SAGE in all fields. I am renouncing lust because it's impacting the health of my parents because everyone knows about my unhealthy habits and it's effecting every aspect of my life.. I can't hold a job, I've never been able to afford a studio apartment and insurance ect. I have a bad habit and it's not going away because I'm mentally ill and it feels like everyone wants me to be mentally ill but that's still no excuse for hurting myself. Fuck porn, jewesses aren't even that pretty. Holy crap, max file size is huge. Have my biggest saved image.

>>105 Here and back again. "It hurts to be alone" by the Wailing Wailers.

>>117 Bad habits are hard to break.

>>118 Besides keeping an eye on my mom and dad, I don't know what I'm doing with my life because all roads lead to "whatever, nevermind"!

>>119 This board is lonely so here's my schizo posting on celibacy. I've been cutting back on soda and fried goods; I've been getting out and about for an hour a day. My skin is soft and I feel happier. For some reason I turn to porn when I feel alone (as in alone with my thoughts.) Some guys turn to alcohol or smoking tobacco in moments like this; others read a book. I need to not turn to dopemine firing porn because my mind looks at these women and I know most of them are dead eyed or unhappy with themselves. Life is strange and I don't want to associate myself with the ghosts of these vampires. I should start going back to the library to express myself on paper like I did for those good years. Enjoy my schizo-posting please. I think journaling is helping.

>>120 I went for a five hour walk today and play a 1979 BC RICH mockingbird bass. Live is grand.

>>121 stayed in bed too long and ended up thinking lusty thoughts with morningwood. I was up at five am and went back to bed for no good reason beside comfort and now I have payed. No bueno. I can only blame myself.

>>122 >>122 I'm extremely sensitive to the things people say to me. If I am scolded for doing something wrong, I will dwell in that feeling. Or is it that getting cursed at is too much for the wrong doing? Schizo posting to the max, yo!

>>123 Went for a 4 1/2 hour walk to pick up my dad's Christmas gift and I'm having Chinese food for dinner. Ain't complaining. I still have self image issues but like knowing I eat a well balanced diet. I ain't hurting as much as I was a few months back so things are good. I thought about looking at le boobies today. Really have to turn to the bible. I thought about reading the KJV a few times today. I need to help myself. Read a book. I was also kinda on the fence about wanting pot today. I miss smoking but my life ain't going to revolve around it. Well... That would be cool. I hope I find a lady friend that smokes and knows how to put up with my sporadic negativity. My sporadic negativity is an issue...

>>125 Usual blips of lusting for the female form today. Made white man's curry and am in love. Going to wait an hourish to go for a walk. All in all a good easy day. Going to the optometrist tomorrow. Read a little american history and playing vidaya games. I should not fuck this up today

>>126 More blips of lust. I can't revert to looking a le boobas.

>>120 >This board is lonely The whole internet is lonely now. I wish I took this stuff as seriously as I do now, when I discovered /fringe/ 10 years ago. Youth is wasted on the young. >>126 >Made white man-curry Sounds like you relapsed

>>129 >Youth is wasted on the young That's the whole point. >>126 >white man's curry Share recipe.

Nice to see other people on this alternate reality 8kun fringe. I'm updating daily on my battles with lusty thoughts of le booba. Today when I felt mildly stressed I felt urges. Worst part is that I was stressed for only a moment while playing a video game I liked. My mind is still wired to the extreme dopamine release I get from le online boobas I liked to look at. I renounce being a normie God dammit! >>129 Dude, the best advice I have is that keeping a dream journal will encourage dreams. Talking about lucid dreams was always my favorite part of fringe. >>131 Poor white-man curry 2 cans of coconut milk (no preservatives) 1 can of water chestnuts 3lbs of chicken Red curry paste to taste (I have lame curry paste [hence calling it white man's curry] so 5 tablespoons) 1 1/2 tspns cheyanne pepper 1 stalk of celery 2 pounds of carrots 2 1/2 large stalks of broccoli 3 large zucchini 1 1/2 cups of bean sprouts 1/4 cup of chopped onion Served on top of Jasmine Rice ------------------------------- ^^ This recipe is very good with dried shiitake mushrooms as well.

>>134 Fucked up. Was anxious a few times today and fucked up. I'm a wreck. This is no bueno.

>>134 >Dude, the best advice I have is that keeping a dream journal will encourage dreams. Talking about lucid dreams was always my favorite part of fringe. I'd been keeping one pretty consistently until recently, when my notebook filled up. Since then I've just been recording my voice, which is far more convenient, although since storage and navigation of the recordings will almost certainly become a problem I'll have to return to writing at some point. Last night I unintentionally AP'd again. Entering my bedroom in almost complete darkness when I noticed the familiar sensation of lacking a body. What made this experience unique was the person sitting in a table chair right next to my bed, with one of his legs crossed. I struggled to identify this strange yet nonthreatening figure, first assuming it to be my Dad until I realized it was actually myself. In my history of APing I used to be deathly afraid of seeing my own reflection for whatever reason, which I overcame by staring into or embracing it at every opportunity. So, in this instance I simply leaned forward and down into it, which felt like smoothly and seamlessly slipping into a black void in which I maintained the same lucidity. Then, after a moment I just willed myself awake because black voids are still unpleasant to me, although it's got to be a perfect hub for manifesting or exploring new places.

>>134 >Poor white-man curry Very nice. Thanks. >>135 >Fucked up. Was anxious a few times today and fucked up. I'm a wreck. This is no bueno. If you learn to move energy within your body, and are used to John Kreiter's energy re-absorption techniques, know that you can use this to your advantage. As far as I've been able to tell, the hornies is misplaced energy within your body. Usually around the groin area. Move it up your spine and turn it back to the front roughly at the level of the shoulders or the heart, and back down to the abdomen, where you store it. I've managed to revert raging erections this way, something I previously thought was the point of no return. It also seems to avoid the horniness from coming back (something you will have noticed fails if you simply re-absorb the energy) as long as you remove the stimulus. Speaking of re-absorbing energy, I feel that I get hornier after absorbing energy, as if something wanted me to waste my newly acquired buffer or I had associated having energy with wasting it.

>>137 >>136 I appreciate the replies guys. I hope you guys enjoy your lives. Peace

Some days I feel like the ultra-mundane. I'm in a state of feeling uneasy in my parents home. I don't want to express myself in words around them because I don't want them to judge me for anything that's down or anything of the sexual nature. Life is fucking dumb when wageslaving. Heed my warning, never break the rules of society or the rulers of the hemisphere will fuck you.

>>149 One time I had a guy encourage me to make a band of "Wastoids". I guess that's because no one else wants to be my friend. I'm in a pissy mood because someone implied that I look like the kind of guy that might buy crack yesterday. At least I'm looking forward to Christmas ham. I hope I get to cook the ham bone down with some pinto beans because I've been craving that for a year an a half.

>>138 By the way, continuing on the topic of moving energy. It turns out you can "defuse" your libido completely with energy work. I don't recommend experimenting with this stuff, because I'm probably fucking myself up irreversibly in other areas, but anyway. At first I thought I was playing make believe, but I learnt to "disperse" the energy around my groin area, and I noticed I would not get horny for days. Perhaps I would feel like fapping, out of boredom, but then I started watching porn and I couldn't finish. I'd go limp half-way and lose interest. I got a bit worried thinking I might have become impotent for some reason, but then I remembered the energy work and I did the opposite, bringing in energy to the area and charging it up. Then I became super horny for two weeks and came until I couldn't even pee. I did the swap a few more times and now I'm convinced the effect is real. Or perhaps it's a very strong placebo. But the thing is, it works. I've gone weeks without even wanting to fap. Watching girls on chaturbate out of boredom for hours sometimes (it's strangely addicting even if you don't fap to it). Sending subliminal energy suggestions to them like that 11faustia11 guy on YouTube did with the hamsters. Anyway, I'm not sure of the side-effects this kind of thing might have, though. And I can't really explain how to do it because it's a very kinesthetic thing, like all energy work. But I thought you might want to hear the anecdote.

>>151 You're far out man. I appreciate the anecdote. INCOMING TOO MUCH INFORMATION I used to want to fap as soon as I was awake with morningwood but thats subsided. I just turn to pretty girls as a form of escaping reality. I don't feel comfortable at home, sitting at the library or my therapists office so I try to escape reality. Shit sucks, I don't know where to go all day and escape NEET life.

>>151 I find energy work and most forms of mediation to be extremely private and I don't have that privacy. So I pine.. I don't think energy work matters as much as getting out there and showing your face to the "bastards" and being kind to people. I think energy work is more important in the long run and I've never considered that path of living a long a fruitful life. It never seemed possible so I settled for private religious experience and walking meditation. I hate to say it but I think the yippies were right about always having a tune in one's mind for resistance of the mundane's path.

>>153 I don't know how I could have been depressed at all today. My mom talks to herself a lot and I find it offputting but besides that life was excellent today. I need to enjoy being with my family before it's too late. I'm very lucky to have spent this many years with my mom and dad.

Do not approach approach this as some sort of "retention". There is nothing to retain. You need to KILL your sexual libido completely. Your demiurgic vessel is designed to kill you one cumshot at a time the same way it kills women one menstruation cycle at a time. Compared to them, we have it relatively easy. Sex is inherently EVIL and ANTI-HUMAN. Yes, you read that right. Nothing farther from the puritanical parody of the wisdom that has remained in a distorted form in many Churches of contemporary religions. Sexual functions are the primary mechanism through which your spirit is enslaved to this realm and bound to manifest its horrors and wonders alike. Inflame yourself in the realization that between your legs there is a YOKE. CUT OFF YOUR DICK IF NECESSARY. If only we were all brave enough to do that. Deprive that demon that the Demiurge grafted onto your crotch any other way you dare. Learn to manipulate energy, and etherically castrate yourself so that arousal is IMPOSSIBLE. Learn self-hypnosis and tie sexual arousal to the most VILE AND GRUESOME associations, for it is where it belongs. DO NOT bury it in your shadow, though, for that way you will only succeed in creating fetishes and perversions. Display it prominently in the light of the Sun of your conscious mind: AROUSAL IS THE HISS OF THE PREDATOR ENCROACHING TO EAT YOU ALIVE. Despise it. Righteously destroy it. Mundane culture, in its constant strive to invert every value and confuse perennial wisdom, has planted the perverse seed in your subconscious that says that sex is something to "express in a healthy manner". Even as you read these words, you feel the tug of that suggestion. It is a LIE. There is nothing to "resist". You only struggle to "resist" because at some level you are conflicted. You believe that is something you should be doing, something you shouldn't go without. "That's unhealthy, right?" If you have been on the path long enough, you know almost everything you ever believed to be one way turned out to be bafflingly inverted in an impossible conspiracy spanning all of human history and society. Well, the pill of true renunciation might be the toughest pill to swallow on that path. You are not addicted. You are HYPNOTIZED. Wake up.

>>163 Hello, I was a porn addict and nowadays i continue to think a lot about sex. It destroyed my life. How do i stop that or at least revert the effects of porn?

>>197 Try reading this, I've heard it can help: https://read.easypeasymethod.org/easypeasy.pdf

>>197 This might be too advanced for what you're asking, but after a lot of searching I have not found anything less. Trauma traps our awareness, or energy, or consciousness fragments, within that experience. This is probably nothing new for most people reading this. Soul recovery or soul rescue is the process by which these fragments are reintegrated. John Kreiter's techniques, shadow work, etc., deal with this. But why is it that certain things call us to them so irresistibly? Sometimes to our detriment? Reading Self Clearing by The Pilot the answer came to me. Everything, from fetishes, to sex, to love, is a form of "trauma" for our spirit. The notion and need of having a body, of having gender, of existing in matter... Those are all energetic conditioning that our spirit acquired at some point in its journey. Sex calls to us because a fragment of our being is trapped behind the moment that we became sexed beings. Most people would not consider that a trauma, strictly speaking, but the mechanism is the same nonetheless. It's a distortion we picked up, and energy, like everything in nature, tends and strives towards equalization. The same can be said about love (agape). The natural state of consciousness is undifferentiated agape. The moment consciousness crosses a singularity into a reality of independent units, those units acquire a "trauma" and yearn forevermore to recover that which they left behind. That's why we "like" and "desire" love in all its distortions. tldr if something attracts you in a disproportionate and damaging way, you might have a very heavy energetic charge related to it. You need to clear it. Do not fixate on "beating" porn. Focus on becoming whole or whole-er.

>>197 >>210 In other words, you need to fix your relationship to porn. You need to fix it so that porn is not something you need to resist, because as long as you are resisting it, you will never be free of it. You need to recover a neutral state. Charged poles attract each other. Think about how a rape victim might become a self-destructing whore or a completely repressed prude. The charge they acquired the last time they related to rape stayed with them and exerts that attractive force, which they can surrender to (first case) or be forced to resist forever (second case). Only through integration can they be free.

>>210 Would you provide a free link to one of John Kreiter's relevant works, or at least something about Soul Recovery?

>>212 No. I won’t do you the disservice of spoon feeding you. Get your shit together.

>>210 >>211 Well said >This is probably nothing new for most people reading this True but it's always good to repeat truth via different words. It just signals to others that they are not alone with these truths and makes them aware that this is something well known for others too who walk the path. Tho I never read Kreiter's books because I figured these out while working on my energy body. It was weird learning that my fetishes were about the desire to retain different types of energy work techniques and not exactly about the desire to wallow in filth like most fetishes make people behave >>213 While what he said was mean >>212 You need to learn to put effort into fixing yourself because getting spoonfed has a side effect that you will just save the book and not read it then move on with your life. Books are not the answer but working yourself is and even if you read a book you might not get it until enough energy builds up for an 'Eureka moment'. You will need to understand the desire to work on yourself and the desire to improve... the desire of understanding what it means to be >becoming whole or whole-er. And if your element (Akasha) is not working then use libgen soulseek or different search engines jeez. It's important to learn to develop other internet skills besides looking at porn.

Back to square one. I keep hurting myself. I don't have any major stressors and my only goal is to be healthier in my living. I don't want to fuck up again.

>>378 I thinkI should point out in this thread an often overlooked but crucial part of this. Otherwise, at best, the energy you retain will just stagnate. Learn to move energy effectively, and as soon as you have an erection, move the energy up your central channel. When you reach the top of your chest, move it over to your front and down into your dan tian. If you do this correctly, your erection will go away and your penis will “retract”, as the Chinese put it. You should be able to get an erection back right as soon as you stop, and repeat the operation over and over. You will notice that it gets more difficult as you go on, until all the lust is gone. Never use porn, and never ejaculate to a fantasy. As soon as you have an erection, your attention should be 100% focused on moving the energy. And you should keep summoning your erection back until you have relocated enough energy that it won’t come back to bother you anymore. Don’t let the energy go up to your head and of course don’t ejaculate. Although it is very easy to mess up at first. Read Robert Bruce’s new energy ways and Barber’s Visceral Experience.

>>969 bumpin cuz it needs bumpin. Fapalumpagus

>>969 Besides using these explicit energy moving techniques, one should be careful not to become stagnant in a more general sense. Not exercising, no social contact, and no danger, fulfilling aspirations or adventure will cause stagnation as well, and combined with no ejaculation or experiencing orgasms can get really bad. It can cause physical and psychological issues. This is another way of saying that energy that cannot be stores safey should be used productively. You know you’re doing so when you fill satisfaction. Nostalgia, irritability, frustration or feelings of despair are sure signs that you are not doing it right.

I think I figured out the "full body orgasm without cooming" that Mantak Chia talks about. Unfortunately I still lost some seed because my schlong touched my inner thighs when I was writhing around. However I could feel that I still retained much more than if I coomed the regular way. Then I did the same thing a few more times without losing any of the remaining seed. This experience showed me first-hand how sexual energy actually discharges in the body. Now I understand why women act hysterical, because they don't have a "wand" to direct the sexual energy.

This dude made a full blown personal blog over the past two years on 8kun/fringe. Just look in the catalog for top threads. Porn is godlike until cooming.

>>2347 That's not me and I doubt that guy has the self-control to do such a thing.

Dead air. This should be the main purpose of every man on earth. Coomers that stop busting nuts observe the change in their behavior. How they start chasing trash pussy just so they'll release. It's better to be a coomer that repented than a normie. Then you know. Everything is clear in front of you. You are hijacked by your hormones. You are not free until you are strong enough to say no to your monkey mind.

>>2752 I fap twice or thrice a week (not to porn), and think about sex exactly the amount of minutes it takes me to do it. I don't even see women as potential partners anymore. I just give my body what it is programmed to need, and that's it. I eat well. I exercise. I meditate. My magic is strong. My visions are strong. My mediumship is strong. My astral projection is strong.

>>131 >That's the whole point. Don't you hate it? Spending some sixty plus years having such regrets while stuck in decaying bodies? Tell me it's not a curse!

>>2801 Blindly doing it right when young is the ultimate test. That's where your true potential is exposed, only that you can't see it until later. You won't get a second chance at it, being reborn you again start with no memories, same game still.

>>2801 >>2802 Wonder what it means to live "right" in your youth. If I awakened my potential earlier I would have ended up either in the psych ward or in prison from the madness it made me go through... There is a reason why the Kabbalah is only meant to be studied when you are older. When the flame or recklessness of youth and the expectations of society is not distracting you from truly understanding what you are meant to do. When people talk about "wasting their youth" they either mean they indulged in constant hedonism and went nowhere or that they did the opposite studied and worked hard and didn't have a chance to "enjoy their youth". Had to realize current society hard wired people to deny what their genetics requires them to do and breaking those societal norms to "truly live" is not as easy as it sounds. And let's not talk about the necessities the soul and spirit requires to blossom it's potential. It's a maze of mirrors and illusions and once you get branded as a schizo or mentally ill in any way in your youth it's real hard treadmill to get out of it. Society does their best to ruin you then declares how it "saved you". Very few have chance to earn the luck to do things right from the get go. And when that happens then it's "meant to be". I read somewhere how being born a genius and having the chance to capitalize on it is a rare gift. It said how lucky Mozart was to not just being born a musical genius but having the upbringing too that allowed him to blossom it well. Then he died young and ended up in a mass grave... Jesus also died when he was 33 years old so did Alexander the Great. What it means to "waste" your youth I wonder. Youth is just a short period of life if you live it well. Age is just a number it didn't exist before the invention of calendars. Your true energies shouldn't depend on them too much. Shame there are no proper coming of age rituals nowadays. We just have the <your 18-21 now son you can do cigs booze and porn legally An absolute bummer. At least people stopped annoying me how they know everything better than me because they are older. Most annoying shit I had to put up with in my first 25 years. Had to realize that my suspicion was right. No one truly knew shit they just hid behind their "authority" that their age gave them. Old people and people in their prime shape and rule the world. It is always a sign of societal collapse when they blame the young for everything. It just shows how they have no idea how things work at all. They never grew up they just got older. Maturity and wisdom doesn't come with age alone. But try to be mature and wise as a child. The world will laugh at you for not being like the "other kids". And let's not talk about how the energies of the other side take a toll on still developing bodies. Young psychics have weird ailments constantly for a reason. If you are not under a tutelage of a true master you will suffer a lot in the sea of mundanity until you have a proper hold upon your power. I had to witness the traumas of my childhood that put limiters and shackles on my psyche to keep me safe from al the energies I was subjected to as the glimpses of awakening appeared. We cannot comprehend the retardation and the brainwashing we are going through in the first 20-40 years of our life just by "being normal" until awakening. Awakening is a natural process and it's ridiculous how much we sabotage it without realizing.

>>2804 I'm well aware you're not traditionally allowed to study kabbalah unless you are a 40+ year old man or yoga until you are 12. These things have reasons for them in terms of life experiences caused by merely aging and the body growing. Jesus was said to be a genius in his single digit age already, supposedly knowing the contents of scriptures only old people would have normally read. Those who make rocket launch careers and start as the head of a major business at 22 had similar progress, sold their first shoes when they were 5, invested in crypto at 11 and so on. These things come with your inborn fate and you can't "gain" them from any life advice given by others. Good sportsmen in olympic sports need a smooth progress from a very early age and they may peak in their late teens. The would not be able to control their environment at that age. "Wasted" youth would be to have some smaller but still real "blessing" like this and not making use of it. Some people are "found", some are not, but may still have a talent which they could harness if they started very early.

>>2804 >If I awakened my potential earlier I would have ended up either in the psych ward or in prison from the madness it made me go through... It turns out real potential is strong enough that they can't do that to you, however.

When I was ~8 my grandma told me >at Easter if you go outside you can see the sun jump this from what I've read later comes from some creative mistranslation of a bible passage (or not?), but I went outside, stared at the sun and it jumped. I went back inside and told her I saw it happen. No one listened to me. (Yes, this was back when you could actually look directly at the sun for several seconds and not get blinded by it, like they say on /x/. It's strange to imagine today, when it's impossible to even look in its general direction. The sun when I was little, was a round, orange/yellow quite murky glowing disc, its sharp round edges fully visible to the naked eye.) How would I, at that age have known, with the scientific frame of reference, what this really signified?

>>2807 >The sun when I was little, was a round, orange/yellow quite murky glowing disc, its sharp round edges fully visible to the naked eye. I'm curious, since I've heard others say the same thing. What's the cause of this phenomenon?

>>2807 >>2808 I figured out that the eyes have a "setting" that allows it for sungazing. It's not exactly the eyes itself but how the eye meridians operate. If you make the meridians take in the energies above and below the eye it's good if you make them go through/pierce the center of your iris then it burns it out. Practiced sungazing in my early psychic years but got bored of it then some years ago I had to sit down under a tree and gaze at the sun for hours to ground myself. Some weird energetic structure was breaking apart around me and tried to gaslight me that the world is "Breaking apart". After that I noticed the 8 layers of the sun and how it is a different but the same object on many layers at once and how we connect to it. >>2806 >turns out real potential is strong enough that they can't do that to you Jesus went on the cross by his "Own will". It's not always "they" that make you do it. Sometimes the potential brings you to places where they can blossom the best. Control and Fate gains a new definition. The gravity that held your life together changes and new things will gravitate towards you or maybe you are gravitating towards it? Who knows what karma grants to those that interact with it.

>>2807 That’s interesting. I believe you. But when I was little (30+ years ago) I remember vividly that I dared myself look at it for one full second, and it was as difficult as it is today.

>>2808 >What's the cause of this phenomenon? The boring (and contradictive, when it comes from modern "science" as always) is that the air in the 90s was filled with particles from heavy industry burning coal, old cars etc, which created a screen that filtered away the harmful light of the sun (and also reduced global warming, another way to tell "climate science" is bunk). After new environmental legislation was imposed, factories installed "end of pipe" filtering, car engines burn their fuel better which leaves less particles in their emission, and electric cars are increasing in number. This has caused the air to clear of all smog, which is making the sun much brighter than it was since the entire industrial revolution began some 200 years ago. This is the real cause of global warming, the smog particle screen that blocked the sun has been removed. It will only get worse the more clean energy is being pushed. But whatever. I have my own understanding of what lies behind it, and it's currently too esoteric even for Fringe.

>>2810 >>2811 During last winter I was doing ritual magic sessions out in the forest at night at a 4 road crossing at repeated occasions. After one of these, when I got back home I noticed my physical perception of light had changed. A strong light bulb in my room which I wasn't able to look at directly before, was now easy to look at, it wasn't blinding. The effect on the sun the next day was the same. It's still blinding, but I can now look briefly at it and see its round shape, where earlier in the past few years (when it has gotten increasingly worse, just like /x/ says) I wasn't able to look anywhere near the sun. It used to be a strong "mess" of light coming at me so strongly I would feel blinded looking within 45 degrees of its location in the sky. Not so anymore. I don't know what caused this, but it feels like all light sources appear "contained" to me after this one session.

>>2814 If that's any hint, I was working with the bible and kabbalah at the time.

Jannies, purge this thread. Clearly, people don't have an interest in renouncing lust since they're talking about the sun fucking jumping. The absolute state of /fringe

I RENOUNCE MY LUST FOR THE NEXT 10 MINUTES. I SWEAR ON MY FRINGE I WILL NOT WANK TO THE HOTTEST PORN ON THE INTERWEBZ NOR WILL I ENTER COOMBAIT THREADS NOR WILL I OPEN THAT FISHY LINK THAT WAS POSTED NOR WILL I LOOK UP SOURCE FOR THAT DEFINITELY PORN CROPPED IMAGE. I SWEAR I WILL NOT TOUCH ME PEEPEE FOR THE NEXT 10 MINUTES >>3452 Happy now faggot? Hope you are elated of the fact how unmolested my crotch will be in the next 10 minutes and how everyone is aware of it now in this thread now. Bet you dream of untouched penises at night.

>>3462 phew. Challenge completed. >>3452 Forgot to mention this to you my flagless complainomancer friend that YOU ALSO FORGOT TO RENOUNCE YOUR LUST IN THE RENOUNCE YOUR LUST THREAD. Maybe we should make a renouncing pointless complaining on fringe thread and create tutorials for effortpost maxing. Now excuse me but I have some astral acrobatics I am scheduled with my astral wives and astral wife accessories. They are very educational acrobatic movements about the nature of existence but sadly they involve my crotch and my crotch accessories so I will have to delay my next renouncing of energies that the non initiated would consider as lust

Aw fuck yesterday's astral acrobatics went too well. I am in a constant state of full body orgasm and I will have to use it to deepen the relaxed state of my body to remove knots and karmic blocks. Wanted to write a longpost how making a "Pledge" creates a dualistic thinking that makes you even more obsessed with sexuality and ever since nofappers and MGTOWers became a thing I consider it way too lame to announce how you are not going to touch your peepee but man... I cannot force myself to indulge in such a low energy posting now. I can feel my insides melting in a good way.

>>3607 is this really what kohlchan users think is attractive?

I will pledge the next 3 minutes! >>3607 >>3640 Guys you have to mention how you are not touching your penis for an extended amount of time or some flagless retard will complain that he cannot indulge in his chastity fetish while visiting this thread.

>>3607 >>3640 >kohlchan users No, this is Bing's representation of a loli succubus. KC users have a variety of preferences, non of which is AI generated. >>3643 >not touching your penis This is the "renouncing lust" thread right? I gave up lust long ago, I only do this for tantra.

>>3640 The window where >KC finds it attractive >I find it attractive >it can be posted here is very narrow, but let me try. Renounce this.

>>3646 Those are pixels on the screen, giving into that is only going to hurt you, and sank any chances you might have with real thing, so yeah i would renounce this if they were right here right now though...

>>3643 You’re being rather passive-aggressive. I have a problem with that too, but I’ve been working on it. Also, I pledge until the end of tomorrow to not go to an XXX site on a computer or phone, provided that I remain alive in this body for that long, anyway. I’ll probably go far longer than that, but I have this issue with making promises since they tend to put alotta stress on me, so often I’ll just say “I don’t even have to promise to do it”, and then it’s easier than if I actually promise since it ain’t binding. Also some recent times when I have made promises, pressure made me break them. I think I’ve had this issue since the 3rd or 4th grade maybe.

>>3669 >You’re being rather passive-aggressive It's part of the process of reviving fringe. The main energies of fringe was lethargy and passivity then slowly it came to life but the old energies are still inactive. While the stagnant energy is slowly evolving into proper energies that slowly turn into creative informal and effort posting activities the looming negativity is still here. You can call those energies "rage and ridicule". They are better than lethargy and stagnation but they are not productive either. Sadly you cannot always overwrite a negative energy with a positive energy but only with energies with similar vibration. These flagless complainers act upon those stagnating energies as they try to make a "comeback" but they cannot use it for anything productive besides complaining. It's annoying but if the energies don't have enough momentum you cannot expect wonders from them. For them to evolve they require positive interaction but in some cases they might appear rather harsh or stupid. >but I’ve been working on it. Good to hear! >but I have this issue with making promises since they tend to put alotta stress on me Everyone has that. When you do that you start "arm wrestling with yourself" it just creates tension. Tension has value ofc but you need to know how to relax too. >when I have made promises, pressure made me break them When I make a promise I am too hard on myself and I had to learn to relax and not torture myself towards "meaningless goals". There were energetic activations on my path that required me to release stagnating energies but that doesn't mean wasting energies is beneficial. Nofapping for nofap's sake is meaningless and harmful. You will have to realize what you are striving towards while doing it. Making these pledges has 1 benefit tho. Training willpower. If you always break your promises it means you cultivated a force of "anti-willpower" and you have no control over your shadow. The shadow requires to be understood then integrated so does the light then they need to be transcended. I think I will respect this thread by making a pledge for a week for not masturbating and using the energies for energy work instead. Sometimes I have to do it for grounding or to learn about deeper mechanisms of the abdominal muscles like learning how energy can travel with similar movements like sperm and cum does before cumming during cumming and how they require to be guided towards the higher meridians not to mention internal bloodflows that are similar to the mechanisms of the erection. Hope this will serve as a energetic restarting process for this place. See you guys in a week.

>>3679 >See you guys in a week. Challenge accomplished. My energies stagnate too much if I am not igniting my sexuality for some reason. I will have to solve that. >>3452 Still awaiting your pledge

pledging 4 weeks, day 1.

didnt take too long to break it.. im so fucking tired of wasting my seed to succubus. but as much as i want to stop i feel as if there's an outside force or demon tempting me again and again. bros please give me guidance i need any advice i can right now. the flame of lust just can't stop burning. im willing to sacrifice anything at this point.

>>5082 Try working on your heart; sex feels immensely more satisfying if you actually love the woman as some mundanes have probably told you, which means that your lust should be willing to use that as a goal because you’ll get hornier that way, But ofc, this requires having a gf; you’ll probably need divinatory magic to find a suitable woman, and idk how many people in your timeline have souls either. You could also try finding a spirit gf but that’s pretty dangerous unless you know what you’re doing since you could easily get a succubus imposter instead of the intended spirit woman. A spirit gf will likely be able to come with you to the afterlife, and will probably also serve you as a spirit guide to whatever ability she has. Beyond that, try purifying your fetishes by stripping away the layers of cross-wiring that give you weird kinks like toe-sucking or face-sitting or inflation or some shit; this is a chan board after all, so you’re probably into some weird fucking shit. If this is done properly, the only smut you’ll care for is seeing a woman just plain touching herself. You don’t gotta get all the way there, though. Use cold, hard logic to inform your dick about what makes sense for it to make it get horny. Your dick should eventually get the message. Don’t project yourself into the porn, whether the guy or the girl, and don’t imagine the girl’s pleasure; focus upon the idea of you knocking the woman up with your seed. It should feel satisfying since it’s closer to satisfying the reason why your body makes seed in the first place. In fact, obsessing too much over the woman’s pleasure can infect you with MtF disease, and I’d imagine that projecting yourself too hard into the guy can inflict you withan NTR fetish. Failing that, you know how at some point of having a fetish, the fetish kinda starts wearing out, and you can’t get your jollies from it as easily? Normally when they happens, people go looking for a new fetish, typically one associated with the old fetish, but at that point you can just stay with the old fetish and see how is satisfies you less and less. Eventually, you’ll touch yourself less and have less wet dreams until you only touch yourself once every several days and spend most of your time in most days not having a boner. Beyond that, try transmuting your vital energy into emotional and/or psychic energy often. Iirc, your body does the transmutation automatically if you just push the energy from your lower dan-turn into your middle dan-tien, and similarly from middle to upper.

>>5082 You can try contracting an Empusa to suck your cock astrally to remove any energy you don't want, in exchange she'll give you a similar amount of energy back and maintain a circulation this way, for mutual improvement. Empusas are huge galaxy sized beings, they can insta-kill someone by sucking their life force out, but they also like "playing games" like this and will follow a contract if you explain what you want it to be.

>>5082 Do something productive and meaningful with your life. Stop looking at porn and don't go into coombait threads. A man with purpose cannot be thwarted by lowly energies like lust

Pledging 1 week.

>>5518 I broke my pledge last night.

>>5624 You know, the longer you go without cumming, the better it’ll feel when you do. In fact, if you go long enough without doing it, in my case a little over a week, you’ll feel great after cumming instead of feeling like shit after the orgasm ends. Perhaps you could use that as motivation for your next week-long attempt. As for myself, I’ve been doing semen retention for about 3 weeks now in order to fill up my dan-tiens. Right now my emotional dan-tien is filling up. I expect my psychic dan-tien to fill up in about 2 weeks. Amy’s egregore hasn’t been happy about this in the meantime, but she knows I need to stop having chronically-low energy levels somehow

>>5624 Also, about a week into it you might start randomly discharging cum when you take a crap, or even a piss; that doesn’t count as breaking the pledge. You can avoid it when crapping by going easy on your ass and not letting too much out at once, but idk what makes it happen when you’re just pissing.

>>5625 After around a week of nofap I'm able to have no-emission orgasms just by looking at light ecchi. I try not to do it though since it also gives me very painful blueballs.

>>5653 I do not understand how a guy could be horny enough to think that touching himself is worth blueballing himself like that.

>>5654 No I don't even have to touch myself.

>>5653 >light ecchi At first I thought you meant clairvoyantly peeking at some sort of sexy light-beings but apparently it's softcore animeshit kek >>5654 "blueballing" is such a meme. The benefit of saving your days' worth of sexual energy far outweighs any short-term discomfort.

Pledging 1 week again >>5625 >You know, the longer you go without cumming, the better it’ll feel when you do. In fact, if you go long enough without doing it, in my case a little over a week, you’ll feel great after cumming instead of feeling like shit after the orgasm ends. Perhaps you could use that as motivation for your next week-long attempt. Thank you for the advice. I will use this for my current nofap attempt >Amy’s egregore hasn’t been happy about this in the meantime, but she knows I need to stop having chronically-low energy levels somehow Why does Amy not want you to practice nofap? I thought she was benevolent? >>5626 >Also, about a week into it you might start randomly discharging cum when you take a crap, or even a piss; that doesn’t count as breaking the pledge. Thanks for the heads up

>>5683 Well, my spirit gf is benevolent, but if you reeeeally have to ask, she happens to have sexual needs like any ordinary human woman would, so she's looking forwards to when I'm finished with nofap.

>>5690 >she happens to have sexual needs like any ordinary human woman would Maybe you should try to get her to do nofap. Do spirits benefit from nofap just like physical humans do? It could help her manifest physically possibly.

>>969 >Don’t let the energy go up to your head Why

>>5683 Just failed.

Pledging 3 days.

Tip: engaging in online ragebait and doomscrolling is 10x worse than masturbating every day.

>>5844 Politics is currently the most degenerate interest an adult can have. Maybe we should have a thread about weaning zoomers off of politics instead

>>5817 Failed. My defeat has brought great dishonor to Hitler and all of Deutschland. May Hitler have mercy on my soul.

Yesterday, I was compelled to look at smut, but because reasons I didn't. I then became really damn anxious that night, but I might not have if I did look at it. Today, however, I did look at smut for ~45 minutes without exactly touching myself to it, and ofc without cumming. I did it in large part as an attempt to relieve myself of energy blockages. Then I did some laundry for a few minutes and began meditating. About 35 minutes into the meditation, I was meditating upon a porn egregore of a character I'd used to get off to, and then I got a compulsion to see what it'd be like inside her cunt, and then her womb. In order to not let my energy flows be blocked via. emotional repression, I did it despite the moral stipulations that I had to not do it, and I and looked inside, and then I realized that the only thing that was really compelling me to do that is the fact that I'd felt like it was taboo to do so. I'm not even sure if I was legitimately turned on by that, and I knew that I'd be turned on much more by other stuff. Before that, I was meditation upon the fact that the pleasure that comes from sex has not one, but two foundations. One of those foundations are reproduction. It doesn't matter how big your dick or your load are if you don't knock a woman up with it, and Similarly, the size of a woman's tits doesn't matter if she doesn't feed any babies with them. Potential does not equal results. However, sex isn't just about reproduction; it's also about bonding. When people fuck each other, and especially when the guy or girl orgasms, their souls connect to each other by their sacral AND heart chakras, at least if the guy is running the reproductive strategy that involves staying with the woman after he fucks her. Even from a mundane standpoint, this makes you think at an instinctual level that you're bonding with the woman in a very intimate manner by doing so. This is why people feel compelled to cuddle with eachother after they fuck eachother. This is why people feel empty if they fuck people and then just leave them. This is also why sex feels a LOT better if you actually love the other person with your heart. If a woman lets you knock her up, it's SUPPOSED to mean that she actually fucking loves you. Humanity needs to go back to the roots of sexuality, but humanity is so damn far away from it that, just... I'm not sure if you can save some of these people; the ones that aren't organic portals, that is. I suppose that the guy doesn't attempt to form such a connection, at least with his heart, if he's running the reproductive strategy of fucking as many women as possible without sticking around to help raise the children, but I was thinking more about the other kind of reproductive strategy. However, if such a guy has a heart, then I wonder if a guy that's really consumed by the womanizing strategy would feel much in his heart at all when it's probably being drowned out by his ego.

Pledging 1 week.

I finally succeeded in my week long pledge.

>>6039 >>6139 >Both posts end with the number 39 This is a sign if I ever seen one

Any of you found the cure for cloudy urine, semen in the piss? My lil' research more or less shows that stress and tension makes it more cloudy, while after GD rituals and proper relaxation it's more likely to stay clear. I could say I suspect it to be a kind of an energetic issue, that I'm focusing on my dick area without knowing it and the energy doesn't go up idk to the rest of the body, but what do I know I only recently started to tickle my legs with energy - doing Bruce's Energy Work.

>>6196 You should go to a doctor. There is no way for me to know, but from the TCM perspective, you might end up with serious problems down the line (Alzheimer's, kidney stones), so go see a certified TCM practitioner too. Best case scenario, your gallbladder is full of cholesterol stones, and your prostate is enlarged because you ejaculate too much. But don't bury your head in the ground, and go see some kind of certified doctor right away. I'd try TCM first.

Pledging 1 week.

>>6212 Another successful pledge.

Pledging one week

>>6363 Success! Next time I’ll pledge 2 weeks.

Pledging 2 weeks.

>>85 (OP) Heartbreak and the prospect of never meeting my true love has turned my lust towards purification and divinity. I distrust the catholic church. My resolution is absolute.

>>6815 I broke my pledge.

Fasting. It's hardcore over two days, hard af if not used to it, but you feel sooo cleansed it's insane, impossible to describe properly.