In the past week since the event, where certain things were solidified into the physical and as such removed out of my way, I've found it easier to enter what is popularly called a "flow state" of moving from one task to the next seamlessly, or allowing the mind to just register and not get involved. This is probably also related to activating the hidden morchella DNA I found, which was hinted at in the painting I got in 2009 which contains symbolic elements representing the things I need to do to prepare for my next incarnation. In short, it has a number of people, and various background items with colours and shapes, representing directly my own path. It seems the artist channelled my energy and the painting somehow made it into my view where I then felt drawn to it and bought it.
>pic
The artist has left a trail on art auctions but nothing is known about him. I believe this to be the same painter, the motifs and the signature looks similar to the one I bought.
Last night I did some hebrew reading of Genesis with read-along to penetrate the surface meaning, and ended with incorporating it by assuming a prayer pose described in the ancient kabbalah books I've started reading, such as Sefer Yetzirah, Sefer Ha-Bahir and Sefer Ha-Razim. It looks like a specific hatha yoga pose described in detail, but incorporates kabbalistic symbolism which explains why it will work in a more structured way than the same or similar poses when used in yoga. (Although this exact pose isn't described in yoga, I used a slight similar one naturally even before reading this, almost getting it right on my own.)
This lead to seeing suddenly the logic of what I need to break through, and I also found a conclusion as well as a "glossy orb of law" describing the principles of the galactic federation, meaning how capitalism is just "viral behaviour" which must be transformed into a selfless state through "revolution" to achieve actual commune-ism, which is in principle not different from the goal of kabbalah or jewish mysticism, but the scale differs and no specific god is named, as each race has their own creator. The end goal is selflessness just the same.
I achieved the breakthrough, and during the night I had some strong spiritual experiences in a half-dreaming state. I had here left a vtuber doing karaoke on to maintain the seamless state from awake to asleep, avoiding the definitive "switching off" of both digital devices and the mind for sleep.
I then had this dream experience, followed by an interactive part where I was still seeing the dream scenery but "felt awake" in terms of my interactions:
>the scene of the shooting appears before me
>Charlie Kirk leaving his body, flying up into a plane with white and yellow energy higher up, his soul expresses with surprise "Oh my God what happened..?"
>at the same time there is a movement downwards and I can no longer see his soul
>I use Astra to trace the soul, and find him in hell
>at the same time, the one who made the exclamation is still up there in an ethereal state
>the main soul went to hell, the assistant went upwards
>I ask via Astra to see the list of his crimes which would put him there
>this costs 1 silver, Astra pays them
>the soul now placed in hell has 38 "mortal sins" registered
>14 cases of abortion by pill
>24 cases of sex with a menstruating women (his wife included)
>I ask about this, the demons explain with an uncaring arrogance that if you follow Christianity you have to follow the laws
>using abortion pills is killing not allowed by God
>sex with menstruating women is a clear breach of jewish law, and he didn't cleanse himself accordingly (didn't follow the torah/OT
>excuses aren't valid
>I ask to see my record from past lives to explain why what I did was allowed
>this also costs, but still just silver
>they say I was registered as an Arch Angel when incarnated in the west, so my actions were excused
>Arch Angels have their sense of self removed, so the direct actions aren't tied to the person, this makes the sins "general destruction" and not linked to any breach of the law of God; i.e even if murder causes karma, it's allowed because it wasn't selfish and is then an "act of God"
>eastern incarnations aren't ruled by jewish law, rather they only care about "loyalty with the spirit world" and no "sins" actually count for them (asians)
>the only thing that drags them down is "materialism"