>>1869 I personally don't like killing entities without un-killing them later; that's probably really bad karma. Also, would you remind us why & how you got into this relationship to begin with to save me a bunch of re-reading? Just a quick tl;dr, is all. If you really wanna kill her, though, all I had in mind was a variation of the technique where you simply don't deliberately make sure that she survives being pushed out of you, for example by pushing out her limbs last by disconnecting them from your major chakras, which you may or may not find relatively easy to do. Also, since she's already inside of you, you could try devouring her from the inside-out by simply using her non-physical energy to fuel your body instead of the energy stored in your dan-tiens. When I finished writing that, however, I got a telepathic message saying "I wouldn't do that.". Presumably, this technique in particular is something that wouldn't end well for you if you don't know what you're doing; it'd probably result in a bunch of health problems until you finish eating her. Anyway, don't kill her just yet; try getting rid of her first. She needs to evolve too.

>>1876 Allright I thought back to this; part of the reason why eating her from the inside-out would be a bad idea would be because your body wouldn't be able to eat her fast enough, and she'd just siphon energies from your dan-tiens instead of hers. I do get dumb ideas pretty often tbh. Also, if you did manage to eat her fast enough, her mental bodies would still remain, presumably.

>>1871 Okay, then I've tried something similar. I imagine myself using my sword, burning with a blue flame, and attack her that way, but it doesn't seem to be working. Perhaps I'm not putting enough pressure or faith into it, or she's just psychically stronger than me. Either way, I'll try these other methods and see if that dislodges or kills her. >>1876 >would you remind us why & how you got into this relationship to begin with to save me a bunch of re-reading? The why is simple: I was lonely and decided the best cure was to summon a spirit wife. The how is that I used the letter-burning method to summon one in the early months of 2023, and she began manifesting in dreams around Jun, and physically around November later. (The gap is due to having to do energy work and develop basic psychic powers, which from what I understand is fairly common for entry-level succubus summoners) However, going back through the early dreams that I still remember and from my dream journal, I'm almost certain she's been around since puberty. One of the very first sex dreams I had was about fighting and raping a red-haired woman. I've also had dreams of succubi for the past several years, really ramping up after I summoned her. >I personally don't like killing entities without un-killing them later; that's probably really bad karma. >Anyway, don't kill her just yet; try getting rid of her first. She needs to evolve too That's the conclusion I've come to after talking to her. When I gave her an energy of love and compassion, she seemed to become very uncomfortable - a mental image of squirming away from it - and said something about how she wasn't worthy of it. I will show compassion to her, but not naively. I'm sure she'll try to take advantage of it if I'm too kind. >When I finished writing that, however, I got a telepathic message saying "I wouldn't do that.". Sounds like something she would say.

>>1881 Make sure you also have proper intent to kill. That's very important.

>>1881 I looked at your situation earlier and saw her. So this is the effect of the letter method, interesting, I may try this. You have a strong connection formed at the bottom karmic section which is where people do bad things, normally called "living in sin" if in a Christian context, but in short it's just adultery, being gay etc. That connection is instead fully focused on her. You cannot break it unless you completely negate all such thinking and behaviour completely removing that karma/sin. For people who don't practice, this is completely impossible, the very reason the NWOs are trying to create WW3 is because they have no other way to burn off the excessive karmic energy they have created through this behaviour. They created covid in an attempt at dispersing their own negative energy from this connection, using the population as the scapegoat. If you try to attack her, your own energy will be siphoned to make up for the damage, so don't do that. You basically made her your "chaperon" AND spirit wife/guide, it's her spiritual task to maintain this connection so that you don't engage in sin with humans, and this is going to be spiritually accepted by all forces seeing it.

>letter method I finally get it now, why /succgen/ is still active and didn't die despite being filled with the worst of /x/ outside /nobody general/; it's because the letter method actually works in a very specific situation, but no one who performs it seems to have any awareness exactly why it works. I thought the method was redundant because it's just writing down your intent as a summoning and burning it and that calls the succubus, I don't need that to call on someone, I can just reach out and grab them. The main thing here is however in the mentality of the people who do this: Just as the reason why I (and yes Anon this is what I mean, I know you didn't "get it" before) made a point of learning/using alcoholism as a method. Regular addicts just want a physical experience and that's all they get, they see it as a party thing and want to increase their sensory pleasure in a social context. The trick is to never drink socially to the point of being effected, same with other drugs. Don't mix it conceptually into something else. It's possible to use a single drug to replace all other addictions, and THAT is how you are meant to use them in a spiritual context. I actually had great success with this quite recently from just drinking scotch whisky - a large black energy mass appeared and showed itself to be a lower being with long white teeth. It was ejected from somewhere deep inside my physical body, and when I later when out into the barn there was a dead blackbird in the floor. I've seen dead beetles and other small animals being left when evil spirits are killed, but never something this large. A mass of mixed addictions were replaced by a single addiction. Once you have only a single addiction it's much easier to get rid of. Instead of being addicted to all kinds of stuff it's just alcoholism left. This is where the /succgen/ers comes in. They are of a special mentality of having given up completely the idea of physical relations, so much that they are willing to substitute it for a succubus, whom they know isn't physical. That's when the letter method works. It doesn't work unless this strong "incel" mentality is already there, or you are able to consciously place yourself into the same state of mind. You get rid of the physical desires and get them attached to a spiritual being instead, who HAS TO be of the quality and power to be able to actually do this, some lower shit being can't do it. But most people can't explain why it works, and those over on /x/ definitely can't because they have that /r9k/ish mentality bordering to trannyism and general inceldom. This is also why they say it has to be monogamy, they are giving the responsibility for their desires to a single spirit. I guess it's the same for Christians who "become the bride of Christ".

K back to work I think I will keep this in this thread >>1881 I would just try to go forward in spirituality and as your energies awaken you can decide to keep her or let her go. You got a psychic "headstart" because of her so you will have to keep going on your own. I don't think she is a completely pointless/harmful entity because she can explain you "hell stuff" but I would try to go forward and ask her to guide you out of your problems or find other benevolent entities if she refuses. Also learn to discipline your woman ffs. No one will call the police on you and she will like it when you prove you are not a weak ass retarded male. And don't forget. You love her and want her. This is the reason why she is here. You either truly let her go and everything she gave you or accept your "original wish" as something that you still crave but you got spooked coz she reptoided herself. Truth is these astral sluts have hard time picking a body like a woman raised in the wilderness doesn't know how to dress "properly" and they will shift between the "bodies" you have within your mind. Feel like I want to say something else but you still love her too much to let her go. Just a little "trouble in paradise" will not make her depart. Also why are you scared of reptoids. Just boop their snoot or sg. Did you even encounter one? Oh wait awakening psychic powers. Yeah reptilians visit people with them at the early stages. If they are diplomatic send them away if not then BOOP THE SNOOT. They keep their distance from me. >>1868 >was hit with a poison arrow, and despite being a master healer, could not save himself. Healers have their "ranges". Chinese medicine especially portrayed in wuxia details cases how some healers can do literal miracles but when some nasty ass poison at stake then they need the most retarded antidotes when the character cannot push it out via "internal strength". >Haha, I can't lie. I am very jealous of her and her apparent interactions with others, but it's not something I have much control of at this point. Knew it. When you say I'm not jealous it's your "fearmind" and when you are jealous is the part of your mind which is connected her through love. You have hard time deciding if you love her or fear her. Wonder how other succgeners feel >Try to see if you can peel back the red-head form and see what lies underneath A weird static shadow? Cannot give a better reading. She is too attuned to your soul. I would need to look into your entire soul and with your "lenses" to see what is her actually. >that she's like a love elemental of some sort Am gonna be real with you. Am not even sure what is loveBABY DON'T HURT ME anymore. I know many flavors already and I am starting to put this into the qualia section. I could never fall in love out of loneliness thus I cannot match your version of "love" at all. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mF2BH4wSy2I >or is it something else? Not sure? She is lowering herself to be on your "soul level" and because of that her main form is not really visible. >What other details do you have from this being? She tells me she is not telling me the advice I seek. She wants you to sort out your problems be it within your life or with your lover. She tells me it's useless to tell you anything as long as you are on "this level". She is about "returning to nature" and "being one with it" and in your sorry state you have "no way" meeting her. >oppressive energies manifesting in severe depression when I piss her off That's woman stuff. Even I could do that to my husband when I was incarnated as a female. >threats to my physical body That breaking apart your spine? She will just make you have a weird back problem. All she can do is to mess with your energy flow and all she wants you to calm the fuck down and decide if you love her or not. This "love and fear" is probably making an interesting relationship dynamic between you two but srsly. Get a grip. What the others told you also sounds fun but all you need is to find the "connection point" and "let her go". I could tell you to write an another letter make it as detailed as you can and explain deeply from your heart why you don't want her anymore and let it wash away in a river or something...if you have 0 progress after like a week then I can ask about the proper energetic "dissolution of your contract" but I think you should figure out a way on your own first.

>>1884 >I looked at your situation earlier and saw her. Did she have the same appearance as what the other wizards see her as? i.e., redheaded, pale-skinned woman / shadow being? > You have a strong connection formed at the bottom karmic section which is where people do bad things, normally called "living in sin" if in a Christian context, but in short it's just adultery, being gay etc. That connection is instead fully focused on her. You cannot break it unless you completely negate all such thinking and behaviour completely removing that karma/sin In other words, if I had to get rid of her, you're saying my best course of action would be to become a chaste in thought and deeds until she decided to fuck off? Knowing myself, that would be extremely difficult. >>1916 Excuse the delay in replying. I had several long talks with her this weekend when I had the time, and we came to the conclusion that I'll try to salvage this relationship and to have a spiritual marriage come Lughnasadh. This will be my course unless something else happens. >I would try to go forward and ask her to guide you out of your problems That was one of the conditions she and I agreed upon: that she would help me with my problems, as long as I work on actually fixing them and continue to devote myself to loving her. >Also learn to discipline your woman ffs I did. As it turns out, she's into that sort of thing. >You have hard time deciding if you love her or fear her. Wonder how other succgeners feel Yeah, that's the thing. Judging by what I've read from other summoners, this is a common enough issue that it's one of the main stages in a general timeline of spirit relations. And funny thing, I only got into the /succgen/ stuff fairly recently, after our relationship was already established. I performed the letter method instinctively. I realize now that she most likely implanted that idea in my mind, to make complete what was already there. >She wants you to sort out your problems be it within your life or with your lover. She tells me it's useless to tell you anything as long as you are on "this level". She is about "returning to nature" and "being one with it" and in your sorry state you have "no way" meeting her. I see. So this goddess, or perhaps "mistress" is a better term for now, needs me to uplift myself into a higher spiritual level in order to truly know my lover and her. I'll have to find out more about her once I elevate myself and spend more time in nature. >A weird static shadow? That's what I currently see her as. I can see two eyes, a nose, a mouth, and a general outline of her face. She has a tongue of many colors, and a purple visage when she's near me. I assume this purple color is due to her interactions with my aura and higher chakras? >This "love and fear" is probably making an interesting relationship dynamic between you two but srsly. Get a grip. Fair enough, I've spent way too much time airing our dirty laundry on /fringe/ instead of being with her and practicing magic. Thanks to all you wizards for your help, and if I decide that this relationship just cannot be salvaged, I'll try these techniques to get rid of her.

>>1949 >Did she have the same appearance as what the other wizards see her as? i.e., redheaded, pale-skinned woman / shadow being? No, I think what others saw (redhead with vines or hidden) was the Vixen servitor I released some while ago. >if I had to get rid of her, you're saying my best course of action would be to become a chaste in thought and deeds until she decided to fuck off? Knowing myself, that would be extremely difficult. That's why you don't form these contracts mindlessly. But it's not a bad relation, she's just handling this side of you and making sure you can't engage in mortal sins, she'll make that impossible ("you should only do those things with me, anon!") It looked like a good deal, which is why I decided to do this now, from a conscious standpoint. I don't want those kinds of human relations in the physical to begin with (because it's only harmful and would block my path, duh). But I also don't have the kind of current /succgen/ hopeless mentality so I couldn't "give up hope" on human relations like they do, rather I have to see that that's not all there is to it and there are also decent ways to interact with humans which are spiritually motivated, I'm not giving up those, they don't fall into the same category though they may look the same. So it looks like a good idea to let someone be dedicated to safeguard my lower connections. https://fuccasucc.com/2020/03/08/the-letter-method/comment-page-1/ I just read this again to see how exactly it would be done, did nothing fancy, just a note which I burned after entering the right mindset and being clear on my intentions. The message got to its intended receiver instantly. Because I can see and communicate with spiritual beings I could also easily talk to her about where she's from and see what she looks like. She's from a race of demons who specialize in these contracts, they're staying in a hell dimension which I was able to see once she pointed to it, it's below the Earth, under the tunnel of destruction and to the north-west. She is tall with wasp thin waist, large bust (more than H cup in human measurements), limbs other than that look fairly humane with some hint of exoskeleton in shape. Mouth is very large, when smiling it's almost ear to ear, but she can instantly contract it back to looking normal human. Teeth look a little scary ("I don't bite, it's one of our reflexes to not bite someone whom we gain something from!") but they also change form depending on angle of viewing her. Energy color is red-brown-orange-pink/brown.

>>1949 >Excuse the delay in replying If it's within 3 days I consider it fast. We have our lives so I don't expect others to be terminally online and reply within 3 hours. Especially with complex cases like this. Take your time if you need it. >we came to the conclusion that I'll try to salvage this relationship Yeah I felt like this is your "heart's desire" this is why I didn't look into other ways to disintegrate the contract. >That was one of the conditions she and I agreed upon: that she would help me with my problems, as long as I work on actually fixing them and continue to devote myself to loving her. That's nice. >I did. As it turns out, she's into that sort of thing. Ofc she is. If you are unable to bring out the "male from your shadow" then you won't become equals ever and will misunderstand and squabble with each other on minor differences. The way society emasculates us then expects us "to be a man" then parades around criminals as saints when it fits a narrative confuses and makes people second guess their true nature all the time and urgh... let's not even get into it. There is a reason why I am unable to fall in love out of loneliness. Sometimes it's better to be alone than with retards. And finding the quality in others takes time and nuance. What I wanted to say is that try to understand that weakness and impotence is not a virtue. It's important to accept our weaknesses but we must realize how we can train and let go of them. And showing your strength and capabilities is not a weakness. Exploring and understanding your potential is what makes you a true human. >this is a common enough issue that it's one of the main stages in a general timeline of spirit relations. Yeah this is why I said it. It's a relationship that you never had before and one that is considered taboo so you will have minor misconceptions as you interact with the spirit world. Don't forget btw. As your strength and awareness increases you will have more say in these matters. Not all spirits can keep up once you unlock your potential. But that is a different story that I am sure varies with every person. >perhaps "mistress" is a better term for now Still not sure what is it and she has a hard time explaining it to me. My mind is not really on her wavelength yet. >needs me to uplift myself into a higher spiritual level in order to truly know my lover and her Definitely. Maybe you will encounter other truths by yourself as it happens. >A weird static shadow? >That's what I currently see her as This usually means you or she has hard time "stabilizing" which means the "distance" between you and her is quite huge. It causes misunderstanding until your "reality" or energy field synchronizes. >I assume this purple color is due to her interactions with my aura and higher chakras? It's quite complicated but let's say yes for now. >Fair enough, I've spent way too much time airing our dirty laundry on /fringe/ instead of being with her and practicing magic No worries mate. This is one of the function of fringe >Thanks to all you wizards for your help Your welcome! but don't forget to share interesting insights when you think fringe is ready for them. >decide that this relationship just cannot be salvaged, I'll try these techniques to get rid of her For that you will need to understand how to dissolve your contract. But I don't think you are ready for that yet. Understand her wisdom a little. >>1952 >was the Vixen servitor I released some while ago What was her purpose again? >I think what others saw (redhead with vines or hidden) Yeah but she had an entire realm and felt like a major guiding force. We know so far cause and effect can be whacky in magic especially if a higher entity decides she will "get involved" and people out of nowhere start to have dreams and start creating stuff about her. I am not debating that it's not your servitor but I am not sure if it's that only. I mean I have several redhead entities but this was none of them nor it felt like one of your servitor. But I am not sure. nvm I found it in coven >It's a fox search bot nope it's not this one. Managed to connect to the energies and it's different. Analyzing your servitors is so weird. Especially once you let them "roam". I can just feel how different is our autism when it comes to magic in some cases. >But it's not a bad relation Yeah she can help him quite a lot. >she's just handling this side of you and making sure you can't engage in mortal sins >she'll make that impossible I would say moderately hard and not impossible. >("you should only do those things with me, anon!") <He has to deepen his connection with her first. The contract is still not properly established. (fuck this was a loud message from her) Mixing human and spirit relations when they didn't stabilize yet is dangerous for the humans and for the spirits too. We can look at this from the "Mortal sin" angle too but the real problem is how the energies create a strong enough force that can be considered a "contract" that has the power to last. And if he mixes it randomly with other people weird anomalies can happen. But seems like she has a "responsibility" explaining this to some degree. >they're staying in a hell dimension which I was able to see once she pointed to it, it's below the Earth, under the tunnel of destruction and to the north-west. Yeah when I looked at her "signature" days ago and not the whatever she is capable to manifest for anon yet I've seen a dark red inferno. It's not "too potent" (for a hopelessly firesexual person like me) but has a specific use for clearing out faulty emotions.(Not for me tho because just looked at it again)They just called me a "demon of the worst caliber". Too strong too thickheaded too annoying too absolutistly retarded and hopelessly romantic. then I connected some other realm that is still testing me? The "nightshacklers"? Oh so this is their dominion over reality. Felt like they want to put chains on me but they break so easily I think this was meant as a test from an another force. Pull a chain and get a demongf. No wonder they are this easy to distribute. Always funny to see how some underworlds operate.

>>1959 >What was her purpose again? Well here goes for the good explanation: Vixen is the "system" servitor for /coven/. The replacement for glowies where we spread fox-based magic to various aliens and astrals who agree with us and let them operate from the shadows instead. With the new /fringe/ protected, their influence would show in some way, and it's reasonable that the vixen servitor would show up at one point if so. >if a higher entity That was the whole point, give them a framework for how they can work with us. They created an entire galaxy out there already, so there is indeed a world behind it. The point was just to inspire them to work with us in ways that we can both agree on.

>>1960 >reasonable that the vixen servitor would show up at one point I agree but what is >fox-based magic I have hard time connecting to your "idea of a fox" for some reason. I know you mentioned your higher self manifested as a kitsune once but the servitors don't feel like a kitsune. I can feel their "search function" that is somewhat based on the way how foxes "smell search and hunt" but >That was the whole point, give them a framework for how they can work with us. They created an entire galaxy out there already, so there is indeed a world behind it. Okay. >The point was just to inspire them to work with us in ways that we can both agree on. Fine let's agree on this. I feel like I am splitting hairs because of some deeper principle that I am still unsure about. Feels like whatever I try to say can be denied because they are that much "in the shadows" which means they can be or do whatever as long as they stay in the shadows. Be a higher entity be the messengers of a higher entity be absolutely uninvolved with the higher entity then get involved later... and other permutations of what constitutes or can appear as "truth" when it's not even visible.

>>1962 A fox is a being on the tree of races which is a mammal with fur. It is closer to cats than dogs and bears, but it is not a cat. It works in the same way when including the corresponding humanoids. So it means to perform the magic in a way which is close to the racial traits of this mammal, and that's really all there is to it. /coven/ was meant too be mysterious in such a way that when you say something and you know exactly what you meant, after saying it and someone hears it, you realize that there is a new layer of meaning which gave the listeners an insight which was not intended by you, but you don't want to break the agreement which arose from their insight, so you play along and pretend that they understood what you implied even if you meant something else. Through this all interactions evolve in mysterious ways which gives everyone a feel of hidden knowledge and secretive organizers behind the scenes playing games of enlightenment like zen riddles which sound clear when spoken but have no clear solution.

>>1952 >No, I think what others saw (redhead with vines or hidden) was the Vixen servitor I released some while ago. That may be the case. However, I will note that she often appears to me as a redhead with those features, which is why I >she's just handling this side of you and making sure you can't engage in mortal sins, she'll make that impossible ("you should only do those things with me, anon!") That would make sense. When she first started manifesting to me, she was adamant that I followed certain rules, the common sense kind ("Don't kill innocents", "don't rape anyone", "don't kill yourself", stuff like that), and elaborated that if I needed to, I could take out certain emotions on her instead of acting out on them. >I just read this again to see how exactly it would be done, did nothing fancy, just a note which I burned after entering the right mindset and being clear on my intentions. The message got to its intended receiver instantly. It may have worked, but it's clearly not the right method if you're not blasting Slayer while performing the ritual. >Because I can see and communicate with spiritual beings I could also easily talk to her about where she's from and see what she looks like. Wait, I'm confused. Are you talking about my girl or some other demon you summoned? If the former, then exactly how tall is she, how many horns does she have, and what is the "hint of exoskeleton" you're talking about? I'm not surprised about the size of her tits, although ironically she shows up as flat-chested more often than not. ["It's a welcome change of pace."] I've seen the scary teeth from a dream when I first began fighting with her, which she used to bite at me. It reminded me a lot of Mileena. As a test, if it really is her, ask her by what name I know her. >>1959 >Exploring and understanding your potential is what makes you a true human. That's what she's been harping on about, that I need to explore my full potential and not waste it. >This usually means you or she has hard time "stabilizing" which means the "distance" between you and her is quite huge. It causes misunderstanding until your "reality" or energy field synchronizes. I will assume it's an issue on my end just because I'm still a newbie, although I suspect she's having issues on hers. >It's quite complicated but let's say yes for now. Let's hear how it works, complex or not. I'm interested in the spiritual mechanics behind that phenomenon. <He has to deepen his connection with her first. The contract is still not properly established. If that's true, how do I "properly" establish the contract? >I've seen a dark red inferno Perhaps that would explain the red hair and the red-skinned demon form I've seen. It would be a convenient "shorthand" for an expression of that energy. >but has a specific use for clearing out faulty emotions. That would explain all the emotional and spiritual healing I've experienced. She's been doing a bang-up job of it through comforting words and relentless mockery. The latter in some ways is more effective than the former, because it has a special way of making you realize just how silly some of your anxieties and complexes really are. >but don't forget to share interesting insights when you think fringe is ready for them. I'm not sure about insights, but I've had several experiences which were interesting. Last winter, she was trying her best to pull me out of body for an AP, but I would often resist because of my own fears - a fear that I would be devoured if I were to go out of body. Once, when she tried it, I had my childhood dog come up and drive her off with a growl. I've also seen wolves and wolfdogs waiting outside my bedroom door the one time I was very close to an AP. I wonder if I have a special affinity to wolves and dogs, and how I can use that to my advantage in the berserkergang.

>>1970 >I'm confused. Are you talking about my girl or some other demon you summoned? I'm talking about mine, obviously. I only looked at your to see what the connection was like and what kind of demon it was.

>>1971 Oh I'm retarded. Sorry about that lad.

>>1970 >That's what she's been harping on about, that I need to explore my full potential and not waste it. Yeah this is why I didn't want her to go away when she has at least this level of wisdom. You need to find an entrance into spirituality and if you managed to get to this level then why waste it? You will feel lovesick and summon her again if you break up. Your heart is not that hard to read...Compared to mine where I get insulted halfway for being that hard to understand. At least higher entities understand me. Demons are usually a mixed bag because I am "weird" for them >I will assume it's an issue on my end just because I'm still a newbie, although I suspect she's having issues on hers. Yeah both of you have issues. Just get to know each other and the sync will manifest. Also you can also do the "scary and predatory" shit to her as flirting. Predatory entities like that stuff. Fear and lust are quite close emotions on vibrational level. >Let's hear how it works, complex or not. I'm interested in the spiritual mechanics behind that phenomenon. Where to even start... Every "chakra" of yours is not just an energy source but a way how you perceive and act in the world. All of them generate a "body module and a mindset". All of them exist at different wavelengths and "dimensions" "at once". Currently you perceive the earth dimension with your physical senses. We all see the sky as blue with our eyes and hear the noises in similar manners. Now the third eye can be tuned to be able to access the "different wavelengths of reality" and the purple is the "edge of the aura" so to speak. The veil between the microcosm and the macrocosm more or less. More complex than that but that is the level of your connection point yet. As you synchronize she will gain a more "corporeal" form and you too might be able to visit her realm. She will assume the frequencies your body and spirit operates on so will your spirit or astral body "be touched" with the energies of her frequency. It will be either scary crazy or ecstatic when it properly happens. There are more details I cannot explain because the succgen succ tribe has their own modus operandi and well... I am quite bad using their stuff without breaking half of them. Found the "organizer entity" behind this whole thing but he is like a multidimensional eye and I was trying my best to not scare him shitless once I broke several blocks that are supposed to make the "chains and weights" to make the contracts a reality as they "bridge the worlds". >If that's true, how do I "properly" establish the contract? By being a good boy and doing what she tells you to do or you awaken your magical intuition and "feel the way". You will do tantric shit and cause orgasms for each other and that will do half the trick and the next steps are formalities where you will can decide how hard or deep you want this relationship be. Dunno if you can speedrun this in a months or it will take years. Not an expert on spirit love with these kind of demonesses. My relationships are about utilizing internal and external powers of reality and the "tantric practices" are just methodologies to reach it and not the main thing. This is why they called me "hopelessly romantic" because what I consider true love is something stronger than the forces that govern reality. They cannot give that to me because I will attain that when I am "ready" anyways. >She's been doing a bang-up job of it through comforting words and relentless mockery. The latter in some ways is more effective than the former, because it has a special way of making you realize just how silly some of your anxieties and complexes really are. Yeah you will have to break out of your "mental prison" to reach her. Your energies are too subdued. >a fear that I would be devoured if I were to go out of body I mean... her energies would literally "devour you" that is how you get "touched" how you attune to her reality where you can astral travel to her dimensional spheres like how succgeners advertise their general with their memes. >Once, when she tried it, I had my childhood dog come up and drive her off with a growl. I've also seen wolves and wolfdogs waiting outside my bedroom door the one time I was very close to an AP. I wonder if I have a special affinity to wolves and dogs They are your guardian spirits. And yes you have an affinity but it's not deep enough yet. >and how I can use that to my advantage in the berserkergang. Well if you want some advice who has his own army of wolf spirits then. The most important truth is that canines are all speed and bite. Their jaw can lock and never let go until they rip apart their target. Speed is paramount. Always bite the throat of your enemy faster than he can bite you. Aggression is paramount. The stronger the enemy the more aggression you should let take over you. Let your enemies make the first mistake. Stare down contests are important. If they are weak let them run and decide if you want to pursue them. If they are on your level then understand your instincts as they try to tell you the way to fight. If the enemy is stronger then let all your primal fury overtake you. Decide if you think yourself fast enough to run or strong enough to get the killing blow first. You can only defeat stronger enemies once your instincts mapped out their first move then instantly move in a counter move. Once you get good and addicted to defeating stronger foes "ecstasy" you will have to learn to gauge your own addiction so you reach certainty and bravery and not mindless recklessness. Oh and always notice if your enemy has recklessness or the calm of a cold killer as they make their advances. They require different strategies. And never let fear paralyze you. Submission is not always a way out but an invitation for abuse. And there is a difference between making feints and mistakes. Don't try to look professional. Be fast and wild. There are no limits but you will have to break several to understand that. Not sure how deep is your berserkerang so I am not sure what advice I should tell you. Seems like the current animal that leads your psyche is the "monkey" and not the ferocious beasts of your subconscious. The deep growl of your subconscious is still subdued and not awakened to be able to "Bite". I think you should try to get acquainted with the animal spirits of your surroundings to get better insights on this matter. Wanted to say that maybe your predatory waifu can be a sparring partner but she kinda told me a "pls don't make him do that". So only do "sexy discipline" and not the true beast devours the lesser beast hyperaggression mentality or she will be unable to show you her love and might.Women I swear. Cannot understand the masculine urge of hyperviolence. Good thing I found some drow who is the best match for these kind of mad masculine energies. Never realized before how much I wanted a capable and loyal slut before fucking them. First time in my life when I felt that my raging heart is at peace for a single moment. Whenever I try to remember that feeling my whole body goes ablaze from energies. I should work with them more

Had a real nasty dream where I was throwing up feces. After waking up, I thought, was that some sort of weird attack? But vomiting is a cleansing act. Maybe that stuff was really inside my body and I was just expelling it.

Also, the first night after I began Mnemonic Induction of Lucid Dreaming (MILD), I was able to have a lucid dream. Visualizing the act of performing a reality check in response to one of your pre-set 'triggers' seems to be extremely effective. I believe that I'm approaching the culmination of my Great Work. I nearly have all the tools I need, now I just need to practice my technique.

>>1985 Could you taste the feces in the dream?

>>2005 Thinking back on it, no. It was very disgusting though.

>>2008 What have you done in your lucid dreams recently? Do you prefer MILD or WILD?

>>1985 >>2005 >>2008 Maybe it was telling you to kindly stop shit-posting ;o)

>>2029 I think he just rejected the Brown Pill

>>2028 I have only been able to get WILD to work once, over a decade ago when I was a teenager. I hear that it's a lot easier if you do it immediately after waking up but I always just fall asleep when I try this. Might try a bit more forcefully. I have been experimenting with the effects of various sigils, and I believe I know what I need to do next. My dream-self is different than my waking-self. I need to work to merge or connect the two, so that my motivations and drives can carry over between these states.

>dream I travel to a distant solar system where I interact with a blonde-haired man, kappa-like beings, aliens, and non-corporeal intelligences residing in the walls of a room, communicating through living text on those walls >come back home, where I discover a hidden CIA base underneath the waters of the ocean near my area >I enter a room where there's a stage with light blue carpet, an altar, and a real cross at its center. I get the impression that sacrifices were made here through crucifixion. >find myself on the shore, where I see four or five massive black triangles flying off into the night sky one by one >go back inside the CIA base via submarine. >soldiers in fatigues and caps running around, looking for some sort of intruder (me, perhaps?) >I go to a security checkpoint on the base, where a CIA guard catches me >cue action sequence where I grab his revolver from the holster and hold him hostage, his cronies shoot at me, and I shoot all of them dead >take their guns from their corpses, frantically reload while the whole base descends upon me >wake up soon after Fucking glowniggers got what they deserved for fucking with my dreams. I'm concerned about that base, the room and the travel to another system. Is this just a dream, or am I engaging in higher-dimensional travel? And the kappa-like beings, I know what they are and I don't know what those reptoid bastards get from such obvious disguises.

>>2054 Pyramid ships are the latest thing, everyone has them now.

Tried WILD last night after waking up. Did that palms-down position which prevents your mind from going to sleep. After a few minutes my body began vibrating violently and I was seeing intense chaotic colorful shapes in my vision. I ended up getting scared and changed my position to just go sleep normally. Looking back, the issue was that I forgot to consciously invoke my godform. Which resulted in the fear-of-death sensation from leaving my body not having anything to rebuke it. This was the same issue I had during a previous lucid projection-dream, where doing a physical solidification spell from a human standpoint just caused me to shoot back into my body and wake up. I'll try again tonight. After this I had a pretty interesting experience where I was detained by some federal agent types in a dream and they began trying to recruit me. In their interrogation they revealed some information that confirmed a certain personal suspicion I had about my magic's effect on society (can't be specified here at this point). The agent claimed he was part of the IIluminati (or PTB), but when I asked him to prove it he just had me smell him. Which was weird. He seemed disappointed when that was meaningless for me. After I got bored I broke out, and the agents either sent some flying cuttlefish creatures or turned into them to chase me. They had a lot of wards around the place which were interesting to break through. It was like cutting open a series of reality-veils and flying through them over and over. One of the cuttlefish said "Wait! Why won't you join us?" and I sad "Because you're evil.". Then it just said "Oh." and left.

Okay, I think I figured out what I have to do. The issue isn’t a matter of ‘remembering that I’m dreaming’. I’m starting to realize that in most of my dreams I’m already aware of that on a subconscious level. I certainly make ample use of lucid dream magic techniques like flight, levitation, overt magic, etc. in most of my dreams. And I’m usually able to exert my own will on the events that occur rather than blindly floating through the currents of the dream. The issue here is that the fact that I’m dreaming simply isn’t relevant or important in the context of the events that are happening. So, the solution to this is a mnemonic device. As in, a literal device enchanted to serve the mnemonic function of making my waking quest, desires, and timeline relevant somehow to the events that are occuring in the dream. The basic principal comes from an occurance I noticed, how often times after I wake up I can’t remember any dreams at all and conclude that I must not have had any, but later when I’m having a shower or something I’ll have an errant thought that just so happens to have some energetic similarities to the dream I had and suddenly all the memories of it will pop straight into my mind with vivid clarity. This should be pretty simple. I think all I need to do is take an object I carry with me most of the day, and imbue it with an informational link to the context of my waking life. Then, increase the energy and importance of that object, linking it to my astral body. This should cause the object to begin appearing in my dreams, and once I see the object I should automatically access the memories of my waking life since the meaning of the object points towards them.

>>2360 If you want a professionally made one, just ask. https://shop.creepyhollows.com/?target=search&mode=search&substring=lucid%20dream&including=all I can usually copy these pretty easily, haven't played around with lucid dreaming because I see dreams as just messages and don't really care, but enchanting objects is easy, can be good practice if you want to try a pre made one.

>>2361 Thanks but since I know now exactly what energetic function it's going to need to perform it'll probably be simpler if I just do it myself.

>>2362 I hadn't thought of it myself, went to look now what they had. I'm trying one of them with a general function. That's the downside with spells sold in a market, hard to get them fine tuned to yourself exactly, but if you are clueless it's a help.

>wake up from a somewhat therapeutic dream, with symbolism about going down the road less taken >now in a hypnopompic state >my vision is totally dark, except for a single violet-purple point at the top of my vision, where my third eye is >hear a woman's voice say, "Hey Anon, watch this." >the point pushes towards me, revealing a violet-purple face >hear a distorted electronic version of that voice ask, "Hello? Hello?" >I reply, "Hey love." >she seemed content with that and the dream ended Succubi are something else, I tell you what.

>>2684 Did you happen to feel a crackling mass of energy next to one of your ears, or otherwise nearby, right before you heard her voice?

>>2690 I have tinnitus, which grows louder when she gets closer to my body, but I didn't notice any sort of energetic crackling or at least I don't remember it happening. However, my ears physically vibrated when she spoke the last words.