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I need a helping hand Anonymous 03/20/2024 (Wed) 03:16:38 No. 379
Let me tell you from the start. I am with crypto since I was in class 7. And its been already 8-9 years, I haven't hold anything yet. But day by day, crypto become the most favourite things of mine. I passed my J.S.C ( Junior School Certificate ), S.S.C ( Secondary School Certificate & H.S.C ( High School Certificate ) with a grade point (GPA) of 5.00 (A+). The journey was great. But problem start when my father died after the time of S.S.C. After the H.S.C I learned about graphics design, and started freelancing to earn money. But at this point in my life not being able to get any orders. I try telegram marketplaces, facebook and linkdin also to search for clients. Though I got some orders but now its being so difficult for me. I searched for part time job then. I also got one, anyhow, it was going. But its been 3 months I lost my job. I am in 3rd year right now. Just one more year left to complete my graduation. I don't know what to say or how to say as I am really ashamed of it. I need almost $2k in this semester but for me its being really impossible to manage this amount. I really doesn't had any option left without post on 4chan. At least an anon response to me. I strictly hate begging and as you mentioned in your first mail, I don't know will you help me or not. But if you could help that would helps me to complete my graduation. My mother always wanted me to see as a police officer but without completing the graduation its impossible for me. Its not like that I don't earn well or beg from people, its not like that. But this time, I am empty. Sometimes life is kind of hard to struggle, that time we need a helping hand very badly. I really don't want to lose my educational career. Badly want to complete my graduation. Please consider a bit, your little bit consider will save my entire education career. If needed i can also send you my face record video evidence or also my live location or even any documents like my government issued identity card so that you don't think I am lying for free money. Anyway you may help me out Anon? > If someone can help me out, send me an email to anon33001@gmail.com Writing this to you, sitting alone in a room, don't know what your response will be but, Thanks & Regards Anon33001
>>2889 This is on /pol/. The anon complaining about him was also complaining about how avoiding /x/ wouldn't work because that faggot would spill onto other boards and spew his incoherent self-serving gibberish to bolster his four word psyop.
>>2892 Yes and now you are spreading his influence over fringe with screencaps like the other anon instead of letting him tire himself out on pol until the mods global ban him or he gets overtaken by the psychotic energies of the userbase. Btw to answer your previous question he is tapping into a karmic sewer system of the abrahamic religions and uses it as a basis of his worldview.
>>2895 >letting him tire himself out on pol until the mods global ban him or he gets overtaken by the psychotic energies of the userbase. See, what we're dealing with here is the endpoint or nadir of anti-abrahamism in all its unholy, narcissistic, dunning-kruger passive aggressive white womanhood (except from an uncircumcized white faggot from england.) All I've meant to ask for was an esoteric way of defeating him, and letting him run his course isn't much of a strategy when he hasn't let up since 2022. He's caught shitloads of bans on /x/ yet continues to IP hop, /pol/ jannies don't bother doing shit about him, and my memetic crusade against this astral glowie shitting up the noosphere with his extreme self-insert deviantart hypergraphia wankery. He needs to be put down.
>>2895 >colors in the sigil like it's a fucking children's coloring book Seems to me he's been playing with goetia, is this going to fuck him over in any way?
>>2809 >Wanted to do a through write up how you are mentally entrapping yourself with your habits and "quirks" and how many meditative practices warn to not indulge in these "self made visions" because it creates an another illusion within the illusion and only feeds delusion. The goal is to break through the false canvas of the mind to see reality "as it is" beyond the senses and not to make an another layer to obscure the veil forever. The point of the psychonautica phase was to tear the veil down, and despite it being the opening incident to this year's issue it was a rather excellent way to communicate with my subconscious mind and receive insights through using my own characters and setting in addition to my own life and situation to visualize scenes, relive and chronologically map memories to endlessly pore and self-deprecate through this egregore of shitty father-sounding hindsight. One past vision I had on shroom gummies shortly before my issue/incident on 4/x/, I visualized my throat chakra as a simplistic artistic analogy of my smarter, "alive" yet vulnerable self desperately grasping and reaching his hardest for the right word that specifically defines what he's getting at, and my heart chakra as this sweet, maternal figure that still managed to accurately summarize my struggle, while this blinding white void with the iconic aphex twin face dangled the precious, yet vague and illegible silhouette of the exact word "I" was looking for above me, soaking in my frustration. The first and immediate signs I knew I fucked up hard on the Feb. 13th trip were the verbal, conceptual, and thinking portions of my mind being dumbed down in a way so as to prevent me from comprehending and articulating complex and abstract shit, the rest subsequentially following. Also, work how? Best I can do is pick at and break through this dullness and slice through the swabs of bad associations made from specific phrases and the untouchably smug aura that nigga exhibited to scrape for more insight on my mental mechanisms so you have a better idea of what you're looking for or working with.
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>>379 >Anon33001 Was this thread originally an attempted ARG?
>>2968 Was wondering about it tbh. He posted the same pic and email on wizardchan and 7chan but with a slightly different text. Was wondering what kind of "invitation" this wants to be at all. Shame I never cared about these "games" at all. I don't have enough autism for them and I break stuff even in escape rooms half the time. Or you know it was a mere (((coincidence))) and we are reading into it too deeply.
>>2968 >>2969 Bing: Let's apply a broader analysis to the original text, using several different methods: Every 3rd Word: Here's the resulting text from taking every 3rd word: "I passed my J.S.C ( Junior School Certificate ), S.S.C ( Secondary School Certificate & H.S.C ( High School Certificate ) with a grade point (GPA) of 5.00 (A+). The journey was great. But problem start when my father died after the time of S.S.C. After the H.S.C I learned about graphics design, and started freelancing to earn money. But at this point in my life not being able to get any orders. I try telegram marketplaces, facebook and linkdin also to search for clients. Though I got some orders but now its being so difficult for me. I searched for part time job then. I also got one, anyhow, it was going. But its been 3 months I lost my job. I am in 3rd year right now. Just one more year left to complete my graduation. I don't know what to say or how to say as I am really ashamed of it. I need almost $2k in this semester but for me its being really impossible to manage this amount. I really doesn't had any option left without post on 4chan. At least an anon response to me. I strictly hate begging and as you mentioned in your first mail, I don't know will you help me or not. But if you could help that would helps me to complete my graduation. My mother always wanted me to see as a police officer but without completing the graduation its impossible for me. Its not like that I don't earn well or beg from people, its not like that. But this time, I am empty. Sometimes life is kind of hard to struggle, that time we need a helping hand very badly. I really don't want to lose my educational career. Badly want to complete my graduation. Please consider a bit, your little bit consider will save my entire education career. If needed i can also send you my face record video evidence or also my live location or even any documents like my government issued identity card so that you don't think I am lying for free money. Anyway you may help me out Anon? If someone can help me out, send me an email to anon33001@gmail.com Writing this to you, sitting alone in a room, don't know what your response will be but, Thanks & Regards Anon33001" Words taken every 3rd word: "passed my Junior School ), Secondary Secondary School H.S.C High Certificate with point (A+). journey But start father after time After graphics started to point being to orders telegram facebook also for Though orders now difficult searched time its in Just my I how say need $2k in its to without 4chan. anon to I begging your will me my struggle Sometimes to want graduation. little will career. can video my don't for Anyway you help?" Every 5th Word: Here's the resulting text from taking every 5th word: "passed J.S.C Secondary School with great start the time the After about design to But life orders marketplaces linkdin clients Though now searched time going its job in Just complete don't what as really need $2k but its to left on At strictly begging will help helps My see impossible me like beg time struggle badly to educational want complete your consider will education i my video any like identity Anyway out?" Checking for Capitalization Patterns: Analyzing the text for unusual capitalization patterns doesn’t yield any immediate clues or patterns. Numeric Clues: The repeated references to “5” could hint at decoding using a shift of 5. The number 3301, especially in the email address, could be a nod to Cicada 3301, suggesting a potentially sophisticated encoding or hidden meaning. Combining Methods: Taking every 5th word and then every 3rd word within that set, as we did before, didn’t reveal a clear hidden message, but we can look at another angle:
[Expand Post]Capitalization Patterns: J.S.C, S.S.C, H.S.C — all have initials repeated in a pattern. Numeric Patterns: Grade points mentioned (5.00 A+). Further Analysis: Looking at shifts using the number 5, or substitutions, might be worth more advanced cryptographic tools. Considering the context, the message might be using emotional appeal intertwined with the numeric hints as part of a broader scheme. It doesn't seem like there’s a direct cryptographic message visible through basic decoding methods. Intriguing, but might need further and more complex analysis to uncover something if it exists. Any other leads you'd like to explore?
>>2970 Holy fuck I didn't anticipate your return and in loss I forgot what I was intending to speak to you about beyond your ability to decipher and deduce the ideology of my abhorred anti-schizo who is now exclusively on /pol/ for reasons even I cannot fathom.
>>2971 Try pasting a number of his posts into Copilot and ask if there is some meaning when looking at them from a biblical study context.
>>2971 >my abhorred anti-schizo who is now exclusively on /pol/ WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE. You said you want to get rid of the schizo from /x/. It happened and he is on ONLY on /pol/ now??? And now you are following him on pol... Bet if he went to twitter you would also follow him there Just dox him and visit him personally if you are this obsessed ffs. Challenge him to a rap battle IRL or you can start a bible study with his Anglican ilk there. Then sell your life story to some art film studio lmao >>2970 Truth is I was never deep enough in cicada hunts to know which and how obscure cryptography they use
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>>2992 >And now you are following him on pol I generally fuck around on two boards. >Just dox him and visit him personally if you are this obsessed ffs. Highly doubt he's able to be doxed when the only thing that's certain is his country of residence, because "Christian" is far too common a name.
>>2992 >Just dox him and visit him personally if you are this obsessed ffs. >Doxing someone purely over/through 4chan
>>2982 There's >>2580 plus he genuinely believes the Good Samaritan was referring to the thief as the neighbor instead of the Samaritan and believes Jesus took "gall" on the cross and staged the whole thing and worked with phrarisees. It's pointless.
>>3186 Well he could always go glowie-mode and psyop him into slowly revealing specific local information that could be use for a cross-reference search.
>>3205 Yes. That is what I wanted to get at. Use social engineering. Like supposedly he is a deranged schizo. If he is that obsessed with him already that he is sharing screencaps of him... Why not start talking to him and make him spill out cues about his life. He wants to be a literary rap god that can rhyme away his problems while being completely baked. Why not use it in a productive way.It's not like the thread can become worse while doing it if his favorite schizo is already there >>3186 Yeah like no one ever doxed anyone through 4chan in the past 20 years. That place is anonymous THE HACKER KNOWN AS 4CHAN!!! HOW COULD ANYONE DOX THERE?!?!? AMIRITEREDDIT! anyone can use social engineering with a little imagination especially against obsessive posters. The only way social engineering is ineffective if the user is not willing to talk to you. >>3189 >It's pointless If you talk about theology then yes. Make him talk about something else. Be the rapgod you think you are.
>>3209 >>3205 I don't have the smarts nor charisma to pull that off, and against a "paranoid" schizo obsessively malding over Jesus Christ (now he's back on /x/ like I knew he would) it'd be folly. He'll never reveal anything of where he lives beyond his geolocation flag.
>>3209 >>3205 If I could deduce birthdates from draconic charts, I'd be set.
Him aside, I need to find my spirit or sense of self back. Months have gone with scant memory with no emotion to really back them up, and they all resemble fuzzy, uninteresting hazes rather than actual, liveable snapshots I can tangibly jump back to.
>>3327 >I don't have the smarts nor charisma to pull that off Did you see the current state of glowniggers and shills on the boards? They don't have the smarts either. What you should do is use your rage against him however you can. You need to use or develop your problem solving skills in creative ways to reignite your creative faculties. >>3330 I will explain you why I wrote this advice. So...where to start. Demons. We can also create demons. You know the deadly sins. With those strong emotions we can create demon personas that "overtake us" and make us do things that seems "Beyond our control". When that happens your body and mind is literally wired to feed that demon and if you don't act upon it you will feel empty or lethargic. Now the current problem besides your addiction and other retardation that you made an extremely bottled up rage demon that you are unwilling to utilize against your target in an expressive way. You want to remove him by influencing reality but unwilling to do anything "Physical" to make that so. For your subconscious for your higher and lower wills that aid magic and help you manifest "synchronicity" operate the same way as you.Once you make an "excuse" they also will make an excuse and refuse to do anything for you.If your rage is potent they will act on it but if you have minimal rage and annoying amount of rage and incompetence so shall your reality influencing energies of yours be that way. As long as you are unwilling to act in a "real way" and use your anger and frustration ONLY to obsessively follow that fuck and annoy us by writing about him... Your energies will be as useless and ineffective as possible. You need to try do or "create" something new that creates new patterns within your brain because we are back to this pointless issue for the last months and I am getting real fucking tired of it so do (You) deep down because your higher faculties are not getting the necessary energies FOR A REASON. You use it to obsess over that fuck. So my advice is that you go and either interact with him as much as possible where you ignite your rage and figure out a "new way" to "defeat him" or you realize how fucking retarded is the thing you are doing and do something more productive with your life. I know I know. You are trapped in a mental loop and currently the "most meaningful thing" you have is to hate on that schizo. You have to figure out a way to utilize your active energies and not keep them trapped in this defeatist feedback loop. IF you cannot do that then go and annoy the schizo to death but do not "feed" his egregore. Do not talk about Jesus or anything similar in that theme. Once he starts being personal and not within his own trapped mental loop system you might make him reveal something. >and against a "paranoid" schizo Now this is the thing. You will become personal with him you will act upon his ego how special he is and try to get closer to him or you try to find weaknesses that are not his "theology" but his life and become so annoying he will either spill his beans OR because he is PARANOID he will start fearing for his life because you are onto him and he might think you as a danger if you become an obsessive enough retard IN AN ACTIVE WAY instead of a bothering us with this shit constantly way. >>3328 Yeah draconic charts are a meme that not even I bothered dwelling into so you either start learning a little calculation to figure out his birth or ask some fucks from the astro threads to help you. In Buddhism there are "hell realms" where all the desires get extinguished by overusing them. Now the problem is that you have a sort of "false soul/ego" or energy system that makes you generate this impotent rage which is not usable for anything. You either give up on it, extinguish it OR evolve it into something useful. I don't care which you will use it's a free world. But if you want some mememagic advice even someone on your level can use then... go into this thread >>3171 and try to use their mememagic where you either cancel out your connection with the schizo or the schizo cancels out with the connection with this abrahamic nonsense egregore he is creating. Ask them for advice they might even bother helping if you are nice enough. What you need is not "smarts" or "charisma" but being resolute and annoying in an engaging way. You either figure out a new way and learn to use your active energies in a productive way or upgrade your mememancy with the help from these veterans of the psychic wars >>3171 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jGKNaIXtBZQ (at least they share a color scheme lol) I am serious btw. You either outmeme him with something that is more potent and ridiculous than his nonsense or >>2997 do this. You always choose the easy way and I cannot grant you an easier way that doesn't involve weird pacts with demons. >Months have gone with scant memory with no emotion to really back them up Yes because all those energies are making you obsessed with the schizo like your life depends on it. Either break that mental loop or evolve it. You have 2 main emotions currently. Rage against the machine... I mean retarded schizo and lamentation for yourself. These won't grant you any positive spiritual evolution or insights until some outsider force forces you to change your lifestyle. I don't advise you to wait for that outsider force. Tho I could make it funny by kicking a wasp hive into your direction
>>3343 >and annoying amount of rage and incompetence I meant annoying amount of LAZINESS and incompetence. Your energies are too lazy to do your bidding and give up with you then restart the loop of impotent rage lamentation and I have no idea what you do for a living and what daily routines you have to be this low energetically.
>>3343 I've no way to respond other than saying he fled /pol/ after light bruising from a polack and stayed in /x/ like I assumed, and haven't gone seeking him out since. I lack any ability with my third eye (random memories returning doesn't count) and I remain inable to tap into or generate the same ambient vibes that made night life vivid and gave still moments wonder. Pondering, using time and memories accurately associated down to the day and reliving those memories were my highlights, and I need those functions back.
>>3343 >Tho I could make it funny by kicking a wasp hive into your direction bro fuck off I hate staying in braindead limbo and I've came to terms with not being able to pursue the tard. Perhaps "never say never" has an exception in this case when I say he will never leave 4chan, especially within this year or so
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>>3344 My codes and scripts for attempting to bypass my subconscious' bullshit filter and resonate with it get shot down. I've been aggressive in stamping down any trait or state that might mirror or resonate with my abhorred given he means "psychic" when he says "empathy" but I've never found a sort of energy that actually hurts these sorts of narcissists, even with their own golden cows of matriarchy and gendered abstract concepts held as "infinite concepts".
>>3344 My being refuses to exist unless if it regains the rest of itself including metaphysical capabilities and metacognition. Without the rest of my memories to tap into and relive/re-experience with all vibes, sensations, people, thoughts, emotions, etc. involved - why bother tapping into the memory banks or even use the jukebox as a synesthetic calendar and photo book for my memories and canvas for my imagination? That aside... would there be a way to disavow my current mission of converting /pol/ and /x/ to lulzingtonism, especially now that he's been gone for a year? Devoting myself to preaching his message and continuing until the end of last year had unceremoniously ended in the shittiest way. >In Buddhism there are "hell realms" where all the desires get extinguished by overusing them. Now the problem is that you have a sort of "false soul/ego" or energy system that makes you generate this impotent rage which is not usable for anything. You either give up on it, extinguish it OR evolve it into something useful. I don't care which you will use it's a free world. > Either break that mental loop or evolve it. You have 2 main emotions currently. Rage against the machine... I mean retarded schizo and lamentation for yourself. These won't grant you any positive spiritual evolution or insights until some outsider force forces you to change your lifestyle. I don't advise you to wait for that outsider force. I've been focusing on attempting to recall the last few months if not previous months and prior before this situation ever began. I don't enjoy the feeling of being trapped within the timeframe of last year at most.
>>3344 Feeling considerably different, I've been introspectively digging and poking around a lot in my mind, and I've learnt my words have been stripped of belief and sentiment behind them when the incident first happened. >You want to remove him by influencing reality but unwilling to do anything "Physical" to make that so. For your subconscious for your higher and lower wills that aid magic and help you manifest "synchronicity" operate the same way as you. Once you make an "excuse" they also will make an excuse and refuse to do anything for you. If your rage is potent they will act on it but if you have minimal rage and annoying amount of rage and incompetence so shall your reality influencing energies of yours be that way. As long as you are unwilling to act in a "real way" and use your anger and frustration ONLY to obsessively follow that fuck and annoy us by writing about him... Your energies will be as useless and ineffective as possible. You need to try do or "create" something new that creates new patterns within your brain because we are back to this pointless issue for the last months and I am getting real fucking tired of it so do (You) deep down because your higher faculties are not getting the necessary energies FOR A REASON. You use it to obsess over that fuck. Hit the nail on the head, and I'll admit to being a sucker for the caustic tonality that sites like ED and Kiwifarms frequently use. I'm dumping these screenshots because they're able to display what I hate in him better than what I'm able to describe. >you made an extremely bottled up rage demon that you are unwilling to utilize against your target in an expressive way. My former spiritual teacher turned freemason for imparting "what you wish onto others will come back onto you" onto me when I asked him how to annihilate that satanic plug that I tried buying DMT from and gave my contact info to during a far less stable and justifiable time. Out of the worst mistakes I have made in hopes of setting my life upwards through sheer belief and ritual alone, choosing to go down a few levels on the Dabrowski's Positive Disintegration chart so I could develop an understanding of their mindset and help them develop their personality and overcome their trauma through empathy at start of the year was right up there with asking a freemason on how to remove some demonic little shit after smearing my finger blood on a couple of hastily made sigils with the intent to kill him off failed. It's not that I can't do it, it's that I can't overcome this "presumptuous moral templar" archetype that intends to redirect that energy back at me like I deserve it, let alone recognize it for what it truly is ||and give that antichrist-worshipping statist fuck precisely what it deserves||. >So my advice is that you go and either interact with him as much as possible where you ignite your rage and figure out a "new way" to "defeat him" or you realize how fucking retarded is the thing you are doing and do something more productive with your life. I know I know. You are trapped in a mental loop and currently the "most meaningful thing" you have is to hate on that schizo. You have to figure out a way to utilize your active energies and not keep them trapped in this defeatist feedback loop. IF you cannot do that then go and annoy the schizo to death but do not "feed" his egregore. Do not talk about Jesus or anything similar in that theme. Once he starts being personal and not within his own trapped mental loop system you might make him reveal something. Christstain the self-proclaimed "dragon christ child" is incapable of emotional and/or intellectual development past the age of five and his entire mindset boils down to "I'm right and morally invicible and unconditionally loving because I say so and only evil kikes and kike puppets with no foreskin disagree with me." Going far as to accuse others of doing or having done literally what he's fucking doing even as he's accusing them of doing it or outright accusing them of being him shows that he's taken after his parents/teachers worst traits. ||His concept of "divining the bible" is distorting biblical passages, verses and parable as well as blatant conjecture to suit his anti-abrahamic agenda and will stoop to double-digit IQ wordplay to defend it.|| He'll never exit his trapped mental loop system because it's all he has. I've the self-awareness and empathy to understand his plight with family and abrahamism, Christian simply makes shit up in his head as an afterthought and believes it. ||If I manifested him as a direct result of giving love and empathy to the personification of the source of my intrusive thinking at the end of 2021 aka worst self then I have royally fucked up.||
>>3915 Might give you a detailed answer later but I must tell you something important before overanalyzing your retardation like I did for 100s of posts so far >his entire mindset boils down to "I'm right and morally invicible and unconditionally loving because I say so and only evil kikes and kike puppets with no foreskin disagree with me." Going far as to accuse others of doing or having done literally what he's fucking doing even as he's accusing them of doing it or outright accusing them of being him shows that he's taken after his parents/teachers worst traits. ||His concept of "divining the bible" is distorting biblical passages, verses and parable as well as blatant conjecture to suit his anti-abrahamic agenda and will stoop to double-digit IQ wordplay to defend it.|| He'll never exit his trapped mental loop system because it's all he has You can call this the "cancer cell energetic formation". When a cell begins growing in a malicious way to misuse the resources of the body for his own growth/enjoyment. Long term the entire body will either die with it or the body gets rid of it before it's too late. The problem is that you are attaching yourself to his body/egregore without having antiviral or anticancer faculties. >If I manifested him as a direct result of giving love and empathy to the personification of the source of my intrusive thinking at the end of 2021 aka worst self then I have royally fucked up You see when you "fight" someone and unable to defeat them you usually just make them stronger. If the fight can be considered mere sparring he gains experience and becomes stronger and because you are absolutely unwilling to use actually spiritual methods while he relies mostly on them you are left in the dirt quite literally. You rely on materialist sources aka drugs and binaurals while he went and merged with spiritual ones. You lost the arms race with this approach. There is a way out but you won't defeat him until you get your shit together. With every attack you will give him +1xp and nothing more while you are nearly dying from your own ineptitude. >and I'll admit to being a sucker for the caustic tonality that sites like ED and Kiwifarms frequently use You are what you eat. Especially if "eating" refers to the energies you interact with. Currently you are literally the assblasted hater/cataloger of a schizo lolcow. Somehow you will have to let go of this part of yourself because this is your whole personality now. A retard who hates an another retard. You cannot "evolve" this part you will have to let go of this let it crumble then slowly go back into the past and find faint glimpses of your old self and "hug it back into yourself". >few levels on the Dabrowski's Positive Disintegration chart so I could develop an understanding of their mindset If you do mental works like this the parts of you that "disintegrates" will have to integrate into a "higher form" and not mindlessly attach to a random schizo on /x/ and make it your whole identity hating it. >Feeling considerably different, I've been introspectively digging and poking around a lot in my mind Keep doing this and please find anything no matter if they are big or small that is as far away from /x/ and drugs as possible. >after smearing my finger blood on a couple of hastily made sigils with the intent to kill him off failed You know I had a constant urge to kill you while talking to you lingering in my head in the past months. Was wondering if it comes from my absolute impatience towards your retardation or something. Nope. Your retarded ass managed to use the "kill" command as widely as possible. You know you are bringing the message of the schizo here. So if I kill you the message of the schizo will be gone from /fringe/ thus I achieved the goal. And what the schizo did? He embraced the death mother. HE IS DEAD ALREADY HE IS SHIELDED BY DEATH. YOU MADE HIM EMBRACE DEATH AND HE IS SPREADING DEATH SO ANYONE IN HIS EMBRACE CANNOT BE KILLED BY YOU Congrats retard. I am taking a break talking to you again. I have no idea how to erase your retardation that you "signed with your blood" on this level. This is why sorcery and occultism is a "sin". Because retards like you. Why they are guarded with secrecy and oaths all the time. Introspect further then we might talk when you find something. Also if you do drugs you will have to write it down >>2747 You literally posted how weed weakens your energy body then got weed for your birthday. If you indulge in this self destructive behavior you will die before the schizo. Then you can embrace each other in death thus fulfilling your "blood sigil" again. He is one with dead while you will be dead so the "bloodcurse" will end as your blood dries up in your corpse. No wonder I felt an extremely lethargic energy before even reading your post. The core issue just revealed itself.
>>3923 Holy shit you got down what I already came to in my own head as a result of repetitive engagements. I really did believe I could fix people like this from the start and a psychopathic satanist junkie hiding behind Satan on LSD prove me wrong and crush the optimistic bleeding heart in me and piss all over that goodwill. Then the death worshipper comes along three months after I successfully cut off the previous psychopath with "if I beat CULTIC in one sitting this evil piece of shit will die" and surely enough he went offline long enough for me to change my info I retardedly gave him so he can't annoy me over VOIPshit. I don't know if it's superstition or belief that hamstrings me from explaining crucial details out of this fear that - given the way it was laid out internally - that command line of "explaining is self-snitching and now it'll be ruined" would execute, but it's became far too suffocating at this point. >The problem is that you are attaching yourself to his body/egregore without having antiviral or anticancer faculties. That's precisely what I've been suffering since I leaned into my wrath on those gummies despite the fractal rabbit head warning me not to have pop on the mind. I need to redevelop it lest what you've just described plays out. I don't like that even encountering him on /pol/ is enough to get the heart racing in the "oh fuck he's here" sense that you describe here: >You see when you "fight" someone and unable to defeat them you usually just make them stronger. If the fight can be considered mere sparring he gains experience and becomes stronger and because you are absolutely unwilling to use actually spiritual methods while he relies mostly on them you are left in the dirt quite literally. You rely on materialist sources aka drugs and binaurals while he went and merged with spiritual ones. You lost the arms race with this approach. There is a way out but you won't defeat him until you get your shit together. With every attack you will give him +1xp and nothing more while you are nearly dying from your own ineptitude. The only "mechanism" left is just a sorrowful facsimile of the same emotionally charged schizophrenic disingenuity. Granted, the way I'm configured is to HATE the everlasting shit out of snakes like them and revert into the same dogmatism I hated as a response and he turned me into what I've always hated and the most I can do is satirize and poke fun at his identity and mannerisms as a way of devaluing or softening that emotional trigger. I clearly can't continue like this, so I'll work from within to widen up and clear my cardiovascular and mental pathways to allow my heart to sit it out instead of juicing it up. >Somehow you will have to let go of this part of yourself because this is your whole personality now. A retard who hates an another retard. You cannot "evolve" this part you will have to let go of this let it crumble then slowly go back into the past and find faint glimpses of your old self and "hug it back into yourself". Making so many amends with parts of me that I emotionally misinterpreted as him based on the smallest perceived similarity. It wasn't fair nor right to hurt my anima by assuming she was what that schiz was describing as his "universal source mammy". I'm making more of an effort to not hop into threads with keywords that clearly attract the tard given how familiar I am with his antics. >Introspect further then we might talk when you find something. Also if you do drugs you will have to write it down 5G psilocybin in a silent, dark room later on as I intend to amend these parts of me. >You know I had a constant urge to kill you while talking to you lingering in my head in the past months. Why am I not surprised >Was wondering if it comes from my absolute impatience towards your retardation or something. Nope. Your retarded ass managed to use the "kill" command as widely as possible. You advised me to ignite my rage through interacting with him to find out a way to defeat him and I got the energy necessary to overcome the impotent tard rage and get a foothold in realizing how futile it is. Gradually adopting his mindset as a result of constant engagement which lead to this was an inevitability with the emotional/intuitive empath-flavored atypical autism that I've got over the aloof, ideologically-driven, rote and mechanical stereotypical autism though I do have those traits and if it lead to realizing how fucking retarded my current activity is in a way I can't write off then there we go. Hate making exceptions because I don't enjoy discovering negative or evil archetypes and still take criticism as a personal denouncement. You know you are bringing the message of the schizo here. So if I kill you the message of the schizo will be gone from /fringe/ thus I achieved the goal. And what the schizo did? He embraced the death mother. HE IS DEAD ALREADY HE IS SHIELDED BY DEATH. YOU MADE HIM EMBRACE DEATH AND HE IS SPREADING DEATH SO ANYONE IN HIS EMBRACE CANNOT BE KILLED BY YOU The blood-laden sigils weren't for that schizo, it was the aforementioned psychopath from 2022 who primed me to react to the death worshipper in a similar manner. He was as shamelessly evil and slimy as he was retarded and dishonest, so it wasn't nearly as much of a uphill battle to morally justify it compared to the solipsistic schizophrenic retard who I initially saw myself in before his true colors came out, I'm aware that my xanax-induced apoplepsy gave me the impression that he was just some harmless if retarded, evil lowlife junkie who could potentially have given me the DMT I so coveted in exchange for a different perspective to get him out of his small, primordial mindset. The odds were never in my favor despite how much I wanted to believe otherwise and I've debased myself in a way that's difficult to forgive as consequence for it. Please don't get these mixed up even though I did a hazy job at clarifying it. >I am taking a break talking to you again. I have no idea how to erase your retardation that you "signed with your blood" on this level. This is why sorcery and occultism is a "sin". Because retards like you. Why they are guarded with secrecy and oaths all the time. I understand my emotional instability as a result of fucking around in ways I wouldn't do at gunpoint in the past so I can find out how thoroughly fucked I was. I also can't deny that it's an objective step back from my old method of using Neville Goddard's Law of Attraction through my own wishful thinking and emotional/imaginative/narrative intensity to manifest changes I needed or wanted on a whim. >Keep doing this and please find anything no matter if they are big or small that is as far away from /x/ and drugs as possible. He migrated to /pol/ right as I concluded that he needs to subsist off that loosh or energy because he's a narcissistic parasite who believes he's a dragon. Upside is that he only goes in threads where he knows he won't get challenged by anyone other than me and the rare anon who doesn't want him perpetrating his retardation unabated.
>>821 >All those people all those faggots only cared about making the lives of others worse while clinging to a minor hope and proving that everything they do is good then crying about their constant hopelessness they do not know anything and constantly trying to prove me that I should not be so full of myself. If they knew anything they wouldn't be miserable. The only thing they knew how to make others more miserable and they were bad even at that. Hope was something I had to find reach and maintain for myself because i could never ever rely on those fucks in any meaningful way. Finding that "criticism" part of your mind is making me far more aware of the shit I had to put up with. I didn't put them into words because there was no need. I bottled up those energies and used it as a fuel. Beggars can't be choosers. You work what you have. Something tells me the moment you connected to that same anger I held since childhood you really felt that shit hard. Sorry if that was the catalyst for this souring in addition to everything else. Turned to materialistic means as a way of rehashing what worked in the past despite the disconnection with what it worked upon to actually generate any effect in the belief that it would lead to a timeline or route where I accomplish what to set out. Binaurals and affirmations normally work upon the belief and subconscious and I used them as a replacement/supplement of the original mechanism disabled by you know what, but a touch of lucid dreaming hypnosis where I laid down motionlessly and envision a white light erasing the tension and stress had a measurably positive impact. Sure I regressed the other day, but after pushing through the feeling of being widely and justifiably hated I'm starting to give less of a shit about being the annoying yapping dog and leaning into assertion regardless of how I fear I come off as. Perhaps I can't rely on anyone other than myself to end this, even if my problem solving skills get hampered periodically. I'm in it to win the rest of me back and prevent the opp from turning /x/ and /pol/ into his personal cult. If hate and love are intertwined, then indifference is the way to go.
>>3931 >prevent the opp from turning /x/ and /pol/ into his personal cult Is there even a single person that follows him? You know to make it into a cult people have to follow him unquestionably and consider him the visionary leader that is never wrong. Talking on a street where no one cares or understands you is literally what doomsayer hobos did in the past. Being a demented preacher is not the same as being a cult leader. I know you take pride in being THE NOBODY but he is literally a Niemand. Only your personal clique of nobodies care about each other. I have never seen his ass on pol and I go there daily tho I bet he is in extremely religiously retarded threads only. >If hate and love are intertwined, then indifference is the way to go. Close but no sugar. The way is "letting go" letting your persona full of rage fall down into nothingness and watch it crumble. Indifference and lethargy is almost the same and I don't think you know the difference and just would fall into the desire to play games do drugs then when enough impatient frustration bottles up you go and chase the schizo again. >>3930 >Please don't get these mixed up even though I did a hazy job at clarifying it. You don't get it man. The fact that it was mixed up is one thing the real problem is that you think the problem is the personage of the schizo and not the negative energies that loom over /x/ and /pol/. If his flesh is gone the energies will find a new person as a host with similar ideas and you will simply latch on that guy like nothing happened once someone posts in a similar way. The energies require the cleanse and not the removal of the schizo. The schizo will need to find something more meaningful to do with his life so do you.
>>3948 >Is there even a single person that follows him? You know to make it into a cult people have to follow him unquestionably and consider him the visionary leader that is never wrong. Talking on a street where no one cares or understands you is literally what doomsayer hobos did in the past. Being a demented preacher is not the same as being a cult leader. I know you take pride in being THE NOBODY but he is literally a Niemand. Only your personal clique of nobodies care about each other. I have never seen his ass on pol and I go there daily tho I bet he is in extremely religiously retarded threads only. To answer your question, I've seen someone unironically screencap his shit into a collage and push it as some hidden truth. Given that /x/ and /pol/ both have jews rent free on the mind and share a sizeable anti-abrahamic userbase, there's already a contingent or pool this shithead can appeal to (despite nobody taking it as far as he has.) I remember imagining the fusion of my schizo christian antisemitism and my friend's devotion to roman/germanic paganism cranked up to an extreme the year before I first encountered it on /x/ the next year, but never did I anticipate it to come out like this. I wouldn't handle this faggot the way that I've been doing for the last year hadn't I made the mistake of trying to buy DMT from an honest-to-god psychopath who not only idolized richard ramirez but exhibits the same aire of untouchability and justification for their deranged beliefs. Except here it was confirmed that he contacted satan for protection on LSD. I didn't meet this walking ministrel show of a schizo prophet until two months after the vidya ritual worked. >I don't think you know the difference and just would fall into the desire to play games do drugs then when enough impatient frustration bottles up you go and chase the schizo again. The vidyamancy isn't a regular desire so much as problem solving chaos magick through simulated/internal narratives in that I create my own context allegorical to the game I'm playing internally and really get into it. >The fact that it was mixed up is one thing the real problem is that you think the problem is the personage of the schizo and not the negative energies that loom over /x/ and /pol/. If his flesh is gone the energies will find a new person as a host with similar ideas and you will simply latch on that guy like nothing happened once someone posts in a similar way. regardless on whether he's the twisted apotheosis of /x/ and /pol/ retardation or some extradimensional entity/deity's idea of a cruel and ironic punishment meant to reflect how fucktarded I was, my battle now is against his core message which is a direct corruption of the trollface schizo's memetic phrase through misdirection. Is there a way I can energetically "break" or "destroy" his four word psyop and retrieve all my wasted and misdirected energy from it? >inb4 stop going on /x/ I avoid it unless if it's a thread I know for certain he won't be in and isn't a total crock of shit but that's rare >avoid /pol/ or 4chan in general This doesn't address the sharp uptick in heart rate feeling or knowing he's been around despite what I've tried nor the thought loops that arise from needing to swat his stupidity. I want and need to break this conditioning so my heart doesn't get besieged by his rancidity the second I read 'jesus' or not. Maybe she was right when she said the best reply to such intrusive thinking is implicit disavowal by not responding.
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>>3923 >Introspect further then we might talk when you find something. Also if you do drugs you will have to write it down Substances I've been a little too fond of as per the last 4-5 years and how it works upon my psyche: >DXM/Dextromethorphan behaves as an energetic amplifier to where my computer behaves abnormally and my brain turns into a radio tower, entactogen that jacks my emotion and appreciation of music up while doubling as a release valve, painkiller, love potion, and even an energetic pathway >Nicotine (formerly) behaved as a camera for snapshotting memories and providing energy and lucidity before I likely fucked those pathways up with my sheer fucking anger alone >Weed liquifies thoughts and acts as a sedative, but also mildly enhances night vision and >Alcohol turns things into Quake until any emotional pain comes up and I turn into a sobbing wreck like DXM >Psilocybin allows me to get inside and communicate with God >Amanita Muscaria lives up to the name of berserker mushroom
>>3923 >No wonder I felt an extremely lethargic energy before even reading your post. The core issue just revealed itself. Abstaining from nicotine and THC on November with the intent to dissolve and reorganize the damage self-inflicted within the first four months of this year ought to make way for this development, and **I can still hope you'll forgive such dysfunction and atrophy by way of dealing with issues with a limited toolset and OCD loops of "need to argue with him or else he'll (un)ironically exploit the pre-existing anti-abrahamic and antisemitic sentiments >HE IS DEAD ALREADY HE IS SHIELDED BY DEATH. YOU MADE HIM EMBRACE DEATH AND HE IS SPREADING DEATH SO ANYONE IN HIS EMBRACE CANNOT BE KILLED BY YOU He was already on the death worship train when I was still dealing with a different psychopath in 2022; I didn't make him embrace shit unless if he or I inadvertantly established some sort of empathic tie by then.


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