when iw as younger i developed trauma and it evolved into OCD. because ocd was very painful for me as illness, i was making decisions to opt out as many as possible, so for example I would decide on the least effort option because each option what make ocd run wild like animal. So to this day, I became extremely lazy even when I am passionate, because I am used to making options that end up giving less options, in other words my entire conscience is scared of making decisions because it is traumatized of OCD hitting me later. Ironically, I don't have as much of ocd as I used to but I do have unbelievable trauma and fear of making decisions. I feel really scarred compared to normal people who can move from one decision to another, while for me it sounds scary. Anyway, that's it.

self awarness is bliss. yourt doing just fine <3

>>465428 (OP) It's not the autistic retardation that kills you, it's the crippling self induced isolation from preventing that shit from leaking out causing loneliness, depression, hysteria, general mental unwellness, that kills you. You need someone in your life who'll back you up through it even if you need to make a tulpa of your waifu

>>467528 Or just fuck one of the femboy anons, thats what I do.

>>467529 schizophrenia's preferable to being a gay

I have a filthy mind and sometimes talk in my sleep in front of friends and relatives. I have no idea what all I've said, but I'm sure some of it was about fucking little girls.

>>467538 Whatever virgin

>>465428 (OP) It's called a personality

>>467547 What does it get you?