I get occasional thought of suicide, but it's usually overridden by my far more prominent fear of death and non-existence. My general theory is people who feel suicidal just want to do something ELSE with their lives, so maybe blow some money on shit like skydiving or dirt biking, risk your life without just throwing it away.

>>536422 The important thing is to genocide jews and kill all leftards.

>>536426 I agree with you. The thing is I don't want to suicide either. I just feel like it's inevitable and a part of destiny I can't escape.

I'd only kill myself if I could also take out Tel Aviv

>>536422 When I'm stuck in a shitty situation, I find it comforting to know I always have suicide as a way out. But yeah just in general, I assume it's gonna end up use way. Like if I get a bad diagnosis, I'll probably kill myself first. Like, doing it on my terms.

Are you really sure that if you had money and a wife and kids you'd still want to? If you lived comfortably and your wife and kids loved you and you all had nice lives? I'm sorry, Anon, but I don't believe you. Rather, I suspect you simply can't really truly imagine having a good life. At least that's what I tell myself. Maybe I'm just projecting. That tiny bit of hope is all that keeps me going. So I work toward it, bit by bit, and in doing so I've theoretically made my life slightly better, like by getting a better job, more money, a better place to life, but admittedly without anyone who cares about me, it means little. I'm still working towards that, but the very fact that that takes work for me (while the "people" I wish would care about me don't have to try at all) makes me want to kill myself. So what keeps me going past that? Spite. Pure spite. I want to kill myself because everybody tells telling me they don't want me around. Government, media, and many, many individuals. So I hate them, and if they'll continue making my life hell, then I'll continue existing just because I know it, according to them, makes their lives worse as well.

It's great living in a country which has historically cleared nature of all wild animals which can harm humans. No wolves, bears, big cats, or even wild boars, outside of captivity. No venomous insects, spiders, snakes, or other 3rd world problems. Getting rid of all of this shit frees the human mind to think about important things, such as philosophy, and waifus. But then all of this is ruined by having wild NIGGERS, as well as whitetrash and their feral wigger kids/dogs just roaming about. Now I can’t relax, which means I can’t contemplate Civilization and the historical role of the nigger. Because the nigger is living, breathing, and chimping in this time, in broad daylight. Who’d want to raise kids to experience this hell.

>>536489 >bongs kill cool animals to replace them jeets >this is a source of pride Anglos are truly the embarassment of humanity. At least the poos don't feel guilty about continuing their race (they should).

>>536422 I feel the same way anon. I've had suicidal thoughts for as long as I could remember. I told myself if I ever had the opportunity, I'd take it. Then I got a job where every few days I'd get issued a gun, and would stand guard by myself with only one other person, it would be so easy to do it then, but I never did. Then I moved into an apartment on the 12th floor with a balcony. Now everyday, I had the chance to just end it all. I remembered nights I would just look over the edge of that balcony thinking, but I never did it. I still think of it, on at least a daily basis, but for some reason I refuse to kill myself. Weird thing is I don't even know why I want to do it. I have a well paying job, a girlfriend who loves me, good relationship with my family. I really have no reason to die, but I still find myself wanting to on a daily basis. Sorry to drama dump on a meme website instead of talking to a therapist. I want to talk to a therapist but I'm afraid how that could affect my career.

>>536489 >But then all of this is ruined by having wild NIGGERS make a difference, kill one. or better yet, we should organize a militia like the kkk(or exactly like the kkk) that will exterminate them all.

>>536650 Therapists are gay. Every time I've talked to one it's the same. Those people are paid to listen to you. They don't actually give a shit. The ones who prescribe meds are even worse. All a therapist is, is someone who pretends to be your friend for money with a piece of paper stating their opinion on your life "matters". Everything in this life can be overcome through willpower. Funny enough, a video game did more for me with a simple mantra than therapy ever did: >Relax >Calm Down >Persist >Overcome From Omori.

>>536679 I wouldn't mind going to therapy, simply because I feel like I have no one else to talk to about this. I have no friends, and my family and gf sees my "success" and assumes everything is good on my end, and I don't want to make them worry so I don't tell them otherwise. At least talking to a therapist I could tell him my issues, and let him lie to me and tell me it's perfectly normal. Is the game you're referring to Omori or something else. I've heard good things about that game, and maybe I'll give it a shot when I get a computer that isn't a potato.

>>536691 Yes the game is Omori. It's an RPG maker game, it can run on a potato. Genuinely one of the best games I've played in many years.

>>536679 talk therapy is useless. try something more specialized like emdr, or something where there is actually a practice made for a specific purpose for a specific problem.

>>536422 >>536466 >>536650 I just feel like the kms is permanently installed in my brain now. Even when things go right, self-destruction/harm is fun. You anons wanna do a suicide pact?

>>536422 I know my future. One day I'll have the strength to reject it. It was always going to end like this. To answer your question, yes. Except, if I had what I want I wouldn't suicide. But I'll never have what I want.

>>536679 This. Having to pay someone to pretend to be my friend just makes me sadder. Even moreso because the one time I tried and told the therapist about all the concrete problems in my life, the things that were actually happening that made me depressed, she said she thought I was lying. Actually it wasn't even one time. It was the same office, but I saw like three different ones, and they all said I was lying, even when I showed them the proof. They're part of the problem. The reason people like the users of this site are depressed is because they live in a society (arguably a world) that hates them for existing, and the schools that produce the therapists are very much invested in furthering that hatred. Therapy isn't for men because men become depressed because they have real problems. Therapy is for women, because women don't have real problems, so just talking about it can somehow make them feel better, since their problems are all only in their heads anyway. If you have real problems, paying hundreds of dollars per hour to some woman that hates you for being male (and even more if you're white/straight/etc.) isn't going to help you. >>536691 >having a gf Sounds like you're doing better than most of us. >>536751 What do you want?

>>536761 Before? A good life. Now? The godhead.

I hate when you try to Google anything about suicide, and Google is like "HOLY SHIT SOMETHING IS TERRIBLY WRONG WITH YOU. CALL FOR HELP so we can keep serving you ads". Yeah that REALLY makes me feel better thanks And it's

>>536789 Huh weird. His post cut off randomly...I wonder if it was Candleja

>>536789 >It's been

>>536650 This OP Funny thing guys. I got a call today while at work, asking me to talk to someone in a department at work I never heard of, and basically asked me if I ever thought about killing myself or thoughts of hurting myself. I'm assuming they got it from this post mostly cause I posted from my work computer, and I have no idea why they'd call me in about that. Not sure if they are monitoring the thread or what, just figured I'd let y'all know. Be careful guys, big bro is always watching.

>>536874 >big bro is always watching >amd psp >intel me indeed

>>536874 >I posted from my work computer lol

>>536422 >I can't shake the feeling that's my destiny We all have felt that way OP, the overwhelming sense of futility and anxiety that compels us to act. In reality, You dont want to shoot yourself in the face and die. You want to take control of your life and "break free". Its "The call of the void", a common phenomenon most people report when being in a high place (like a cliff) and feeling the need to jump. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u1BGsYMw848 >>536874 Rest in piss OP. Now HR will try to sell you the (((meds))). Next time post from a more secure location. And use more secure software (like Startpage).