After nearly 29 years, I have just experienced an ejaculation while conscious. I had had wet dreams before, but never orgasmed while awake. I gave up on masturbation in my teens as I would always go flaccid and I'd get depressed and give up. Every once in a while, maybe once a year or two, I'd seriously attempt masturbation again. I had come to think it was some sort of mental complex, and I was thus incapable of just getting off normally. Today, I fucking did it. It took over 2 hours of jacking it. I almost went flaccid a ton of times, but I had lots of free time today and was super comfy in my bed, so I kept at it while thinking of Marin Kitagawa and tomboys. It wasn't as amazing as I had hoped, but it wasn't underwhelming either. It was worth it to do it at least once, but I don't think I can dedicate two hours to this very often and would have to buy some strong toys or something to speed it up.