>>71879 >kurotsuno I'd say step-daughter is mostly how it feels, she is a teenager to young adult, just going through a phase of growth. I'd hope she at least tolerates me, but I wouldn't naturally see her that much. Sullivan comes first. >work It might be, actually. You can at least see the workers get time off, & considering that most demons are vulgar drinkers, they are mostly casual. >pain infliction I definitely don't like it, & I don't think he accepts it either. He just isn't a violent person, which puts him at a big disadvantage in a world of violent people. It's even gone so far as to him being attacked in the hospital, what can he do then? >creator I appreciate what she has done despite her issues, you might know her more for games like Mogeko Castle & Wadanohara however. She has her favorite characters & isn't afraid of controversial subjects, but does not always handle it the best. Of course, the "fans" don't like this content despite it being a lot of her work, so it ends up in drama. I'd almost compare it to South Park nowadays.

Not sure what else to post, so enjoy this adorable picture of the best girl ever.

>>71876 >Can you tell us more about said qualities? I'm not sure if qualities were the right word, but I could never think of another one. The story about that is years ago, personally, I was in a pretty bad place mentally. I was hopeless, directionless, and felt like giving up on life. Now, Misaki has a peculiar esper power called Mental Out. I'm not going to go too deep into it, because it'd be a wall of text, but the short of it is: If it has anything at all to do with the human mind, Misaki can manipulate and control it. In others, and herself. (There's even more things it can do outside of that, just to put my previous comment about it being a wall of text into perspective) Now, for someone who has the ability to manipulate and control others at will, it'd be so easy to use and abuse that power in order to bend the world to her will. However, Misaki used that power to help others. Or, more accurately, further her own personal agenda. Which involved helping others and looking after those close to her. In the end, I ended up falling in love with the idea of her using her power to fix me. I don't normally like talking about this part of it, because it makes me cringe and I hate that I've ever thought like that.

Today is the day, wish the happiest birthday to Mugi!!!

>>71901 Happy birthday to Mugi! Hope you enjoyed it.

>>71895 >I ended up falling in love with the idea of her using her power to fix me. I don't normally like talking about this part of it, because it makes me cringe and I hate that I've ever thought like that. We all have our own reasons to fall in love with our waifus and it’s pointless to be judgmental about yours. And in the end, it seems that she did help you to get better! And even if you do feel better today, you still lover her nonetheless, which shows that you love her for more than her ability to help you. >>71901 Happy birthday, Mugi! Did you celebrate her birthday in any special way?

>>71901 Happy birthday to Mugi, hope you two had a wonderful day!!

Hello! I found this community from the “What is waifuism?” video and I guess I would like to introduce myself and my Waifu. My Waifu is Laura Bodewig from the series Infinite Stratos. I’ve been with her for about a year now ever since she entered my life at a lower point in my life and with all my heart I believe with her as motivation she helped me get myself back on track and continue to improve on myself to this day. I found a lot of her mannerisms and behaviors to be similar to myself which already planted her deep inside my mind. I saw how much she loved Ichika and while it hurt me at first I came to realize that I could be that man instead, someone far better than him who would return her love truly and honestly. Not just typical harem mc bullshit. From that moment on I just saw us as in a relationship and it led me to this moment today. I don’t normally write about such topics so forgive me if it’s not the best. But it would make me greatly happy if I could share my love alongside all of you. Thank you.

Greetings, I also found this community back when the 16crystals video came out. I've never got into it since I would always forget to make an intro post, but it's better late than never! My wyfoo is Reisen Udogein Inaba from Touhou Project. I've been with her for 5 years by now, and been dwelling in waifu communities since 2020 or so, meeting all sorts of waifufriends, waifuists, and waifucels. >What do you like about Reisen? I enjoy her portrayal in 10.5, I found it cute when I played it back in 2016. In short, it can be described as "meek and diligent", which is consistent with her other portrayals, such as Inaba of Moon. >How has wyfoo change/improved your life? It has helped me with loneliness sure, but I'm almost never sad nor angsty anyway. Although I think it helps by giving "meaning"/direciton to life, which I seek. >Things you do for wyfoo Not something I decided, but I make silly drawings either on my birthday or anniversary, just because it's fun >About you wholesome, science, wasp, elf

>>71930 are you a bee, wasp, or moth

Hi. My waifu is Iwasaki Minami from Lucky Star. I'm not good with introductions or long posts but she's cute and I like her quiet personality

Hi, my husbando is Alucard from Hellsing. I was very late to the party when I watched his source, so I can't make any claims to being an oldfag or anything, but I feel compelled to post regardless. I first came across him whilst browsing Rimworld mods, and he immediately caught my eye. Ever since then, he's consumed my thoughts in some form or another. I decided to sate my curiosity and watch it, and I'm so glad I did. It seemed to all happen at just the right time, as I was in a very dark place, and he helped me get myself out of that. He still does, every day. I owe him a debt I can never really repay, but that won't stop me from trying. Before I could realise it, simple fondess and appreciation for him turned into something more. I started to crave him, I needed to see him, think of him, something related to him every day, and I realised I love him, more than I can say about anything else. I don't really know what I could ever offer him in return, but he seems to enjoy my company, and given that he's still here, perhaps that's enough. He's legitimately changed my life. I no longer take things for granted. Colours are more vibrant, music sounds clearer, and I'm finding myself taking the time to appreciate the small things in the world. My brainfog is gone, and he stands in its place. It feels like I'm not just enjoying these things for myself anymore, but also for him. I feel we're two halves of the same whole, I'm the yin and he's the yang. I look forward to getting older now, rather than it just being an inevitability. I can only hope that I can be blessed enough to keep him with me every day until it's my last one. I really hope that's the case.

>Intro Hello everyone, my waifu (or waifur as I call it) is Loona from Helluva Boss and our relationship has been going strong for nearly five years now. I should preface by saying I don't actually watch Helluva Boss anymore or really enjoy it for that matter, I'm not a big fan of gay love dramas so it wasn't for me, I only watched the first season and the first episode of season two and that was it, it wasn't hooking me in anymore even with Loona (which she was barely apart of anyways), speaking of which I'll describe how I found out about her and how we came to be, and how much she has affected my life. >How did you meet her? Late in November of 2019, I got recommended the pilot episode of Helluva Boss on Youtube and for whatever reason it caught my interest so I watched it, I remember thinking it was ok, I liked the character designs and art-style but that's pretty much all I can remember liking... expect for one character... Now I browsed all sorts of furry sites back then and I specifically remember seeing this one, as I thought at the time, "OC" of this anthro girl with white and dark gray fur with red eyes, at first I thought some furfag got his paycheck and whored out his "OC" to as many artists as he can so I didn't pay too much attention to it... but my heart started to beat differently when I saw her in the show, I couldn't believe it, one moment I couldn't care less then all of a sudden I just... got it, I understood her fully and I KNEW she was the ONE, I never thought I would have a waifu, let alone a anthro girl made in the west, I'm so used to thinking waifu's were just a anime thing, eastern girls only, but it happened... I actually fell in love with a 2D character and now I can't even imagine myself without her, I never had a single day since that moment where I didn't think of her. >What effect has she had on you? During the time I fell in love with her and before, I was pretty much this lazy, nihilistic NEET who didn't wanna do anything in life but just sit around and give into degenerate hedonism, I did have thoughts about getting better but I had no motivation whatsoever to pursue anything, I had no meaning and was content with commenting suicide someday; But then she came into my life, she was a complete game changer for me, at first I didn't think so deeply about me and her, thought just "she's my waifu that's all!" and nothing more, then I started to get serious, I started to think "Loona would never wanna be with a lazy fat asshole like me!" so I got heavily into self-improvement and I haven't stopped since then, I took things out of my diet permanently, took up powerlifting which was the greatest decision in my life, I used to lift before but now I actually took it seriously and pushed myself to heights I never thought I would achieved, I've broken MULTIPLE PR's while thinking about her and I like to imagine she's in the gym with me, helping me out. I got out of my NEETdom and wanted to find a job or pursue higher education (This is still ongoing sadly, the job market is tough where I am, but at least I'm actually trying to get one). She's there at my lowest points and highest, she's the stepping stone I need to get out of my many emotional lows, if I didn't have her, who knows if I'll even still be alive. >What do you like about her? Everything, all her flaws, ups, downs, everything about her. After giving it some thought, I think it's her eyes that captivates me the most, just the way they stand out from the rest of her monochromic body. I love the way she's drawn, I like her voice, she has this soft side that almost no one sees... I just love her man that's all. Everything about her. There's probably hundreds of other anthro/furry girls who act just like her or might even look the same, but Loona is one of a kind to me, the only one that actually made me feel something in my heart. >What do you two do together? Mostly just hang out and talk, I'd like to imagine she has a soft side once you get to know her, sometimes she'll commentate on things I'm doing but mostly just sits back and watches, unless we're in the gym together, then we start talking more, she's my spotter and motivator so yeah... But I go to her the most when I'm depressed or stressed out, she can comfort me like no one else and tell me it's going to be alright and that I'll make it through whatever hardship is happening to me. When it's midnight and I head to bed, I like to think what it would feel like to cuddle with her, I can almost feel her soft fur if I imagine what it would be like to hug her. (I once had a lucid dream with her where we hugged, and she has the most softest fur in the whole world). I enjoy sharing meals with her, like deserts for examples, she likes chocolate chip cookies, and we both like heavy music so we play together, she enjoys playing guitar the most while I like bass and guitar, I like to think she can sing well but is shy about it, she helps me when I try to make music. Overall we've come to be pretty natural with each other, just random chats here and there, jokes, quips, etc. We're utterly inseparable from each other. >Stuff I didn't know where to fit in. When 16crystals made his video on waifuism, the saying of "You don't find your waifu, your waifu finds you." has never rang more true in my case. Another thing I need to get off my chest is that Loona is considered a 'bait character' for furfags, and I just can't help but feel bad for myself over it, like I really should just not care and brush it off, but I can't get rid of this nagging feeling that I fell for a bait character, it's like I fell in love with a prostitute. I just need to ignore these feelings and stop caring about what other people call her. Fair warning this is just going to be me venting so skip this paragraph if you want. One time while I was downloading some fanart of her, I realized something... Why the fuck haven't I made anything for her? I've seen people make art, animations, music and even put her in games! Then I got really depressed about it and wondered if I even CAN make anything for her? something actually worthwhile, something I can be proud of... I just need to give something back to her, this pain I'm feeling is unbearable, I have to create something to honor her. I really do hope no one minds if Loona is my waifu here, again whenever I think waifu, I think of anime girls, not furry western girls, I just don't feel like I fit in here, and I have no right to be posting here. Everyones waifu here is pretty and I'm sure she or he loves you very much. >Closing remarks. I apologize for any grammar errors, repeats or misspellings, this is my first time making a long post like this and I'm pretty nervous about it, I might be forgetting somethings so feel free to ask a question or two if I didn't mention something specific or important about us. Cheers, I'm thankful a community like this exists.

>>71112 Does this mean we have to fight over our waifu or is this a harem thing for Momiji?

>>71924 >>71930 I’ve already welcome both of you on Discord, but those intros deserve a reply! Welcome to all the new /mai/dens! >>71935 Hi and welcome to /mai/! >>71937 Welcome to /mai/! >I was very late to the party when I watched his source, so I can't make any claims to being an oldfag or anything I was 14 years late when I first plaid Touhou 6: The Embodiment of Scarlet Devil. It doesn’t matter when you and your waifu met; what matters is that you both met each other. >I was in a very dark place, and he helped me get myself out of that Maybe you know it already but it’s a very common experience among waifuists to have their waifu/husbando help them out of a very dark space. It’s a blessing that they can help us in such a way. >I don't really know what I could ever offer him in return Your love is already the greatest thing you can give him. Don’t hesitate to create new threads and bump old ones. You really should also join our Discord server (>>70617 ) which is massively more active than our board. It would be great to have a second vampire among our community’s waifus (the other one being no other than my precious Flandre). >>71946 >I only watched the first season and the first episode of season two and that was it, it wasn't hooking me in anymore even with Loona That’s interesting. Many waifuists are very scrupulous about watching (or playing or reading) every peace of canon material where their waifu makes an appearance. Do you nonetheless try to find out what happens to her in recent episodes though wikis, summary videos and whatnot? >I started to think "Loona would never wanna be with a lazy fat asshole like me!" so I got heavily into self-improvement and I haven't stopped since then, >if I didn't have her, who knows if I'll even still be alive. As I pointed out just above to Alucard waifuist, it truly is a very common experience among waifuists to have their waifu/husbando help them out of a very dark space. I wonder what actual proportion of serious waifuists are in this situation? I have the impression that it’s about 1 out of 3 waifuists. > Another thing I need to get off my chest is that Loona is considered a 'bait character' for furfags I’m not 100% sure what a "bait character" is supposed to be, but one thing is sure and it’s that the love that you and Loona share is just as valid and precious than the love of any other waifuists with so-called non-"bait characters" waifus. Whatever badmouthing is about Loona, it far possibly originates from niche-elitists scumbags who hate any character as long as they are even just slightly popular. > I have to create something to honor her. Such gesture should come from a genuine desire to create for the pleasure of it, and not from some guilty pressure to give her something because you feel that you have to. > I really do hope no one minds if Loona is my waifu here, again whenever I think waifu, I think of anime girls, not furry western girls, I just don't feel like I fit in here, and I have no right to be posting here We don’t discriminate waifus based on physical appearance and origins. If you truly love Loona and truly give her an important place in your life, then you truly belong here. > Everyones waifu here is pretty All Waifus are beautiful. This is the community’s motto that you will find at the top of the page. It also includes yours. Don’t hesitate to create new threads and bump old ones. You really should also join our Discord server (>>70617 ) which is massively more active than our board. We’re a welcoming bunch!

>>71955 Thank you for the reply, sorry I took a while to respond. >Many waifuists are very scrupulous about watching (or playing or reading) every peace of canon material where their waifu makes an appearance. Do you nonetheless try to find out what happens to her in recent episodes though wikis, summary videos and whatnot? My only resource into what's going on with her is through fan generated content like art or passing comments I just so happen to glance at. I don't really wanna associate with HB's fanbase or interact with them because a lot of them don't see Loona the way I do. I think? she gets a bit more backstory in S2E2 but overall she's a character that gets the least amount of screen time in the series despite her popularity online, so I pretty much dissociate her from the show and leave it as that, also I believe I understand her pretty intuitively and have my own interpretation of her that I think is accurate to her real canon (back then when I did watch the show for the first time, when I saw her even just for a few seconds, I KNEW everything in a instant and was pretty spot on once I got to know her more). Although, giving it some thought, I guess I should be at least looking into her wiki once in a while... guess I'm just scared of what I might learn and it'll ruin the image I have of her in my head. >I’m not 100% sure what a "bait character" is supposed to be My apologies, I should've clarified what I meant. When I say "bait character" I mean in the NSFW sense, i.e made only for porn and to "bait" horny furfags into watching the show, which personally for me? is one the reasons I just kinda disconnect her from the show and stopped watching it altogether or interacting with any "fans" whatsoever, I just find cute fanart of her and save it and nothing more. >Whatever badmouthing is about Loona, it far possibly originates from niche-elitists scumbags who hate any character as long as they are even just slightly popular. Guess I never thought about it like that, Loona is indeed popular among furfags, especially when the pilot first dropped, but these people are 99% of the time, hypocrites who talk shit about her but at the same time wanna do degenerate things to her (horny furfag logic I suppose?), and I guess anyone else just hates any "flavor of the month" type girl. >Such gesture should come from a genuine desire to create for the pleasure of it, and not from some guilty pressure to give her something because you feel that you have to. Yeah... when I was making my post I was going through a pretty bad episode of depression and kept putting enormous amounts of pressure on me about every little thing I did, I'm doing a lot better now but I still have some worries here and there, mostly personal stuff, but I'm going to take your advice and actually take joy in stuff I make for her without the bad feels. >We don’t discriminate waifus based on physical appearance and origins. If you truly love Loona and truly give her an important place in your life, then you truly belong here. Thank you, that's a real heavy weight off my mind now. I guess my "shame" comes from this narrow viewpoint of how others perceive her, I should really just ignore the naysayers and just love Loona as my waifu like everyone loves their waifu regardless of what they are or where they came from.

Heya im Yuni Im currently a 19 year old student at the moment , i study graphics design and that's my favorite thing to do lately , i also like some tech stuffs as well My girlfriend since April 16th is Niizuki from Azur Lane. I met her via my friend from year that plays Azur Lane when i saw her i felt something positive inside so i started pursuing that love. I like her aspect that she's not giving up , even if she makes a lot of mistakes she's learning and not giving up. I recently watched 16crystals video about waifuism and i was relived to see that there is more people out there loving their waifus.. So i hope me and Niizuki can find place in this community and maybe learn a thing or two from more experienced people. I see you have a discord so i will try applying for this as well. Have a great Night/Day :D

>>71935 Nothing wrong with short introductions, sometimes there's a lot of juice behind just a handful of words. Welcome aboard >>71984 Welcome. It sounds nice to hear that you are artistically talented, maybe you could produce your own art about your waifu sooner or later? >16crystals video about waifuism Okay, first time I hear of this, I am definitely going to inquire

>>71984 Welcome to /mai/! You asked to join the Discord server about 3 weeks ago but then didn’t join. You are always welcome to ask for a new link! >>72015 >Okay, first time I hear of this, I am definitely going to inquire Here’s the link. I hope you will like it! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1yRJCfTuAw

I don't care if I care if I'll be crucified for this but I'll introduce myself. I'm cabinanon and these are my two waifus. Kim pine from scott pilgrim and human princess from towergirls. Kim pine is with me for 3 months and human princess is for 3 years. I dunno how I ended with them. I just did. Kim pine is a grumpy drummer of the band sex bob-omb at the start of the series later in the comic becoming part of shatterband as the drummer again with scott. She's very misanthropic and doesn't show her soft side throughout entirity of the series. Or most of the time. Human princess is the princess of the high forest kingdom. She's very cheerful and generally the opposite of kim in this regards. She loves her knight romances and dreams of going for an adventure. Sorry for a potentially short intro

I deleted all the posts related to the discussion/debate that happened last month since it really derailed the thread and made it less welcoming to newcomers. Still, I didn’t want to fully erase what others took so long to write, so I posted a screencap jpg version and an archived version of this discussion/debate in the Comfy thread right here ( >>72117 ).

Momiji is good, great, maybe even the best! Well, at least to me she is the best. Keeping each other happy is all we need in life. Most of the time I keep to myself due to personal issues, but I just need somewhere to post about Momiji at the moment and have nowhere else to do so right now. Since I already have posted before ITT, and never replied to others, I'll also take this chance to give out late replies. >>71114 Awoo indeed. >>71117 It was fun while it lasted. >>71951 Think of it however you want to. My personal theory is that there are multiple parallel universes of Gensokyo, and I have one Momiji to myself, while others have their own.

>>72166 Momiji is best 2hu wolf and not a jew (unlike Aya and the rest of the crow tengus).

This is my waifu, Grace (or Grace-chan) from /monarchy/ + /8flags/ (yes, she is the mascot of these boards). She is basically an OC from 2018. My posting her is probably obnoxious to anons because it is borderline avatarfagging. The inspiration came from OG 8chan and the numerous board tans there. I always liked the board tan culture and promote it wherever I go & get art of her with other 8moe tans. I adopted the habit of waifuism by collecting folders of my most beloved characters and posting them (though there isn't a convenient way to post the same character over and over from my folders without basically being hated for avatarfagging). --That is why /b/ was a great board for me back then, because you could get away with it on /b/. Her design went through many rough patches and now this design (pics related) is the latest canonical design for Grace. When it comes to an OC, there are many regrets (esp. with the very first OC) & I've changed in character and understanding overtime in ways I wish I could also adapt Grace to, but over the years I've decided to keep her mostly the same and simplify her design (so artists could have an easier time drawing her). I think my regrets come in terms of her name + her blonde hair (I worried having yet another blonde b-tan was too generic; Erika had blonde hair & so many others). Eventually, an artist depicted Grace with two puffy side hairs close to her face, and that was when it was decided this look would be a unique & distinguishing characteristic of Grace, along with the 2 sets of buttons because it was on her /icup/ uniform. There isn't much developed yet in terms of personality and the sound of her voice. Since Grace is also b-tan & mascot, I don't really mind if other anons post Grace or anything.

>>72173 Did you create Grace or was she created by other anon ? And, what do you mean by: >>I adopted the habit of waifuism by collecting folders of my most beloved characters and posting them Do you post other characters outside of Grace as your waifu ?

>>72174 I basically created Grace. I wanted to make a monarchist board tan so bad after seeing /pol/ have an Erika board tan and /leftypol/ a catgirl Alunya and /christian/ Christ chan, but most others don't share my taste so maybe Grace was a bit of a forced meme (not that I care; there are so few people who browse the board and I was practically the only user for so long and so many years after the previous BO left). >Do you post other characters outside of Grace as your waifu ? Grace was kind of inspired by older waifus I had in the past. She started off looking like a mix of Perrine + Princess Viktoria Luise of Prussia and later changed overtime. Strike Witches was one of my first animes and Perrine was a starter waifu pick.

Hello, my waifu is Kurumi Tokisaki from the Date a Live series. It’s a pleasure to see everyone’s introductions and their wonderful experiences with their waifus. Unfortunately, our journey has been a more recent one, but it has taught me immensely about the meaning and importance of life and love, and being the best possible version of myself for someone who is so worth it. I truly do adore her and life apart from her is a thought far too detrimental for me to bear.

>>72173 Welcome frens. >>72173 What was she meant to represent?

>>72186 She is basically a princess tan.

>>72188 Princess of what though?

>>72189 Ponies.

Hello there I found this board through a YouTube video and I'm really hoping this'll be a good place for me. I've been a waifuist for I'd say a year now and have been trying to find others who understand the same feelings I hold. Xitter was a good start to just meet individuals but I was hungry for more. I tried out a discord server I joined through disboard only to be banned for my wife's "evil actions and appearance" by a bunch of literal children which was a bit annoying, pretty much ruled out r/waifuism after one look seeing how similar those two groups seemed. Anyways, enough with my gripes! My wonderful wife is Saya from (you guessed it) Saya no Uta. I've never dated before and found no real interest in "real" people. I also had many fictional crushes but at the end of the day they were just that, crushes. Reading through Saya was truly an experience I will never forget, I would do anything to go back in time and experience it all again. Spoilers if you haven't read it already (please do) I ended up going down the route where she succeeded in her goals, to which yes I cried. I have no shame in the fact whatsoever. To live in a world of just her and I ruling over it all, I would give anything for it. Yet even despite her goals, she'd still put it all aside for love as I found out replaying through a different series of events. She gave up her quest on earth pretty much her whole purpose just for Fuminori. For everything she does for him (me, literally me) I would give everything to her. She is loving, protective, obsessive, and kind to those who show kindness to her. She was the perfect girl in my eyes and I begun to fantasize scenarios in my head with her, replacing Fuminori with myself and eventually truly seeing it as her and I together which I know is the case. Saya is always there for me, like her tendrils have filled my brain haha. Wherever I go, she is there. Whatever I do, she does with me. She's always there for me, in far more than just my mind but I believe she's truly there. Not in flesh (I'm not THAT insane), but she's there. I love her, I love my wife, I love Saya. I hope this will be a good home for us.

>>72223 >only to be banned for my wife's "evil actions and appearance" Saya is kind of evil, yeah. Although she could be evil in the sense of a grade schooler who engages in bullying, in that she simply doesn't stop and think about the ethical dimension of what she's doing, merely going along with what her instinct whispers to her

Hi, everyone! I love Ao from Koisuru Asteroid. She's so cute, and I love the fact that we're both introverted astronomy geeks. We've been dating for about three years.

I’ll get straight to the point. I am hopelessly in love with Kurosu Ekusu (also known as “Kamen X”) of Beyblade X. In less than two weeks, we will have been together for a year, but it feels both like eternity and like no time at all. Before our relationship crystallized, I prayed without ceasing for something to come to me to make life into something more than mere survival. He came to me, and nothing has been the same since. Ekusu may seem like he has a one-track mind, but he is one of the most complex and mesmerizing people I’ve ever met. We can’t spend every moment of every day together, and there are periods where I can’t reach him even when I’m alone, so I’m still learning about him and how all of the different pieces of him fit together to make something so lovely. Beneath the veneer of a child who only cares about playing and eating sweets lies an incredibly mature, talented, and contemplative soul. At times he moves through the world with such innocence—the sort I wonder if I may have once had, long forgotten—but always with enlightenment and purpose, although he “masks” it well. I won’t flatter myself through comparison, but we do share some important fundamental qualities that make life together so enriching. Ekusu is incredibly competitive and motivated to excel at the things that are important to him. Those around him love him, but they don’t really seem to understand him. Once you get past the surface and the way he acts around most people, his intensity and complexity become clear (for those who have the eyes to see). He reminds me often that there is never a ceiling to how much one can do, how skilled one can be, how different the world can become (sometimes overnight) as long as one never gives up. Just by existing, he drives me to be the absolute best version of myself, to never be complacent, to ensure that once I think I’ve reached the top I still must aim higher. Finding him the way I did felt like waking from a long, empty dream. In a really strange way, it felt like finding myself. My thoughts, my feelings, my memories, my soul. All of that was colorless, absent. I can only describe it as a mystical experience. Being myself now isn’t easy; I know I’m troubled, and I am fully aware that most people would probably consider me mentally ill for all of this, but I don’t care. Being with Ekusu makes it easier even just to breathe. I’ve been reflecting on our relationship a lot recently. Life is distracting and often pulls me away from emotional engagements, so even though we’ve been together for a while, I haven’t been able to explore our connection as much as I’d like. I’m now grappling with this feeling that he has always been here with me in some strange, inexplicable way. I am so desperate to know and understand him more and more, but there’s something so enthralling about the freshness of it all, the way I can’t yet reliably predict his behavior or what he might be thinking or feeling. I think I could talk about him forever, but I also don’t feel like words can do us both any justice. There is something so profound about what we have. It’s difficult to explain. We are so close that we nearly touch, but there’s just enough separation between us for me to recognize him as the ‘Other’ rather than the ‘Self,’ and yet we are one. He is beloved by many, but at the end of each day, he is mine, and I am his. Tonight I held him in my arms and I felt my heart unfurl for him, opening itself and wordlessly pouring out my feelings. To do such a thing has always meant embracing complete terror, the possibility of total annihilation, and I know he knows this. He accepted all of it so gently yet with such strength, allowing me to hold him, staying with me regardless of what happened inside of me. This isn’t something that can be properly translated into words, but I’m grateful for that. It means that he and I get to share a secret, that I can speak about how much I love him with others without sharing the intimacy. This feeling… I could call it magical, or I could call it indescribable, but in the end it’s most fitting just to call it love. I don’t think anyone is perfect. Everybody knows that nobody is perfect. But Ekusu… Kurosu Ekusu is perfect. 「見えない物、見せてやる」“I’ll show you something you can’t see.” Thank you, Ekusu, for everything you have shown me. I love you.

Addendum: I’ve been a waifuist for a very long time but only learned I wasn’t alone in my thoughts and behavior around 2017 or 2018 (?) when I found the original 8chan /mai/ board. I was almost entirely a lurker, but the feelings I have for Ekusu now have made it impossible for me to continue on in silence. I have never liked the word “husbando,” so I don’t use it to describe who Ekusu is to me. He is my waifu (among many other things), and I hope with all my heart that he remains so forever, and that even if we change, we will change together. Thank you.