>>570049
If she ever seeks you out
with special intent to contact you specifically, your feelings are justified and you can maintain them in pursuit of her (discreetly).
If not, however--if she shows no sign of remembering you exist as an individual--then you're merely on the path to becoming the very parasocially infatuated fan every female streamer, including this one, fears. In that case, you should dispel those feelings and simply enjoy her videos as the nondescript audience member you are to her. Don't disgrace yourself by giving her more than she gives you; she will only contemn your high regard of her as a potentially dangerous nuisance.
If you cannot dispel those feelings, walk away. You'll lose nothing and--believe me--she'll be none the wiser. You have to be honest with yourself about all this, and remember that feelings don't mean much in the grand scheme of reality.