nose/ on the original 8ch before it was deplatformed, but he was notorious for derailing threads, it was somewhat of a meme >khazar milkers like what do you think the board is about? Later from what I recall - before he really went MIA for real he used to derail /nose/ threads on julay.world as well.

>>13752 Such is the nature of anonymous imageboards. He's not evil, nor a "silly willy". I don't have anything against him personally, and I actually know for a fact he made pretty cool threads about immortality and the nature of magic before the whole vampire thing took off. The problem is the string of bullshit that led to /sunflower/ and the various psychotic behavior it spawned, not the poster himself. >>13736 The meaning of Gong in Falun Gong is still the same: "work" or "cultivation". Falun Gong emphasizes virtues of different kinds, but in reality there is no "gong" substance. In Falung Gong, Chapter I (section Qi and Gong), it says >More simply put, gong is energy. Gong has physical characteristics, and practitioners can experience and perceive its objective existence through cultivation. But this has no support by the classical texts whatsoever. This is one of the things that make Falun Gong phony as fuck, but I really don't want to get into an argument as to whether it's a valid practice or not. I'm sure it has its merits, and I hope you use to great benefit. I would just recommend you read other sources before coming into this uninitiated and swallowing the whole thing indiscriminately.

>>13754 I want to be effort post anon. The BO can probably see which threads I've created, and anyone can probably guess by my writing style pretty easily. The problem is I have very low tolerance for the things I consider bullshit. I'm just intransigent. And I regret trying to effort post every time. Now that I think about it, if you actually did throw out a spell for this, it might be latching onto me, and influencing me like a bad love spell, and that's why it feels like a toxic relationship. Have you considered that? You know love spells tend to end badly because of this. I'm not going to turn into a toxic shitposter, but if the love spell backfires it would certainly ramp up the level of antagonism on /fringe/.

>>13765 > recommend you read other sources before coming into this uninitiated and swallowing the whole thing indiscriminately I don't really recommend anyone try to practice FG today, unless they are already very achieved in some kind of esoteric practice, maybe what would be called an Adept on here. FG in its current state is very toxic as a movement. But that doesn't mean the books are bad. I had read Dao De Jing many times and did karate and za zen before, as well as one of the Chinese government verified Qi Gong methods. Falun Gong connected the dots in ways that explained things I had not been able to get explained before, coming from this context. So far I don't know anyone who has explained things with the degree of detail and accuracy as the book Zhuan Falun. Kabbalah is very good also, with the classics studied in the right way being a very effective practice, and I have to admit I don't really use much from FG in terms of actual practice, I created my methods on my own after just learning some basic Wicca and Hatha yoga, which works perfectly with Kabbalah. But the theory collectively called Falun Dafa is still fundamental, there are things described there which are verifiable, which I have verified myself, and which serve as the basis for all other things I do still. It's attributed to finding Zhuan Falun, so I have to give credit where appropriate. I see people make so many mistakes because they lack this theoretical framework, and when I see someone say >it has no support in other texts well no, because those are insufficient. That's why FG had a role to play. And it is very possible to personally experience and verify the claims, this is the only reason I stuck with ti for so long. But I also know many people can't see anything and can't verify anything at all, and they misunderstand things gravely with great danger to themselves as a result. So it may not be so much that Falun Gong is very good, but more that <for me, specifically, FG was very beneficial because of my pre existing abilities and experiences which says nothing of how well this will work for anyone else.

>>13765 >He's not evil, nor a "silly willy". [citation needed] >>13766 checked Lol no. I am not putting on "Love spells" like a retard. I am repowering the energies of this place and those with fond memories towards this board will naturally come back... this was the original idea BUT IN TRUTH THIS IS NOT HOW IT WENT. It turned out some people have only negative attachments to this place and that is why I stopped my "reboot fringe energy project" because it attracted retards and even the best posters turned into incoherent retards. Why? Because the low dormant energetic connections went back online. I forgot that only I cherished this place truly. Most of you came here to shitpost and pick on weak willed retards and flaunt your armchair occultism. I realized I cannot make that harmonize well enough. Not without some Smiley tier hyper keyboard warrior that can argue for days and weeks. And you were here before I started up the energetic reboot. I am definitely not latching it on you. >I have very low tolerance for the things I consider bullshit Yet you wish to eat the crops and fruits that grew from the manure huh. >You know love spells tend to end badly because of this I don't. Never did them. I am the type of person that gets annoyed when people get under my "charm". I want them to appreciate me for the things I do and not because my energetic dominance made them addicted. Fuck having mindshackled slaves. If I want that kind of social entertainment then I will play with my cats. I want to see the mental and spiritual potential of the people I interact with to manifest and shared willingly and not some silly puppets that I drag around the house. >I'm not going to turn into a toxic shitposter Didn't you mention that you started on fringe by being one? If you have such a negative karma with this place then I don't know. Resolve it or something. Let it out your system or something. I really don't need this silly love hate relationship from others. And I am not saying this only to you, but to others too. Others have extremely toxic connection with this place too. I can see it, but not sure what to do with it. >it would certainly ramp up the level of antagonism on /fringe/. You see. The energy overloads that ramped up the antagonism wasn't done by me but the retardation of others. It was fun to watch at first, but became quite annoying fast. Made me lower my energetic investment in this place. Went into a laissez-faire direction... especially once I started to get visions if someone started a shitfling here during the day and I got notification when a new wizard appeared on this board. Like wtf. I didn't want to expand my awareness into this board that much. Truth is. We are past the "antagonism phase" of this board. Now we are slowly heading towards the "true purpose" stage. But for the true purpose stage we need people who truly want to interact with this board and not as some energetic command or other type of obsession. Do what thu will tbh. If you want to stay here then stay here. If you want to educate others then do that. If you want to leave this place and live your life then no one should stop you. But do not think it for a second that others will agree with you all the time. Most people barely have any experience and practice here while others have way too much. They won't be able to sync up with your thinking if you don't interact with them. You should have fun in this place. Once you retain your ability to have fun on fringe again. Your effort posts might become far more effortless to make. Currently you are oozing energies that say: "I made effort post yet no one appreciates nor understands it. Everyone is busy arguing about bullshit. I should leave and do something else instead. Why did I even come here."

>>13765 >The problem is the string of bullshit that led to /sunflower/ That was literally a current of jewish transexual kemono friends /a/ postings which took off during 2018 and fuelled a move onto discord for a chaotic mess of interactions leading to a creative chaos which got things done. Look at the results that were produced instead of at the means or path that lead up to it.

>>13770 He has such a strange image of Blood Anon. He calls sunflower bullshit yet he thinks Blood Anon wasn't a silly willy. Strange mentality. I think people expected too much from Blood Anon and got mad when their internal image of Blood Anon differed from the actual actions. This is why most sages and gurus try to avoid being worshiped. Once a community creates an image which is way too different from the actual person then shit just hits the fan. Silly willies. All of them.

>>13771 You've said "it doesn't matter that they weren't in there", yet the people who were "in there" don't have any problems with anything that happened on either inside or outside. No one talks about /sunflower/ anymore because the project is over since a few years by now. Most people left the server by the second half of 2021 because it was done and finished. That's what makes the discrepancy so impossible to grasp here, as well as the fact that we still at occasions gather for magic workings relating to world events, where we just like, do things. But oftentimes we do things individually, and in ways that seem to work in unison, but were not coordinated, and from an outside view people think it's "BS", or made up. Like when Wagner rebelled, and we all reacted on instinct to block them, only after a few days and some talking was it revealed that the collective work was what stopped them. Similar things happened later, where I had an idea for how to handle things, then my friend just goes and kills Navalny with a hex, which wasn't really necessary, and I'm pretty sure Putin had intended to use him for a prisoner exchange, but that's how these things go. When I heard the news I instantly thought who would have done this, and it was correct. But saying this to anyone else, then it's "BS, armchairism" and whatever, and this coming from people who consider themselves having skills and knowing what is possible etc. That's why they can't be on the inside to begin with, they just can't rationally estimate what can be done with magic, recognize what is the result of magic, or remain rational before the possibilities. It's never been a matter of belief for me, because I don't believe in things by nature. I'm a narrowminded skeptic who never stopped believing in science, never really discarded darwinism either, but at times when I need to project my will, I have to ignore things like that to get things done. Magic doesn't follow science or darwinism or atheism, so I enter my magical mindset where it doesn't matter if I don't believe in it, and I just do it anyway. Then I go back to being narrowminded and not believing in anything, but I do know what I did, and see the results, which are then possible to scientifically verify using statistics, recorded in logs and evaluated. Same thing as how westcucks are so impressed by "combined arms warfare" and modern equipment, but it takes a war nerd slav on youtube to point out, by analysing detailed battle developments from Ukraine to point out that Russia is still applying war science of the German school, which was picked up by the Soviet Union during the time when they were allied. The view that everything can be measured, calculated, explained with science, down to small details or troop movements treated in the manner of modern soccer tactics on the ground, and this works. But we're not meant to realize this, "sacrifices" and "modern technology" is the way, because that's what capitalists can sell you, they can't sell you war manuals from the 1800s and make big money that way, so you're allowed to understand what really matters here.

>>13772 *not allowed