The taste of the pills is horrid, doesn't wash out easy, and immediately tricks me into thinking I'm queasy long before the pills could have had any effect. Tried wrapping them in a small amount of whole grain bread. They went down easy and flavorless.
Despite stepping back the dosage to an amount I've taken without issue twice before, I again had moderate cramps most of the way through. The first hour and a half of the experience was just coping with the pain, and I mostly saw hellish things to go along with the pain. I imagined a hand inside my stomach, grabbing and twisting and fisting and pulling my insides with every cramp.
I got used to pain and made a friend in the dark. Something with no body, but lots of eyes and lots of teeth. When I tried to imagine a thing to fuck, it would inhabit the body. When I asked what it liked sexually, it responded by showing me dragons being melted by acid until only their bones remained. I indulged it and turned my thoughts towards various dragons I knew of so it could witness them being melted alive. Toothless (How to Train Your Dragon), Shinryu (Final Fantasy), that WoW dragon, various more generic dragons, my own vision of Jormungandr the world serpent. I made the thing in the dark compromise with me and I fucked dragon girls after that.
Regularly I'd feel the cramps pick up again and my visions would turn once again to hellscapery and body horror. Bleeding eyeballs and skin being stitched together and scissors treating someone's face as if it was made of paper. Gross stuff. I'm not too fond of pain. Will step the dosage back again, next time. What mistake did I make that I didn't make the last two times with this dosage? Could the bread have made that much of a difference? Why can't I trip balls in peace?