Normally I'm a "high performing" kind of person, by which I mean: any free time I have, I tend to devote to learning new skills or at least checking things off my list. Like I never watch TV, no subscription services, no social media. No friends lol. I feel wonderful if I've accomplished something or see myself improving, and I feel like shit if I've been idle for more than a half an hour probably. So I never understood why people were so content to binge watch whatever the meme show is, or cut out of work early to go watch Taylor Swift give a shitty exhausted performance while they take selfies for their socials. I accept that that's "normal" but I didn't personally understand it But recently I started smoking a lot of weed. Just something I started and never stopped. And I find that once my mind starts going a little numb, I want to continue down that path instead. So lately I've been getting stuff done in the morning, then in the afternoon smoking weed and then I feel driven to go grab a pint, and then that's kinda my day and I feel friction if I really try to concentrate on anything deeper. You're not supposed to say you're addicted to weed, people get pissed. But I do think I have a bit of a "local" addition to this and I'm going to overcome it soon. Yet most people, I don't think, are constantly stoned like I have been lately. But they exhibit the same weakness of agency that I feel when I'm this way. So, do normal people usually just have this reduced mental strength... all the time? Can they be better (like: I know I can just stop smoking weed and I'll be fine immediately), or are they stuck like that?