>>12204 Bro, that's why this is called a fetish. Feet or shoes aren't sexual either but some people get boner seeing them. And it's actually pretty common. From your description I can say 100% sure that you are not a pedo. And even if you were, there's nothing wrong with it as long as you don't abuse/harm anyone.

16 was when I finally felt like making myself cum. It was by humping. I started hrt at 15.

>>12096 Started humping my pillow around 8-9. Told my friends to do the same and they loved it. Didn't cum until like a year later and it freaked me tf out lol.

I started masturbating at 5 years old and it was to diapers lol

I think 11, I put a pillow in my pants and pretended it was a diaper

I was 11 or 12. Around that time was when I figured out I had this fetish too. I'd grab a towel and use safety pins to make a mock diaper, then I'd rub over the towel till I came. Thank fucking god I knew how to do laundry at that age, never got found out. A few years later I learned about internet porn. I had slim pickings back then for diaper porn. I'd use my PSP to find them on my wifi and download them to a SD card, then hide the SD card so I didn't mix it up with my games card. The PSP was somewhat new at the time and I was in middle school. This was also pre-halfchan so I couldn't even look for threads there. I still see some of the 2D pics I jerked to 16-17 years ago posted in threads sometimes; time flies.

disclaimer I put my "first" diap when I stole it from a cousin that was visiting us with my godmother when I was 5. since then I was putting a teddy bear between my legs to sleep, under my pjs, to make it feel like a diap. I realised what I was doing was sexual years later, as when you're like 6 and summing you don't really make much out of it beyond it's nice and "I made teddy wet" not really "adult" baby there...

>>12096 when I was 9 I put my groin over the pool filter and i didn't cum necessarily but i went through the motions

I must have been about 9 or 10. I remember seeing a scene where the bully kid in Foster's Home for Imaginary friends got scared and pissed himself. I felt funny when I saw it so I wanted to reenact it in my room. To make myself pee "accidentally" I took my mom's back massager and held it on my bladder and dick. I felt pressure building up and I eventually lost control and kind of peed/came at the same time. It felt really good and I immediately associated loss of control and peeing with sexual pleasure. I peed my underwear sitting on the toilet a few times and then moved on to diapers that were still around the house in closets and stuff so I could do it anywhere and skip the mess.

4 years old when I started masterbating

>>17168 >>14391 yeah I was humping my diaper during naptime on the mat in daycare/preschool

>>12096 >be 12 >laying on bed >go to get off bed >head of penis rubs against bed >cum buckets in pants >omg what was that, it was awesome It was the only way I masturbated until about 16, I had to hump and rub my dick against something (pillow, bed, floor, stuffed animal) always clothed just in case someone came in. Even after 16 I would still rub through my pants but I could do so without having to lay down hump and squish my dick against something. Now I just have my CG do it or hitachi wand over my diaper and all my loads end up in my padding.

>>12096 I was 17. I started doing it because My balls were uncomfortable, I remember I would go home, and masturbate for 1 hour every day, To try and get myself to orgasm. Eventually it worked and it felt pretty good.

20. Was 2 years into my first sexual relationship but had never orgasmed. Turned out there was a buildup of smegma inside my foreskin that had hardened into a cement-like consistency. It was my partner's first time with an uncircumcised man, so she didn't realize anything was amiss. It loosened slowly over time as a result of sex. Removed it in a shower, started orgasming during sex. About a year later, experienced blue balls while partner was away. I do not recommended the dick cheese cement experience.

I first started when I was about 12, i'd be lying in bed late at night on my ipod browsing the internet, mostly watching youtube and cartoons before I started getting curious and looking at porn. While lying on my stomach and with my dick facing downward eventually i'd sort of gyrate and use my hand to press down onto my dick until I orgasmed (I wasn't even sure if it counted as masturbating at the time, i knew what masturbation was but I wasn't cumming or doing the normal stroking method I I wasn't certain for a while) I kept this up for a while utill I actually started cumming, at which point I stopped because I knew i'd get caught if I started leaving stains in my bed or my underwear. Then at some point I started connecting those feelings with the ones I had about wearing diapers (cause like many people here i'd always felt weird about wanting to wear diapers without knowing why/still being embarrased by the idea) and so I managed to get ahold of some diapers, put one on late one night and masturbated into it, which was an enlightening experience because it felt like some sort of answer to questions i'd been having for as long as I could remember.

>>12096 It was freshman year of highschool. Seems like a switch flipped internally because my buddies from middle school were suddenly hot AF. One in particular I had the hots for. He was my dorky friend and we'd both regularly get picked on since we both had a lot of classes together. Gym especially since we'd get tackled, balls thrown at the back of our heads, shit like that so we'd sit and talk and have a good time. After class though when we were changing back I'd change at light speed just to rush over and watch him undress. He always wore the tightest briefs and the way they hugged his butt just made me melt. My first time masturbating it was late at night I just couldn't get the thought of him out of my mind. I imagined his soft cock pressing against me though his tighty whities as he looks up at me with his adorable smile. I didn't know about lube or lotion or anything so I just started humping my mattress out of instinct after a long while and 2 breaks I finally came. It was my first awake orgasm and I just laid there in my cum soaked sheets before finally realizing I fucked up and tried cleaning it with toilet paper. The next morning I told my mom I wet the bed because for some reason I thought it was less embarrassing than explaining what I just did. I had to wear some cool training pants for a while

I was about 13 I think. I was up extremely late channel surfing in my room when this documentary about nudism came on. I was watching and touching down there, not really understanding what I was doing, just knee it felt great. I also really really had to pee, like painfully bad but I couldn't tear myself away. When I did finish it was like almost painful but in an extremely good way. It was also a dry orgasm so the next time I tried it out that was a surprise.

Cute thread

>>12190 >>12193 >>12195 >>12196 >>12197 >>12198 >>12200 UPDATE 3 years later and I am divorced from my wife, dating a man and hooking up with another diaper boy every weekend (actually met him in the meetup thread). I was so wrong. Women are okay I guess but I need to be with guy (I do have a mommy too which is fun, but not as sexually fulfilling). I have a fundamental need to get dicked hard and I was so in denial. Life is good now. I know now that I have always had gay boy crushes. When I first started masturbating in diapers I felt a lot of guilt about male-male fantasies that I had and I think that the girl-girl fantasies were a safe way to imagine a bit of gayness without having to question my sexuality. I think what actually appealed was the friend-to-lover set up of those things. I'd always imagine two best friends and one of them needed diapers, or had a younger sibling who did, and while diapering each other things would escalate. I like it because it feels so much more natural to me and more likely to actually happen, most kids aren't gonna be unsupervised at a boy-girl sleepover and then be able to sneak off and do some heavy petting. As a kid I was with boys all alone in a basement or bedroom all night many times. Lots of opportunity to do naughty things but I couldn't admit then that that is what I wanted. But it came out in my masturbation fantasies. Pic is me.

>>49891 >>49902 Thanks for bringing this thread back up so I could see a post from when I was still "straight". Nice to reflect on how much repression I've let go of.

I was 14 years old (freshman in highschool). I had become friends with an older girl who was 16. She used to flirt with me via MSN messenger - usually overtly teasing stuff like "do you like how my butt looked today in those jeans ;)" kind of teasing nothing abdl. I remember getting excited when we would talk but never touched myself. One day we were chatting and she mentioned babysitting. I probably steered the conversation in that direction, I know that I was realizing my fetish but it came out before I had fully understood I was into Abdl. She was messaging me and said "oh hold on I need to go change this little stinker" and it got me really aroused. I felt weird but I asked her what she thought about diapers. I remember feeling like she was going to quit talking to me and tell everyone but I also remember being so excited/nervous that I was going to either pee or cum in my pants lol. She replied something like "Diapers? Idk, I get the appeal. They look really cute and comfy" and then, "maybe I should be babysitting you ;)" I went to the bathroom and basically pulled my pants down and came as soon as I touched myself. I had such a vivid memory of her pulling a pampers diaper over me and fastening it. The whole thing became a core memory for me. I also recall replying to her and changing the subject quickly after the post nut shame kicked in

Glad to see a lot of other people who didn't start jerking off until their late teens. I swear any other time I see people talking about this subject, it seems like everyone was 12 or younger their first time. Personally I didn't start until I was 16. It wasn't diaper-related for me, I just started having wet dreams constantly for one week, then it finally occurred to me to try and do it while I was awake. No more wet dreams since then.

My first time was when I was 13. Was on xbox with my friends and one of them started talking about it and how he used the mafia 2 demo version to see the playboy pictures in it because they were nude. I downloaded it instantly and finished to one of the pictures while still in the chat.

>>12096 You think 15 is old? My first successful time was when I was 18. I tried many times before but I was pretty sure I was doing it wrong

21 Never should have started. Used to enjoy being hard, then I just needed the nut

probably about 11 or 12, I had bunny slippers, I poked a hole in them, removed the soft stuffing and put it inside my tighty whities to make it puffy, then started opening and closing my legs because it felt nice, I remember a weird sensation of needing to pee real bad but I kept going and that was my self induced orgasm.

6 or so 7 think, still was wearing diapers since my parents pretty much gave up potty training since was spastic dyslexic retard as per ot and other stuff. When waiting for short bus i would like to 'climb' on a tree in my frontyard. I was low key rubbing on it in my diaper and it would make me feel 'good'. Could nut or anything but I would pee, sometimes poo-poo in my diaper afterward and it felt good. Think that was how my diaper fetish developed. Masturbating early while still wearing diapers eventually led me never getting out of them, hurray for autism and lazy parents!

>>12209 >tempted to it by sister How much younger is your sister? Sounds like you both had a childhood that materialized a diaper fetish.

It took me an incredibly long time to figure it out. I grew up in a very conservative, authoritarian household, totally sheltered from adult topics. I never had the conversation about the birds and the bees and I didn't pay much attention during sex education in school. The first time I came that wasn't a wet dream was when I lost my virginity with my first girlfriend at 16. My abdl kink developed loong before that from the typical mix of mis-targeting of sexual interests and parental emotional neglect. I honestly think if I'd learnt to mastubate to vanilla porn there would have been a much lower chance of it developing. I don't mind though, I love my kink and wouldn't have it any other way.

i was about 3 and in pre-school. Honestly amazes me how long it took everyone else to figure out they have a thing that feels good when you touch it.

>>50233 someone was molested so young they can't remember it.

i remember being super young like 6 and basically laying face down and humping my hand, usually i'd imagine i was on a factory conveyor belt being turned into a babydoll..

I think I was 13. I was starting puberty but didn't know what to do about erections other than to wait for them to go away At one point, I had a long latex balloon that I got from a birthday party or something. One day, I had a sudden urge to feel my cock against it when I had a boner. The balloon was slightly deflated, so it was flexible enough for me to wrap it around my cock one full time. With the ends in each hand, I'd pull it tighter and loosen it, tighter and loosen, over and over. I felt like an idiot since I didn't know why I felt compelled to perform this strange action, but it felt really good. And it kept feeling better the longer I did it. I liked the rubbery feeling and the latex squeaks. After several minutes, my cock started twitching and started spilling cum out the front. The sensation was wonderful I've had ample opportunities to get off with a balloon since. But I think that it has a connection to my interest in diapers. Both are playful, yet embarrassing to enjoy. Diapers also expand and inflate, and also look balloonish when paired with plastic pants, giving them a thick and marshmallowy look. Though there are a lot of other reasons why diapers are exciting though. It took me a while to really connect my interests (I started discovering an interest in crossdressing in my early teen years which developed into sissy AB/DL stuff later on), but I don't want to start rambling

>>50239 Nah i have fairly clear memories going back to about 18 months old, ive been to therapy and while the therapist thought the same thing im confident i wasn't. i generally attribute my abdl kink to having developed sexual interest so young. not like you can even nut when youre tha age

>>12096 I was six years old when I discovered porn and masturbation, but I don't remember how I fapped for the first time. My mom kept me in diapers until I was five, my father was always out at sea, but when he came back when I was months away from starting kindergarten, he saw how much my mom was coddling me and snapped at her. Got rushed through potty training, which is what kicked it all off for me I think. At that age, I was already fond of the sensations of wearing and wetting and didn't want to stop. Got my first computer at age six and what I do recall is one of the first things I googled was "diaper". I recall the first results being DPF, WetSet, and Deeker, which I kinda feel fucked me up a little bit but not much. Anyway, I would stuff my underwear with toilet paper and piss in it while sitting over the toilet daily - fantasizing that I was wearing a diaper while grinding the warmth against my dick. I also remember playing Gran Turismo on the PSX and noticing how hard the controller vibrated when I crashed, not long after I ended up mashing the controller against my crotch while having my car grind against the guard rails/barriers, not even caring about the game - I'm pretty sure I was actually able to get off from that too. Oh yeah, that just made me remember finding my mom's massager in the bathroom cabinet and using that to fap a ton of times too. I bet that thing must've smelled of my piss... that's awkward af to think about. But yeah, I miss those days, it was so much easier to get off. I would cum 10+ times a day with the most being 14 times. If a diaper commercial came on, and no one was looking, I was rubbing one out, self-inserting into those ads. Pretty much every bathroom break was a quick fap session, bed was a fap session, I'd crank my hog in class and never got caught because my elementary school was air conditioned and a lot of us would just put our arms into our shirts for warmth. Puberty sucks. I'd give anything to not have a refractory period again and just be a full blown coomer. It would help get my bang-for-buck out of wearing diapers now. I don't wear unless I'm positive I can nut in it at least four times but even then it feels like such a waste.

I was either 14 or 15 when I actually masturbated. For literally years before (probably starting at 12) I had been "into" crossdressing, wearing a pad in my panties, and wetting it. I did that for a few years, staying up late enough that I could try to look up videos of girls peeing themselves or wearing diapers on the shared family computer. I've been really fixated on wearing diapers since I was probably 3 or 4. One of my earliest memories is getting caught having stolen one of my little brother's diapers, and my dad asking if I would rather be wearing those than underwear. I lied when I answered 'no'. I remember renting the same VHS tape about astronauts, just because they describe having to wear Diapers on takeoff, and during EVA trips and moonwalks. For a few years after that I wanted to be an astronaut. At about 7 or 8 I had some little booklet that came with one of the 2000s Scooby-Doo direct-to-video movies that had a picture of Scooby Doo boys underwear, and Scooby Doo pink panties. I remember that I kept that booklet in a drawer by my bed so I imagine wearing the panties every night for a long time. I was just a kid so maybe it was only a few months, but I distinctly remember it. Eventually by the time I was out of middle school and in highschool, I knew how other people were "supposed" to masturbate, but I had already spent my entire 'sexual awakening' wearing panties and wetting my pants. Eventually I tried it the way other people described 'jacking off'. It was really unnatural. It felt good, but at that point I had already spent basically my entire life wanting to wear diapers. It wasn't fulfilling in the way I really wanted it to be. I've always felt this sense of "You know deep down you're not like them. You belong in diapers. You wear panties. You're inadequate as a man." It's just the way I've been from the very beginning.