>>7786 >The things i share aren't even useful i just sound like a loonie but sounding sane doesn't fucking work!

>>7790 I too felt a huge energy load today. Not sure what to make of it.

>>7790 Now that I think about it... Yesterday when I was looking at the energy formation of the clouds I saw the face of a female with somewhat evil screaming face. Didn't know what to make of it so I didn't make a fuss of it. But the usual energetic stimuli of the rain clouds that I detect in the past year wasn't there. I thought the reason why I am not detecting it because I was not really taking proper care of my energy work in the past week... I should look into the elemental purity of the atmosphere after this.

>>7793 >>7794 Could be any number of things, but I'll say what I did: a few days ago I created the Hexe doll and used her to charge up "the nastiest hex ever created" (that was the intent) to use it against all the evil forces gathering on the Earth from all over, and using their own methods against themselves in such a manner that any attempts at using evil to avert the hex or attack the hex or me, will be absorbed by the hex, making it stronger. The only way to avoid it is to just not get involved with it at all, which also means not being on the target list. Adding to this I late last night acted on a new insight to bring the hostile NWO/Illuminati factions under control by enforcing their "absolute authority" principle, which states that the pyramid must be upheld at any cost. Even if the leader is rotten to the core, the person at the top of the pyramid will be the last one standing, always. I saw this happen in one of the contained-space runs where evil timelines were purified using the bible and quran: when it got to the point that the only solution was to punish them with collective extinction because they refused to behave even at the threat of death, the Illuminati structure somehow remained. At first I thought it was because they were able to "not think one evil though collectively", but in reality, it was all discipline. To protect the leader, they were able to control even their thinking, but it only lasted as long as there were staff below him, the moment he was alone standing, he had evil thoughts and was eliminated. That's how strong their authority is. I looked closer at it, and found it's because the layer above any layer of the pyramid, is God to the layer one step below, and those further below have no knowledge of what is two steps above themselves. This is why the NWO never gives up, they must be wiped out all the way from bottom to supreme leader at the very top, or they will keep going no matter what is done to them. So my idea was to overtake the egregore by placing myself over the supreme leader, forcing him to obey me with absolute authority, so I went outside at night and used the full moon for this, it took a long time of forcing it in place, but after 40 min or so, it activated. Whoever is in the Illuminati structure is now below me in the egregore, no matter their physical position, the rest is just manifestation to get this fully functional. I've kept seeing this Kursk drama evolve over the past days, and it seems events are just replaying the start of WW2 by now, except the setting has adapted. Hitler made the mistake of letting the British special forces escape back to the island after he made the first successful breakthrough in their forces which were scattered thin over the western border of Germany. These same elite forces later came back to invade Germany after D day. Putin, by saying he would spare the Ukrainians in the "Kursk cauldron" would make the same mistake, so though he said to Trump he would allow them to surrender, I can't have that. So I did a thing to swiftly remove them, and now Zelensky is denying there are any encircled Ukrainian troops in Kursk. True. There isn't now. Any of these things would effect the state of the egregores somewhat.

Yeah okay these realms are extremely dangerous lmao. I am getting beat up but tbh i need that kind of field experience. It's unnerving having everyone replaced by hostiles line in the open VISIBLY like IN YOUR FACE. This is a density where your little brother can stab you with a knife. I am still learning how to relax in hostile territory and how to attack without openings. On the upside the colors are more colorful and the food finally taste good!

I think i might have ran into a fragment that resisting the choice i made with getting spirited away like you described, she was really bratty and on airship where i was pretty much forced to help her out but i noticed something, i had to help her gather items from ruins and stuff on airship that she(?) owned and the more things we collect the more things about the ship that was reinforced and even given new features. the fragment kept saying "we're getting closer to completion now..~" so i guess the resistance you mentioned that some parts of me have are slowly going away now..(?) Also i saw me (i know she's me but its easier to convey what happened like this) undressing and having somethin akin to anime moment when a male character runs into a woman undressing by mistake, She gave me a death glare but... she didnt want to genuinely kill me like she was doing months ago and also one other night she did come out and issue a statement to the other fragments that may still have resistance so i guess more progress is being made. Lastly my sisters are constantly having me in the form of that pink elf woman i posted the other day...

>>7863 my sisters and mother are talking more outside of the night but there isnt anything noteworthy at this. its just them sometimes reminding me to focus on certain things, drop certain things, and to always listen to their voices and attune myself

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm This be complicated to talk about. As the two dragons meets and the energies mixes even these typing fingers cause them to explode not handling it are we? the mixing of fluid of forbiden pleasure and pain the sea snail and the sea foam and such eating at the glue of my innards the pleasure is such that the blood is in turn corrupted like a snake swallowing a pole i too am swalloed b yher might disgustingly sweet and vile yet so appropriate for this age don't we think?

>>7865 What a grounding effect utter embarrassment is! Even more effective than pain i dare say. As long as the energies keeps moving it is fine to experience terror.

Tbh i am just lonely right now. But nobody wanna talk to me when i get magical so i am testing how much is comfortable to others. It's like i am either weak and prey or i am a walking nuke and i don't know how to trust enough just to play. I really bored between the hunts you know? But then the board gets all lonely every time i come back maybe i am overbearing. I just want criticism because right now i don't know how to talk without eviscerating evil.

>>7867 It's probably more a matter of the dimensional situation, wherever you may be now may not be so populated.

>>7868 All i do is fight and sleep and eat evil. So yeah maybe i ended up in a backwater world. So much evil, the evil is in words too shackles of the mind. I thought idk people would be happy i am breaking karma y'know? Like hey you can be free! just make amend what count is the intention! I am not mad i am genuinely lonely, sometimes you just wanna eat a meal with others you know? but the ones here ooze hostility like vapor so i can't help my reaction it's genuinely my feelings. And then they get the idea to approach me with knives.. "Cutting vegetables" lmao. I am even giving them millions of chance but some of them are so invested in it they'd rather die than even do an attempt at growth. I am actually quite peaceful i just have no tolerance for this shit anymore. When i go out it's full on wars too Sometimes i put myself in danger just to get excitement i let it simmer because it's more fun.

Awakendid sharing To deal with the remaining "endless" stream of unsalvageable evil spirits, I decided to return to a trusted concept: the astral island. Servitors, avatars, they all work well, but in the end, the Goetians all have their kingdoms and caves and it works because they rule over them. My previous creations were for >general astral haven for housing souls I picked up from various places >infernal version of same place, for hiring a demon army and building drow temple >infernal kingdom for running regular hellish labour camp for a profit, receiving sinners and handling their purification Added: >infernal island for damning unsalvageable souls and spirits into Exile The design I used was based on a version of the Holy Trinity where God is excluded and instead only implied by the existence of Law, because obviously God isn't present in Hell. From the three points, I drilled carbon poles into the imagined ground until they turned into diamond, and used that as foundation, by pulling dirt to them, then setting them on fire while using evil spirits as the fuel. This melted the stones and produced lava, which cooled off and turned into volcanic rock. After this, not much had to be done. Pine trees started growing on the rocks on their own without me doing anything, I guess astral seeds just landed there. Then water came in from above and created seas around the island. I was meaning to build a mansion for myself first, then setting up a self-employment self-service magic contract where demons can come and just work with Exiling evil spirits, and some % of the profit is mine. But I hadn't even finished the main buildings before demons had already appeared below the island. I quickly drew up the magic contract via servitor, and the business picked up really quickly.

>>7880 >based on a version of the Holy Trinity where God is excluded and instead only implied by the existence of Law, because obviously God isn't present in Hell. You don't see yourself as the god of the realms you creates? To me that would mean not being able to go there except in limited vessels..oh.. so you only project a small part as LAW mechanical. I am really curious on how you partition your mind when i make islands or realms i can always feel them. The land as my bones and skin the sea as the water of the womb the grass as my hair. I am a fractured egg stabbed by spike shards. >Pine trees I used to break pine cones with stones with my cousins as a kid to eat the nuts. We even had a few dedicated stones that everyone in the know used i remember us being mad when one of them was lost. they go very well with strong green tea you want to boil the leaves for that bitterness and then use copious amounts of sugar. I am starting to sound old i might be close to my death eh..white horse and seal i hope my apocalypse is fun.

>>7881 >You don't see yourself as the god of the realms you creates? God to me means just any entity that is "one particle bigger than what the person can perceive" which causes a feeling of the other entity being eternal. It's a mental phenomena I've noticed in others, and also in myself at times when it "broke" following possibly mind expansion or increased awareness. It was mostly in my case related to the concept of common brands with a history nationally, for example. Like a bakery that had a sort of archetypal role because my dad always bought a certain bread from there, associated with a lore of sorts, relating to how his dad also had bought that bread. The bakery was on the other end of the country so it remained this "eternal" concept of past history in my mind for all my childhood. Then at some point in my 20s I moved to that place and was basically neighbour with this bakery. Walking by and seeing their shop and the trucks leaving, seeing that it's just this one building, suddenly sealed the "eternal" feeling of this concept from my childhood, which had been caused by, I guess, not really grasping the context of why they'd buy this bread and think it's so special, it was retold to me as a form of "lore". But since then, the "magic" was dispelled and the brand changed from being this thing with a history, to just being that one facility. Though this is an example, I've experienced this in several other areas, something which seemed "eternal" or "mystical" suddenly was revealed as being "just that isolated thing" and it stopped being a concept stretching to the horizon. God is the same. I went from just accepting the image from Michelangelo's painting, and that I wouldn't understand him or the creation story in full. Then at some point I just stopped seeing him as real, after I learned about other gods and actually interacted with them for real. Then now after actually reading the old testament and applying kabbalah, as well as comparing with the quran, I've come to realize "God" as a concept, Yaweh, refers to the feeling of "something greater than yourself, which because of your current limitation, seems eternal", and if you can keep seeing something this way and it's never "dispelled", that's "God". It's more definitely defined in the quran, where they're more or less saying "God is eternal" which means "if you find a God and he isn't eternal, that's a fake God". Same as "The Dao which can be walked, is not the Dao". Because once you can apply it practically, it's not divines, so that means it's not it. By this, I may not be the God of the place I create, per definition, but I may be to some person. Instead, it's a reference, a channelling, of the concept that "God is eternal" and "if you find a God you can grasp, that's not the real God".

>>7881 >I am really curious on how you partition your mind when i make islands or realms i can always feel them. A natural ability to do what CIA had to use Mk-ultra trauma programming to achieve. (Which is why the programming via media doesn't work on me?) I learned early on in school that I could "lock" things in memory by reading it in short bits, staring at the word image, then suddenly looking away and turning my mind blank. Then reading the next part. Each of them would then be available exactly like that for the test later. I still use this after I grasp some complicated concept, I instantly bring up some hyper speed nonsense vid and watch it to change my mindstate, which locks even large things in memory in the same way. I did this same thing with "who I am" also. I don't recall when exactly I learned this, maybe at 7 or before. I think someone was trying to bully me into seeing myself as weak or something, by ganging up on me and trying to impose negative views on me. I just locked my mind and changed into a "throwaway mind", because I couldn't at the immediate moment overpower them. Then after leaving that place, I just went back to being myself, untouched. (I would also plan retaliation against people over things like this, it became an automatic process since; it's what I still do. It's just that the things added to the list are now things like how I have to destroy the EU because they have tried changing me.) They compartmentalize their organization to make it not leak information. I create uncountable numbers of alts in the manner of some cult turning their economy into a mess to avoid detection. If they manage to lock down on one alt and analyze it, I can just trash it.

>>7892 The simplest mean is to just create a secondary incarnation though. I don't know how many I have. Plus that I did this in past lives also, which is why nothing makes sense when trying to understand them. Like my London lifetime has a number of parallel incarnations, and a number of sub incarnations in other historical periods, and they're not even visible to me clearly. If I don't know how my soul, incarnations, and mind functions, how could anyone else figure it out?

>>7893 >If I don't know how my soul, incarnations, and mind functions, how could anyone else figure it out? How can you do that? The pain to be shattered is the closest thing to death our kind can experience. I can somewhat sense your glue but it is shifting. That's as much i can handle currently..try this {honey} a salve i just made it's purify isn't very high so be mindful.

>>7894 I'm not sure I understand. Death is painless, and there is no "shattering", doesn't the body consist of countless cells already in the physical, yet there is no specific pain associated with its state.

>>7895 >Death is painless, Dying consciously isn't >doesn't the body consist of countless cells already in the physical Aye and is it painful to be human? Do they work for the same goal or are they all lost in a sea of confusion? Self destruction. >yet there is no specific pain associated with its state. I disagree, being bind to this stone..shattered broken and sealed. haha perhaps my pain is truly singular i try to understand others more. Anyway this released a lot of energies thank you. i have to perfect these stances.

>>7880 This worked so well, I decided to proceed with the plan in mind and create a positively aligned place as well, still based a representation of Trinity at infernal level, just above the plane of Exile, but this time including God as one of the three points. Instead I excluded "the son" and made it "God, Holy Spirit and Law", to use the same symbolism. Founding the place very low, is an idea I got from the dimensional placement of the quran's actual text, which simply points to the lowest point in hell, then expects you to build up yourself. It works: if aligned correctly upwards, things grow on their own. I performed the same procedure of drilling 3 carbon poles into the ground to form diamond, then throw some dirt on them, which was set on fire using some evil spirits as fuel. This caused again the dirt to melt and a lava stream formed, once it got hot enough. Water also appeared and black rocks were formed in the water, creating land. This time I quickly got pine trees, which were followed by rabbits appearing in the "God corner", then some kind of tribe of small skinny humanoids with perfectly black complexion, painted with white runes and sigils, appeared. They threw stones to kill some rabbits, then used their intestines to create bow strings, then a pine tree branch for the bow, and in no time they were hunting with bows instead. This was followed by a group of "wild girls" with tanned light skin who appeared in the "Holy spirit" corner, they dressed in leather and started building simple shelters from pine tree branches. I used servitors to build my mansion on this island in the Law corner. There are also some infernals below, but the activity there is lesser in intensity, and the space is greater with more wild lands.

Tired of screeching damned, I called on the higher gods, paid to remove law. It cost 4 silver, they said it's no problem because there is nothing of value left.

Fucking.. why are they like this, things..? So I've noticed this chink posting nonsense on /int/ previously, and last time I looked into it, I hit an MI6 egregore. I know from before it's actually a brit with chinese flag, even if he pretends to be an actual chinese. He's talked about himself and his posting style is identifiable. This time I decided to pry further, because that thing from last time was destroyed and he shouldn't have come back again, if that was all there was. So this is what I found after provoking him/the egregore; some very violent astral "bullies" appeared, white energy with black sigils and runes on them, which indicates the use of some doctrine: so they are "lawful evil" which is the hardest hostiles to deal with, since they are usually misrepresenting a decent doctrine. It makes it hard to attack them because the doctrine can't be attacked, it's their misinterpretation of it that's the problem, and they'll hide behind quotes taken out of context to defend themselves, while leaving out the parts where they defile it in practice. It was a very violent and toxic astral location, with the same desert cult setup as seen before multiple times. After containing the whole dimension inside a time-tube, I sent in my yellow army servitors among others to just forcibly take over. No discussion, just barging in and bayonetting and shooting anyone who isn't docile. After a while of this, I started finding "cult material" in some places, old worn and incomplete occult manuals. Using Ezu I could easily tell they weren't complete books or original texts, but degraded copies being the result of many iterative translations. After penetrating deep into the desert, I found an area with a strong invisible barrier. At first it made it impossible to just see anything, nothing moving there, but by careful examination I found "invisible bones" forming a thick wall around an area. I had my new Hexe servitor set up a large magic circle around the wall and then wear it down from outside. Once inside I found a cult headquarters with a large library and what appeared to be 5 people in black cloaks with hoods. They were very negative and hostile so I instantly paralyzed and used purgatory fire on the first one, as the cloak fell off it was revealed being a blackened corpse upheld only by a small concentration of red energy, which appeared to be stolen/harvested energy from cult followers. As the corpse turned to ashes, an evil spirit was ejected and flew instantly into the Exile below hell. From the ashes, a golden tiara fell out. I divined it via servitor and got the result "the crown of Solomon". What? THAT was him? I'm still not sure what to think here. I dealt with the other 4 living corpses with the same result, except no crown. The library upon examination contained several full sets of the buddhist Tripitaka, "three baskets" texts in original astral writing, every set being made up of 15 volumes.

>>7937 Following this, some time later the same kind of event repeated, this time by them attacking me. Same desert cult, same 5 corpses in cloaks for leaders, but their library only had one book, called "Black Lotus". After defeating them and pacifying the area, it repeated a 3rd time. "Three baskets"? Or the three kelipah which must be destroyed, according to the Tanya Rabbati? I think this is the same as the "three corpses" in Daoism as well, they just externalized it. The walls made from bones constitutes the "shell" or "husk" here. In the 3rd one was again 5 corpse cult leaders (which makes 15 in in all, same as the number of books in the original Tripitaka found by the first cult HQ), but then a 6th appeared. This made me recall the debate about a section from Zhuan Falun which was officially changed, it was mentioning "7 buddhas of the primordial age" and was to be changed to "6 buddhas of the primordial age" because 7 would include Sakyamoni, the founder of buddhism, which caused confusion since he wasn't one of the actual originals. That would mean there is a 7th corpse cult leader here, if it refers to this, so I looked and found one; this one had a large energy mass, forming a "gong pillar" over the head level, but it was the same corpse upheld by stolen energy from cult followers. I gave it the same treatment and it was much more resilient, but this evil spirit was also sent into Exile after the corpse was burned and the energy dispersed. Sometime later, another group attacked me, and revealed a shape which looked like one large mushroom pointing upwards, connected to a small mushroom pointing downwards. Looking closer, they were a sigil created and upheld by a large number of cult followers in red cloaks, all aiming spikes of negative energy outwards like a "hedgehog" military formation. I took them on and dismantled their sigil, which revealed the energy form to match a jewish practice which I won't elaborate because it'll just cause sperging, but it's circumcision related. I later related the two "mushrooms" to the great and small vehicles of buddhism. All of these things can be applied correctly, and I did after seeing all of it. Among the cult followers in red, was also one wearing a crown, who was defeated. The crown upon divining was labeled as "the crown of Lucifer, the lightbringer".

So some stuff happened a bit more >Can hear Mother and Sisters clearer now, even outside of nighttime >Have been attempting relearning Japanese and my programming stuff, in order to reestablish connections with that princess (the marker is still on me, but again, all of this lethargy that I mentioned before had gotten in the way of lot of things) >Sisters (and mother) are having me interact with more women again, to aid in my development and other things >The friend I was talking to Shiva anon about, we talked about the gratitude and promise thing. He basically said to worry about that later after I'm dead and not living here anymore but to just continue to follow my sister, mother and guidance of deities as well as hang around/talk with more women instead of being around prison gays 4chan men on my free time >Sisters and mother basically and added on to this above singular point to "eliminate distractions" because my mind went kinda wild in multiple directions somewhat recently (too embarrassed to go into specifics) when talking to said friend through me the other day >Not sure if I ran into a fragment or what but I "dreamt" I ran into psycho dude in my female original form and I had saw another woman, she appeared anorexic and malnourished (?). I looked at her and tried to help her. The guy tried attacking me and there was a struggle >I think I won out in the end and tended to the other woman and she was more or less recovering well >For some reason I kept hearing the name Minerva when I woke up that morning

Spiders spiders i am a spider lilly. Well fuck! Okay so everything is fucking my fault. I always questioned it why do i have such a hard time despite being good was i a space criminal in a past life? did i do the genocide? Well i fucking get it now and it's beyond frustrating! It's my love...no really My love is pure yellow with white it's extremely pure it's a love for all thing alive you could call it love for life itself or a "love letter to god". Well guess what the "humans" here cannot handle it. So let's be smart spiders here how does someone who cannot know god respond to the love of god? It burns them! it fucking hurts them to the core! so they give it back to (me) the only way they understand it..PAIN PAIN PAIN! It's my fucking fault no shit they'd try to kill me here i am blasting nukes and being grateful and loving for the tiniest shit of course they'd freak the fuck out! They'd think i am doing some weird manipulation thing to kill them! Anyway i spent the last weeks battling horrible entities and eating them, my body is fucking sore but my spine is opening up nicely like i grabbed my dick turned it into a sword and stabbed myself in between the dick and asshole to open the lotus there. Then there is like golden lotus that appears after i clean up hostiles. Anyway i don't wanna talk too deeply about it cuz i like this place and i'd rather give love to this place than despair and rot but sometimes you need both so i am kinda lost on what to do. I remembered some old lifes and body templates seem i was a female monster terrorizing african villages once haha..some girls like to turn boys into men me i like the opposite turning strong men into sobbering boys by stripping everything to the core.. just a way to judge people..this world need more monster to put the fear of god back into their heart and it's not like i mind being a female ghoul arabic definition is closer . So yup gonna cntinue strengthening this body see how much i can unlock. but it sucks cuz to not get attacked i have to coat myself in spirits of rot and despair no i am serious here! Like if i am too pure i get attacked so i have to pretend being as degenerate so the normies chill around me. anyway have a nice never ending night /fringe/ I am under hell rn it's daaaaaark Oh yeah also had this thing where i spite on my dick live with a super long snot string with droplets and remembered that in female form when i fight i am dripping wet and then realize why momma Kali has her tongue out what a model mom seriously! >>7945 >pic I really love it. Remind me of the home i lost long ago. I feel safe when the sky is like that.

>>7945 Combat and thread training again...

I will try my best explaining how timelines appear for me and how "shifting" through them might appear for others. >>7700 >I'm open to hearing about it, still sounds interesting since i still occasionally log into fgo anyway. on that particular subject I will try to explain it to you mainly to try to decrease the amount of confusion you are going through currently. We will start with F/GO because that game is literally about going into alternate timelines and healing/fixing them I have only seen the F/GO anime and that meme manga so I might be not up to date how the game works. So sorry if I say something wrong Fate is an interesting franchise because it is dealing with several big picture and out of the box metaphysical thinking. Sometimes it goes extremely idiotic like most anime but it has some good ideas. >>7863 That "airship" is your "vessel". Like the "Merkabah" the "chariot of God". They can appear as ships and in other forms. That vessel will be your "completed form" that you can use for interdimensional travel. You will need to find all your shards unite them and once you know where you are going and you have a "shipping permit" aka "solved all your karma" and dropped all your "ballast" aka "earthly attachments" you are "free to go". This is the main theory ofc but... there are multiple unknowns that I don't know how they will play out this is why I cannot say anything more certainly. >Lastly my sisters are constantly having me in the form of that pink elf woman i posted the other day... >other night she did come out and issue a statement to the other fragments that may still have resistance so i guess more progress is being made Yes. That pink woman is some sort of "love/passion". That force is necessary as a sort of "fusion". Your shards will need to fuse. There are many emotional frequencies and locks that let shards fuse or break. It is different for everyone. I too am working through this issue and it's not very simple. I too have cross life shards that I am finally having the chance to internalize but the process is not simple. This is why "loving yourself" is important. Helps your shards fuse. Then having the "all encompassing love" and compassion to have the ability to fuse the parts of you that you think they are "Not (You)" for some reason. Like a part of you that you threw away in your childhood to escape a trauma and hid away deeply in your subconscious. Or a part you never had a chance to properly internalize in life yet. You will have to find those. I too just broke a large energy block in my brain yesterday and I am realizing how complicated this energetic "wholeness" can be. >>7864 Good. Yes. Attunement is what you are looking for. Attuning yourself to your own frequency. >>7945 >all of this lethargy that I mentioned before had gotten in the way of lot of things) You will have to learn to vent out those energies. Try to feel them where they are in your body and "breathe or fart it out". I am serious. Lethargy usually happens because your energies stagnate somewhere. Try to feel it where it resides within when you are lethargic. This was one of my lessons in the past months. Usually i "overwrote" lethargy with a stronger feeling but my lesson was to learn to "let go" of lethargy. >as hang around/talk with more women instead of being around prison gays 4chan men on my free time Yeah try to leave those faggots behind >Sisters and mother basically and added on to this above singular point to "eliminate distractions" because my mind went kinda wild in multiple directions somewhat recently (too embarrassed to go into specifics) when talking to said friend through me the other day Yes that happens. Always try to stay collected. But yes the mind has a tendency to go out of bounds when you unlock new parts of it. This is why meditating in a cave for years away from civilization is quite important in many traditions. Easier to forget those distracting mentalities we are poisoned with every day. But it's not important. Try to stay collected and feel/see why you are "falling apart". Understanding that let's you notice parts of you that "act out". >For some reason I kept hearing the name Minerva when I woke up that morning I was thinking about this for a while and... Fate Saber is literally "Minerva". Archetypically they share quite similar traits. Wisdom strategic leadership etc. I think she might be the next step you will have to understand. >>8031 And this is where I will bring back F/GO... I don't even know where to start... Truths is reality has "layers". Way too many layers. Some layers are different timelines some are elemental currents and some are... just weird. When my powers started to increase and I knew I can pull of telekinesis with ease I started practicing it. And it yielded results fast. First it was only minor flickers of the object but it improved steadily. When I could notice lights appear around the object I could move it with ease. That is when I realized the many problems of magic and reality... It turned out I didn't "move the object" but warped reality around it and that moved it... Sounds cool right? Well it wasn't. You see the layers or reality are not always "nice". To move things around IRL we use our body our limbs. Our body is protected by our skin. Our body houses and protects our mind. So if any material thing wants to enter our mind it needs to hurt the body first. It needs to pierce the skin the blood then the mental barriers. Because I connected my mind with a physical object all the energies from the object poured into my mind. It was like black mold that collects under the paint of the walls. I didn't know why weird beings appear in my dreams and my room for a while. It was because I thinned the fabric of reality. And because I practiced TK whenever I felt "bored" I made a sort of "bad habit" of thinning reality around me whenever I was bored.

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Took me a while to cultivate a desire to not use my powers for "mindless practice". After this I realized I need to make proper places for different practices. Before this I meditated on my bed before sleep. That thinned the veil around my bed and gave me weird dreams. Had to realize the feng shui advice to only use my bed for sleeping. Started to meditate in my living room on a carpet. That made most of my weird dreams go away. Psychic powers in the beginning are just about the ability to create thought forms to alter reality at ease. At higher levels it becomes more spectacular. As your energies and awareness "expands" you will step/leak into "other layers" and you will need to learn to clean them. Or know how to interact them if they have "rules" like places with the spirits or the divine. It was the same for me as you in the beginning. Combat combat combat. It was fun... but my guides told me I shouldn't do it "this way". They reminded me how i can "feel" frequencies and how I can invoke or manifest higher frequencies (like light, lightning, compassion etc) naturally to dissolve, disintegrate or "pacify" other forces. Some of them are actual beings that are necessary for the land (like some dwarfs I met and helped them dig caves and reactivate leylines or forest spirits that I had to dance with) and there is the "psychic resides/sludge" that humans and other negative beings generate. That psychic sludge requires purification. Usually that place is filled with parasitic beings. Once it is purified it can be used as a potent energy source. These are the layers where you "kill kill kill". A mage will have to find his "authority" and his "style" how he handles his "dominion" how he affects reality with his energies and how reality affects him in return. There are many elemental planes and such. I realized that different planes resonate with different parts of the body and invoking them changes the shape of the physical and astral body. Different body types resonate with every plane differently. This was only about the "Layers" now I will try to go back to the "timelines". Timelines are somewhat "set in stone" in a way how a river flows on a certain path. But if you pour a cup of water into the river it is not necessary that it will end in the sea where the river flows. This is where things get "weird". Let's go with the river example for now. Where does that water go? It either flows with the river or evaporates or gets drank by an another being or the ground swallows it etc. The water is usually kept together by a "surface tension". If you fall into the water too fast it is as hard as hitting concrete. And the riverbed makes sure that the river goes on it's "path" that it goes into the "least resistance". This is where understanding timelines gets "weird". You have to understand your current lifepath your current "least resistance" the "where you go if you keep going as usual" and the surface tension the membrane or the barrier that keeps your "timeflow" together. Water in the river flows with the river. But if it evaporates it can turn into a cloud and it can rain onto other lands or rivers. Rivers and oceans have their own currents. So does the atmosphere has it's air currents. And the space have gravity veils or fields. Ships airships and spaceships are all about trying to utilize these currents on their voyage. These currents are invisible to the untrained eye but once you are "in it" you will know it from it's effects. Ascending is all about being able to leave the river and the heavens/sky. And this is what you are doing now. Understanding your currents. Usually it is an extremely complicated process but you are lucky in a way. You have your sisters and many entities that can show you the way. And you have a singular goal. Going home. Once the way becomes clear and apparent you will be able to "fly away". Wonder what your "mother" said so far. The reason why I said it's "personal for everyone" because everyone has different goals as they work with their life/magic/timeline. And because of it you might not need to trouble yourself with many distractions that others have to deal with. Hope this made some sense. I tried to keep it simple but I am unsure how much sense it made for you. Spiritual "buoyancy" aka how you flow from one place to the next is not very simple at the start. How you go from one world/incarnation to the next and how you leave the samsara etc. Might say more later but I think this post was enough food for thought for today.

>>8014 >My love is pure yellow with white it's extremely pure it's a love for all thing alive you could call it love for life itself or a "love letter to god". Well guess what the "humans" here cannot handle it. So let's be smart spiders here how does someone who cannot know god respond to the love of god? It burns them! it fucking hurts them to the core! so they give it back to (me) the only way they understand it..PAIN PAIN PAIN! The first time I learned to channel higher energies I lost control over my body like I had epilepsy. It is always important to go down to the level of others when you talk to them mentally and energetically. I actually made people and animals freeze, tremble and get afraid out of nowhere because half my mind was still channeling some energies as I was doing my daily grind. It's always important to notice the light/potential of others and try to match their level. If you can feed their light/love properly they will shed their insecurities/negativity at ease but it's important to always let them do it at their own pace. Once a schizo almost bit off his own tongue as I tried to help him connect to his "God". Bluepilled schizos are the worst. You need to be extra careful with them. That was the moment when I had to realize that others are fragile. Way too fragile. Handle with care as the boxes say. This is why I am trying to understand the deeper layers of compassion and "true empathy". Being able to feel all their pain as you do the "surgery" on them. It's important to feel their weaknesses. Ofc I have to cure my own weaknesses before I can do charity work. Sometimes I notice problems within others that I realize I didn't fully solve yet within myself. It means I don't know how to help them. It's sad but that is how it is. Meddling with others too much has it's own drawbacks especially if you have no idea what you are doing. >but it sucks cuz to not get attacked i have to coat myself in spirits of rot and despair no i am serious here! There is an another way tho. I named it "dominant empathy" back in the day. It is about making the others feel the way you feel. You can call it presence or charisma but the goal is to find the frequency where they are amicable or friendly and try to enhance that energetic frequency of theirs. I can only use it IRL and I need to notice the pattern of the other person but I rarely use it nowadays. My charisma stat is better nowadays. Usually I use this ability to befriend pets when I am too bored. It's a good ego mastery practice. Seeing how the animal sees you. Oh and if you are crazy don't use it. If you transmit crazy energies others will also become crazy but in their own way. If their crazy is different than yours it might not work out well... Had to learn how to not feed the shadow issues of others. It was also a lesson of compassion and ego mastery. >Like if i am too pure i get attacked so i have to pretend being as degenerate so the normies chill around me. Try to make your light make "warmth" and not purging hot piercing light. Like staring at the sunrise or sundown is nice but staring at the sun at noon burns your retinas. Understand your light. Many forms of filth requires a flow of gentle and steady energies before it can be cleansed. Bruteforcing things and hiding your own light isn't the answer. Try to understand it. Also the human body has several pain nerves/circuits. All of them works differently. Currently I unlocked a new type of pain that shapes my body into form. I mostly use it to restore my energy circuits and not to look like Arnie in his prime but seems like that will be the endgoal. I have weird dreams with Arnie or Dolph Lundgren looking muscleguys when I reach some breakthroughs. Probably the pleiadian genetics doing. I had to get over my homophobia to understand what they are about. I thought I am being influenced by some faggotry media then it turned out my body was trying to explain it's internal energy flow. The flesh can talk in weird ways >I am under hell rn it's daaaaaark Go deeper. True light only manifests once you get used to the darkness. I don't think I should say more here. I rarely see darkness nowadays and i like the dark too much. Soothes the mind.

>>8093 >That "airship" is your "vessel". Like the "Merkabah" the "chariot of God". They can appear as ships and in other forms. That vessel will be your "completed form" that you can use for interdimensional travel. You will need to find all your shards unite them and once you know where you are going and you have a "shipping permit" aka "solved all your karma" and dropped all your "ballast" aka "earthly attachments" you are "free to go". Yeah, i think i might have found another shard last night, it was a bald middle aged man wearing a black robe, he was silent but a tad rude, forcing me out of my own bath tub and wanted me to bath with him (i was a girl with white hair) i wound going along with it and he seemed very satisfied, having slight smile so i suppose thats one more fragment dealt with. as far as earthl;y attachments go, i did finally beat orphan of kos in bloodborne last week after getting filtered for a year, felt like one less lingering thing off my conscience even if it was just a silly video game lmao >This is why "loving yourself" is important. Helps your shards fuse. Then having the "all encompassing love" and compassion to have the ability to fuse the parts of you that you think they are "Not (You)" for some reason. Like a part of you that you threw away in your childhood to escape a trauma and hid away deeply in your subconscious. Or a part you never had a chance to properly internalize in life yet. You will have to find those. I too just broke a large energy block in my brain yesterday and I am realizing how complicated this energetic "wholeness" can be. I see... >Yes. That pink woman is some sort of "love/passion". That force is necessary as a sort of "fusion". Your shards will need to fuse. There are many emotional frequencies and locks that let shards fuse or break. It is different for everyone. I too am working through this issue and it's not very simple. I too have cross life shards that I am finally having the chance to internalize but the process is not simple. I knew me seeing this pink elven woman wasnt coincidence, it was another connection just like lion king saber >Yes that happens. Always try to stay collected. But yes the mind has a tendency to go out of bounds when you unlock new parts of it. This is why meditating in a cave for years away from civilization is quite important in many traditions. Easier to forget those distracting mentalities we are poisoned with every day. But it's not important. Try to stay collected and feel/see why you are "falling apart". Understanding that let's you notice parts of you that "act out". I do try to ground myself and breathe it out a bit more of instead of always just letting the storm rage until it wears out >Yeah try to leave those faggots behind the friend that i told you about, he... basically agreed my sisters as well as far as the listening/talking to more women, etc. thing. so i dont call him master anymore but like i said before my sisters did give me permission about that other thing i mentioned before but as always i know my training and sisters comes first, i'll see and work with my friend after i do what i need to do >I was thinking about this for a while and... Fate Saber is literally "Minerva". Archetypically they share quite similar traits. Wisdom strategic leadership etc. I think she might be the next step you will have to understand. interesting.. i never know that.

"Shiva Anon" I sent you a thing, it should be on your astral desk. It's a book I had created, called "Rites of the temple", will be useful when dealing with your Russian girls. It's a modernized Atlanthean temple doctrine for its organization.

>>8109 Thanks. Tho my compatibility with those girls is extremely high. Rarely work with them "Personally" because we share similar goals. >It's a modernized Atlanthean temple doctrine for its organization. Yes it seems that way. I can read it and I can see the "formation" it tries to explain. Don't know what I will do with it. But if Atlantis is brought up I will mention an interesting trivia I found out a while ago. >>8095 The magic he was summoned with and was turned into a "living weapon" was done with "proto" atlantean magic. But he wasn't exactly summoned in Atlantis. Seems like the energy systems that atlanteans utilized existed before them but became widespread and utilized "perfectly" only in the Atlantean era. It's hard to talk about this topic tho. What constitutes as "atlantean" is hard to gauge because we know too little from that age and we can only rely on channeled knowledge. And the worst part is that most "channels" that they used for magic is either dried up or clogged. They can be reactivated but if you do that you will have to face the karma and deal with "new friends". I am taking slow and messing with these forces less nowadays. I have to prepare my mind-body for greater works like this. This matter is too serious to do it half heartedly. >it should be on your astral desk There are way too many things on it. Mostly tutorials for "beginners" because the realms/beings that "acknowledged me" usually leave some grimoirs for me. I am only being notified by urgent matters but I have forces that handle many of my urgent issues. The Gods told me that I don't need to focus on global issues because I will be "left alone" to pursue my path. And they kept their promise so far. This is why I am more "brown pilled" nowadays and only deal with stuff if they want to be "dealt with". I can take a break from this 4D chess to pursue my own 12D chess at least.

>>8118 >my compatibility with those girls is extremely high Mine is too, but that's not the point here. It's a temple organizational structure based off the one used in Atlantis, for how they should organize themselves to remain functional at all times, including when I make the leap into my Earth and temporarily lose the direct channel to them mentally. It doesn't matter how much I prepare, a new body in a new place won't have a mind, but will have to be built up from that context, which despite all the witchery, won't have the accuracy and knowledge I have here now, even though the set up has two parallel bodies, once diving into the physical one, the astral one will "disappear" from awareness for Idk how many years. So during that period they need to be able to deal with practical organization at their plane, knowing that they'll only communicate with my subconscious and I won't give direct orders anymore. That makes for some really "russian" arguments if there is no clear cut order structure already in place. By Atlanthean I just mean what was used in that era. It's a mix of doctrines and technologies. I also shared the "Rites of the temple" with anyone else who was interested. In short it explains the relations between the priest, the high priestess, the priestesses under her and the temple maids, and how they operate when either role is missing, temporarily or during the formation of a new temple.

>>8093 >Wonder what your "mother" said so far. ehh, nothing much from what i can recall, she just tells me the same thing my sisters tell me to do but... i can feel her aura, gentle yet very commanding so its easy for me to differentiate between her and my sisters >The reason why I said it's "personal for everyone" because everyone has different goals as they work with their life/magic/timeline. And because of it you might not need to trouble yourself with many distractions that others have to deal with. Hope this made some sense. I tried to keep it simple but I am unsure how much sense it made for you. Spiritual "buoyancy" aka how you flow from one place to the next is not very simple at the start. How you go from one world/incarnation to the next and how you leave the samsara etc. i see.. well, that does open up alot of things for me and makes me feel less... weird about it >Might say more later but I think this post was enough food for thought for today oh, no worries, this was good stuff. sorry i didnt respond to it yesterday, when it comes to the talks i have you with here (and my practitioner friend) i usually give these convos 2-3 time read over. I usually get it the first time but i just want to absorb and make sure i actually get it cause its like i said before, that weird thing where i get something but sh- i dont understand and vice versa. though due to the fusion more and more people are bringing attention to whenever i make typos and stuff one thing i forgot to mention about the pink elf woman was, one night she appeared and went into my current human body. it was like she turned into mist or something and slowly but surely started changing my body into exactly like hers and she kept talking about "Love and passion" saying how i will understand by being in that body or something to that effect

>>8094 >I lost control over my body like I had epilepsy Define higher I have no idea what that means anymore. I can take beatings usually so I couldn't tell you I was always in pain physical or otherwise. >It is always important to go down to the level of others when you talk to them mentally and energetically I don't know how. I am not human I can only pretend to act like one by reading everyone's mind of course they have no idea what they broadcast so what I do is wrong now I don't care what they think and it seems to be the lesson for me. I always did that but I only realized it now. One time my father got angry at me for greeting people in the wrong order when I was only following his expectation not to hurt him I do that all the time. I can also "look" using my other eyes which make me lick their innards and gonads and genitals to know the person but I lie to myself to maintain the facade because if I knew the kind of evil is dorment in "people" I would break things immediately. >I actually made people and animals freeze, tremble and get afraid out of nowhere because half my mind was still channeling some energies as I was doing my daily grind I channel all the time I don't know how to stop it short of becoming a rock and swallowing all my spread energies which make me freeze and go into maintenance mode which rips apart my skin and... Basically what we're trying to do I think. I scare everyone too but they don't realize it's me sometimes and due to loneliness I keep it in under immense pressure to pretend to be one of them so they attack me instead and then I explode and they get rekt or poisoned over time..they deserve it. >If you can feed their light/love properly they will shed their insecurities/negativity at ease but it's important to always let them do it at their own pace It did work with some people who could take my love. Animals are fine with me too they like me and I can tell what's wrong with them inately then I press their bodies and fix their ill. >Being able to feel all their pain as you do the "surgery" on them I do that by default friend I feel their pain and guide them through it it is when my benevolence is abused over and over that I lose it. My throne is love. I think it is a mistake to guide someone like this now it should only be for those who show benevolence themselves or for those we use one way or other. It should be seamless without a wave without a ripple even anything pulling is sin. >Oh and if you are crazy don't use it. Shoot..there is only chaos behind my mask and a throne >Arnie or Dolph Lundgren looking muscleguys Hot...might be because you are swimming too things appear like that Arnold, JFK something there now.. I wonder how much I'll be able to adapt this body myself I had to focus on the dantiens to not lose this one it felt like being outside strangling my neck with spider threads to puppet this body. I don't know how to use it so now I am forcing myself into it proper it's tanky so there is that. >Probably the pleiadian genetics doin I wonder what kind I have. Seem to be mixed with a lot of things. Tribal people with blond and red hair an aunt and cousin give off a weird Asian/Japanese vibe somehow, mother is inhuman but carry something old. I tried to trace it back made it to the garbage collector found some "revivers" but no ancestors yet I suppose. >Go deeper. True light only manifests once you get used to the darkness I hide it usually but I can be quite terrible. These forms require me to break in some ways. It's a form of destruction and I don't like using it. So I can survive that but I am making sure first.. That being said I can't speak freely yet. I wonder how much time we have left you have any idea? 6pm? Anyway I'll start pulling out energetically to come to a conclusion then we'll see if I can make these cycle works. I am terrible at grounding being mostly water I don't even dry my hand when I wash... Maybe I need to take things seriously.

Okay just had a strange dream which seem relavent to my post. I was watching Buffy yesterday finished season 2 when she left her home. Looked like her and was wearing similar hobo-mode clothes she wore when hiding from the cops. I was in a giant store drinking coffee remembering how I left everything behind looking at three girls shopping for flimsy fashionable clothes dolly vest with red flimsy dress underneath i started thinking: >they should wear practical clothes instead this is dumb They noticed me and came closer two to my left one almost behind the tall blond one in front to the right which started talking to me about her boyfriend, she told me his name which where I come from is quite common. Then I said: >it wouldn't be strange to have 30 people with that name in a class Which is an exageration. >hey that's funny that's the male version of Sophia! Then worke up. I don't think I hate people or helping them I just don't feel we can ever interact on the same level and I hate being used without compensation by people who aren't innocent but malicious in nature. Which is complicated to talk about since I don't even think they're malicious but rather so weak they get carried away by the simplest evil entity and in that case what are you doing being human. But the evil they carry isn't a "joke" so how can they do that? I have a feeling I can't even blame anyone it would be like blaming a rock and since knowing this stuff it falls on me to exorcise evil from them and fix things but it's not like I am parasite free either some are deeply burrowed.