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>we know words as concepts so that's how it appears when you receive the message, but that's a limitation we put on ourselves
Truth is it's more about "How much your mind can handle"
>It's more akin to a signal that you autotranslate using the closest words and meaning you can and that's close enough if you can read the feelings sent to you with each word.
Yes. Now my current problem is that I am receiving complete conversations within a single glimpse in a way I was "part of it" and said everything the way I would say if that conversation played out IRL. I have to get used to these "thought rushes" and figure out how the "throttle works" because even in my childhood I had moments of "Eureka" where I solved a problem completely then forgot the answer in seconds then I had to restart the whole process from mundane deduction and other down to earth problem solving perspectives because I couldn't keep up with my "genius". The magic of the mind can be truly peculiar as we uncover it's secrets.
>The spooky thing is i've been projecting the "wrong" rules and that's why there is a pattern in how every fucking entity interact with me.
Yeah many occultists have hard time understanding what is their authority/presence and why are they being constantly attacked/mistreated.
>I gotta git gud yes
And someone worthy of respect and awe. Hard to explain in a way the ego doesn't misinterpret it and makes it into an arrogant retardation.
>You can't really copy someone's else enlightenment process.
But you can learn from it nonetheless. Not to mention I know many people have their "favorite author" in these occult places and when I talk about stuff I encountered they might think I got that from an author that I never heard about. Not to mention I too want to read more so I can see how booksmart occultists are being influenced nowadays because these books have an energetic signature. Sometimes an author writes it while channeling some forces or some entity likes the writings of the author so much it "claims it" and after that it's important to know where "it comes from" especially once it starts to form circles cults and traditions.
>honestly i am kinda getting mad at all these teachers sects guru etc trying to force one way making people not trust their intuition cuz the ascended guru knows better..ugh
If he was
truly ascended then he would really know better but is he really on that level or he is just a little more experienced than the average spiritualist. Hard to say until you truly awaken. The problem with
(((modern spirituality))) that it became "trendy" and
(((profitable))). There was a reason why Jesus threw out the merchants from the temple. Once money and status becomes a thing in spirituality you cannot expect anything good longterm. Sadly I cannot say what is the right way either but you have to move forward no matter what.
>There is some shared truth and experience and you need some wisdom to not fuck it up but it's still deeply personal even if it's the same spell you'll go through different stuff :/.
Yupp
>I try too hard instead of letting it flow.
Figuring the proper amount of effort takes time.
>Storage is cheaper these days so i just might start hoarding.
This is how I thought like 5 years ago. I will build my gaymin paysee my occult hoard library and become a cyber hermit that will collect everything and study it as long as it takes... was not aware that I can literally connect to infinite amount of knowledge via tuning my mind a little above the average mundane capabilities.
Still not willing to delete my data tho. I am still unable to let go of these digital treasures I collected through the years even tho the average occult libraries that are being shared on /t/ are sometimes even bigger. So many books I have no idea when will I even bother reading them. Maybe never maybe tomorrow.
>but like most magic books are boring to me
They had to go through an "editor" and back then the "scientific mindset" was the "accepted way of writing" which means if you want schizoesque flow of consciousness writings full with emotions truth and an uncanny drivel that makes it entertaining then... you know the place you have to come back to lol
Wonder what will be the next level of my expression tbh
>wait how do i know how it works?
How do you know how your arms work? By cultivating awareness ofc.
>Complicated steps take the magic out of magic for me.
Sometimes they are necessary. "Magic" only looks "magical" and "mysterious" for the onlookers who have no idea wtf is happening. Once you are not just a "dabbler" but
the embodiment of the true way all the limitations and the "rules" will take an absolutely different meaning and you will understand why some steps are necessary and which ones are skippable. Was weird learning that ritual magicians "sacrificed" so much incense and other materials that there was literally a dimension full with the "leftover energies" and merely connecting to that dimension summoned the entity. Some stuff can be so weird once you can breach the veil with less effort than opening your eyes in the morning.
>It should be effortless a hand gesture at most if you need extra power on the spot
Then you reach the state of the "true intent" the force that shapes reality itself and not even sure what "party tricks" you should even employ anymore. Reality is weird. Especially as you awaken. You feel you can do anything then you realize that it's not exactly that way but the rules gained a new definition that you can utilize better as your awareness of them grows. Always annoying to talk about those "rules" because you have to make sure the person you are talking with is on your wavelength otherwise it's like explaining what is a TV to a caveman.
>Yeah we play the role of the elements and this thread is the "body" everybody plays their role.
More like a stage for our "play" but yeah it's a good example otherwise. In the past especially in ancient Greece there were open debates and plays to explain for the audience the nature of things. My goal was to make something similar. Supposedly this is the original purpose of the forums anyways.
>It made me happy seeing everyone arguing but i got too excited so i had to isolate myself for a bit :/.
Yeah the energies were going into several directions. Was not sure if they should be contained or they should play out and reach a "natural equilibrium". I chose the latter because I don't want to make this my "personal thread" with hard energetic rules because it should be carefree as a
playground of enlightenment so to speak. I don't want it to become too forced. That limits expression.
>Idk if i am the level where i can stop eating and drinking though.
Watch out with that. Food is a limitation at first where fasting is recommended so you become more receptive to "divine guidance" but once your energetic reactions become prevalent and you don't have enough grounding it can cause a nuclear chain reaction within your body and psyche and until you don't know how to handle the extra energies weird stuff can happen.
I started fasting and stopped fapping at the same time while my awakening was taking up it's speed because I thought I am "above it" and... let's say I had to understand why some things need to be done in baby steps and in "moderation" until figuring out the proper balance. My mind was on a glorious fire and if I was innawoods alone as a hermit the natural balance would have appeared on it's own but while being entangled in mundane retardation? Madness upon madness. Psychic anomaly galore. But it was necessary for me. My thirst was too strong to not let it overtake me
>You can get spiritually attacked but what is getting attacked exactly?
Depends on the layer you are interacting on. Once your energies truly awaken it is like attacking a firestorm a tsunami a whirlwind etc. Learning to increase my awareness and sensitivity became more paramount than to amass "power". I am not sure what even constitutes as an attack anymore. Once I realize they "truly mean it" I can activate my "rules of engagement"
>It's like defending a dead man like bruh
Akchully most spirits like to "stay on their domain" aka only fight on their preferred wavelength/vibration. So they kinda dislike when you throw them into the lower tracts of your digestion or into "hard" emelemtal dimensions if they are "Higher" while lower spirits really hate when you burn their entire essence into a pure material via higher energies. Everyone has their range. Even your mind and body.
>i am sure there is a nuance here
There is.
>that i'm missing
No this is an important realization. Spirits that have hard time to manifest in the earthern sphere of existence cannot "attack" the flesh body especially it has pristine elements. For them that battlefield is unfavorable so they will brainwash you lure you into realms that gives them an edge etc. while lower spirits can become spooky ass poltergeists in some scenarios or posses others and you have to rip them apart with your awakened energies so they cannot stay stable and manifested in the gross reality. Every being has their silver bullet but that doesn't mean this violent and kill or be killed approach is the one you must pursue till the end. There is a stage where clarity and truth is paramount and every confusion and fear can be dissipated and this warlike mentality becomes more of a burden. But you will see it once you are there. Everything breaks so easily. Learning the art of healing always gives me more insight how strong or fallible we are once the energies are moved differently.
>but this ego stuff is annoying.
Extremely.
>difference between protecting your integrity material whatever and protecting the "ego" from things that might change him.
Yeah but you have to realize which is which and I cannot draw a clear line between them yet either. I realized I dislike the word "ego" a while ago. It's not always negative. It has a reason and a purpose to exist. Hard to explain what is it in our world of misconceptions and pointless deceits.
>The part of me that know it all i guess that would be the higher self.
There is a part of a mind. The "Observer" the "ever silent". Once you learn to "Become it" you can change the angle of your perception in a way you can attune yourself to your higher self better. After that you might see the true purpose of the ego.
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>I was meditating and got splashed by a ball of water as big as me felt too real so now i can reproduce it.
Wow. I had to "christen" myself with a bowl of cold water while going almost insane in the middle of the night because my internal elements were going haywire. My spirit was not willing to "stay contained" within the body and had to give it a "reminder". Itwassuchacrazynight.
>I realize how dense i am sometimes i have to be hit by the magic to reproduce it.
That's the proper way of learning. See the phenomenon experience it on "your skin" then reproduce it. Doing everything by pure intuition is kinda scary. It's like constantly being washed by the waves without letting yourself drown in a way you don't even "try to swim". Keeping the focus and the awareness "afloat" becomes a trouble because you just want to either get out of the water by reflex or some "deep calling" wants to make you drown or dive even deeper and you will need to know if you are ready for that or not. It's fucking fun btw if you don't let your inner paranoid schizo panic and ruin the whole process.